im sorry i just have feels right now

@ people who have food issues cause of their illness

im sorry if eating has become more of a burden than a pleasure for you

im sorry if people dont understand and think youre just a picky eater

im sorry if youre afraid to eat, afraid of the pain or concequences that come with eating

im sorry if you cant talk about your food issues because its an “inappropriate topic” to bring up.

im sorry if people feel like theyre entitled to know your issues, im sorry if youve been robbed of that personal privacy.

im sorry if going to restaurants is really hard for you, you dont deserve to go through this, to have something that should be fun made into a hell

im sorry if you have to watch other people eat food that you love and that you cant eat cause of your illness.

im sorry if you have to starve all day when you go out because the place youre at has nothing you can eat

im sorry if you cant go out and be carefree about what you have to eat because you have to worry about what itll do to you

im sorry if theres a type of food you loved and you had to give up cause of your illness

im really sorry people think that youre just complaining over nothing when you talk about how much you miss not worrying or not being able to eat a type of food,

you have every right to mourn what your illness has taken from you, whether it be the food itself, the love of eating, the lack of worry, or the concequences of eating something, etc etc.

im sorry if the holidays have turned into the worst times for you, im sorry if family or friends arent understanding or if just watching everyone be able to eat anything any time they want makes you upset.

you have every right to any emotion this makes you feel

im sorry if people push off your issues to “oh if they just ate less/more theyd feel better”

im sorry if youre told to stop complaining because you “dont have it that bad”

you matter

your issues matter

and you will get through this.

theres alot of other things, im sure, butthis is all i can think of for now.

anonymous asked:

omg i just found ur blog i love ur stuff so much. could i possibly have rfa + unknown doing the "boyfriend duty"? like mc is stuck at home with no tampons or pads and asks them? lol sorry im dealing with really bad cramps right now and im having a crappy day to top it. i just thought i might ask? sorry if it makes you uncomfrortable. <3

Aww, thank you! Sorry you’re having a rough day. Hope this makes you feel a little better. 



General Scenario: You’re at the apartment and your period comes earlier than expected….and you’re all out of tampons/pads. You’re super embarrassed but you call them and ask if they can pick up a pack.

Zen:

  • He’s done this before
  • He has had other girlfriends
  • He has no shame at the store and knows exactly what to get
  • But he also shows up at your place with a whole load of chocolates
  • Waits on you hand and foot
  • “Zen, I just have my period. I’m not dying.”
  • Still treats you like a princess
  • Constantly makes sure you have a hot pack and water
  • You two watch his musicals all day

Yoosung:

  • He has a sister, so he’s encountered this before
  • But he’s still really flustered
  • Is kinda embarrassed about being seen buying pads at the store
  • Calls Zen
  • “Zen hyung, do you have any of your masks?”
  • “Yoosung, no.”
  • Swallows his pride cuz it’s you and does what he needs to do
  • He comes and brings his lucky LOLOL blanket
  • Is a super worrier…constantly asks if you need stuff
  • Puts his coffee skills to use and makes a heart in the foam
  • Lots of cuddles

Jaehee:

  • She literally goes through the same thing
  • Turns into the mom-friend
  • She’s stocked up with extra pads/tampons, so it only takes her a few minutes to get to you
  • Also has extra pain meds
  • Brings a cup of hot chocolate with her
  • Talks to you to distract you from the pain
  • If your cramps were really bad, she’d cook you dinner and make sure everything was in order
  • Calls you the next day to see if you’re a bit better

Jumin:

  • “Oh no, I’ll send Driver Kim to get some–”
  • “No! Jumin, that’s really embarrassing.”
  • Fine…he’ll go to the store himself
  • He doesn’t care what people think, so he just goes to the right aisle
  • There’s another woman in the aisle, and he kinda throws her off by asking her, “Excuse me…which brand is the absolute best?”
  • Buys a bunch of things he thinks will make you feel better
  • But he’s especially excited to get you these sweatpants since you always say how comfy you are
  • You’re a bit emotional when he comes, so when he gifts you with them, you cry 
  • “Are you okay?? They’re just pants, dear? Do they upset you?”
  • Handles your mood swings reallyyyyy well and just goes with it
  • Gives you some wine to relax you
  • Also has an exact schedule for your pain killers….exactly every four hours on the dot.

Seven:

  • RIP Seven
  • He has 0 experience in this
  • He’s not embarrassed until he gets there and has no idea what to get
  • Tries to call Vanderwood for back up…but he hangs up on him
  • Ends up getting a bunch of brands and types (and also snacks)
  • When he gets there, he shows you the spongebob tampons he bought
  • Also brings out red pads.
  • “MC, you know what red represents?” *Winks*
  • You stare at him horrified
  • “Romance!” seven nooooo
  • Super serious when he sees you in a lot of pain
  • While you nap, he’ll make a robot that dispenses pain-relievers every 4-6 hours

Saeran:

  • Like Seven, he has no experience with any of this
  • But he’s a lot less flustered about it
  • Does research online about period needs and remedies
  • The cashier is more scared of Saeran glaring at him than the other way around
  • He gets to your apartment and brings out all this practical stuff
  • He got a whole pack of water bottles and….a yoga ball?
  • “Yoga is a great way to relieve cramps and keep your menstrual cycle normal.”
  • You’re trying not to laugh because he’s actually really sweet about it
  • You ask for him just to cuddle, since it relaxes you
  • He says no at first…but then of course, he’s at your side five minutes later
  • dork
Malfoys don’t get sick 🤒

“I am not sick. Malfoys do not get sick!”

