im just gonna have to do it my way

anonymous asked:

In that video, Sid moves his hands a lot and it made me think... he likes to grab geno's hand whenever they're together, maybe just waiting at the airport, and plays with geno's fingers, gently rubs his thumb over the skin between geno's thumb and forefinger. Geno is like, "Sid if u not want hold my hand don't have to.", and sid is like what? (1/2)

2/2 and geno says he doesn’t want Sid to feel obligated to hold his hand if he’s just gonna uncomfortably fiddle and Sid tells him he just likes to do that, likes the way they’re hands look together and geno has to kiss him in the cheek cause his husband’s so cute

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im ded

anonymous asked:

how do you develop self confidence? this is something i constantly struggle with and im so sick of it?? like im always comparing myself to others and im never happy with what i do and im just never satisfied? idk i just wanna stop feeling so mopey and sad and bitter and you seem like you're rlly comfortable w yourself so,, i just wanna be happy w myself tbh

i’m gonna be 100% honest: no way in hell am i self-confident. i tend to talk about this less on this blog bc i want it to be a positive space for myself and others, but basically, i have problems with my own body image / self-worth / self-confidence. i’m never satisfied with myself whether it be my looks or my achievements or whatever else it may be, and i always feel like i’m taking up too much of everybody else’s resources and time (sorta like a waste of space if u get what i mean). i also feel disconnected from everything every once in a while, and it’s so incredibly jarring.

but i’m trying to get past it by telling myself that yes, i am worth it, and yes, i do deserve to live in this world. you’re gonna have some up days and you’re gonna have some down days, but there’s no way except forwards. i’ve got no other life than this, so i might as well make the most of it.

i guess,,,, it’s sorta like lying to yourself or like a “fake it ‘til you make it” mentality, but it kinda sorta works ? it’s hard to explain, but i’ve found that by surrounding myself with positivity about myself and the people around me has helped me a lot. i’ve also been trying to stop focusing on myself and focusing my love on other things and other passions. it’s a lot easier to love others and as a side effect, i end up feeling happier + other people feel happy too. i think that’s a decent trade-off and a step towards developing myself.

and on the down days, i write. it’s a good creative outlet for me + it helps me confront my own feelings / settle down. also, it’s good to remember that we’re not perfect. we’ve got flaws and we make mistakes. in a way, social media makes it seem as though everybody is perfect and having a great time bc it allows you to filter the best parts of yourself for other people to see. either way, it’s okay to feel shitty at times; you just need to remember to pick yourself up and keep going forwards.

tl;dr: i don’t know how to develop self-confidence, but i’m picking up the pieces of myself and trying to focus on positivity and not on tearing myself down. i don’t know if it’s working, but i hope it is.

here’s a message that i answered about loving yourself that might help as well. i go back and read this reminder to myself every once in a while too.

i hope this helped, anon, and i hope you feel better ;;

the signs when they've had enough of everyone's shit:
  • Aries: *scrolls through memes on instagram* you will beg on your feet when i destroy the world one day smh *forgets the fight and hugs you 2 mins afterwards*
  • Taurus: Give me a coffee or I will write a novel and insult you all in it because im too nice to say it in your face
  • Gemini: *smiles evily and plots your death in spanish* yes Karen I love you haha :)
  • Cancer: *sighs* what can i do when i love them
  • Leo: *screams while crying* I WAS THE BEST AND YOU WILL YEARN FOR ME ONE DAY BUT I WoNT BE HERE
  • Virgo: *puts glasses on and invites you for tea* Sit down, we need to have a deep, thorough conversation and analyze all the possible aspects of the spheres of our conflict, therefore solving it properly, without further misconceptions on that particular topic.
  • Libra: Ya'll don't deserve me smh but ur all my friends and i wont do anything bad bc i love u
  • Scorpio: *sobs up* I just wanted to be supportive but y'all dont know when to stop
  • Sagittarius: *kills everyone in their way with their laser-beam eyes*
  • Capricorn: Oh look, Im sad, therefore im gonna turn off my phone, stay at home for 3 millenias and play trashy video games
  • Aquarius: *finds new friends and doesnt even give a shit about their old friends*
  • Pisces: I just need to get laid, otherwise I promise there will be casualties
  • INSTAGRAM: the.signs.daily

anonymous asked:

Wow, now Im really curious about this player 1! Its "him", right? I wondeeer how does he looks like? Maybe you can draw him? What kind of relationship you had with him? You're homosexual, right?

