im probs late with this but i wanted to make it hi

anonymous asked:

leela that liveshow was. a lot. so cute. Dan talking about love made me 👀

it was definitely a lot oh my god. one of my favorites in a long time and a real treasure trove of open stories, asides, opinions, and general insights into his mind, his opinions on work, his life, and of course, yes, his thoughts on love. i almost wondered if he was a little bit tipsy from the sushi dinner he mentioned going on since he’s always sort of told us that he’s pretty sensitive to wine (he was tipsy while editing that sims video when he left the flipside christmas party in december and he’d only had one glass of wine?) because honestly there was so much rambling and vulnerability in this that i wasn’t prepared for. uhhh, brace yourselves bc this is like,, the longest shit i’ve written about them in ages. i can always count on a dan live show to bring out my inner desires to write an actual novel haha


the meditation bit. that was so lovely on so many levels. to know that he’s tried meditating is one thing. to watch him try to walk us through some of the fundamental tenets of a meditative mindset was another. it was so fascinating to me to hear him confirm the way in which he feels plagued by the onslaught of noise in his life, and crucially, for him, that’s all online noise—he kept talking about imaginary conversations, how all of our communication is text on the internet, and that he ingests so many of those voices constantly and always feels their presence. even though that is a generalizable thing that all of us suffer from, to an extent, in a world where we’re so digitally connected, it’s staggering to think about the scale on which he has to deal with all of the white noise and that all of it is both distressing to him and also inescapable in that it’s the foundation of his career. i just see dan as being someone who is so internally conflicted about so many things and that includes, most centrally, the role of the internet and his presence on it, and it doesn’t take much reaching to understand why he must love and hate it in equal measure.

the hydration campaign. y’all i’ve been trying to track every stay hydrated mention since the one in pinof 8 when they literally made like a psa, with no explanation or context, about the importance of water and staying hydrated and just stuck it in the middle of that vid. i’ve lost track though bc they’ve worked it into nearly every video they’ve made since then and i WANT TO KNOW WHAT ITS ABOUT. i am adamant that it’s an inside joke of some sort. i don’t think they actually give a fuck how much water we drink lol. so today when dan was like “i need to find a way to work that into the next video .. .might already be in it,” and then at the end when he said he needs to leave to go “get hydrated,” i was living bc it was the most open confirmation yet that this is something they’re so intentionally doing and working into their vids. idk if it’s just a funny thing but … my instinct is that it has some sort of deeper meaning that only they know and i’m ANNOYED THEYRE ALLOWED TO RUB THESE JOKES RIGHT IN OUR FACES UGH. jk they can carry on w their married behavior but. i want it all to lead to some sort of announcement that they’re starting a joint bottled water business at the very least. or maybe its just a euphemism for sex. who knows. ugh

dan acknowledging his pretentiousness about music is all i’ve ever wanted. it’s so funny to me how just his self-awareness that he is very pretentious and particular about his tastes is all i needed to forgive him for all of it because what pissed me off more than anything ever about dan’s approach to talking about music were his flimsy attempts at trying to act like he was so accepting and tolerant of all people’s music tastes and that he’s some sort of diplomatic saint who respects and celebrates everyone’s preferences bc … literally no he fucking doesn’t he has never even tried to make it convincing hahah. so him just outright apologizing for it today in his usual self-deprecating fashion was like the funniest, best thing to me bc god at least he knows and realizes and like maybe now he can actually work on talking about music in the deeper and complex ways that he so clearly wants to. also as a music snob in my own right i feel him on this and i’ve always just found it way easier to preface every conversation w the clear statement that these r just my own standards and i’m a douche and i’m never actually trying to disrespect anyone who might like different things than me. anyway, i love dan


i suspected and even posted about the fact that unexpected things might have happened this week that caused phil to be delayed in posting his video and dan to be all but silent on twitter for several days. i speculated dan may not have been in a good place this week based on his silence and also the way he seemed to teeter on the brink of quite overt negativity during last week’s live show. to me, today’s live show seemed fully in the throes of that negative headspace. there was a resurgence of bleak little comments about how he’s tired (of living), how he looks like a rat and doesn’t want to be reminded about the reality of his existence, how his life is a joke, how he can’t comprehend that anyone could draw inspiration from his videos or that his stories could brighten people’s days, etc. etc. all said as casual asides and mostly followed by little laughs as is his norm, but it was very reminiscent to me of the time in early january around his 2016 memes video and his first couple live shows of the year where he talked so frequently about craving death and feeling anxious and judging his own work output too harshly, and the constant pressure of scrutiny from his audience. i don’t think this live show was as bad as all of that but it’s clear that things might be a bit difficult right now and dan confirmed that himself when he stated that it’s been a challenging week in ways he can’t talk about with us yet. i was so interested to hear him say we could ask him about it in like five months though. literally,,, i put it in my calendar for august because i’m just so curious. we have almost no hints to go off of in terms of speculating about what it could be, but to me the fact that we would be able to ask him five months from now seems to suggest that it’s not personal (i jokingly wrote in tags that he and phil had gotten in a tiff this week lol) bc if it was he wouldn’t mention it at all i don’t think and definitely at the very least wouldn’t have given us such a specific timeframe about when we could ask about it. it’s likely work-related bc of that timeframe: a new project of some sort that will be out later this year, for which perhaps several planning meetings or deadlines had to happen/be met this week? it’s hard to say why that would put dan in such a negative headspace but he’s said before that he gets that way when he’s sleep deprived and he did just seem very very tired beneath everything. … also possible it could be about moving? maybe house hunting was very stressful and didn’t go to plan. late summer (five months from now) would be a fitting time for them to have made their move, and really it’s the only other possible thing i can think of with a timeframe that dan would specifically tell us. in any case,,, mark your cals for august y’all bc i actually can’t wait to hear more insights about this week even if we have to wait months for them.

that being said, the new dinof video is coming tmrw or the day after and he was still pretty vague about what it will be about. as i spelled out in completely unnecessary detail after last week’s live show i believe he was going to make the video about dropping the dinof user name but then changed his mind (this is the video he referenced today when he said “i was going to make a video but then decided it should be the next one” before going on like a 3-min rant about how sometimes he just feels the timing isn’t right to post a particular video.) so that leaves the field wide open for what this next vid could be. the only other hint we got was that it could be kink-related because the premium he opened that said “kinkshame me daddy” prompted him to say “well you’ll like my next vid,” but then he quickly walked it back as though to dispel anyone’s expectations that it would be kink-related? it was all a bit confusing. on that subject he did note down the idea of doing a video about going to the dentist back in a february live show, so there’s a high possibility to me that it could be about that since it’s like sort of (maybe jokingly) a kink for him, but he wouldn’t want to tease something that’s mostly NOT about kinks by saying it’s kink-related, hence his rapid back-tracking. but like. tbh who knows … dan is confusing and could pull something totally out of left field behind all of this quibbling. i mostly ardently agree with the way he told us to feel about it, which is to have literally no expectations or theories about what it could be hahah … best advice he’s ever given tbh

confirmation that he and phil will attend playlist this year, and a sort of allusion to the traditional lester clan april holiday in florida. probably means that he will join them again this year. it was kind of nice to hear him basically walk us through how all of their decisions about conventions and travel are made jointly, even months and months into the future, and to have no qualms with sharing that. he also just kept reiterating vaguely that they might have plans at various points of the year and idk about y’all but i feel like he’s trying his hardest to let us know that those plans involve each other and probs always will. could be work things (the same project that may have caused them stress this week), could, as he said in his own words back in january, be “life things.” could be both. but regardless, the plans are always danandphil things, both of them together, and i’m not sure how there is still a strain of people that insists on arguing that a moving apart or separation is on the horizon for this year. all of that is summed up in this one amazing exchange for me, when someone in the chat asks, “are you excited for australia again?” and he answers, “yeah, we are.”

i also really dug the insight about how he likes to structure his work in such a way that he’s working for three weeks straight with no days off and then takes a whole week to lose himself in a game. it’s very dan to be so all or nothing about the way that he works and to become consumed so completely by whatever’s at hand (whether it’s work or leisure) and although i might’ve suspected that that’s how he operates i don’t think we’ve ever heard him lay it out that clearly


that he opened this live stream with such an earnest celebration of phil (thanking him, literally, for existing and making videos even though it was technically a misspeak) was so lovely and not what i expected but it set a nice tone for the start of this stream. the bants-y way in which he acknowledge the subscriber gap was also a tiny bit noteworthy to me, especially in light of that ask i answered recently about how they must approach the subscriber gap. i argued it def isn’t something they are sensitive about and probs isn’t something they joke about either, but dan sort of showed that he might approach it w humor if the situation calls for it rather than ignore it altogether. interesting. he’s clearly so proud of phil and was a little flustered in talking about how exciting the milestone was. and then, relatedly, so so animated and excited about “promo-ing (awkward pause and sidelong glance) his pal” and the gym video. i fucking loved hearing his version of the story and how surprisingly soft and tender he sounded when he was describing phil on the phone asking for an exercise plan (like, his tone was verging on adoring there) and then the way he looked when he got back. the way that dan says “what happened?” when he’s recounting how he talked to phil after he got home literally set my heart aflutter bc it was sooooooooo concerned-sounding even in a re-enactment, even in front of thousands of people, so i can’t even imagine how worried he must have genuinely been in that moment. the thing w videos is that they allow these real-life stories that happen to dnp to take on a sort of surreal almost fictional feel bc of the storytelling dnp employ—videos have like a real narrative arc and they’re packaged to be entertaining so in some ways it’s easy to forget that this is actually a true thing that happened. phil lester went to the gym and threw up twice from over-exertion and came home in half the time he was supposed to be gone and dan, the worried partner, was there to receive him when he did. and then, of course, to get super angry on his behalf and tell us about it later. i was literally rejoicing to hear dan be so honest about his emotional reaction to this happening to phil bc it might be something he would have usually phrased another way (‘can u believe phil asked for this one thing and got this other thing instead what is wrong with people this is why we don’t go outside’) instead of literally just stating his emotion so bluntly (‘i was actually like really mad … like honestly i was so angry when he told me.’) that difference in communicating how he feels is so hugely important to me and it’s what gave the story so much dimension,, i could literally picture dan and his instinct towards protectiveness that we’ve seen time and time and time again when it comes to phil, just full of irritation, disbelief, and actual anger in that moment and he had no problem with telling us that was what happened. i nearly thought that when he said he couldn’t go to that gym bc he didn’t want to see kyle/leon, that he was saying any real-life encounter with him would end in dan giving kyle/leon an angry speech about his lack of professionalism and total ineptitude at his job. i totally believe that it would.

the other part of dan’s reaction that i feel is worth noting is the way that he immediately said to phil that he needs to learn to be more assertive in a knowing tone as though it’s something they discuss often and, to be honest, it IS something that has come up before over and over in the way that dan portrays phil. that he’s too “polite” to call people out if they’re abusing him online, that he believes in things like etiquette and courtesy, that his personality is adorable and, in not so many words, soft. we even have seen him describe it in certain specific real life scenarios. an example that comes to mind is when they were doing the joint live show in november last year and dan wanted to talk about the sound guy who fucked up his mic at dapgoose LA, subsequently causing him to loose his voice for the boncas. dan clearly wanted to go off about how incapable the sound guy had been but asks phil for permission basically, and phil tempers dan’s response a lot and recounts the situation diplomatically. a random example that also comes to mind from ages ago is in dan’s what not to do at the cinema video from 2012 where he talks about a scenario when he and phil go out to see a movie and he, dan, is assertive enough to both 1. ask for people to completely get up and move if they’re sitting in his and phil’s seats, and, 2. shush them if they’re being too loud. he even acts out phil saying “oh my god you did not just do that, i don’t know you,” and trying to hide. i feel like this is a difference between them that’s sometimes under-discussed  or noticed because the main focus is always on their anxieties and insecurities and general distaste for human interaction. people also focus on phil making small talk with people in social settings and take that to mean that he is more confident and calm. but i earnestly believe that he is more reserved than dan in many ways and that includes in facing negative or stressful situations and dan, despite his own set of anxieties, has always been much more able and willing to demand and ask for what he feels he (or phil) deserves.

obvi the thing everyone wants to talk about (and i’m right there with y’all) is dan’s truly surprising decision to entertain a question about love and then give a definition of it. after a bit of waffling and dithering about whether it is or isn’t a social construct he seems to insist that it is a real feeling and defines it as “the fear of that person not being there mixed with sexual attraction.” super interesting to me because he seems to totally approach this question from his own perspective and experience which is why in the moment he seems to suggest that you need to experience sexual attraction in order to love people (and where does that leave people on the ace spectrum?) and, moreover, that love is definitely a feeling people feel (and where does that leave aromantic people?) he definitely interprets the question to be about romantic love rather than talking about something perhaps “safer” for his usual topics such as platonic love or familial love and it’s for that reason that i definitely think he was trying to say that this is what love means to him and in his own experience because i don’t think he would be so cavalier about conflating romantic and sexual attraction and implying that asexuality and romantic attraction cannot coexist in one person if he had had time to think about this answer rather than spontaneously deciding to answer it on the spot.

