im nervous about posting this

gwartooth  asked:

sneks sneks i saw a post abt how theres like a Different Feeling for bisexuals when they crush on a dude vs a girl and since ur my local pan friend i wanted to know if u also felt like tht! o: i mean i know ur not like The Spokesperson but.. shrug emoji :'3

I have re written this post many a times haha.

The thing about talking about pansexuality is that it can be confusing for people. I used to go by bi exclusively, then I started using pan because I found the pan definition applied more to me. But I found it hard to explain to people because, a lot of the time, people assume bi encompasses everyone. Like, “you like men and women, what else is there?” and sometimes, when I’m in a space I’m uncomfortable in, I am guilty of just using the term bi to define myself because it cuts the answer short and then I can move on (I use queer a lot too but sometimes the term queer can raise more questions and there are places or people I just Dont Wanna) But, theres more to being pan, for me. I don’t know anyone else irl who is pan, and I have little experience with how other pan people feel but, when I saw this post I could relate in a way. 

From my experience with bisexual people, they often had this thing. Like, i saw what I believe was the same post you are talking about and someone had tagged it with “when I like a dude i feel it in my gut but when i like a girl i feel it in my chest” or something like that. I have found that, with the bisexual people I have talked to (so this doesn’t necessarily apply to all bi people), there is that disconnect. That very Different Feeling when liking one gender vs another (often times girls vs. boys), which is a very valid way of feeling and not in any way a Bad Thing. When I was in high school this was what I went with but, after a while, I realized that I did not feel this structured disconnect? I was not approaching people of different genders I liked differently (approaching being both physically and mentally addressing my attraction for them), I was not finding I had a type for boys and a type for girls, I was not finding that these feelings were, at all, different. And then I got to college and realized that gender is, indeed, not a binary that got young me thinking a lot too and one day I was like, if I like you then I like you. And it was kinda, wonderfully simple in a complicated way?? And, yeah, dating different people is gonna be different in obvious ways because if I’m with someone masculine presenting I’m seen as straight and if I’m with someone feminine presenting then Im seen as a lesbian and other things that come with being with different genders, but the way I feel about people is so strongly unique to that person, regardless of any of that, that I can’t find any labels or physical types or preferences in me. 

I mean, I have a type as far as being a human being goes (like being nice to me, being hygienic, smells good, being passionate about stuff, liking similar music or willing to share music, maybe you can cook because that is a deff plus, you know? non-gendered stuff) and there are absolutely people out there that I do not find physically attractive like, I don’t go around overwhelmed by how much I wanna bang every living person. But I have no gender specifically that I am Not Attracted To and I have no set feelings for set genders. I can understand the “i feel this when Im attracted to this gender and this with another” but I find that its all one warm, nerve wracking, wonderful butterfly feeling and I guess thats why I drifted away from the bi label and into pan. 

Call me out if i offended anyone or used any bad language or anything like that. Or maybe you are pan and you experience it differently and you wanna talk about it, or you are bi and my experiences with bi people are very different from you, that would be cool. But this is my experience with it and I hope it made any form of sense. 

i decided to have a go at drawing these guys (this guy?) properly instead of just doodling in class. for some reason i decided to go for this artstyle - i normally only use it for hs related stuff - and i think it turned out p nice.

gonna draw the other two at some point, just gotta get the energy/motivation.

6

I’ve been watching you from the start.

I’m not sure how I feel about the new dresses. And am I right in drawing Chloe with pink in her hair? Because that’s what it looks like.

youtube

i did a t h i n G

for @raythrill and @objectionable-code

i hope you guys like it;; 

8

remember the ol days when those wooden rubber band guns were all the rage ? cryo doesnt cause hes not hip with the kids.

of course, medic thinks hes an idiot

6

john steinbeck // ジョン・スタインベック

Do You Wanna Fight?

