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fallout fandom waiting for the announcement like

im actually close to tears right now with the news of tumblr’s new blocking system

because it lessens my anxiety and it’ll make people that im scared of on tumblr unable to see my blog or my posts

like i can actually feel somewhat more safe now and i feel so much better about everything oh my god i’ll be totally invisible to people who don’t like me

so I had to write a poem for school and...

The Fault in our Stars

This poem was inspired by John Green’s book The Fault in our Stars and Troye Sivan’s song “The Fault in our Stars”.

“Sometimes you read a book and it fills you with this weird evangelical zeal, and you become convinced that the shattered world will never be put back together unless and until all living humans read the book.” – John Green

I cannot fathom my thoughts,

They are a pain that demands to be felt.

If infinities are infinite,

Then how are some bigger than others?

Heartbreak is a privilege if it’s by you, Hazel Grace,

Grief does not change you, but reveals who you are.

Without pain, we would not know joy,

But this pain is worse than ever before.

You die in the middle of your life,

The sentence that was never finished.

Life is a metaphor,

The killing thing is always between our teeth.

Whether this killing thing does the killing

Is unknown until the end

You get to choose if you get hurt,

By this killing thing, in this world.

I am grateful for our infinity, Hazel Grace,

It was small, but the world doesn’t always grant our wishes.

The fault is not in our stars, but in ourselves,

And to that, I say,

“Okay.”

excuse my crappy art

I just wanted to make a quick doodle of the seriously amazing flapflaps aka mortem3r!

If you ever see this suzy, just know you’re a huge inspiration to me! If I ever have a bad day, I just turn on one of your videos and it cheers me up so much! Thank you so much for what you do and keep being amazing! 

and seriously if you haven’t checked out her channel morem3r or kittykatgaming you totally should! <3

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Hi guys ^_^ happy fabioh!

This is my first fabioh as I’m always too scared to participate because you guys are all awesome and yeah.

However I am going to do this!

My name is Caitlin I am 15 living in Sydney, Australia. I’ve grown up here and I love except for how expensive everything is and it’s so isolated from literally everywhere else in the world. I don’t have a flag, well, I probably do somewhere in my shed and I didn’t even bother turning the light on for the photos because my school ended today and I’m in bed so there was no way I was looking ^_^

I like many things, Yu-gi-oh being one. I’ve loved it since I was 4 and even then I was obsessed, it died down at age 9 but last year I watched abridged for the first time and i once again spiraled into madness.

I am watching so many shows at the moment, I just keep starting new ones (black butler is one if you guessed from the poster!) I play netball, i like drawing, sewing and reading. When I finish school I would like to travel and do an International Studies course then become a translator and subtitle person and after that a school/uni counselor or something else I’m not sure.

I’m not sure if that was an okay fabioh?

Actually love the yugioh fandom I see you as family even though I don’t speak too much ✧・゚: *✧・゚:* \(◕‿◕✿)/ *:・゚✧*:・゚✧

I’m so proud of myself :’)))
I’ve been working on my cognitive behavior (the way you think and the feelings/emotions you get from those thoughts) but today me and my psychologist finally started trying new foods
I have NEVER in my life eaten more than a tiny bite of vegetables. today I ate an entire plate, without gagging, throwing up, crying (this happens automatically because I’m ultra sensitive to taste, texture, smell, vision and sound.. when I eat something new I get a sharp pain in my throat (like tonsil area?) and it brings tears to my eyes without me wanting it),…
this is literally the imoment I have been waiting for my entire life and I’m so happy :’))))))))))