but that he’s speaking from his own experience obviously makes his answer profoundly interesting because he settles on, coincidentally or perhaps not, one of the only ways of expressing affection for phil by proxy that he’s ever been okay with sharing with us, which is that he needs phil around bc he can’t bear to be alone. this combined with the protectiveness/defensiveness he exhibits for phil pretty consistently, as well as the occasional recognition of phil’s creativity, are pretty much the full spectrum of ways in which dan ever talks about what he feels for phil in a public setting. it was so strangely emotional for me to hear him confirm that his fear of being alone and being without this hypothetical “love” is so fundamental to the experience of love for him that it becomes a big part of the way he defines it. i mean people make fun of dan’s neediness all the time in so many ways but he straight out confirms here that the feeling of needing your partner near you at all times and staving off the genuinely frightening prospect of the anxiety of being alone are so central to what he takes the experience of love to mean. and that’s true for both of them i feel because as “needy” as dan is, phil is just as attached, chooses to spend all of these moments with dan, chooses to call dan up on stage when he wins solo awards, chooses to travel and socialize and create and live with dan next to him always. the concerning degrees of codependency they exhibit are such common topics of conversation amongst us as outside observers that it’s very nearly startling to hear dan basically say that, yes, this dependency on this other person, this feeling of paralysis when they’re not there, that’s what love is to him, fundamentally. it’s the awareness that your life would be empty without them around. that is … concerning honestly, and as always i have some burning questions about how they make such an unhealthy level of codependency work but like. they do. they so clearly do. they have for so long and they show signs every day of only growing stronger and happier in their partnership, if that’s even possible.

then there’s the sexual attraction bit which like, sure. obvi.

i also thought it was immensely noteworthy that when he read out “some people never find love” from one of the chat comments he didn’t even try a little bit to make it relatable and crack some joke about being forever alone or even just a cheeky little “same.” like just, generally speaking, he approached this whole topic very much with the tone of 1. someone who has definitely experienced the emotion of love, 2. someone who is then trying to articulate the emotion of love as he experiences it, and 3. someone who still feels that emotion and is in proximity to that person to whom it is directed. there were no attempts at trying to say he can’t relate or that he doesn’t know (or to apply it to FOOD which he has said on countless occasions is the number one love of his life,) and if anything he got quite flustered and even red around his ears and cheeks by the end of the whole ramble. flustered but not actually uncomfortable, at least in my assessment. it was really so, so lovely and incredibly insightful. not a topic i ever ever thought i’d hear him venture into and certainly not in a live stream and certainly not in that much depth. to me the whole topic played out almost as though he couldn’t let some overly analytical smartass in the chat reduce this emotion that clearly means so much to him into a mere social construct or even a release of hormones (oxytocin). he needed to push back and play devil’s advocate, but instead of doing that in a contemplative philosophical way he somewhat accidentally got super personal with it and this ramble and completely rare look into dan’s experience w this particularly touchy emotion is what we got. it reminds me a lot of the vyou he answered back in 2012 about whether he believes in love, in which he is quite literally upset and completely rude to the person who asked it, saying “no offense to you but what kind of a stupid question is that?” as though he has never even entertained the possibility that people could not believe that love is a true feeling and emotion. it’s incredible to see that 6 years later dan has evolved in so many ways and is calmer and more thoughtful about so many things, but on this subject little has changed: love is so important to him and there’s no way for him to talk about it without immediately demonstrating that :( :( :(

“hydrate, meditate, contemplate, get a mate.” such a fitting closing line because is there any set of four directives that better encompass who dan is lol? overall such a good live show with so many moments of vulnerability and emotional openness. however dan really is in this moment i hope things only get better and better for him and that he can get over whatever hurdles have been holding him back from dinof and that he can edit/post this video and then let himself take that week off that he mentioned wanting, in order to play games and chill or at least get to a calmer place. love him lots :(((

(live show: meditation and hydration with your new life coach - 2017.03.14)

anonymous asked:

Zen and Jumin having a little sister who is depressed and have anxiety but hides it behind her smiles, jokes and corny puns. I'm sorry if this disturbs you, I'm just really having a bad life. You don't have to do this if you're uncomfortable with it. Thank you.

Sorry, this is so late, anon. I hope you are feeling better now nonetheless, but in case you still need this to cheer you up then here you go!

– Admin Void


  • She’s the only family member that he can still tolerate, tbh
  • He calls and visits frequently. Though he wants her to come with him, knowing fully well how toxic the home environment is, his financial state isn’t stable enough yet and there’s also legalities involved. 
  • He was probably the one who fought tooth and nail with his mom to get her properly treated and diagnosed when she just brushed it off as “a teenage phase”
  • He sneaks her out of school on days she doesn’t feel well enough to be in school bc Mom wouldn’t let her stay at home

“Y/N?” You turns over to your window sill, cheeks blotchy and eyes red from crying. School stress, exams, strained friendships, endless days of unexplainable loneliness and fatique plagued your teen life. It feels so small in comparison to all the problem of the world, yet why do you feel so suffocated?

“How are you doing, little bird?” Zen falters a bit when he notices your tears, but he doesn’t comment on it. You wonder how he has managed to pick up on your sour mood when you have been nothing but jokes and memes that afternoon. ‘Brother senses tingling’ probs. “Wanna come with me? we can buy some junk food, or something nice. I dunno. Up to you.” He winks and you smile, sluggishly crawling out of bed. You two eat shit food and fishbread, joking until you could smile again without feeling guilty for having fun. 

You come to school the next morning to find your favourite teacher explaining that Zen has contacted them regarding the hard time you are having. After some negotiation with your other teachers, you have gotten extra time on some assignments and offers for extra tutoring if you need it.


  • When she was first diagnosed, he took the time to research everything so he’d get an idea of what she’s going through.
  • He comes to personally pick her up after her sessions because he knows it’s often the time she’s most vulnerable. Also, he gets to give her psychiatrists/therapists The Glare to make sure they’re still on their A-game.
  • He doesn’t understand memes but he sends the “:)” emoticon whenever she sends him a rare pepe.
  • If her anxiety makes it hard to go to school, she’d have personal tutors and Jumin probs frequently check in on her if he isn’t too busy. Chairman Han be like “I think she should be outside interacting with people” and Jumin is just like “she’s interacting with me and Elizabeth aren’t we people”

The company’s New Year party is getting a bit too loud and you regret agreeing to come along. Your stylist, friends and brother had assured you that you look great, but every glance your way sent a wave of panic through you. Have you sat on something and stained your designer dress? Did you smear your lipstick across your face and is unknowingly walking around, looking like a clown? Are you slouching too much? Talking too little? Walking too awkwardly??

Your older brother stands on a podium, giving a casual speech with a glass of champagne in hand and you wonder— how? How could he do it like that? Look like that? Be the face of the company at such a young age, while you cling desperately to anything, anything, floundering and grasping for some sort of footing in life? He suddenly catches your eye and smiles at you. “I’d also like to thank my little sister for coming tonight,” he adds and you look down, smiling timidly. Despite everything, the hidden words ring between the both of you. “Let’s toast to the new year, everyone.”

You end up leaving early at Jumin’s insistence after you briefly commented that you are feeling a bit jittery and light-headed. “Get an early rest,” he tells you after escorting you out to the car. “Hug Elizabeth for me. I’ll be home late.” Later on, when you are safely tucked in bed with a happy feline in your arm, you find a text from Jumin. “You looked great tonight. I’m proud of you.” Attached with a picture:

y’know, it’s way too late into the show to do this but it really would’ve been interesting if garnet or amethyst had approached pearl about missing rose and how even though she really misses rose, that doesn’t justify her actions. 

or at least reiterate what amethyst said about pearl running off in the episode “steven’s lion”. 

like. how when the crystal gems had discovered that rose had lion but didn’t tell them, and amethyst immediately said, “yo, you’re not the only one that misses her!” and when pearl ran off amethyst added “go on- go cry about it! i hate when she gets like this.” like, there’s obviously been multiple times where the three (or at least amethyst & pearl) talked about rose that had ended with pearl “going off and crying about it.”

instead of having pearl basically give steven the death stare & hope that he fell to his doom then curl up into a sobbing mess that we’re suppose to feel bad about, we could’ve had steven be accompanied by garnet and a (sorta) disgruntled amethyst while they look for pearl. 

the three can confront pearl, but then the three get a better understanding on each other’s own ways to cope with the loss of rose and are able to reassure steven that they all do love him. that no one blames him for the loss of rose- that rose and steven are two different beings altogether and that they’re both wonderful. they miss rose, but they love steven as steven.

having garnet and amethyst opening up to pearl on how they try to cope would actually help out all three of them in regards to their character growth and their relations with each other:

  • garnet opens up about her challenges and insecurities on being the new leader of the crystal gems, and how her having her future vision terrifies her. she constantly worries about the safety of everyone because she can see how things can go horribly wrong.
  • amethyst, knowing rose for the least amount of time out of the three, can tell pearl that she really does miss rose. rose found her, showed her that she was truly unique, and that she had strength within her and that now that rose is gone, it’s harder for amethyst to believe in herself without having that sense of support from someone she had looked up to and now continuously compares herself to the other gems.  

(also probs having mr. greg be set after this episode (or maybe 2 episodes after) to help with pearl’s arc over accepting her loss of rose & now building a strong connection with greg might work here. the two miss her, and pearl is still having problems opening up to greg about rose because 1. rose had chosen greg over her, but 2. she doesn’t despise greg- which comes as a shock to greg)- she wants to befriend him & rebuild the bond they had when rose was alive. since rose was important to both of them, she still wants to be his friend but pearl tends to have problems when discussing her hang-ups.) 

there were better ways to format the episodes in order to make pearl more like a person recovering from her loss instead of an abusive, manipulative person that never has to apologize when she puts people in danger. i really do love pearl, but there are vastly better ways to highlight a character’s sorrows from missing someone they care about and not make them a horrible person.


• “you’re dumb”
• “thanks, i know im handsome”
• “what-”
• all the members cannot stand you but then again when they’re stressed they just call you guys over and it just fixes up their moods
• mark hates both of you
• no exception
• y'all are annoying
• “aYOMURK.”
• taeyong cannot stop sighing around the two of you
• you know why.
• i know you know why.
• “your crush is coming!”
• “be natural- BOOMING SYSTEM UH UH”
• donghyuck thinks memes are dumb
• until he finds one that he thinks is funny.
• then it’s the golden meme and he’s sending it to you every 5 minutes.
• “i love you”
• “thanks, i love me too”
• you guys play really stupid games with really intense punishments.
• like, rock paper scissors where the loser GETS THEIR ASS BEAT.
• no one likes you guys but then again everybody likes you guys and it’s honestly like, same.
• OK but why do you guys seem like the type of couple who’d do the-
• “finish the heart”
• //sends a pic of middle finger
• it really catches him off guard when you call him haechan
• who is haechan.
• you guys literally, SING YOUR LUNGS OUT, TO FIRETRUCK. LIKE. FROM THE “GET IT LIFTED” TO THE “SOBANGCHA” part like it gets so intense
• you guys are both literally the smallest little babies OK LIKE DO NOT EVEN DENY. Y'ALL AREN’T EVEN LEGAL YET.
• not innocent tho
• what is innocence? :“)
• little tiny pecks on the cheek and the lips when no one’s looking bc no one needs tO KnOW.
• you ask donghyuck to sing you to sleep.
• he always replies the same way
• “oh my god shut up and go to sleep im growing and i don’t NEED YOU KEEPING ME UP BYE.”
• but rare days where he just feels a lil, just a tiny bit, clingy, he sings to you.
• but no he doesn’t sing romantic songs or lullabies
• he sings “booming system uh uh, ty track”
• cue taeyong yelling at both of you because you guys are laughing so hard and he’s just, doNE.
• you take his sweaters and hoodies
• he doesn’t even care
• you’re pretty sure he doesn’t even know that it’s his.
• donghyuck doesn’t act like it bc HE’S SUCH A SLY LIL DJDJ#&/*
• jeno always tells you how much donghyuck likes you but you just shrug it off and you’re like “idk, i like him a lot, though.”
• he really likes you honestly.
• you guys don’t talk about life till 5 am
• you guys talk about mermaids and whether or not they may or may not exist. till 3 am. bc you guys are growing. don’t you dare skip out on sleep, bad kids.
• you guys watch conspiracy theories ALL THE TIME.
• pretty sure harambe was a social experiment made by aliens living in a different dimension where the earth was taken over and created into a monarchy by the aliens to see how humans in a parallel universe would react to such an event.
• yeah. you guys are weird.
• ok so a really long time ago when you guys were both like, grade schoolers.
• well one day. donghyuck was sitting out on the bench because he sprained his ankle and no one sat down with him and he was just kicking sand with his feet.
• you walked over to him and smiled “hi.”
• “what do U want?” boy was he in a bad mood that he couldn’t play tag with everyone else.
• “i want to play with you!”
• “don’t you see that i can’t play?”
• “i can sit down and talk to you!”
• and that you did.
• donghyuck, the sarcastic, logistical, baby boy who loved running and laughing, was sitting down and talking to you and enjoyed it.
• “when i grow up, i want to sing on a big stage!”
• you smiled and nodded “im sure you can do it.”
• esp jaemin
• jaemin did not even care about donghyuck. he flat out told you that donghyuck liked you but you didn’t believe him.
• and yuta
• yuta has no filter when it comes to hyuck.
• donghyuck denied it
• until one day you two were sitting down enjoying your ice cream on a bench near the lake when were like “donghyuck, damn it-”
• and just, went for it and kissed him
• a gently one
• and donghyuck dropped his ice cream and then you pulled back and started blushing and let out a small “JSFJFJGJG WHY DID I JUST DO THAT UM-”
• but donghyuck then gave you a small peck on your lips to “calm u down” but it didn’t work it kinda made you freak out even more
• like. not in kisses, not in hugs, in actual money.
• he took back the $2.34 he spent on that ice cream cone.
• classic donghyuck for ya
• you guys do a lot of walking together
• you guys walk to school together
• walk to restaurants
• walk to stores
• walk to nearby lakes and parks
• waLks.
• he tries to teach you how to dance and sing
• tries
• what is reading the book before the movie
• what is not collecting every piece of merchandise of your boyfriend
• what is a proper meal and not fast food
• what even is donghyuck.

