im still conflicted over whether to say i liked this or not

about shiro not backing keith’s story in bom: i think there’s other factors that a lot of people overlook. namely, the fact that shiro’s response isn’t just him reacting to an isolated incident–its him finally putting together the pieces after a long time of dealing with constant doubt and concern. because he knows something’s up with keith. in season 2, he’s the only one that does. on two separate occasions, he takes keith aside and tries to talk to him, to ask him what’s wrong, to try and get him to open up. and every time keith shuts him out? you can see the fear on shiro’s face, can see that he feels like they’re slowly drifting apart and he’s losing keith

these two strike me as friends who probably used to tell each other everything. so the fact that keith is refusing to talk now, that he’s forcing this distance between them? shiro doesn’t know what to think. and when he sees keith has this alien knife and is maybe part galra? maybe isn’t even from earth at all? shiro is very quickly finding out that this person he’s very close to, someone who he thought he knew everything about, is quite literally becoming alien. his best friend is suddenly a stranger, and he’s questioning whether he ever even knew him at all  

looking at shiro’s face here, he looks just as panicked as keith. despite how good he is at improvising and acting, he doesn’t even have it in him to scrape together an excuse or cover story. he’s genuinely shocked, and just blurts the words out without thinking. “I…I don’t know”–he hesitates, stumbles. he’s seeing the person he thought he was really close to in a whole new light, and he doesn’t know how to handle it

and keith? when he’s down on the ground, the first thing he says is “Shiro, you know me.” becuase he’s trying desperately to bridge that gap, to make shiro see–to prove that, even if keith’s going through some shit, even if he doesn’t know who he himself is, he hasn’t changed. the person shiro knew is still the same. 

also, look at shiro’s face after that exchange. that doesn’t look like someone who just sold out or distrusts their friend. he takes the time to look at keith and kinda check in, to see how vulnerable and scared he looks (scared because he thinks shiro doesn’t trust him)

before he goes right back to glaring and confronting the bom

he then tells keith theyre leaving and starts walking away. he realizes there’s some kind of conflict here between keith and the bom, so he tries to separate them. if he really didnt trust his friend, he would’ve insisted he either 1 hand over the knife or 2 started asking a bunch of personally invasive questions–after all, this is the person that insisted on morally grey mind control interrogation to extract information from a galra. 

instead, he sees how honestly hurt and confused keith looks, so he gives him some space and tries to quickly remove him from the situation 

and when keith insists on staying? shiro’s worried look in the background there? even if he doesn’t understand what’s been going on with keith all this time, he’s clearly concerned, clearly cares. he backs off a bit and let’s keith say his piece, because he realizes just how much all this means to him. shiro doesn’t interfere again until after he hears keith’s life will be on the line, and immediately tries to get him out of there 

he goes right up to keith’s side when he tries to reason with him, and we get a repeat of that shoulder touch thing these two do so much. shiro especially does this to keith a lot, and it honestly seems like a kind of grounding thing. he reaches out to keith, tries to tell him that whatever’s going on his life isn’t worth it, holds onto him to offer some kind of comfort. the way shiro tries to convince him here reminds me a lot of that thing joaquim said in an interview, about how “shiro is sort of the only thing that can really calm him down and keep him in check.” shiro very much tries to do that here, sees that keith is angry and upset and tries to keep him from making a reckless decision. 

was shiro really taken aback and hurt initially? i think so, yes. but once he kinda has a bit of time to recover and think things through he’s still thinking of keith and trying to help him as best he can–this is also why he doesn’t try to stop him again until it’s absolutely necessary, because he respects keith’s volition and understands the importance of that autonomy. when push comes to shove, regardless of the situation, shiro still steps up to protect keith 

ginaisinthediner  asked:

how would a person know if they're FE function is well developed (im an ENFP just lettin u know)

That depends on what you think Fe is.

I had a discussion this morning at breakfast over why some people, of any type, seem to be totally oblivious to what is culturally or socially appropriate, and the inevitable theory was that some people are simply not tuned in to other people, regardless of type.

You can be TUNED IN (paying attention to their cues, their comfort, their needs, and their feelings) to other people regardless of type.

I have seen not-tuned-in high Fe’s:

  • Bring up inappropriate things in public for discussion, in a mixed group
  • Assert their political opinions without being aware of or considerate about the opinions of the other people at the table
  • Over-share and make others deeply uncomfortable
  • Say whatever they feel, regardless of whether this is the time or place
  • Bore everyone at the table to death with a long, self-involved speech, monologue, or story
  • Be demanding and inconsiderate of service people, and expect them to ‘change’ to suit what THEY want
  • Refuse to suppress their opinions for group comfort, change their behavior to be more appropriate, or cater to anyone’s demands

I bring this up because Fi’s are often accused of this type of behavior, with the implication that Fe’s can never be that socially inappropriate, and I want you to know it has nothing to do with type, and everything to do with an immature ego and lack of tuning in to other people and the outer world. You can be a total Fe and still be oblivious to other people’s feelings (Norma Bates in Bates Motel).

Fe is about social harmony and attentiveness to other people, right?

Nope. That is not what Fe is.

It’s a mindset. You and me becomes WE. It’s about the free, easy expression of emotions, and the ability to handle them in the moment, as they happen. It enables the Fe to fake feelings to accomplish a task, and to build a sense of camaraderie with and among others, in order to get that task done; it “mirrors” people’s feelings back at them, which helps the Fe feel connected to the other person; and because of this, the Fe is most comfortable with others who share their values. Some Fe’s become skilled enough with it to know what to say to make people feel better (”you always know just what to say…”), and how to deliver criticisms without hurting the other person’s feelings too much.

It is the act of using other people to accomplish things; often by rallying them around a goal. Thus, the natural dialogue of Fe is often “us.”

  • “WE will do the subscriptions this afternoon…” (even though the person speaking won’t be doing them)
  • “WE can accomplish this if we work together!” (the mantra of every Fe politician who ever lived)
  • “WE can get through this!” (even if it’s really just you who is struggling)

Fe wants group harmony in order to accomplish its goals.

Fe is Mr. Selfridge giving rah-rah speeches to his department store employees, to rally them around the store’s new promotional program and help them all feel like they belong and are family, even though he’s really the boss.

Fe is Margaery Tyrell slapping a fake smile on her face and being whatever she needs to be, in order to survive.

Fe is Rory Gilmore going on and on about her feelings to her mother.

So, how do you tell how developed your Fe is?

You tell me.

  • Being polite and appropriate is not Fe.
  • Self-censoring to avoid conflict is not Fe.
  • Being annoyed that someone brought up an inappropriate topic is not Fe.
  • Catering your behavior to fit in with a group is not Fe.
  • Wanting to impact people’s emotions is not Fe (but how you go about doing it differs based on whether you use Fe or Fi).

It’s a method of communication.

It’s a mental mindset.

It’s a framework that influences how you communicate.

I thought I had Fe for a long time, because social appropriateness matters to me. I tune in to other people. I notice if they are bored and avoid going on and on about things they have no interest in. I don’t talk about things with them that I know would make them too uncomfortable, or offend them. I know there is a time and a place for certain kinds of behaviors and ideas. I frown on people who do not observe social conventions, in that manner, because it feels wrong to me to be insensitive or inappropriate. I used to get praise in social settings as a child from adults (which was humiliating for me; unlike a Fe, it did not uplift me or make me feel good about myself, because I can’t be any other way and live with myself) on my behavior. I was never rowdy. I never caused trouble. I never offended anyone. I never drew attention to myself.

I value politeness. I don’t like selfishness. I do not wish to offend (except when I am angry or passionate enough about something that I can’t keep my mouth shut), and often as a writer, I am very aware of my core audience, I try and write something thought-provoking that is not offensive, and I fret a great deal about how my book will be received. (Will this offend this group? Will that offend that group? How can I keep both sides happy?) I do care what others think of me – just not enough to alter my strong ethical opinions to suit them.

Just because everyone is doing it is not a valid argument with me, and if you try and push me to do something I think is wrong, you’re going to get a strong refusal accompanied by an enormous heaping of Fi-judgment on your behavior.

I remember, in particular, one incident from my early teen years, that one might mistake as Fe, but it wasn’t. It went thus:

Teenage Girl: “We should totally do ______.”

Me: “No. It would upset my mother.“

Teenage Girl: “All the better reason to do it then!”

Me: *strong whiff of disapproval, accompanied by a glacial glare* “And why would I want to upset her?” *insinuation: you’re a bad person to suggest it, and we’re done after this*

On the surface, this might seem like Fe, right? I’m choosing my behavior based on my mother’s feelings. Except, it’s not Fe. It’s Fi. My motive was: “I love my parents. I saw someone close to me put them through hell with that kind of behavior, and I will never act like that.”

So really, my motive was: it is beneath ME (Fi) to act like that (Fi judgment); screw this “all teenagers act out” apologetic bullshit, that isn’t me (Fi).

I have no idea if that answered your question or not. But, there it is.

