also idk but it really took me long to write this and it’s so short….. omg kill me
‘Perfect. Fucking perfect.’
[Y/N] was going to be late. Thanks to her alarm. She knew that shit is going to broke sooner or later and she didn’t do anything about it.
She would’t even care but today was Monday and her first class on Monday was English.
She despised her English teacher. He was an asshole. Always making rude comments about her and the other girls.
‘[Y/L/N] why do you look so sad? Smile, kid! You look so pretty with that smile!’
‘[Y/LN] what’s with that stupid smile? You’re supposed to read something!’
He was so annoying.
[Y/N] realized she’s already late anyway, so why should she bother? She wanted to have a proper breakfast.
After doing her morning routine she grabbed a backpack, keys and left the apartment.
Ugh. It was snowing.
As she peacefully walked on the iced streets of Gotham, she checked the time and she couldn’t believe herself. This is what you get when you “shouldn’t bother”.
[Y/N] was going to be late. Again. Toher second class.
So she did the only think she could think of.
When [Y/N]’s feet met the slippery bridge, she didn’t slow down. She knew it was very risky but she could’t be that late, she would be in trouble!
She thought she’s going to be just fine because she was already in the middle of the construction but oh boy, how naive she was.
Then she was running and now she wasn’t.
Her face was in the snow..
Yes, she slipped.
[Y/N] groaned and was about to start getting up but she heard a laugh.
Quite maniacal one.
It was a male, he sounded young. She didn’t want to see him, she was to ashamed to show him his face.
It was obvious that her fall looked hilarious but seriously, she could have hurt herself!
Now she was mad at this guy.
Still too embarrassed to get up though.
So poor [Y/N] laid there until she heard the person walking away still giggling a little.
‘Wow. What an asshole.’ She thought and finally stood up.
She arrived to school after her English class. She made it right on time.
At least she didn’t have to confront her teacher.
Classes passed by very quickly, thanks to [Y/N]’s five friends.
They were supposed to grab something to eat and go to the movies. [Y/N] loved cinema.
As the laughing pack left the building they heard an explosion and people screaming. Just around the corner.
“What was that?!”
“I don’t know, let’s check it out!”
‘Very fucking smart..’ Thought [Y/N] but didn’t say anything.
Now while walking in the direction of even louder screams she seriously wanted to say something. It really wasn’t a good idea to go there, now with everything happening with Jerome Valeska being alive and his cult–
–And the penny drops.
‘That laugh. It was him!’
When running people started to pass them by she stopped in her tracks.
“Okay guys, this is very stupid of us. We really shouldn–”
“My, my, what do we have here?” Somebody cut her off.
The group slowly turned around to meet Jerome Valeska, in the flesh, standing there and smiling madly at them.
‘Oh no…now we’re screwed’
As they stared at him, too afraid to run, a school bus pulled up.
Those lunatics. Those lunatics from his cult were in this bus.
[Y/N] could’t take a good look from her position but it seemed like all of them were ugly men with clown make up on their faces, holding weapons.
Jerome started to laugh darkly as he saw the fear in their eyes.
“Come on children, the bus is hereee! Now, get in or..” He targeted his gun at them.
Scared pack could only nod, expect [Y/N].
“Alrighty then…” She spoke, wanting to play it cool. She didn’t want to give him satisfaction of her shaking in fear.
All of her friends were already in the bus, probably sobbing and not knowing what to do.
[Y/N] really wanted to save her ass, so she started to think about the plan.
The moment she was about to step into the bus, passing Jerome, [Y/N] flirtatiously smiled at him, kinda praying he’s not gay. Her plan was to use her looks to save herself. She didn’t expect anything just yet, she didn’t even have a full plan, it was all so spontaneous.
When their eye contact broke she heard him say “C'mere, Angel.”
A little shocked [Y/N] skipped to him and gave him a small smile.
She felt him put an arm around her waist.
“We can’t let you fall and hurt yourself again, can we?”
Now she was sure it was him laughing at her earlier. Douchebag.
[Y/N] only nodded as she let him hold her waist and sensing him entering the bus right after her.
