im sobbing why did i do this

‘Moho’ callout post

Now I’m warnin’ ya kiddies, shit’s about to get graphic
( @moho-milk-town-and-power-down )

You know that one fellow popular on tumblr about making two fictional characters fuck eachother, right? Y’all may call her as your ‘bean king’, the one true god ‘Moho’…

but i’m here to say

she’s not what she tells everyone she is..

See here, Being a detective that I am, I have proven that she is not JUST a furry in disguise… but..


…. a fokin’ Weeb…


It doesn’t stop there kiddies.

moments later…

she reveals that…

She’s sexually attracted to Barry Bee Benson..
YES! I CAN HEAR YOU GASPING “b-but ивана,, just bc she called a bee daddy doesn’t make her fully attracted to be-” shut your fucking mouth-hole voice in my head,,
What if I told you..

She has fully admitted to the illegal crime that is to “fuck bees”
*slams paperwork on table*

I have even found visual proof of all of this!!


if this is not enough evidence, you’re blind. WAKE UP AMERICA

What do you mean I’m making this post bc im pissed that my wife cheated on me with a bee//


I’m not racist towards bees,, just,,-

–F-Fuck bees man,, 
I’m just so

Hurt q-q

*coughs* SO! Next time on Dramaalert nation™ we’ll have a full on discussion about the 100 reasons why Pent is best daddy-

"my heart beats for you" dallas X reader

man. it was only 5:00pm, and it was already freezing outside. i pulled my jacket tighter around my torso as i began to walk faster towards my small house. as i walked faster, i glanced over at the park i was passing and saw a familiar face. dallas winston, my steady boyfriend. i giggled and ran up to kiss him.
i stopped in my tracks as i saw a blond girl sitting next to him, so close she was almost on his lap.
“baby, that shirt looks hot on you,” i overheard him say.
this blond girl giggled.
“it would be hotter off-” but i cut her off.
tears started to burn in my eyes but i push them away. my name is y/n, i never cry.
dallas looking straight at me, and at that moment, i knew he was sorry. i knew he knew he screwed up. but i ran. i ran as fast as i could.
“y/n. y/n. y/n! look i didn’t mean it alright? look im sorry alright. HEY LISTEN TO ME.”
he was running too, but i had a clear start as i finally ran into my room and collapsed on my bed. dallas ran in right after me.
that’s when i had enough. i let it all out. i started bawling. i couldnt take it anymore. my mother doesn’t give a shit about me. she would rather have me dead, and the last time i saw my father i was 3 years old. the only person who cared about me, or so i thought was dallas. but i guess i was wrong. i mean, obviously, he’s a guy. he’d screw any girl he could get. which is why i had to be fucking careful. apparently this time i wasn’t careful enough. or maybe this has been going on all along behind my back. i sobbed some more.
“baby please. im so sorry. y/n im so sorry.”
“y/n i swear it was nothing! we were doing nothing okay! stop blowing this way-”
“no. no i didn’t.”
by now, dallas even had tears in his eyes, which shocked the hell out of me.
he continued, “y/n y/l/n, my heart beats for you. only you.”
and without warning, his cool, firm lips pressed fastly onto mine, locking me in a cool embrace. it was rough, and needy, and everything said before was forgotten by this one kiss. the whole world stopped with just me and dallas winston. the kiss got rougher until i broke it.
“baby i love you and only you.”

Feeling desperate, alone and broken.

I had to get up at 6am for a doctors appointment for a new doctor. I need my insomnia meds, penicillin, hormone and pain pills filled. I don’t sleep right, my body doesn’t put itself to sleep thanks to a brain tumor I’ve got. I also have chronic migraines and whacked up hormonal imbalances.

So I left work early last night. Got barely 4-5 hours of sleep. Got to this morning coming off my sleep aids feeling dizzy and nearly throwing up twice. Got all the way up there just to see they are going to be closed. All. Day.

I needed to do this today. Next week I start doubles, open to close at my job. I am skating on thin ice, I need this extra money but I need all of my medications( I take like 5) and now I’m lost as to what to do. Do I request next Friday morning off? That’s my only option it seems. I’m just so distraught.

It’s 7:24 am and I’ve been sobbing and pleading with God for a good half an hour to help me, asking why this is happening. Why am I so sick? What did I do? Why did He do this to me? The answer is to glorify him I know but… right now I don’t know how to.. im in tears, in shambles, there’s nothing good that I can see in this. I’m beyond a breaking point, I’m afraid and I just need God to help me.

Please pray for me.