- ENFP Mod

PS: Cue the anxiety of hitting ‘post,’ for fear I might offend someone, and then have to deal with their feelings with my clumsy tert-Te. ;)

All the Things I Didn’t Say

All the Things I Didn’t Say

Tom Holland x Reader

Word Count: 3350ish

Warnings: Angssst, 2 curse words

Part one HERE!

A/N: This took longer than I wanted it but im a lazy piece o crap. I think this is canceling out my other request for “no happy ending” but like I cant ignore this request so here you go.

Originally posted by tmholland

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too-many-goddamn-fandoms  asked:

For the honesty hour thing: So, how did you fall in love with Sakuya, and want attracts you to his character? Im interested in this!

Lol girl did I ever tell you that I love you?

It took me awhile to answer this because I needed to collect my thoughts about it. AHAHA TAKE A SEAT EVERYONE. Okay gosh where to begin….. THIS IS LIKE THE INTERVIEW I WAS WAITING FOR. HA.

Well, as some people know I wasn’t extremely fond of Sakuya when I first started Servamp about….7-8 months ago? I didn’t hate him or anything, just didn’t really care for him at first. (but that kinda goes for quite a bit of characters really, but everyone grows on me at some point. ^^)

I think what really got to me was after learning about his past and how it affected his motives, relationships and current situation in the series.

So many aspects about his characters just make so much sense but I feel like are just kinda looked over……. probably cause his backstory was kinda glazed over real quick, in my opinion at least. (Like why dammit? I have so many questions still, this series can’t do this to me.) It just really kills me inside, especially the more I thought about it and the more I think about his character.

I’m gonna kinda express some of my new random thoughts on his past , cause this intrigues me oddly: (Kinda theory time right now whoooo) AND ALL IS WHAT GIVE ME SO MANY FEELINGS MY GOSH.

Just thinking about the extent of the abuse he must’ve suffered is something that really boggles my mind…… We know it went on for years, those 6 years before his “death” and then probably a few more before that obviously, when his sister was still alive. Who’s knows how long she had to endure it though? She was much older, Sakuya was about 9 at the time, and she appeared to be High School (or maybe Middle School can’t really tell with the uniform.) 

She was also the one covered in bandages after all, and we couldn’t see any visible scars or injuries on Sakuya. So she obviously took all the beatings so he wouldn’t have too most likely but after when she died I’m sure things got worse for poor little Sakuya.

But this is my other biggest thing about the abuse he went through…

How come he never tried running away?

We all know his parents threatened to do the same thing to him as they did to his older sister, but could he really not just try and leave before anything happened? Maybe not until he got a bit older.. but still….

Was his parents that controlling? I doubt his parents even cared enough to hunt him down if he did run away…. So why didn’t he try? Did they really keep him that locked in? Its so hard for me to imagine him being and feeling that hopeless, did he have zero fight inside him?

It’s hard to imagine him not fighting back in the slightest. But he could have been a very different person back when he was human too, of course. Maybe more meek and submissive… again who knows. (To be honest, I am extremely curious about to what most of the vampires characters were like before they were vampires and who and what they did before as well.

But anyway, do you think Sakuya put up with it…

Because it was ALSO a loyalty thing??!? I’m making no jokes here. Hear me out, even if he hated his parents(I’m sure he did obviously, even though he never explicitly said he did, because we had Tsubaki tell his story, and not Sakuya.)

Do you think he never tried running away or whatever, because he just felt like he just couldn’t? Like he was betraying something? Maybe not his parents, just because “They are my parents…. whether I like it or not. I have to listen to them…

But maybe because of his sisters death? Like he felt like he had to endure it like she did for him?? I mean…. he was told:

“You don’t want your sister’s death to be a waste, right?”

YOU GUYS GET WHAT I AM SAYING HERE RIGHT? History can repeat itself….

(This boy is gonna kill me with his conflicted ass)

Maybe there wasn’t actually much physical abuse doing those years… Maybe at least for as long as he did what they said and stayed out of their way and kept their secret. But I kinda already talked about this part in a post about what I think happened to his parents after he became a vampire. (I am very sensitive about this topic alright?)

We know they killed his sister so they could get insurance money(ughh so sickening) but did they really try to kill Sakuya for more money? They would only be two people at that point…… so that’s why a part of me is like, “there’s gotta be a greater reason.” The best conclusion I came up with was “They killed him because maybe he tried to TELL someone.”

Think about it. Sakuya hates lies, he had to lie his whole life basically. He takes it very serious and to heart. WE KNOW THIS.

We know he only kept it a secret because he was threatened and didn’t want his sister’s death to be in vain…. But maybe he eventually cracked under all the pressure… And maybe tried speaking about it or was planning too and then… That was also the day he died…… Damn…. I just stabbed myself in the heart.

So yes, his past is a big factor on why I found him so interesting initially when I was new to this fandom/series, I was really hoping we would see his past elaborated a bit or learn more and see what he does and how on earth Mahiru was gonna “save him.”

I could go on and on about these two as well. Not in a shippy way…. but friendship or romantic, considering his past it makes sense to why he’s attached to Mahiru. Again in another post where I “defended his character” I guess you could say, I talked about how Sakuya’s “screwed up friendship methods” and how he really dug himself into a hole. -__- But I was saying its almost hard to blame him for going about the way he did. BECAUSE IT JUST MAKES SENSE SADLY.

Sakuya is a real lonely and distant kinda guy. After he sister died I’m sure he didn’t have much light in his life then. No one to talk too, no one who understood. No one who loved him. I’m sure growing up during those 6 years he was probably afraid to get close to anyone. What was school like for him then…. did he really have no friends at all for 6 years? It’s crazy to think about right? His childhood was anything but normal…. 

But then he received a “second chance” after Tsubaki found him and I’m sure Mahiru’s kind-hearted nature really drew him in, it’s not wrong for him to really want a friend, yeah he did go the complete wrong way about it, but unfortunately lies and deceit is all he knew how to do. He found some light in his life, and he was willing to do anything to hold on to that for as long as he could. Also HE KILLS ME because he regretted lying to Mahiru so much and did all the awful things he did/said, BECAUSE HE WAS HOPING MAHIRU WOULD HATE HIM and have his Servamp KILL HIM because he felt that was the only way to apologize for everything. and BOIII did that really kill me. AND THEN MAHIRU FORGAVE HIM STILL and now look at where he is with his conflicted loyalty….

YOU SEE WHERE I AM COMING FROM AVI!?!? AHHHH.

-inhales- ALSO ONE THING I NEED TO GET OFF MY CHEST BECAUSE THIS REALLY BOTHERS ME. Before ANYONE says “Mahiru is too forgiving about the whole fake memories thing and shouldn’t have forgiven Sakuya or be his friend.” Cause I HAVE heard someone say this and it makes me angry.

BECAUSE then you are ALSO SAYING:

  • Mahiru shouldn’t have forgiven and accepted Kuro for his past and all his sins and regrets, that he never shared with him. Also for attacking Mahiru that one time, lets not forget.
  • Mahiru shouldn’t be friends or ever trust Lawless because he’s killed so many eves and killed all of Tsubaki’s subclass and who knows what else he’s done?
  • Mahiru shouldn’t be finding a way to stop Tsubaki without killing him, because he’s not worth it.
  • Mahiru shouldn’t be trying to save Tsurugi either because he’s also done bad things.
  • AND SO ON.

SO SCREW EVERYONE WHO SAYS THAT. Cause you’re basically saying NO CHARACTER deserves happiness. -exhales- Sorry I just feel very strongly about that and I forgot to mention this in my defense post awhile ago. I feel better now~

So about Sakuya’s damn conflicted loyalty between Tsubaki and Mahiru. How are things gonna go from here?.WHICH ROUTE MY GUY? I WANT TO KNOW.

Tbh he’s kinda similar to Tsurugi in a sense (a certain someone kinda opened my eyes about that) that the whole “afraid to start something new because this is all that I’ve ever known and honestly I don’t know how to feel anymore?” kinda sense.

Although Tsurugi is debatablely the saddest character in servamp right now (backstory and current situation and all ARE WAYYY more painful.) 

What? Just cause Sakuya is my fave didn’t mean I’m completely biased about him. He sad. But not the SADDEST. I just thought I would mention this cause the parallels kinda fascinate me.

I WANT SAKUYA TO TAKE SOME ACTION. HE’S FREE NOW RIGHT??? What’s he gonna do now??? What’s he planning to do!?!? STILL WAITING HERE.

. Ughh its probably gonna be awhile until we get anything about Sakuya again. Which is fine. Cause its not his arc right now.

 WE GOT BIGGER PROBLEMS IN THE MANGA. MUCH MORE PRESSING THINGS INDEED.

But still I’m extremely curious… To what he might do in the future…. I mean Sakuya and even Lilac are still running around freely unlike the other melancholy members at the moment? So will he somehow be involved with that later??? Will he find Tsubaki??? WHERE ARE YOU MY BOY?

Ughh I’m having Sakuya withdraw lol… I hope he gets to do something exciting or important soon…. Tanaka strike is TEASING ME by putting him in so many recent official arts but then NOT IN THE ACTUAL STORY. WHYYYY. (well we do see Sakuya in a recent bonus chapter so….)