But… we were just friends. J-JUST friends… So I would have no idea how good of a kisser he might be. 

He looks sorta like this!!! Except he looks way cuter though. My art doesn’t do him justice, but I swear he’s a charming dude!!!

unblazing  asked:

i rr like ur art and i was wonderin how you pick out your color schemes when you draw? like do u just kind of yolo it or do u have like a thing u do lol

thank u !!! actually i already tried to explain one way i pick colors here , tho thats pretty old and only refers to analogous color schemes so… im gonna try to update it a lil bit! (btw everything ill say from this point on is just based on my own experience, im no art student and im sry if anything i explain makes no sense….!! ANYWAY moving on)

1) probably the thing i use the most are analogous color schemes bc theyre easy to do and look very calm and harmonous:

the two colors i show on the color pick thing are the ones farthest to the left and right, every other color is somewhere between them! bc of this the drawing looks calm and natural. most of the different colors u can see are created by playing around with the saturation!

2a) something i only recently started using frequently is the analogous color scheme with a highlight:

the most part of the drawing is done in analogous colors, but i added a highlight to kinda of… “break open” the closed off feeling that analogous schemes usually have! for that highlight i tend to use a higher saturated color on the other side of the color wheel, or at least one that doesnt “match” the other colors.

2b) most of the time i do the highlight not like this tho, but in the lineart:

thats a lot more subtle !

3) and sometimes i just do…..whatever lmao

i’m just drawing things out of boredom at this point?? still love these boys tho

me, aged 11: im not getting crushes on boys like my friends started to have, i must be a late bloomer, haha!!

me, aged 12: maybe i like girls a bit?? but not like in a gay way!!!! its totally platonic im still str8

me, aged 13: so im just gonna pick the popular guy every girl likes and have a crush on him…. man i feel rly uncomfortable around him and so sick to my stomach im actually gonna vomit. (do i have to want to kiss him?? ew sounds gross) HAHA Those Butterflies™ when you have a crush, amiright

me, aged 14: i dont need a boyfriend, im a feminist!!! i like the idea of romance tho……..in theory i guess??

me, aged 15: ok… like maybe im a lil bit bi??? not that ill ever come out since im probably gonna end up with a guy anyway, ugh

me, aged 16: attracted to ppl regardless of gender. that must be it!! thats why being with a man doesnt sound appealing–its supposed to be regardless of gender! im so pan!!! wow

me, aged 17: ew, i really hate the idea of being with a man. like,,, literally disgusted. so naturally, if im not attracted to men i must be ace!! thats it

me, aged 18: ok since i got that crush on that cute girl last week, i might not be ace after all????? idk im just gonna call myself queer until o figure things out. but im obviously not a lesbian HAHA imagine that

me, aged 19: hmmm sapphic seems like such a nice term. i mean i do like girls so i think this might fit me. lesbian who tho???

now, me, a lesbian, aged 20: ……..took me long enough

What’s this? A real art?! Preposterous!

Sometimes I do things that aren’t fanart! This is my art class final. We were revisiting our first unit ever, from two years ago, which was a self portrait unit.

So yes! It me face! We had to complete these in-class, and it took me about an hour.

Artwork ©: alazic02

Do not repost.

P.S. based on the full photo in this thing!

Excuse me but can Gal Gadot’s Wonder Woman please get a Jewish girlfriend.

Like very openly Jewish girlfriend who goes to synagogue for Shabbat Services every week, who keeps kosher, who debates Torah and leads a Torah study group at her synagogue.

Maybe she even is a teacher at a Jewish school. (middle or high school age)

And she and Diana will be walking hand and hand and all her students will come up to her and be like Morah so and so hi.

Jewish girlfriend with Jewish name like the sounds goyim always got trouble pronouncing.

Also like short girlfriend who gets very impassioned about Jewish history and will like just be going on about it.

And Diana got that emoji with heart eyes look.

Like Jewish girlfriend who shows Diana how to find hecsher on food and Diana will speak hebrew with her.

And they have Shabbat meals.

