im so sad i miss him so much


Idk why but im so in my feelings about Jackson lately? Like I feel so bad for him. He gets so much hate for no reason while he puts his heart and soul into everything he does. I feel like he is distancing himself from his social media and being more quiet in interviews/shows because of that and it’s just so sad. He does not deserve it. I miss my cheerful and loud af wang puppy ☹️

Jongin: Sehun just won an award how do I subtly tell him that I’m proud of him?

Jongin’s brain: Smack that ass.

Jongin: Excuse me

Jongin’s brain: Smack.That.Ass.

Jongin: Oh shit you right fam

everglow- h.s song imagine

Originally posted by wordsoverpictures

oh they say people come

say people go

this particular diamond was extra special

You were standing by your mom as the two of you were washing the dishes quietly. Your mom glanced sideways at you before looking back at the plate she was scrubbing. You let out a sigh as you were drying off one of the newly cleaned plates. “You haven’t said anything yet.” You pointed out quietly.

Your mom paused before she put the plate down softly. She turned her body so she was facing you. You remained quiet as you felt her eyes scanning your body, as if she was trying to get a synopsis of you. Your mom shook her head as she turned back to the kitchen sink and grabbed the plate again. “You and Harry…you guys were so perfect.”

You nodded your head as you placed the dish to the side while you waited for her to hand you another clean one to dry. There was a moment of silence before your mother spoke up, “Did he cheat on you?”

You closed your eyes as you gripped the towel you were holding harder. “Mom, you know Harry’s not like that.” Your mom sighed as she agreed. “I know. I’m sorry to accuse. It’s just…if you and Harry didn’t make it, what hope is there for the rest of us?”

and though you might be gone

and the world may not know

still i see you celestial

The room was quiet. The only sounds were the occasion clicks and clanks as Harry was packing away his things out of your once shared apartment. You were sitting on the bed, your knees pulled up to your chest as you watched him. Harry looked at you before he looked back at the shirt he was folding.

“I wish you would take this apartment instead. It’s going to feel so big with just me living here.” You whispered quietly as your eyes wandered around the room. When you moved to London with Harry three years ago, he insisted that you guys would get a big apartment. He insisted to get an apartment that had three rooms even though it was only the two of you.

Harry’s mouth set in a straight line. Truth be told, he didn’t want to live in this apartment. It was too big and frankly, living here without you would be too much for his heart to handle. He didn’t want to live in a place where he would be constantly reminded of the memories the two of you shared.  Harry walked over and took a seat next to you on the bed. “So have you told anyone yet?”

Your eyes were looking everywhere but at Harry’s. You were afraid that if you did, your tears would never stop falling. “Just my mom. She’s sad to see you go.”

Harry nodded his head as he played with his fingers on his lap. You added, “I’m sad to see you go.” Harry looked over at you quickly. He sighed and closed his eyes momentarily. “I’m sad to go too, Y/N.”

how come cars don’t slow

when it feels like the end of my world?

when i should but i can’t let you go?

Harry thanked the moving company he hired once more before they set off with his stuff. When he turned back to look at you, your tear filled eyes were staring at the ground. He let out a sigh before he pulled you into a hug. The two of you sobbed into each other’s arms for this was going to be the last time you guys would be able to hold each other.

Eventually, Harry’s car came to take him away from you. With one last hug and a “sorry” from the both of you, Harry was gone. You walked back to your apartment, each step feeling heavier and heavier. As soon as you closed the door, you walked into your bedroom and into your closet. You sat down on the floor and pulled out Harry’s sweatshirts. Your eyes filled as you brought it to your chest and gave it a hug. You tried so hard to make sure Harry didn’t take this with him. You made sure you hid it as best as you could. You needed this sweatshirt. You needed something to remind you of him. You needed this sweatshirt because it smelled like Harry and it was warm and it would be like hugging Harry again and again. You pulled the sweatshirt over your head before you wrapped your arms around yourself and began sobbing on the floor of what once used to be Harry’s and your shared closet.

there’s a light that you give me

when i’m in shadow

there’s a feeling within me, an everglow

Eventually more and more people started to find out that you and Harry were separated. They didn’t know the reason which meant more and more people were blowing up your phone, trying to get a sense of what went wrong. You groaned as you dug your face more into your pillow when you heard pounding on your door. You glanced at your phone to see that it was fucking 8:30 in the morning. When the pounding on the door just kept coming and even started to get louder and faster, you let out a scream.

You opened the door and saw one of your best friends. You rolled your eyes as she made your way into your apartment. “I can’t believe I had to find out about you and Harry from your mom! Why didn’t you tell me!” Y/F/N yelled as you walked over to the kitchen to start a brew of coffee. You shrugged your shoulders as you stared at the mug you pulled out of the cabinet.

Your friend sighed before she took a seat on the kitchen barstool. She watched your every move with sympathy in her eyes. “I’m sorry. Just…how are you doing?”

