im not going to do what you want me to do

ryan hawley is a gift.

if you want someone to cry, call danny miller. i don’t need ryan crying. that’s not robert sugden. i need ryan to keep doing what he’s doing; hit me in the solar plexus with the subtle, heartbreaking teary eyes and crushed expressions. with his protective body gestures and his inability to look anyone in the eye.

why do we need tears when we already have a robert who looks and acts like someone pushed to breaking point?

ryan hawley is magic with what he’s being given (which, admittedly, isn’t the best material at all) and he’s making me believe this at the end of your rope robert sugden, who has no idea what the hell he’s doing or where he’s going. take one look at robert and you know he’s fighting guilt and pressure.

remember those scenes where he wasn’t sleeping and he looked it? remember the scenes pre-aaron drug reveal? the scenes after? ryan hawley doesn’t need to cry to make me buy his emotional decline.

i will fight you on that

what is with all the anon hate in the fandom recently? i mean, these anons are going onto mainly minors’ blogs, and telling them they arent good enough? its not constructive or helpful, its just downright… mean!

we, as a community, should be better than this.
anons, you know thomas wouldnt want this hate to be going around. so why do you do it? if you really dont like the way someone writes or draws or cosplays or does anything, you can just unfollow them. or block them if you have to! but the hate is just unacceptable.

i love this community so much, and i love all the creators in it. all the writers and artists and cosplayers, know that everything in fandom is supposed to be fun. you at not obligated to write anyone anything. you do not owe anyone your creations. im here if you need me. i love yall.

anonymous asked:

do you sometimes get - idk if annoyed is the best word- at some peoples reactions? like "calm down and let me tell the damn plot"? idk im just wondering

Not at all! I don’t think I’ve ever been annoyed at a listener’s reaction - I’m just happy that people are reacting! I also totally understand that people get impatient - I get impatient when I’m consuming entertainment too. As long as our listeners trust me to tell the story (which I think - and hope - they do) and don’t expect me to take the plot one way or another based on what the audience wants, I’m happy. I also love seeing people guess about what’s going to happen next. 

anonymous asked:

how do i learn to understand myself? sometimes i like boys and sometimes i like girls and i never feel quite at home in the town i've lived in my whole life, always like im living a life i shouldn't be. how do you find self acceptance and peace?

to understand yourself, you need to listen to what you want!! if you’ve never felt at home where you live, the universe is telling you that for a reason - once you move out, go and explore new places, and you will find where you are meant to be. liking girls and boys, you could be bisexual! idk how old you are so its a bit hard for me to say, but as you grow up things will become clearer and you will have a clearer understanding of your sexuality. i think you should live based on your intuition and feelings, and if you do that then you will find self acceptance and peace in every aspect of your life! <3

i know free time can do really bad things to me if im not the watcher of my brain thinking, my plan for these 2,5 weeks in portugal is to write down every day what i want to do so i won’t even have time to destroy myself with negative thoughts

also, whenever i do think in a negative way that will make my emotional body trick me into thinking i am in pain and lost Im going to push my index finger nail right under the nail of thumb until it hurts and i forget the thought (i read about this exercise in the pilgrimage)

this might help you too KISS

anonymous asked:

i'm 15 and 240 pounds and im so insecure about it people constantly make jokes about me eating and how fat i am

People like that are disgusting. Do not let the lame ass people give you a complex. If you like the way you are and feel comfortable in your own body, then FUCK THOSE STUPID PEOPLE. If you don’t, then you’re 15 and you have time to do whatever you want in your life. No one has a right to comment on someone else’s body image. You are beautiful not matter what those idiots say. Because in 3-5 years, those people are going to be working at McDonald’s or at a fucking retail outlet while you’re off doing bigger and better things. Use their hate to fuel your life, fuck them and their opinions and live your life babe ! I don’t care what the scale says you are, I say you’re beautiful

anonymous asked:

hey im feeling really empty and tired of living and i just how do you keep going i feel like i need to keep living for all these people but just i dont want to do it anymore im so tired theres no point to it all and im just so lonely

Hi fren.

I am so sorry you are feeling this way and I want you to know I get this. For the past two days I have felt so bad and so worthless, I keep asking myself: why keep going? Let me tell you why I do and what I hope I can give to you to help you in this hard and dark time.

I stay alive for the new adventures I am going to have with friends and myself. I stay alive for moving to Portland and living in a small little apartment. I stay alive for Josh and Tyler in hopes that I will continue to be proud of them, share my voice and maybe one day thank them for all that they do. I stay alive for people, not because I feel I must, but because I can’t imagine seeing them without me. Staying alive sometimes is my only purpose, my kitchen sink.

