I’m more than furious. I’m pissed the fuck off. The reboot was bad enough, but now I just found out that they stole the idea for their reboot from a small LATINA writer who’s working on a show called Brujas (which will be an all poc production team and cast). Fuck you CW. Fuck you Jennie Urman. Fuck you and your fake ass diversity.
I need to get this off of my chest because it’s been bugging me since yesterday and I cried myself to sleep last night over it and I woke up this morning still upset over it. I was venting on another blog about the possibility of me not being able to see BTS next month because I don’t have the rest of the money I need, but I’m doing commissions to write things for people and make moodboards for them on top of that, I have a nsfw blog where I’m selling stuff on there as well, and an anon had the nerve to ask as to why I can’t get a job and that I just can’t expect things to just fall in my hands. Well it’s not that easy for me to get a job and I feel like a broken record, but here’s why.
I have a disability. Not only do I have to deal with a foot condition that I was born with, but I have to deal with a knee that my dumbass messed up when I was 15 after hitting it on the metal frame of my sister’s bed. While those things didn’t stop me from dancing, I need to be cautious and if my knee hurts, I wear a brace. I have to wear insoles with metal in them to help me correct my feet and to make walking more comfy for me. Plus I have depression and anxiety and I also have a bad memory. These things along with me not being qualified enough, makes it hard to find a job.
I’m not saying this for sympathy, I’m saying this because it upset me that a stranger judged me for something that I can’t control in a sense. I want to work so badly and I wish I didn’t have to deal with these things, but I have to deal with the cards that life gave me. I want to be a makeup artist and I’m trying to go to beauty school so my dreams can come true, on top of trying to get away from my controlling, abusive father so cut me some slack and don’t judge me for finding ways to make money.
swift: Oh you like calling me a snake well yeah guess what i am one and my new album is called reputation because all you people do is bash my reputation and now im dark and grungey instead of your happy pop star. all your fake stories is hurtful and saddening