You glanced at your friend before you poured the coffee into the mug. “I’m sad.” you admitted. Your friend nodded before you continued, “I’ll always be sad. But…Harry and I thought it was the best. It was a hard decision but it was made. I love Harry. I don’t think I’ll ever stop loving him. He taught me so many things. Like…like he taught me how to love myself and that my feelings were valid. With just that reason alone, I’m always going to remain thankful for Harry.”

As you were saying all of this, trying to fool yourself that you were going to be okay, your friend reached over from across the counter. She placed her hand on top of yours. She whispered, “You don’t have to be brave Y/N. Not with me.”

You looked at your friend when suddenly you let out a sob. Your friend was quick to rush over to your side and wrap her arms around you. She held you tightly as you cried into her shoulder. “I miss him so much.”

what i wouldn’t give for just a moment to hold

Harry ran his hands through his hair as he looked at all of the boxes he needed to unpack. He let out a sigh as he got down on his knees and opened the box closest to him. It was a box filled with most of the things he kept in his music room: journals, music sheets, extra guitar picks. The next thing Harry pulled out was a picture frame. Harry didn’t have much decoration in his room. He liked keeping it simple so he could solely focus on the music. However, he did have one picture framed in his room. It was a picture of the two of you from Gemma’s wedding.

He framed it because it reminded him of the first time you told him you loved him.

The two of you were slow dancing on the dance floor. He noticed how quiet you were the entire evening. He thought it was because you were meeting all of his family members for the first time but he was dead wrong.

Harry bit down on his bottom lip as he was staring down at you. You were looking down at you feet as the two of you were swaying to the song playing through the speakers. Harry let out a sigh, “I’m sorry.”

You quickly looked up at Harry before he continued, “I know it’s hard meeting each other’s family. Maybe I should’ve waited and not do it at mu sister’s wedding. I just really wanted you here with me tonight.”

You shook your head, “No! I’m glad you invited me tonight. Really. I am.” Harry’s head cocked to the side, “Then what’s wrong?”

This time it was your turn to bite down on your bottom lip. Your eyes slowly met Harry’s. You let out a deep breath. “I love you, Harry.”

When you told Harry you loved him, he was the happiest he’s ever been. He remembers the air being punched out of him, he was so excited. He couldn’t contain his happiness when he admitted that he loved you too. The longer Harry stared at the picture frame, more tears started to well up in his eyes. He let out a scoff as he looked down at the two of you smiling at the camera, thinking everything was going to be okay.

Suddenly, Harry threw the frame against the wall. He let out a scream of anger and sadness. Harry’s eyes widened when he saw how the frame smashed into a million pieces. He was mad but he didn’t mean to break it because unlike you, Harry didn’t have something of yours to remember you by. He didn’t have a sweatshirt, he only had this picture frame. Harry quickly rushed to the smashed picture frame. As he stared at the broken pieces of glass he couldn’t help but think his heart was broken just like the frame.

so if you love someone, you should let them know

oh, the light that you left me will everglow

Using the spare key Harry gave her, Anne let herself into his apartment. She grimaced as she noticed how filthy the place was. She noticed how Harry still had his unpacked boxes scattered around the room. She definitely noticed the amount of empty beer bottles. Her heart broke into a million pieces. The last thing any mother wants for their child was them to be hurt, especially when they couldn’t do anything to take away the pain.

Anne made her way into Harry’s bedroom. She let out a small gasp at the scene before her. Harry was curled into a fetal position as he was sobbing quietly. “Oh my love” Anne said before she rushed over to Harry. She pulled Harry up to give him a hug. Harry wrapped his arms around his mother as he cried out in his sobs, “I miss her so much.”

thank you guys so much for the read! i grew up listening to coldplay and im actually seeing them next week so i got inspired to write this imagine. chris martin actually wrote this song about his divorce that he was going through so it’s a really sad and touching song. i hope i did it’s justice when writing this imagine. let me know what you guys thought!

you can find the rest of my writing here 

give it up

◇ It’s a well-known fact that Im Jaebum would gladly give up the empire that he inherited for one person, and one person alone.

◇ Jaebum x reader

◇ mafia!au

◇ how goes it guys!! This scenario was honestly so unplanned and it’s kinda messy but it’s dedicated to that one anon who always asks for jaebum fluff!! I hope you enjoy cutie!! Also happy new years guys, I’m looking forward to more fics in 2k17!!


“What’s for dinner, sweetheart?” If it were anybody else, you would have jumped out of your skin, goosebumps hunching up from your skin. You hadn’t heard the door open.

But no; this was Jaebum - you smell his musky cologne before your hear him, and his arms are incredibly warm when they wind themselves around your waist, his chest pressed flush against your back and his lips brushing fondly over the nape of your neck.