Jewish girlfriend where we take the stereotypes of Jewish women and spin it so it is seen as a strength and positive.

Jewish girlfriend who like hey why don’t you invite your friends from justice league over for Passover Seder.

And on Purim Diane dressup with her gf and gf is wonder woman for Purim and they crack up bc like inside joke.

And all the jewish grandma are like nu so when is the wedding

And Diana got to go somewhere for like justice league business or something so the gf is like here take some food just in case and like its a suitcase of food.

and Girlfriend is like hey lets go visit your family and like packs food bc idk diana do you have kosher food on the island

also like yes im brining my first aid kit i don’t care if you all are good at healing what if chas v'shalom something happens it is better to be prepared 

also i’m not great at healing so there is that

“Diana I just saw your fight on tv and are you ok do you need anything, are you hurt or you hungry, i’m gonna make some matzah ball soup either way and there is some roast leftover from shabbat. is there anything you want me to make. you know what i’m just gonna cook a few things just in case and what you don’t eat we can freeze or you can take back with you.

like that batman he looks like he could use a home cooked meal what with the frowning all the time and the flash he is too skinny so i’ll make some stuff for you to bring him because he needs a little meat on those bones”

basically lets give wonder woman a Jewish girlfriend please and thanks

  • me, @childhood friends to lovers trope: It doesn't always have to be like this, yanno? Like, boys and girls can be friends or even best friends for forever and not develop romantic/sexual feelings for the other. A deep meaningful relationship between guys doesn't mean they want to bang. Sometimes, gal pal really are just gal pals. Platonic relationships exist!!
  • also me, when I see fictional childhood friends: sign me the FUCK up 👌👀👌👀👌👀👌👀👌👀 good shit go౦ԁ sHit👌 thats ✔ some good👌👌shit right👌👌th 👌 ere👌👌👌 right✔there ✔✔if i do ƽaү so my self 💯 i say so 💯 thats what im talking about right there right there (chorus: ʳᶦᵍʰᵗ ᵗʰᵉʳᵉ) mMMMMᎷМ💯 👌👌 👌НO0ОଠOOOOOОଠଠOoooᵒᵒᵒᵒᵒᵒᵒᵒᵒ👌 👌👌 👌 💯 👌 👀 👀 👀 👌👌Good shit

Anxious Zombie Boy, soft edition™

sorry i haven’t been drawing as much, its probably because i foolishly bought another copy of animal crossing to make a faerie-themed town

alright im making this post im accepting the xingmi conspiracy theorist title one time only n this is that time

basically im just gonna quickly copy paste my tags from earlier and expand on that so: from an objective business point of view sm would benefit more by having yixing pull a sulli, in which he is no longer a part of the group but remains under sm management. yixing is most likely the main source and the biggest and most successful way into the chinese market and chinese money (considering THAAD now also) . he makes sm so much more money in his solo schedules than he does in the group activities, which is why sm had no problem confirming exos comeback now when they knew of yixings scheduling and they knew the conflicts with timing it would cause. having yixing in the comeback versus not having him in the comeback would not make as much of a difference money-wise, but having him attend his solo schedules and giving him a second solo album vs not doing those things would make a HUGE difference money-wise. remember that yixing is sm’s best selling solo artist, literally out of the whole company.

from a business standpoint sm want exo as ot8 and solo artist zhang yixing under their label in order to make the most money. however, this is where the situation gets messy bc yixing loves exo and is dedicated to exo so if exo ot8 and solo yixing under sm were to officially happen we’d all Know he’d been pushed out of the group by management, bc we know he wants to be with exo.

previous concerts and live stages being missed is not that big of a deal but yixing has now missed a whole full album of content, of choreo, of album promotion, of concert prep. how many new fans that come into the fandom at this point are gonna know yixing even exists. if yixing isnt in the repackage hes probs not gonna be with exo again until 2018. and then what if the same scheduling bullshit happens again? he gonna go two years without promoting with exo?

my guess is sm are not gonna make any official statements at all n just keep on promoting exo and yixing separately, making the most money, and ultimately letting yixing take most of the shit for these decisions. yixing was probably in south korea for those 3 days when exo were filming the kokobop mv so that the announcement of his absence could be made and to be pulled into meetings to discuss his second album. the announcement of his absence was made a couple of hours after he landed in sk and have u noticed he’s know being a lot more vocal abt his second album dropping soon since he went back to china?? i dont think those are coincidences tbh.