I am not saying that you have to stay with us because we demand you do. No, that is too much to ask and that is selfish. You are validated for your pain and for how you feel. You do not need to be told you are being too much or just having an “off” day. I want you to know that even on your darkest days you are still validated so much and should feel all these emotions.

What do you love? I love to paint, listen to my vinyls, talk to people, also love baths. Find something that you love and try to channel all the pain and the loneliness you feel. No matter what you do, do it so you can feel everything and let it all go as best and as the way you want it.

Tyler took his own pain, his demons, his need to leave this earth and turned it into music. “i need something to kill me” to “i want to say hello”. You do not need to be a musician to have this moment. I am still in the grey zone between wanting to live and be happy and wanting to disappear into the universe. I want to say hello one day and I hope you do too.

Josh turned his life into drumming with a passion, sharing his own struggles with anxiety, being a bright light for a lot of people. Him and Tyler have come to show us that hey, we do not have to be okay. We are allowed to hurt and to greet these emotions. 

I want you to know the following:

  • I love you
  • You matter in this world
  • The pain will pass in time, I promise
  • no matter what, you are valid.
  • I will always listen to you and be here
  • Never forget that each day is a new one

Thank you for reaching out to me, I hope that what I have shared has been somewhat helpful. You are worth more than the pain that you feel. Never let that go, feel the emotions. I love you, stay alive. One day at a time, that is all you can do.


Originally posted by jxhslerclxque

yuggum  asked:

I just found out all my friends are going to a different high school than me and i know nobody where im going and i want to die (nr) and i dont know what to do. Im really socially awkward so im kinda stressed. HELP! (P.S. What other kpop groups do you stan male/female?)

my love i am so sorry!!! i wish i was at school with you so i could be with you! i have had to change schools 3 times but i promise it will all work out!!! dm me if you want!! i am here to talk to if you want :)

and my top groups are

  • got7
  • nct
  • twice
  • monsta x
  • blackpink
  • pristin
  • seventeen
  • day6

i listen and know A LOT of groups but those are some of my favs

my ult bias is Winwin from NCT :)

Originally posted by jaesbum

  • aight so who’s willing to bet that if genji still has hair he dyes it neon fucking green 
  • one night zenyatta just just goes to see genji because no one’s seen him all day and he just finds him with his head covered in tinfoil
  • zenyatta’s really confused for a minute before he remembers that some humans think tinfoil keeps aliens away
  • genji, meanwhile, still hasn’t said anything
  • zenyatta’s just “are you attempting to ward off the aliens?” 
  • genji looks appropriately alarmed for a minute before he just starts laughing
  • “something like that”
  • the next day genji’s hair is just neon green
  • hanzo smiles a little bit and even if he’ll never admit it he has to stop himself from reaching out and ruffling it
  • his hair gets caught in his visor and it matches and it’s hilarious 
  • MEANWHILE zenyatta thinks this is perfectly normal and one day he just paints his head green because of course that’s a natural hair color 
  • he goes to talk to genji and of course he’s totally chill because this is normal and genji just fucking wheezes 
  • zenyatta’s a little worried he’s going to overheat 
  • they let him float around like that for four fucking days 
  • in short they’re all assholes except zenyatta 
  • he just wanted hair guys
BANGTAN reacting to you playing with their hair.

Hi! Can you do a BTS reaction where the boys react to you playing with their hair?


Would ask what you were doing, but doesn’t tell you to stop though.

“Y/n? What are you doing?”

“Can’t you feel what I’m doing?”

“Okay, just don’t ruin my hair”

Originally posted by jjks


Wouldn’t even mind or notice, I think, because he likes it. Even when you would stop he’d tell you to continue, except for when he fell asleep.

“No y/n, where are you going?”

“To grab a drink. Why? Do you want something?”

You ain’t going no where.” *pulls you back*

Originally posted by yoongijae


He would be very very flustered and shy, but he will definetly find it so so cute.

“Omg, y/n stop.”

“Do you really want me to stop?”

*shyly shakes his head* “No.” *would smile the rest of the time*

Originally posted by myloveseokjin

Rap Monster:

He’d be okay with it, but shy. Eventually he’ll fall asleep and mutter sweet words about you.

“Joonie? I’m going to get a drink do you want anything?”

“No, please continue for five minutes. I love you, jagi.”

Originally posted by yoonkooks


He would already be asleep when you wake up and start playing with his hair. When you accidently woke him up, he blushed and rested his hand on yours, and talk to you with a raspy voice.

“I love you y/n, you know that right?”