You try to play casual - the lack of his presence over the passed few weeks had taken a toll on you emotionally and with the question of his safety hanging over your head, you were almost driven crazy; but you didn’t want to stress him even more than he most certainly already was.

“Kimchi stew,” you answer back softly, forcing your eyes to stay open when they so desperately wanted to flutter shut and bask in his embrace. You continue stirring the stew carefully, but your mind is only focused on how he sways you back and forth, as close to you as possible. “How was your trip?”

He shrugs from behind you, as he always does. Jaebum doesn’t like speaking about his trips too much when he’s with you - he never has. Multiple lectures from your parents and your friends and even his friends had implanted the idea that you were too pure for his lifestyle into his mind, and even if they never had happened you were sure he still wouldn’t enjoy telling you. But you weren’t stupid, and at this point in your relationship his silence spoke more than words.

You set the stew to simmer, and turn around with bated breath to take in his face. Although it had only been a few weeks since you had been able to be held by him, to be surrounded by warmth only he could provide - it felt like you could finally be at peace. Your nights would no longer be tormented by terror-filled visions of him being hurt, his breath laboured and his eyes hard and cold as ice. You could relax (for now).

Jaebum meets your eyes, gaze soft, and you barely register the feeling of his thumb grazing back and forth against your cheek, almost as if he was engraving the feeling of your skin into his brain.

To anybody else, he would look perfectly fine. The sharp curve of his jaw, the straight slope of his nose, and the unique, beautiful shape of his eyes. You had always teased about how he was much too pretty to be the leader of a mafia. He looked like he had popped right out of a drama, as if nothing was plaguing his mind - but unfortunately for him, you knew him better than he knew himself.

The furrow of his eyebrows - that meant that there were deaths. His men, most likely, because you don’t think that he would be too hung up on enemy casualties. Your hands slowly trail up from his forearms, revelling in the feeling of his slin beneath yours. When you’re almost at his shoulder, he flinches, and as if to distract himself, his hands move from your waist to rest against the counter behind you. He must’ve not properly dealt with his business, then, and from the way his eyes flicker from your own and back to the ground, you know it’s bothering him.

There’s only one thing you want to know, though.

“Are you hurt?” You question timidly, your fingers clasping between each other behind his neck. He doesn’t answer for a second, and that worries you more than you’d like to admit, but his hands are cupping your reassuringly and he peers into your eyes like all he cares about is settling your worries.

“I’m fine now, princess,” he murmurs in the softest voice you’ve ever heard him utter. This was a stark contrast to the Im Jaebum you normally saw; Jaebum was quite different from his alter ego JB, who was cold and calculating. The Jaebum exposed to you was the one who made stupid puns and made weird faces to make you laugh when you were sad.

But even that Jaebum looked different from the man in front of you. His eyes looked dark and gloomy, and his lips were down turned slightly into a frown. He looked so… so fragile.

“I missed you so much,” Jaebum inhales deeply, throwing you from your train of thought. He’s nuzzling himself into the crook of your neck in seconds, and the contact sends your stomach into a flustered frenzy. It’s amazing that after all this time, he’s still able to have such an effect on you. “You were always on my mind - you know that, don’t you?”

“Of course I know that,” you chuckle softly as he lifts his head, meeting your eyes again. You brush back the hair from his forehead fondly, fingers grazing against his skin and making him smile gently. “And you know that you were all I could think about?”

That seems to dim his smile, and he sighs deeply, biting his lip. You feel as if you’ve almost gone too far, with how it’s silent for more than a few minutes, and you want to reassure him that you’re okay with how he’s living - how his lifestyle is - but then he lifts his head again, and in the course of a few seconds his lips are pressing against yours, moving in sync with yours in the addicting sequence that you had been craving ever since he had left.

“I-” Jaebum pants, pupils dilated and lips swollen and red, face inches from yours and hands cupping your face. “I - You listen to me, okay? I know things seem - they seem hard right now, yeah? But I’m gonna keep you away from it. I’m gonna keep you safe and I’ll stay safe and when you have my kids I’ll protect them too, you hear? And you’ll have a normal life, and I - I’ll marry you, and we’ll be happy, and this won’t matter. So it’s okay, alright?”

Your eyes are blurry and you can only let out a watery laugh of approval before his lips are against yours again.


“I’d give this all up for you.”

“You shouldn’t say that.”

Jaebum laughs, glancing back to you where you’re laying on your bed, watching him get undressed after a long day at work. He doesn’t answer you right away, and instead climbs onto your bed, holding himself above you. His chest is bare, and the only thing touching the tanned skin is his dog tag, that hangs down and brushes against your stomach.

“Who are we fooling, princess?” Jaebum teases softly, and you almost roll your eyes when his lips begin to drift down to your neck. “Everybody knows that I’d throw this away in a second to be with you.”