Dating Jeno would include
  • -he’s honestly such a great bf
  •  -stan jeno everyone
  •  -omg he loves hugs 
  • -absolutely loves them
  •  -like he just pulls u so close to him whenever he hugs u 
  • -and his nose is nuzzling ur neck 
  • -while his arms are holding u close to him 
  • -u kno what else he loves 
  • -seeing u wear his sweaters/sweatshirts 
  • -he doesn’t say it ok 
  • -but whenever u wear his sweaters 
  • -his heart goes !!!!!! 
  • -jeno seems like a person that does a lot of skinship??? 
  • -like not too much?? 
  • -enough skinship i guess?? 
  • -sometimes he’d randomly come up to u and kiss u all over ur face 
  • -or when ur focusing on something other than him 
  • -he’d suddenly give u a peck on ur nose 
  • -causing u to look up at him ofc 
  • -you’ll just find a smiling jeno looking down at u 
  • -he gets all shy when ppl are talking about u 
  • -but when they ask him if ur their s/o 
  • -he’ll proudly say yes -jeno loves lazy dates!!!! 
  • -most of the time ur dates are just cuddling on the sofa 
  • -watching anime and eating snacks 
  • -or sometimes ur just reading webtoons together that donghyuck suggested reading 
  • -when he’s in the mood,he’ll get out his guitar and play a few songs 
  • -or he gets his violin and plays a few songs 
  • -you’d probs fall asleep bcs the music makes u sleepy 
  • -and he’d go :’-))) 
  • -he’ll get u a blanket -and cuddle w u 
  • -he’d probs fall asleep too lmao 
  • -nana would probs see u guys and he’d go aww look at my bro 
  • -hmmmm 
  • -random midnight dates 
  • -he’d just suddenly ask u if u wanna go out
  •  -and ofc u say yes bcs u almost never see him 
  • -most of the times u either go 
  • -eat ramyun 
  • -or drink hot chocolate 
  • -and he’ll listen to u as u tell him about all ur worries 
  • -all of the troubles you’ve been going through lately 
  • -he’ll carefully listen 
  • -and ofc he’ll tell u that everything’s gonna be alright 
  •  -ofc u gotta listen to him too when he’s sad 
  • -you’d immediately sense it when he’s upset 
  • -w ur 7th sense 
  • -jk 
  • -when he’s sad he likes to listen to loud music 
  • -he probs does it to clear his mind 
  • -just give him a hug 
  • -and let him hav his moment 
  • -happy ppl hav their moments too 
  • -ah!!! 
  • -he likes designing cars 
  • -so he has a w drawing book w a lot of sketches 
  • -and he loves showing them to u 
  • -when u tell him ur proud of him 
  • -his smile is so bright 
  •  -tbh his smile is always even brighter than it already is when he’s around u 
  • -he probs once teached u how to use a hover board 
  • -and to dance chewing gum 
  • -which probs ended w u both laying down on the floor of the dance practice room 
  • -bcs yall are tired 
  • -he likes buying u small gifts 
  • -a lot of them 
  • -probs gifts u smol teddy bears 
  • -bcs they remind him of u 
  • -im probs gonna stop here lmao 
  • -send me a message if u want a part 2 bcs i feel like this is so bad omg
  • -so anyways 
  • -lee!!jeno!!!is!!!a!!!sweetheart!!!! 
  • -#dontsleeponhim

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axis mundi

I’m in too much of an Inspiration Slump to write anything ‘proper’ but I saw the @timepetalsprompts prompt: any fic in which Jack Harkness is the main character + college/student AU and somehow I thought back to pocket universes, my college + social media cracky AU which some of you seemed to love and just went ‘why not’? :)

So here it is: it is technically a follow up of pocket universes and contains allusions but can be read on its own!

Summary: Rumour has it that Rose and John are to face a major life-changing event. 


Jack Harkness to What is Mickey Short For Research Project 2k17: so

Jack Harkness: what IS mickey short for

John Noble: that is the question

Rose Tyler: it’s an acronym

Rose Tyler: M.I.C.K.E.Y.

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BestFriend!Jaemin AU

okay so i was in class daydreaming what it would be like if jaemin was in school with me cause i lowkey hate just about everyone in my class and i want a best friend that bright like jaemins cute self so yeah i came up with this. This is dedicated to all the cuties who are waiting for our boy’s healthy return.(also this is lowkey not a plotonic friendship, those AUs will be up later) i hope you guys enjoy it!! - A 

  •  “Jaemin, its fucking 3am what are you on about ?”
  • “im going to sleep, goodbye little shit.”
  • “y/n COME BACK TO ME”
  • you: *mutes your phone*
  • The next day comes and this boy is a mess
  • ‘‘hey can i copy your math homework’’
  • “lol no”
  • “please!!!!”
  • “you shouldn’t have stayed up so late loser.”
  • and you end up giving it to him because he flashes you that million dollar smile
  • “ugh fine but sprinkle in some random numbers to make it seem like you actually did your work”
  • and he hugs you and messes up your hair and you lowkey blush
  • this kid is constantly sending you notes during history
  • because he thinks a class dedicated on the past is so absurd for some reason ???
  • “id rather learn about the future” 
  • “ i dont think you understand how this works”
  • you guys like to ride the subway home for some reason you both just really like the subway 
  • and one day you guys were walking home from the subway station on a really nice warm day and Jaemin was like “lets go through the park” and you were like “yeah sure fam”
  • and as you’re walking through the park you see your favorite flower and you’re like “OMG ITS A [Insert flower name]” and your dork ass runs to it and picks it
  • and jaemin just smiles
  • ‘what a fucking cutie asjkfkhb’
  • he just keeps smiling while walking towards you with his hands in his pocket
  • you hold up the flower to him “isnt it so pretty!!!”
  • “yes :)”
  • while you’re just admiring the beauty of the flower he smiles like an idiot ‘wow shes so cute’
  • “its for you”
  • “me?” he asks
  • “yeah, this was your day so you should have it.”
  • and mark poor mark hasn’t a clue what to say
  • “um you should try and be nicer, nicer than usual”
  • so jaemin being the fucking loser person that he is, he trust mark because he must know what hes saying oFc
  • so hes super nice to you
  • like suspiciously nice to you
  • “do you need help in algebra?”
  • “yeah actually”
  • “I’LL HELP YOU!” 
  • “..thanks”
  • “NO PROB”
  • “Hey, Y/N I bought your lunch! its your fave”
  • “oh um thanks Nana”
  • so he invites you to his house to help you study 
  • and his room is surprisingly neat 
  • you were like :o ??
  • good job nana, good job.
  • and you see he has the flower you gave him in a cute mason jar with some water by the window (aww)
  • so you arrange your things on the floor and he goes and gets yall some snick snacks
  • and while hes helping you find the slope of something he just kinda says
  • “you’re really pretty”
  • ‘what bitch- did i just?’
  • ‘did he just??’
  • you start blushing a little hehehe
  • “oh um, tha-thank you”
  • and so yall get a bit quiet and your all nervous and pull a “its getting late” cause you dont know what to do like your crush/friend really just said that??
  • and hes like “yeah it is, ill walk you out okay?”
  • and you’re like “yeah”
  • and so you’re out the door and you both hug each other goodbye like you always do but this hug is different
  • you both linger on a bit more 
  • and so a few years later when the hug is finally over  you both let go and smile awkwardly at each other 
  • “bye nana” you wave
  • “bye y/n see you at school”
  • and you walk home chipper as can be smiling like an idiot because you cant stop thinking about how much you like jaemin
Lilacs Pt.1 (Lin x Reader)

Word Count: 3,216

Warnings: Swears? (Maybe, I can’t remember) ANNNGGGSSSSTTT

Authors Note: The person who requested this literally gave me the most open request, so I had no idea where I wanted it to go. Nonetheless, I enjoyed writing this. Probs will be a part two, but make sure to request it if it’s something you’re interested in! I LOVE YOU GUYS SO MUCH! THANK YOU SO MUCH FOR ALL OF YOUR FEEDBACK, MAKE SURE YOU KEEP SENDING ME MESSAGES LETTING ME KNOW HOW IM DOING + REQUESTS!!!!!

Request: Lin x Reader

Part 2


College in New York had always been a dream of yours as a kid. Everyday was like a new adventure, and the ride home was never dull. You had also managed to snatch quite a charming boyfriend. You and Lin met in your writing class, and it started out as nothing more than a casual friendship. Texts about homework assignments and study sessions soon turned into late night phone calls and date nights. It was never something you questioned, you had just let it develop naturally. Tonight was your one month, and you two decided to have a fancy dinner. You both had graduated the previous year, picking up whatever jobs you could right after school. Both of you didn’t know what was going to happen as more opportunities were opened up to you, if two jobs were pulling you two apart. The conversation never came up, and you liked it that way. You would rather live your relationship day by day, dealing with obstacles when they arrive at your feet. “Babe, are you ready?” Lin asked from your shared apartment in the outskirts of the city. “Almost!” you told him as you wiggled your feet into stilettos. As you found your way out of the bedroom, you stepped in front of Lin and gave him a 360. “Wow…” Lin said looking at you, his jaw on the floor. He just couldn’t keep his eyes off of you. “You don’t look too shabby yourself.” You said grabbing his hand, pulling him from the couch. “Wait, I got a little something for you.” he said reaching into a paper bag by the couch. He pulled out a bouquet of purple and white lilacs. Your favorite flowers.“How did you remember?” you gasped looking at the beautiful flowers. “The first time we met, we had that creative writing assignment about things we love. You said you loved flowers, specifically lilacs.” he said proudly. The one thing that New York City lacked was flowers, now it seemed like everything was in place. You vased them made your way outside. Lin hailed a cab, and the ride to the restaurant was short. Once you arrived, you were quickly seated in a corner booth. Time flied by. It always did when you were with Lin. It seemed like no date was ever long enough. After the two of you had finished eating, Lin turned to you seriously. “Y/N, we need to talk.” he said. “Yeah, I have to tell you something too.” you said nervously. “How about we both say what we need to say on the count of three?” you suggested hoping that that would make what you were going to say less awkward. “Ok.” he said before sighing. “One” you prepared for your words. “Two” Lin tensed, not knowing if this was the right time. “Three” both of you took a deep inhale.

“I think I love you.” “I think we should stop seeing each other.”


That disaster of a date was three years ago. You had spent the first year trying to put pieces of your heart back together. After senior year of college you went to grad school in Chicago, hoping to forget the terrible aftertaste New York had left in your mouth. In Chicago was when things finally started to look up. You had met someone. Someone who was the glue to your broken pieces. He was smart, handsome, and loving. He was Matthew, and he was your second chance at love.

“Baby, guess what!?” Matt asked walking into your tiny shared apartment in the heart of Chicago. “What?” you asked poking your head out from the kitchen. “I just got offered a job in London!” he exclaimed. You ran out of the kitchen and jumped into his arms. “Congratulations!” you said peppering him in kisses. You were scared. You had just finished your masters degree, and were moving to London without a job. You just hoped you would find a job there.

It was a month into London when you had received a letter from Grand Central Publishing. ‘Huh?’ you thought, you had applied there when you were fresh out of grad school. You opened the letter and was pleasantly surprised. They had asked you to collaborate with a play writer, on a book about their musical. You didn’t know what to think. It was your first job and you didn’t want this opportunity to pass by. But. The job was in New York. That night at dinner you brought it up to Matt. “Hey, Matt. I just got offered a job from Grand Central Publishing.” you said nervously. “That’s great baby.” He said stuffing his face. “And it’s in New York.” you added on, preparing yourself for Matt’s rejection. “When are you leaving?” he asked you. “What? You’re letting me go?” you asked him, confused. “Well of course!, I know how much this means to you Y/N” he said looking up at you. “What does that mean for us?” you asked. “I love you, and I will support you through everything.” He said, looking at you with kind eyes. You began to tear up, and threw your arms around Matt as best as you could across the table. “It’ll only be a year.” you promised, bringing your pinky towards him.


“Ms. Y/L/N, you’re here.” A man in a fancy suit said. “Yup, that’s me.” you said following him into an office space. That was when you saw him. You hadn’t seen since your last date, since he broke your heart. He turned around, his eyes meeting yours. A weird tension between you. “Ms. Y/L/N, this is Mr. Miranda, Mr. Miranda Ms. Y/L/N.”

