im so sorry but i love you all

paradox1702  asked:

Baby im sorry ive been bad the last few days. And i get insecure. And i get weird. But its just i am terrified of losing you. Thats my biggest fear. Cos without you im not me. You complete me. I was bad for so long and all of sudden you are here and the sun is brighter. The birds are louder and the grass is greener. And i wish i was better at writing or singing or painting or something. You are the love of my life. Everything was black and white until you arrived.

I love you so much holy HECK

Don’t be sorry baby I know you’re going through stuff n it’s hard but you never have to worry about losing me

I love you lots n lots <33

It’s so hard to just not be able to explain yourself and how you feel to the only person you give a shit about. Trying to tell them your concerns, and getting very clear responses from them, yet your mind races through 1000 different bad scenarios as to what they actually meant, and of course you think it’s the worst possible one. You know how they can help you, but you’re too afraid to ask out of fear of them thinking your weak, and you just aren’t so sure they’ll understand. I love you with all of the heart I have left, and commit all of myself to you, but my biggest fear is that you don’t feel the same way. I’m sorry that I’m always so anxious, and I’m sorry that im getting depressed, and I’m sorry for being this way…

Hey so I honestly just,, am talking out of my ass right now but I really truly want to express how grateful I am for all of the love that you guys have shown, and continue to show, for Not That Bad. It’s existed for more than a year, and it’s been more than ten months since it was completed, but it is still consistently getting kudos, comments, even occasional ART.


It was most definitely an experiment, written chapter to chapter with very little planning by someone used to writing only very short pieces, and is full of all the flaws that come with that. But despite its messy, organic, slightly clumsy nature, it was still so incredibly well received. Every time someone tells me they’ve read and reread it, that it’s one of their favs, that it makes them smile or brightens their day, that it helped them through something, that they love it and are glad that it exists … that’s a wonderful feeling that’s hard to describe, but that has me smiling and clutching at my heart every time.


I also freely admit that that I did hope for a bit of popularity – and while this fic is not one of the behemoths, it’s loved enough and easy enough to find that new people continue to discover and enjoy it. Sharing this fic with this fandom really has impacted my life, helped me make new friends from all over the world, and taught me a lot of things both about myself as a writer and what it means to create something. And while I certainly hope I’ve grown as a writer and person since I made this sappy little piece of (hopefully in-character) fluff and released it into the void, it still brings a big smile to my face every time someone tells me it could touch them. Thank you so much, stay wonderful, and keep on being kind. ♡♡♡♡♡

lithonelle  asked:

Im a ftm witch and ive had a few people tell me i cant be one.... whats your stance on ftm, mtf or cis male witches? Im just curious (ps. I absolutely adore your page)

I don’t see any reason why you shouldn’t be able to be a witch! (Or whatever you so choose to call yourself :D) I’m so sorry people told you that you can’t be one that makes no sense this is a path that is open to everyone of every identifying possibility! I hope you’re able to find nothing but love and acceptance in the future and again i’m so sorry people have been rude to you like this! Good luck in all of your future endeavors I’m always for you (or anyone else for that matter) to talk to for any reason, know you are very very much loved!!! Best of luck!

anonymous asked:

hi, um, this is probably a stupid question and i hope you don't mind, but i saw your lr whisper moodboard (which is lovely btw!!) and... how do i say this, you refer to it as a bi moodboard and i've seen many people refer to whisper/lr i in general as bi and i've been wondering why it's bi specifically and not gay, like most people go to for other similar things? could you maybe explain it? im sorry this is probably dumb but it makes me happy to see the emphasis on bi (idk i think i am)

ahhh don’t you worry love, your question is not at all stupid! ♡

so, most importantly in the beginning of the mv we get this frame, which looks unmistakable like the bi flag

other than that, some starlight’s have been speculating that wonshik is bi, after he has mentioned that gender isn’t important when liking someone. and example of this can be seen HERE - so the chance of him writing a song about bi guys are there 

also the song refers to a woman, while the video is about two guys.

i hoped this helped clear things up!

ALSO!!
don’t ever feel stupid about asking me stuff! i am always here to help explaining stuff, the best that i can ^^

I feel like I’ve missed so much, but I’m back! Uuuum so I’ve been at my job at Barnes and Noble for almost a month. It’s okay, can’t honestly say I love it since I’m so lazy and I hate working, but it’s not the worst job in the world. 

I finished Infinite Jest which still feels weird, but I keep thinking about it and I think I’ll read it again next year or the year after and really analyze it. 