Harry gave Draco a skeptical look as the blond blew his nose for the seventh time since he had entered the room five minutes ago.

“Right,” Harry said, clicking his tongue.

“I am not sick,” Draco growled. He turned his back to Harry and made his way to the sofa, plopping down on it.

“Draco, there is no shame in being sick.”

“I am not- not- Achoo!”

Harry handed Draco another tissue before sitting down next to him. He lifted his hand and gently put it on Draco’s forehead.

“Oh, you’re burning up.”

“I’m not,” Draco said, pushing Harry’s hand away. “Besides, I feel cold.”

Harry pinched the bridge of his nose.

“You’re obviously running a fever. Maybe I should call Hermione. I’m sure she could cure you of-”

“I don’t need her. I don’t need anything,” Draco interrupted him. “I am perfectly fi- fi- Achoo!”

Harry let out a sigh and shook his head.

“At least lie down and rest for a bit?”

Draco gave him a dark look that didn’t last for long.

“Well… I am a little tired.”

“Alright then,” Harry said, making room for Draco to lie down. He summoned two blankets from their bedroom and tucked his boyfriend in.

“There,” Harry said soothingly. “Sleep it off, okay?” He stroked Draco’s hair who nodded weakly before his eyelids fluttered shut.

After making sure Draco was fast asleep, Harry went into the kitchen to prepare something for Draco to eat when he woke up. He knew just what to do.

Two hours later, when Harry went back to the living room, a vase and several books were floating in mid-air, right above Draco’s head. Harry quickly set the tray of steaming porridge he was holding down on the table and got out his wand. He sent the vase and the books back to the shelf and kneeled down beside Draco.

“I think you’re magic is going a bit bonkers,” he murmured. Draco cracked open an eye and smiled dazedly at Harry.

“Hey,” he croaked.

“Hey.” Harry stroked his hair again and seated himself on the edge of the couch. “Are you hungry?”

“Ugh!” Draco weakly shook his head and scrunched up his nose.

“Come on, it’s Molly’s secret porridge recipe. Here.” Harry summoned the tray and placed it on his lap. “I’ll feed you.”

“I’m not letting you feed me porridge,” Draco said, his face twisting in disgust.

“Is it the porridge you’re opposed to or me feeding it to you?”

Draco didn’t answer but clutched the corners of the blankets tighter around him.

“Come on, you have to eat something. And you’re shivering so much, I think you will drop the spoon as soon as I hand it to you. Let me feed you.” Harry held out the spoon in front of Draco’s mouth with no sign of cooperation from his boyfriend. “Draco, come on. Just let me feed you. You know, it would be kind of cute, too.”

“Cute,” Draco repeated, a disgusted look on his face.

“Yeah. Now that I think about it, it’s nice to have someone I can take care of.”

Draco seemed to ponder this for a moment before hesitantly opening his mouth and accepting the spoonful of porridge.

“What else would that entail? You taking care of… me?”

Harry’s face split into a grin as he offered Draco more porridge.

“Well, I guess that would depend.”

“Depend on what?” Draco asked, slowly taking another bite.

“On the circumstances. For example, if you were sick, I’d definitely want to keep cooking for you. And after you finished eating we could go upstairs and I could hold you and warm you until you stopped shivering. We could take a hot bath together. I’d make you some tea, get your favourite biscuits and I could give you a massage if you feel like it. But since you’re not sick…” Harry peered at his boyfriend from under his lashes and held back a snicker.

“Well,” Draco began quietly. “Maybe… Maybe I am a little sick.”

“Sure, just a little,” Harry laughed, putting the porridge aside and gently pulled Draco into his arms.

there’ll be times, sometimes, when … once even and sana are close enough, and i mean, really really close enough, to the point where even can ring sana even at 2am because there’s an ache, a heaviness, in his chest 

or 

he can’t sleep because he’s been thinking about something too deeply, and so he rings sana, because he needs words right now. 

words

and sana’s good with words. because she speaks when she has to, not when she needs to. and there’s a difference in that. sana isn’t selfish. she won’t speak because she needs to speak to have her say in a situation. she’ll only speak when she has to speak, because the situation is demanding for her to have her say

and there’s a difference in that. because sana listens. she’s always listening.

but sometimes, even wants to listen. and he wants to hear sana talk. explain something that’s been on his mind. “how can this be, if this coexists too?”, and “do you not get tired, sana?”

so, sometimes, he’ll ring her, like on a saturday at 5pm, because isak’s not at home because he’s out with jonas and even’s at home, alone, because he doesn’t wanna go out. 

and so he asks her how she is, how she’s been. “alhamdulillah,” she’ll say in reply. 

