im sorry that im like this and that its pretty much all ive been able to talk about when ive been able to talk at all for the past god knows how many weeks or months but im really depressed and its gotten worse and its alienating the few people i have in my life and making me act out in impulsive and stupid ass ways and making me unable to eat or shower or do my schoolwork or actually TELL anyone about it other than jokingly or through these goddamn text posts and its like im being swallowed whole again and im so exhausted