I HOPE THAT MEANS STRIKE PLANS TO INCLUDE HIM AGAIN SOON. I’ll take it as foreshadowing *sobs* Strike obviously hasn’t forgotten about him….so JUST waiting and watching now.

Waiting and watching….

Sorry, that got so angsty above I wanted this post to be positive too.. So here are good/fun things I like about him:

  • Even though he character design absolutely baffles me(yes I mean the hair) I gotta say I really love it~ His hair is really something original that’s for sure. HA. His design also helped immediately catch my attention to him also I may have a bit of a “stripes bias” ahaha I own A LOT of stripe shirts myself lol always have and always will.
  • He owns a lot of pink accessories and wears pink a lot too! LET. BOYS. WEAR. PINK. YES. YOU. GO. MY. BOY.  He rocks it fight me.
  • He’s cool and I’m kinda curious on what his subclass ability is. If there is even one for him. Weapons seem to be his specialty. (F.E knives, chainsaw(which I am still trying to figure out how magically pulled out in AN ELEVATOR!?! And can make a sword outta blood apparently.

Originally posted by sleepynyashnekomancer

 But I don’t really trust the animes canon….) Also his little black strap things have a function??? THEY ARE ALIVE. WHAT

  • Look how happy Mahiru makes him. His smile is precious. He loves his friend so much I cry. I want them to be together and be friends again.

Originally posted by natsv

Originally posted by sleepynyashnekomancer

  • All the Tsubaki and Sakuya shenanigans make me laugh. One minute he’s crying to Mahiru “please don’t kill him” and the next you’re trying to put the guy into a fox trap. What even boi.
  • WANTS TO BE CALLED SAKKUN HOW CUTE IS THAT.
  • Has the best “yandere” expressions.
  • HE PRETTY STRONG and has great potential to be truly terrifying and useful. UNLEASH THAT POTENTIAL YOU GREEN EMO CHILD.
  • Another random thought I had was what would have things been like if Mahiru did choose to tell Sakuya about Kuro in the beginning like he originally planned? Might’ve still gone down the same way. But who knows?
  • (I could keep going tbh)

But for now I’m just gonna sweat about the BIGGER MATTERS THAT ARE CURRENTLY HAPPENING IN THE MANGA RIGHT NOW. HA….

Thank you for asking Aviiiii~ <3

heatherlanntheclever  asked:

Is there any chance of a happy ending for the Lannisters? I know they are awful people but why develop their motivations and give each of them a genuine moment of compassion if they are just going to murder each other? Every other POV gets a moment of truth/redemption why not the children of Tywin/Patriarchy/Aerys and Disability? I'm a bad person myself so I need to believe the Lions can defy themselves and prophesy and overcome their nature or what's the point? Not all of us are born Starks.

Hey! So it’s gonna take me a few minutes to answer your question, but I promise I’m gonna get there.

In one of the other shows I watch, an actor commented on the banality of evil. He said that evil is something commonplace. Given the right circumstances, great acts of evil could be committed by your neighbors, or your friends, or you, or me. Because evil is so easy. “The only thing necessary for the triumph of evil is for good men to do nothing.” You needn’t be a monster like Gregor to commit evil; you need only be human. 

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Produce 101 - Finale

Well, that’s it. Its over. After 11 weeks of stressing, ranting the finale just finished and boy am i conflicted….

Ill start with what I am happy about.

ONG SEONGWOO MADE IT! ONG SEONGWOO MADE IT! I AM SO PROUD! He came 5th and I was giving up on his chances of getting in and he made it and I cried for literally 20 mins. 

KANG DANIEL IS CENTER AND OMG I AM SO HAPPY BOTH OF THEM MADE IT AND HE WAS SO HAPPY AND OMG… ongniel lives on..

THE REST OF THE LINEUP - honestly aside from two people - you know who im gonna say- im very happy. 

  • Auntie Jisung made it and he will finally have his debut! I honestly didn’t think he could do but i am so happy he can debut with Daniel
  • Park Woojin made it and honeslty he proved he was this seasons Chungha 
  • Guanlin made it, I know people aren’t too happy but I liked him so leave me be. 
  • Daehwi made it! I was worried for him when it showed that he was one of the 4 around 11th place but seriously happy he made it. 
  • And i had accepted that Jihoon would be in the group whether i liked it or not so that didnt bother me too much 

Now this is what really fucking pissed me off, what the fuck how did NATIONS LEADER Jonghyun not make the fucking group. I have nothing against Bae Jinyoung but how the fuck did he make it and not jonghyun??? And poor Samuel, poor sweet Samuel… I really wanted him in the group. He looked heartbroken and it killed me. 

Mnet really fucked them over the group song stuff was stupid as hell and they may not have gotten benefit votes for it but the songs themselves were benefits! Like firstly why give them 2 different songs?? Neither of them were that good but it was clear that Hands On Me was better than Super Hot. Like the entire styling, choreo, song style EVERYTHING benefitted that team. Daehwi shot up from around 11 to 3rd, minhyun went from 11 to 9. Like the other team stood no chance. Out of the 10 people doing Hands on me only Sewoon (12th) and Haknyeon didnt make the final group. 

Anyway, I am so conflicted I will still support WAnna One (dumbass name btw) but they really missed out on something amazing with Samuel and Jonghyun. In my opinion, they should have been in  the group and Baejin and Sungwoon should not. 


I’m not trying to offend anyone its just my opinion. 

a saeran hc post

i know there’s a ton of these out there and this is SO LONG im sorry i dont know how to shut up lol, i want to update my fics but im in the home stretch of getting through this week of classes before i go on break ;;;; so uh, have this post of some kind of general hc’s and some thoughts on how saeran feels about each of the members of the rfa + some vanderwood

spoilers of course, also mentions of smoking and vague notions at abuse and stuff, also this is just super long and ridiculous and im sorry aha

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opinions ooo (i couldn’t think of a title and this is long soz)

if you’re sick of seeing me writing massive essays with no capital letters, i’m sorry but i’m back baby. (i’ll put a read more in case you want to ignore me)

i’ve gotten some asks today and i thought instead of answering them separately i’d tie them all into one. it’s a bit of a jumble of thoughts really but i wanted to address them and i tried to remain as positive as i humanly can. I think the biggest one being: ‘do you think the fandom is hypocritical?’ which is a tough one to answer but i can try, so strap yourself in:

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what’s a home without you here?

aka im still distraught about the season 4 finale and i have to write out something. 

amy comes home, jake is still in prison, also some inserts about peraltiago headcanons i have swimming around inside my head. 

In her mind she can still see Jake turning around, giving her that small, reassuring smile of his - one last crack joke, but she sees the love and sadness briefly in his eyes - before being taken away, and coming home has not gotten easier. She doesn’t think it ever will; all that time with him in Florida, and it never got easy. 

When she first saw him again after all those months, she still remembers the rush of shock, joy, relief, but most of all love, when they reunited, and she swore at the time that she’d never let anything tear them apart again. 

And now? 

He’s gone again, and this time they took one of her best friends too. Though, Amy thinks, Rosa would never be caught admitting that they had grown so close during Jake and Holt’s time in Florida. She almost smiles, but it falls away from her face before it even has a chance to flicker by. The anger in her - of the injustice of it all, the cruelty, how the two of them were only trying to do good and this is what they got in return, a prison sentence - rushed through her, seething in fury, only to be quenched by the grief. 

Still, she curls her hands into knuckles beside her. She won’t rest until they’re free. She knows the others in the squad are right there with her. Whether it’s one year, two, ten, fifteen, she’ll be right here, fighting for their innocence, waiting for Jake’s big smiles and full body laughs and reassuring touches, his pop culture references and corny jokes that mask an underlying warmth and gentleness that she has gotten so used to. 

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listen back 2 u (AM 1:27) is a masterpiece and i am still not over that song okay. it’s obviously a song about not wanting to go back into a relationship you don’t wanna be in but the mood? the lyrics? the singing? everything just is just set so perfectly, when sm said it was a song to bring out their emotional vocals they weren’t lying (for once). 