its probably going to carry on like this until we all unofficially officially Know that hes no longer in the group and is now a solo act so that when sm finally make the announcement everyone is gonna be too tired to cause a fuss. a bit like when the announcement that tao filed a lawsuit n packed up his shit was made, it had been a long time coming and we all already Knew. except this time yixing isnt gonna be leaving the company and sm have no scapegoat to pin all their blame on if they wanna keep making money off the integrity of their own artists, so they gotta tread carefully.

anyway, support the main man zhang yixing when his album drops n keep loving exo also if i see any ot8s adding their 2cents they getting blocked on sight i have no time for that nonsense bye

anonymous asked:

do u know any good supercorp fan fics

do i ever (these aren’t in any particular order, but they are all complete. i’ve got a whole separate rec list for wip fics if you want it)

  • Oblivious: kara danvers getting jealous of herself for getting to make out with lena is so relatable (lena dates supergirl to make kara jealous)
  • heroism is a full time job: who doesnt want to live with lena honestly??? (protective custody au)
  • the way we mend: domestic! incredible! im gonna cry! (fluff! fluff! fluff!)
  • exception: do u need some musings about love in your life? well ive got just the fic for u! (romance! romance! fluff!)
  • i’ll be there for you (in your darkest nights): fix-it fics have fixed my soul (fix-it fic)
  • I Always Want You: this made me ascend into another plane where everything is okay and life is Good and Nice and Gay (harry potter au)
  • inevitable: i cant believe kara just failed at inventing lying. i cant believe im kara (supergirl reveal fic)
  • when all is shaken: im the one shaken after this fic wow (hurt/comfort)
  • Something to Write About: this is most definitely something to write about (kinda social media au?)
  • Sunlit Honey and Lavender Sunsets: catch me screaming about this fic forever! oh my god! i love jess! i love this fic! aaah! (jess-centric fic!!!)
  • (Super)Man’s Best Friend: im the dog that kara just straight up randomly gives lena (dog fic!!)
  • such unruly heads and hearts: so um i lied this is the one wip on this list because honestly it Changed Me and literally invented the concept of love (harry potter au)
  • negotiations and commands: ever imagined what life would be like if we had gotten krypto in that pod? now u dont have to just imagine it (dog fic!!)
  • Her Brother’s Keeper: i literally cried more than five times while reading this. holy shit. im thinking about it and crying again (angst and fluff and Wow)
  • Did we do that?: theyre so cute! i cant handle it!! theyre s o c u t e!!!! (domestic)
  • no more ferris wheels: i hate ferris wheels too but i love this fic!! (strangers go to a carnival au)
  • Drunk Puppy: i also talk about lena’s eyes when im drunk so this fic really speaks to me (kara appears at lena’s office drunk)
  • For as Long as You’ll Let Me: i cant believe kara just invented support and comfort (hurt/comfort)
  • somewhere i have never travelled: this fic travelled straight into my heart and saved my life from canon supergirl (character study/au)
  • Don’t Let Her Go: protective cat grant? And supercorp? u better believe it!!! (love and cat grant that’s all i need to say)
  • Puppy Love: this fic? cured my depression, made me love dogs even more than i already do, watered my crops,, (dog fic!!!)
  • sun is gonna shine above: ive said this multiple times now but this fic also made me cry several times. and yes i cry a lot but seriously!! this fic!! is so good!! (supercorp with kids au!!)
  • Almost.: fun fact! lena luthor is a nerd who thinks about kissing kara 24/7 i cant believe this is canon (romance romance romance)
  • The Enchanted Florist: its so gay and so touching and i cried reading this one too (lena goes to a flower shop)
  • pain: look i know im ending a fic rec list with a fic named pain but i swear itll only pain u with how good it is (soulmate au)

screams

wopydopy  asked:

44. what do you think about when you can’t fall asleep at night? (By the way luve ur art senpai owo)

