im gonna cry so much because of this man

an alternative version of andrew and neil’s first kiss. 

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ASHTRAY HEART ATTACKS

“I do believe his mouth is heaven, his kisses falling over me like stars.” - Richard Siken, Crush. 

Neil jolted awake, sweat soaking his skin and mouth dry from dreaming. It took a few moments for him to regain consciousness: first, he watched the darkness morph into his dorm, then, he heard Matt’s steady breathing from beneath. His chest felt constricted, lungs struggling to function like they were supposed to.

Everything came to an aching halt, and his vision doubled, and then his breathing faltered and heart stammered and surroundings began to blur and he forced himself to move, mind still on autopilot. Every step was forced, and he felt distant, looking at himself from above rather than from within.

He wasn’t sure how but he found himself ascending the stairs, two at a time, and cracked open the metal door. There, he hesitated in the entry, and his eyes landed on the man ahead; a silhouette against a dark backdrop. His mind had sorted through places to go, a safe haven to reside in, and his feet had taken him to Andrew.

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anonymous asked:

YESSSSSS OMG I LOVE YOUR SERVAMP ART ITS SO GOOD *-*

Ohhhhhhh!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! Thank you, I’m happy you enjoy it!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! *O*

Anon said: Luv your Kenma so much, you draw so well, xoxo

!!!!!!!!!!!! holy heck thank you!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! <3<3

Anon said: How do you draw eyes and mouth?

Ahhh I’m sorry anon but you’ve picked the wrong person to ask this one, there’s literally no rule to how I draw those, I just go for what feels best? If what feels right is a straight line and two dots that’s exactly what I’m gonna draw haha

Anon said: Do you have a store or anything? Because I would love to buy a tote bag or hoodie or something with your Tokoyami art on it tbh.

Nnnnnnnnnnnnnnot yet, but soon (like, next week soon, if everything goes as it should) is this about a specific Tokoyami art, by the way? Or just any random Tokoyami?

Anon said: I love your OCs! D'you have more information about them????

If you go look at my original art tag there’s a few infos about them! But if you’re interested in anything specific feel free to ask away!!

Anon said: (your art is beautiful and i weep whenever i see it) whenever i get a new fav son, i look up the va and see if i know anymore of his roles. And kiri’s va is just. So. Much. Singing. Im just sort of amazed not many people have talked abt it?? This man has been in a number of idol animes and games, and im weak. Im just curious, but did you know abt my son’s singing prowess? I’m gonna cry he’s really good…..

I didn’t know! All I knew about Kiri’s va is that he voiced Ennoshita in Haikyuu tbh (which has always made me laugh because Ennoshita and Nishinoya… Kirishima and Bakugou… can you imagine Kiri and Baku acting like Noya and Ennoshita I cry it’s hilarious) ANYWAY I’m glad my making him sing so often makes actual sense lmao

Anon said: hey just wanted to let you know that i’ve been following you since forever and i’m in awe how much you have improved and i really love what you do! i’m blown away by your amazing art every time you update!!

OH MY GOD thank you SO MUCH!!!!! *O* this actually made me incredibly happy I’m?? smiling a lot right now??? B O I !!!!!

anonymous asked:

(Trans anon again hi) Im kinda crying now too because just... god youve got no idea who i am yet you believe in me and that just means a lot so thank you again :"") as one of my fave artists from this fandom and my 100% fave bakushima artist it... really means a lot to me. Also whoo for trans bakugou!! Stinky boy is best boy tbh (legit tho im crying youre an amazing person and i hope you have an amazing day/night/week/etc. ;u;)

flip man you’re gonna actually make me cry you absolute fart of course i believe in you,,, thanks so much for both these messages…. i hope!!! your days become easier!!!! 

anonymous asked:

iM GONnA CrY ON INSTAGRAM SOMEONE LIKE TAGGED YOU ON A POST OF MINE I DID A COUPLE MONTHS AGO ON SOME LIKE ARTIST CHALLENGE THING AND YOU SAW IT AND I CRIED BECAUSE MY ART IN IT IS SO TERRIBLE IM SO SORRY YOU HAD TO SEE IT I SWEAR IM BETTER THAN THAT NOW MY RECENT STUFF IS SO MUCH BETTER ONCE AGAIN IM SO SORRY YOU HAD TO SEE IT THANK YOU FOR YOUR TIME

aw man it’s ok eve I like it!

galactiphobia  asked:

WHAT DID YOU THINK ABOUT SEASON 3 AHHH WTF?? I personally think that "Shiro" is a clone. Klance was woke this season (*cough* the scene where lance talks to keith in his room *cough*) the Galra generals were INCREDIBLE, I love every single one of them, and Lotor is an amazing villain. I feel lied to because we didn't get any Kaltenecker, but it's okay because we got a Sven redemption arc. Sorry for spamming you, I'm just !! (i hope you're doing well)

I loved season 3 so much man don’t even get me started ok…..I said months ago that season 3 would be my best friend and I was right

edit: I JUST HIT THE DAILY POST LIMIT IM GONNA CRY wHAT the FUCK

     Let’s talk about Ivy and friendships, because her friendships influenced her greatly and give us a great insight on her character developement. Most fo the time we see the best side of her when she is interacting with her friends and we see a difference between how she treats her friends compared to other people.

