im gonna delete this holy shit

It isn’t exactly love.

Or rather, it doesn’t fall under one, singular form of love. It’s a convoluted, chaotic tangle of emotions that have ebbed and grown and just come to be within Killua.

Every time he looks at Gon, even after all these years, he feels that same punch of air in his lungs, his eyes trying their best to focus on him but not being able to because Gon, well, Gon is too bright. Too bright and unobtainable, happy and boisterous and absolutely ridiculous.

It never fails to make Killua smile.

“You’re such an enhancer.”

Gon turns around to stare at him, cocking his head to the side, eyes wide and bright and brimming with life. There’s a fond smile in them, because he’s where he’s most comfortable- at sea, with his closest friend in the world.

“Did you say something?”

Killua laughs softly before taking a few steps forward and slinging an arm over Gon’s shoulder. “I was just contemplating how big an Enhancer you are, which is me saying you’re an idiot.”

Gon pouts, and Killua laughs even harder.

“Well, you’re the one that stayed all these years with this idiot, so I guess that makes you the even bigger idiot!” By the end of the sentence, Gon is all smiles again, and Killua practically cries with laughter at the astonishingly childish response.

“I guess,” Killua wheezes, “I guess you’re right!”

Gon sticks his tongue out before turning to face the sea again, leaning his weight into Killua. He’s solid and warm, a constant beside Killua that he’d never exchange for anything in the world. Gon, after all these years, had finally managed to convince the rather stubborn Zoldyk that he needed him, for better or for worse, and so their adventures began once again, fun and exciting and dangerous.


Killua blinks at the sea, trying to ingrain the blue of the waters and the smell of salt piercing his nose, making a moment he knows he’ll cherish for as long as he shall live.


Gon doesn’t say anything, but a hand grabs hold of the back of Killua’s shirt and clenches, fisting the material till it’s almost completely scrunched up. Gon isn’t leaning into him anymore but his face is buried in Killua’s neck. He doesn’t need to speak, he’s never had to.

Don’t leave again.


I’m sorry.

Killua kisses his temple softly, almost reassuringly, just a gentle press of his lips against the side of Gon’s forehead but it’s enough for the man to relax his hold.

Killua bites back his own tears, as silent questions, statements, demands, confessions, screams pour out of every crevice of his body, overflowing because he can’t possibly contain it anymore.

But it all sums up to one thing, one sentiment, two simple words that are so easy to say, but he wont say them, because he knows, no matter which star he wishes upon, he’ll never be granted this one. And that’s ok.

It’ll be ok. 

It has to be.

Be mine.

Holy Shit Guys...

Not gonna lie 

I was on mobile this morning and I had this all typed up and it was like 3 paragraphs long and i was almost done and then BECAUSE OF THE STUPID NEW UPDATE IT DELETED WHEN I SCROLLED UP!


Lets do this again

A warning.. I have too much to say about this so please bare with me because this post is going to be everywhere.

Im gonna be honest here! 

My first reaction was “shit… now I have to actually finish all those projects..” but once it sank in, my second reaction was “Why the fuck do all these amazing people follow me?!” I honestly cant comprehend it. I mean, I swear too much, I yell, my blog is trash, and my posts are shit. Yet all you, my followers, my friends… you all still follow me for some reason! And i dont have the words to tell you how much that means to me. I love all of you so damn much. Even my little ghost followers. You guys mean the world to me. 

When I started this blog.. uhh.. i think about 6 months ago?

(Please please please please please please please read! I just have to add this because of how long this is, it fucks everything up)

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anonymous asked:

Cry more please. People like you are terrible. The crewniverse spends so much time and effort into making the show and you just shit on it? How dare you. "I don't like it this way, so you should change it to fit my taste." How spoiled and childish are you and everyone else in the su critical tag. Grow the fuck up and just stop watching the show, you piece of shit.

holy shit,,,,

anon youve convinced me…. im gonna delete this blog and stop watching the show and im gonna go take a long trip through the mountains to rethink everything and learn more about myself and discover inner peace… who knew criticizing a tv show has been holding me back for so long

bye everyone its been nice but this anon just single handedly destroyed my career as a critical blogger


Day 2: Your AU or your favorite AU

Buy it, Use it, Break it, Fix it is one of my favorite fanfictions and it has both of my otps so ??? of course i’d choose that.