Then she felt somebody hitting her head with something hard and she fell straight on the bus floor knocked out.
“Rise and shine, Beautiful..” A hot breath on her ear was present as she started to wake up.
Her vision more clear now, so she could see she’s been lying on the hard floor, and noticed the Ginger hovering over her.
She whined because her head hurt like hell.
Jerome’s face softened as he caressed her cheek.
“I’m so sorry about it, Doll. That idiot who did that to you is already dead.”
He helped her to stand up and took her to another room of wherever they were.
What [Y/N] saw before her was absolutely terrible. Her friends tied to the chairs, crying in pain. Three psychos torturing them.
When they saw Jerome coming in, they left the room one by one, still laughing.
“Alrighty!” He shouted smiling widely at her almost lifeless friends and then turned to [Y/N].
“Listen [Y/N]..” She wasn’t even surprised he knew her name.
“When I saw you for the first time.. I knew you were just like me. Different. What I’m saying is, join me. You can be my queen of hearts. Well, more like of my heart. I know you feel the same about me, Doll Face.”
Okay, this is crazy. [Y/N] wanted to play with his mind and make him think that she likes him because she wants to be alive. Nothing wrong with that.. but she wasn’t prepared for something like this, for God’s sake. It’s not her fault nobody ever loved Jerome this way. Or at all.
What is he gonna do to her friends?!
“What about my friends?”
“Thought you’re not gonna ask! That’s the funny part, Darling!”
“You’re going to kill ‘em! Bang! You don’t need ‘em do you?! I’m everything you need!”
[Y/N] forgot how to speak English. She started to pray this is all a cruel joke or better - a nightmare.
“Are you crazy?! I’m not doing this!”
“Yes. You. Are.” She could tell he was angry.
He pushed a gun into her hands.
“You’re doing this, Lovely. Now.”
She targeted the gun at them, shaking like mad. She didn’t want to do this.
“Pull the trigger.” He hissed.
Too many emotions. [Y/N] was so nervous she started to sob, look on her friend’s faces not helping at all. Hopeless like they were expecting her to do it..
Now Jerome was seriously annoyed and bored.
“Guess I have to kill all of you now…”
He shot her friends in the head and dropped the gun. He took out his knife and just as he was about to hop in her way–
–There was a shot “GCPD! You’re surrounded!”
And then she realized. She didn’t even flinch. She still had a gun pointed at their direction. She was too shocked to do anything.
This is so stupid.
“Amazing job, Honey!”
He did it on purpose.
One month later, Arkham Asylum
‘’[Y/N]! How is my favourite inmate doing?” said Jerome, squeezing her hard.
She pushed him off and didn’t say anything.
“Awww, c’mon Baby, you can’t possibly be still mad at me? I did it for our love!”
Great. Now she was stuck with him in this crazy place.
Ok tako hell manager again ! Sorry it’s really long the short story version at bottom. (TLDR?)
So normal I’m just an opening manager, I barely work with any cashiers and I’m usually off Sundays. Lately, I’ve been working Sundays (nbd , right? ) im only 20. Been a manager since I was 18, so I usually am pretty chill with my cashiers since they’re close in age to me so I get it.
But, this one girl let’s call her A is so disrespectful, does not do her job and when asked she refuses.
The other day, I put her on drive thru because I knew she wasn’t going to clean the lobby. So, with my job you HAVE to say certain things to customers, ex; is everything on your screen correct?.. A refuses to say half the stuff she’s supposed to. I repeatedly ask her “A, remember to ask if the order is correct please” all day long. She wouldn’t. She kept messing up orders because she was on her phone. I would be on the line making food and she’d start washing her hands and putting gloves on saying “Ima wrap stuff for you” ?? I’d tell her no, I need you in drive thru now.
So it finally got almost time for her to go it was like 4:15-4:30 she was off at 5.I said “hey before you go can you please take care of the lobby and do the boxes for me?” She did it, no problem. She still had time left on her shift so I asked if she could go clean the parking lot.
Me: Hey, one more thing could you go clean the parking lot for me?
A: there isn’t any trash out there.
Me: um.. yes. There is. *points at all the trash in parking lot* could you please?