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anonymous asked:

what do ya think about people shipping jaded//ave//kat even if they know that dave is not comfortable with poly?

i really dont care what people ship in general. hell i met someone who ships bro/doc scratch. whether it makes sense or not shouldnt be something that suddenly makes it illegal to ship a ship. i mean theres always aus and crack ships and what not. go wild kids

my problem is when people dont stay in their lane and act like its some software upgrade to dave/karkat and act like content should be in that tag too. its not. its a completely different ship so please go away

my other problem is when it crosses over into the realm of canon meta with people acting like its suddenly actual comic canon and making justifications for it. like you said, dave isnt comfortable with being in a poly ship. you see some people arguing this happened when he was 13 and that he “grew” out of it later. yes, he did break it off with terezi for wanting to date gamzee at the same time, but given how they were still dating during openbound, this must have happened closer to when he was around 15, not 13.
then some people say that since he spent more time with karkat, he learned about the quadrant system and adopted it and thats proof that hed be ok with it
HOWEVER…..
dave still isnt comfortable with karkat dating another person, EVEN IF hes been educated on the subject of troll romance and the polyamory that comes along with it. even if dave says he “gets it,” hes still not going to do quadrants because he became clearly jealous when karkat brought up his past BLACK crush on john. again, BLACK, not RED – which is at least what his and karkats relationship falls under when we see jasprose state that the quadrant nepeta wanted karkat in (red) is taken
this says a WHOLE FUCKING LOT, more so than the terezi and gamzee issue imo. even after literally being educated on polyamory for three years by a troll obsessed with the idea of quadrants, to the point of not outright dismissing them anymore like he did pre-retcon and being more open minded about it, dave is still not comfortable with the idea of karkat pursuing anyone else even in the black quadrant, one which doesnt fully define his and karkats own relationship. he still cant fucking do it even under the base definitions of quadrants he learned
not only that, but the line dave says to karkat during this exchange – “is this something you been thinking about this whole time or” – also says a lot. not only is it probably one of the more insecure statements dave has said, its also a little absurd on a logical basis and goes to show how insecure the idea of karkat having feelings for someone else makes him. dave takes karkats past black crush on john and sees it to mean that karkat was wishing dave was john during the entire three years. thats just really fucking sad.

and weve seen this behavior with dave before. he compares himself to others all the time and feels like shit because he feels he cant compete with them! hell this is at the center of his entire goddamn coolkid facade, he tries to live up to his bros crazy insane ideals and when he fails it ruined his self esteem. you also see him compare himself to john all the time – he outright tells terezi one time that “no matter what i do ill never catch up to john” and we all know how he reacted when john was a god tier and he wasnt. and its not just john and bro either, he does this with jade in regards to his medium entry vs hers. he goes on about how much of an idiot he was, that what the hell was he doing, even jade knew what to do, that she was schooling his ignorant ass, that she started out with more sense than him, etc. im sure there are other examples but these are just the ones off the top of my head
the point is that dave constantly compares himself to other people and this is the main source of his internal character conflict, it is absolutely fucking criticalto him, and we literally saw this complex in action in regards to polyamory when the idea of karkat having had feelings for someone else was brought up where he reacted overwhelmingly negatively
i mean how much more explicit can this even be? the idea that even after reading this people can still think dave being canon poly is remotely feasible completely fucking boggles my mind

then of course theres karkat. ive gone into it many many many times but the concept of quadrant dating in alternia is akin to compulsory heterosexuality for humans. karkat has mentioned that on alternia trolls that want one partner in all 4 quadrants are seen as joke characters in the media, and calls himself a “desperate fool” for feeling this way about someone. karkats obsession with quadrants and romance movies and literature, while at the same time showing a complete lack of tack with his own quadrant issues, points towards someone who is overcompensating, especially when he used a fictional goddamn troll harlem romance novel as a fucking guide to solve his, daves and terezis issues duing penis ouija and the narrative pointed towards it being a ridiculous idea even for trolls to propose. and given how his entire loud angry persona is a blatant overcompensation for his feelings of inferiority in the first place (dave hits the nail with the hammer when he says “loudmouth inferiority thing”) this is behavior that karkat has shown time and time again to use.
so much about karkats character is how much of a periah and un-trollike he is. from his deceptively peaceful personality (this is a troll that faints at the sight of blood. an ALTERNIAN GODDAMN TROLL), to his blood color, to his tiny ass horns, hes meant to be more human than troll. this is even outright said to be the case in the text.
then youve got the signless and the allusion that he didnt do quadrants either, and the parallel is quite clear especially when terezi and vriska, two trolls, werent able to tell what quadrant dave and karkat had “settled” in which implies that theyre not really in any of them.
ok, so karkat cant do quadrants, so what? cant he just have panquadrant feelings for dave and someone else at the same time? uh ok, if you want to ignore the entire framing of the karkat/terezi situation? he outright says he wanted to “keep her all to himself,” and the entire issue and his meltdown is sparked when terezi simply starts having interest in someone else. for someone to divorce these ideas from one other sounds like some major jumping through hoops to justify something they want instead of objectively analyzing whats there. also saying that karkat needs to get over this and that embracing polyamory is the key to his “character development.” yes, a lot of karkats development is learning to become less possessive and dismissing other peoples feelings and agency. you see the culmination of this when he talks to terezi in openbound. BUT HE GREW UP IN A SOCIETY WHERE POLYAMORY WAS THE NORM AND IT WAS HAMMERED INTO HIM SINCE BIRTH AND EVEN AFTER TRYING TO BE AN EXPERT ON THEM HES STILL NOT ABLE TO ADHERE TO THE CONCEPT AND FAILS AT TRYING. do you seriously think hes going to be able to move past that hurdle???? i mean think what you want in regards to polyamory IRL but in homestucks case…… its tied to a characters nature and is as much a part of their sexuality as liking boys or girls or both or none (or davepeta)

also because by this same logic fuckin gtav/jake/dirk is canon too because they were hanging out together lol

i wholeheartedly disagree with the implication that a female character can only be truly happy if shes in a relationship with men. i hate the idea that because i dont wish jade to be involved with davekat means that i somehow hate her, or am misogynist, or dont want her around them period. this is really goddamn ridiculous and a shitty ass argument and if anyone tries to paint you this way please ignore them lmao because theyre probably more interested in situating themselves as morally superior vs the rest of the subfandom and being the purity police than actually believing and wanting it. i think jade is happy enough to be around her friends in general and to equate her “deserving to be happy” with “dating these two male characters” perpetuates the idea females characters are always looking for romance and that it should be their end goal. fuck right off with that bullshit pls

i also think its borderline insulting to say that an author would throw away an incredibly large and well-executed arc between two characters directly involving a love triangle……for another love triangle with another girl. its just thematically muddled up and shitty writing wise

also the idea that hussie has to do it to “appease everyone.” homestuck has always had some level of influence from the readers, but if appeasing the largest amount of people was always hussies goal instead of writing the characters consistently and with an iota of sense then johndave would be fucking canon

again, people can ship it all they want even just for fun or in an au or cute pics or whatever. but if youre gonna act like its feasible in canon and start spouting some canon meta for it at people without even questioning it im gonna have some MAJOR fucking reservations about your ability to interpret dave and karkats core characters correctly and im probably not going to touch your fanwriting with a 100 foot pole

Imagine Arguing With Axl Over One of His Temper Tantrums (PART 1)

//requested by anonymous//

It’s been 9 days since Axl and you last spoke. He was constantly in the studio recording the double album, and the absence of communication between him and his bandmates had put him in one of his moods. Lack of sleep, stress, and overall frustration had ignited his rage and provoked his temper. You seemed it fit to leave him alone, not wanting to add to his infuriation.

While you were at home, you began to dread whenever Axl would return from the studio. His bitter disposition created a toxic and morbid atmosphere in the once radiant and jubilant house. You were cleaning up after Axl, picking up his clothes off the bedroom floor. As you put the dirty laundry to wash, you heard the front door open only for it to immediately be slammed shut. Axl was usually never home this early.

You had spent the day deciding whether or not to confront him. Talking to Axl was risky, and he easily became enraged whenever anyone tried to understand him. Still, you figured that no matter what you did it would no doubt end in a fight, so why not take your chances and just get it over with?

Walking into the kitchen, you saw Axl sitting with a beer in his hand. You leaned against the counter, watching as his eyebrows pulled together and his face twisted into an expression of disinterest.

“Axl, do you need anything?” You asked quietly, trying to gently ease the two of you into conversation.

He shook his head and took a drink, focusing his attention towards the wall. Determined to get him to speak, you made another attempt.

“It’s been over a week since we’ve talked, Axl,” you paused as you searched for the right words to say. “What’s been going on?“

Axl remained fixated on the opposite side of the room. His eyes squinted and you saw his hand tighten his grip on the bottle. In an instant he violently threw it at the wall, and your hand immediately flew to your chest as you jumped from the sudden impact.

“No one ever leaves me the fuck alone!”

He walked into the living room, and turned around to look at you for the first time in days. His face was red, his hands were balled into fists, and his eyes displayed such intensity it made you feel as if he would erupt at any moment.

“I work all fucking day!” he shouted, kicking the coffee table.

“Axl, stop it!”

“And all anyone ever does is screw around and fucking get high!” Axl yelled, throwing the vase on the floor.

You cautiously walked over to him, and placed your hand on his arm to console him.  

“Axl, can we please-”

Pushing your hand away, he sneered, “Get the fuck away from me.”

His immaturity made you forget why you were with him in the first place. He was never this bad, however, you feared that things were about to get much worse.

Axl returned to the kitchen, banging his fist on the wooden cabinet, making the plates rattle.

You followed him and raised your voice, “What happened? Just tell me so that we can fix it instead of not speaking to each other for over a week!”

“You wanna know what fucking happened, Y/N? Nothing happened! That’s the fucking problem!”

He began to walk away again, and as he did his foot hit the garbage can, causing him to stumble. Feeling provoked, Axl kicked it across the room.

“Stop fucking breaking things!” you shouted at him.

“Why, Y/N? Am I bothering you? What could you possibly have to be angry about?” He spat, opening the cabinet and taking out the plates.

“Is this pissing you off, Y/N?” He instigated, succeeding in tantalizing you.