November 11, 2017

12:21 am

Wanting you was not being able to go to sleep because I was too excited about going to Disneyland the next day

It was having to wait until 12 am Christmas morning to open my presents

It was the thrill of walking up to the register with the cd of my favorite band in my hands

It was finding out my mom was pregnant with my little brother

Being with you was walking around Barnes & Nobles after payday

It was wrapping myself up in blankets after walking home from school in the rain

It was being surrounded by family during the holidays

It was watching my favorite movie for the millionth time and not getting tired of it

Loving you was seeing the world in new and brighter colors

It was not feeling like a freak for thinking the bad thoughts

It was every love song and romantic movie finally making sense

It was growing into who I’m becoming

Writing about you is like walking into the kitchen after my mom chopped up onions

It’s getting my test back and getting a lower grade than I was hoping

It’s coming home from school and seeing the mess my roommate left and didn’t clean up

It’s the disappointment after wasting a whole day instead of doing the things I needed to do

Being mad at you is walking through campus behind people moving so damn slow

It’s realizing I forgot to get the thing I needed right when I need it

It’s waking up for work not having gotten enough sleep

It’s sleeping around because maybe next time I’ll finally feel something

You’re a shot of straight vodka, no chaser

The midnight stroll under a sky with planes for stars

A bouquet of flowers that’ll die soon because no one really takes care of those anyway

The shirt I hardly wear and don’t even really like but still refuse to throw away

The guilty pleasure song I don’t let anyone know I still enjoy listening to

Missing you is blocking and unblocking and blocking and unblocking

It’s stifling my sobs so my roommate doesn’t hear me because I know I annoy her with how much I talked about you

It’s wishing I could show you all this new music I’ve found because I know you’d love it

It’s wondering if you’re feeling what I’m feeling but knowing you’re not because why would you

Our Mistakes and Our Love (E.D)

A/N: This is my first song fanfic and I’m not sure I even did it right.
Idk enjoy :)
Song: Stone Cold by Demi Lovato.

Originally posted by medicinalmccall

I smiled as I watched all the happy couples dance. But then my eyes met his hazel ones. The ones I loved. The ones that stared right through my soul. He broke contact first and then flashed a bright smile at his girlfriend. I frowned and looked down at my hands.

Stone cold
Stone cold
You see me standing
But I’m dyin’ on the floor

I couldn’t deny it. I still loved him. I couldn’t help it, who wouldn’t fall in love with a man like him? Ethan Grant Dolan.
His smile, it lit up the entire room. It made me feel all warm and fuzzy inside and caused my heart to skip a beat.
His eyes, they sparkled like the moon as it casted an everlasting glow onto the ocean.
His scent, it was mesmerizing. You could literally get lost in how amazing Ethan Dolan smelled.
His touch, it felt like god had blessed you. His rough but soft fingers slid down my skin and I could still feel it. They left a trail of fire behind that was still aflame.
His voice, drowned out everything else in the world and all I could focus on was him. Ethan.

Stone cold
Stone cold
Maybe if I don’t cry
I won’t feel anymore

But he was gone. And for the stupidest reason too. He left me. He never even told me why he left, he just..left. It broke my heart. I sat and cried, and I repeatedly asked myself what did I do wrong? How did I ruin us? How could I fix this? But it wasn’t even me to blame. It was him. He left me not the other way around, I was allowed to be heartbroken but not allowed to blame myself for that heartbreak.

Stone cold
God knows I try to feel
Happy for you
Know that I am

I watched as he laughed at a joke his girlfriend made. He looked happy. I want him to be happy, but how can I wish him the happiness that he took away from me? It just wasn’t right. You aren’t allowed to just..break someone’s heart like that and not even give them a valid reason for doing so. I haven’t seen Ethan ever since the break up and that was 6 months ago. I’m wondering now if he still even thinks about it. Thinks about it as much as I do. Maybe not as much considering it’s on my mind 24/7 but..does he even know I’m here?

Even if I can’t understand
I’ll take the pain
Give me the truth
Me and my heart
We’ll make it through
If happy is her
I’m happy for you

To this day I never understood what went wrong, why Ethan Dolan left me. I just wanted the truth, I could’ve handled it. Hell, I’ve survived 6 months with blaming myself for being a horrible girlfriend, the least he could’ve done was tell me it wasn’t my fault. Reassure me. Calm me. Comfort me. But no. What he does is find a new girlfriend. Someone better, smarter, kinder, and a hell lot more prettier than I was. If she’s what he was looking for..then so be it.

Stone cold
Stone cold
You’re dancing with her
While I’m staring at my phone

Damn it. This was supposed to be a happy day. A day celebrating the newly wedded couple. Not the day where I sulk and reminisce in me and Ethan’s past relationship. My eyes met his again, but this time his eyes didn’t sparkle. No. They glimmered with sympathy and sadness. What happened now? What made Ethan Dolan sad? Was it the fact I was here? I could leave if he wanted me to. There was no reason for him to- maybe I was over thinking this…what if he’s just thinking like I am.

Thinking about us.