A: I just did all that stuff and now you want me to go outside and clean in the cold? My nose is running.
Me: yeah all that stuff you did, was your job. So yes, can you please go sweep for me?
I start to close out her register and doing other things, I notice she’s STILL not outside sweeping. You know where she is? ON THE LINE. MAKING FOOD. she isn’t even ALLOWED to do that! She’s a cashier! I was getting kinda annoyed at this point. I said “a, please go outside and sweep for me please.”
She finally does it. It’s 4:55. I said “ok thank you for today. You can go ahead and clock out.
a; it’s not 5 yet?
M; um.. it’s 4:55 you’re finished everything I need you to clock out please.
A: no, Im getting my hours. I’m not clocking out.
We bickered back & forth for a bit and I just gave up. She stood there for 5 minutes waiting for two THEN clocked out. As soon as she left I changed her timeclock to 4:55 because she didn’t do anything for 5 mins.
Before I even started working with her, my store manager warned me she doesn’t like doing her job.
Should I have written her up for being disrespectful all day? Was I too nice? Do I need to be stricter?
I don’t want to be a mean manager, I know I’m not at work to make friends, but I don’t want to be THAT manager ya know? Cause I used to be a cashier, I know how it is.
-cashier wasn’t doing job, very disrespectful all day and basically stole company time.. I didn’t write her up but I should have.
hey im proud of u for making it through another day. even if u feel like you didn’t do anything productive u still made it through which is more than enough. u faced today and kicked it’s butt. that’s incredible. let’s try it again tomorrow.
so like the other day i was gonna fast but i also had to take xanax so i took it in sehri like 5 minutes before the closing time and like after the azan and stuff it took me about 10 minutes to start praying and omg my brain was so calm????there was literally no distraction???? so this is how you neurotypical’s brains are???there was no buzzing noise in my head??? no thoughts at all?? i was only focusing on the prayer?? i didnt have to fight with all my might to focus on the prayer?? it was the best prayed i had ever prayed???also im so fucking angry because now i realise how big of a mess my head is and how much energy i use every day to just focus ???like if you think that way none of my prayers should be accepted because im so distracted??im so bitter and also v angry at my brain? i wish i never found out how it is like to be focused ?because it made me realise how bad my brain is on focusing ?also i tried it again today like i took xanax before fajr and went for wudhu but i think i missed the 5 minute calming time because i was just sleepy and numb ..honestly i will do anything to experience that calmness and quietness again even its for just 5 minutes
Viki 😩😩😩😩😩 I work in over the phone customer service and I just hung up the phone ordering pizza by saying "is there anything else I can assist you with today?" I'm crying 😩😩😩
kjsdfklsd iMsorry for laughin but also like,,,,,au where even works as u and isak is ordering a pizza but even does That and isaks like. “???yea not hangin up??” and so he tries to call again but another person picks it upand even overhears the order and he’s runnin to the phone likE “hOLD ON can u just.” and takes the phone and the person is like ……what are u DOIng, and evens like “hey, sorry, im the person that hung up on u i didnt mean to ,fuck” and isaks like “its…okay, dude. that was just weird” and even laughs nervously “yeh,idk how i did that”then smirks “mustve been ur too distracting sexy voice” and isaks like “um. i dont rmbr callin the sex hotline” and evens like “no i..im.” and isaks like really confused but is tryin so hard not to laugh. then evens like “yeah. do u want any extra toppings?” and isak finally lets out a laugh bc REally?. and evens like “nOT Like THAT” and isaks like “mhm, wouldve loved to see u on top of a pizza though” and evens like “…..do u” and isak frowns, “can u actually do that” and even shrugs then realizes isak cant see him, “never tried. but i would hate to get my clothes messy” and isak snorts, “u’d have to be naked then” and even gASPS ,”i dont rmbr working at a sex hotline” and then its silent, isak is biting his lips with a wide grin. the person next to even is just like dude??finish it. so evens like “so. thats it? ur order. the pizza.” and isak chokes out a yeah then before even could speak he says “no wait. actually….ur number would be nice” and even is goin to fAINT but he tries to play it cool “yeah, okay” and after he gave it to isak ,isaks like “i’ll text u. u cant hang up accidentally that way” and even is about to argue but then he just blows air out his nose and they say their goodbyes,and the first text from isak is a picture of the pizza and isaks saying “wouldve looked better with u on top”
I don't know if this is even appropriate to be messaging you but I feel like Tumblr is my only outlet. I just suddenly feel like im tired of living and the thing is I have NO REASON to feel so. I actually am happy with where am I today in life but I just am feeling tired of everything if that makes sense. I am extremely sorry for this depressing message but I felt maybe someone on tumblr might offer a perspective and make me not feel as crazy as I do haha
Anything is appropriate, we don’t have to always chat PLL. When you say that you’re tired of living, that scares me. Please please please take care of yourself and if Tumblr is your only outlet, know that you are loved and respected here. Many people may not realise this, but I get excited when I get new messages. Yes I turn over around 150 to 200 per week, but still, every individual message excites me. So, when I see a new message from you, especially you, a long time follower, I do get excited. Of course I recognise your name when it pops up! I only bring this up because I want to emphasise that you are welcomed, appreciated and well respected here.