“ Myeah, I know. I love you too.”

Originally posted by bwipsul


He would giggle so much when he woke up and would want to do the same thing to you, so you let him but he definetly fuck up your hair.



“Stop it, right now!”

Originally posted by jinkooks


This boy would enjoy it so fucking much he wouldn’t want you to stop. While watching anime when you had to go to the bathroom he stopped you.

“But I need to pee, Kookie.”

“Just go later.”

Originally posted by bwipsul

here’s a long list of random prompts

-”hey dude? can you do me a favor and show me where i asked”
-”….spiders. of course it’s spiders.”
-”how the hell do you find anything in this place?”
-”what the hell is in your pants?”
-”you want me to go get what now
-”there’s no way in hell im working with HIM”
-”so you’re telling me, that out of all of our options right now, that is the plan you wanna go with?”
-”im sorry, what was it you said about vehicular manslaughter?”
-”it’s not stealing if he deserves it”
-”im sorry do you wanna repeat that
-”im not drinking that”
-”for the hundredth time, no
-”now is NOT the time for a selfie!”
-”that’s sick. how could anyone do that” “(just did That)….”
-”is planetary genocide really the answer here?”
-”yeah, about that…”
-”im sorry, but that’s pretty fucking cool”
-”that was the weirdest, scariest, most awesome experience of my life”
-”do i have to?”
-”i’ll wear whatever i want, thank you.”
-”dude are you okay? you look like you’ve got the plague”
-”this is fine, right? it’s probably fine”
-”how was I supposed to know that?!”
-”I didn’t know that was flammable..”
-”you’re kidding, right?”
-”we started at the bottom and somehow we’ve managed to sink even lower”
-”who the hell are you
-”this is a bad idea. this is absolutely a bad idea”
-”guys, maybe we shouldn’t go to this incredibly dangerous place- and you’re already gone.”
-”you can’t expect me to forgive you”
-”maybe i can’t hide, but i can sure as hell run”
-”you can’t just waltz back into my life like nothing happened!”
-”get out
-”is that blood?”
-”do i even want to know what happened?”
-”how the hell did you think that was a good idea?”
-”shut up, Satan”
-”i got my masters for this…”
-”im not supposed to be here
-”you can torture me all you want, i’ll never talk”
-”you’ll have to get through me first”
-”it’s my job to die for you. stop interfering with my work”
-”yes, im his guardian, unfortunately” 
-”well, you see, what had happened was-”
-”what the hell is that noise
-”you’ll never take me alive”
-”that’s the dumbest shit ive ever heard. let’s do it.”
-”i can’t believe you did that”
-”it’s a long story that involves a lot of blood, a couple squirrels, and one hell of a headache”
-”its dangerous” “but it’s so cute
-”have i ever told you how much I hate your guts?”
-”you ruined me.”
-”you’ll pay for that”
-”you can take everything, my possessions, my life, but please, dont take her
-”i’ll come back for you, i promise”
-”hate is such a strong word, i prefer extreme dislike
-”stop pretending to be a hero”
-”I may be a villain, but even i have standards”
-”forget the goddamn mission!
-”Im not doing this for you, im doing it for me.”
-”stay out of this
-”the devil is an asshole”
-”you got a problem with that?”
-”if you hurt them, so help me-
-”what is your damage
-”first of all, ow
-”…i forgot what i came here for”
-”are you sure it’s safe?”
-”thanks, i have anxiety”
-”sorry, but im not on the menu tonight”
-”you threatened who
-”if i wasnt incredibly happy to see you i’d kick your ass”
-”you owe me for that”
-”fuck off ghost!”
-”what kind of horror movie shit is this?”
-”oh, paranormal activity. my favorite
-”we were so goddamn close!”
-”permission to speak freely? that’s fucking stupid.”
-”how come everytime I turn around, you’re blowing something up?”
-”where did you get that
-”don’t look at that!”
-”who gave you permission to be here?”
-”hypothetically speaking-”
-”shut up you fucking nerd”
-”okay- who invited the bear?”
-”you won’t be laughing soon”
-”jeez, talk about a weird hobby”
-”dont you find that just a little suspicious?”
-”you won’t have to worry anymore”
-”i’ll take care of it, once and for all”
-”is there anything you wouldn’t do for money?”
-”fuck your eyebrows”
-”you’ve been playing this game for how long
-”could’ve went a bit smoother, but it still worked”
-”hey, we’re alive right?”
-”you didn’t bring me along for just my good looks”
-”how are you so confident about everything?”
-”oh yeah? if like to see you do better”
-”that’s not how this works! that’s not how any of this works!”
-”why are there so many dogs” “why not”
-”first of all, you ignored my dog in a bee costume, so fuck you. second of all-”
-”are you flirting with me?”
-”why do i find that hard to believe?”
-”why must i suffer”

