im missing you so much

Take care of him. Please.
—  To the new girl
You are tearing me inside out and I can’t stop it because I let you in the first place
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!!! I realized I never posted this here ;;o;;
These were taken back in March (when I was in Manila) :D
I was like – who wants to hang out at the mall or something lol
Then these super nice MM fans dropped by and gave me all these prints and gifts and food and kjahkjsa i was so surprised hhuhu so precious ;;o;; LOOK AT IT EVERYTHING IS SO GORGEOUS ((im so lame i only doodled a crack 707 in their notebook kjdshfs))

I brought all the prints and stuff with me here to NY and I’m gonna take proper photos when I’m done with my room (along with other MM stuff a few people have sent me as well! You know who you are heehe) :D Thank you so much hhh

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Threw around some ideas with @nerdaday and gave our favorite gals some matching bezzie mate sweaters 😖

r e s t   i n   p e a c e  //  chester bennington

this has got to be one of the hardest hits with a celebrity death i have ever dealt with. my childhood and teenage hero, my idol. we all knew you dealt with a lot growing up, and you portrayed the pain so well with your lyrics. the lyrics meant so much to us all who where going through the same pain, letting us express and realise our pain and also realising we are not alone in this world.

i remember my hybrid theory album was played so much my parents even knew the album off by heart. i would listen to that album so much, especially when i was moving around and dealing with bullying in school. meteora was definitely the album that helped me transition from country to country and helped me get through a good amount of high school. minutes to midnight helped me let out my anger and pain during the middle part of high school, when bullying was at its roughest.

i do admit, i warred off linkin park after minutes to midnight, but the album ‘a thousand suns’ was such a great album and i still listened the crap out of it, especially during my times in mental hospital. and we get to ‘one more light’ which was such a beautifully yet painful album to listen to, but really made me appreciate your music and growth, i even expressed my love and respect for you guys on the heavy mv and is now one of the top comments on the video. 

the many years of being an intense lp fan were so great. moderator for the official chester fourm, being part of the lpu, constantly on the lp official chatroom, all the linkinparktv videos and exclusive songs. it was truly a brilliant time. i’m not even going to lie that i have stopped doing all of that now, but it never stopped my love and support for you guys, even if it was more quiet compared to how it used to be from me.

hearing about your passing and suicide really hit home. it hit me hard. i never got to hear your voice live. i never got to meet you in person to thank you for being part of a band that helped me grow into the stronger human i am today, but, i hope you do realise how much of an impact you had on so many of us.

i really, really, really wished we were able to help you battle this demon that took you away from the world. depression is never a joke. behind all your dad jokes and smiles, there was a deep sadness hidden away from the world. i wish you were still here with us.

thank you so much for blessing us with your vocals, your talent, your music and your life. thank you so much. i love you so much. thank you forever. #ripchester

  • Kai: Cinder, hey. It's me, Kai
  • Kai: Uh, this is like the 200th message I've left you without a response, so...
  • Kai: If you're trying to tell me something, I do not know what it is because you won't call me back.

its been so long but im still trying to figure out how you could go from “i love you” to “i don’t care about you anymore” in such a short amount of time

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i am physically and emotionally crying he revealed his real name and identity to the summoner he trusts them THAT much AND HE VOWS…TO FIGHT FOR THEM…….AND WITH A WIDE SMILE WHILE HES AT IT IM SO…………………..

THANK YOU FOR EVERYTHING, SKAM

THANK YOU SKAM

I only started watching Skam about 7 months ago, nevertheless it grew to me so much, so fast. There are about a million reasons why I love Skam so much, but this isn´t about that.

The final Skam clip just got released, Skam season 4 has ended and, even though a small piece of me is still in denial, so did Skam.

And that´s why I want to say “Thank you” to Skam and everyone involved!


  • Thank you for the way you portrayed these amazing Characters, that we all love s deeply!
    • Thank you for leaving them what they are supposed to be: Teenager, Students with imperfections (that make them not any less perfect) and struggles – struggles of a normal teenager, who is slowly discovering himself (e.g. discovering who you are, who you love or who you believe in), but also everyday struggles (those might be someone eating your food, that you´ve been excited to eat all day or having to pass an important exam) and painful struggles (like bullying, rejections or eating disorders).                     
    • Thank you for letting us be part of their journey of growing up and seeing not only their “happy, party” side, but also the side, one chooses to keep for themselves, the “depressed, heartbroken and scared” side.
    • Another thank you goes to the Interaction between the characters. There was barely fights between the friends, no big unrealistic drama, no, they chose to rather stand up, support and help for each other, like friends.

I can´t even put into words how much I love these characters and choosing a favourite is as close as impossible.

  • Thank you for being bold and using important, yet so often ignored, topics (e.g. Islam, feminism, coming out/ being gay). So many shows choose to act as if they don´t exist or choose to stick with the stereotypes. But you, a “small” norwegian series, decided to rather take those topics and represent them with heart, passion and truth. All that representation meant a lot to me and I´m very thankful about you giving it to us!
  • Thank you for making this experience as real as possible. This starts by the cast being about the same age as their characters back to the characters visualisation (they didn´t look “flawless” 24/7, they didn´t had a wardrobe that seemed to have no ending or the perfect skin and body), over to the characters social media accounts and texts, that made you feel even more involved, and last but not least the Clipsystem, that made my life at one side stressful, because you never knew when the next clip would be dropped- but once a new one go released the excitement was even bigger.
  • Thank you to all the Actors and Actresses for always giving your very best and playing those beloved characters. Thank you for always being kind and loving to the fans, even though we might be a little overwhelming at times. You all are amazing! I wish you the very best for your future, may all of you manage to make your dreams come true and be happy.
  • Thank you to Julie Andem for creating all of this in the first place. Thank you for making Skam what it is, for putting so much time and effort in the history of these characters, in the stories and the production. Without you none of us would have ever gotten to see this great show!!
  • Thank you for these beautiful, pure couples! All of them grew so close to me and I hope the future will hold the best for all of them. I hope Evak will have a long and happy life in their small home with yellow curtains, Noorhelm will be happy and keep making each other a better person. I hope Vilde and Magnus stay happy together too and helping each other when life gets difficult and to end this with the girl it all started with: Eva, I hope she´ll be happy and finding the love she deserves
  • Besides all of this thank you for giving me, someone who isn´t from norway or another scandinavian country, the chance to see a different culture, a different language and the way people live in Norway!
  • And one last big THANK YOU to all the fans, who spent their free time with translating clips, episodes, texts and writing transcripts. Without you most of us wouldn´t have been able to watch Skam at all!!

Remember:

ALWAYS BE KIND - LIVET ER NÅ - ALT ER LOVE, ALT ER CHILL - DU ER IKKE ALENE! - PEOPLE NEED PEOPLE

TAKK FOR ALT, SKAM