Aries Mars:

Originally posted by mariaslittlestuff

An Aries mars is very explosive and the smallest thing will set them on a rampage, destroying everything in their path. They can be very blunt and tell it how it is, regardless of if they hurt others’ feelings. After all, they need to know the truth! They are absolutely savage and rip apart anyone that decides to cross them. This often means bridges get burnt quickly and in a rapid bush fire of anger. Unfortunately for an Aries mars, they move on much faster than everyone else. So they may try to talk to someone hours after an argument to find that person has blocked them and wants nothing to do with them.


Taurus Mars:

Originally posted by chicastrology

A Taurus Mars is very hard to anger and they take a lot of pushing to finally react but when they do, it’s time to give up. It becomes like talking to a brick wall. They refuse to listen to anyone and will only do what they want which is frustrating to people around them. Their pride and stubbornness shines and blocks their ability to even consider doing anything but saying no, to everything. Their need to control themselves becomes very apparent in situations where they are distressed or under pressure.


Gemini Mars:

Originally posted by shitthesignssay

A Gemini Mars often shows anger through acting superior or disinterested rather than aggressive. They seem to believe they are better than those who are more argumentative. Their ability to outwit any opponent often means they win fights, but only because they become unresponsive and sarcastic rather than actually having conversations. They move on very quickly but in the back of their mind, they love to think they are now more intelligent because they won a fight and will use that to their advantage.


Cancer Mars:

Originally posted by yourreactiongifs

A Cancer Mars is literally the most dramatic person you will ever meet. They are savage and go straight in for the sore point but as soon as you even slightly retaliate, they cry and act as though they have been horribly betrayed by their oldest friend and now they must live in anguish. They get defensive before they have even been accused which actually starts most of the arguments they are involved in. They seem to make every disagreement become a personal attack by everyone else onto them.


Leo Mars:

Originally posted by dragwillamgoddammit

A Leo mars has this need to be the most important person in the room and when they’re not, they throw almighty tantrums. If someone does not pay enough attention to them, they become self-conscious and moody, especially towards that person. They won’t tell you why, though. You’re just left to wonder what you did to deserve the silent treatment. They work hard for attention and when it is not received, they are personally hurt. Also very stubborn, they have a really hard time letting things go.


Virgo Mars:

Originally posted by ziwe

A Virgo mars generally isn’t aggressive but they rip you apart with their criticism that quite often becomes personal and nasty. Their anger is usually shown through complaining and cynicism. They are very prone to “just doing it themselves” rather than having to explain things to other people because they believe they are the only ones that can do anything the right way. Often, they will shut people down before they get a chance and are able to make people feel as though they are inferior which means they are avoided when anything doesn’t go to plan as those around them know they’ll be on a rampage.


Libra Mars:

Originally posted by welcometoyouredoom

A Libra mars wants drama, no matter where or who it’s coming from or involving. They are always the instigator when issues arise and love to light the fire and then run away to watch from afar. Then, when it’s all said and done, they decide to come out and mend the situation to make themselves look like heroes. Very passive aggressive to anyone that crosses them but rarely take action, instead they will talk behind peoples’ backs and spread rumors which solves nothing and in fact, makes things worse. 


Scorpio Mars:

Originally posted by i-am-a-daemon

A Scorpio Mars has an almost concerning amount of self-restraint which is even scarier than an explosive Mars sign as you can never tell what they’re thinking. They know how to not only cut deep, but leave scars for years on end. They have a very black and white outlook on life - it’s this or that. Pessimism is common and often alienates them from more happy-go-lucky people. They’re not bothered though, because anyone that sees the world in rose coloured glasses is an idiot, right? They’re able to destroy your self-worth without blinking an eye which means a lot of people tread on egg shells around them. 


Sagittarius Mars:

Originally posted by thatshortfunnygirl

A Sagittarius Mars often starts fights that they can’t finish. They rarely look at the facts properly before diving in with their opinion and then get offended if you don’t agree. They are violent when they are irritated and literally will throw a chair at someone if they’re not doing what they want. They get bored super easily and will (literally) run away if things aren’t fast-paced enough to keep them interested. If you want someone you know will always be on your side, don’t ask them, their opinions and moods can change in a flash.