“Now, I’ll leave you two to start your creative process.” the man said before shutting the door behind him. You two just stared at each other for what seemed like hours before Lin finally interrupted the silence. “Y/N, It’s been a long time.” he said awkwardly. “Yeah. It has.” You managed to say, swallowing the big lump in your throat. “When was the last time we….” Lin stopped mid sentence once he realized how you two had left things. You quickly jumped into the conversation. “We’re adults now, we can be professional about this. Right?” you asked, trying to be the more mature one in this situation. “Of course. Of course.” Lin said, pulling out a chair for you to sit in.

The first few weeks were the most awkward experience you had ever endured, but just like he had done once, he began to break down the walls you had built around yourself. It was the 3rd week in and you had just gotten to work late, and tired. “Hey, I got you a cup of sunshine.” Lin said walking in after you, handing you a paper cup. Surprised, you took it and thanked him. “Bad day?” he asked you, taking a sip of his own coffee. “Very very bad.” you replied also digging into your cup. “How about we take a break today, we can go out for lunch?” he suggested. You hadn’t talked to him about anything other than the book, and you were surprised that he wanted to go out socially. ‘He’s just trying to break the social tension. We have to be working together for a year anyways, so might as well get friendly’ you thought as you agreed to lunch. You two walked a couple blocks to a small cafe. “So how have you been?” Lin finally asked, once you were seated. “I’ve been good, I see you’ve come a long way.” you said looking through the menu half heartedly. He chuckled before talking. “Enough about me, you’ve heard plenty through the book. What have you been up to?” “Well, I went to grad school in Chicago for a bit, and now I’m living in London.” You replied. You didn’t tell him about Matt and for some reason you didn’t want to. These small coffee breaks, and lunches became a weekly thing. Every Wednesday you looked forward to what cafe you two would be stopping by. The crazy flavors of coffee Lin just had to try. He was no longer just a co-worker, but a friend.

The book was nearly done, all it needed were a few final touches. Time flew by, and before you knew it, you had endured the harsh winters of NYC. One particular day you had gotten an email to come by the office earlier. Once you arrived there was nobody in the office. “Hello?” You called out. You heard a cough behind you. “Oh, thank god. Lin I think we’re almost do-” you started before turning around. “Matthew?” you said running towards him wrapping his arms around his neck. “I’ve missed you so much baby.” He said wrapping his arms around your torso and slightly picking you up. - Lin had gotten up early that morning to surprise you at the office. He went to the local flower shop and picked up a bouquet to congratulate you on almost finishing the book. He made it to the office when he realized a bunch of other workers were crowded around you. - “And baby, being away from you for so long made me realize how much I love you.” Matthew said as he slowly got down on one knee. ‘Oh my god’ you thought. Was this happening? “Will you marry me?” He asked pulling out a ring from his pocket. You didn’t know how to respond, but your body did it for you as your head began to shake up and down. He slipped the ring onto your finger and pulled you in for a tight embrace. You stood still in shock. Lin’s fist clenched, and he turned around making a beeline for the nearest trash can, throwing away the flowers. He didn’t even know what he was thinking. Of course you had moved on.

Once things had settled down, you went back to work. Lin, for some reason, was less talkative. He had decided not to show up in your office, but spend his time with the editor. You ate lunch by yourself and went to the trashcan to throw away your wrapper when you found a bouquet of lilacs sitting nicely on top of the trash. You quickly fished them up and looked at the note attached to the ribbon. ‘I wonder if these are still your favorite? Congrats on “almost” finishing the book!” you laughed slightly at Lin’s efforts and wondered how they ended up in the trash. Regardless, you pulled out a post it note and whipped him a response. ‘They are my favorite’ you scribbled making your way to the editors office. Nobody was in there, which was not surprising as it was lunch time. You opened Lin’s laptop and stuck the post it note on the screen before sneaking out. You were packing up to leave the office when there was a knock at your door. You turned around to see Lin leaning against it. “Where have you been?” you asked still trying to shove your laptop into your bag. “Me and a few people in the cast are heading out for drinks, I was wondering if you’d want to come?” he asked, avoiding your question. “I don’t know, I feel like I won’t know anyone, besides I haven’t done much” you said finally facing him. “What are you talking about Y/N? You helped me write a book! Let me take you out for a couple drinks.” he said. You looked at your watch sighing. “Fine.” you replied a smile growing on your face.

When you and Lin entered the bar he was greeted by many people. “I’m going to go grab a drink” you said. He nodded and began a conversation with somebody you didn’t know. You sat down and ordered, your attention coming to your phone. “Is that her?” Anthony asked Lin. “Yup” he sighed looking at you. “Did you get her the flowers like you were planning.” Anthony questioned again. “Not exactly” Lin replied rubbing the back of his neck. The truth was, during the late nights, and coffee breaks he had fallen in love with you. In fact he wasn’t sure if he ever fell out of love with you. He loved the way you cracked  your knuckles when you were frustrated, how you bit your lip when you didn’t agree with him, how you talked with your hands when you were excited. He had loved you, but never told you. And this time he wasn’t going to let you go. But he was too late. “Well what are you waiting for man? Go get her!” Anthony said trying to get Lin pumped up. “She’s engaged.” he said quietly. “Oh…” was all Anthony could say, he gave Lin a pat on the back and walked away. You were a few drinks in when Lin reappeared from the bar. “Want to go back to mine?” Lin asked you. You weren’t sure if it was the alcohol, or your heart but you nodded your head. ‘It was all friendly nature anyways’ you thought. He put his hand on your back as he led you out of the bar.

When you arrived to his apartment you sat down at the table, kicking off your shoes. Lin handed you a glass of water. “Here, this will make you feel better tomorrow.” he said. “I’m not even that drunk.” you slightly slurred. You giggled realizing how you were wrong. Lin sat in the chair next to you. “So you’re engaged, huh?” he questioned. “I guess so…” you replied twisting the ring on your finger. You had forgotten that that happened just this morning. “Do you ever think about our relationship?” Lin questioned, unable to stop himself. “No, nevermind I’m sorry it’s inappropriate to ask.” he said turning his face away from yours. “I do, actually.” you replied anyways. Lin’s face snapped back to meet yours. “But we were young, and naive.” you said taking a sip of your water. “Would you change anything if you could go back?” he questioned. “Actually, I think I learned a lot from that relationship. I wouldn’t change anything. I might have wanted to change how things ended though.” you said, finally being able to laugh at the heart breaking moment. “Me too.” he said. “I would want to change the ending too. If I could do it over, I would have never let you go.” Lin’s face was closer to yours than it was moments ago. His lips millimeters away from yours. “Can I kiss you?” He whispered. You answered him by closing the gap between you two. Your hands went around his neck and he pulled you in closer by the waist. You realized what you had done a moment too late. You pushed on his chest pulling yourself from him. “I love you Y/N.” he said. He had missed his chance once, he was determined not to miss it again. “Don’t say you love me. Don’t say that, not now.” you said trying to gather your things so you could leave. “Where are you going?” Lin asked getting up, trying to get your attention. “I can’t believe I just did that. What is Matthew going to say?” you said beginning to panic thinking of your fiance. “Matthew? Is that who you’re thinking of right now?” Lin said frustrated. He grabbed onto your arm before you could make it to the door. “Go on then Y/N. Tell me, tell me you don’t love me.” Lin said raising his voice. “I- I- I- Can’t” you said in a whisper coming to a realization. “Do it Y/N” Lin urged. “I hate you.” you spat. “No you don’t” Lin said, already knowing how you felt. “I hope one day you’re as happy as you’re pretending to be.” he said as you left his apartment in tears. Every time you built walls around yourself, he was the one to tear them all down leaving you vulnerable. You took a taxi home, and fell asleep on the bed next to Matt.

You were woken up a few hours later at the ass crack of dawn. “Baby, I have a surprise for you!” Matt said shaking you so you would get up. “What?” you said groggily, your head pounding from last night. Matt pulled out two tickets. Two tickets back to London. “Surprise!” he exclaimed. “You get to come home early!” he said excitedly. You jerked awake. Maybe it was meant to be like this. If you went back to London you could forget everything that happened last night. You lazily got up and got dressed for the airport. You had already chosen your future when you nodded.

You successfully made it through security and were now waiting in JFK to board. “How was last night?” Matt asked flipping through a newspaper. “You must’ve been pretty drunk if you have a hangover.” he said laughing. “It was ok…” you said. Matt knew you too well to know you were hiding something from him. “Y/N? What happened?” “Oh nothing.” you said beginning to play with the ends of your hair. “Baby, you know you can tell me anything. I love you.” he said. This was when guilt took over your system. “I made a mistake.” you began. “What do you mean?” Matt said putting the newspaper down. “I kissed Lin-” you tried. “Wait, What?” Matt interrupted you. “I kissed him, but it was just that Matt. A mistake.” you said calmly. “Did he kiss you or did you kiss him, because you’re telling me that YOU kissed him.” he said. ‘Shit’ you thought, he was good at his. “It doesn’t matter.” you said trying to make it seem like nothing. “Yes it does.” he shot back. “Do you feel something?” he questioned. You didn’t say anything because the answer was not what Matt wanted to hear. “Oh my god.” he said running a hand through his hair. “I’m sorry Matt. I don’t want to let you down.” you said trying to hold back the tears. “Have I ever lied to you? What did I ever to do you? Where did I go wrong?” Matt questioned to himself more than you. “Babe, I’m sorry.” you said even though you knew it wasn’t going to help the situation. “Do you ever think we should just stop this?” he asked, moving his body to meet your eyes. You didn’t answer. You couldn’t, your throat closed up on you. “You hesitated Y/N. You hesitated.” he said beginning to freak out. The heated conversation was interrupted by the boarding announcement. “Passengers on flight 721, the flight to London is now boarding.” the intercom said loudly. Matt got up from the chair and grabbed his bag heading to the doors. “Y/N, baby. Please come back home with me. I’ll forgive you, we can talk this through and we can put it behind us. We’ll carry on with our wedding. We can do it because I love you.” he said looking at you with hopeful eyes before turning around and disappearing into the long hallway that lead to the plane. There you were in JFK alone having to make the hardest decision you have ever had to make. On one side, you had a man who was willing to forgive you and on the other was a man you were willing to forgive.

Stressin' (Daveed x Reader)

hello sorry it took me a million years to upload something but here ya go!! this took on an ending that I wasn’t really expecting that like borderlines as a ramos x reader?? probs bc im upset he left today but anywho hope you enjoy

ps I know that the actually lyric isn’t “in the dressing room stressing” I was just trying to be clever okay

Request: maybe a part two to no stress?

Summary: Reader hangs out backstage more often with the cast of Hamilton, causing new feelings to stir.

Warnings: Bit of language. SHIRTLESS DAVEED.

Part One

“It amazes me how late you guys wait to get ready before the show,” you said to Daveed, Oak and Anthony. It has been two weeks since you first met the cast and, just as you told Anthony, you visited the Richard Rogers theatre more often, nearly on a daily basis. You had grown close to everyone in the cast in the short timespan and Daveed was so happy to see you fitting in with his friends so easily.

“You think we take our time? Try talking to Leslie five minutes before places, half the time he isn’t even mic-ed yet,“ Daveed told you, sitting beside you on the couch with an arm wrapped around your shoulders.

“Really?” you asked the three stars in the room surprised.

“Stop by his dressing room when they call five minutes to places, I guarantee you he’s nowhere close to ready,” Anthony said, sitting on the other side of you.

Oak stood from where he sat, across the room on a separate chair, and spoke, “We should probably start getting ready though, it’s almost ten til places.”

Anthony sighed in a resignation and said, “Yeah, you’re probably right. Catch you guys later.”

Anthony followed Oak’s lead and stood as well, the pair of them heading towards the door. Daveed stood and followed them out, telling them, “Yeah, that’s right, get outta here.”

“You know you love us, Diggs!” Oak said as they exited, Daveed closing the door after they left with a laugh.

You stood up and approached your boyfriend while saying, “Surely you’re not kicking me out too, are you?”

“I wouldn’t dream of it,” he said, wrapping his arms around your waist then proceeding to plant a small kiss upon your lips.

You smiled up at Daveed, holding him close as you casually said, “Mhmm, now take your shirt off.“

“Always so eager,” he joked, taking his shirt off nonetheless.

“I’m just trying to make sure you make it on stage on time,” you innocently told him, handing him his white compression tank he needed to wear underneath his costume.

“How thoughtful of you,” Daveed said as he slipped on the shirt.

“I try my best,” you proudly said with a grin, continuing to hand him different costume pieces as he got out of his street clothes. You took a small break from helping him change when people came in to mic him, sitting back down on the couch as you patiently waited for him to be done.

After he was all hooked up he asked you, “Babe, can you pass me my boots?”

“I mean I guess,” you responded with an over exaggerated sigh as you got up to get them.

Daveed chuckled at your behavior and said, “I’m just the worst boyfriend ever, aren’t I? Making you get up and walk five steps to retrieve my things.”

You handed him his boots as you laughed and said, “I don’t know why I put up with it all.”

“Five minutes til places.”

“Hey, I’ll be right back,” you said, making your way to the door.

Daveed gave you a questionable look and asked, “And just where are you going?”