“Hmm…
How do I fall asleep?
I have my eyes closed but I’m still awake, thinking.
Heheh. I can hear my breathing.
Oh no, I know I’m breathing now…oh no oh nononononono
How I’m going to forget I’m aware of my breathing!? IM GONNA DIE NO
BUT I DON’T WANT TO FORGET, THAT’S LIKE, MAN, FORGET SOMETHING YOU’RE DOING ALL THE TIME IS NOT FAIR…
…OH NO I’M BLINKING, TOO
BLINKING WITH MY EYES CLOSED ,HOW!?
I think I’m hungry now, but my bed is warm hhhhhh…
Ok, calm down, I’m just gonna turn around…ahh, much better, so comfy.
Oh ye so I was thinking about how the heck I’m gonna fall aslee-”

And then I can’t remember nothing else,
I wake up and there’s a new morning.

That’s what I always think when I can’t sleep.

Here he isss, the poor guyyyy, he’s kinda like a lost soul. He’s got nowhere to go and no where he belongs.He’s corrupted in a why.

I forgot to put this on there but he's a bit over 8 ft, taLL-

*wakes up in the middle of the night* nathan drake and elena fisher have gone such a long way since the first uncharted they were so young and full of innocent yet wondering what the world was made of and discovering themselves a bit more after every adventure and its what they went through together that made them realize how much alike they were but also what are their limits do you remember U1 elena? idgaf if you go, im still gonna find el dorado alone if i have to elena? dying is a morning excercise elena? or U3 nate? im blinded by my obsession nate? i almost died again for a goddamn tresure nate? and in both those situation, either elena or nate was trying to reason the other and make them realize how dangerous that was and without each other theyd be DEAD but they arent because they support each other so perfectly and in the end they found a way to do what they love with just as much adventure without risking their lives and they lived happily ever after

idk im just really emotional about these two

anonymous asked:

(part 1) ur gonna roast me for this but im legit curious why mafia AUs are so bad? im asking in a non confrontational way, i get it romanticizing mafia is wrong, but i also believe that 1)most mafia AUs are a really toned down type of mafia;2)they do make for some interesting kinds of dynamics with fanart and with fics; 3)in a fic specifically u can create your own world and call something mafia and still make it so they don't kill innocent people but only idk members of other gangs or sth

(part 2) plus theyre a way to put ur charas in a completely diff context and see what theyll do. i mean i dont believe that writing ships in a certain context (like mafia) equals romanticizing that context. mafia AUs arent even my fav things to read (in fact i almost never do), im sure many ppl romanticize it and i obvs dont agree with that but im just trying to udnerstand bc i believe fandoms are a way to explore things that we normally wouldnt.

I’m not gonna roast you don’t worry xD okay wait let me check if I replied to this already if yes I’m gonna c/p because it’s half past midnight otherwise I’ll just go at it again wait *checks tags* fff obviously I don’t have a general post but anyway pls read this after you’ve done with my post and then this which is also choke-full of links. plus for a (not nice) laugh: here. AH WAIT I FOUND THE POST.

okay, so, let’s have it out of the way: I have nothing against mob aus or crime aus. I have a problem against calling them mafia AUs because in the US mafia = organized crime at large, in Italy mafia = ACTUAL EXISTING ORGANIZATIONS THAT ARE ACTIVELY HARMFUL. now that I introduced the topic I’ll c/p you the reply I gave to another anon who while discussing the issue pointed out that most writers don’t even know Italian mafia is a thing, which is pretty much on the same discourse so…

*The thing is - in the US it might not be enough of a deal anymore and I honestly do get why people make the mafia = regular mobsters, since the mafia was the first foreign organized crime being exported to the US via italian immigrants (sorry if this sounds horrible in English but I just woke up and I still didn’t have coffee) so I understand that mafia became the umbrella term.But the thing is that - as you said, these people don’t even know that there’s a mafia in Italy anymore or where the word comes from.

