I’m listening to Dance of Swords and damn…this takes me back. SU used to be so good, had so much potential…I can’t believe it’s the garbage it is now. Like, when was the last time background music was this good on the show?
I really want a cuddle buddy. Someone to lay on my chest and let me run my fingers through their hair while we talk about how much we hate our shitty boring routines and talk about all the fun shit we want to do together until our eyelids are burning and then fall asleep together holding each other even when it becomes uncomfortable and I want to shift positions
i just want to live by myself and pay my own bills and take care of myself im so sick of being dependent on someone else. i want to do what i want and to be allowed to make my own mistakes. theres nothing i hate more than being controlled. independence is the ultimate goal in life. everything else are secondary goals
yE S yes i will talk to you about mcgenji forever anon please fuel my love holy heck
do you ever think about how genji was sort of pressganged into joining overwatch? i mean do you reckon he even knows what happened to him? after the hanzo incident, he probably drifted in and out of consciousness for weeks while overwatch ‘fixed’ him, gave him a new body to plug the holes ripped in the last one. and then when he finally does wake up, comes back to life, it’s “you’re a valuable asset, mr shimada. we need your unique set of skills.” there’s no choice about it. it’s a life debt.
like. the months of physical therapy, of rehabilitation. learning to walk, to fight. learning what he can do. genji was always the shimada spare, and he wonders idly if this is how hanzo felt, being honed into a weapon by a power he feels he owes.
and the omnic crisis is long over, but he’s still not exactly a welcome addition around the watchpoints and the briefing rooms. he doesn’t talk. he learns his purpose. fulfills his orders. he’s breathing but he’s not alive any more. there’s no reason to keep going save his value to overwatch, his utility.
the first person to talk to him, after dr. ziegler, is mccree. a blackwatch lifer. a cartoon character, right down to his spurs. the old genji was personable, always joking, always thriving on social interaction. but that genji is long dead, suffocated, and he doesn’t understand why jesse tries so hard to talk to him - a living ghost of a rich brat deemed too big a threat to keep alive - even when genji doesn’t reply or snaps or walks away, catching him in the mess hall, after training, in the dead of night when neither can sleep. it surprises him, after all jesse’s harassment has worn them down into something resembling ‘friends’, that this new genji can still hold a conversation. he can still make people laugh. he’s still a person. jesse shows him that, and afterwards, it’s a lot easier to see it for himself.
l ike PLS TALK TO ME ABOUT THESE LOSERS BEING IN LO V E
i mean i guess im good at being alone and im used to keeping to myself but sometimes its like my heart is being stabbed repeatedly with 15 really tiny knives and im just idk i feel really unwanted everywhere and always