“To see how ready Leslie is,” you informed him, opening the door to his dressing room.

Daveed laughed and said, “He’s still in a tshirt and jeans, I guarantee it.”

“Guess I’ll just have to go and see for myself,” you told him, making your exit. A few short moments later you arrived at Leslie’s room, announcing your presence as you walked in, “Knock knock.”

“Hey!” Leslie greeted, still in his regular clothing as Daveed had said. “What brings you here?”

“Just wanted to see if what everyone said about you taking your sweet ass time was true, which it apparently is,” you told him.

“Relax, I’ve got plenty of time,” he said, acting extremely nonchalant.

You gaped at him and said, “You’ve got five minutes!”

Leslie simply laughed at this as Kimmy walked into the room. He said, “Alright, alright, I’m getting ready! See?”

“You’re ridiculous,” you said, deciding to leave as he got ready. You heard his laugh echo again as you started down the hallway towards Daveed’s dressing room, but you stopped short as you heard your name being mentioned elsewhere.

“–but Y/N is with Daveed!” you overheard Lin say from inside his dressing room.

A second voice that you recognized as Anthony’s replied and said, “I know! It’s just.. I’ve never met anyone like Y/N before. When we met I couldn’t stop staring and now that we’ve become friends I just can’t get enough of em. Here I am, two weeks later in the dressing room stressing.”

You stood outside of Lin’s dressing room in a daze. Anthony Ramos had feelings for you? What were you supposed to do with this information? You silenced your thoughts and continued to listen in as Lin asked, “Does Daveed know?”

“God, no,” Anthony replied, “How would I tell him this? And should I even bother to?”

Lin asked as a follow up question, “Then what are you gonna do?”

You heard Anthony sigh and say, “I honestly have no idea.”

You began to slowly walk away from the room and started to head back towards Daveed’s room, already have heard enough of that conversation. Your thoughts wondered along the way, thinking about ways to deal with what you’ve just heard. Did you talk to Daveed about it? Or talk to Anthony about it? Or should you just leave it be unless Anthony brings it up? You were clueless.

Daveed’s door came into eyesight and you put your thoughts aside as you entered the dressing room. Daveed was sat on the couch in full costume, scrolling through social media on his phone. You greeted him with a smile, “Hey.”

“Was he or was he not anywhere close to being in costume?” Daveed asked you in reference to Leslie.

You answered him, “You were right, still jeans and a tshirt.“

Daveed laughed, standing up as he said, “I told you so.”

“Yeah, yeah, whatever,” you said with a roll of your eyes and a smile tugging at your lips.

Daveed took you in his arms again, giving you a tight hug as he asked, “You alright? Your sarcastic comments are usually better than that.”

His choice of words made you laugh the slightest bit as you responded, “Yeah, just lost in thought.”

“What’s on your mind?” he asked, pulling away to look at you, his hands remaining on your waist.

“It’s uh.. Well, um,” you stuttered, not really knowing what to say.

“Places everyone. This is your call for places.”

A sense of relief washed over you as you heard the stage manager’s voice over the intercom. Daveed sighed and told you, “We’ll talk later, alright?”

You nodded and he leaned down for a quick kiss before leaving to head out on stage. Most nights you’d watch the show from the wings, but tonight you opted to stay in Daveed’s room as you were unsure of what you’d do if you ran into Anthony backstage.

Intermission quickly rolled around, meaning Daveed was back in the dressing room, rapidly changing from Lafayette to Jefferson. After putting the magenta costume on, he turned to you and asked, “All good?”

“One last thing,” you said, stepping towards him. You had to get on the very tip of your toes to do it, but eventually you managed to reach up and take the hair tie out of his curls, allowing them bounce down on either side of his head.

“Thanks,” he said, smiling down at you. He gave you a little peck before telling you, “I’ve got to run to the stage management office real quick. My cane broke last night and I forgot to go get it during preshow.”

“Okay, break a leg,” you said, exchanging another kiss with him before he took off. Once he left you plopped back down the on couch and took out your phone, only staying that way a few seconds. There were two knocks not even a minute later and you looked up to see Anthony leaning against the door frame. You grew nervous, but remained visibly calm as you greeted, “Hey, Ant.”

“Hey, you alright?” He asked as he pushed himself off the frame to go and take a seat beside you. He said, “You’re usually in the wings during the show, we missed you during The Schuyler Sisters dance party.”

You laughed and told him, “Sorry, just have a lot on my mind right now, needed some time to think.”

“Think about what?” Anthony asked, insanely curious.

You took a deep breath and, deciding to get everything over with, you said, “I overheard somethings in the hallway earlier.”

Anthony froze. He prayed that you hadn’t heard the conversation he held with Lin earlier in the day. He cleared his throat, making sure his voice was stable, before he hesitantly asked, “What things?”

You did nothing but give him a blank stare, which was enough of a signal for Anthony to realize that you had heard the very conversation he never wanted you to hear. He let out a large sigh, “Dammit.. Y/N, look I’m sorry. Sorry that you found out like this, sorry for even having these damn feelings in the first place, trust me, I don’t want them!”

You scoffed at his last few words, but then softly said, “It’s not your fault, you can’t control things like this.”

“You just don’t understand how frustrating this is,” Anthony said, “To be looking for someone amazing and finally getting to meet them.. only for them to be taken by one of your best friends.”

“I-I don’t know what to say,” you nearly whispered, feeling upset and almost guilty for the way Anthony felt.

“You don’t need to say anything, none of this is on you. It’s not your fault that I’m attracted to you, that the first person I develop feelings for in months is dating my best friend.”

“Ant..” you said in such a soft tone you weren’t even sure if it was audible.

“Places everyone. Places for act two.”

“That’s my cue,” Anthony said, standing up from the couch and walking towards the door. Just before exiting, he said a small, “See ya later.”

You slouched lower into couch, being left alone in the dressing room once again. You let out a sigh as one thought circled your mind: What the hell were you supposed to do now?

Boyfriend Jun Would Include...

A/N: I haven’t done one of these in a while. so here we go

  • People say Jun is a greasy person but come on Jun is the sweetest little thing 
  • Like he can be flirty at times and have that charm but how can you not like that
  • Jun as your bf would be wowowowo
  • Lots of skin ship 
  • Kissing is number one 
  • He may act confident about it but hes actually a really sensitive shy guy 
  • Like Seungcheol, Jun has a strong sexy charming outside but a soft squishy and shy inside 
  • He’s such a sweet person, he’d do anything to see his friends smile 
  • Jun is such a care giver he loves to take care and nurture things 
  • Like a mother, you’ll see your boyfriend feedings his members and tucking them into bed 
  • He such a intelligent fine china 
  • Who can also be a dumb ass just because he wants to 
  • Jun like attention but he’s not someone who begs for it
  • He rather have you set your eyes on him then the other way around 
  • He would approach you in a friendly way, befriending you before going in and stealing your heart
  • You two would  become good friends, sharing your interests, like the food you like, music, movies, tv shows….etc
  • Jun seems pretty open, like he’ll tell you anything that’s on his mind, 
  • If you ever here the term greasy and Jun put together, just remember Jun isn’t like that at all
  • This kid is so shy and sweet and gentle, yet fun and playful. Kind of like that childhood friend you grew up with. ONLY HOTTER BOII
  • Jun is kinda protective though, like if he sees you with another dude, he might get a little bit jealous, but he knows how to control himself
  • If he does feel like a little suspicious of someone he’ll like stare them down with those deep captivating eyes. 
  • Or he’ll say some rude comment but he drops them at the right moment super discreet so he wont come off as too blunt 
  • On that note this boy knows his way with words like DAMMMNNN the things he would say 
  • He’d be so honest with his feelings towards you like, he’d be the first to say I love you. He’d be the first to kiss you cause hes JUN and he has that confidence
  • Jun is the Prince of China (our little chinese prince :3) 
  • Like dude Jun is so talented like HE CAN ACT SING DANCE PLAY INSTRUMENTS 
  • Jun is everything dudeeeee its JUN MAN 
  • The most affectionate puppy ever 
  • When you two disagree with something, Jun’s the type of person to pout and whine until you makeup 
  • He hates seeing you upset, he’s such a empathetic person 
  • During sexy time, JUN JUN JUN JUN JUN 
  • HE WOULD BE LIKE THOSE REALLY SOFT AND GENTLE YET ROUGH AND FUN TYPES??? oki save me im too innocent for this :O
  • Jun is soooo sexy tho NO NO HES NOT SEXY he’s smexy dude 
  • Imagine jun in the morning when he wakes up, all tired and puffy and cute
  • His deep morning voice calling out to you
  • Jun is the type to text you GOOD MORNING HOW YOU DOIN LIKE VERY MORNING 
  • He prob sends a ton of emojis and emoticons cause hes cute like that
  • He takes secret pictures of you so he can admire your cuteness (sounds weird when you type it out but im sure hes not creeping promise) 
  • He’s also the type to like take exclusive selfies of himself to send to you
  • Like ones where he has his model face and others where he’s being stupid 
  • He’s more of a call then text person. he loves hearing your voice 
  • He loves to sing and hum for you how sweet
  • He loves to pat you on the head and hug you OMG jun ADORES HUGS
  • Back hugs, front hugs ALL KINDS OF HUGS
  • He likes being the big spoon cause he just wants to cuddle you man 
  • BUT HE LOVES it when you cuddle him too :)
  • Jun loves to take simple and chill type dates where you two just have fun 
  • But he also loves dressing up all fancy and dinning at fancy high class restaurants to treat you two 
  • He would offer to pay the bill a lot of the time 
  • But if you REALLLY INSIST hes totally okay if you split with him 
  • His kisses would start off sweet and slow, his soft pink lips gently brush past your cheek and find their way to yours. He likes to take things slow before BAM ITS JUN BABY 
  • Like after each kiss he’d have the widest smile on his face, while he watched you blush 
  • He loves making you blush 
  • He loves teasing you 
  • He’s the type of bf to call you late at night because he’s lonely and he just wants to talk 
  • He loves night adventures
  • Bur hes also the type to ensure you’re wearing your sweater and scarf because he doesn’t want you to catch a cold 
  • “Here take my jacket, don’t get sick on me!” 
  • Oki story time 
  • Imagine it’s around Christmas time, Jun and you plan on going shopping. You can see all the pretty holiday decorations and hear all the holiday songs 
  • It puts Jun in such a good mood
  • Likes hes just soooo happy 
  • You too are walking back to your house after all the shopping and eating 
  • And as you get to your door, he turns around and grabs you gently to steady you
  • “Y/N, how are your holidays so far?” 
  • “Good,,” you reply simply 
  • “Ahh, that;s good, By the way, Happy holidays.’ His lips curl into that cute little grin 
  • He leans down and places his forehead against yours, now face to face, you can feel his warm breath in contrast to the cold winds. 
  • He then kisses you softly on the lips, holding you for a moment, before pulling away to gaze down at you
  • “Happy Holidays Y/N, I love you.” He’d then ruffle you hair and pretend like nothing happened. 
  • :DDDD 
grocery store!au johnyong

a/n: thank u @sushi-hyuck for giving me this idea also it’s probs not gr8 bcs my writing is shit but i just had to write something for johnyong :”)

