So remember how I said I was going to do a bunch of Persona edits as people in the ask box requested them?
That was a complete and utter mistake, as it turns out.
But I still did everyone’s weird and strange requests (save for 1 or 2 REAL weird ones I didn’t want to touch.)
But regardless let’s get onto it!
Being that Morgana has a body structure only comparable to that of a bobble head, this was kinda hard to do and probably why nobody else has done it yet, but I sure TRIED MY DARNEST. I hope you appreciate maid Morgana with a weirdly human looking body. (Just remember this blog’s motto: Quality Never Guaranteed.)
Did you know that the police can legally arrest you for having these images on your hard drive in some American states?
Sometimes I get worried that I’m making someone’s fetish material.
Unfortunately, I CAN do crossdressing shadow Yosuke. This is a very powerful concept, and an even more powerful image, I feel.
I did both.
Mixing P5 Portraits with P3 and P4 ones is hard.
Yukari’s maid outfit was a blessing.
A beautiful lady.
Anyway, that’s it!
I hope all you monsters who made these requests are satisfied with the results!
okay so. as someone who runs one of the very, very few ocpd-centric blogs on tumblr (not this one, i mean @thatocpdfeel ), its actually so upsetting how little people know abt ocpd, even here on tumblr amongst other mental health bloggers. not to say anything bad abt those bloggers!!! its just not spoken abt much. maybe thats because its not as common as, like, bpd or avpd, but its also because SO many ocpd symptoms are ENCOURAGED by society. i get so many tags on my posts saying “thats an ocpd thing???” or “thats not normal???” or “im not supposed to do that???” like so much of what is killing us from the inside are things parents, teachers, and guardians all think are positive attributes to have, but we internalize those things in such a twisted and intense way that we suffer and yet are idealized for our suffering.
ive had so many people with other illnesses, like depression, tell me how ocpd has its upsides because i can be productive and get stuff done when they cant even get out of bed. thats not how it works.
ocpd is not being perfect.
ocpd is NEEDING to be perfect because even the tiniest mistake means you are the scum of the earth and deserve to die.
ocpd is not double checking your work to make sure you got everyting right because you want a good score.
ocpd is perfecting the wording of a single sentence because if it doesnt imply the exact thought you are trying to get across then it means you have failed and even if it is still technically right and no points are taken off, inside you know that it was wrong and it COULD have been better and your personal standards are ten times higher than the official standards because you know that the goals you need to reach to be successful are leaps and bounds above what the average person needs, not because you are better than them but because you must strive to become better than them at all cost because second best is still a loser.
ocpd is not orangizing your work station before starting a new project.
ocpd is crying and screaming while you trash 42 different versions of the same attempted project and shoving everything off your desk and wanting to pull out your hair or bang your head on a wall because you messed it up so many times already and if you dont get it right this time you will never get it and you will be marked as a failure for the rest of your life, unable to accomplish literally anything and youre so terrified of that thought you take six hours to scrub at your desk and mop the floor and take a razor to that bit of wax thats been stuck on the leg of your chair for a week and half and meticulously organize everything into boxes, counting every ration you put in to make sure they all even out, and listing everything thats there and labeling the boxes then straight up leaving the work area and not thinking about the project for another month.
ocpd is not having a folder of all your important documents because you know you will need them some time.
ocpd is having six folders, each containing vastly different documents, some of which are important, some of which are just old receipts to mcdonalds, some are keepsakes from friends, some of which are just a scap of paper with scribbles that you dont remember what they mean but maybe one day you will, and the rest are just any paper youve ever come across in your life. theyre all just as important as everything else though because the thought of prioritising them is nearly incomprehensible because they are all important and you need them all for equally important things so when you need, like, that paper for your auto insurance you first must sift through six hundred pages of notes your friends passed back and forth in middle school over five years ago and you dont even talk to them anymore but you absolutely cannot get rid of them. its all so important.
ocpd is not being productive.