That’s great that you’re happy with where you are in life! I am too. I have great friends, I love what I’m studying, I’ve been going to the gym every day, etc. But you know what, amongst all that, I still understand how you feel. It’s a basic human emotion: laziness. And I don’t say that in a bad way. Everyone gets lazy! It’s totally normal! Honestly, people must be lying if they say they never get lazy. I’m happy with where I am, yet I get lazy everyday! I take shortcuts in things, heck, sometimes I’m too lazy to even go see my friends… an activity that makes me happy. Think about that… sometimes, I’m too lazy to be happy! Actually, perfect example, tonight my friends asked me to go out to dinner with them. I said no, sorry, I already have plans. Truth is, I’ll probably just go to the gym for a bit, come back and relax on the couch. I can’t be bothered! So, I really get you and I think those feelings of being tired of things is normal. You really are not the only one. I still am worried that you say you’re tired of living. Please remember to continue using Tumblr as an outlet. You’re always welcomed and appreciated here and with time, you’ll find more outlets.
I hope none of this came across as “me me me”. I know I shared a bit about myself, when really this message is about you, but I had to talk about myself to emphasise just how normal those feelings can be. And hopefully, as you say, make you feel less “crazy” (which you’re evidently not)! Always happy to chat more :)
Have you ever felt once that taking your life will fix everything you’ve destroyed?
Have you thought once that shutting everyone out of your life will make things easier?
Did you feel one that it is too late to ask for forgiveness and repent for it?
Did you ever ask yourself the true meaning of friendship or forgiveness?
Koe no Katachi, a 2016 animated movie created by Kyoto Animation, revolved around these questions. Another work of a genius!
To be honest, I shed a few drops of tears for this film (specifically, the ‘asking for forgiveness part of the adults’. I wouldn’t elaborate but you’ll get it once you watched it), and it didn’t make me cry as hard as when I saw Kimi no na wa, but it doesn’t mean it is less great than the other. The storyline is superb and the characters too. Relatable, so I cannot say I hate ‘this’ or ‘that’ character.
But, take note, my little sister who have read the manga commented “It didn’t even end that way”, meaning, they’ve modified something in the movie. I am honestly lazy to read anything today so, do not ask me.
But, that said, it is still a must-watch movie for those who want drama and a slice-of-life story. It made me reevaluate how I handle things in life so, I hope it’ll help you somehow with something too.
Oh! And KyoAni, another movie nicely done. Good job!
its ok. you arent obligated to do anything for them today, you dont have to spend time with them today, you dont even have to talk to them today, and if you do any of these things anyways thats your choice and its ok to, and if theres any reason youll be forced to do these things anyways, its ok to do what you have to do to stay safe and im sorry its like this right now.
things are going to be ok.
i know everywhere is telling you to appreciate mothers today but if your mother has been abusive to you its alright and you dont have to.
you know what other things are today? National Buttermilk Biscuit Day and National Dance Like A Chicken Day. its ok to celebrate those instead if you want to take your mind off of it being mothers day. itll be alright
so work was bad yesterday and this happened and i just had to tell u guys somewhere im sorry im scremaing???
yesterday i watched three men die because one man sneezed in a room full of blood and shit and light.
no. it gets worse.
today 3 more go in and theyre holding these like super cheap mops, like this place cant afford anything better. it just made me fucking depressed like i don’t even get union pay and u make me use these mops??? like what????