I am going to break, some time soon, im not sure when but I do know that my mind is almost saturated in all the shit, when I do I really hope you realise what you have fucking done to me, I hope you finally realise that what you do has consequences
this is why hiveswap excites me

When hussie actually fuckin gives it to us, all the big gamers will do lets plays and people will watch and want to go play and you cant fully understand the game and the references in it without reading homestuck first so those people will go and read homestuck. It will become popular again. there will be a whole new generation of fans. theyll go lurk on youtube and find all the broadway karkat songs and we’ll have hundreds of newbies screaming the lyrics to karkalicious at cons. theyll go make their own cosplays and maybe now we can have more than 50 homestuck cosplayers at con meetups. theyll all go through the bucket joke phase. theyll start saying gog and jegus. theyll all swoon and drool over karkat and have fights about whether gamzee and eridan were bad characters or not. theyll all go look for faygo and tab in their local stores. we’ll have a whole new generation of homestucks doing what we used to do and im so excited for the wave of nostalgia for the 2012 homestucks who went through the first wave of it

but what excites me the most is that there will be even more new homestuck artists, fansongs, cosplayers, inside jokes, and more. there will be MORE. ntm theres gonna be new stuff relating to hiveswap too, so twice the new content from fans!! idk this stuff just really excites me because i came in late, april 2015. i missed the time when homestuck was popular. now ill finally get to experience it and it makes me so happy

hiveswap will be the homestuck fandoms resurrection i can feel it. itll be alive and well again :D

What each instrument says the most
  • Oboe: I bought shot-glasses and cigarette paper this weekend.... NO IT'S FOR MY OBOE I SWEAR
  • Flute: Yeah, she said she was going to do the Chaminade too. Looks like we'll have two people playing the concertino for the solo show this year, or there's always murder, you know
  • clarinet: It's my reed. Hold on I'll get another one out... also if another person asks me to play the mozart clarinet concerto i'll slap a bitch
  • Bassoon: could you scoot over a bit? I need more space to lean my bassoon... My posture is just fine, THANKS
  • Saxophone: shit. i still have my neck-strap on don't I?
  • Drums: Is the snare on? GOD, who turned the snare off again?! AND! Where the frickity frack are my sticks?
  • timpani: i gotta tune the timpani. hold on
  • trumpet: i hate partial jumping practice so much
  • trombone: Do you want to hear my gliss?
  • tuba: i literally play four notes the entire piece..,.
  • horn: look i don't know why we stick the hand in the bell. don't ask. it's just how it is
  • cello: yeah my cello cost 13,000 and my bow is custom made, so it's like 6,000 and my new case which is shock absorbent, fireproof and waterproof cost like 7,500
  • viola: I know we're trying to play louder it's the loudest i can get i know i know i'm so sick of pizzicato accompaniment give me a break please
  • violin: um I can't see the concertmaster's bowings from back here... yeah i know i can watch the person in front of me im not stupid it's just...
  • double bass: how the fuck am I supposed to carry this thing through the door? Hey, can you hold it open for me
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Summary: Punk!Phil introduces pastel!Dan to his friends, and he has a great reception. (thanks for the internet dating/meeting of friends prompt from an anon!)

Genre: sin

Word Count: 4.1k

Includes: voyeurism (truth or dare style!), praisekink!dan, short!dan, online relationship/meeting for the first time, and a bit of spooning at the end for an anon who wanted it

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“so dogs do have breakfast.” -cas probably

(inspired by cas taking crowley’s words relating to a dog’s breakfast quite literally like the precious cinnamon bun that he is)

  • Me: *doesn't fuck up too much*
  • Me: wow, am I getting better or what? Whoo this is great!! Fuck you ADHD I can do whatever I want!
  • ADHD: hey there buddy chum pal friend buddy pal chum bud friend fella bruther amigo pal buddy friend chummy chum chum pal i don't mean to be rude my friend pal home slice bread slice dawg but i gotta warn ya if u take one more diddly darn step right there im going to have to diddly darn dysfunction and wowza wouldn't that be a crummy juncture, huh? do yuo want that? do wish upon yourself to come into physical experience with a crummy juncture? because friend buddy chum friend chum pally pal chum friend if you keep this up well gosh diddly darn i just might have to get not so friendly with u my friendly friend friend pal friend buddy chum pally friend chum buddy...
  • Me: *internal screaming*