“i know what that means,” says even, “all praise be to Allah, right?”, and he can hear sana laughing, that gentle soft laughter that he remembers so well from the christmas kosegruppa party last year. it’s the same, fond, affectionate one. it tells him that indeed, he is right.

and usually, phone calls like those between them end up with even asking sana if she wants to come round to his and isak’s new crib, and usually, it always ends up with sana going. it’s easy. hanging out with sana is so, so easy. 

because on days like those, even asks sana, “could you pray something from the qur’aan?”, and sana does. and even listens, because even needs words. or when the adhaan sounds from sana’s phone, he knows what that means. and the spare room at even and isak’s new place has now unofficially become a prayer room for sana. they don’t know how it happened. or when it happened. it just happened. and there’s a prayer mat kept in that room too, just for sana, if she ever needed to pray when she came over (and she does come over very often).

and sometimes, even will catch a glimpse of sana praying her salah, raising her hands and folding them, if she kept the door open of the room,

and there’s something so peaceful about that. something that fills him up with such ease and calmness, as he watches her pray.

it’s something, even realises, he’s so honoured to have. so thankful to have. that this friendship he has with sana isn’t just surface level deep. no.

it resonates, right into the soul, spiritually, deep within.

i made a new hq!! love child because i have no self control and i just??? love him so much???? he’s the son of iwaizumi and oikawa and he couldn’t get any more perfect like– here’s the lowdown

-literal Boyfriend Material™

-“have you ever seen a man so beautiful you started crying?”

-loves dogs. basically is a dog (he’s a good boy). has a dog, a male black lab named Shiro. Kaoru thought he was being clever

-has the softest hair in the world

-his smile can cure terminal illness, lift droughts, and bring about world peace

-has a fan club. is totally unaware of its existence. will laugh if you tell him “lol sure, whatever u say”

-“Captain Bara-Arms”

-thighs can crush a watermelon

-his spike and serve will 10/10 rip your arms off. he’s the hulk

-doesn’t understand sarcasm

-literally The Most Charismatic Man in the World™

-bad at math but Always Tries His Best

-his birthday is May the 4th be with you. also loves star wars and knows every piece of trivia there is about the movies and the extended universe, don’t try him

i just. i have a lot of feelings about this boy right now im sorry

Just because I had a bit of a bad day...

Don’t listen to your elders when you tell them you wanna go into writing. No seriously, don’t listen to them when they ask you for your “back up” plan or if you’re “sure” you wanna go into writing.
Because if it weren’t for people who wanted to go into the arts, there would be no paintings to look at, no movies to watch, no animations to watch, no books to read, nothing. And that would be a boring life.
So keep writing. And fuck whatever anyone else tells you.

the mars signs, basically
  • mars in aries: "u know what. FUCk everything. why doesnt life just give me what i want!!! life is so SLOW and BORING and i want ADVENTURE why can't things just HAPPEN MY WAY for ONCE!!!" *someone tells them to chill* "who tf are you??? are you trying to fight me????? ok i dare you FIGHT ME"
  • mars in taurus: *bad stuff happens* "lol im fine" *more bad stuff happens* "@ life are u trying to provoke me...try harder it aint working" *the worst thing that could possibly happen happens* "OK THATS IT IM AT MY LIMIT. THAT WAS NOT NECESSARY. IM SO MAD RIGHT NOW I CANT EVEN THINK WTF WHY DOES THIS HAPPEN TO ME. anyways im actually totally chill haha let me just suppress my feelings it'll be ok :)"
  • mars in gemini: "oh, i see! you think i'm wrong. i'm truly sorry to hear that some pitiful creatures like you find my beautiful mind so complex that you can't comprehend anything i'm saying. i'm sure that, for SOME people, it is indeed a bit too complex hahah lmao (:"
  • mars in cancer: "fine, whatever. u may have said something rude but it's ok im just gonna ignore that" *later* "that fUkcin bitch...i'll show them later, trust me. i'll just wait for the right moment and destroy them when they least expect it"
  • mars in leo: "??? did u just insult me or one of my interests ??? lmao first of all, HOW DARE YOU. second of all, YOU ARE WRONG. i am so beautiful and awesome and such a great friend and THIS is how u repay me??? i'm worth so much more than this. you are disgraceful. i am disgusted"
  • mars in virgo: "i hate everything. NOTHING is going right and i am FALLING APART. honestly i don't even remember the last time something good happened in this world. why are people always annoying me? why is school always annoying me??? why is LIFE always annoying me????? can everyone just STOP"
  • mars in libra: *someone points out that they need to get their life together* "bitch...what? i'm fine...what are you talking about.....my life is 100% under control!!!" *procrastinates everything* "wtf why do i have so much work??? i am dying under all the pressure i hate everything NOTHING IS UNDER CONTROL"
  • mars in scorpio: *on the outside* "okay you know what fuck you im so over this it's over" *on the inside* "i know all ur weaknesses, honey...and trust me, you will regret it. you think i'm over this but i'm definitely not lmao watch ur back"
  • mars in sagittarius: "wtf bitch i hate u, what do you think of yourself??? how dare u disagree with me and say rude stuff to me ugh don't talk to me ever again" *after like 8 minutes max* "omfg the other day i was listening to the duck song and i was thinking about how much you'd like it i mean i bet you've already heard it but it's absolutely hilarious u should watch the video it went viral on youtube hahaha" *someone asks if they've gotten over their anger* "what anger? ...oh thAT. lmao whatever who cares about that, have you heard the duck song?"
  • mars in capricorn: "yeah i'm pretty fucking upset right now, things definitely did not go the way i expected them to. anyways that's just life. i'm over it. i'm just gonna...try and distract myself.....and pretend nothing happened...because that'll help me stop thinking about my shitty life...probably"
  • mars in aquarius: *on the outside* "i guess ur right. maybe what ur saying is the right thing to do :) :) :)" *on the inside* "...excuse me hoe.....ur wrong, i'm right. u can't tell me what to do. i'm well-aware of what i'm doing, if u think i'm gonna listen to anything u tell me to do ur 100% wrong bye"
  • mars in pisces: *accidentally offends someone, someone asks why they're mad* "honestly i'm not totally sure why i'm mad. i didn't even know i was mad until you pointed it out. i mean there are the usual reasons for being mad...people are horrible, life just generally sucks. so yeah im probably just generally mad lmao no worries"
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His Smile