Axl smashed the plates on the floor, scowling as your eyes widened in shock. A grimace on his face, he reached for the glasses and broke them one by one, covering the entire floor in shards.

“Stop it!”

Axl bolted up the stairs and went into the bedroom. After hearing a loud crash, you ran upstairs and watched as he completely demolished the room. The drawers were scattered, clothes were flung, and the mirror was cracked. Ignoring your wariness, Axl stormed out and continued his rampage in the living room. You sat on the bed as tears rushed down your face. The beautiful memories the two of you made in the room were now tainted. You couldn’t quite seem to fathom what had awakened such rage and callousness. Never did you think it would become this awful. You wiped your cheeks, and prepared yourself for the repercussions of facing Axl.

Standing in the living room, your jaw dropped in horror at the scene that had unfolded before you. Axl had flipped over the furniture and wrecked your entire home. Everything was trashed; the house nearly impossible to recognize. He sat against the wall amid the clutter, a cigarette in his hand. Unfazed by what had just occurred, he took a drag, disregarding your presence.

“Axl, I don’t know what the hell is going on, but if you’re gonna act like this every time something doesn’t go your way then I don’t think I can deal with it anymore,” you said, your voice no louder than a gentle whisper.

He turned to look at you, and pushed himself off the floor. Stopping in front of you, Axl failed to notice how upset you were. It surprised you how he was unable to grasp the severity of how much pain he had caused you.

He stared you down and muttered, “Fine by me.”

Axl left you feeling even more conflicted than before. Your emotions began to take over, and you didn’t care about clothes, your house, or anything. You just wanted to get out. You had to get out. Grabbing your car keys, you began to drive with no destination in mind. You could feel a huge lump form in your throat, making your eyes feel like they stung. Forcing yourself to soothe your tumultuous thoughts, you tried to figure out the next course of action. Fear and worry consumed you, and all you could think was

Where do I go now?

Imagine Living Like A King Someday

prompt: Phil is a boarding school student, and he has pretty much everything. His dad owns the school, he’s pretty popular, has the best room, gets all the best treatment – he’s the King. Dan is a cleaner/phil’s personal maid there, and he isn’t as lucky. Some students are assholes to Dan, including Phil at first.

[CHAPTER MASTERPOST]

Thank you all so so much for your consistent patience with this. College work (and a hell of a lot of it) has unfortunately become my priority right now what with university just around the corner and subsequently I haven’t updated it nearly as regularly as I would have liked to, but you guys have been so supportive and understanding and I really cannot thank you enough for that. I’ve missed this and I’ve missed you. Here’s to more regular updates in the future <3

(sidenote I’m sorry if this seems a lil wooden I haven’t written this in literal months so it might take a while for me to adjust to the story and the prose again so pls bear with me)

OK emo words over let’s fuckin DO this cue emo dan and a Lot of tension and also dishonesty because phil’s a fucking idiot

warnings; mentions of violence, smoking

Twenty-one

Phil’s been on edge all week. He can’t remember the last time he relaxed.

Every day, every hour right from the second his eyes flutter open to the sound of his morning alarm, is spent with a thudding heart and searching eyes. Even when he’s sleeping he’s tense – his dreams have spiralled into a whirlwind of almost nightmares, technicolour episodes crashing into the other in colourful sparks and bursts that end in cold sweats and aching muscles and whisperings from the boy only centimetres away from him. And it’s stupid because Phil should be the one comforting him after a bad night (and he still tries his best nonetheless), but he can’t deny there’s nothing quite like the feeling of Dan’s gentle lips on his forehead at four a.m., the sound of his voice whispering reassurances with his arms draped over Phil’s waist like a protective shield.

He hasn’t seen Liam since he grabbed at any excuse and all but ran out of Noah’s room upon his discovery that no, Phil doesn’t still have a tag, and he’s scared. He’s so fucking scared.

And yeah, it was a very stupid move to dodge the bullet in the way he did, to fling himself out of the situation without even stopping to at least try and explain himself, but he couldn’t help it. He doesn’t think he can face sitting through another one of Liam’s explosions without crying or running for cover, and he just can’t look that evil glint in the eye. Not since he saw the very same one glittering menacingly when Liam looked at Dan, the daggering stare boring into the other boy. The image is still printed deep in Phil’s mind, resurfacing during the darkest part of the night.

That’s cowardly. Phil doesn’t care.

“Are you sure you-“

“Phil,” Dan sighs. “For the final time, I’m fine.”

“But you-“

“Honestly,” he insists, brown eyes shining. He’s trying, with one hand, to unwrap the chocolate bar Phil had insisted upon him. “It was just a bump, that’s all. The paths were really icy this morning.”

“Why didn’t you tell me sooner?” Phil sighs, tapping Dan’s bandage patch delicately. It sits just under his fringe.

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of all dogs, it had to be yours (kim jongin/kai x reader)

“JUST LET ME TOUCH HIM!!” you screamed, trying to break free from Chanyeol’s grasp on your shirt collar.

“(y/n)…I don’t even know why I should be apologizing but, I’m so fucking sorry. Please stop embarrassing yourself further.”

“Noooo!! I can’t get owned like this, Chanyeol! Avenge me!” you wailed as another untouched puppy sailed past your feet along with its obviously befuddled owner. Another dog that you couldn’t pet. The list was getting longer day by day.

It all started when you were 4, the first time you tried to touch your neighbor’s white kitty, you had to be taken to the hospital because the cute thing had jumped onto your face, leaving scratches that wouldn’t heal for months. All of this because you just tried to pet its fluffy head. You reached out your hand to the fluffball’s unsuspecting head and ended up learning a dark lesson.

This didn’t apply to dogs and cats only. Even birds, reptiles, fish, fucking rabbits even, and sometimes, even people had a natural aversion to you and ended up hurting you. (read: Tao, Jongdae and Baekhyun. Assholes who loved pranking you for no reason whatsoever.)

Animals had a natural aversion to you, but all you wanted was to pet them a little, was that too much to ask?

“CHANYEOL, THAT WAS A FUCKING MALTESE! I MAY NEVER SEE ONE AGAIN!”

“I know, but I can’t have the pup’s owner bite my ass just because my dumbfuck best friend wants to pet his dog. You made the last pet owner pass out because their rabbit went rabid. Geddit?! RABID? GEDDIT??” Chanyeol proceeded to slap his right knee and chuckle as you wallowed in your misery.

Praying, peace offerings, pet toys, none of this shit ever worked with them.You understood this the hard way after trying it with Junmyeon’s puppy Byun and Baekhyun’s pet fish bacon. Even Tao, whose dog Candy, which loved being touched, had given you a brutal reminder.

If people thought you were lying, you even had the scars for proof. But a dark history of mean pets and several visits to the ER has never stopped you from trying to pet every puppy that came your way.

“CHANYEOL!!! I SPOT A PUPPY!!” you shouted, looking at Chanyeol, who was busy sexting Baekhyun on a Sunday morning.

“Ugh, when are you going to stop?”

“WHEN I CAN FINALLY PET A DOG WITHOUT HAVING TO SACRIFICE MY LIFE! FOLLOW ME!” you screamed, finally getting a clear view of the puppy you had just mentioned.

Oh shit, you stopped abruptly, knocking into a currently “in the process of getting horny” Chanyeol who was typing furiously into his phone, glasses almost slipping off the bridge of his twitchy nose.

“OH MY GOD, CHANYEOL, HELP. HE’S HOT.”

“What?! I’m trying to get some here………Oh. Oooh. Wow. That is definitely some boyfriend material,” Chanyeol whistled, shoving his phone into his pocket.

What he was referring to was, most definitely, not the dog, but its obviously very hot owner.

“Wow, daddy material even.” Chanyeol whistled louder, mischievously stepping on your shoelaces, untying them successfully as you bounded cluelessly towards the fluffy brown puppy which was beckoning for you to pet it. It was time for Chanyeol “Da hottest wingman!” to shine. Baekhyun would tell you hastily that it was a self proclaimed title but you knew that it was a load of bull because only Baekhyun could come up with something as lame as that.

“HEY THERE BOY!!!” you beamed, reaching out a hand to pet the puppy, completely ignoring the owner who had politely stopped to let you do the deed. What enfolded in the next three seconds changed your life entirely. You were trying your best to not look at the puppy’s owner.

You tripped on your shoelaces, which had somehow “magically come off”, according to a very suspiciously laughing Chanyeol. After which you had, obviously, sailed forward.

You’d preferred either,

Falling on top on him, ending the scene with a very necessary albeit clichéd kiss.

(or)

Falling onto the road and disappearing forever.

But you fell onto the poor puppy, missing crushing it by a centimeter, but still getting two of its paws nicely cushioned beneath you as a groan escaped you lips. You were currently staring into the hot puppy owner’s warm, worried brown eyes.

“Oh my god, are you alright?” puppy owner questioned, offering a hand for you to take.

You froze, remembering the puppy that was so close to being sandwiched between you and the floor, blind to puppy owner’s actions.

“PUPPY!” you screamed, scrambling back worriedly to inspect the damage that you had caused to another precious lifeform. You grabbed the poor thing and shook it slightly, cuddling it close to your chest while asking it whether it was okay and if it was hurt anywhere.