Capricorn Mars:

Originally posted by orangemoons13000

A Capricorn Mars believes they can do absolutely no wrong. They are big on betrayal and backstabbing, making it unfortunate for you if you cross them because you won’t hear about it from them, you’ll hear about it when there are rumors circling about you and you’re getting the silent treatment from 4 of your friends. They seem very unenthusiastic and placid but they are very convincing when they set their mind on something. They are very calm when angry which makes it more uncomfortable for everyone because they become distant and quiet when you have upset them and it is very hard to come back from that.


Aquarius Mars:

Originally posted by etudiant-en-ph2

An Aquarius Mars is unbelievably clever but they often are bit by the “know-it-all” bug which makes them hard to converse with as they really don’t believe anyone can be on their level. They will fight back if they are forced to follow rules or requests they don’t agree with. They have a tendency to develop a god-complex and believe they are smarter, wittier and better than those around them. They become detached and disinterested when angry as if people are not worth their time which often leads people to dislike their blunt, entitled nature.


Pisces Mars:

Originally posted by 99percentskins

A Pisces Mars is endlessly fascinated by everything around them. They rarely get involved in any sort of disagreement or fight as they’re very chill and prefer the onlooker role instead. They are passionate about their opinions and beliefs and often take on a martyr role, even when there is no one going against them. It is as though they want to be defeated, so later they can prove themselves which can get on the nerves of people when they play the victim just to be redeemed.

3

FAN ART DUMP 1/3 !!
Ok, i’ll explain first why there are still parts to this dump right here. Alright, for a long time I’ve been hoping to get noticed by my idol artist here aaand today, My friends encouraged me to post the fan art I’ve made for them. I’ll be honest, Im still VERY NERVOUS about posting these;; (Especially because one of the fan piece here is a crossover between my comic and theirs, idk if they’ll allow it or anything;;) I will post the rest of the fan art i’ve made for them IF they are ok with it (because theres this mini fan version i made of their comic, the Kid n Leviathan thign, AGAIn being a crossover between mine)
So yeah, i’m still nervous here, but I hope they like this and;;;i hope they would like to see the rest of the fan illustrations i’ve made for them;;
This Fan dump is fooooor –> @z-t00n
Chris, Betty, and Aiden belong to them, and Pish belongs to me !
Im still shaking//

A Friend Of A Friend, These Strangers At The Party Never Paid

summary: “I left phone number on the bathroom stall wall and you text me about your day and your frustrations for a month & it’s really nice and cute but I still don’t know who you are” AU

words: 12.7k

warnings: smut, mentions of smoking, alcohol/being drunk, lack of imagination as far as fic titles are concerned

-

Can you believe this was meant to be 3k?? I honeslty don’t know what happened there. all I know is that I have five exams in less than three weeks that I should be revising for and instead did this. yikes I hope this was worth it. (also pray4me that I don’t fail everything) x

Also on the topic of exams the actual reason I wrote this now was bc I’m kinda not gonna be writing for a while because of Lovely responsibilities and school stuff and revision so I’m gonna leave yall with this before I’m off Working and doing fun stuff that adults do.

I hope this is ok!!

-

Dan’s halfway through skipping History when he does it.

He doesn’t know why he did it – he really doesn’t, he was just kind of bored one afternoon and happened to be carrying a Sharpie and hey, it’d just be a laugh, right? In a school like this, what’s the worst that could come out of leaving his phone number on a cubicle wall?

His pen squeaks across the pale blue paint, already tainted with curse words and penis drawings and tipp-ex and “Call _____ for a good time ;)”. He supposes the caretakers have given up with trying to cover up the graffiti – there are still thin layers of paint and chipped plaster coating every inch of the stall walls, at least showing attempted coverage, but people had just written over them, scribbles of song lyrics and “never got caught” tattooing every inch of the previously blank walls. No amount of assemblies or threats of “whoever did this-“, inserts picture of something someone had written about the Maths teacher on the hall projector, “is seriously going to pay” from the head teacher had ever stopped anyone, so, really, what does Dan have to lose? Sure, they could trace the phone number, but that doesn’t prove anything – he could just as easily throw on the ‘innocent’ act and say it was his friend.