  • k so basically johnyong has been causing me pain lately 
  • so 
  • au time :’)))
  • let’s start shall we
  • seo youngho, johnny
  • works in a small grocery store :’))
  • and he’s a v chill dude
  • he works there w his bff ten and his other bff jaehyun
  • foreign swaggers
  • ppl always check them out bcs they’re so fine
  • one day tho!!!
  • as johnny is busy filling the shelves w candy
  • he sees a really cute guy
  • and ten sees johnny staring at that guy and he’s like
  • “just go ask if he needs help w anything bro”-10
  • “uhm no dude he seems busy”-johnny
  • lol busy 
  • this cute boi tho
  • was too busy searching for chocolate to hear them lmao
  • his name is taeyong :’))
  • when our boi john finally picked up the courage to talk to him tho
  • chocolate boi already left
  • rip johnny suh
  • the next day tho!!
  • johnny would casually be hanging around the the candy department
  • it’s break time for him
  • coworker jaehyun trying to talk to him
  • usually johnny would be replying in like 0.01 seconds and making jokes
  • but this time he was pretty quiet
  • not that quiet lmao
  • just replying in 3 seconds instead of 0.01
  • jehyun would notice this ofc
  • “hey bro are u ok there”-jae
  • “ye dude why”-john
  • “u look like ur waiting for something”-jae
  • johnny’s like ahah no bro
  • jae doesn’t believe him
  • bcs ten told him about the chocolate boi :^))
  • jaehyun just goes 👀👀 k then johnny
  • 5 minutes later and chocoyong is still not there
  • so johnny sighs and he gives up on ever seeing ty ever again
  • that is until
  • he suddenly sees the black haired boi
  • going straight for the chocolate again
  • but this time ty is wearing a pout
  • and johnny’s heart just goes !!!!!!!
  • “go talk to him bro”-jaehyun
  • lmao ofc johnny goes to talk to him
  • he walks up to tyong
  • and gives him a little tap on his shoulder
  • “hey uhm are you looking for anything?”
  • ya he’s looking for his chocolate
  • ty’s pretty confused at first
  • ‘what’s this tol dood doing and who is he tf’
  • and he finally realises that johnny works there
  • “oh no thank u i already found it!thank u for offering ur help tho”-ty
  • and he smiles at johnny
  • and honestly johnny could just melt at that moment
  • he doesn’t melt tho otherwise he wouldn’t be able to see ty anymore
  • ty then excuses himself and thanks johnny again
  • johnny just smiles 
  • he doesn’t kno what to say
  • when ty goes to check out his chocolate 
  • he can’t help but think that this ‘johnny’ guy was pretty cute
  • and he just shakes his head
  • bcs he doesn’t have time for this
  • he has to take care his younger bros
  • lee minhyung and lee donghyuck
  • the next few days
  • johnny keeps seeing taeyong come to the grocery store
  • and this time he doesn’t only buy chocolate
  • he buys his other groceries too
  • and it makes johnny even happier
  • bcs that way he sees taeyong even more
  • one day tho
  • when he’s just casually looking around for ppl who need help
  • lol what kind of lie everyone knows he’s looking around for ty
  • he suddenly he feels a tap on his shoulder!!
  • it’s taeyong
  • he wanted to ask if they still had the chocolate that he always bought
  • unfortunately they didn’t :”)))
  • that’s when johnny remembers!!!
  • that he was the one who last bought it!!
  • so john asks ty if he wants the chocolate
  • and taeyong is all like omg no it’s ok!!!
  • but ofc johnny insists
  • he even makes taeyong wait for a minute so he can get it for him
  • ty just waits there w a big smile on his face
  • bcs this boi johnny is just too sweet for him
  • he’s even sweeter than his fave chocolate wow
  • johnny was kind of scared that ty was going to leave 
  • but when he gets back
  • taeyong’s still there
  • and the moment tyong sees that johnny’s back
  • this cute toothy grin appears on ty’s face
  • it makes johnny’s heart go !oh my gosh!
  • and he hands the chocolate over to taeyong
  • dude
  • taeyong thanks him 10000000000 times
  • and johnny turns a bit shy bcs taeyong is just too cute
  • scratching the back of his neck telling ty it’s nothing
  • after that moment
  • taeyong starts talking to johnny more
  • ofc this makes johnny v happy
  • ten and jaehyun highkey shipping them
  • taeyong even makes his little brothers apply for a job in the grocery shop
  • aka another excuse for him to see johnny even more
  • bcs he always comes to pick up hyuck and mark
  • u kno donghyuck just loves teasing johnyong tho
  • bcs hyuck knows taeyong likes johnny a lot
  • so ofc he tries to get them together
  • w the help of his big bro mark
  • what he does???
  • well rlly he pretty much tried everything
  • and all of his ideas didn’t work :”))
  • one day tho
  • he thought it would be a GREAT idea to lock up johnyong in the rlly small storage room of the store
  • he’s gonna get his ass whooped by taeyong when they get back home
  • i mean
  • if taeyong gets back home
  • while donghyuck was collecting his stuff in the storage room
  • when suddenly they heard the door close
  • and they get locked up in the storage room
  • :”)
  • ty can hear donghyuck and mark’s giggles behind the door
  • and ty just sighs and hopes that johnny gets them out soon
  • problem is
  • johnny can’t find the spare key of the storage room
  • oh no
  • might i add that donghyuck turned off the lights
  • it’s not that dark but it’s dark enough to not be able to find keys
  • and even tho johnny knows where the switch is
  • he still couldn’t find it
  • and so johnyong
  • spends 20 minutes of their life
  • awkwardly looking for the spare key
  • bumping heads
  • yo dudes johnny is actually a bit shy shy shy atm
  • but at the same time
  • he’s gonna use the lack of space as an excuse to stand closer to ty
  • but he still keeps a distance bcs he doesn’t want to make taeyong uncomfortable
  • it’s 11:15pm and i just kno this is shit
  • suddenly tho
  • johnny remembers where he put the key
  • problem is that it’s behind taeyong
  • and taeyong doesn’t have enough space anymore to turn around
  • :”))))
  • so johnny’s all like “uhm im so sorry but”
  • johnny doesn’t even wait for ty’s reply
  • he just leans in rlly close and ofc ty goes !!!!!
  • bye taeyong thought johnny was gonna kiss him
  • but john’s just grabbing for the keys that’s behind tae
  • and taeyong actually closed his eyes omg
  • so ofc when johnny looks at taeyong
  • ty’s there w his eyes closed
  • and johnny’s like???
  • but then he goes u kno what
  • fuck it all im gonna kiss him
  • so ofc he leans in and softly kisses taeyong
  • lol bye i live for johnyong
  • their kiss doesn’t last for long tho
  • bcs donghyuck ends up opening the door to the storage room
  • he thought they fainted or something
  • but no they’re actually kissing boo
  • donghyuck just had to scream
  • ofc he had to
  • so obviously ten and jaehyun heard donghyuck’s screams
  • and they immediately ran up to johnny congratulating him
  • which ends w taeyong hiding behind johnny
  • and johnny scratching the back of his neck as ten and jaehyun tell taeyong about how long johnny has wanted to ask taeyong out
  • but johnny hasn’t even asked him out yet :”)))
  • he does tho!!!
  • rite before ty left to go back home w his brothers
  • johnny asks taeyong if he maybe wants to get some coffee w him sometime
  • ofc taeyong says yes
  • and that my dudes
  • is the start of their beautiful relationship
  • im gonna go now it’s midnight and i have a test for maths and chemistry bye
  • the end

i raise to you drunk!jeremy coming back to the dorm to a confused jean:

  • ok so they room together, sorry i don’t make the rules alvarez does
  • one night jeremy goes out with the girls, and jean pretends he’s too tired to go out and would rather have an early night
  • actually he knows that jeremy hasn’t been feeling great lately and he wants to let him have a night w his bffs without having to worry about jean
  • all’s good
  • its 3 am now and someone is banging at their dorm room
  • jean wakes up and curses in a way that would make neil blush, swearing to god that he is going to kill jeremy
  • he still opens the door in a heartbeat tho, because its cold in the hallway
  • and in the doorway is stanging sweet baby jeremy, clearly still inibriated, with half closed eyes and a lazy smile, leaning against the wall
  • suddenly the smile turns into a grin
  • “JEAN!,” he shouts, before almost falling on him, embarrassingly but neither of them finds it embarassing because one is whipped and the other is drunk
  • they’re so gross where is this going
  • after a second of silence and jeremy finding his balance
  • this bagel of a team captain starts touching jean’s face, his cheekbones and the light freckles that he embarrassingly knows the exact place of
  • with feather light fingers
  • he starts whispering shit like ‘jean you’re so pretty’ ‘youre like a smol wonderful bean who doesnt know how beautiful he is’ and sighing dramatically
  • he is still very drunk and kinda leaning on jean
  • jean!!!! doesnt know what to do!!!!!!! ! ! ! ! ! ! ! !
  • he bits his cheeks not to smile but at the same time hes clearly terrified
  • so he drags jeremy in and closes the door (its really cold)
  • jeremy just keeps saying his name and looking at him this is scary
  • and then jeremy : “you’re so beautiful” and *goes to kiss him*
  • jean gets all tense because hes so scared and!!! jeremy is drunk its not okay its just weird and he’s definitely thought about it before but he doesnt want ther first kiss if there is ever one to be like that
  • he’s pretty sure jeremy wont even remember it tomorrow
  • so he very slightly pushes jeremy off him
  • and it doesnt take more than a touch for jeremy to realize that jean isnt okay w this and he immediately stops and looks at jean
  • who’s looking all weird
  • cue jeremy freaking the fuck out, wanting to kill himself for what he just did, he never meant to force himself on jean or anything he is so disgusted by himself like he wants to tear off his skin he thought he would never do something like that so he whispers ‘im so sorry’
  • runs off to the bathroom
  • forces himself to throw up to get the alcohol out, takes a long shower, tries to get his ideas straight (pun intended)
  • by the time he gets out its like 45 mins later and he’s still nauseous and feeling weird but not really drunk anymore
  • but! jean is waiting for him!
  • *****huge silence*****
  • until they blurt out at the same time : “i’m so sorry okay i jufbekzgbkezjbjzfbjs” (gay gibberish)
  • then they go to sleep
  • jeremy feels awful for days literally he feels so bad for kissing jean without explicit consent he thinks about switching rooms bc he doesnt want to force jean to have to room w him after what he did
  • jean is sad bc lol ………. 1) jeremy is going to think that jean doesnt want him WHICH IS SO NOT TRUE and 2) jeremy probs was just horny and drunk and if he ever wanted anything from jean it was apparently just sex
  • it takes a team meeting (without the both of them obvsly)
  • and an intervention from alvarez w a few insults
  • but
  • the next time they go out,, there is making out invoved and it sure as hell aint straight if u get me
  • fin
Scoups As Your Boyfriend

Originally posted by saysvteen

Requested: Scoups as your boyfriend

Songs I Listened To: Dean-Bonnie and Clyde, Kisum-Love talk ft hwasa, Monsta X- Hero,

A/N: Sorry we have been so hiatus from doing any requests. Our personal lives have been hectic. Im really happy to be posting this (even though I’m late to post it). By seventeen bias scoups is such a babe. Here you go dear!~

  • Protective af
  • You know what I’m talking about
  • Wont let you be alone with any of the boys 
  • maybe jeonghan tho
  • Doesn’t like it when any of the boys make you laugh
  • cause he wants to be the only person making you happy
  • constant skinship
  • like all the time!
  • his hands have to be touching some part of your body
  • his hand holding yours in public
  • when at the dorms with the boys 
  • his hand is on your leg when sitting
  • arm around you
  • the list goes on
  • so much age from him
  • “jagi come sit with me”
  • “no Seungcheol”
  • *Insert cringy aegyo*
  • “Fine-fine!”
  • He often finds you wearing his cloths
  • “Jagi, wheres that swea- aw never mind you can wear it”
  • He thinks you look super adorable with his cloths on
  • It also gives him a sense of manly pride
  • When he introduces you to the members 
  • he teases you a lot
  • but in a caring way
  • Like when you sing/rap one of their songs
  • “I love you, but please don’t quit your day job”
  • he is very exaggerate on the fact you’re his 
  • “Yes, s/he is mine. No you can’t have y/n Jun.”
  • He talks you on dates 6 out of 7 days of the week
  • dinner, movies, bowling, couples crafting, hiking,etc
  • He just likes to hang out with you
  • When he kisses you
  • its very gentle
  • because he doesn’t want to hurt you 
  • hes afraid you might break under him
  • because you’re so fragile and precious
  • he likes sleeping with you
  • innocently don’t let your minds wonder yet little peeps
  • he loves the feeling of your body next to him
  • you probs won’t sleep really
  • talking until 4 am 
  • about the groups
  • dreams
  • everything
  • His tired deep voice saves lives
  • When the times comes around later in the relationship
  • *cough cough*
  • If its your first he will be extremely gentle
  • and kind
  • always asking you if you’re okay
  • then daddycheol comes out 
  • I'm done
  • Overall he is a caring, protective, passionate boyfriend
  • who will love you like the world is ending

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NCT at Hogwarts

inspired by the ivy club photoshoot they did a couple weeks back, here if how the boys will be like once they received their Hogwarts letter on September 1 


  • Gryffindor
  • been a prefect and head boy since 5ever
  • altho he’s Gryffindor he takes care of everyone
  • practically Mark’s dad
  • he gives the boy study tips and helps with homework, advises him on which professors are good and who to avoid 
  • doesnt sleep sleep is for the weak
  • ok but seriously he is patrolling the corridors 24/7 for wandering souls and directing them back to bed safely (he’d prob tuck them in and give a goodnight kiss if he could) 
  • the house elves are always telling him to rest
  • “Mister Lee, you’ve been patrolling for 3 nights straight, please take a rest, everything is fine”
  • “im not sleepy at all, but thank you for your concern” *he smiles to stifle the upcoming yawn*
  • Madame Pomfrey dotes on him and makes it a routine to check in with him every night 
  • team captain of Gryffindor’s Quidditch team
  • perfect record except for one loss against Slytherin, costing him the cup
  • still salty about it to this day tbh
  • best subject is Defense Against the Dark Arts
  • an Auror in the making
  • Mcgonagall has edited her recommendation letter like 20 times now bc there’s always something to add ok LTY is that awesome 


  • Slytherin
  • at first glance you think he’s Ravenclaw but that underlying smirks tells you otherwise
  • prefect and head boy like LTY
  • Slughorn adores him
  • his picture is placed dead center in the wall of fame, polished daily
  • gets along surprisingly well w/ ppl outside of Slytherin
  • enjoys going out to the lake on warm days to tickle the giant squid
  • Moaning Myrtle has a crush on him
  • he accidentally walked into her bathroom once and couldnt find it in his heart to reject her offer for a conversation and they started talking
  • constant wailings for Jung Jaehyun can be heard every Tuesday and Thursday
  • for the sake of keeping everyone sane he was “requested” by the headmaster to spend every Wed. evening with Myrtle
  • tbh its not that bad 
  • he gets 10 House Points for every session spent with her
  • the best chaser on Slytherin’s Quidditch team
  • nails the Quaffle in every time
  • the only reason Slytherin loses to their biggest competition Gryffindor is bc Taeyong catches the Snitch first
  • Honeydukes is his paradise
  • he even sneaks out sometimes to get the newest samples of fudge and other sugary delicacies despite being a prefect/head boy
  • has a secret box filled with candy under his bed for late night snacking