Summary: Touka’s thoughts on Ayato’s and Hinami’s relationship. (3.6k words)

A/N: This is kinda a terrible time to post a fic like this, considering what just happened with both Touka and Hina, but whatever. I imagine Touka to be one of the biggest supporters of Ayahina’s relationship because she loves both of them so much and she’s always wanted to protect them and make them happy. So seeing them make each other happy and seeing Hinami especially having such a positive effect on Ayato would surely make Touka very happy.  
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There is something serene about the sight of him staring in silence at nothing in particular. His mind has vacated his body and Touka wonders where he is right now— in long-gone better times, perhaps, or is he in his own fantasies of a better future?

Banjou seems impressed by the calm composure Ayato now exhibits, never looking down at anyone, never raising his voice unnecessarily and never openly mocking anyone. He speaks with the resolute determination of someone in-charge, yet respecting of his underlings and their opinions. He lays out plans within their limits, taking consideration as many lives as he can. Banjou believes it’s a good change; Ayato has become a better person and is something worth working for now.

Touka agrees, but even with that agreement, she still silently laments the sight before her. Gone is the proud bravado he exhibits of a person charging after solid ambitions. His eyes no longer glimmer in hope. Instead, they are now clouded and darkened by sorrow and guilt. He holds his head high and his chest out when he presents their plans and relays his orders, but when everyone turns around, she sees him slouch and she sees his head droop, accompanied by the slight tremble of his lips and the clenching of his fists.

She realises that she knows him better than she think she does. Even without him showing any of it to her, she knows what’s going on behind the closed doors of his room. She can picture him praying and begging— for forgiveness, for strength, for success and for more than anything, the safety of the people he’s dragging along with him and the safety of the one person he longs to save.

And she realises that there’s another person who managed her way into his fortified heart, now standing beside Touka in his eyes. There’s someone else he’d lay his life out to protect. Even if it’s a strange thought, Touka wants to witness it— him standing by the person he longs so desperately to have by his side.

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Sexual Sin (M)

Originally posted by baekhyunstolemyeyeliner

Title: Sexual Sin (INCUBUS AU)

Part 1 - Pilot [PROLOGUE] 

Genre: Smut / Angst

Characters: Reader / Oh Sehun

Notes: ALRIGHT BITCHES IM BACK. that was so unnecessary i am sorry . but really tho, i’ve just started having this like incubus obsession? fantasy? is it a phase? i dont know but this is like a pilot prologueee thingy so thats why its so short but please enjoy this! i kind of have the motivation and intuition to right now?!?! wowzerie doo

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seeing people meeting jack, mark, ethan (and of course other incredible people that are too many to mention) makes me wanna cry. i know i made this post about i believing that YOU will meet jack. that same goes for mark and the people you watch on youtube that you wanna meet so badly but it makes me sad that i don’t believe what i just posted about not losing hope on meeting them. 

i have made a lot of post about having high hopes that i WILL meet them someday. 

FIGURE 1: click here
FIGURE 2: click here
FIGURE 3: click here
FIGURE 4: click here

but i don’t know. i keep seeing panels on livestreams, pictures of people meeting them, and people taking videos of them saying hi for their friends that weren’t able to go and it breaks my heart and my mind keeps telling me that it won’t happen to me. im not making this post because im a jealous ass bitch. of course im so fucking happy for them but you know, i want that to happen to me as well. i feel like im the only person left not meeting them. 

im sorry that i feel like this. i don’t know. even though jack said to me that he’s sure i’ll meet them (see figure 4), i have no idea why i don’t believe it right now. i just have these days where i just sit and be sad. 

i mean getting noticed by/interacting with them on tumblr/twitter is the greatest feeling ever but meeting them is probably the best thing to ever happen, i just don’t think it’ll ever happen to me :/

BUT AGAIN, IM HAPPY TO THE PEOPLE WHO ARE MEETING THEM <3 YOU DESERVE IT!!

I just watched Dunkirk because it premiered in Sweden today and it was so amazing and I’m also so impressed by Harry’s acting like I knew he could act but holy shit he’s so much better than I expected!!!! And seeing his name in the credits made me so proud and I realized that he’s really in this movie!!

Lurk Much?

Hey guys this is my 1st imagine on tumblr. The reader is a batfam sis and dating Jason. Y/N is your name. 