“Isn’t that the problem?” You question. He doesn’t freeze in his actions, so you continue with your theory, eyebrows furrowing deeply in thought. “Will - will people not question your loyalty?”

Jaebum hums in distraction, and you huff, pushing his head away and making him jerk back. You think he’s about to complain, a hand coming up to nurse where you pushed him, but he catches sight of your face and he stops.

“You’re really worried about this, aren’t you?” He confirms, taking your silence as the agreement to his question. He doesn’t say anything at first, letting his eyes roam over your concerned features, before he shakes his head.

“First of all,” Jaebum begins as he drops to the bed beside you, giving up on trying to seduce relaxation into you, “I’m the most powerful and prominent mafia leader in Korea. Nobody’s stupid enough to cause trouble that would make people question my authority. Secondly - my families been in the mafia for centuries, and no-one would dare suggest that I’m not suitable for leadership, alright? There’s nothing to be worried about, baby, I promise.”

You nod, but he can see that some part of you still doesn’t believe him. It’s moments like these, when you’re being weighed down by his responsibilities and questioning everything, that makes him regret involving himself with you.

You - you should be going out, meeting people, settling down and living your life to the fullest. But no, you were stuck looking over your shoulder more often than not. Jaebum’s jaw clenches in anger - at himself, mostly - and he has to pull you closer to him to prevent himself from exploding into a furious rampage.

You don’t protest, and lay your head on his chest tiredly. He sees your eyes flutter shut, your eyebrown unfurrowing and your frown easing up, calmness floating over your features. He wished sleep wasn’t the only way for you to relax and release your emotional tension, but alas - it was all wishful thinking.


Months pass in the same manner; Jaebum goes off on trips for weeks on end, only to come home to you and lighten his heavy heart with the love you harboured for him. You continued staying strong and caring for both him and yourself, getting by each day with or without him.

It’s only when the beaming sun of summer transitions to the bright gleam of the winter sun that Jaebum tells you that he’s taking a break.

“A break?” You echo in confusion, eyebrows furrowing. He had only returned home and already he was breaking the news. You set down the book that had been in your hands, lifting your head from against the window of the windowsill seat. “You? Taking a break?”

Jaebum is leaning against the doorframe of the bedroom, nodding his head. “Yeah. I thought I could use it - we could use it. I haven’t been home much lately, figured it would do us some good, huh?”

He pushes off from the doorframe easily, strolling over to sit beside you on the seat. You shoot him confused yet pleased looks, but he doesn’t say anything, leaning his head back against the cool glass and exhaling lowly.

“Work’s tough, huh?” You bite your lip in concern, eyeing his still figure. The thought of going back to your book completely escapes you, and the novel is left on the ground beside you as you focus on a more important person.

Jaebum’s lips flicker up in a weak smile, but his eyes remain shut as he answers. “It always is.”

Another silence, but then he inhales deeply, eyes fluttering open and lazily drifting over you. “But you make everything much easier, sweetheart.”

Always so charming. And like you usually did, you smile bashfully, redness coating your cheeks like a wildfire and warmth pulsing in your stomach. Jaebum is quiet once again but his eyes are completely and utterly focused on you as you fiddle with your fingers, biting your lip sheepishly.

And the statement that follows his inspection makes your chest pound, the air leaving your body and making you completely freeze in shock. It was unplanned, completely out of the blue-

But no other time was more perfect, more suitable for a couple such as yourselves-

“_____ — lets’s get married.”


The diamond and emerald ring on your ring finger glistens softly under the sunlight streaming into your bedroom. It’s become a permanent element of your life, and you suddenly can’t imagine living without it - it’s a symbol of your love, the struggles your relationship had gone through. And the matching band that’s wrapped around Jaebum’s finger makes you glow with happiness every time you catch sight of it.

A low hum comes from behind you, rumbling lowly into your ear. The arm laying limply over your side tightens its grip, and Jaebum’s fingers intertwine more tightly with your own. You focus more deeply on your rings; how they complimented your skin and glinted warmly, how the strands of gold spun and weaved together to form the beautiful pattern you had memorised time and time again.

“Do you ever get tired of - of this?” You wonder quietly, your words almost too loud for the silent peacefulness that was suspended around you. You sense how he processes your words, hesitation to answer and confusion sinking into his skin, not unlike the golden light that’s filtered through thin curtains, pouring over you both like a river of gold.

“Of what?” He asks minutes later, voice soft and muddled with sleep.

“Life, in general,” you shrug, twisting the ring around his finger and thumbing over the precious stones. “Do you ever feel sick of having to do what you do? Do you not feel tired because of it sometimes?”

You fear the question has upset him in some way with the heavy silence that ensues. Biting your lip, you roll over so that you can face him. His eyebrows are furrowed and his bottom lip is captured between his teeth, eyes cast down in thought.


