im not sorry for my decision

anonymous asked:

I just wanted to let you know that i look up to you. Ya see. My parents kinda dont understand or like the whole trans thing so it sucks for me. But when i see you posting i get really happy because you give me hope. Sorry for the long ask. I hope you have a great day.

Hey there!!! Omg this makes me feel??? sO GOOD??? fuck im so glad my lame tumblr where i mostly talk about being gay for dirk is able to help you out!!!!

A thing about being trans that I think about a lot is how people always talk about how it’s “never going to go away.” like. “lol are u sure u want to make this Decision to be trans??? its going to Haunt you for the Rest Of Your Life, and never go away, are you suuuure???” and ok im sure all of us here can understand why its not a decision and also not a ghost cause ghosts r the only things that have any business haunting my ass. But the fact of the matter is thats RIGHT, it DOESNT ever go away, like of course it doesnt go away. what kind of logic is that. What does happen is that it gets so much better!!!!!!!!!! I think a lot of parents don’t understand that, because we get to know other trans people and see other trans people grow and be happy and successful. But if your parents aren’t exposed to the Gay Medias, they never get to see that. and they may even think trans people dont exist in the real world. :(((( I remember before coming out I was so terrified my parents would not understand and tell me it was a phase and stuff (which didnt happen thank god my parents rock u guys) but like??? no matter how much they like to think they do, your parents dont actually know you better than you do. YOU know you best. cause u spend 24 hours a day being yourself every single day, u know???

anyways WHOOPS I RAMBLED but i just wanted to say this is so sweet and i think its so important to have hope and remember that like!!!! the trans experience is not perpetual invalidation and shitty parents!!! there are other great things in store for you like happiness and fuckin uhhhh, all the cool friends u will meet over the course of your Whole Life. hope is real and i love good things. that is all I LOVE YOU SO MUCH ANON!!!!!!!!!

dear evan hansen songs ft. alternate titles
  • anybody have a map?: okay google, how do i parent
  • waving through a window: maybe you should step out of the sun so you don't fucking die evan
  • for forever: no homo
  • sincerely, me: no homo (reprise)
  • requiem: no one mourns the wicked (sorry elphaba)
  • if i could tell her: okay google, how do i make a girl like me by only using lies about her dead brother
  • disappear: evan makes the big decision
  • you will be found: evan follows through with the big decision
  • to break in a glove: [insert the "god i wish that were me" meme here]
  • only us: okay google, how do i make a girl like me without making up lies about her dead brother
  • good for you: congratulations, you played yourself
  • words fail: evan regrets the big decision
  • so big / so small: i don't even have a joke for this one just insert a pic of someone gross sobbing or smthn here
  • for forever (reprise): well my life has been ruined
When You Have "Too Many" Stuffies

Me: “Okay! Attention soldiers!” *looks down at mountain of stuffies* “Today..I am putting a couple of you back in the closet..iM SORRY I LOVE YOU ALL THOugh!!”

Me: *carefully inspects all stuffies, comforting them all as I go*

Me: “I. Have made my decision. Gather around my children!”

Me: *gathering all stuffies in a group hug*

Me: “I can’t do this. You’ll all stay another day.”

hey if youre a disabled person who doesnt like making jokes about their illness or like hearing other people make jokes about your illness, its okay and youre still valid.

if you have to hear people say unfunny comments about your struggles or pain and try to excuse it with “i have other disabled friends who are completely fine with jokes about their illness”, “its better to laugh than to cry” or “ youll have to get used to it, youre gonna be sick the rest of your life”, im really sorry and you shouldnt have to put up with that.

you are the only person who gets to decide whether youre okay with certain jokes/jokes at all about your illness, no one but you.

youre not overly sensitive or boring for not wanting to poke fun at something awful that is happening to you.

please come @ anyone tryna make that decision for you, your illness has already taken so much away from you, dont let anyone else take anything else away.

fun dumb raver komahina - drawn by big nerd @coziart, colored by me!! imagine 3!OH3 blasting distantly behind them and ibuki about to crash onto them from the ceiling.

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Lance couldn’t find the words to speak to Keith. As the new leader fumbled to find the words to justify his decision, Lance’s emotions curled and whitened his fingers into a fist. He wasn’t sure what he felt in the heat of the moment perhaps the overwhelming feeling of self-loathing or trust towards his fellow paladin breaking.