It was about 10 at the manor and things were going pretty slow. You felt like being a hermit and had spent the last few hours holed up in your room and catching up on Archer while eating a variety of diabetes inducing junk food. You were stroking your food baby with one hand while the other reached out to grab the last Milano cookie. Fuck. The bag’s empty. “UUGGGHHHHH”, you groaned over-exaggerating the situation. Whining, you got up from your bed and trekked to the kitchen to grab more food necessities. After stuffing your face with the last slice of Alfred’s quiche you grabbed a new bag of milanos and started walking back to your room. That is, until you saw your boyfriend Jason in the hallway- looking through a slightly opened door with an amused look on his face. You rolled your eyes and called out to him as you walked towards him,       “Lurk much, Todd?”. Jason’s head snapped up to meet your face and he proceeded to immediately shush you “SHHHH!” You rolled your eyes again- “Ok Stalker McStalker what’s so interesting?” “SHHHH!!” he glared at you and wrapped his hand around your mouth while bringing you to face the crack in the door. “Ok dear god Jason I’ll be quiet” you whispered “what is i-” You said as you peered inside the room “Holy Shizzz!!” you excitedly whispered screamed as you saw what was happening. On the far side of the room was Bruce talking to, well flirting, with a woman, while pouring them both drinks. “Oh my god! I didn’t even know she was over! I haven’t seen Bruce do something about his love life in so long! The closest thing I’ve seen to him being on a date was when he awkwardly invited Selina to brunch after she nearly killed him, and that was five months ago!!” you gushed. Jason’s snickered at your immature excitedness and went back to watching the history that was being made in the room. You strained to hear what they were saying. “So Mr. Wayn-” “Oh just Bruce, please” “Mhmm Bruce, such a lovely name. Although not as lovely as the time i’m spending with you”. You and Jason were both losing it at this point. “OMG this is gooold, we need to be filming this” you told Jason. “Babe yess” Jason responded “fuck i don’t have my phone- UUGHHH where’s Tim when you need him. I bet he has a freaking professional camera set and everything.” “What do I have?” Tim asked as he walked up to the two of you. “AAHH” you and Jason gasped and turned around. “Well speak of the nerdy devil” Jason retorted. “Hey!” Tim cried. “SHHHHHH!!!!!” you scolded them. “What’s going on?” Tim asked “What are you guys looking at?”. You and Jason both looked at each and  nodded before grabbing Tim’s arms and pulling him close to you. “Tim if you look, you’ll never be able to go back.” you said dramatically. Jason leaned in really close and whispered in a super serious tone “All of thou’s innocence shall crumble and thou shall become a MAN.” “ok guys what hell, your actually creeping me out here- Tim said. “Look.” you exclaimed and shoved Tim’s face through the door crack. “O my god.” Tim deadpanned. “I know right?!!” you giggled. Jason wrapped his arm around Tim’s shoulder “ See little bro? You should take some notes here and maybe you can actually talk to a girl for more than 2 minutes without fainting in the future”. “Hey!” “Yeah Jason that’s not nice, he talked to Steph for a good FIVE minutes before collapsing.” “In my defense I was severely dehydrated” Tim added. “Ok everyone shut up and watch” you scolded. You could see Bruce and his mystery date standing up near the fireplace and things were getting pretty heavy. “So Bruce what shall we do now?” “Well we could-  You could see Bruce responding and trying to look all manly and seductive while reaching his arm back to rest on the table, but.. he missed. His hand missed the table by an inch and he slipped. It was too much and you lost it. You shrieked “OH MAN HAHAHA”. You quickly realized what you had done but it was too late. Bruce’s head snapped up and his gaze met yours and the rest of his spying children. ‘shit!” Jason groaned. “oh my god” you fumbled “guys we gotta run” You screamed “RUN!!” The three of you took off and fucking sprinted as fast as you could. You could feel the energy coursing through you as you madly giggled and ran. As y’all were running you rambled“Oh my god guys maybe he didn’t see exactly who it was like i don’t know hah guys i can’t i just can’t oh mY GOD FUCKING RUN! RUN!!” “Y/n”! Jason yelled at you through heavy pants “If Bruce couldn’t tell who it was he knows now because of yoUR SCREAMING!” “OH SHIT THAT’S RIGHT” you cried out. Still running, you continued “IM SORRY GUYS I JUST HAVE SO MUCH ADRENALINE RIGHT NOW LIKE I HAVEN’T FELT THIS ALIVE SINCE I ACCIDENTALLY DRANK TIM’S 5 HOUR ENERGY ESPRESSO SMOOTHIE!! AND I- that was the last thing you unintelligibly yelled, as you tripped and face planted on the floor. Jason and Tim hadn’t even noticed you fell behind until you cried out in your best old english accent “ My good lord help me! I have fallen!” Jason whipped his head back dramatically and ran towards you” My good lady, fear not! I am here to rescue thou!” He grabbed you bridal style and continued “Where to, fair maiden?” You put on a serious look “Hhmm, OOH I KNOW, TO THE KITCHEN GOOD SIR. WE MUST GATHER PROVISIONS TO LAST US A FORTNIGHT IF WE MUST HAVE TO HIDE FROM THE FEARSOME BAT.” By now you and Jason had caught up to the still running Tim and you yelled as you passed him “FAIR KNIGHT, WE MUST AWAY TO THE KITCHEN” Tim just followed y’all while muttering under his breath “these people have problems”. When you got there, the three of you grabbed all the food you could then barricaded yourselves in to the game room. “Ok” you said “We’ve locked the door so Bruce shouldn’t be able to get in even if he finds us”. “And I’ve found The Seed of Chucky” Jason said while holding up a dvd case “or well at least one of the Chucky movies. Dear lord knows which one it is. At this point they’ve made so many- like for fucks sake guys one sequel’s enough. “ OK Spielberg we get it. You hate sequels. Now shush and play the movie” you commanded. So there you guys were an hour later. Tim had turned off all the lights and you all had preceded to built a pillow fort that you were now snuggling in . All three of you were in a sugar coma induced state and were staring wide-eyed at the movie. “Bitch don’t go in” you told the person in the movie as they walked towards a door. The music was getting super suspenseful and you, Jason, and Tim were clinging on to each other not taking your eyes off from the screen. “she gonna die she’s gonna die” Tim whispered meekly” The door was slowly being opened. The music was intense. Jason was clinging so tightly to your arm you thought it was gonna fall off. You could hear your heartbeat. The door creaked open. “Oh hey guys there you are!” “AAAAAAAHHHHHHH” you, Jason, and Tim screamed all at once. It. was. Dick. “ Sorry I scared you guys” Dick apologized. “ For the love of god man you gave me a heart attack” Jason glared at him “Also how the hell did you get in? I thought we locked the door?” “Well yeah that one but there’s another door right here” Dick said pointing behind him.  “Oh my god were fucking idiots” you said staring at the door. “So anyway guys, Bruce is looking for you. I’m not sure why.” “ Nope. Nopeity Nope Noooope” you said. “Guys seriously I’m sure whatever is going on he won’t be that mad” Dick remarked. “ HEY BRUCE THEYRE IN HE- Jason quickly spoke in a spookily calm tone “Grayson if you tell him were here , I swear on my already dead soul I will tell everyone about the bikini incident.” Dick’s eyes just went really wide and he gasped “You wouldn’t dare” “try me.” Jason retorted as he kept his glare focused on Dick. Dick just stared at him back for a second before slowly walking out the door and closing it behind him. “Oh yeah Bruce they’re not in there” you could here Dick say in the hallway ten seconds later and then the footsteps retreated and all three of you let out a collective sigh of relief. Sleep took over you pretty soon and you all fell asleep cradled in each others arms. Of course you didn’t escape the day of judgment, as early the next morning you eventually had to see Bruce and he gave you a long talk about spying on other people and that privacy is to be respected. The entire time Tim was just blushing like crazy and staring at his feet while you were focusing in on a very interesting spot on the wall. Jason of course was unfazed, and only opened his mouth to ask Bruce if he “got laid”. 