  • Hufflepuff
  • Professor Sprout’s TA
  • he’s great at teaching the first and second years about magical plants
  • a bit hard on hearing tho after experiencing a live Mandrake scream session
  • usually needs to tell him the same thing 3 times before he gets it
  • have you heard this boy sing bc Flitwick has and Taeil is the only student member of the school’s frog choir
  • his singing has even captivated the mermaids by the lake and they always harmonize in response
  • lowkey a prankster tho
  • he cast a full body bind on Mrs. Norris once and blamed it on Yuta, who was walking by w/ Haechan
  • they were given detention and Moon Taeil got away scot-free
  • the type to always have a chocolate frog on him to give to others bc he’s a sweetheart like that
  • mark: “i bombed mcgonagall’s essay exam” 
  • *hands over a chocolate frog*
  • winwin: taeyong took off 10 points from me for sneaking out to feed the unicorns 
  • *hands over a chocolate frog*
  • haechan: got anything to eat im starving 
  • *hands over a chocolate frog*
  • #1 on Madame Pince’s hit list bc he checks out library books and doesnt remember to return them until they pile up on his nightstand
  • super scared of the ghosts even his 7th year


  • Gryffindor 
  • the baby of Gryffindor House tbh
  • Mcgonagall adores him and sometimes turns a blind eye on his essays when theyre three/four inches short on the required length
  • constantly trolled by the moving staircases
  • always running late
  • Taeyong constantly helps him study and checks over his hw my OG son and his father :’))) 
  • best friends w/ Haechan despite being in rival houses
  • always has his back even tho Haechan is the one who always messes up
  • a hidden rap god 
  • makes mixtapes and has Haechan review them before packing them to send home via owl
  • his friends from back home help him post it on the Internet and he’s a global sensation
  • best known as the guy who did “that’s a long ass ride” 
  • very interested in magical creatures
  • always asking Hagrid or the Care for Magical Creatures professor for more info after class or just to stay after to watch them 
  • the centaurs adore him and love making divinations to predict his future


  • Slytherin
  • the second-coming of the Weasley twins
  • dungbombs, ambushed with random charms while you’re walking down the hall? 
  • 99% of the time its Haechan
  • Filch and Mrs. Norris are like his homies 
  • they know him well after getting him sent in at least twice per week
  • against all expectations his best friend is Mark Lee from Gryffindor
  • they met when Haechan pulled him back from falling head-first off the carriage through the Forbidden Forest in second year
  • since then they’ve hit it off really well always looking out for each other in class and stuff
  • excellent in Charms
  • Flitwick praises him all the time for learning new ones in literally two tries
  • the only student Peeves is ok with 
  • the poltergeist has never met such a kindred spirit until Haechan came along
  • getting on Filch’s nerves is their life goal and theyre really good at doing just that


  • Ravenclaw
  • on point w/ his schoolwork you never need to worry about him falling behind at all
  • commentator during Qudditch games VROOM VROOM AT ITS FINEST
  • his voice is a charmer ppl love hearing him talk
  • “and Taeyong captures the snitch again what a steal!”
  • “i know we’re friends but can you just let us win once like we’re not that bad but you’re such an over-achiever that–”
  • mcgonagall usually has to intervene at least twice while he’s on the job
  • “Kim Doyoung if you can’t give proper commentary then I’m giving the mic to Haechan”
  • usually shuts up after that but finds ways to throw in shade without causing too much trouble
  • lowkey wants to become an Animagus
  • succeeded in 5th year but isnt registered 
  • ( ͡° ͜ʖ ͡°)
  • i mean how do u think he gets such accurate administrative info to share with you all 
  • guess what his Animagus form is no hes not a bunny
  • jk hes totally a bunny 
  • loves History of Magic of all subjects what a nerd
  • each day in the Ravenclaw common room begins with “A Cool Thing about Hogwarts” courtesy of Kim Doyoung


  • Slytherin
  • there’s no better house for hot stuff him
  • a savage and also the deadliest manipulator in the entire school
  • how does he do it? 
  • that stupid healing smile of his o m g 
  • one flash of those pearly-whites and you’ll be melting into a puddle in 2 seconds
  • doesnt intentionally stir up drama tho
  • unless its Quidditch
  • that’s when his competitive streak as Slytherin’s team captain comes out
  • really tough on his teammates but they dont mind bc they know theyre the shit and they all want to win the cup for Slytherin a second time
  • his biggest competition + best friend is Lee Taeyong from Gryffindor House
  • their friendship started after Yuta won over LTY in 4th year and LTY kept bugging him for a personal rematch
  • if Myrtle cries for Jaehyun on Tuesdays and Thursdays then she literally floods her bathroom on Mondays and Fridays in order to attract Yuta after receiving a healing smile when he came to pick up Jaehyun one Wednesday evening
  • catching on that she likes him, he pops in every so often to praise Myrtle for doing such a good job at making ol’ Filch’s life miserable, causing her to blush silver and maintain high-quality floods and sink leakages each week
  • gets along with everyone, even those not in Slytherin
  • the one most likely to drift to another house’s table once dinner starts
  • favorite table to go to is Gryffindor’s to hang out with LTY
  • leader of the Dueling Club this boy can D U E L 
  • two seconds in and you’ll be expelliarmused OUT
  • also really good at Stunning like how he stunned me this sdlkjflsf
  • the first years admire him and want to be just like him


  • Hufflepuff
  • a transfer student from a wizarding school in China
  • despite not knowing a thing about Hogwarts, everyone took it upon themselves to show him the ropes so that hes in good hands
  • rooms w/ Taeil and the two of them hit it off really well
  • adored by all the professors, even grumpy Snape
  • they cut him some slack since 
  • 1) he’s a transfer 
  • 2) he’s a precious bean
  • favorite subject is Muggle Studies
  • fascinated w/ traffic lights and smartphones
  • he now knows a lot about proper ways to cross the road and how to download music to a small device called an iPod
  • loves unicorns
  • look i know unicorns usually like girls more but Sicheng is one of those rare chosen ones
  • one of the foals directly approached him first and he felt so honored
  • since then hes been approached by other unicorns too, from babies to full grown adult unicorns
  • nickname: unicorn whisperer
  • never alone
  • you will literally see him with at least one person E V E R Y W H E R E 

these shouldve been posted a long time ago my bad pls enjoy ^^ (i know ten was in the ivy club shoot too but i literally had no inspiration im sorry. pls let me know if u want more nct at hogwarts and i’ll see what i can do) 

Etsy Exy 

This is probs the silliest thing ive ever come up with but ¯\_(ツ)_/¯

  •  so basically when I first started reading the foxhole court i kept saying ‘etsy’ in my head when I saw the word 'exy' 
  • so me being a nerd thought: what if the team started an etsy shop???
  • like say Allison was completely broke and Matt too and they’re all just a bunch of struggling college kids and they have no time to get actual jobs between school and exy practice so they decide to open an etsy shop to make some extra cash??
  • it probs starts w the girls making like necklaces and bracelets or something like renee’s really good at making those braided bracelets bc she used to make them w her church youth group all the time
  • and allison is really good with beads and stuff
  • and then dan surprises them all w her secret embroidery talent and she starts making cute little things (with foxes designs!!) 
  • then matt gets dragged into it by dan and he’s like…I CAN BUILD THINGS!! WITH WOOD!! such a guy lmao so he starts making like wooden sculptures of animals (FOXES!!! its their theme) and like idk bird houses????
  • he asks neil if he’s got any secret crafting talents and neil is like “…uhh…no…” but he brings up the etsy shop thing to andrew’s gang later and nicky like DIES. HE SOOO WANTS IN!!!
  • “I CAN SEW!!!!” he proclaims, barging into the girls’ room and so he ends up joining dan and they start altering clothes and embroidering things and making cool patches and stuff 
  • meanwhile aaron’s like disappeared into his room and they don’t see him for hours until he returns later that night with all these cool sketches and things and they’re all like :O 
  • “YOU CAN DRAW???????” and he like scratches the back of his head all shy like “um. yeah…but they’re not like…they’re not that great so idk if you’d want them but…” 
  • dan shuts him up real quick and puts him to work sketching out designs for clothes and logos for their stuff and cool prints to sell 
  • i can also see renee being a really good painter so maybe she and aaron collaborate on some art stuff too 
  • kevin??? is actually a really good photographer???? he probs takes a lot of sports related pictures…he turns exy into art…like dramatic shots of racquets and people in motion. he probs captures like really beautiful shots of the foxes on the court…dan in her element making a speech before a game…nicky cracking a wide grin after they’ve won…neil a blur in motion racing towards the goal…andrew actually enjoying himself 
  • so the whole gang (minus andrew and neil) get so into this etsy thing and like they start becoming pretty popular esp with fox fans bc like 90% of their stuff is basically homemade fox merch 
  • the girls have turned their dorm into a workshop/office
  • its like a month into this whole etsy thing that andrew walks in and drops this little knitted fox plushie onto the girls’ desk and they’re like????
  • and he’s like “do you want me to make more or not?” 
  • and they’re like….stunned into silence like none of them can even form words so they all just nod silently and andrew just points across the room to neil like “you. come with me.” 
  • neil gets up and follows him out still in shock and they go out into the parking lot and get in andrews car and drive all the way to the craft store and neil follows andrew inside and andrew hands him a basket and stalks ahead of him to the back of the store like he knows exactly where to go and what he’s looking for 
  • and neil just jogs after him and then andrew starts grabbing all the orange and white yarn he can carry and shoves it all into the basket and walks away and neither of them have said anything yet 
  • on the way to the register he blindly grabs a pair of knitting needles and then they check out and finally finally when they’re in the car again neil just turns to him like “what the fuuck andrew???” 
  • andrew just looks at him like “what” 
  • andrew shrugs. “you never asked did you?” 
  • andrew just shrugs again and then neil asks him when, how, why??? 
  • “i learned in juvie” andrew says. “ they had all sorts of dumb hobby classes there. it was supposed to be like, a good way to calm people down. therapeutic.” 
  • neil nods and then they drive back to fox tower and andrew gets to work and neil just sits and watches him all quiet as he works the needles rhythmically and he’s just so fascinated and finally andrew looks up and gestures for neil to come over and he gets out the other set of needles he bought and hands them to neil. 
  • “watch,” he says and then he starts casting the yarn onto the new needles and he slowly shows him how to make basic stitches and neil’s leaning in super close so he can see properly and like they’re shoulders and pressed together and then andrew hands neil the needles “your turn” he says and he guides!!!! neils!!!!!! hands!!!!! and helps him stitch
  • and its like the softest, grossest, most romantic thing ever
  • and neil’s a fast learner so he gets the hang of it pretty quick and they spend the rest of the night lying side by side in bed knitting 
  • and andrew make another little fox and neil makes a horrific bright orange scarf that’s super wonky and full of holes and andrew tells him “you suck at this” but there’s a smile in his eyes and neil can see it and he can’t help grin at him and they kiss and its like..just too picturing such teeth rotting sweetness like. andrew telling him he sucks and neil kissing him and saying “you’d wear my scarf tho right?” and he’s grinning against andrew’s lips
  • and andrews like “pftttt no. i wouldn’t be caught dead in that thing.” and then he pushes neil down onto the mattress and kisses him some more and neil’s like “you love my hideous scarf” 
  • “um. no. i hate it. 100%. the worst thing i’ve ever seen. after you of course” and neil’s like “i believe you 0%” and they kiss some more and andrew probs gives neil his little knit fox but like of course he makes it all ~casual~ like nbd “here take this…your scarf is so awful you should have a prize” “rewarding me for my failure??” “no. that’s not–just take the damn fox.” neil takes it and probs falls asleep holding it wow what a lovesick nerd 
  • then the next day its like super cold out and theyre late for exy practice and neil’s the last one out and when he slides into the car he just freezes bc andrew has this bright orange monstrosity wrapped around his neck and andrew just stares at him like “seatbelt neil we don’t have all day. kevin here’s already got his panties in a twist bc we’re LATE.” 
  • later in the locker room when they’re all getting changed neil whispers “you like my scarf” all smug. “no, i hate it and i only wore it bc i hoped it would choke me so i’d never have to see this hideous thing again” 
  • “you like it.” 
  • andrew ends up wearing it all winter and they continue to knit and andrew keeps teaching neil stuff and eventually neil knits a perfect scarf but andrew still wears the horrible first one he made and the gang’s etsy shop is a HIT and they’re all just really really happy and cute making their arts and crafts!!! 

anonymous asked:

hi sunbaenim!!!!! so i want to ask you something.... have you seen few days ago kaisoo? where they both use red-stripped shirts and when kyungsoo backhugged jongin? i noticed... jongin want to pull soo's hands so he could fully hug him but soo's restraining and jongin let his hands go... did you see it too? or is it only me who get delulu;_; and when it comes to skinship in front of airing camera, sometimes kyungsoo seems always restraining, am i right?

ey there!!! you’re talking about this one right?