ocpd is waking up and remembering that you are an inherently flawed and imperfect being, but also that your worth in this world is defined by what you put into it, so even if you cant be perfect, if you make enough perfect stuff or do enough stuff perfectly, it will all give the illusion to others as well as yourself that you are perfect. so you push yourself to do whatever it is you do. regardless of your other illnesses, you work and and try to be as productive as you possibly can because thats your only chance. you go into work sick. you push yourself past your limits, past what you know you are physically/mentally able to do, and you suffer for breaching those limits but all that pain is WORTH it because you are temporarily overcome with a sense of accomplishement and SOMEONE is finally proud of you. you did something right FOR ONCE. so even if you go completely nonverbal, or lay in bed for the next week in pain, or end up in the ER, or seventeen other things didnt get done, there was the most brief sense of absolute euphoria even if its almost immidiately replaced by a sense of overwhelming anxiety about what you messed up, forgot, did wrong, or ignored to achieve that feeling and the cycle of fixing, fixing, fixing repeats itself.
ocpd is not being bossy, egotistical, or controlling.
ocpd is a deeply psychological understanding that even the most insignificant mistake will reflect back on you in the most exaggerated and horrendous way possible. its knowing that if you ask your friend to go get you a red pen, but they bring you a blue one, and you dont know they got blue instead, so if you write even the smallest mark in that blue ink, even if its technically okay to write in red or blue, you specified red, so the fact that its blue makes it wrong and unnacceptable so in your mind its better to drop what your doing and get the correct red pen yourself even if its right beside your friend and you are already focusing on something else. the concept of asking others to do something, not even something in a manner of helping you but just to divide up jobs evenly, its absolutely impossible. because if they do something wrong, it will reflect on you, then you did something wrong and we both know that doing something wrong is completely out of the question. you would rather multitask four things at once, but the sight of someone else just twiddling their thumbs while you bust your ass is so infuriating! why cant they do what you are doing? why cant they just read your mind and know exactly what you need, when you need it, and be helpful? thats what you would do if they were in your situation! if they were working like you, you would hand them everything. you would also probably go ahead and just put that back for them. well, you could also handle that too. and before you know it, their job is your job and there they are twiddling their thumbs and looking at you for a job to do. its the phrase “if you want something done right, do it yourself” taken to a whole other level.
ocpd is so much more than what people think. were more than just a “type a personality” or “perfectionists” and its not just “mild ocd” either. ocpd is painful. please remember that.
I ship everything (charms, buttons, pins) in a 5″x7″ bubble mailer and it typically weighs 0.5 oz (always less than 1 oz), but it’s always more than 1/4″ in thickness so they have to ship it as a parcel which costs $13.50 USD. THAT’S A LOT, BUT THEY SAID THAT WAS THE CHEAPEST OPTION since its too bulky to send any cheaper. SO, this whole time I’ve been like I’m so sorry international friends, I have no choice but to charge you this much, so beware! (I charged $14 for shipping bc I’m not tryna rip you guys off)
AND TODAY THIS USPS ANGEL (probably worked there for a long time) TOLD ME THAT IF I JUST USE A BIGGER ENVELOPE and evenly distribute the items to fake a uniform flat look, IT WOULD ONLY COST $5.
SO I just wanted to make this post to help any of you that were having to charge your international orders a butt ton and of course someone selling small items wouldn’t think to get huge envelopes to ship things in (like me lmao)
USPS large envelope specifications: greater than 6.5″ x 11.5″ less than 12″ x 15″ 3/4″ thick and uniformly distributed items (can’t be lumpy)
You can take a piece of cardboard, evenly distribute your buttons or charms, then put one layer of bubble wrap on top of it and put it in an envelope. Just make sure it doesn’t exceed the 3/4″ and be sure you’re faking that flat look!
Also, to my international customers, I am so so sorry that I’ve had to charge you so much and I apologize for not doing my research more thoroughly. I have temporarily changed my shipping costs and will properly adjust them when I’ve gotten a hold of the right shipping materials!!
