im really really sorry

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I know, I know..I didnt have a story last year and this year I dont either. I dont..really have an excuse other than just being ill prepared. Even for a lack of a proper story, I am doing my best to try and to answer as many questions as I can, even trying to tell some shorter stories. Goodness how time is flying by.

Also while I’m here and talking and pretending I’m not that gross vapor-like necrotic energy that sometimes coalesces in a morgue’s septic tank – sorry for the lack of just about everything lately. The time I’ve had to draw is now currently being used on commissions, or left dormant. And I have little time to dedicate to write things. And even if I did, I’ve taken a lot to feeling gross and staring at blank document pages instead of actually writing words. I’d really hoped I could finish CR before slumping out of existence again but apparently that’s not the case. I’m sorry to everyone who’s waiting on me.

On the bright side! At least the slump didn’t start on like, a cliffhanger or something. There’s that at least.

I’ve got no idea when I’ll have time or gumption again, but knowing me, it will come back eventually.

just a psa that I fkn love willow ( @sugarcoatedlu ) with my whole goddamn heart she really just made me want to cry jgkflfk but also I love everyone idc if we’re mutuals, we’re friends, we’re in a Network together or you’re an anon that messages me -or just anyone who is reading this- I really fkn love you all with my entire heart and argh I’m so emotional today but everyone is loved by me and I hope you’re all having a beautiful day and ur smiling wide and the universe is treating you kindly bc you all deserve nothing but the best I love u so so sm thank u to everyone for existing and I hope the rest of ur day is full of laughter and great vibes and idk just good things xxx

anonymous asked:

wow ur such a fake writer. why claim that ur writing when we all know ur not

Yes, of course. Because working on 10 different fics simultaneously, makes me a fake writer. And, y’know there have been a lot of rude asks like this in my inbox so I’m about to go off on a little tangent for a second.

I have been writing. I have been trying to write so damn much, but I don’t normally have the time. Because, despite the fact that I can’t walk, I have other things that I need to do. Not just writing. I have a life. I have school. I have marching band 5 days a week for at least 3 hours each day. I have other commitments, not just writing. Even though I wish I could write all day, I can’t.

And yes, it’s been a long time since I’ve put a fic out but that’s because, a) I have had the time because my life is an utter shit storm right now, and b) I’m working on at least 10 different fics at one time. And at least one of those fics has three different endings that I can’t choose between, so I’m writing all of them.

So, I greatly apologize that I haven’t been able to write a lot, but coming into my inbox to be rude and to call me a “fake writer,” isn’t going to suddenly motivate me to write. If anything, its just going to slow me down more because that hurts like hell.

So thank you very much anon, I’m trying my best while my entire life actually crashes down around me

hey yall. i just realized something.

this is probably gonna be long but whatever. stick with me.

soooo im currently rereading the original pjo series. and i am feeling. so many. things. i realized a lot of things too.

okayyy so in PJO, we view percy as reckless. stupid. always acting on impulse. basically that dumb guy that never thinks befire doing things. BUT in HOO, we start viewing him as mature and smart and strategic and all that. But he didnt grow THAT much. Percy didnt age that much in hoo.

Remember that iconic scene (Mark of Athena, i think?) where they meet some kind of monster/bad ppl (im too lazy to search it up) aboard the argo II and it was percy that thought of saying that Dionysus was with them? Percy knew about their fear of dionysus, and how he turned them inti dolphins. So he got some diet coke as “proof” that he was there and asked frank to turn into a dolphin. Genius, right?

Annabeth called him smart after that.

That was the only time we considered him smart. (Well not ONLY, just one of the few times.) But guess what? He’s been doing smart shit like that for years already.

I cant really mention all of the times he did something smart/wise. If i did it would take me days before i finish typing.

So i realized why we only thought he was smart in hoo but not in pjo.

In PJO, it was in first person, so we saw everything through the eyes of percy. In this series, he only focused about how stupid he was, about how great other people were and how better they are then him. But he doesnt focus about all the good/smart/wise things he’s done. Percy doesnt know that he’s smart. All he knows is that he is stupid, worthless, and all other negative things.

in HOO, however, we were reading from another person’s point of view. We saw percy from another person’s eyes. We noticed things that he doesnt notice himself.

Hazel called him a god, once, because he was just THAT attractive. Everyone else looked up to him, and thinks he’s the most powerful/strongest person to exist.

But Percy doesnt know that. All he knows is that he’s stupid.

SOOOO, long story short, Percy hates himself.

Ok bye sorry if this was long I just love Percy so much and i a m f e e l i n g s o m U C h

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the fnaf 1 crew is back with some extraordinary halloween costumes that were most requested by fans! and sorry not posting much, I’m very busy and these took forever to draw :/ but other than that, happy spooky month!