im sobbing for so many reasons

Mid Year Book Tag Thing

I was tagged by @fiery-feyre & @seeliequeenofprythian tysm

1. Best book you’ve read so far in 2017

prooobbbaabbblllyyyyyyy We All Looked Up. it changed my life

2. Best sequel you’ve read so far in 2017

imma go Crooked Kingdom even though it ruined my life

3. New release you haven’t read yet, but want to

End of Oz

4. Most anticipated release for the second half of the year

THE SHAW CONFESSIONS FFFUUUCCCKKKK IM SO EXCITED I’M GONNA DIE

5. Biggest disappointment

probably some random adult book i read for no reason

6. Biggest surprise

BEFORE I FALL. what the HELL i was sobbing absolutely sobbing

7. Favourite new author. (Debut or new to you)

SJMaas 

8. Newest fictional crush

Cassian 

10. Newest favourite character

yo girl has too many to name don’t ask me

11. Books that made you cry

literally everything rn i’m very emotional but especially Before I Fall

12. Books that made you happy

ACOWAR, 

13. Most beautiful book you’ve bought so far this year (or received)

every single goddamn one but actually probably The Spy it’s old af and iconic

14. What books do you need to read by the end of the year?

Red Queen series, The Illuminae Files, literally every book ever written is my goal

15. Favourite Book Community Member

i dont have one i love u all

16. How many books have you read so far?

9 or 10? maybe more 

Tagging: @rowanrhysand, @a-throneoffeels, @crazybookladythings

gUYS YESTERDAY WAS THE HAPPIEST DAY OF MY LIFE. GET READY FOR A STORY TIME. so ive been listening to all time low for five years now. they basically have been here for me even at my lowest points. my life story consist 9 years of bullying, almost 5 years of depression, self harming, anxiety attacks and social anxiety, a year of eating disorders and 7 suicide attempts. every time i got into the recovery clinic i got trough it by watching funny all time low videos and listening to their music. i hate to say this but jack is my favorite cause he is the one who made me smile when i was about to lose hope. their music means the world to me cause it still gives me hope. so night before the gig my friends talked to dave (their tour guy) and he said that we need to come at 10.30am cause atl will probably come to the venue at then so we went there at 10am. Dave was there in his truck and then we started talking to him and he asked me “so are you a big all time low fan” and i answered of course aND THEN HE FUCKING GAVE ME ALEX’S USED GUITAR PICK. i started screaming and he said that im fucking crazy. then he asked do i have bra for jack and i had forgot them completely and then he said that he is gonna tell jack about it (i dont know if he did but either way holy fucking shit). then some lovely group of girls came to chill with us between the busses and we immediately became friends. at around 1pm the backstage door opened and fucking jACK AND RIAN WALK OUT RIGHT INFRONT OF US AND SAYING HI AND WE ALL JUST STOOD THERE WITH OUR MOUTHS OPEN CAUSE WE DIDNT KNEW THEY WERE THERE. when they went to the bus we all just started yelling at each other. it was so surreal moment cause i had never saw them so close before. they came out couple minutes later and we were stupid and shy so we just asked for high fives. thank god my friend pushed me towards jack so he gave me high five. after they went inside i started crying cause jack is literally the only reason why im still here. we stood there til the front door opened and blitz kids came to hang with us (i got into their documentary). the gig was awesome as fuck and there were so many lovely people like this one boy who saw me sobbing my eyes out during remembering sunday and therapy so he said to me “come to my spot so you will see better” and i dont know who he was but he seriously was so sweet. after the gig i went to the back again and i got pics with jono and rest of the blitz kids. it didnt took long time when jack came outside. when i saw him i just yelled his name and he came to take pics and us. when it was my turn i said to him “i just wanted to tell you that youre the only reason why im still alive” and that pic is from that exact moment. i was smiling cause all my friends around me. he hugged me so tightly that i couldnt breathe and we took a pic together. i showed him my barakat shirt and he said “woah that is awesome” and without asking signed it. im sure he said many things to me but everyone were yelling and fangirling so i didnt hear anything which kinda sucks but still i know it was just a little moment with jack but the way he looked at me was so sweet. i was too shy to look him in the eyes at that moment but my friend took this pic without me even knowing. after that i went next to their tour bus and i started crying so fucking much i couldnt stand. everyone was hugging me and saying that im so lucky. most of them cried too because they knew how much it meant to me. jack is so sweet and i know i choose the right hero for myself even tho he tells lots of dick jokes but thats good cause they make me laugh. ive never been so happy before thank you all time low for making really sad girl really happy. i will never forget this night. never give up cause guess what? someday you will be in my position

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 Happy Birthday Noel!  ´ ▽ ` )ノ

i chose eraqus as the character that would be used to celebrate this special day, for he was the reason we met, so he holds a special place in our friendship! though i know we’ve had some rough times, you are one of the greatest people i have ever met and i will never forget all the kindess you’ve shared with me! you deserve to feel special today and i hope this makes it feel a little more special~ Happy 17 years of life, may you have many more rad days to come, dr. president! ᕦ(ò_óˇ)ᕤ