The puppy responded with a tiny bark, seemingly not upset by the entire sandwiching incident, and rewarded you with a nuzzle and a nose lick. You grinned, contented that you hadn’t killed anyone today.

Chanyeol froze, his plan had backfired big time and what he needed right now was either a bottle of vodka, or some nice time with Baekhyun. He would undoubtedly choose the latter, but right now, he seemed to be conflicted. Then, he realized something.

“(y/n)…you did it.”

“What?” you asked him, trying to get the puppy away from your face, which it was intent on licking off.

“YOU PET A PUPPY WITHOUT SACRIFICING YOUR LIFE!” Chanyeol screamed, waving his gigantic hands around excitedly.

“Oh…..OH!” lighting struck you and you internally rejoiced.

FINALLY, YOU HAD DONE IT. YOU HAD TOUCHED AN ANIMAL WITHOUT GETTING MAULED IN THE PROCESS. PRAISE THE LORD.

You finally looked up to see puppy owner looking at you while smiling.

“I’m so sorry for trying to kill your dog!” you smiled sheepishly, reluctantly putting the dog back down.

“Nah, it’s fine. You were having a moment there.” He responded, chuckling into his hand.

Ugh, his smile could light up Kyungsoo’s dark heart and save millions of withered flowers.

“Can I…can I pet your puppy some more? Please? I’ve never actually pet a puppy properly before.” You pleaded, hands already itching to pick up the fluffy thing and kiss it.

“No.” his eyes narrowed into condescending crescents.

You gasped, frowning at him.

“Just kidding! Knock yourself out! I’m Jongin by the way,” he laughed

You didn’t even wait to say thank you before picking up the puppy and rubbing its head affectionately. While you were having the time of your life, Chanyeol had pulled Jongin aside, telling him about your sad life. Jongin chuckled, clearly amused by how animals could hate someone like you.

“Hey, do you mind if I ask her out for like….a coffee or something? She’s really cute, are you perhaps, her boyfriend?” Jongin whispered to Chanyeol, rubbing the back of his neck sheepishly. He honestly thought you were pretty cute.

Chanyeol almost screamed while he exchanged numbers with Jongin and secretly gave him yours. Jongin walked happily back to you. You’d thank Chanyeol later for everything he’s done for you. This is what Chanyeol thought though.

“I’m so happy for you. Monggu loves you now.” Jongin smiled, melting some more of your heart in the process.

“YEAH, I FEEL LIKE CRYING,” you sniffled.

“What would you feel like If I told you that I have two more puppies?” he squatted own next to you, putting his hand over yours, which was on top of Monngu’s soft head.

“You’re kidding!”

“Nah, wanna see some pics over coffee, then…maybe we could go over to my house to play with them?”

“YES. GOD IS REAL. YESSSSSSS, GOODBYE CHANYEOL, I FINALLY FOUND SOMEONE BETTER TO SPEND MY TIME WITH, HAVE FUN FUCKING BAEKHYUN,” you flipped Chanyeol the finger and picked Monggu up, walking away with a laughing Jongin.

Chanyeol didn’t know whether he was angry or happy at your comment.

 

bonus:

on group chat ‘exo’:

chanyodaman:

gUYS CHECK IT OUT, (y/n) IS GEDDING SOME! HYPE! HE EVEN HAS DOGS. THAT’S WHAT HE LOOKS LIKE WHILE STARING AT(y/n) PETTING HIS DOGES. TRU LOVE

chenderella:

oH SHIT, what’s the name? SUHO, WHY AREN’T YOU THIS GOOD LOOKING?

satansoo:

This is why (y/n) did a good thing by breaking up with Chanyeol three years ago.

chenderella:

^ pour cold water over burned area, chanyeol.

not high im lay:

(y/n) is so lucky, he looks like he would treat her well! 

 chanyodaman:

Kim Jongin. SHUT UP CHEN OMFG, GO FUCK SUHO IF YOU’VE GOT SO MUCH TIME ON YOUR HANDS. WAIT FOR SUHO TO SEE THIS.

THEY’RE GOING TO HAVE COFFEE AND PET DOGS, GUYS, IT’S HAPPENING, (y/n) IS FINALLY GOING TO GET LAID. STAY CALM.

piece of bacon:

come fuck me chanyeol, ugh!

piece of bacon:

oH SHTI WROGN CHATE SORRY

suhoehoe:

You didn’t say that last night, Chen ;)

chenderella:

baekhyun, your dick is probs small enough for you to hold it and type properly, you can do atleast that much. I need some acid for my eyes, Xiumin help.

shoemin:

you’re on your own, im sry, gtg. good luck tho (y/n)…he’s a cute one,

sehun:

im a minor

chanyodaman:

nobody cares sehun, im too busy fangirling over how Jongin just accidentally kissed (y/n)’s cheek while he tripped on his puppy. I’m surely not spying on them. UGH BAEKHYUN WHY.

(y/n):

you guys are getting your asses BEAT when we meet next time. chan baby, be prepared to get your skin peeled off slowly :-) :-) :-)

chanyodaman:

SHIT

chenderella:

gg chanyeol, rip mate.


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Surprise

The request: hey! what about a sebastian oneshot/drabble where he’s away filming and reader and their daughter are at home and he’s away for like 2/3 months and when the day he’s supposed to come home arrives, he cant go bc he still has some filming to do so he skypes/facetimes reader and tells her he wont be able to make it home that day and he ends up crying on the call bc he misses them so much. the end is up to you! (if u dont write seb, u cant write it w bucky being away in a mission!)

Pairing: Dad!Bucky / Reader

Warnings: Nothing I think

Word Count: 1,987

A/N: Okay, so I changed the request just a little so instead of a mission he’s in Wakanda because of his arms and like brain and yeah…other than that, enjoy!

Tagging: Well no one, because I don’t know who would like to be tagged lol.

Originally posted by arianagrandes

You were just cutting some fruit when you heard some shuffling from the other room and then an excited giggle.

“Daddy!” Rose screamed and you stopped your actions for a moment a soft smile curving on your lips. Rose, your daughter, was only three and knew how to work your laptop better than you could. You then heard a soft murmur, a deeper voice than your daughter’s reply to Rose. You instantly recognized the voice and your heart rate increased excitedly. “Okay Daddy! I’ll get Mommy!”

Your smile grew as the sound of small footsteps echoed before a small hand began to tug yours. Rose was in rainbow striped leggings, and a green t-shirt that had a ladybug on it. Her smile was big and she was just bouncing in excitement.

“Mommy! Daddy’s on the screen!” She babbled excitedly as she tried her hardest to pull you in the direction of your room. You laughed, and slipped your hand from her’s to quickly clean your hands before picking her up.

“Okay, okay.” You chuckled and gave her sides a little squeeze that had her giggling. “Let’s go see Daddy,” you hummed smiling and walked her back into your bedroom.

The laptop was sat in the middle of the bed, and sure enough, Bucky’s face was on the screen. Warmth spread through you as you got a good look at him. His hair was longer than the last time you saw him, and he had some scruff on his face.

You then sat on the bed, coming into view for him, with your daughter on your lap. Bucky’s eyes instantly brighten and he moved closer to the screen.  "Hi,“ he breathed and you hugged your daughter closer to your chest as you laughed softly.

"Hi,” you replied a teasing smile dancing on your lips as he rolled his eyes. He knew you were making fun of him, because you two talked almost every night since he had been gone. But this was the first time you two have seen each other in a month.

The moment was then ruined when your daughter squirmed from your grasp and lunged closer to the laptop. She began to talk to Bucky excitedly, telling him everything that has happened since he was gone. You smirked, and sat back as you watched your daughter and how intensely your husband was listening to her.

“And then, Aunt Nat came by and got me a toy!” Rose rambled, her arms moving around as she talked to her dad. Bucky’s smile was fondly directed to his daughter, and he had been listening to her intently for maybe the past twenty minutes and you felt like now would be the best time to interrupt.

“Hey Honey, why don’t you get the doll Nat got you so you can show, Daddy.” You asked and she turned to you with wide eyes like you said the most amazing thing ever. She then shot from the bed and sprinted to her room causing both you and Bucky to laugh.

“I miss her so much,” his smile wavering a little bit as you moved the laptop closer. His blue eyes shined a little more, but not with happiness as his eyes flickered to yours. “I miss you.” And that’s when his voice cracked and your heart stuttered. You immediately wanted to hug him.

“Well, you’ll get to see us tomorrow.” You smiled trying to brighten the mood again. You could hear your daughter stumbling around her room in search of her doll. Bucky then shook his head and looked down, your lips curved into a frown.

“I can’t-” he looked up to you and the tears had welled up in his eyes. “I have to stay another month,” he mumbled and a few tears slipped causing your own eyes to tear up too.

“What? What do you mean?” You asked and Bucky ran a hand through his hair.

“T'Challa wants me to stay another month in Wakanda, he thinks he’s found a way to upgrade my arm. Maybe make it look more natural.” Bucky explained. “And he thinks he’s finally found a way to get the words out of my head, for good.”