9:12 p.m. “Kenji is my only coworker besides Jiro. Well, that would change if Fumi gets the job. He’s only in his first year of high school and here he is working. I admire that… Jiro is the shop owner. He’s in his late 30′s and he’s been taking care of this shop for a little over a decade. He’s like a second father to me and Kenji. I guess you could say he’s cool too.”
king george does the turn off your cellphones announcement right before it starts and he says “enjoy MY show” lmfao
i was already tearing up during alexander hamilton rip
in the beginning laurens and hercules are v loud and usually drunk there are multiple instances of it in aaron burr, sir, the story of tonight, satisfied, and the story of tonight reprise and they always made the audience laugh
in my shot laurens turns to hamilton and says “you and i do or die” more privately and quietly to him alone and then turns back and continues
peggy is actually reluctant in the schuyler sisters and tries to stop angelica before being quite literally dragged across the stage when she sings “and peggy”
when everyone exits in the story of tonight hamilton and laurens leave with their arms around each other :’)
in farmer refuted the squad is standing off to the side listening to samuel seabury and hercules and lafayette nudge and push hamilton forward while giggling to themselves until he finally challenges seabury
during you’ll be back king george jerks his shoulders up and down in time with his da da da das he looked absolutely ridiculous it was so funny
in helpless after hamilton gets eliza’s father’s blessing he looks to eliza and does this ridiculous little celebratory dance but then mr schuyler looks back over at him and he makes a show of composing himself
also in helpless washington was the one who helped hamilton get ready for the wedding and he fixed up his coat it was such a nice moment :’)
yo satisfied literally changed my fucking life ok bc obv renee is SO TALENTED WOW and bc the choreography was so cool man they did actually rewind everything somehow so it was the scene at the beginning of helpless im not entirely sure how they pulled it off tbh
in the story of tonight reprise the squad sways/thrusts their hips crudely while they tease hamilton for getting married it’s so fucking funny
wait for it is life changing. that is all
history has its eyes on you blew me away i love chris so much
yorktown is INSANE so many things are happening at once and the lights go crazy and the ensemble dance breakdown is just incredible
at the end of what comes next king george held out his hands expectantly then huffed and stomped off stage when no one started clapping immediately honestly all of his appearances were 10/10
oh my god dear theodosia was too much for me because it’s just burr and hamilton alone on stage singing tenderly to their newborn children
eliza walks in and delivers the news about laurens’ death (it’s not in the soundtrack) and hamilton’s demeanor changes immediately and after about a minute of grim silence he says “i have so much work to do” and exits and during this entire thing laurens stands off to the side surrounded by blue light and quietly and sadly sings the beginning lines of the story of tonight i damn near started bawling y’all
in non stop burr and hamilton are at a trial and burr gets v exasperated as hamilton delivers the long winded opening statement and after burr says “that’s all you had to say” hamilton looks like he’s going to stop but then in a typical hamilton fashion he darts back to keep talking when he says “one more thing–”
i especially loved nonstop bc the blending of the different character harmonies being sung all at once is phenomenal and outstanding i was completely blown away
in what’d i miss jefferson was encouraging the crowd’s applause and cheers and cupped his hand by his ear and leaned forward to hype the crowd up and it made everyone go even crazier it was so great
after jefferson finishes his argument in cabinet battle #1 he drops the mic and madison’s hand is waiting underneath to catch it lmaooooo
eliza beatboxes during philip’s rap/poem in take a break and philip’s voice breaks really badly so it ended up sounding like “you can write rhymes but you can’t write MINE” and that’s why hamilton says “WHAT”
also hamilton declines the invitation to the schuyler vacation and angelica starts after him to talk some sense into him but eliza stops her and shakes her head and they leave arm in arm they don’t even KNOW
maria wore a red dress with red lipstick in say no to this and i got chills bc jasmine is so talented and i am very gay that’s all i have to say
ok i lied towards the end of say no to this maria to sits on hamilton’s lap and places one of his hands on her stomach and the other on her chest i was vvv side eye emoji
i also got chills during room where it happens and one last time and literally every song ngl i’m trash
jefferson literally sniffs hamilton and makes a disgusted face when he says hamilton “smells like new money” in cabinet battle #2
king george comes back in i know him as the others are exiting and he flinches away in disgust if any of them got close to him it’s hysterical and then he jumps around as he excitedly anticipates being able to see adams crash and burn as president
KING GEORGE ALSO GOT BURR TO BREAK CHARACTER!!! burr laughed as he sang the beginning of the adams administration because george was making exaggerated gestures from where he set up a stool on the end of the stage to watch adams’ disastrous presidency i feel so #blessed
