im sorry if you don't like this

anonymous asked:

I don't know who to talk to but death is a very weird thing for me like I dont know how to react i just get very confused im sorry this is stupid

There’s no right or wrong way to react, babe. Unless it’s crude, of course, which I definitely don’t think you’re being. And it’s certainly not stupid to feel this way.

I think this is an odd situation. It feels very similar to Jay’s death for me. I’ve been a fan of One Direction since 2012, and Jay and Robin were strong and obvious forces within the fandom. But I never actually knew them, so does that mean I’m not allowed to grieve? I don’t know. I don’t have an answer to that question.

All I know is that Jay and Robin’s love for their boys, for the band, for the fandom, and for life made me feel closer to them. All of the stories I’ve heard about both of them - how nice they were to fans, how charitable they were in their everyday lives, how they woke up every day and made the decision to lead with love - makes it feel like I’m allowed to mourn. 

They were such good people. You could tell from the smiles on their faces alone. Their families - more than any other family associated with One Direction - have been so attacked, so intruded upon, so dragged through the dirt. Yet they still greeted every fan with a hug and a smile; with a conversation that lasted more than ten seconds. 

I’m going to allow myself to feel whatever I’m feeling. It’s a sad day. I know I will never know what Robin’s family is going through, and I’m not diminishing their grief by going through my own. That’s the last thing I want to do. But I can still be sad, because in a tiny way, Robin has been a small part of my life for the past five years, so I’m feeling it today. And that’s okay.

  • person: *talks about something they're passionate about even if I don't know much about it or can relate too much*
  • person: aAAH I'M SORRY I SHOULD STOP TALKING SORRY FOR BOTHERING-
  • me: Listen. Listen. I love listening to what you're passionate about. It's fun listening. You don't have to apologize. It's good talking about things you like. Enjoy yourself.
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kiss practice? idk really.

i just think lance deserves the world’s affection and love.

there’s something about even’s little nod in this scene 

because even knows. he’s not oblivious, he notices the way isak reacts to his presence, to him. he’s been noticing him for weeks, weeks before they first met. he saw the way isak was when he came over to his place the previous week, he saw the look in his eyes, the light in his eyes, he saw the way he smiled and laughed, he noticed the changes in his voice. he probably memorized his facial expressions and the things he said last friday. kept replaying them in his mind every single day, in class, before going to bed, when he was with other people 

earlier in that episode, when he came to give isak his snapback, in a matter of seconds, he understood that isak hadn’t told his friends he had gone to his place, he understood that he didn’t want them to know. because he sees and understands. he remembered the cardamom on the cheese toasties five weeks later, how they were sitting on the floor of his room as they ate them, he remembered isak saying he had a drop of water in his throat, he remembered isak talking about parallel universes. because he pays such close attention to isak and the way he looks and moves and speaks and all the things he says

do you think that even, who saw this boy on the first day of school, who was probably looking forward to seeing him even when it was just at school, in public, in rooms and hallways with other students, would not notice how isak was acting? notice the way he’s been looking at him the moment he showed up at his place for the pregame? the way he starred at him when he kissed sonja and looked at him straight in the eyes? how tensed he was as he told him about sonja and how they’d been together for years? the intonation of his voice as he said his okay’s (been together since we were 15. okay. can’t dump her. okay). do you think that even who’s been desperately trying to spend time alone with this boy he was falling for would not notice the smile that spread all over isak’s face when he realized that even was messing with him, the smile he was trying to stop it, in vain? do you think he would not sense his attraction to him? the vulnerability?

of course even notices. and since he came to see isak in his kitchen, he’s only been kidding, pretending not to be serious. but with that little nod, he grows more serious. with that little nod, it’s like he’s saying i see you, i see it, i’ve seen you for a while. it’s reassuring. it’s okay. it’s understanding. i know, isak. i know. me too

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did some facial ref practice with the vento aureo gang also @ davidpro part 5 when????

cutepunkk  asked:

ahhhh!! i need to know more about ??? because he's an edgy emo boy and i love. (also im sorry if this seems demanding, i understand you have work and commissions too!! pls don't stress abt this) ♡♡♡

It’s ok ♥ I’m glad to see ppl interested about Taemin’s AU ;;o;; ♥
Good thing I have a recent doodle of him (which I posted on my IG stories a few days ago)!

Basically ??? only wants to make his father (Saeran) proud of him ((in this AU, we continue from Jumin’s After Ending && Saeran was not rescued and everyone went on with their lives)) – also he steals Saeran’s eyeliner just like how Seojun steals Saeyoung’s makeup for cosplay lmao

*somewhere somehow taemin unknowingly wrecks this ship*

I’ll be posting some more info about them when I get to finishing their ref sheets ((since even im confused w their designs because all i have are doodles and some cgs HAHA)) ^__^ Thank you!!! ♥ ♥ ♥

I finished my Valentines card for bae. Submit your valentines cards to me so I can check them out! Also happy birthday to my lovely son

I get all the chicks with my amazing crafting skills.. All of them Sorry not sorry.
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Are You Happy? photoshoot; requested by @sougoii

  • them: if people don't have to work for anything, they wouldn't do any work, and nothing would get done
  • me: so you're telling me you do everything because you want money
  • them: yes
  • me: so like you have no hobbies or anything? You don't do art on the side or work on cars for fun or anything like that?
  • them: well hobbies don't count!!! those are things I actually enjoy doing
  • me: so ur telling me you'd willingly do something productive even if you weren't paid?
  • them: ... im sorry I can no longer read.
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Dear white people,

Here’s a little tip. When you ask someone who looks ethnically different, “What are you?” the answer is usually, “A person about to slap the shit out of you.”

some people make me feel so worthless, it hurts sometimes, I just wish to sleep for over a week without dealing with anything.