Stone cold
Stone cold
I was your amber, but now
She’s your shade of gold

What us? There probably was never an us. What am I saying..our love was real. The picnic dates, endless sleepovers. The tickle fights and disney movie marathons. Even the break-up. It was all real. I couldn’t lie about that. But I can’t help but judge myself. All I need is confirmation, that it wasn’t my fault. Its scarred me. I judge every little thing about myself now, wondering if it was good enough for Ethan to love. I compared myself. To the girls in the magazines and on instagram. To his new girlfriend. What did she have that was better than me?

Don’t wanna be stone cold
I wish I could mend this
But here’s my good-bye

I stood up from my seat abruptly and made my way towards the exit. I know it was wrong of me to leave on my friends wedding day without any sort of legitimate excuse but I would just call her tomorrow and explain everything. She was my bestfriend, she’d understand. I hoped.
I walked outside and hailed a cab. They pulled over and right before I could step inside. A muscular arm grabbed my hand and tugged me back towards it’s owner. I turned around and choked back a sob when I saw him.

Oh, I’m happy for you
Know that I am
Even if I can’t understand
If happy is her
If happy is her
I’m happy for you.

“Why?” Was all I could say. He seemed to know what I meant as he let out a deep sigh. As if on cue it started to rain, great. This day couldn’t get any better. “I still love you.”
“No!” I shouted and retracted my hand from his grip. I balled my hands up into fists and lunged them at his chest. He caught them with each strike.

“You do NOT, get to put me through all of that shit and come out here to say you still have feelings for me.” I cried and slammed the door shut of the cab. They drove off leaving me and Ethan, standing out on the middle of the sidewalk on a dark and gloomy night. His hair was plastered to his forehead and he had bags under his eyes. “Im sorry.” He whispered. I shook my head and laughed harshly. “No, no you’re not. If you were, you would’ve never put me through that.” I huffed and lunged my tiny fists back at him again. This time he let me hit him, as hard as I could. After a while I stopped and collapsed in his arms. We both fell down onto the soaking wet ground and I gripped his tux with my trembling hands. “What did I do wrong?” I sobbed into his chest. “Why didn’t you want me?”

“It wasn’t you Y/N. Please, I swear. It was me. I thought that I didn’t deserve you, I thought that if I let you go you’d find someone better and worthy of you-”
“No! You cant do that Ethan!” I cried. “What?” He asked a bit taken back. “You can’t just assume those things! You were perfect, maybe too perfect for me. I was happily content with the way things were between us and you had to go and screw it all up!” I was fuming, just because he thought he wasn’t good enough didn’t mean he could go and fuck up our whole relationship. I was pulled out of my thoughts when Ethan’s large, shaking hands flew up to grasp my face. I gasped at his oh, so, familiar touch as he drew our faces closer. “I’ve wanted to do this for so long. And I’m so sorry.” Ethan whispered and let a sob escape his lips as he pressed his wet forehead against mine. His hair stuck to my forehead as well while the tears continued to stream down his cheeks. I brought my thumb up to wipe them away gently and I gave him a teary eyed smile. “I still love you. I never stopped. So you better kiss me right now Dolan or I’ll regret even coming here tonight.”
And with that said, his lips were on mine. He moved against me slowly and passionately as the bud of his thumbs rubbed small circles onto my cheeks. His teeth grazed my bottom lip and I couldn’t help but let out a soft, quiet moan. I guess Ethan heard it because he hummed against my mouth in satisfaction as a response.

A perfect fit it seemed like.
The lock to my key.
The honey to my bee.
The end to our story. Of our mistakes and our love.

anonymous asked:

request!!! RFA and maybe V and/or unknown (if ur comfortable writing them!) reacting to the MC breaking up with them because she fell in love with another RFA member? Like, for example, MC breaking up with Zen because she's in love with Jumin 🙊 kinda weird request but I haven't seen a request like this before, so...

this one kills me because i love all of them but i want them all at the same time but i dont wanna hurt them ughhh my emotions are all over but i had fun writing this <3

 I hope you like it :)


  • For him it was Zen
  • Zen had been sweet talking you for a while now
  • Always making fun of you for going for such a gamer head like Yoosung
  • “If it were me, I’d spoil you with attention, MC. Nothing would come in between us.” He said to you once, over the phone. 
  • You were venting about Yoosung’s recent lack of interest in you. Zen was always around and he appreciated you more. 
  • You couldn’t contain your feelings anymore. You went to Yoosung’s house and broke the news right at the front door.
  • “I need to tell you something.” You said, looking at the ground.
  • “Come in, you haven’t been to my apartment in like-forever.” He cooed, excited to see you.
  • “No, that’s the thing. I’m not coming in. I need to say this now.” You breathed out. Clinging your bag strap to your chest, you finally look up him.
  • “I’m breaking up with you. You’ve barely been giving me any attention. I’m sick and tired of asking for it too. I can’t sit around and wait for you to grow up Yoosung. Besides, there’s someone else..” You manage to say.
  • he’s broken already now
  • “MC, I’m so sorry. I can be a better man! One that showers you with love and affection!” He’s biting back tears now. You turn on your heel and leave, deciding not to tell him who the ‘someone else’ was.
  • he’s super depressed after this
  • lost his first girlfriend 
  • wait why am i crying