Just once was enough, while Lance knew it would most likely worsen their relationship, he had to respond. No words could say what he needed to tell.

Keith stumbled onto the floor. Eventually, he slowly pulled himself hand over his cheek. Lance left him there; time was the last thing he was willing to spare with Keith right now.

zaloog81  asked:

You ever fantasized about being used as part of a repopulation project. Where your pumped full of various fertility drugs and then gang banged. With the hopes that you'll end up being impregnated by at least 3 of the multuple men at the same time. Imagine how big and swollen your belly will get with all those babies inside you, and realize that after you give birth you'll be impregnated again.

I absolutely think of this one often. having the decision of who will be impregnating me just completely taken away from me as im taken into a program and submitted to rigorous fertility treatments. and I’m watched closely and constantly by my superiors as stranger after stranger forces himself on me, cumming up my cunt, preventing me from doing anything to avoid or endanger my inevitable pregnancy. Im reduced to nothing but an excruciatingly pregnant broodmare.

anonymous asked:

IM SO SORRY I DONT KNOW IF YOURE TAKING PROMPTS BUT I CANT WRITE FOR SHIT AND ALL I CAN THINK ABOUT IS LB KISSING CHAT AND THE SECOND MARI GETS HOME HER NOW MAYBE MORE THAN A BRO CHAT FUCKING SWAN DIVES THROUGH THE TRAP DOOR JUST SCREAMING "BRO BRO BRO BRO BRO" AND THEN YELLING/EXPLAINING TO A FURIOUSLY BLUSHING MARI THE EXACT DETAILS OF THE KISS

yes, hello, thank you for this prompt and sorry about my disbelief last night lmao

Being Ladybug meant she had to think things through. Be smart. Rational. Never make an impulsive decision. 

But she was also Marinette, and she did lots of impulsive things from stealing phones to jumping into a dinosaur’s mouth to kissing her partner one Tuesday night. 

She hadn’t meant do it, but how could she not get lost in the moment with the stars twinkling above them, his eyes shining just as brightly as he gazed at her and his laugh echoing through the air as a result of some lame joke she had told?

Before she realized it, she was leaning in, her gloved thumb running over the skin beneath his mask as her lips captured his. 

It was wonderful. It was sweet. It was perfect.

It was also a huge mistake, which is why she shoved him away about three seconds later and sputtered out, “I gotta go home right now immediately” before running away as fast as possibly as she could.

She had plans to spend the night under her covers, screaming and shoving cookies in her mouth while ignoring Tikki’s words of comfort, but she had barely dove into her bedroom, transformation undone, when Chat Noir burst through the sky roof.

“Marinette, holy shit!”

She screamed, totally off guard.

“Yup! Marinette, that’s me!” She said once she confirmed that, yes, she was Marinette and not Ladybug right now. Because that would have opened up a whole other can of worms she wasn’t ready to face.

Luckily, her partner seemed oblivious to her odd behavior as he collapsed on the chaise. 

“Marinette, Marinette….” He struggled to catch his breath, and she wondered how fast he must have run to come here. “You’ll never guess what just happened. Ladybug kissed me. Me! She kissed me. Oh, shit. She kissed me!”

Chat pulled his knees to his chest, cheeks flushed pink, as he giggled. It was utterly adorable, and she just wanted to-

No, no! Bad Marinette! Kissing him was exactly what got her into this mess in the first place. 

“Congratulations,” she managed to say, which was a miracle because what she really wanted to say was “Maybe you should kiss me again” which would not have ended well. Maybe. 

Chat grinned at her. “I don’t know what happened tonight…it was just perfect, you know? We were just sitting there, laughing about I don’t even know what, and god, she looked so beautiful - even more than usual - and she just…”

“Kissed you?” Marinette finished, unable to stop herself from smiling. To know she had this effect on her kitty almost made her forget about-

“Yeah,” he murmured, tucking his chin in between his knees as he glanced out the window, as if hoping his partner was right outside.

Well, she was closer than he thought.

“You…really love her, huh?” Marinette asked softly, recalling all those late night talks over hot chocolate and croissants. How his features softened, how his eyes lit up, how nothing could shake him when he talked about her. How he swore that the girl behind the mask was every bit as wonderful as the girl wearing it.