“I run an empire,” Jaebum sighs. “I run an empire and day in, day out, I have to make decisions that cost people their lives or ruin others. That in itself is exhausting, really, baby - but then you factor in the finances and the morality of the whole situation and it can weigh you down, sometimes, yeah.”

“But I have normality,” Jaebum finishes softly, brushing a strand of hair from your face with an equal amount of softness. “I have you, and I know that’s incredibly cheesy, but I don’t think you understand how - how coming home to you whenever I can heals whatever emotional wounds I’ve gathered from the day. It gives me a sense of normality and comfort to come home and see you in one of my shirts, or cooking, or just reading a book like you always do. You mame everything better.”

“And if it came down to it,” you murmur, avoiding his eyes. Your fingers clasp around your ring nervously, as they tended to do when you needed a distraction. “If it came down to it, would you-?”

“I’d give it up in a second,” he confirms honestly, a sincere smile that you only had the privilege to see in times of emotional vulnerability that were extremely rare. “Never doubt that, princess.”


Choi Seunghyun, it makes me so sad to see you leave but I just can thank you for making not only BigBang’s life better, but all of our lives with your amazing, happy, charismatic and funny self ✨

We’ll be waiting for you, see you in 2 years Tabi ❤️

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Originally posted by coupdetop

Don’t fear the reaper

Take a guess on what song i was listening to when i wrote this

Reaper x reader

Putting it under cut just because this is 100% my own story. I haven’t done a non-request in a while bare with me

Warnings: Idfk? Kinda feelsy?

This takes place 5 months after the fall

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UHHH OK im just gonna like write down what happened and stuff but mostly just for my own sake like i just need to write something down to calm down . u dont gotta read this or anything 😭😭😭😭😭😭

Keep reading

give me minute yall

please excuse my english, i’ve never gotten good grades 

i finally pulled myself together(not) and I just want to say that I’m very very proud of NCT and even us the fans . We’ve all been through so much . Protecting our boys from the cruel world with the best of our abilities;A;

OK lets start from  the oldest Mark, we all know about him having to debut in 3 different units. And not once he complained about being tired or anything .He even told us how happy he was and how he wanted to see the fans more. That shows how much he love this career and would do anything to make us happy. From being the youngest to being the leader would have taken a toll on him. And im pretty sure that even if he doesn’t show, there was probably times where he felt very exhausted . Especially with the people calling absolutely fully capable .You’ve worked hard Mark Lee

Renjun , omg this boy . He came from China and had to learn korean and being far from his family would probably make that kid sad af. Apart from that , he also helps his fellow member Chenle with adapting to this new surrounding . imagine being not sure of something yourself but then you go take yourself sure of it cause people look up to him.  Iwould honestly be stressed to the max if i was him.I applause him for that. you too, have worked hard Huang Renjun 

next we have Jeno. Being an idol , theres this part where you’ve gotta be talented at many things and also be funny.As most of us would know Jeno finds himeself the most boring in NCT which is not true of course. I believe he just gotta open up more and he probably be as funny as Haechan . Jeno needs more confidence and I can tell he’s working on in especially in the recent NCT DREAM Vlive where Mark was absent and he took the sub leader role .And we can see how much he talked compared to before. Actually all the members became more comfortable now and it makes me so soft inside .SO if we give it more time ,NCT would probably be variety gods. You’ve work hard Lee Jeno.

now my boi Haechan . I have no idea where to start and I feel that this will get long af. We all know how this boy can be mischievous and sassy .But lets all also remember that he is probably the most softest kid in NCT. As canbe seen from today, he was the first to cry when NCT DREAM was announced as the winner . I could understand why though. He has been going on about wanting to get first place on music shows since early 2017 and having his wish come true probably felt like a miracle (oh god im crying again) He ihas been a trainee since 2014?? when he was 14. Like damn his voice was probably just started to break and we all know how stressful it is to train your voice when puberty is hitting you like nobody’s bussiness. Oh and let’s not forget how strong he is . Like he was bawling his eyes out awhile ago but then a few seconds later he started hitting notes like an angel like it was a piece of cake.Damn son. He was probably thinking about how he was the team mood maker , and he wanted to show us how he happy he is . AND IM CRYYING .ok so. im so proud oof you . You’ve worked hard Lee Donghyuck 

Chenle , oh baby chenle .All the way from china with not much knowledge about korea or even kpop but here he is ., Slaying every stage . He was already a celebrity in China before he came here, but he still stayed in korea ,learn the language , and debut as a member of NCT. How hard did he work to be here only he and the members a know.Let’s not forget he is only 16 this year. WOW . when i was 16 i was stuggling with school.Im sososo proud of him . I can’t fully describe how much this is making me feel.yOU Zhong Chenle, have worked hard.

