im sorry you dont matter anymore

anonymous asked:

... I don't know what to do with my life anymore... My dreams were crushed and I can't even love who I want... I really want to kill myself, but I'm too scared. I want help but I don't know what to do... I'm sorry...

Please dont do anything rash anon san , you may not be able to have a relationship with the person you love now but im sure that in the future youll find someone who loves and supports you no matter what! And suicide is never the answer if youd like to talk my ask and messages are always open!

Originally posted by hopeless-hugger

being best friends with calum would include:
  • someone finally getting the poor boy a puppy 
  • “this is why i love you”
  • literally being power couple even if you two aren’t going out
  • him looking at you like you put the stars in the sky
  • “you know, you’re actually really pretty if i’m being honest”
  • him bringing over movies and sweets when you’re sad
  • him beating tf out of everyone who so much as looks at you in the wrong way
  • walking around in your underwear bc you’re both rlly comfortable w each other
  • him getting your initials tattooed
  • “but cal what happens if we stop being friends”
  • “is this your way of telling me you dont wanna be friends with me anymore”
  • him assuring you that you’ll always be a special part of his life so it wouldnt matter if he got the tattoo and you guys would stop being friends
  • lots of cuddles when one of you is sad
  • forehead kisses :-(
  • playful neck kisses
  • “fuck babe did you just moan”
  • “cal did i give you a boner”
  • “well im sorry i cant help that youre fucking gorgeous”
  • drunk hookups 
  • bomb af ig pics
  • literally everyones relationship goals
  • 4 am fast food runs
  • driving around for a little bit
  • screaming at the top of your lungs with the windows rolled down
  • borrowing his beanies and hoodies
  • him blushing when you kiss his cheek
  • picking you up and spinning you around
  • being first to hear new music he’s written
  • “come on tour w me”
  • getting you lotsa gifts “just bc”
  • “but what if i dont wanna be just friends anymore?”



I hear my name rippling through the hot air, spreading out into the hospital. “Katniss! Katniss Everdeen!” The sounds of pain and grief begin to recede, to be replaced by words of anticipation. From all sides, voices beckon me. I begin to move … saying hello, how are you, good to meet you. Nothing of importance, no amazing words of inspiration. But it doesn’t matter. Boggs is right. It’s the sight of me, alive, that is the inspiration. (x)

I want to apologize to all my followers for dragging them into all the drama in between me and a few certain people from our fandom.I wont get involved with them again ,fighting like this is really childish and a lot of people got dragged in who didnt deserve it and i feel like this must come to an end.Im sorry if some of you are disappointed in me,or think im a “bully” i dont think ive ever really insulted anyone or bullied anyone,both sides had faults but that doesnt matter anymore,and im sorry that my blog has became a place you dont enjoy as much as before,i really want it to be a place that makes you smile and i promise itll be like that again.I know im not a bully or some awful evil person and ill make sure this is the last post concerning my relations with them,i hope they too see how pointless and draining for both sides it is and put a stop .

Originally posted by animebigworld