Notable AUs: Beans & Bones because it has asexual vulture photographer Dave and John is a lumberjack hipster. And that one fanfiction I wrote about director Dave and John was a lucky fan who scored a cool date. There was gonna be sweet disguises and shenanigans goddamit why did I not finish writing that.

anonymous asked:

hey, its the anon who just sent that ask, and holy shit im sorry. it didnt occur to me to think about what i was fuckin actually saying instead of just blurting out my observations in whatever racist way came to mind. im gonna. like. not do that again. and im sincerely sorry for sayin that shit like an idiot. feel free to Delete my nasty words if you want to

Aww, it’s ok it happens man. I don’t assume you’re racist for sort of blurting out what you were thinking and realizing after. I think the internet is pretty unforgiving of that sort of thing but IT HAPPENS TO EVERYONE seriously. You’re ok homie.

anonymous asked:

holy shit so like you're not gonna care at all but i used to follow casey bc i was really into lifting and she had the bombest body goals and i had some photos she posted saved for like years (i tried finding them to prove i'm thinking of the same person but i couldn't i'm sorry) and i recently found them and just deleted them bc i'm cleaning up my compute rand now i see you guyS AR EDATING AND WHATATTTatTTTTTT MY TWO BIGGEST GAY CRUSHES DATIGN IM DYING GOOD LucK BABIES I LOV EU

AHAHAH no yeah, it’s the same person lmao she did use to run a fitness blog before remaking but that’s so so funny bc I didn’t even know her back then and WOW small ass gay tungle world!! this is so cute tho I love it, thanks so much 💓 ily!!!

anonymous asked:

Don't you think you should listen to people's reasonings and why Tony Stark isn't as Good (tm) as you all seem to think he is?Knowledge is good for you.

Originally posted by jesuisbavarde

Like, i have no time for your tony stark discourse, i love him and you’re free to have your own feelings but if you start to shit on him, like, im just gonna unfollow you lol.

Originally posted by lesmemoiresdoutreagreg

brokajke7  asked:



But I’m home now and more coherent than before so here’s my massively shortened version of what happened today i still cant believe it happened like it feels so surreal

After school today i met up with my friend in central and we wandered around a bit to kind of just shop and see if we could hopefully catch a glimpse of EXO but after a while it got really cold so we said we’d call it a night. On my way home i was really bummed because i really wanted to see them but i was glad i could at least say i tried. So as i get off the underground, im going up the escalators and kind of spacing out then i hear a ‘hyung balliwa’ and i look up not expecting anything at all and there standing in front of me is kim junfuckingmyeon looking all perfect in front of the food stall holding a bottle of water all wrapped up and warm looking. And i didnt believe my eyes but then i look to the side and standing on the other side is kim jongfckingin and kim minbloodyseok and their manager but no camera crew and i couldnt help the tears that filled my eyes. I said 'oh my god’ pretty loudly and junmyeon looked in my direction and WE HAD PERFECT EYE CONTACT and i wanted to scream because omfg junmyeon was looking at me and then minseok said something about sehun and a car and i was freaking out like 'omg suho’ and then junmyeon looks back at me and smiles and i couldnt help it like the tears just escaped then junma being the fcking angel goes 'uljima’ because he mustve thought i was korean or something and im just wiping my eyes and going 'im so sorry omg i love you guys so much’ and then he goes 'i loveyou too’ in his adorable as shit broken english and i wanted to collapse because his voice is so sweet and smooth and just all kinds of fckin lovely and i shit you all not i was within touching distance but touching him didnt even cross my mind and then the manager with jongin and minseok called for junmyeon and he replied somehting in korean and said a quick 'dont cry’ in english and i was just omfg and he smiles his perfect as fcking fck smile and i couldnt help but smile back and i go to take my phone out because i want to take a picture but he goes 'no picture no ahh’ and he looked so worried for a second i immediately put my phone back in my pocket like 'im sosorry okay no photo’ and then jongin calls for him again and his voice is fcking deep but adorable like chocolate and amazing then junmyeon looks back at me and says 'bye, love exo a lot okay?’ and his english was so off but was the most adorable fucking thing ive ever heard okay like heis fcking perfect then he jogs towards the others and they were speaking and im just staring and like 0.152558674 seconds away from collapsing like my legs were shaking so much and then they all turn around to wave and smile at me and holy shit minseok goes 'bye bye’ and did a little heart and jongin waved and they were all waving and smiling and fck i couldnt help but cry again and people at the station were staring at me but i didnt give a fuck because holy shit i met exo like omg and im like cryihng now as i remember it and fuck my life guys im so happy right now i cant even deal

gonna delete this later but just wanted to share the best moment of my life omg guys T___T


I’m going to delete this later because I can’t stand the toddler debate and I know my opinion isn’t the popular one and I’ll probably upset people, but oh my god
So EA’s making an announcement at Gamescon and all I see are posts saying “it better be toddlers”.
I’m sorry, but get off it oh my god.
They took an aspect of the game out, saw the absolutely ridiculous display y’all put on, said they’d put it back in, but you aren’t happy unless it’s instantaneous.  
They’re taking their time cause they want it done right. Not to mention they have all of the other game/stuff packs and expansions that they’ve been planning, and they now have to throw little nose-runners on top of it. So yeah, it’s gonna take some time.
You want to bitch about how this is stupid, and that’s missing, I want todlers, this game is terrible, then you know what? Don’t play it. EA doesn’t need your $20 and we certainly don’t need your whining and comparing a game that isn’t even a year old to one that’s accumulated 5 years of content.