Our maknae , jisung.Bby chick JISung he so young . AND SO TALENTED .how does SM get this kids????Omg ok smol baby  jisung started dancing probably after he came out of the womb.Ok but serious , boys his age would be playing outside with friends instead of being in the studio and dance rooms for hours .With so much schedule and rules to follow.Scratch that NCT DREAM practically gave up their childhood to be where  they are now. Damn . You’ve  work hard Park Jisung .

Last and not least, Our Happy Virus Jaemin .gOd i missed him so much it hurts, so , damn, much. From what i heard , he was already suffering that waist injury since he was a trainee? im not so sure . But if  its true, i’m so proud of him, risking his health so that he could show us am azing performance that they have been practising .But i also hope that he take care of himself more now. it really hurts to see them hurting. Im sure he is sad that he can’t join his members in this comeback. sO many things had happen , and not being able to be there probably made him guilty but i hope he knows everyone misses him and hope he recover really soon cause we really need our happy virus.omG HIS SMILE. yOu’ve worked hard Na Jaemin

so in conclusion im totally whipped for NCT as a whole but today’s event made me reflect on how hard they all worked . Haters , if you have nothing nice  to say,then please shut up and mind your bussiness. NCT fans let’s continue supporting every single one of them cause they are family and everyone should be loved.Let’s not hate one member or one unit because your fav didnt get to shine.Its just the start ,theres still alot of time ,I believe all NCT members will shine so brightly that the haters go blin. lets love them okayy!

Do you ever think about Zoe Murphy and just start bawling

Requiem is obviously heartrending–she’s clearly deeply, deeply resentful of Connor, not only for terrorizing her, for hurting her, but also I really think for creating sort of a black hole in her family–everything was about Connor and everything about Connor was broken and destructive and terrible–but If I Could Tell Her makes me cry just as hard. Laura Dreyfuss’ performance is astounding tbh, and hammers home how much Zoe wanted a relationship with her brother despite everything: “he always seemed so far away/It’s like I don’t know anything.” It just breaks my heart how hard Zoe is trying to make sense of the Connor she sees in Evan’s letters and how incongruent that person is with the Connor she remembers, and also y'all, Zoe loved her brother!!!! She hated him but she loved him too!!!! Zoe Murphy is so kind and good-hearted and so lonely and I love her she deserves the world ok I’m just saying. I have too many feelings about these sad kids!!

Shawn Being Away From You While He's on Tour would involve...

And in this, you 2 r dating duh

-The longest hug ever when you drop him off at the airport
-The flight attendants telling you two that Shawn needs to leave
-but he wont let go of you
-literally the plane is taking off in 3 minutes and you’re still in his arms
-eventually his manager pulls him away
-he looks at you through teary eyes and says
-“i love you so much y/n you’ll never know.”
-“i know. And i love you more shawn.” You say holdijg back your tears
-watching him walk past the gates
-being sad but you know you’ll see him
again and this is his career
-clutching the billion presents im ur hand that shawn insisted on buying you
-snapchatting eachother every single frkn second
-like ur streak’s at 2829
-and sometimes its not even conversation you just send eachother funny faces
-FaceTiming during hours
-falling asleep together through FaceTime
-endless texts
-a good morning text each morning, sometimes really early cuz of time difference
-on tour, he misses you so much
-and he tries to fill that void by meeting fans
-and sure, 99 percent of them r crazy about him but they will never replace you
-videos being posted online of him singing and saying “this songs for y/n whom i miss so much, darling if you see this i love you.” -counting down the days till u see eachother again
-infinite tweets from him saying “missing my girl”

-him always sending you gifts in the mail -you sprinting to him when he shows up at “arrivals” in the airport -him dropping everything even his phone -you jumping into his arms -him picking you up and hugging -and kissing -its been tough when he was gone but you made through it -because even though you’re apart, nothing will stop your love for eachother _ Lemme know what u guys think! Feedback gets me goin❤️ Harry Potter blog: @everything

anonymous asked:

Can you make a gif reaction Where you tell them That youre parents are Divorce and you miss your dad so much? Thank youu for the hard work


BTS Reaction when you tell them your parents divorced and you miss your Dad

“Aww, Princess… Did you want to talk about it? You know i’m here, right? You can tell me everything. I’m not going to judge. It’ll be okay.”

Originally posted by bts-gfx

“Baby… you miss your dad? Do you want to go visit him? I don’t mind at all. Anything for you” he says smiling.

Originally posted by jeonggu

“Please don’t be sad jagi. I don’t like to see your sad face, it makes me sad too. Tell you what, you tell me whatever you want that will make you happy and I’ll get it for you. Or.. at least try depending on what it is.”

Originally posted by sonyeondan

“I Know it’s none of my business, but do you want to talk about what happened? Or do you just want to cuddle in your boyfriend’s arm for a bit?”