“More than anyone I’ve ever known,” replied Chat. “The only one that could come close is-”

His eyes drifted to her, and her breath hitched.

“Well then…” She murmured, cautiously approaching him until she was right in front of him. “You should tell her.”

“You think so?” Chat sunk down a bit. “What if…what if she says it was a mistake? What if I’m-”

“It wasn’t a mistake, Chat Noir,” she said, taking a deep breath. “I don’t regret kissing you tonight, kitty.”

Chat Noir smiled briefly, before her words sunk in and he turned to look at her so fast she was afraid he suffered whiplash. 

“Wha-?”

Marinette simply smiled, moving her hair back and revealing the earrings she wore. 

“For the record,” she whispered, “I love you too.”

*rubs temples* prefering the concept art of Mercy to the actual Mercy we got isn’t mysoginy

honestly? person of color depicted as the embodiment of kindness>white chick depicted as the embodiment of kindness ANY TIME suck my ass

Sexting in Open Court

@barbabangme I am taking a break from smut forever after this omfg.  I hope it’s not too shit babe.
I am so tired rn but I had to post this tonight. I will be back to writing my fluffy stuffs next week guys. 

Lets put this cute gif of Rafi on it cos why not.

His face totally says “Yeah but you can’t send dirty messages like this and still win your case tho can you?” asdfghjkdsghsdjk I need sleep loool bye

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Not an Update #8

I’ve been meaning to make this for a little while- but here it goes.

I’m not going to update this. I can’t do this anymore, I’m so sorry.


I love you all to bit and pieces and I cannot thank you all for your support and it’s not anyone of y’all’s fault. It’s just that my motivation to work on this has depleted- and then I feel guilty for not updating- and then it goes back and forth.


I’ll keep the blog up and maybe one day I’ll come back.

I’m sorry.

KNB x NBA

 Ok, I’m just going to throw a wild card out here and analyze the current placement of Kurobasu. Normally, I was expecting the choices to be based on colour or personality, but when Akashi came out I was completely thrown off. I think there is a clear pattern for why they were placed on this teams though.

My theory is they’re being placed into the teams where the greatest NBA legends are born (because they are the GOM so the teams have to be legendary too??). BUT! It’s more than just aesthetics! (I’m sorry Akashi, but the yellow jersey isn’t your color :-/ ) I think the GOM-Legend matchup is more on their playing styles!

So they’re not totally random! Then again, I could be overthinking things. If I am, this is probably a short rant of an obsessed KNB fan ^u^?

ANYWAY, Here’s the roster so far:

1. Kagami - Chicago Bulls
Michael freaking Jordan started from the Chicago Bulls. Kagami wears Jordans.
Also, have you seen this man jump? There’s a reason why Mike’s #1. He can jump crazy high and his drive to become the best is what put him at. the. top.
Michael Jordan wasn’t only amazing in terms of offense, his size allowed him to be a great defender too. 


2. Kuroko - San Antonio Spurs

Have you guys heard of Tim Duncan? No? Well let me introduce you to the man Shaquille O’Neal called “The Big Fundamental” and the one who placed the Spurs on the map. Let me tell you that name wasn’t born without a reason.
He plays similarly to Kuroko - in the sense that his plays are more quiet and a little “vanilla” unlike the other more flashy legends. He lacked a “style” in a sense, but not having one was his style! His style was consistent and amazingly persistent - often perceived as “boring” by some, but it was perfect for masking his individuality on the court. No one could pinpoint just Duncan. He had a very sneaky playing style - amazing footwork that allowed him to dance around his opponents. Literally, he was the perfect shadow.


3. Midorima - Boston Celtics
OK, first things first: makes sense because of two things: GREEN EVERYWHERE and the symbol is the leprechaun, a symbol of good luck!

Next, other than this lining up perfectly, let me tell you folks about Larry Bird, one of the greatest legends of all time (my idol tbh and a legend alongside Magic Johnson). Larry Bird is well known for having one of the quickest shot releases of all time. His shots could go past any defender. By the time they saw him shoot, the ball had already left his hands. Let me say again, he is one of the greatest shooters of all time.