  • This one is a little more on the soft side.
  • Believe it or it was Jaehee
  • It started off so innocently
  • Movie nights with Jaehee watching Zen’s plays
  • til one day you realized how much time you’d been spending with her lately
  • When did she start making my heart pound like this?
  • You were confused because you’ve never liked a girl before. 
  • Nonetheless, you weren’t even sure if Jaehee would accept your feelings, since you thought she was only interested in men
  • You couldn’t hold out anymore.
  • “Zen, we need to talk.” You say, in nothing but your pajamas. He had just came home, and he hung up his coat on the coat rack.
  • “Of course babe. Let me just hop in the shower.” He says. You waited all day to tell him, you decided to wait a little more.
  • He came out of the shower, still dripping wet and in nothing but a towel.
  • It was at this point that you realized you weren’t attracted to him anymore.
  • “I’m all ears, babe.” He said , still drying his hair. He bent down to leave a kiss on your forehead but you turned your head away.
  • “Did…Did I do something?” He was hurt now.
  • “Zen I can’t keep going with this relationship. I don’t feel like I’ I’m myself.” You say.
  • “What do you mean?” He said, sitting beside you on the bed.
  • he’s so concerned
  • “I’m… I’m in love with someone else… She doesn’t even know how I feel and I don’t think I can tell her.”
  • His self esteem right now plummets to the ground.
  • “She…?” He asks.
  • “Jaehee..” You breathe out, quite embarrassed.
  • “Oh…OH.”
  • “Yeah..”
  • “Just tell her then. You shouldn’t keep something like that to yourself. The heart wants what it wants.” He half smiles.
  • he’s hurt af
  • but supportive
  • he eventually helps you confess 


  • With her it was Yoosung
  • No one expected this
  • Not even you
  • Until one day Yoosung confessed to you
  • At first you didn’t think much of it. Simply told him you didn’t feel the same way
  • He was hurt but he got over it
  • or so he thought
  • One day Jaehee was working a late shift with Jumin
  • Yoosung invited you out with him and a couple of his friends
  • they thought you and him were a couple 
  • but you explained you didn’t roll that way
  • you guys were at the movies and Yoosung sat beside you
  • his hand brushed over yours on the arm rest and then laid above it
  • he didn’t move his hand
  • you didn’t mind since you knew he liked you
  • you let him have this
  • after the movies he and everyone else parted ways
  • you guys were walking the same way
  • “Oh..MC.. I forgot you walk this way too haha..” He blushed.
  • “Yeah, haha.” You say.
  • He walked you all the way home
  • “I had a great time tonight.” He said, nervously.
  • “Yeah me too-
  • He kisses you
  • *sparkles and butterflies*
  • uh wait what you liked it??
  • “Why did you do that?!” You say, all flustered, covering your mouth.
  • “I don’t know-I’m sorry!”
  • poor boy ran for the hills
  • You didn’t speak a word of this to Jaehee.
  • he texted you a couple days later “Sorry about the kiss, MC. I guess i still have feelings for you..”
  • “’s.. I liked it.” You texted back.
  • things got off from there
  • you told Jaehee about it
  • that he kissed you and you sort of enjoyed it
  • “For some reason, I liked it. And whenever I kiss you now… it doesn’t feel the same anymore.. maybe I-I have feelings for him?” You tell her.
  • my hEART
  • she’s pretty understanding but mad that you waited to tell her
  • “I don’t think we should be together either… since you’re second guessing being with me now.”
  • shes hurt


  • He knew if anyone would take his girl it’d be V.
  • He was actually just waiting for you to admit you had feelings for him.
  • He could tell from the chemistry you had with him.
  • You don’t smile at me like that anymore.
  • You both hung out a lot when he was working
  • he was sick of the lies
  • everyday you came home and seemed less interested in him.
  • You knew he deserved better. You fell in love with his best friend. What else could you say to him that he didn’t already know?
  • You came home especially late one evening and he was sitting there, waiting for you.
  • “Did you have fun with him?” He practically spat.
  • You couldn’t say anything to him but the truth now.
  • “Jumin… I’m..sorry..I never expected for it to happen but it did.”
  • “Did you just expect for me not to find out? This is the fourth time this week you’ve been with him. And me? Well I’ve just been here. Waiting for you to tell me something at least.” He pinched between his eyebrows.
  • He wasn’t even hurt anymore
  • just tired
  • “I love him. I can’t change that. I’m so sorry for prolonging this. I could’ve just told you the truth but my heart..I didn’t want to deal with the heartache… of whatever we had.”
  • “I also didn’t want to ruin your friendship with him.” You were crying now.
  • “But I love him. I can’t be with you anymore.” You say, leaving his place.
  • Jumin’s a mess now, he’s holding back tears and frustration
  • daddy i didnt mean to im sorry