College!AU Yoongi
  • major: political science 
  • minor: photography 
  • sports: LOL no
  • clubs: sometimes he submits his photographs anonymously to the campus art journal because he’s like ?? id rather my name not be on anything idk that or he just likes being mysterious and doesn’t want to admit it
  • alright so first things first: yoongi DOES NOT want to be a political science major he is just doing it because his parents expect him to get a job in the government and their ultimatum was basically you do mathematics or political science: you either become an accountant or a desk job worker for the government and yoongi didn’t have enough time and or money to rebel so now he’s in this program and he’s Dying
  • well he’s not /dying/ because he still gets to minor in what he really wants to do which is photography and he even kind of makes a part-time job out of it photographing as free lance work
  • and slowly, but surely he’s scraping up the money to possibly move off campus and drop polisci and switch to photography for good
  • his parent ofc don’t know that so for now he’s coping with all the super hard texts and politically fueled discussions the best he can
  • and not to say he isn’t smart or good at it. actually a lot of his photography is inspired by the political and social movements that are surrounding him on campus, from activists he photographs to other pieces of art that come out of people’s discussions and thoughts about the world around them
  • and he’s doing pretty good in the major, a lot of the professors think he’s really quite good at phrasing his opinions and backing them up with evidence but he’s also sometimes just very
  • out of it
  • being as though a lot of the conversation is grounded in political history that yoongi could kind of give less of a thought of reading up on he sometimes just sits back in class and (if the teacher isn’t looking) naps
  • but yeah as for photography yoongi is so sO SO very passionate about it it’s like the one thing he can just talk about for days and yoongi isn’t the kind of person that talks a lot
  • and his dorm is filled to the brIm with rolls of candids, stacks of polaroids, large print outs of his favorite pieces, and strings upon strings that hang from one side of the wall to the other with the photos he deems the best clipped onto them
  • and his most favorite thing to photograph is the body and the sky. what i mean by the body is yoongi loves taking photos of snippets of people’s bodies that tell stories, so birthmarks or hands or dimples. the small, important things. and then as for the sky he loves taking wide angle shots of it. he wants to manage to put it all, the glory of the sky night or day, into a photograph. it’s kind of an interesting dynamic
  • but a lot of his like jobs that he gets requested to do have nothing to do with that. sure he takes photos of like parties, weddings, graduations and that’s people but that’s like groups of people and that’s not his interest. every now and then someone asks for him to take photographs of like products they’re trying to sell and that’s yoongi’s least favorite because he’s like great i get to take photos of a bunch of customized dog sweaters again
  • but his favorite job, let me spoil it for you now, is when he gets a call from you and you ask how he’d feel taking photos of the bridge between peoples eyebrows and your voice is shaking over the phone because you think this is probably the weirdest request he’s ever gotten and yoongi is silent on his end of the phone until you hear, to your surprise a delight;
  • “sure! where and at what time should i bring my camera?”
  • and so you and yoongi meet for the first time face to face at a park near the campus where you’ve brought three of your friends along and they’re all like “the part between our eyebrows? like? what the heck?” and you’re trying to explain that this is for one of your core art classes, the teacher was like make a project about the part of the body you think is underappreciated and you were like……the part between your eyebrows
  • and all your friends are like side eyeing that concept but you’re like please just let the nice dude take your photos and when you turn and see yoongi coming toward you with like his duffel bag of equipment
  • well one you’re like) thank god he’s normal because you got his number off a bulletin board near the science department and the flyer next to his was a dude looking to sell his pet iguana and two) he’s actually …..super freakin cute…….
  • and yoongi also in his head is like 1) thank god this person is normal and doesn’t have some eyebrow space fetish thing going in,,,,,at least you look normal 2) actually you look better than normal you’re also mcfreakIN adorable to yoongi
  • but seeing as though you two have a business agreement you push the cuteness of each other to the back of your minds and yoongi asks if your friends are the models for the project
  • you nod and yoongi gets to work and when the last friend is done (and all of them are like send me the pics by email so i can put them on instagram) and gone you thank yoongi a bunch of times and you’re also like “im sorry you had to do this…….weird….of a job”
  • and he’s like “actually, this is probably my favorite one so far. it was interesting, i like people that appreciate the small things about other people.”
  • and you’re kinda like o,,,oh really? and yoongi is like yeah! by the way why’d you……choose that part of the body? and you’re like “well, it’s underappreciated and also…..this is embarrassing but you know how when you’re nervous and you can’t look someone in the eyes you pretend to look at them by looking at that space?”
  • yoongi takes a second to think about it but then he grins (and oh my god his smile is just the cutest) and he’s like “you’re right! that’s………that’s pretty cool.”
  • and you’re like laughing like is it?? i thought it was just a dumb habit everyone does and yoongi is like true i sometimes stare at the forehead too and you’re like yeah!!!
  • and you guys are legit bonding over ways to cope with nervousness. this modern love
  • but yeah yoongi is like im going to send the photos to you digitally tonight after i clean them up and you’re like thanks!! and then you know the dreaded question you’re like how much do i owe you??
  • and yoongi kinda mauls it over in his head and shrugs and he’s like “it was fast, and it was actually fun so how about this if you allow me to use these photos for my own art - i won’t make you pay anything.”
  • your eyes light up and you’re like sure!!!! wow oh my god are you ok with that though we’re all starving college-
  • and yoongi’s like shaking his head like nah nah it’s fine. do we have a deal?
  • and you’re like yes!! and it’s sweet he like puts his pinkie out for you to cross with your own
  • and ok tbh he gets embarrassed at himself for doing that and he gets super red and you’re like ok he’s getting cuter and cuter by the second
  • and it’s bittersweet when he waves goodbye and you watch him leave with his stuff out of the park and you have to sit on the bench and just reply all the cute scenes of him when he was in front of you taking photos
  • and you’re like once you get that e-mail from him, that’s it you guys won’t have a reason to talk again
  • but that night yoongi is fretting in front of his laptop because he wrote out the email and everything but he also is contemplating if he should maybe invite you out to get coffee sometime or if that’s too creepy after a first meeting