Before you could reply, Rose came back and waved her doll in front of the camera. “See Daddy! It looks just like me!” She exclaimed with a wide smile.

“That’s nice, Baby.” He smiled, his eyes still teary eyed. Rose noticed the change of his voice and turned her head to you to ask something but stopped once she saw a tear roll down your cheek.

Her small arms wrapped around you instantly. “Don’t cry Mommy!” She softly said, her own voice wavering. She never seen you or her Dad cry before and it slightly scared her. Your eyes met Bucky’s and you could see he felt even more bad. He never wanted to see you or his daughter cry.

You sniffled and rubbed your hand on your daughter’s back. “It’s okay,” you reassured before hearing a door open from Bucky’s side. He looked away, wiping his hands on his face. There was some soft talking before he nodded and looked over at you. You gave him a small smile and nodded. “Hey Baby, say bye to Daddy. He’s gotta go.”

You daughter stayed snuggled into your chest as she turned her head to face the camera again. “Bye Daddy, I love you!” She smiled softly and you could see the conflict in Bucky’s eyes. You could see how much he wished to be with you guys.

“I love you too, Радость моя.” He said before looking over at you. “I love you,” he said and you hugged your daughter a little tighter, who hugged you tighter as well.

“Forever and always,” you replied with a small smile, blowing him a kiss.

“Always and forever,” he said and then the screen went dark and your heart thudded with sadness.

It’s been a week.

You were still sad, but with your daughter, your hands were always full and you were always busy so that meant you didn’t have to dwell on the fact that you won’t see your husband for another month.

You also have decided that he can no longer go on long missions. Three months away from him, it’s hard and you don’t want to do it again.

You were just washing dishes, when your laptop beeped. Your daughter was already asleep, so you quietly sat the plate back in the sink before drying your hands and running to your room.

The laptop was always open just in case Bucky ever skyped again, so when you saw ‘incoming call’ you expected to see Bucky’s face, but instead you saw Steve’s. You immediately accepted the call, a little confused, but still smiled when Steve and Sam’s faces popped up.

“Hey guys,” you greeted and they both smiled saying hello. You then let out a little laugh,“ not to be rude guys, but why are you calling me?” You asked.

Sam chuckled and leaned closer to the camera, “are you not happy to see us, Y/N?” He teased and you rolled your eyes and laughed.

“You already know I would rather see someone else than you, no offense though.” You smiled. Both of them smile and laughed nodding their heads.

“Speaking of which,” Steve started and your smile faltered. In a split second you were going through every scenario in your head that involved something bad and Bucky.

“What happened?” You asked instantly and brought the laptop closer to you.

“Nothing, other than Bucky’s been a total drag.” Sam said. “He’s always moping around, and it’s bumming me out Y/N.” Sam groaned and Steve rolled his eyes at Sam.

“He misses you,” Steve said and your heart fluttered.

“We miss him too,” you said and gave a small smile.

“And you already know he has to stay another few weeks,” Steve said and you nodded your head.

“And since he’s being a drag-” Sam interrupted.

“What do you think about maybe us flying you guys out to surprise visit him?” Steve finished with a smile.

Your lips curved into a smile, “when do we leave?”

You didn’t realize how fast they moved. After talking with the boys, they told you that T'Challa would send one of his jets to you. You thought that you would be flying the next day, but no, they said the jet would get there in a few hours.

So with that said, you immediately began to pack. Packing for yourself and for your daughter before gently picking her up and locking the apartment door behind you.

A rush of excitement flowed through your veins as you boarded onto the stealth jet. You couldn’t wait to see your husband and you knew when your daughter woke up, she would flip.

The flight to Wakanda from New York was surprisingly fast. But you guess you shouldn’t be surprised because Wakanda’s technology was far advanced than most.

When the plane landed, the sun was just rising and the air was cool. The door opened and you were instantly greeted by T'Challa.

“Hello,” he greeted with a soft smile. A few people took your bags, leaving you to just hold you daughter. “I hope the flight was well.” He said as his eyes flickered to a still sleeping Rose, you smiled.

“It was lovely, thank you for doing this.” And he shook his head as you two began to walk. He walked with confidence and grace and you could tell he would be a great ruler whether he knew it or not.

“It was nothing, I know Bucky was missing you two dearly.” He said with a smile as he led you into a big room. There was tables every where, and it looked like a eating area. “Now, I must leave you. Some business to attend to.” He said giving a slight bow.

But before he could leave you took a step forward, “Where’s Bucky?” You asked softly and he gave you another smile.

“Steve and Sam are keeping him preoccupied, he’ll be here shortly.” He said and you smiled nodding and he returned the gesture before leaving.

You heard Bucky before you saw him. A few pairs of footsteps sounded down one hall that seemed to get closer.

“What Sam?” Bucky sighed exasperated, “what could it be that you just HAD to show me right now?” A smirk formed on your lips and you moved your sleeping daughter a little as you stood up. You gently woke her up just as Bucky came to view.

He immediately halted, his lips parting in surprise as your smile grew. “Daddy!” Rose screamed and you set her gently on her feet before she instantly sprinted to her dad.

Bucky crouched down as Sam stood next to him smiling, Buck opened his arms as he smiled and Rose launched herself to him. Steve came just in time as Bucky picked up his daughter twirling her into a tight hug as she giggled.

You walked closer to them and Bucky turned to you, never letting go of Rose, as he pulled you into a hug. “Hey,” you giggled, you didn’t think his smile could get bigger.

He didn’t answer you right away, instead he kissed you passionately with your daughter still in his arms. “Ew!” She giggled and you broke the kiss with a smile.

“Hi,” he breathed, holding you and Rose against him. Your eyes flickered to Sam and Steve who stood to the side with their arms crossed.

“Thank you,” you smiled and Steve nodded his head.

“Anything so he would stop moaning and groaning,” Sam smirked and Bucky rolled his eyes again. He then gave Rose a big kiss on her cheek causing her to giggle and pulled you closer.

Yeah, Bucky was not going to do long missions for a long time.

[Fic]: The Tiger and The Lion

Summary: Yuri Plisetsky was going to buy the coolest leopard hat he had ever seen when some bastard in front of him took it.

Aka, Yuri Plisetsky and Kenjiro Minami met. 

Thank you @nikooki for the beta, for going along with my crazy caffeine-high idea, and for the brilliant inspiration that Minami is a smol lion. ಥ⌣ಥ

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I’m so over it. 

I’m so over seeing the phrase “reduced to a love interest” in reference to Natasha Romanoff. 

I’m so over the fact that I’m still seeing this shit in my tags. I’m over the mean-spiritedness. I’m over the weird revisionist history tumblr seems to go through with every new Marvel movie.

Natasha is literally the aggressor and instigator of every potentially “romantic” thing that happens onscreen. She picked something she wanted and she tried to go for it, and unluckily for her, it was a person who has, somewhat understandably, willed himself into a state of emotional submissiveness and distance and has probably forgotten what it’s like to be thought of as a person someone could find romantically appealing. She literally instigates all of the flirting, the emotional appeals, she tries her damndest, and sadly, picked the Long Weekend of Ultron to make good on her feelings. Yeah, she honed her vision in on Bruce Banner, of all people, the guy who’s superpower is literally Emotional Instability. Of course it’s not a great choice, and I’m pretty sure Bruce would agree. 

yeah, their first interactions were fraught. They didn’t trust each other, for various good reasons. But it’s clear that in the three-year interim between Avengers movies, they’ve done the Grown-Up thing and actually worked on it. Figured out a literal system that visually demonstrates that they trust each other. It’s not about “taming the beast,” its an agreement, Hulk is literally agreeing to disappear and return Bruce back to the team, it’s an agreement that implies trust and safety, especially since the end of the “lullaby” depicts Bruce at his most physically and probably mentally vulnerable. You have to trust someone to let that happen. 

And yeah, they’re not Cary Grant and Katherine Hepburn. Of course it’s awkward. Of course it’s painful. Natasha is blunt and over-literal in her flirting because she’s trying to be like “hey dummy, stop being emotionally constipated for two seconds, I’m talking about you right here with the face.” Bruce has to work hard to access these parts of himself. 

It’s not a sweeping romance and was never going to be, and Natasha is still trying to connect things and imagine something nice for the two of them even when they’ve been traumatized, even when Bruce is insisting that there literally is nothing to look forward to with him. Bruce is the one getting way ahead of himself, being an idiot and bringing up children when all Natasha wants is to have something good for half a second. Something private. 

I’m tired of Natasha being called a vehicle for Bruce’s “man angst.” When Bruce is verbally rejecting the idea of being with Natasha, he’s not being willfully moody, he’s just been forced against his will to destroy part of a city. You know, that thing that he’s been terrified of doing since his introduction into the franchise. He’s just had any goodwill people might have felt about the Hulk completely disappear. He thinks he’s going to be arrested and locked up, you know, that thing he was so worried about in the first half of the Avengers. He literally sees no future for himself. It’s never brought up again. No one ever asks him if he’s okay. Maybe people in the MCU fandom take it lightly because the movie seems to take it so lightly. He thinks it’s his fault, he talks about people finally seeing “the real Hulk” because he’s been waiting for this to happen for five years. That’s not brooding. That’s trauma. 