  • he couldn’t believe ears when he heard it was Jumin
  • The busy hacker knew he worked a lot but he didn’t think you’d leave him for it.
  • “Jumin’s just as busy as you. He makes time for me and he’s always working.” You say to him.
  • “We have different jobs, sympathize with me here, MC.” He says to you.
  • It all started when Jumin invited you over in the chat room.
  • “Well.. you know MC.. if you’re feeling lonely, I have no problem providing company for you.”
  • “Thanks, but I shouldn’t.” You were a little on edge but at the same time Seven had been working so much he was barely in the chat room.
  • “Positive? Not even for dinner?”
  • “I guess I could use something to eat.”
  • That was your first mistake.
  • He was far more caring the Seven, never afraid to show you his romantic side.
  • He sweet talked you into a kiss and so much more.
  • You told him you couldn’t continue to sneak around like this without breaking things off with Seven first.
  • “I’m leaving you. All I asked for was a little effort and you couldn’t even give me that.” You said to Seven, before heading out the door.
  • He was crying
  • “I can be better.. I want to be better…” He sobbed, but you didn’t hear a thing.
  • dont cry bby I LOVE YOU


  • well he definitely didn’t SEE this coming 
  • I’ll go home
  • It was complicated when you told him you had feelings for Jumin
  • He still had feelings for Rika
  • You couldn’t deal with all the emotional stress that came along with him and his whole situation with her
  • “I can’t Jihyun. How can you kiss me and still think of her.” You say, hurt inside.
  • v route spoiler maybe?
  • “It’s not like I want to…I’d loved her so much..I gave her everything. I gave her everything thinking she’d do the same. I can’t get over that..” He said.
  • “I’m not in the wrong either..” You admit. “I’ve been seeing Jumin.” 
  • “What?”
  • his small little aching heart
  • he can’t right now
  • how will he ever love again 
  • “He…He doesn’t compare me to her..He loves me for me. I thought you’d do that but I guess I was wrong.” You say, tears spilling from your eyes. You turned on your heel to leave. 
  • Why does my heart hurt?
  • “MC.. I’m trying to learn… learn to love you..for you. Does that not mean anything to you?”
  • “It’s not enough.”
  • im sobbing

Unknown (Saeran)

  • He was already on edge about loving someone period
  • So when you told him that you were in love with Saeyoung, it broke him.
  • “Why..Why am I never good enough?” His gaze dropped to the floor.
  • “Saeran..”
  • “Shut up! You liar!” He spat.  “You said forever.. just like everyone else..”
  • You didn’t know what to say. 
  • “How long..?” He asked. “How long have you felt this way?”
  • “Since before I met you.. I think he’s always had my heart. But he insisted that he wasn’t good for me. My heart couldn’t just stop loving him.. and then you came along and-
  • “You felt sorry for me?” He laughed. “Sorry enough that you pitied me. You don’t give a shit about me..I don’t know why I thought you did.” He ran his hands through his hair. 
  • i do care about you bby im sorry
  • He was sobbing and laughing all together.
  • “I can’t keep pretending to love you. I’m so sorry.” You say, leaving the room because you were on the verge on tears yourself.
  • im already crying

anonymous asked:

I love how Black Sails writers have realised that they've got one of the best orators on tv and were like "we gonna write him so many speeches and monologues and some more mini-speeches and mini-monologues". It must've felt like a blessing to know that you can write the most complex text and he will deliver it. That it will not feel clunky and the audience will not go zzz *snore*. I miss Flint's speeches.

!!!!!!!!!!!! oH GFHDSOD I KNOW 

they really couldn’t have done a better job on both character writing and casting for flint. it’s unparalleled, i’ve never seen anything like it. toby’s line delivery alone, i mean it makes me want to go out there and fight for him, i’d fight the whole world for him. ride or die. every single time he does one of the speeches or monologues im like sobbing and doing a standing ovation even if it was about violently murdering people i mean what the fuck ??? how does he do it?! WHY DOES HE AFFECT ME SO?! i love when the cast and crew praise toby because he truly deserves every ounce of it and more. jon steinberg at one point said the show would’ve been a disaster without him, and while i believe that every member of that wonderful cast did an incredible job and made the show as great as it is, we would’ve definitely felt a huge and awful difference if it had been someone else playing flint. toby was born for this role and i’ll forever be grateful to him and to the black sails writers for bringing flint to life so beautifully 


Originally posted by alternatrash

WHATADO Everybody its your boi Nemo back at it again with another fanfic. Noq today I’m gonna disappoint you and leave you with a cliff hanger. I made a Brendon Urie fluff awhile ago but life has been busy lately. Btw, small angst at the end

Summery: Y/n decides to fly out to Brendon to comfort him about the Break-Up he has recently went through. This gives him and Y/n quality time together and things start to spark, but not in the way you think

Type: Fluff/Angst

Warnings: Cussing, Small angst at end, Fluff, I think that’s about it

Requested?: Kind of, Yea

Word Count: 3.4k (3,478 words)


Now without further ado, P-P-P-P-PLAY IT

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I finally stopped crying about 2 minutes ago but I am already thinking about season 3. 