07843983276, he writes. He doesn’t sign it off with any comment, nor kisses, not even a smiley face let alone a winking one. He just leaves it there, in a kind-of conspicuous place just above eye-level on the right hand side of the door, eleven digits amidst many others.

Keep reading

Headcanon:

Kara gets night terrors. Most of the time when people see Supergirl flying at night or floating above the city they think she must be keeping watch or that it must be because it is peaceful up there away from everything. And in a way it is. But more times then not it is an escape. It is an escape from the griping fear that haunts her sleep, but more then that it is an escape from having to face Lena’s bruises.

Kara knows she used to get night terrors when she first came to earth. Each terror filled with images of a Krypton, of her body shaking uncontrollably as the ground shuttered beneath her feet, of rock crumbling and buildings falling, and of her parents. They always talk to her, the same way they did the night she left, but in her dreams she never hears them. She can see their worried expressions and their mouths moving, but is silenced from being able to hear their voices again. It is rare that she remembered the dreams, or waking up in the middle of the night drenched in her own sweat, fear choking her. She is thankful she doesn’t remember many. What she does remember is Alex and Eliza asking her in the morning if she remembered sitting up in bed screaming, if she remembered sleep flying or sleep walking, or thrashing in bed so hard that she accidentally hit Alex and Eliza when they tried to calm her down during the first terror. She remembers the pain she caused.

Kara thought she was free of the terrors as she got older, no more rude awakenings, Eliza and Alex no longer bringing them up knowing it would just upset her, as it upset them that they couldn’t physically help her in all those moments. But after becoming Supergirl, seeing Astra again, returning to Krypton even if only momentarily, being on red kryptonite, and thinking she was going to lose Alex, they had returned some time along the way. It wasn’t until Lena was sitting on a kitchen stool in nothing but a sleep shirt that Kara noticed a large blooming bruise on the outside of Lena’s thigh that Lena told her. As Lena told her that she had had a bad dream last night, and when she tried to wake her up Kara had accidentally kicked her, Kara realized they were back.

Kneeling beside Lena, Kara brushed her lips lightly against the bruise. Kara apologized over and over hugging Lena as she hid her face in Lena’s lap her voice muffled as she said she would never hurt her again, and how lucky they were that she did not have a broken bone. Lena stroked Kara’s hair, her voice soft but strong as she told Kara that she would never have thought it was intentional. Hot tears fell on Lena’s thighs as she continued to hold a shaking Kara. Letting her calm down Lena’s fingers found Kara’s chin, pulling her up so that Kara had to look her in the eyes when she told her again that this was just an accident and that she knew Kara would never hurt her. When Kara nodded trying to lower her eyes Lena pulled her forward for a short kiss, leaning their foreheads together she stroked Kara’s cheek promising that she not going anywhere, that they would find something to help with the terrors.

3

@thehpshipsnet​ event: gtktm: @maradeur ⟶ romione

     “Good luck, Ron,” said Hermione, standing on tiptoe and kissing him on the cheek. “And you, Harry-”
      Ron seemed to come to himself slightly as they walked back across the Great Hall. He touched the spot on his face where Hermione had kissed him, looking puzzled, as though he was not quite sure what had just happened.

4

oh boy oh boy oh boy do u guys want some flower symbolism bc i sure love it

Enjolras:

  • Laurel - ambition, success (hah), renown, victory (HAH)
  • Hyacinth - flower dedicated to Apollo, rashness, sorrow

Grantaire:

  • Daffodil (single) - unrequited love, you’re the only one, the sun is always shining when I’m with you

Jehan:

  • Borage - courage
  • Baby’s breath - innocence, purity of heart
  • Aster - symbol of love, daintiness, trusting
  • Daisy - innocence, loyal love, purity, faith, cheer, simplicity
  • Sunflower - pure and lofty thoughts

Montparnasse:

  • Plum blossom - beauty and longevity
  • Orchid - refined beauty
  • Cypress - death, mourning, despair, sorrow
  • Rose (black) - death, hatred, farewell
  • Asphodel - my regrets follow you to the grave, the flower of death, the haunt of the dead