Anyway, life sucks but I missed booklr!

k-pop url

Rules: Spell Out Your URL Using Only Kpop Songs And Then Tag 10 People

I was tagged by @diolympius  YOU ARE RIGHT I STRUGGLED SO MUCH WITH THIS 😂 Love ya Meri, my lovely twin 💕✨ (ALSO IM SORRY THAT IT TOOK ME SO LONG TO DO THIS 😭)

C - Cherry Bomb - NCT 127
H - HOLUP! - BOBBY
I - I Love It - Dean, Dok2
M - MIC Drop - BTS

J - Just One Day - BTS
I - I’m a HOTSHOT - HotShot
M - MY I - SEVENTEEN
I - Intro: Serendipity - BTS
N - NINANO - MINZY, Flowsik
I - I Got Love - TAEYEON
E - Eureka - Zico, Zion.T

C - Claustrophobia - Sanchez, KillaGramz
R - Rookie - Red Velvet 
I - It G Ma - Keith Ape
C - Converse High - BTS
K - Ko Ko Bop - EXO
E - Epilogue: Young Forever - BTS
T - Tomorrow - BTS

I’m tagging: @flower-guk, @dimplesjoonie, @junhuisflower, @haneulismykoreanname, @ohpeachyboy, @mochisgrl, @ktaesthetic, @btspjmn, @4hobii, @rainksj 

(I’m 99% sure that I have tagged some of you in another one of these before so please don’t feel pressured to do it again if you don’t want to!! Love you all 💕🌸) 

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these r bad, but there u go 👌

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jyn and cassian (from various videos)

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travelling with jimin 💝🌷

Alright but I just noticed the neat parallel between Sven and Romelle and Keith’s parents–and I think it’s a tradition that might carry over to Shiro and Keith, so real quick:

In 80′s Voltron, Romelle gives Sven this knife/dagger for protection. They end up being love interests in the dub. But even that aside, Romelle caring so much about Sven’s safety and wishing him well is kinda seen as a romantic gesture. Real quick, but Romelle is also an alien princess (from Pollux, Altea’s “twin” planet) and Sven is of course human. 

yOU KNOW WHO ELSE THAT SOUNDS LIKE,,,

Yeah, Keith’s alien mom also gave her partner a thematically important knife before parting ways. So, wouldn’t it make sense that, if Keith ended up having a human love interest who was about to head out into danger–that he’d maybe give them the knife before they left? As a sign of good faith and for luck if nothing else; carrying on his mother’s tradition. Considering how important the knife is to Keith, I can see him giving it away as a measure of the depth to his devotion–I’m lending this to you for luck. But you know how important this is to me, so I expect you to come back alive and return it–something like that. 

But now, couldn’t Romelle also appear later as part of the Blade of Marmora, and give Shiro her own knife? Perhaps. But two things–one, Shiro is already associated with Keith’s blade. And two, of all the blades we’ve seen so far, Keith’s is actually the only one that really resembles a dagger, which is what Romelle gave Sven. Antok, Ulaz, Thace, Kolivan, ect–all their blades look different in their deactivated forms. Here’s a good reference showing how unique Keith’s blade is.

Now as for Shiro, the first he hears of Marmora is right when he escapes. 

“The blade of Marmora is with you,” Ulaz says. How fitting then, that it’s a Marmora blade that cuts Shiro free when he crashes back to Earth. On a thematic level, I think this is so much more than just The rebellion is with you. It’s the narrative saying–Don’t worry, Keith will always be there for you. Because, of course it’s Keith’s blade that frees him; of course, Keith is running to his rescue. Like he always does. Of course, out of everyone, it’s Keith and Shiro who keep crashing back together whenever they’re torn apart. It’s like fate.  

Not only has Keith’s blade saved Shiro once already, but Shiro has defended Keith and his right to keep the knife in turn. If Keith is going to pass on his blade at some point like his mother (whether temporarily or not), thematically, I think it’s just a logical conclusion that that person has to be Shiro. After all, I think he’s the only one that would really understand the depth of such a gesture. Because who was there with Keith in the Blade of Marmora, who saw him fight tooth and nail and nearly die for this? Who was the one that took the form of Keith’s greatest hopes and dreams–who did he fear losing the most? Who was the person he most desperately wants to see

Ulaz was right; Shiro does have the backing of the Blade of Marmora–and his fate appears inexorably tied to one blade in particular. That Shiro was there for Keith’s trial, that he witnessed Keith bare his heart and soul and saw himself reflected there–their endurance of the trial binds them together in a way I don’t think anyone else could ever fully grasp. 

And I mean, I think it would speak volumes about Keith’s trust in Shiro if he were to offer the blade to him willingly. After all, a big part of his trial was Shiro trying to force him to give it away.

Seeing Keith give Shiro the knife to safeguard him on a mission before they parted ways would be especially endearing becuase, well–when he does give in during his trial, he only agrees because he’s so afraid of losing Shiro. 

Shiro threatens to abandon him if he doesn’t relent, and so he does. To see the blade offered then as a sign of their bond, to show just how close they are and that this isn’t goodbye forever, that Shiro will still come back–I think that’s just the kind of closure for them I want to see. 

Yuri growing like a sunflower and passing Otabek’s height is my favourite headcanon (▰˘◡˘▰)