What we learned from season 1 is that Toffee is willing to do almost anything to get to Star. Which includes putting up with Ludo’s whiny butt, as well as KIDNAPPING MARCO.

To Star, Marco is her best friend/love interest and one of the most important people in her life, hell she even has a crush on him and felt so inclined to tell him the truth about her feelings, knowing lying to him would hurt her.

Toffee did it before why not do it again, when Star has no contact with earth anymore, therefore meaning Marco could be taken and no one would know.


Star cares about loves Marco a lot and has and will fight a whole army for him.

But let’s not forget Marco has his own dimensional scissors.

Klance Headcannon

I have this headcannon that Voltron season 5 won’t start off with the paladins talking to Lotor, but instead on the deck of the Castle with everyone but Lance crowding around Keith, hugging him and sobbing. Then they all just back away slowly as Lance approaches, deadly serious. He walks up to Keith and takes a deep breath before yelling, “What the quiznak was that? Why did you do that?! You can’t just throw away your life! Why would you think that’s okay?! Did you even-“ then he’s just cut off because Keith grabs him and pulls him in for a kiss, tears in his eyes. Lance is speechless. Keith pulls away suddenly and starts silently crying. “I’m sorry. I’m so sorry! I just-“ then he’s cut off by Lance kissing him back and we get cannon Klance and everybody’s happy.

Chapter 2 of whatever this is

Aye thanks for the good amt or notes on the last chapter! This series will have nsfw maxvid in the future so like,,,,be warned. Forever grateful for all of @camp-maxvid s encouragement. A lot of insp by @kittehcups too ily. This is longer than the last, as the last one was kinda just a drabble or whatever. Building off of a concept ig. Sorry for the weird formatting I didn’t want this to be a big wall of text and I couldn’t decide where to out the breaks. Enjoy

“C'mooooon Max, hurry up! We’re almost at the best part and I wanna get there before sundown!” Davey was ecstatic. He never got to hike anymore, what with the lack of Neil (who promised he was very sorry that he couldn’t make it this year but max and Nikki knew he was bullshitting) and the influx of campers. When he did he was an overexcited puppy. He bounced around yelling random names of trees, animals, and plants. The wide eyed innocence would almost be cute. If Max was any other person. All max could do in response to his excited questions was roll his eyes or tell him to shut it.

“Davey will you slow down? My legs are chafing and you’ve been on this trail more than I can count. It’s just some fucking water!” Max snapped. It had been a good 2 hours since they had started and Max had been daydreaming about a specific town whore who was cheap and discreet, and best of all, down for anything at any place at any given time. He planned on contacting her when he got off this stupid trail. If he was still in one piece. “Awww Max! That’s no attitude to have toward nature! It’s always so beautiful out here. And look! There’s a baby duck swimming in the water!” Max scoffed, “Wonder where it’s parents are. Probably mauled by something bigger, like a bear.”

He stomped as far away as he could go, while still keeping an eye on the kid, and plopped down under a nearby tree to finish off his water bottle. Davey began splashed in the (admittedly aesthetic) water. God he should’ve brought more bottles. Or filled it with vodka. Either one would suffice. When Davey had splashed enough to cool down he went and sat right next to Max. Close enough so that the water from Davey’s sopping wet, knee-length shorts bled through onto Max’s almost matching pair. “Dammit Davey! I was already chafing! The walk back is gonna be hell.” Davey was sniffling. His eyes watered and his chest heaved. “Shitshitshitshit oh no Davey don’t cry it’s not that big of a deal! God Nikki will kill me if she heard about this. It’s ok! I didn’t mean to yell!” Davey was crying. “Fucking- it’s fine! Shhhh calm down! Will you stop crying? Please? For fucks sake, c'mere.” Max pulled Davey onto his lap and held him. His shirt grew damp with tears and probably some snot. Ew. Why did this damn kid have to be so sensitive? And why did he shake so hard when he cries? His boner was coming back as a result of the shaking, sobbing child sitting directly on his dick. Every time Davey shifted he would grind into Max’s lap. “I-im soh-soh-ry Max. Now your shi-irt is wet too.” It was hard to understand him through the broken sobs. After a good 6 minutes, Davey sat back onto Max’s lap and wrapped his legs around his waist. “Max…do you hate me because I’m a kid?” He whispered. Shit.

