All you see, hear, and feel during meditation are the thrashings of the mind as it begrudgingly melts into Stillness.
Meditation is the difference between knowing truth and being truth.
It is the key to remembering and experiencing what you really are: endless, boundless divinity.
Your fear of stillness is not unique to you, nor is your fear of infinity. Everyone possesses this fear to a degree. It is the ego’s fear of dissolution and abandonment.
The ego is identification. The ego is the part of you that wants to know itself, to rid itself of some things and gain other things, and finally to change the world to mirror itself.
The ego in its most simple form is the image that you have of yourself and how that shapes the image that you have of the world. The ego is made of judgements, opinions, insights, and perceptions. It defends these things as much as possible and is very concerned with being ‘right’.
Abandoning the ego means no longer being so certain about anything but at the same time losing no confidence. A yogi’s confidence comes from being sincere in the moment and connecting with emptiness rather than asserting any part of his or her world.
Therefore, the aim of the path is not to change the way all of this is but rather to awaken to your existence as it is beyond perception. It is what you ARE, what is doing the perceiving, rather than the perceptions themselves. It is the Realest.