 I’m going to link to italiansreclaimingitaly’s tag about the mafia and its perception outside Italy because they posted about this extensively and it’s an excellent resource, but meanwhile I’m gonna do a very short bullet point list and about the topic:

  • Mafia might not be a big deal in the US, but it still is here. We have the beauty of four different mafias (Cosa Nostra - the Sicilian one, camorra which is the one in Campania but has tendrils spread everywhere, the ‘ndrangheta which is in Calabria and the Sacra Corona Unita in Puglia) which are all active [especially camorra and 'ndrangheta] and whose actions have direct impact (negative) on our economy and on our society. Actually mafias are one of the main reasons we’re currently economically fucked up, and if I start talking about how mafia culture keeps some areas literally backwards I could talk about it for three months.
  • There are still people who are killed for standing up against them. These days the most prominent personality is Roberto Saviano who is a writer who dared to put together a book documenting minutely the way camorra works and he’s been living under protection for years by this point. Like, they want him dead because he wrote a book. And I’m sorta sure that he was talking about leaving Italy and going to the US after years of sticking with it here because he can’t take it anymore but I don’t know if it was a taken decision or if it’s still debating it.
  • It wasn’t even thirty years ago that we had the stragi di mafia - in english it’d be something like the mafia slaughters, basically around the beginning of the nineties there were a number of bombs planted by the mafia targeting people who were trying to oppose it including judges Falcone and Borsellino, actually the anniversary of Falcone’s death is like… tomorrow. And they’ve killed people for way longer than that. Here is a list of only Cosa Nostra victims including the ones from the eighties/nineties. And people are still dying because of it. The slaughters I’m referring to are just the ones in the nineties which are enough of a number.
  • They also perpetuate a culture where if you testify against your mafia-employed relatives you’ll be shunned forever. There are women who testified against their families and couldn’t see their children anymore never mind that they weren’t automatically considered a relative anymore the moment they sided against the mafia. Some people have committed suicide after becoming witnesses also because our police force/justice system can be terribly non-supportive in this kind of situation so they got left on their own. Never mind that back in the day - it was the beginning of the nineties? - I recall at least a particular story of - I think, correct me if I remember wrong but I can’t remember the names for the life of me - where this guy testified against the local mafia when he either used to work for them or was forced to pay them the pizzo and in retaliation his six-year old (or five? Anyway he had a son younger than ten for sure) got kidnapped, killed and thrown into acid to dispose of the body. That happened in what, 1993? 1994? It’s pretty much yesterday. And now the camorra is doing the same - there’s a list here of camorra victims among which accidental passerbys that got killed because they were in the way which I can tell just by glancing is not complete. And I’m not even going into the 'ndrangheta. That is to say, here mafia still kills people and cripples our country.

Now, I get that it’s a word, but the point was: let’s say that instead of the Italians the Japanese came to the US first and the umbrella word for organized crime was yakuza rather than mafia and let’s say yakuza was still what it was originally in Japan while in the US it stopped being a big deal and people write yakuza!AU instead of mafia AU. Let’s say someone Japanese gets angry at that and goes like 'listen the yakuza is a real deal it does this this this and that and it’s a plague in our country so can you please at least look it up before writing your fanfic’, which is what had happened way back then when this whole mafia and fanfic thing blew up. A bunch of people told us to get over it because it’s just a word and if it’s a problem in Italy it’s not in the US so why should they care? Now, if we had been Japanese (or Chinese or Russian or Mexican) would they have said the same thing? Considering the general tumblr attitude I’m pretty sure they would have received either an apology or 'this is an important deal let’s keep that in mind’ with signal boost reblogs and stuff. 

It’s the fact that we should get over people not knowing that it’s still a real problem for us and that they can’t take five seconds to google it that is the problem imo. Especially when instead of mafia au you can just say mobsters au or tag it as organized crime and everyone is a lot happier, mostly because as the tag above explains romanticising the mafia is a good thing for them because it means they can act outside Italy with less stigma because everyone thinks that the mafia is dead or not relevant anymore, if I’m explaining myself. (And it’s active outside Italy - like, there was a mafia kill in Germany in 2007 where six people died (sorry the link is in Italian but there isn’t an English wiki page, if you look the city up you’ll find something probably) and it was because of the 'ndrangheta.