oh my god and then when hamilton calls john adams a “FAT MOTHERF–” in his iconic drag he drops a stack of books off the balcony so the thud censors the rest of it as the red strobe lights flashed it’s so extra i love it
in we know jefferson’s “whaaaaat” is pure giddiness and he rushes over to snatch james reynolds’ letter out of burr’s hands to read for himself he’s such an asshole
hurricane is AWESOME ok it’s one of my faves the lights were dimmed and hamilton is alone on stage singing and then maria gives hamilton the quill i was like bro…… that’s some poetic shit………
lord the reynolds pamphlet was crazy everyone was moving around and making it rain and then king george came down the stairs and smugly pranced across the stage while hamilton is trying to plead with everyone that at least he was honest about the money
burn was so fucking sad and it didn’t help that eliza was on her knees for half of it just lay me to rest y’all
JESUS and then after philip’s death in stay alive reprise eliza wails mournfully as she sobs over his body it’s the saddest thing i’ve ever heard i felt like i was hit by a train
sjdfnskfnksfj nothing will ever prepare you for seeing it’s quiet uptown live it’s a beautifully sad number bc hamilton and eliza are standing center stage while people move in slow motion in dim blue light around them but eliza stares straight ahead while hamilton begs for forgiveness until she finally reaches for his arm and rests her head on his shoulder and says “it’s quiet uptown”
burr actually runs around grinning as he eavesdrops on all the peoples’ views of him and he even fist pumps a bit in the election of 1800
your obedient servant was so funny bc there was only one desk and burr wrote one letter to hamilton and after a dancer delivered it burr and hamilton switched places at the desk and hamilton handed off letter after letter to be delivered to burr and burr just looked so done
god the choreography in the world was wide enough was a++++ because burr fires the gun and a dancer shows the motion of the bullet by acting as if she was holding it and moved it closer to hamilton and then everything slows down as hamilton has his moment of reflection and he actually runs away when he notices how close the bullet is getting at one point but then he finally decides to accept his fate and doesn’t move as the bullet comes rushing towards him when time resumes normal speed
towards the end of who lives, who dies, who tells your story eliza and alexander face each other and hold hands but then hamilton steps back and eliza turns to the audience and at the veeeeery last moment she holds her hands out and gasps and smiles as if she sees him on the ~other side~ after decades of being apart and she’s ready to go be with him forever and then the lights cut to black and it ends i stood up immediately and clapped with goddamn tears in my eyes
TL;DR there are a lot of little quirks in hamilton that make it a wonderful live experience and basically however you imagine the show it’s 100000x better trust me
i can’t be the only one that was like, “even, it’s just a nosebleed you dont need to go to the doctor he’s okay” but i’ve thought a bit about it! here’s cool thing ive learned through past sfx makeup research (props to the skam makeup department for this!!): we are led to believe that isak has been hit a mere moment before sana came outside, right? look at his face! he’s already bruising and swelling up in his cheek and around his mouth. that would take a HARD HIT. this isn’t so much about the blood, because nose and head injuries bleed pretty superficially, but he is already bruising badly, it’s already purple and has red lines running through it, and thats from blood pooling under the skin because of burst capillaries. the swelling comes with that but he’s already swollen around his mouth and he just looks pretty out of it. this may be due to shock, but he’s not speaking or yelling or fighting back; he’s just looking at his hand, not even touching the actual spot where he’s been hit. i suspect that he’s not only bleeding from his nose (because had he really been hit bad he would probably still be bleeding) but from his mouth and cheek as well, which accounts for the swelling. so, back to the point from earlier, isak could very well have a mild concussion along with the injuries we can see, so it makes sense that they went to the ER. (also, if he does have a mild concussion, the hiatus was timed well because when we come back he’ll have finished recovering and be back in action) this stuff probably wont be adressed because hiatus and all but yeah i thought it was interesting and MAJOR props to the makeup department (and tarjei) for not just putting some fake blood on. what i’m sort of confused on though is that he has probably been hit more than once, if he’s both bruising on his cheek and he has a nose bleed AND from the set pictures people have leaked he has a black eye too. i want answers haha (also im not an expert so some of my knowledge might be off im sorry if it is)
earlier this evening i tweeted a bunch of stuff about the diversity of asian races. that was sparked off when the trend of white people calling themselves asian because they have “chinky eyes” just floated into my mind while i was in a bad mood. those tweets weren’t quite coherent and i did make a few mistakes so let’s start over. im gonna try and use people i know from pop culture and stuff as examples so yall can understand it in this post so saddle up boys and girls and everybody in between, we’re gonna learn about asian people.