  • and honestly he’s about to delete it when his roommate jin just leans over him and clicks ‘send’ and walks away sipping his chai tea and yoongi is staring at the screen in horror like
  • sEOKJIn HY U N  G W H  A T T H E H  e  LL 
  • and jin is like “you’ll thank me when they say yes.”
  • and honestly you almost scream a little when you see his little invitation in the e-mail and you’re just like !!!!!!!!! so excited and ok the photos turned out just perfect too and you’re like 
  • oh my god is this happening heheu
  • and you finally like calm yourself to reply and you’re like “love the photos! thank you so much and coffee sounds great, do you have a favorite place?”
  • and before you know it you and yoongi upgrade from emailing (because this isn’t the late nineties) to texting and you agree on the following week at this little cafe you both really like 
  • and it’s all perfect and planned and you and yoongi are giddy even though yoongi is trying to make a show that he’s indifferent
  • jin is even like “you were smiling at your phone for an hour AFTER they fell asleep on you in the chat so shuttup you’re excited”
  • BUT then on the actual day of the date you’re sitting at a table with your coffee and you have a cute outfit on and you know you’re rEADY yoongi is gonna fall in love on this damn date
  • but instead of coming in and waving to you he RUNS in and his duffel bag is over his shoulder and his hair’s a mess and he’s like 
  • “I FORGOT I HAVE A JOB SCHEDULED TODAY IT’S A BABY SHOWER OH MY GOD IM SO SORRY”
  • and you’re like it’s fine!!! and he’s like frICK i NEED to CAtch THE BUS right nOW and you get up and you’re like let’s go!! and yoongi is like yes let- wait what
  • and you’re like if it’s ok with you,,,,,can i come along and help?
  • and yoongi is half confused, half super excited because well he’s never had anyone come and help him (or even offer) but he’s also like he feels bad for just dragging you along to some strangers event
  • but you’re like nudging him toward the door like let’s go mr. photographer
  • and yoongi’s like im going im going and it’s cute you two like talk a little more on the bus you learn about yoongi’s parents and his major and like you tell him about what you’re studying
  • and once you get to the event yoongi’s like im here!! and it’s cute they’re not mean about his slight lateness and you help yoongi set up the pod for the camera and you like help him wipe some lenses and it’s just nice between you two
  • and then yoongi is off taking family photos and photos of the mom and her husband
  • and you’re like watching yoongi in action and even though he had mentioned before that he’s never really a fan of the jobs he gets, you can see that he feels most comfortable with a camera at hand
  • and like on your way back from the shower yoongi is like “i at least owe you dinner or something.” and you’re like no no you should keep the money, you have to save up for your own apartment like you told me” but yoongi is like listen at least let me get you some ramen from the 7/11
  • you agree and you two find the 7/11 off campus still open and yoongi pays for your instant ramen and you two stand in the little section towards the back and eat and laugh about this and that
  • and like it’s definitely not a usual first date, but it honestly couldn’t go any better.
  • and after that you and yoongi have some actual dates like movies and museums or whatever
  • you meet jin once when you’re coming back from a date and jin’s like hello!! you’re the person yoongi is dating right? and yoongi is like jIN we- we haven’t decided that yet but jin is too busy smiling and shaking your hand and being like
  • “do you read the campus art journal??” and you’re like “um sometimes, why?” and jin gets this big smile like “oh! you should read this month’s issue, the anonymous submission in the photography section is actually yoongi! he was telling me how the photos he took the day he met you-”
  • and yoongi jumps up and puts his hand over jin’s mouth like !!! that’s enough hyung!!!
  • but it’s cute you like find a copy in the library later that day and see that it’s true yoongi did use the photos and he made them so pretty and you’re kinda like ,,,,,, yoongi is so much more sweeter than he likes to let on
  • and after a while you two officially begin to date and it’s adorable you like become the focus of a lot of yoongi’s photos and all the pictures he had on his wall of like the sky, nature, his friends like slowly more photos of you also make it up onto the wall
  • and you also get into the habit of helping yoongi out on any jobs he has if you have the time!!! you consider this just cute dates but yoongi’s always like noooo i have to treat you now the real date is going back to his dorm and ordering pizza after LOL
  • yoongi you learn loves using you as a pillow if he can he’ll just knock out on your shoulder or on your lap
  • sometimes yoongi falls asleep standing up on the train and you’re just like,,,,,how,,,,,,
  • and it’s when yoongi announces that he’s finally saved up for his own little place in the city that you two celebrate by going over to see the apartment
  • and like all yoongi has there is his camera and a mattress thrown onto the floor with some pillows and blankets and you guys eat take out and you help yoongi hang the first photos 
  • and it’s a small studio one room and a kitchen but the windows give him a view of the night sky and you open them to let some cool air in
  • and you don’t notice the way yoongi is looking at you as you lean against the window like how your outline looks against the swirling vast stars
  • and you only notice from the corner of your eye the way yoongi lifts his camera up and takes a photo of you and the sky
  • and then he’s coming closer and he sets his camera down and he kisses the back of your shoulder and slowly his arms come around your waist
  • and he’s tugging you gently toward the mattress 
  • and yoongi has never been demanding of you ever but now his kisses against your skin feel just a tad more heated than before
  • and he whispers into the crook your neck that you’re the more beautiful than any view he’s ever seen before
  • and yeah it’s romantic as heck and like perfect
  • and in the morning you like get yoongi awake by sitting on his hips with his camera and zooming into different parts of his face and neck and snapping photos and yoongi’s like groggily like put,,,that down,,,you don’t know what you’re doing,,, 
  • but you’re like no im gonna take all the blurry cute photos of you my min yoongi
  • and he covers his face with his arm, but you can see his smile peeking out
  • honestly how freaking aDORable
  • as yoongi moves all his stuff into his new place you find yourself spending more time there than at your dorm like you even have your own part of the closet because like half your stuff is over at his apartment
  • and the day yoongi finally drops polisci and declares photography his major you just run into his arms outside the administration building and cover his face with kisses
  • and yoongi is a smiling at you and leaning in to kiss you
  • when you hear the lady from inside the office be like nO PDA and it’s like ma’am this is college not high school and you and min yoongi are adults who are totally gonna make out now because everything is finally feeling
  • PICTURE PERFECt ba dum tssssss