Natasha rejects these concepts, and never indicates that she’s going to carry that for him. Neither of them respond perfectly, they haven’t gotten to that point, of being emotionally supportive in the way each other would like, because they only just started thinking about this possibility and all of the sudden, they’ve been psychologically triggered to their breaking points and the world is ending. They act weird. You would act weird. She’s not pining, she’s not weak, she’s a human person who feels disappointment. That has to be painful, to say “hey maybe give it a try” and for the universe to answer back so negatively. That’s what Wanda’s vision reminds her, not that she’s “a monster who can’t have babies” but that so many choices, desired or not, aren’t in her hands and they never will be. Just like Bruce. She’s trying to commiserate. Bruce doesn’t know what to do with it. 

Natasha is the one strong enough to put aside her fears, to put aside what she wants, in order to save the world. She answers the call, she chooses to help total strangers over giving her heart something it wants, and she does it at the potential cost of Bruce’s trust. That thing they’ve spent years of potential trial and error trying to build. 

It’s not about “otp” its not about love or the “feels”or “endgame”, it’s about the concept of having something else outside of the fight. That’s what the whole movie is about. Of having a private life, or a future, or a family, if you’re Natasha it’s about making choices, ones she was never supposed to make outside of her life as an assassin, even if they’re not the best ones, they are hers, and if you’re Bruce it’s the question of whether he can ever get beyond the moment-to-moment life of being the Hulk (which includes being valued, includes doing his own work, includes allowing himself to feel unrestrained emotions). And in AOU, neither of them get what they want. Natasha has to put aside the thing she wants (literally pushes it off a cliff), and Bruce, who doesn’t make a great many decisions of his own in the movie (at least without an egregious amount of coercing), decides he’s got too much blood on his hands already to keep being an Avenger. He doesn’t just “reject Natasha’s love”, he gives up his only found-family and his home to face a world that doesn’t want him, completely alone. 

It’s not about whether or not they were romantic or a good couple, they were never a real couple in the first place, and they’re not together now. Maybe they would have been an awful couple. Maybe they would have dated and would have been sweet and quiet and private, and helped each other through their worst impulses. They don’t even get out of the gate. They’re not a couple. But they thought for a few seconds that they could be, and circumstances proved otherwise. 

I’m tired of arguing about how they “put her in a cage and made her a damsel in distress.” She stays where she is because that’s literally where the conflict is. She brings everyone to her. Yeah, she can get out of a cell but can she fight her way through literal hundreds upon hundreds of murderous robots? Can you???? I’m tired of the idea that Natasha’s sense of compassion, despite her upbringing, is so highly thought of until it’s directed towards someone tumblr doesn’t approve of. If you wanted Natasha romantically involved with someone else, that’s not my problem but you might still get your wish- because, and remember now, she and Bruce were literally never a couple. If having a Never Canonically Monogamous female character expressing some semblance of romantic desire (during her 4th appearance in the franchise) and then try to act on it “ruins” her for you, then that is your hangup. She made a questionable decision. She acted imperfectly. She followed through with her decision until the end. And if you have to justify your anger, Bruce is fairly thoroughly punished by the narrative anyway. 

But it doesn’t seem like the Russos are going to “fix” this or pretend like it never happened, narratively speaking. If you’re offended by the idea that Natasha, a canonically compassionate and empathetic human being, still has positive feelings towards Bruce, that, again, is not my problem or Marvel’s problem. 

And on the topic of how Scarlett Johannsson feels about this part of Natasha’s story? I think she’s put the topic to bed.

“Everything that I’ve done with the Widow, to me makes sense. It’s in line with active decisions that I’ve made for the character.”

anonymous asked:

ok here's another thing I wanna hear you talk about: what's the Boss's relationship with Troy in and around SR2 and SR3? is it guilt over Julius attempting to murder the Playa that makes Troy work to protect them? Troy is even recruitable as a homie in SR2, and Jane Austen's narration in SRIV makes it sound like he kept up with the Saints for some time. the cops (? I think they were but maybe Syndicate) in the opening mission of SR3 taunt the Saints saying "Troy can't get you out of this one!"

Troy is loyal to the Saints. ive written about his loyalty before actually! his phonecalls with Julius are pretty strong evidence towards this; 

Troy: “I want the Saints to be gone. Now there’s two ways that can happen.”
Julius Little: “You can arrest all of us…”
Troy: “Or you guys can quit while you’re ahead! This is my investigation, I can miss a few collars.”

Troy: “You think I like arresting my friends? Convince ‘em to quit and I won’t have to.” 

he has a line during SR1 as well which i think explains a lot about his perspective on his time with the Saints – hes actually talking about Lin but its pretty obvious what he really means

“You roll with people long enough and pretty soon you start thinkin’ like ‘em”

on top of just… refusing to arrest the Saints, Troy also arranged for protection for Johnny when Johnny was in jail (despite the fact Johnny was in jail for trying to kill him

“Ya know, it’s weird… people inside were betting how long I’d last… when I was first busted, guards were always tryin’ to put me in the ground. After Troy became Chief of Police, it all stopped. Troy must be more forgiving than I am.”

and theres the fact he refused to take the Boss off life-support for five years, and his cover-up of the Saints robbing the casino (yeeeaahhh Troy im sure youre still working on finding leads…. im sure you have no clue who robbed the place despite the security footage that clearly shows the Boss robbing the place)

Troy is a recruitable homie in SR2, (you have to beat all six levels of Fight Club in Stilwater Prison) and he has some…. great lines. the most important one of these naturally being the line;

“Once a Saint, always a Saint.”

and thats pretty much Troy’s feelings about the Saints in a nutshell. he had to carry on being a cop but he never stopped considering himself a Saint. a lot of his lines express both nostalgia– “This takes me back,” “Ah, some things never change”– but theres also a level of reluctance and an understanding he cant let himself fall back into being a gangster, he has other responsibilities 

“Just because you cleaned those gangs out doesn’t mean we’re best friends again”, “I make the rules around here, you understand?” 

(you considered Playa one of your best friends? aaawww, Troy)

bbuuuuttt hes clearly fond of the Boss, “No one does it better”, “Let’s crack a few skulls for old time’s sake”, “Yeah, alright, you’re the man!” 

so hes in a position where hes trying to have the best of both worlds, really. he wants to do right by his friends – even if they hate him, even if they want to kill him – but he cares about his job and he cares about being a cop… even if hes not particularly a good cop (there are dozens of lines about him being willing to overlook the Boss running people over). hes conflicted but hes trying to do what he thinks is right. you can make your own mind about whether or not what hes doing is right. 

in SR3 i imagine its actually easier on him now that the Saints are beloved by a million people and even the cops are asking them for autographs. the “Troy can’t bail you out of this one!” line is probably referencing the fact its a Syndicate bank theyre robbing, which Troy wont have influence over. 

ssoooo in conclusion: Troy probably knew he could do better and help his friends more by staying a cop but he also wants to keep on being a Saint. maybe he would have been happier just being a Saint. 

When I Was Your Man

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Luke Hemmings Imagine

Word Count: 1.2k+

Rating: not smut tho

Warning: this is not a normal “happy” ending

Luke swirled his drink with his straw. He clenched his fist around his glass, his eyes darting between you and the hands that were intertwined with yours.

Luke was angry even though he knew he had no right to be.

Never giving you the time of day, there was no doubt why you left his unappreciative ass. He was blind, couldn’t see what he had when he had it. Now it was gone and he wasn’t sure if he could handle it.

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Five Minutes [part iv]

hheeeeelloo der! Sorry i haven’t posted this earlier, but I’ve been working on some other stories and this somehow got pushed back on my to-do list. this is the last part. im not completely happy with it, i think i could’ve done something less cliche but i wanted my toes to curl while reading it. and also, regarding my blog, I decided to keep my requests open during august!

Pairing: Peter Parker x reader

Word Count: 1.2k

Warnings: none

“Five Minutes” 

part i

part ii

part iii

The rest of the battle was a blur, a mixture of Tony shouting things through the com and something about a giant ant. Honestly, you really couldn’t care less. The real fight was making sure Peter was going to be okay. Despite Tony’s constant pleads for you to rejoin the conflict, you stayed by Peter’s side until the end.

Black Widow had found you kneeling next to him, clutching onto his hand. She convinced you to use your powers to transport Peter to your own jet. At first you were hesitant, feeling unconfident of you abilities. But seeing as though anyone capable of moving him was preoccupied with fighting, you had no other choice. You gently surround his still body with your energy and move him, considering him to be as fragile as a snowflake. Natasha watched the surroundings, making sure there were no threats to the process.

When Peter’s body hit the medi-cot, you sighed with relief. He hadn’t died on the way here.

“Good job, (Y/n). You should get some rest.” She placed a reassuring hand on your shoulder.

You smiled gratefully, “Thanks Natasha, but I can’t rest until Peter wakes up.”

She chuckled gently at your decision, “You really like him, huh?”

Reflecting on your answer, you nod vigorous. “He’s the only good, positive person in my life…plus he a dork,” you added with a small chuckle.

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