1. EAST ASIA
east asia consists of countries such as china, taiwan, japan, korea, hongkong, macau, as well as mongolia. east asian people are the ones typically (badly) represented in western media these days.
this is arden cho. she is korean.
this is lucy liu. she is chinese, and her parents were from different parts of china.
this is yoko ono, and she is japanese.
but wait, it doesn’t stop there. there are also many indigenous civilisations in china (particularly closer to the north), as well as taiwan. some of the descendants of these civilisations have dispersed around east asia in places such as hongkong.
2. WEST ASIA
west asia largely overlaps with what we call the middle east, and consists of more countries than east asia including israel, saudi arabia, iran, palestine, turkey and much much more. im sure you’re familiar with at least some of these countries.
i couldnt find any famous people from west asia (see, representation is important guys!!!) but y’know suleiman of the ottoman empire? yeah he was born in turkey if im not wrong and he’s west asian. pretty cool stuff.
**edit i was informed on a popular iranian actress, thanks mereditheo!
this is nasim pedrad and she’s iranian!
3. CENTRAL ASIA
central asia is basically the the five republics of the soviet union ie kazakhstan, kyrgyzstan, tajikistan, turkmenistan, and uzbekistan. from what i’ve read though, central asia used to be largely populated by iranians a long time ago. also, some people consider parts of mongolia to be a part of central asia, but there’s no solid yes/no on that so yeah.
central asia is populated by people of a pretty big variety of skin tones and features and many of these ethnic groups do “look white”. whether or not they are actually considered to be white, im not entire sure. someone correct me if they know!
this is rita volk and she is from uzbekistan.
4. SOUTH ASIA
south asia consists of countries such as india, pakistan, nepal, sri lanka, bangladesh and many more, and also includes territories from china (like tibet) and afghanistan. the south asians that we see the most of in western media are indians (or rather, lazy stereotypes of them). there are so many different groups of indian people who speak different languages and have very different cultures btw.
like central asia, south asia has a pretty dang big range of races.
this is tina desai and she is indian.
this is dichen lachman. her mother is tibetan, and her father is german. she was born in nepal.
5. NORTH ASIA
north asia is basically russia. russia is big and scary and a lot of its politics are being watched by the world + i think we generally know a little on russia. im no expert on it though, so feel free to add onto my post if you deem necessary.
6. SOUTHEAST ASIA
southeast asia ah yes my home (im singaporean chinese!). southeast asia consists of malaysia, singapore, philippines, indonesia, vietnam, laos, cambodia, thailand, myanmar, and brunei (i hope i didnt miss anyone out). many of these countries also have a pretty high chinese and indian populations. i don’t really know how to explain southeast asia because so many of the people these countries have mixed around tbh but i’ll try.
vietnam, laos, cambodia, thailand, myanmar all lie on the same piece of land. their writing and language systems are similar in some ways and many of them are buddhist. many of these countries are developing pretty fast so watch out, world. again, not a lot of representation in western media so yeah.
malays are native to malaysia, singapore, indonesia, and brunei. they mostly speak different variations of malay. it should be noted that while malays are native to singapore, malays are now considered a minority race here along with indians. the largest population in singapore is the chinese one.
this is michelle yeoh, she is malaysian chinese (race is chinese, born and raised in malaysia)
the philippines is an interesting place, it’s quite different from the rest of southeast asia and doesnt really fit in with any particular group on countries in terms of language of ethnicity. their main language is tagalog and they were once colonised by spain.
this is manny pacquiao and he’s filipino,
this is bob morley and he’s half filipino and yes i know i already have manny but i just like bob too okay
SO YEAH asia and asian races and cultures are really fucking diverse and im kinda mad that im not knowledgable enough to go in-depth on every single culture and ethnicity tbh but if you still think asians are just chink eyes and yellow skin after this post then you’re a racist piece of shit.
feel free to correct me or add on to this post if i made any mistakes and i apologise for the vague-ness on some of the regions. i’ve written more about cultures i’ve lived with/experienced/known friends from those cultures plus like i said im no expert and i didnt want to overstep or make any assumptions so it’d be awesome if anyone who’s more knowledgable than i am added on to this post! anyway if you read this whole thing that’s hecka rad and i hope you learnt something!