find namjoon’s ver (here), jimin’s ver (here), taehyung’s ver (here)
and jungkook’s ver (here)~
college!au vixx can be found (here) 
and please look forward to the rest of college!bts soon~

anonymous asked:

Hey so like im genderfluid but im starting to question myself on that i think im agender? Like i dont really like the concept of genders? Plze help

So, this question was one of the latest in the pile that I’ve ignored.

For that I’m sorry. I have about 450 asks right now and they are just piling up more and more. :/ 

However, I wanted to address this because I guess I don’t talk about being agender all that often. Or at least it feels like I never do. It isn’t something that comes to mind. I did a few comics about it, but they always ended up being more “here’s my gender philosophy” instead of “here’s my experience.”

Let’s start at the beginning instead. This might get kinda long.

My worldview, my explanation of it, my words, might not suit everyone. I know that there are several points in here that people can take issue with. But this is just my experience. Obviously, everyone has theirs. 

This is what I remember going through, how I remember thinking about my gender identity - before I was mature enough to understand the separation of genitals and gender, and after I learned more about it, made changes to my logic, etc. 

To this day, I’m not out to my family - which kind of puts a spin on my ‘societal role’ theory, huh? But the truth is, I don’t feel safe being out, and despite the fact that I WISH my family could view me as agender, I know that the risks and the emotional toll would not be worth the outcome. 

Still, I’m basically out to my friends and close acquaintances and that’s enough for me. My everyday life isn’t plagued with constant reminders of ‘you’re a girl’ and I’ve since grown way more comfortable with my gender identity in general, because I don’t feel the need to hide it from surrounding people. It helps when you’re in an environment where you can be comfortable to experiment with your expression. 

Do u ever feel like a weird feeling is on your chest and you just wanna scream or cry or moan in pain (non sexual thoughts pleas im im serious there) and yoy cannot breathe correctly but at the same time you have no idea on how to react as your heart races faster
But all of this is happening suddenly
I was having a nice day but then it happens
It’s not the first time of course pft but this time it happened while I was wearing my chest binder + in a train + felt nauseated

Because if u do I really hope you know what the fu kn it means because of course I don’t