im just making things to distract myself

bri-yj  asked:

How do I get over a nigga? He's so wishy washy and I know he's not worth my time and no good for me but I still want him 😓

GIRL …I find I only have time for niggas when im distracted or afraid of focusing on myself ..don’t be afraid to exfoliate and deep condition your hair and make a list of your goals and things your grateful for (you’d be surprised how much there actually is .. Eyesight to read this with for one ) file your nails take your hair out of ur face..make smoothies clean your room.. just like shit that nurtures YOU !!! Don’t feed into lower distractions . Ur worth the same attention u was finna give him for free

okay, so sometimes being closeted makes for funny stories (for me at least). so my cousin, (’m not out to him yet) asked me to find a horror movie that would make our chill ‘lil family group of 5 piss. why? because we like to s u f f e r. now. i get distracted easily, plus i had absolutely no interest in lookin up horror movies when i could be drownin myself in vld shitposts. my cousin called me out on it three times. the last time he snatched my phone and screamed “STOP TEXTING BOYS” and without really thinking about it i said “bitch. ain’t no boys” my two sisters and my other cousin fuckin laugh outright, like, to the point where they’re crying and once i realize im laughing and crying too and he’s just so confused. after that giggle fest fuckin dies down he kinda corrected himself by sayin “or girls. it’s 2017” idk yo. it was just really funny and lighthearted and just such a good interaction with my family.

anonymous asked:

please be strong, u can get through whatever it is that is making u afraid and stuff!! <3 i believe in u angel

thankyou so much nonny!! iv been working on distracting myself. tonight its just my psychosis, its really terrifying when i’m not able to tell if what im experiencing is real because of the scary/dangerous things i believe is happening :< but distractions really help and so does grounding! thankyou so much for supporting me sweetheart i hope you are having a good day/night <3 <3 i will stay strong!

anonymous asked:

hey, breathe. go wash your face if you need it. clear your room and maybe make yourself a drink and sit down. relax.

Thanks:) for the message kind anon! Dont worry im fine. I just feel cray. I need to learn to relax. Anxiety issues tend to like complicate that. I’m calm. I just seem to be really impulsive rn bc I’m just trying to distract myself…….the ‘I went out with 3 guys last week thing’ tells me that much. Work helps. I’m picking up as many extra shifts as possible and I’m rewatching Supernatural and reentering destiel hell lol. DESTIEL but hey I’m fine. Thanks for caring though:)

every night i get like this. depressed and doing anything to distract myself from… bad things. but it gets so bad and i end up just making people ignore me because im too negative which honestly makes it all hurt more

one of these days ill be successful in just logging off and staying logged off for a while so that i can slap myself back into place

my name is Rhiannon and both my parents are unemployed (have been for a long time) and it doesnt look like either of them will be getting a job anytime soon (I cant get a job either since im too young). Im really in need of money. I have a donate button on my blog and heres some reasons as to why its there

  • I need new clothing, almost nothing I have fits me and just about all of the things that do fit are close to 2 years old and have a bunch of stains/rips/holes in them
  • I really should have a few things to distract myself with when I feel the need to harm myself

  • (related to first reason) Im a trans male and I would really like to be able to buy some clothing that would help me pass off as a male, the current things i have are extremely feminine and whenever i wear them people usually make jokes about me “all of a sudden wanting to go back to being a girl” and i hate it so much it makes me feel awful
  • i absolutley NEED to go back to therapy, i havent been to therapy since early-mid last year since we couldnt afford it and since then my mental health has just gone to complete shit  

any amount of money you donate would help a ton and i would appreciate it so much!

whats it called when its night and you get kind of bored and sad with your life and you dont wanna just sit around on the computer like you wanna read books at a library, and make things, and walk somewhere, and learn things becasue ive been feeling these things too often and i need to know im not the only one