So you know those fics were Lance says something is going to go wrong and everyone ignores him but the thing does go wrong and Lance gets hurt and everyone is sad. Imagine this but someone else gets hurt and Lance is super pissed. And he hears the Alteans trying to comfort the team with its not teams fault. And Lance just blows up and as evry1 discovers hes one of those who are patient ,chill and all but when he snaps its game over in most horrifying way. They are all like guilty kids 4 few days
Yes, Get it boy
I hope you like it!
Lance had a bad feeling in the pit of his stomach as soon as he flew Blue out of her hanger. Something wasn’t right about this mission. Lance knew that something was off.
Since Lance was the oldest in his family he had to watch his siblings a lot growing up,he sorta developed the “parental instinct” when it came to things that were going to hit the fan.
He flew Blue next to the Black lion and opened his coms.
“Shiro, something doesn’t feel right about this mission.” Lance felt the feeling in his stomach grow.
“What do you mean Lance? The mission hasn’t even started.” Shiro’s voice was plagued with confusion.
“I know, I just feel like something is going to go wrong. I have this weird feeling in my stomach, you know?” Lance silently prayed that the mission would be canceled.
Lance heard a sigh through the coms and Keith spoke up “Lance, everything is going to be alright. Don’t worry about it.”
“Okay, I hope you’re right.” Lance closed his eyes. Something isn’t right at all.
Lance had never been more right in his entire life. The mission had only just begun before the village they were saving started to explode.
“Pidge try to get your lion away from the palace!” Shiro spat out orders as he tried to fight off the things attacking them. “Hunk! Hunk can you hear me?”
He didn’t respond for a few moments and everyone started to panic, then they heard a cough and a groan. “Hey, I-I’m no-not doing so g-good rig-right now.”
“Hunk buddy! Where are you? I’m coming to get you.” Lance frantically pulled up his map and searched for the Yellow lion. “I found you! Don’t worry buddy I coming for you!” Lance sped Blue towards the Yellow lion.
Hunk was in rough shape, Yellow took a huge hit when one of the buildings when it fell. Hunk wasn’t really crush but a few things ended up pinning his leg down and he hit his head on Yellow’s dashboard.
Lance was only able to get Hunk out due to the adrenaline that filled his body as soon as he saw his best friend. But he didn’t save him completely.
Lance stood in front of the pod that held his best friend, his hands shaking in pure anger. If only they listened to me. I knew something would go wrong. I knew someone would get hurt but did anyone listen? No!
Lance was pulled out his thoughts by Shiro touching his shoulder. “Hey Lance, are you alright?”
Lance gave Shiro a side glance “No.”
Shiro sighed and looked at Hunk. “He’s going to be okay.”
Lance clenched his hand into a fist “He shouldn’t even be in there. We shouldn’t have gone on this mission.”
“Lance I know you had a gu-”
“NO! I TOLD EVERYONE THAT SOMETHING WAS WRONG AND NOBODY LISTENED!” Lance turned and faced everyone in the room, who were now staring at Lance wide eyed.
“Lance calm down.” Keith placed his hands in front of himself.
“No, I have the right to be mad. I told everyone to cancel the mission. I told everyone that something was off. I told everyone that something bad would happen. But did any of you listen to me? No!” Lance told in a huge breath and fought back tears. “Now my best friend is hurt all because no one would listen to me when I expressed my concerns.”
Everyone stared at Lance, no body expected him to blow up like that.
Lance could see the guilt that plagued their faces and immediately felt sorry for yelling but didn’t show it. He needed to be the “big brother” and make sure they learned their lessons.
Lance knew that they did, and he knew that it would never happen again.
(TRANSPARENT BACKGROUND) I upgraded my drawing program and wanted to play around with the new brushes, so I drew these two one more time.
What was suppose to be a doodle, wound up being a 4-hour long project. Oh well. :D