Originally posted by sugagifs

He would be sad with you because family was really important to him and he couldn’t have even imagined what you have gone through. “Jagi… It’ll be okay, I’m here if you want to talk about it. I understand that it must hurt, so let me make you happy. I want to see your beautiful smile”

Originally posted by bangthebae

“wah? They divorced? How come?”
“Are you okay? Is everything all right for you? Do you need me to get you anything?”
“Hobi, It’s okay. I.. I just miss my dad a lot.”
“Well then, we should pay him a visit”

Originally posted by hoesoks

He would understand the pain that you’re in but he wouldn’t know if you wanted to talk about it or not. So he would be kind of embarrassed and awkward and would ask you a bunch of questions but also give you a strong hug so you know that he’s there for you

Originally posted by pangguk

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dating nct dream; chenle ver.

this is probably gonna be kinda really long

-this boy is probably as clueless as jisung smh

-but he knows the simple things!!

-hand holding, hugging, etc


-how he fell in love~~~~~

-as in love as an 01 liner can

-ok so chenle first met you at school

-well, the first time he saw you he didnt really meet you

-so he was wandering down the halls like the cool kid he is!!!

-and he was about to go in the music room bc what else does this nerd do with his life

-he had the day off from training too so like

-why not mess around in a place he loves!!!

-so he’s about to walk in but then






-how cliche is this smh


-and he immediately mELTS

-“omg angels are real i cant tell anyone abOUT THIS”

-so he slowly opens the door just a bit and looks in and sees someone sitting on a chair, back turned to him and has headphones on

-so you dont notice him at all bc your back is to the door and your headphones are top notch af!!!

-chen’s just standing there at the door like a creeper and all he can think about is “i wanna marry them”

-he listens to you singing your lil heart out for a lil bit longer but his smol heart cant handle it

-he’s already too in love with you


-and you just didnt notice at all

-so he runs back to the dorms and bursts through the door dramatically screaming “I NEED HELP”

-the rest of the dream team are like “omg what’s wrong are you dying”


-he doesnt know he’s in love and i just what a cutiepie omg

-jaemin stares at him for a second before falling on the floor laughing

-mark’s trying to contain himself but it’s too cute to not laugh 

-“chen chen listen to me i think youre in love man” -jaemin

“WHAT DO YOU MEAN” -chenle, pterodactyl screeching

-mark tries to calm him down while also getting the juicy gossip 10/10 “it’s ok dude, tell hyungs who it is

-and then jisung like, slides in and is like "yeah chen tell HYUNGS WHO IT IS” which makes chen hit him

-chen gets kinda sad and freezes “oh my god… i dont know”



-so he spends the next 5 days trying to find out who it is

-asking everybody to sing for him, getting dragged away by jeno and renjun

-“we’re sorry for him” -ren and jeno trying to do damage control

-“NO I NEED TO FIND OUT IF THEYRE THE ONE” chen, as he’s struggling against his friends

-ok so like, that obviously fails so chen’s sad for the next 5903 years

-and he’s like “im never gonna fall in love again”


-“that’s so much work tho” -hae

-“*cue ren grabbing him by his collar, eyes bloodshot and clearly distressed* YOU TRY BEING THE ONE HE GOES TO WHENEVER HE MISSES HIS ONE TRUE LOVE YOURE GOING TO HELP US WHETHER YOU LIKE IT OR NOT”

-jaemin has to drag him away but ren keeps screeching

-so one of the boys sneak into like, every vocal class to listen to everybody sing for like 2 weeks but they still cant find the one 

-chen keeps saying “NO IT’S NOT ANGELIC ENOUGH IT’S NOT THEM" 

-so he nearly gives up bc he thinks it’s just not meant to be :ccc

-also, chen’s the type to walk pass the music room dramatically, staring at the door as he does so 

-so he’s doing that one time but woah. W O A H!!! HE HEARS THE VOICE AGAIN

-“omg fuk chen be a man and aSK THEM FOR THEIR NAME” -chen, screaming at himself

-so he slowly opens the door and woAH IT’S YOU

-he knocks on the door but you dont notice, your headphones on again so he takes a deep breath and walks over 

-he taps your shoulder lightly which makes you sCREAM AND FALL OFF YOUR CHAIR

-chen is so red omg

-“im so sorry i didnt mean to do that!!!!!!!!”


-“im so sorry omg!!!!!!!!!!" 

-"it’s ok man” -you, laughing really hard at yourself and him

-“im… im chenle and ive been looking for you for like… forever-” chen turns ever redder bc it sounds so creepy coming from his mouth

-“i know who you are. how do you know me?" 

-chen’s brain short circuits and all he can think about is "OH MY GOD YOU KNOW ME” and he accidentally says it out loud

-“everybody in this school knows you, youre in nct dream…”

-he feels embarrassed bc he didnt remember

-you glance at the clock and see that it’s almost time for your guardian to pick you up 

-so you just tell him “well i have to go but im y/n. i come here every tuesday if you need me." 