Why not Curry and his amazing three pointers? Stephen Curry is only 6′3″! Larry Bird had a build that towers at 6′9″, he nailed the shots each time, and he’s in green too. Go figure. (There are other great Celtics like Paul Pierce or Bill Russell but I love Larry Bird OK)

4. Akashi - LA Lakers
Why not Sacramento Kings or a team that’s totally red? I thought he would be because Kings = Emperor or something. But, this makes more sense. The LA Lakers had several legends but I think the key player here is Magic Johnson. Johnson is one of the greatest Point Guards of All time and is a name that runs in every basketball nut’s household. He wasn’t just incredibly skilled, he made the plays that brought the trophy home. He virtually improved all the players around with each pass or move. Each pass and set was calculated - surprising many of his opponents! In a way, his plays brought a little magic to the court, hence the name. He was one of the few players in all of history who could not only play all roles, but DOMINATE EACH ONE. He was THE PLAYMAKER, THE MASTERMIND, THE KING ON THE COURT. If you’re looking for a player with irl Emperor’s Eye, Magic Johnson is the player with that exact ability.

Also, he and Larry Bird’s rivalry is one of the greatest in NBA history too! (Like the competitiveness between Akashi and Midorima)

Unrevealed so far and my predictions:
Murasakibara -
Houston Rockets (Possibly Yao Ming)
<3 Kise <3 - Golden State Warriors (Possibly Stephen Curry)
Aomine - Cleveland Cavaliers/Miami Heat (Possibly Lebron James)


But these ARE JUST MY THOUGHTS AND IN NO WAY AM I A DECISION MAKER FOR WHAT THEY ACTUALLY DECIDE!  Just trying to understand why they’re in the teams they are now huhu

If y’all have any thoughts or other predictions that might be even better, i’m totally open to hearing them!! XD I’ll probably upd8 this every time they release a new one X3 or keep my thoughts to myself

virgin-snitch  asked:

Hey!! FIRST OF ALL I just need to say that i literally love your art so much it makes me so happy and i just followed you on ig and its probs one of the best decisions I've made SECOND i saw a little while ago about your avenue q phase (same lol) and i have no idea if you're still taking requests or if this has already been done but like,, If You Were Gay but with BOM (Arnold to Kevin?? Kevin to McKinley?? idk!) anyways that's my 2 cents love you

anonymous asked:

Why do you like to make art (sorry if that sounds a little rude)? Is it because you like the fact that you can take all of your ideas and be able to see them irl?

aw jeez

so i’m like. really bad with words? which is frustrating when you have a lot of ideas and are pretty analytical about relationships and feelings and storytelling, but aren’t articulate enough to express it in a coherent way…

for me making art is less for me to see them on paper, but for me to show… someone else? i like to make art because its a form of communication. it’s a bit of a connection between you and someone looking at it

the most interesting art to me is storytelling art. cinematic stuff. things that have a lot of context and detail. and the ability to pick and choose colours/creative design/composition all to add up to expressing an idea or mood that you were fascinated with, or have been thinking about

its important to me LOL tl;dr i like to make art because its the medium in which i can communicate ideas/feelings the most effectively

owo~



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Hey guys! This is Amiya and I’m leaving...

Hey guys! This is Amiya. I know this is very sudden, but Ive been thinking about this for a very long time now. I promise myself to post this once i reached 10k and it’s time…… I am officially closing “Jihanlife”. This includes mmeanielife, verkwanlife, and jicheollife…… 

I dont even know how to write this without getting emotional ahahahah. 

Being a part of this community is an eye opening experience. Unexceptionally. It gave me more than what ive asked for. All i wanted is a place to store jisoo and jeonghan photos. but then i met you guys and made alot amazing friends, supports, and love. OVERWHELMING LOVE. I was able to show my arts and edits and gain alot of skills through the process. Overtime the purpose of “jihanlife” had changed. It is now to spread the love and share out seventeen information to you guys. To make people learn more about seventeen and gather together as a fandom and i think my job is done here. I’ve complete my goals. Over this past 2 years, Im so glad to be able to make you guys happy. The best part of tumblr is that i can really connect with you guys like no other platform could. I love answer your question funny or serious. i love making shit post. i lovelovelove many thing about this place. it makes me feel warm and welcoming everyday. A year ago, i cant imagine leaving this place. “Jihanlife” mean so much to me…………

Now to the hard part….. as to “why im leaving…” 

The closing of jihanlife (tumblr) does not mean the ending of my love toward seventeen. Don’t worry. I’m not leaving seventeen or this fandom any time soon. I’ve been in this fandom since before they debut. I’m WAY to invested in seventeen. It’s too late to turn back now ahahah. Perhaps I even love them more that ever and will always do. But there are some reasons why i decided to leave…. and im gonna keep it very real.

