im shitting myself okay


12 days of stydia
    ⤷  day two:
favorite episode (3x11)

u know that feeling where you’re just preparing for the worst and shit keeps happening and things keep trying you and it’s like… rlly hard to think there’s ever gonna be a positive side at the end of it bc fucking god yh man mood

See? I may fade, but like the moon, I always become myself once more.

things i really hate about summer: my hands get all sweaty thus my phone gets all sticky and i die inside

im angry at the people in my life rn. and it’s probably my fault, not theirs. but goddamn my mom is not understanding me! all she keeps saying is “just do it! force yourself!” newsflash mom, i fucking cant. i fucking cant! i cant get out of bed for shit! get it in your fucking head. i feel like an asshole and i probably am but how the fuck am i supposed to do things when all i wanna do is die. and im probably just making excuses but ive been struggling for months on end now and nobody is helping. nobody understands. they make it seem like im making a CHOICE to be like this. idk. i want to die :^)

Trying to eat healthier and… less…. bc i realized i snack when im bored or sad and im… always bored and sad lmao

I had a bowl of cereal today for breakfast
A mexican pizza and some rice from work for lunch (bc ive never had one before)
Aaand a bowl of fruit (watermelon, grapes) for dinner!

No other snacks today!
No over eating!
Im proud of myself for taking this first step to be healthier tbh, I… really gotta get my shit together and i think this will help

As for exercise, im going to at least do yoga everyday, and the Big Workout every other day to start

Im ready to change

Okay so im shitting myself rn because we get to see the last episode of snk’s english dub in about 4 days and the voicing in the sub was just so fucking on point like Erens freakout was so so perfect and for a lover of snk’s english dub like me I just hope and hope with all my heart that Bryce Papenbrook (Erens english voice actor) can pull it off.

personally i feel very open about queer “slurs” like if u dont want to hear them ever i totally respect that but just me myself im okay with saying faggot and dyke and shit

i dont say the t slur tho bc idk that one Does make me uncomfortable bc it’s heavily associated with violence against trans women and it hasn’t had as much of positive history as other slurs do