Max took a deep breath in and rested his chin on top on Davey’s head. “Davey. I don’t hate you. I don’t really hate any of you campers. You guys just irritate me sometimes, ya know? Grown-ups need their special grown-up time every now and then. Especially when you guys fuck shit up around camp.” Davey frowned and looked up at Max. “Is that what you were doing before we went hiking? Special time? Because it didn’t sound like you were making a schedule…” Max did not want to explain masturbating to a 10 year old today. He wracked his sex-starved, exhausted brain for excuses but found none. “David. I’m not gonna lie to you. I was doing some very grown-up things earlier and it pissed me off when you interrupted me to make me do this stupid ass hike with you.” Davey wrapped his arms around max and lay his head against his chest. “If I make you feel better can I be a grown-up too? And then we can do grown-up stuff together all the time! And you’ll never be mad again!” Max’s face and ears burned with embarrassment. He was tempted to shove the child off and start walking toward camp. He was much too frustrated to deal with this right now. But he didn’t. Score one for those mandatory anger management classes.

“No Davey! What the fucking shit? You’re not gonna be an adult anytime soon so just get off!” Scratch that, back to zero. Davey pouted and crosses his arms. “No! You can’t make me! I wanna be an adult too, max! Show me what you were doing in the cabin or I’ll tell Mr. Campbell about the money you took for cigarettes!” Not in a million years would Max thing Davey, who’s whole outlook on life turned around after getting a simple badge, would use blackmail. Especially against his favorite conselour. “Fine Davey. You wanna see what I was doing? I’ll show you but don’t say I didn’t warn you. You little shit.”

did someone say raisins girl kyle in knee high boots besides stan

stan finds out after a football game and the team goes to raisins and he dies but they get used to it. also stan snapchats the whole thing and its just him sobbing uncontrollably captioned “i love him so much” while you can audibly hear kyle saying “i cnat ebkiuve im doing this” and trying not to piss himself. i get embarrassed FOR them

You’re Not Real...

Pairing: Jin x Reader 

Genre: Angst, Ghost!AU

word count: 1,402

(A/N TRIGGER WARNING: mention of suicide and violence )

Originally posted by kookiemonster1997

wake up. 


go home. 


if you think of it like that, the day seems a lot easier. but that’s not exactly how it goes is it. Smaller events happen between; these smaller events eventually make up the days of your life. sometimes they’re good…sometimes they’re not. 

because of those small events, you stood at the edge of a cliff, letting the wind blow your tears towards the side of your face and your hair flow into an uncontrollable mess. 

every day was almost like a dream for you, correction, nightmare. 

you just felt numb. the insults, the pushing, the laughing. but most of all, the bystanders. it wasn’t as if everyone in your school was a bitch, the nice ones were just too scared to do anything about it. you weren’t mad at them, you would probably act the exact same way if you were them. 

everyone says they would help, that bullying is wrong and they wouldn’t just stand and watch. 

but when it actually happens, shit goes down differently. 

you took in a sharp breath before remembering the words from your mother before you got here. 

“Are you going to do it? that’s alright, I have other kids, ill make Raina do your chores” 

you scoffed before clenching your fists. what a great mum. your home life was fine before your dad died in a car crash. your mum turned to alcohol and abuse, you being the oldest got the brunt of it all, but again you weren’t angry. better you than your siblings. 

for a brief moment, hesitation found its way into your mind. 

…your siblings…

their smiles and laughter flashed into your mind, flashbacks of the games you’d play with them or when you’d tuck them into bed. 

now you were crying harder, not for yourself but for your siblings…what would happen to them if you weren’t there to protect them. 

one was 12 and one was 10, that’s too young to deal with the shit they would if you were gone. 


for once you just want to think about yourself… no one was there for you, so why would you be there in the first place. 

“I was there wasn’t I?”

you spun around quickly; only to be met with the same brown eyes you knew so well. 

the first time he appeared you were about to intake a whole packet of sleeping pills. he cried with you and reached for you to drop the pills; he didn’t want you to die, and that thought alone stopped you. 

it wasn’t just that, but the look in his eyes, his eyes in general. you felt as if you had seen in somewhere before.

you thought he was just a figment of your imagination, only appearing when a slither of you wanted to live. but that was debunked when he showed up the second time. 

it was in the spare of the moment, you truly wanted to die. 

when you tied your legs to the weights and dropped them into the pool you didn’t expect to meet him at the bottom. 

his blonde locks floated around his face but you could still see the saddened expression on his face. 

with one shake of his head, you had untied the rope attaching you to weights and sprung up to supply your lungs with oxygen. when you had surfaced you weren’t relieved or happy, you weren’t disappointed or angry though… you didn’t know what you were feeling. 

you had named him Jin. he never spoke and only appeared when it seemed necessary so assured yourself Jin only existed because your brain was split between surviving and dying. 

but again that was dismissed 

one day as you watched your sisters run around the park; you noticed how happy they were, how free they were even if it was just for a second before you all had to go back home. 

a smile actually graced your face, you hadn’t smiled in what seemed like years. 

it was a genuine smile. so when you saw him leaning against the swing seat smiling along with you, you were definitely confused. 

and now here he was again, the same blonde haired pale boy. 