I’d really like to not get worked over it because it meant it was a thing of the past y'know, but the problem is that it isn’t and I’d rather spread some awareness in hope some of these writers look it up (because it’s a good thing that people know what mafia is since as stated they have tendrils everywhere - if you read Saviano’s book the entire first chapter is about how camorra regularly deals with Chinese import/export in Italy for one) than shrug and figure that since they’ll think everything is good for fanfic then it’s not even worth my time.*

Now, ^^^ that was the c/p-ed reply that should answer most of your doubts. What I didn’t address was:

im sure many ppl romanticize it and i obvs dont agree with that but im just trying to udnerstand bc i believe fandoms are a way to explore things that we normally wouldnt.

aaaand as we say here in Italy, this is where the donkey falls (sorry we have weird sayings), because in theory there’s nothing wrong with that… except that in 99% of the mafia aus I’ve seen around the thing is that they’re supposed to be cute.

like, I see a lot of shit with TINY MAFIA BOSS STEVE ROGERS with RUSSIAN ENFORCER BUCKY (????? bucky isn’t even russian???) and the yoi thing I saw before had the japanese character being the leader of a russian mafia gang which is… like… guys it doesn’t happen it really doesn’t, and a lot of them re-use wrongly terminology taken from the godfather without context or knowing what the hell it means, and it’s always from the criminals’ pov and they’re somehow seen as criminals doing justice where the police can’t (???) and like… no. mafia bosses/enforcers/employees are bad people period, and at least here if you try to leave or repent they kill your family in retribution. like, not even ten years ago there’s been a woman who used to belong to a mafia family (or one colluded with the mafia) who testified and her entire town/family shunned her and she couldn’t take it anymore and… killed herself drinking acid if I don’t recall wrong. it’s not even special cases. this shit is not funny, it’s not cute, it’s not adorable and it’s not good fodder for your imagine your otp scenario (srsly I saw one like.. let me find it,

LIKE. just look at this shit. in a regular context, the enforcer goes to the show owner to force them to pay a monthly sum to their boss lest they destroy their shop and their lives and their family’s life never mind that mafia culture is deeply homophobic so the mafia enforcer flirting with the shopkeeper is like completely fucking out of the question. I mean, people here like to shit on the sopranos but that show was actually excellent representation of Horrid Criminals Who Were Never Supposed To Be Good People and the small arc that happened when one of tony’s friends turned out to be gay (closeted) was REALLY well done. btw, it ended that when they found out he was gay most of the crowd rejected him and thought badly of him until I think they killed him also for other reasons, but that spiraled from finding out he liked dick. and that’s american mafia that they actually based on well-done research of the culture in Italy it came from, I assure you that here it doesn’t work that differently. like. the shit above is so inaccurate and frankly offensive, it’s like… I get people romanticizing problematic stuff but the thing is that when you tell them that it’s actually offensive you get brushed off as ‘ah well you’re being too sensitive it’s just a word u__u’. now, I’m all for exploring shit we wouldn’t be into, but not like THAT, because that’s like mafia romantic comedy and that’s not how it works. now, you wanna do a fic where the mafia characters are deeply flawed and bad people and the police tries to catch them? fine, great, go ahead. you wanna do a fic where the enforcer above deals with dunno an entire life of internalized homophobia when he finds the shopkeeper attractive and feels conflicted over having to con money out of him and doing horrible shit for a living and maybe understanding that crime isn’t worth it and then he actually collaborates with the police and gets shit from about everyone he knows and loves for that? okay, awesome, go ahead. nothing bad in that.

but the shit above is not exploring things we wouldn’t/writing darkfic, it’s THINKING THAT A CRIMINAL ORGANIZATION WHICH IS STILL A THING IN OUR PART OF THE WORLD IS CUTE AND ADORABLE. and that only plays in their favor because it takes the bad aura out of the word and we really should not let that happen. like. that is what is bad about mafia aus and mafia discourse, that people don’t realize the mafia is alive and well and thriving and not a thing that doesn’t exist or a generic word for organized crime.

you wanna write the shit above? okay, CALL IT CRIME AU or mob au, not mafia au.

btw, add-on: idk if I mentioned it in the above post or not, but in case I didn’t, I said that people would balk at the idea of a mexican cartel au. sadly since then I’ve found out a fandom where not only there is one but it’s also extra cutesy and people apparently love it and it has a bunch of kudos/comments and idek I’m not even touching that with a ten foot pole but like… I’ve avoided it and everything that author wrote because to me it’s just… nope. like, nope. if you do mafia aus don’t make them fucking cute. (also: in the same fandom I had to mute a v. famous fanartist whose art I actually liked but did cutesy mafia aus and.. like… haahahhaahahahahaha nah sorry. can’t go there. nope.)