1. I cant keep up with my blog. I cant work like i did before. My normal routine is to upload EVERY SINGLE PHOTOS of jisoo and jeonghan onto this blog EVERYDAY. and I run this blog alone. Once i missed a day. Its hard for me to go back and reupload it. Sometime it can take up to 6-8 hours per day. And thats just too much. I know i dont have to upload every single photos out there but its just my thing you know. and it starts to become a burden to me. Almost like task i need to complete. It starts to feel like work instead of hobby. I somehow pressure myself into it and i started to “hate” this blog. Someday it left my heart heavy and i want to get it off……. 

2. Unpleasant personal experiences with fansites. Ive been in the fandom for sometime now. For 3-4 years. I know things and experience things that are fairly unpleasant. Something most people dont know about and i wish you will never know.. ever. Since then, i dont feel the same. It’s hard to explain you directly but it is what it is. I really do wish i havent experienced those negative stuff but it hit me hard and yep life is life. Shit happened once in a while and its okay. i get it. i get over it. moved on. But little bit little, I lose that motivation, I gave them those “maybes”. The will to run this blog as energetic as before, its slowly disappearing. i highly respect fansites. I was one before (and pls dont dig up my history lol its ancient). It takes alot of time, money, effort, and passion. Since this blog is highly involved with fansites. I gave them credibility of their works, respect their works and understand their tricky circumstances that most people wont understand, but unfortunately Ive never recieve any form for mutual respect and instead an “unpleasant” experiences. Dont get me wrong, there are alot of good fansites out there. Ones that respect you as a human being. But Im just never lucky to met/known ones. It sucks. (At the end, you do you. Me do Me. Im good. No hard feelings <3 )

3. It’s time. You know when you do so many cooking to the point that you can just tell by instinct that your chicken is cooked. No? me neither. I dont cook lol. All jokes a side, i really mean it. I just feel it is the best time to leave it like this and move on.

4. I’m Confused. There are alot happening in my life right now and im confused. So I need to make the decision and cut something out. A huge sacrifice. Jihanlife is my life and i love it so much. Ive worked on it so so hard 24/7 for the past 2 years but we need to make that decision to move on. Maybe I just need a break. Sorry for not being able to do this anymore…. Im so sorry…..

5. I ate too many gummies bear. I ate too many gummies bear. I ran out. I need to buy a new jar. so i cant blog. (lol)

Im not gonna deactivate this blog (yet). Im gonna leave it like that because damn i worked on it everyday for the past 2 years for nothing ahahahh . If you guys want to check out old photos of Jihan. You can still swim in the archive! 

After I posted this in my blog, ill be here for the next 48 hrs before permanently leaving. So i can answer and talk to you guys <3 

Even though im leaving tumblr but you still can find me screaming about seventeen, retweeting Jihan photos, doing this same shit on

Twitter: https://twitter.com/jihanlife

Follow my personal life! You can stalk me on youtube and IG. I just started a youtube channel! Yes im moving from tumblr to youtube now ahhahha. I have alot planned ahead and it would be nice to have my friend here go along on a journey with me! <33 im not quite sure with the content yet but im trying! So Join the Journey to the wildness of random shit LOL! So stay tune!!! 

Youtube: Amy Choo

IG: gam.choo

It has been an amazing and precious experience. Truly. I hope you guys will keep continue loving seventeen and support them and yeah i hope you guys will do amazing…. as always. I will always be there for you even if im not in here anymore. Thank you for being so kind and caring to me. Thankyou for cheering me up when im down. Thankyou for adoring my work. Thankyou for being positive. Thank you for making this place a special place <3

This has been Amiya. Thank you for having me. Be kind, stay humble, believe unicorn and eat alot of cotton candy. I love you all.

Continue to spread the love.

Jihanlife (amiya)