. Yesterda, I watched a man I admired just like shot. because he left some chick a flower. like im literally screaming rn how can you do that?? all it was was like?? a flower and u shoot him?? im??
Today, she doesn’t remember, and three halls down I can hear her screaming. (Im literally screaming rn))
and then the day before that i watched a group of soldiers like… they have to like shoot their own coworkers because of zombies and i was like wtf how is this real??? bjut its real i watched it if you dont believe me!1!!
. Today, we test another sample, this time on children. im criyng
so then like another day last week, as if this isnt’ bad enough,, I watched five men and women gunned down in an abandoned factory no one cares about. (I know no one cars about it b/c i was there okay,,, i saw,,)
Today, it happens again and again. Every eleven seconds. Forever. ((9(can u imagine???))0
and like to top this all off it just keeps piling up., I watched a man sit comfortably in a nice armchair, sipping scotch and laughing as he ordered a woman to simply stop breathing and then today he gets the day off of work detail for good behavior like what?? is wrong with this place???. I watched hundreds of ppl in orange jumpsuits herded like animals into empty rooms that filled with gas and firebut then the next day hundreds more are told they have a chance for a lighter sentence, and a chance to serve their country (lmfao rite) like what?? does that add up??? no it does not .
so then like all this got to me in my mind and i was like okay this needs to stop. theres no way im the only one that sees like how fucked up all this is?? so i told my coworker, i took them to the side in the break room and i whispered in their ear and i was like look, yesterday i watched the world nearly die in a thousand thousand terrible ways. sometimes we would have had the time 2 scream. ive gotten used to it okay?? today u and i are alive to write about it.
and like they woldn’t listen to me they were like fuck u ur not the ethics committee i dont care. so i blocked them . ,
but here’s the thing like????? you want happy endings???? fuck you honestly???? they dont happen here like. You’re alive to read it. isnt that good enough. god help us all honestly
so then heres the thing, this morning in the break room i was like, i told that to my coworkers to try to get them to see my side and they all listened and i was like holy shit im a martyr. so then i said really loud i was like “secure. contain. protect” and they all like nodded b/c they agreed and i felt better u know??? like im glad i could move these ppl. then the whole break room clapped
ah god this whole elias and the fight thing has got me high strung because elias has been framed from the get go as the main player, he’s framed as the main figure during the fight and then he’s the one sana brings up when she talks about the fight, and with elias apologizing you’re first thought is about the fight, but it’s all just a little too obvious if it actually was elias that started it/hurt isak right? i’ve been thinking for a while that elias’s involvement has more to do with what’s going on with him personally than anything against isak (and/or even) and with isak’s hint today “he didn’t beat me up” im more inclined to think elias didn’t hurt isak but that something else made him get involved
everyone probably said this already but holy shit. henrik is so fucking talented i’m in constant awe???? in today’s clip there was SO MUCH he transmitted with only a few looks?? the way even softens the exact second he starts talking about the boys was so so important to our understanding of the scene and what might have happened between them
ugh i just need henrik to know he deserves all the awards and that we will do everything in our power to ensure that he gets them
i am trying to fast today but i cant focus on my homewokr in the slightest and i think i have to eat something. godddddddd i hate it so much that i cant let myself eat like i CLEARLY need to but i just cant. do. it. and when i give in and feed myself i just hate myeslf even more!!!! DAMN IT!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!
I am in a slump. There’s literally no other way to word it, its a slump. I came home today from my parents’ and spent two hours sitting by myself growing more and more extraordinarily uncomfortable. The longer I sat the less I wanted to do but the fact I wasn’t doing anything was tormenting me because I wanted to do something.
im going to continue under the cut to save the dash from a long post.