im still searching for you in my memories

larsstindl  asked:

I'VE ALWAYS WONDERED IF YOU'RE A SIDEMEN FAN BECAUSE OF YOUR URL BUT YOU NEVER POST ABOUT THEM HAHAHAHAHA

hey i used to!!! about a year ago or so i was ya local sidemen blog arouunnd like search miniminter or sidemen in my tags and you’ll find those sweet sweet memories
i dont post about them anymore but im still so hooked like simon’s started playing michonne and i live for this shit

day 164

wow its been 164 days and 13 days from now it will be your birthday. youre supposed to be 19 you know and im sure we’re supposed to go out and have some fun during your birthday. first i’d call you at 12 am and greet you then we’ll meet and go out and just hang out and even the silence will be enough.

due to my really poor memory i had to search your birthday up again and while doing so, i saw all the messages we exchanged and your photos when you were still alive and i started crying again. i cant really stop and i dont know why. maybe its because i miss you so much and i know that if you were still here, everything would be so much better

i still love you and i wont forget you.. ever