-and you grab your backpack and sling it over your shoulder

-and he looks like a fish opening his mouth and closing it trying to say something but you just look so cool doing that and im!!!!!!!

-so just as youre about to leave he’s like 

-"i really like your voice”

-he like BLURTS it out he sounds all choked up and stuff omg

-and you pause for like, an hour before you turn around and look at him 


-you sound really shy and cute and adorable omg

-the last thing you say is "i like yours too” before you walk away like nothing happened

-as soon as you close the door behind you and leave, chen COLLAPSES


-the rest of the dream team probably crawl out of the closet or something inside the room 

-they stare at chen’s half-dead body for a bit before jisung says something

-“is he ok" 

-"lol when is he ever” -ren

-so chen’s laying on the ground in a ball

-and mark’s just like “i never signed up to be a parent when i auditioned but w/e dude”

-so he walks over and picks chen up like it’s their wedding day or somethin smh and has to like, carry him back home

-so every tuesday he meets up with you in the music room 

-at first you were like “uh but why would you wanna be here when you can be with your idol friends”

-but after a bit you got used to it

-and you would like, wait for him to arrive before you started doing anything

-and your school is probably one of those school with vending machines and stuff smh fancy af 

-so whenever you bought a drink or a snack, you’d buy one for him too

-which makes chen just falls in love with you even more bc “omg, they think of me when im not there woAH "even tho it’s just like, a drink or something

-so the first few times, it would just be you singing and him listening 

-but after the fourth time he swung on over to you in the music room you were like "dont you wanna sing too?”

-and chen’s just like “omg, uh i sing a lot already and i really like your voice”

-but youre just like “i like your voice too. do you wanna sing with me?”

-so when he hears you say that, he’s like “oh.. oh…… i………IF YOU WANNA”

-and you know that song jungkook and lady jane sang on masked singer (here’s the link if you havent heard it: x)

-well youre like “do you know this song??” (HINT IT’S THE SONG I LINKED ABOVE WINK) and you sing a smol part of it for him

-he literally melts in his seat bc your voice is so angelic and you sang the part of the song where it was like “im in love”

-he manages to nod tho

-so you two sing together (what a bunch of cuties omg) and after you guys finish, chen is LITERALLY ON CLOUD 9

-and all you say is “we sounded nice together” before grinning and he just awkwardly chuckles and scratches the back of his neck 

-“yeah, yeah we did" 

-and when you leave this time, youre like "i’ll see you later chen” and leave 

-chen’s dying again bc “omg they called me chEN INSTEAD OF CHENLE WE’RE PRACTICALLY MARRIED”

-when you guys pass each other in the halls you two smile at each other but dont interact much bc he doesnt want crazy fans to hurt you :cc

-this lil duck’s way of confessing was so cute and cliche

-the next tuesday, he was like “i gotta do this today!! i must confess!!!!!!!!” so he like practices what he’s gonna say over and over again

-he probably uses ren as a practice test

-and when it’s finally tuesday, you head to the music room but chen’s already there!!

-“oh hey what’s up man” -you


-“you look really nervous”

-and he just like shrivels up into a ball but he is a man!!!!! he can do this!!!!!!!!!!!

-and he like, sings you a really cute ballad and asks you out

-your heart is pounding and your face is probably really red

-youre standing there and not saying anything so chen gets really scared

-but then you say “oh my god” really quietly and then “of course you idiot oh my gosh” and shove him lightly

-after you two started dating, chen tries his best to walk with you to school and walk you home too what a cutiepie ;-;

-just saying now chen is a clueless MESS (in the cutest way possible!!!)

-like, if he sees a doggo on the way to school with you


-it doesnt matter if the guy with the doggo is scary


-if there’s a van with the sign “free candy” in badly written handwriting


-whenever you two sing duets all chen can look at is you

-especially if it’s a love song

-youre always on his mind and he cant ever find words that explain how much he loves you so he tries to write songs for you

-for your one year anniversairy he wrote a song for you and sang it in the music room where you two met

-he smiles really hard when he sees you, his face squishes up and it’s sO CUTE UGH

-he hugs you as a greeting after you two started dating

-i feel like chen would love giving you forehead kisses omg

-if he’s going away on a trip or a tour or something, he’d leave voice messages for you of him singing or telling you he loves you or something oh my gosh

-he’s such a sweet boy and he loves you so much

-he would honestly give you the world 

-and you would too!! because you love him just as much as he loves you ♡

rainberrywarrior  asked:

hey u dumb robot take a vent: im so fuckin sad my friend and fp is moving half way across the country to get away from his abusive dad (which is absolutely great dont get me wrong) but it all just hit me at once today and i started crying because i realized im not going to be able to hug him goodbye or do anything with him anymore im just so,, ill nevrr fucking see him again or do projects together or play dnd together we can talk yea but it just wont be the same and im going to miss him so much

Jews. Doomy, which Pokémon is the meaning of life.