“you speak” you whispered to yourself as you stared at the boy with wide eyes. 

but this time as you stared into his eyes, there was something different…you couldn’t quite pin what it was. 

he sighed before looking around the cliff you both stood on. 

“Now it makes sense” he said with almost a chuckle as his hands slipped into his pockets. 

“What makes sense?” you asked as you wiped youe tears that seemed to keep rolling down your face no matter what you were thinking of. 

“i always wondered why here, why you? why i’m still roaming around these streets when it was so long ago” he sighed deeply. 

confusion quickly covered your face; before you even asked Jin already knew your question. 

“i killed myself” he said as his eyes bored into yours. 

you stood with your mouth hung open in shock. so he wasnt just your imagination. he was a ghost. 

it hit you like a ton of bricks. the look in his eyes were so fimilar, because it was look of your own. 

you both weren’t angry at the world, you weren’t disappointed in society, you didnt pity your situation or yourselves and it wasn’t particularly that you were in pain or hurting…

you were just sad..

when those kids did nothing, you were sad

when you came home and got nothing but a smack, you were sad

and now, as you stand here awaiting death, your just…sad. 

“right here on this spot actually” he said as he took in a deep breath. 

“then why are you still here?” you asked quietly. he laughed as a tear rolled down his face. 

“who knows, maybe im here to stop you..maybe a higher power knew that someone would need me” he answered with a shrug. 

his last sentence struck a chord in your heart. ‘someone would need me’

“i guess i didnt really help you did i? what am i supposed to say? dont do it? like thats going to do anything…” he said as he stared at his feet. 

you let out a loud sob before clutching your head. 

“there’s no way” you breathed out as you clenched your eyes closed. 

jin isnt a real person, ghosts don’t exist, he’s just your imagination trying to talk you out of dying. 

but do you want to die, are you really sure? 

sure life sucks but there are good things too…

“would you be happy?” he asked slowly as he approached you. 

“happy?” you asked with a scoff as you wiped your tears yet again. “what even is happiness anymore? Jin i don’t know! this isnt living! im breathing, but im not living! i don’t have ambitions anymore, i dont have intrests anymore! i dont know what fun is or the love of a parent…i just dont want to feel like this anymore” you cried as the cold air hit your back. 

“im sorry” you said shaking your head before turning back around to the cliff. 

the water below hit harshly against the rocks and the wind was loud and in a frenzy. 

“you don’t think i know! But trust me death isn’t any better, you’re still alone!” he cried out behind you, your eyes were focused on the water in front of you but you could still hear him crying. 

“You’ll have me! i promise ill show up a lot more and i-i-i can be there for you, and you can be there for me!…Y/N, please! You’re the only one who can see me! i don’t want to be alone again! please don’t!” he begged desperately. 

he probably didn’t think you would do it, like the other times he stopped you; he probably thought he had more time. 

but you were done. you were over it. and now you wanted to end it.

“I’m sorry, but you’re not real” you cried as you shook your head. 

as you took your last step off the cliff, you saw the same look in his eyes that were probably in your own. but as you fell towards the racing waters and the ragged rocks, you closed your eyes and breathed in your last breath. 

for once, you didn’t feel sad… felt nothing.

  • <p> <b><p></b> <b>someone:</b> so what's up? are you good?<p/><b>me:</b> you know what? sana bakkoush deserves better, much better, she is an amazing girl with only good intentions and so beautiful inside and out, she deserves so much happiness and love, she honestly only deserves good things, she doesn't deserve all the shit she is getting, and elias is such a good brother i just want him to talk to sana and hug her and tell her he is there for her always, but im worried about him, why was he drinking? why did he get into a fight? why did that fight between the balloon squad and the boy squad happen in the first place? did elias really hit isak? why? also what is yousef 'im so in love with sana bakkoush she is an actual sunshine i only have eyes for her and i would sell my kidneys and do anything for her' acar doing??? why did he kiss noora? why???? and we have less than 4 episodes you know? how is julie gonna fix this mess? *starts sobbing* HOWWW????<p/><b>someone:</b> .....<p/><b>someone:</b> what the hell.....<p/></p><p/></p>

anonymous asked:

did something happen or is that just you putting a reminder out there that you should teach children to respect disabled people? i hope it wasnt too bad whatever it was

my mom is disabled and she called me sobbing because of someone close to us calling her useless for not being able to do anything and saying that her being in pain all the time is “a bullshit excuse” and im just,,,,,,,,, why do you think that is an okay thing to say to a person who is very obviously disabled