and yes, i have seen the video (when kaisoo was about to do their thing, the video stopped), it seems jongin wanted soo to fully back-hug him but soo was like ‘no we’re on public lemme just put my hands on your waist to satisfy our thirst for each other’

“and when it comes to skinship in front of airing camera, sometimes kyungsoo seems always restraining” yes anon, i feel the same, and the reason (that i believe) is not bc soo isnt fond of skinship with jongin or not bc ”kaisoo is one sided” (it’s not. never will and never was one sided - soo has been koala-ing on jongin since the start of exo, just look at their predebut picts) but bc ksoo is more aware of his surrounding while (sometimes) jongin isnt 

now lemme show you few examples of kaisoo and the camera

soo noticed the camera while jongin didnt (he grabbed soo’s hand while talking to baek, so he was kinda preoccupied to notice the camera was there in front of them) 

idk if the look soo had on his face could be counted as an uncomfortable expression bc imo he didnt look troubled imo, he looked a lil bit shocked (like ‘aw shit they see us’) mixed with a lil bit of shyness[?] but not uncomfortable, and it seems he was kind of enjoying the feeling of jongin’s hand on his skin and body (also look at the prev gif, he grabbed jongin’s hand with the both of his hands at the same time he made eyecontact with the camera, then the second gif he kind of leaded their [his and jongin’s] hands lower, like he was trying to hide it under the table so the camera wouldnt be able to record it)

jongin stopped rubbing soo’s ear when he noticed there was a camera filming them (and it seems soo didnt notice the camera bc he let jongin touches him and he didnt make ‘oh no they see us’ face)

then he quickly covered it by moving his hand off from soo’s ear to soo’s shoulder so it would seem as if he touched soo just bc he needed the leverage to change his pose/stance

my point is, i think both of them are the same (trying to restrain themselves from touching each other if there is camera filming them), but (imo) jongin seems a lil bit unaware of his surrounding when he is around soo (he sometimes forgets there is a camera in the room / they are in public place), but also at the same time i feel like he does this [touching soo] on purpose, not for the sake of fanservice (bc it’s too subtle to be recognize as one) but for the sake of telling the prying eyes (cue to soo’s thirsty fanboys - lemme throw a fact that soo has gathered more fanboys with his acting skill - and the fanboys im talking about not just regular fanboys but those who have the access to see/talk to soo irl not just spazz over him on internet/tv) something 

prob im just seeing things (since im deluded biased trash with with no credibility whatsoever), prob SM has planned all of this (yeah right /roll eyes/ if SM did plan all of this kaisoo whole thing, they should plan the world domination), idk, but honestly this is how i see them

as always, sorry for the late reply, since im in exam week rn (fortunately this hell will be over soon)… and sorry if it’s long and bothering y’all especially non-shippers who browse tumblr via phone and get annoyed bc they have to scroll down skipping this bullshit post 

Huxblush’s Monthly Fic Roundup! - August 2016 

The rules: Any fic posted or updated within the month of August, that I read and loved and want to share with you! This is gonna be a monthly thing, so my ask box is always open if you want to recommend something to me. 

Shout out to all of the people who suggested fics, especially @chromedbones and @iamnmbr3 and @hadesharia plus anyone else I’m forgetting, and the countless number of anons. 

Remember to always read the tags, heed all warnings, and leave comments and kudos for the writers! 

Downtown Ruby by deerop

Kylo is a drag performer and Hux’s car breaks down outside the club he performs at. This of course leads to Hux having a crisis of sexuality which leads to semi public sex in a bathroom. 

Third Degree by @sithofren (WIP)

Hux is an interrogator who works for the Resistance. His newest challenge is none other than Kylo Ren, the estranged son of the General herself. The writing in this is so captivating and the characterisation of Hux is fascinating.

Parchment & Vellum by @gefionne (WIP)

Adorable Modern AU where Hux is an academic librarian and Kylo is a grad student who needs help with his research (library sex is a thing that happens). 

The Way to a Man’s Heart by Gigi_Sinclair

When the Empire fell, Hux’s mother took him and fled. Years later, Jedi padawan Ben Solo comes across Hux living a quiet and simple life on a peaceful planet. This is honestly so sweet and fluffy. 

Life After Death and Taxes by Anorlost (WIP)

Hux disguises himself as a woman in order to assassinate Lord Kylo Ren, the local vampire. It’s a shame for him that his plan backfires and Kylo decides to keep him. I can’t wait to see where this fic goes. 

This Night at the Edge of the World by @nookienostradamus

This is the fic that got me hooked on techienician. It’s an amazing modern AU with a slow burn, in which Matt starts dating an older woman and ends up falling for her son, Techie. The characterisation in this is phenomenal, and I would definitely recommend it if you’re wanting to give Matt/Techie a try.

Swords and Slippers by @crackedverbosity​ (WIP)

Ballet!Hux and Martial Artist!Kylo start an unlikely relationship after Hux gets sick and Kylo takes care of him. This fic is brilliant and the fact that @crackedverbosity​ has had the time to update despite everything her family is going through is really amazing. You can read about what’s going on here, and If you can, please donate to the gofundme.

Old Magic by @squintlysays

Magic AU set in the 19th century with Fairy!Hux. If you’re looking for something completely different and brilliantly written, you have to read this!

Seasons Greetings from the Solo-Organas! by honeypothux

Ben puts out an ad looking for a family to take cheesy holiday photos with so he can confuse his parents. Hux could do with the $20 and he conveniently has adorable small children he can borrow. 

Sucker Punch by @unicornsandbutane

Kylo hacks into Hux’s datapad and discovers some interesting things about the General’s sexual appetites. If you’re into the tentacle sex thing, then this is incredibly hot and you need to read it (this is worth it just for the tag “consentacles”).

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  • Jan. 15 - “How We Were” - History/Decay

He remembers their hands, fitting so perfectly like the two pieces of a puzzle; and the way their movements were synchronized and fluid – years of experience making them work like mirrors, knowing exactly the step the other one would take next. He remembers the hushed whispers and silent chuckles they shared, he is still able to imagine his smile, the wrinkles around his eyes and the way his whole face lit up; the pride he felt being the one who had made him laugh. He remembers warmth; silence surrounding them for hours, just being next to each other, breaths intermingling and hands in each other’s hair, tugging at soft curls and teeth grazing his nose as a punishment for his teasing. He remembers him blushing, first the tip of his ears, then his cheeks and nose; how he grumbled and dragged down his beanie, too flustered to respond normally, so endearing.


It hurt to remember. He missed it, longed for how content they were next to each other, with each other. The moments Gabriel would stare at him lovingly and carefree got rarer with every day that passed, the moments Gabriel would gaze at him with sadness and regret and maybe even guilt happened more often and Jack was afraid of what that meant. Gabriel was what kept him together even before Overwatch; without him, Jack was sure, he would have never been able to survive what life had thrown at them. And if it was just because they saved each other’s asses several times. 

“You okay, mi sol?” Jack never heard him coming but sensed his presence. The smile tugging at the corners of his mouth was his usual reaction to the endearment Gabriel gave him.
“I’m fine. Just, you know, thinking”, he replied, his words muffled by the scarf around his neck. His presence got closer. Jack sighed when Gabriel wrapped one arm around his shoulders instead he leaned into him and closed his eyes, relaxing, while warm breath fanned over his head. Gabriel didn’t ask and Jack was thankful for that; having to explain would shatter this moment and Jack just wanted to stay like this forever, to save it, to put it into a jar and reliving it whenever he felt the need to. He learned to cherish just being with Gabe.

“How was your mission?”, Jack asked, finally breaching the silence. Gabriel didn’t tense and he knew the answer before the other man even opened his mouth.
“Everything went according to plan.” Jack hummed and snuggled even closer. The night was freezing but he felt as if he was in a warm cocoon that saved him from the cold reality. Gabriel moved, his grip tightening, pressing a soft kiss on Jack’s forehead – it was just the faintest brush of lips but it still had Jack sighing contently. It would start snowing soon, he could feel it in his bones; he wondered if their relationship would change again, like the seasons did. He wished for it. 

“You think, it’s going to be a harsh winter?” Gabriel sighed and released him shortly to light himself a cigarette; his grip wasn’t as tight as before. He frowned and blew out a cloud of smoke before answering.
“Not sure”, he mumbled, shrugging, and glancing at Jack before looking up to the dark sky. Enough of an answer. Jack hugged himself, eyes downcast; sad smile hidden behind his scarf. Maybe it was for the best? He couldn’t say, it just hurt.
“If it is I hope for spring to bring a change”, he murmured to himself although he was sure that Gabriel still heard him. If it is I hope we’ll be able to save us. Jack shook his head, banishing the thought, right now he should concentrate on the warmth they shared and how perfectly their bodies fit together – nothing else.
“Hopefully spring won’t be late.” Jack froze. Another cloud of smoke danced in the air, curling and twirling; carried away by a cold breeze. Gabe let his cigarette fall and stamped it out with his foot.  
“It won’t”, he stated and met Gabriel’s eyes, eyebrows drawn together. Jack grabbed the front of Gabriel’s coat and dragged him in for a kiss; their lips were cold but warmed up instantly, noses bumping against each other. When Gabriel cradled his face in his hands and tugged him even closer, Jack couldn’t suppress a sigh. Calloused fingertips pressing against his cheeks and jaw, the bitter taste of desperation on his tongue but need as sweet as sugar on his lips. Maybe they were falling apart and maybe nothing would stop it but Jack wouldn’t give up trying. How we were and how we are may be different, but I’m not letting our ‘we’ go.

It started to snow that night.

Hope y’all have a great week!
I did oneshots for every prompt and to most of them some doodles because i wanted to practice digital art and this week seemed perfect for it. :3
(this doodle is so messy have mercy lmao)

Boyfriend Series; Jackson Wang

he makes me so emo here we go

  • he probably uses dumb ass pick up lines he’s that type don’t lie to urselves
  • “i seem to have lost my phone number, can i have yours?” 
  • and ur just kinda like hnnnnnnng bc ??? who is thi S he is cute but also leave me alone i dont kno u
  • honestly jackson punching me and my entire family in the face would hurt less than dating him.
  • he is a meme
  • he would probably send u texts with outdated memes like “lol have u seen this it’s so funny” an d it’s the “what’s better than this?? guys bein dudes” and ur just like yes i have jackson actually so has everyone else
  • he would try to teach you mandarin or cantonese and ur really into it and genuinely trying to learn it but when the tables turn and u try to teach him ur language (if it aint english) he’d be like “hey let’s do smth else like go to jamba juice”
  • constantly!!! ask!! u!!! if!! u!! love!!! him!!! bc!!! he!!! knows!!! it!!! makes!! you!!! blush!!! and he really likes it when u blush
  • if u 2 were playing a video game together he would never ever ever let u win 
  • but when u genuinely win he’s be upset like ????!!! no how but lowkey be like “atta girl”
  • woudl probably call you baby more than ur actual name
  • he seems like a rlly clingy guy??? im here for it
  • sometimes he’ll call u when he’s on tour even tho he knows it’s midnight where u are just so he can here ur voice
  • probably gets hELLA cheesy when it’s late like !!!
  • “baby look at the sky if i ever feel too far away from you just remember that at this moment we’re looking at the same sky and we’re talking and god it’s almost like you’re here with me”
  • and then he’d forget about it the next day but you wouldn’t 
  • and you would probably blackmail him w it like “hey jackson remember that one monologue u had abt the sky” and he would shut u down so fkn quick lmfao
  • when he realized he loved u he’d be v nervous around u and prob wouldn’t wait too long to tell u 
  • you’d be like “bruh y tf r ur hands shaking all i did was kiss u” and he’s the type to straight up be like “im so in love with you” bc he literally can’t think of anything else at that moment
  • i think he’d do anything in his power to make u laugh
  • think bad jokes r funny??? he’d google a whole list of em
  • i don’t think he’d be too smooth when he proposes to u
  • i think he’d try to plan something really romantic but would probably say “marry me” when yall were having sex OR when u made some bomb ass food
  • and you’d be like?? what excuse me and he’d be like “nah u didnt hear me right" and make the dumbest excuse but youd know………
  • remember that scene from hot rod where andy samberg was like “you look pretty!” and isla fisher was like “what” and he was like “I SAID U LOOK SHITTY GOODNIGHT DENISE” because that is jackson 200% just imagine it
  • but anywyas just imagine sex w this man for just a sec and tell me that u r not cryin at least a lil bit
  • a  lot of ppl are goin to disagree but i dont think he likes being called daddy?? lmfao i feel like if u called him that he’s find it awkward and would probably laugh
  • this is getting long why turn back now
  • i see him as being rlly dominate and liking biting/scratching 
  • OR he’d be really into lazy sex u kno the kind when u just woke up and he’s too tired to actually do anything but ya both want each other so he makes u do all the work
  • there is no inbetween
  • also!!! he’d want u to be best friends w the guys especially mark but he didn’t really think it through bc when jackson isn’t around mark will tell u things like
  • “he really really really loves you ur his phone background and when you texted him back the first time he asked me like 30 times what he should reply with”
  • and you’d just be like ?!? my nervous bab he comes off as so confident but u tell me otherwise
  • he’d genuinely love being around you like he’d prefer to stay @ ur place rather than the dorm and he’d rather eat w u than the boys and he’s just boyfriend material please take care of him