1. SELINA KYLE

Selina is Ivy’s best friend and for a long time she was her ONLY friend. Ivy learnt a lot from her and it was Selina who influenced Ivy to become braver and more stubborn. While Ivy is more quiet and ‘ scared ’ and certainly somewhat weaker than Selina, she did copy some of her friend’s sassiness and her ability to survive on the street. Without Selina, Ivy wouldn’t be the person she is today.

Selina is the one CONSTANT in Ivy’s life, the one person she can rely on no matter what, the only one she can trust with everything and who will never leave her. Selina has seen Ivy’s worst side, Ivy has seen Selina’s worst side and it only brings them closer together instead of breaking their friendship. Of course they argue and don’t always agree but at the end of the day, they support each other and stand up for each other. Hell, Ivy used her knowledge to bring Selina back from a COMA, refusing to give up on her friend even though she was told Selina would never wake up again. Selina on the other hand took care of Ivy when she was extremely sick, breaking into Jim and Barbara’s house to make sure Ivy had a dry and warm spot to sleep and recover. She also tried to defend Ivy in front of Fish Mooney, knowing very much that this could end extremely badly for herself.

Ivy probably knows Selina better than most other people and vise versa. Of course they get frustrated with each other quite a lot because their personalities differ so much from each other and they have drastically different ways of approaching things, but they still realise they can rely on each other. Selina gave and still gives Ivy security and courage that she wouldn’t have on her own.

2. OSWALD COBBLEPOT

Their friendship is complicated and unusual to say at least and Ivy probably values this friendship a lot more than Oswald does, but it’s still one of the most important connections Ivy has made in her life. Selina was already somewhat morally questionable at times but Oswald takes this to a completely different level and THAT has quite an impact on Ivy. She has already become rather callous towards crime, having murdered a man herself because he didn’t water his plants enough. So it’s not like Oswald is the one to introduce this kind of crime into her life, but he helps to enforce things like this as absolutely NORMAL.

More important though is the fact that he, unlike Selina, makes her part of a family again. He involves her in his plans and gives her the feeling of being important, at least for a while. Added to her beign a ‘ grown up ’ now and realising what she can do with a bit of manipulation this all gives her a completely new perspective and even more confidence. Suddenly everything seems to be possible for her and with Oswald gaining more power in Gotham, it looks a lot like nothing can stop them.

But the real big thing about how Oswald influenced Ivy actually comes much later when their friendship starts to fall apart. In a rather ironic twist it’s Oswald’s rejection that really sets the idea off in Ivy’s mind that she is POWERFUL. She looks at what she’s done for him and how much power she holds and now that he’s ignoring her she realises she doesn’t need him in order to keep that power, that it’s not Oswald who gave her this power, but that she ALONE is responsible for her own strength.

3. BRIDGIT PIKE

( Gotham as a show doesn’t give us too much with them but I’m taking creative licence at this point because I am sure Bridgit MUST have left some kind of impression on Ivy )

Bridgit has a similiar influence on Ivy as Oswald as both give Ivy an impression of POWER, though Bridgit’s influence is perhaps not quite as prominent. Ivy is impressed by her, maybe even more impressed than she is by Oswald, because Bridgit is closer to her age, making her more relatable for Ivy, who is constantly brushed off as a little child who doesn’t know anything. Seeing someone nearly her age with so much power did have an impact on Ivy and made her wonder just WHAT she was able to achieve besides being so young.

Bridgit seems quite sure about what she does and that is something Ivy wants for herself as well, so she kind of admires Bridgit a lot. With Bridgit being the one freak family member who is still somewhat close to Ivy’s age it is only natural that Ivy sticks closest to her, especially if Bridgit treats her with respect and acceptance. Another important thing is that Bridgit stands out a lot more as a ‘ freak ’ than Ivy does, still we don’t see Bridgit showing that she is in any way bothered by that. She even seems to have the biggest self confidence out of all family members and however much of that is just a facade, Ivy admires her for holding her head up high no matter what.

BUT CONSIDER

Gabriel telling Sam that a lot of his family thinks hes a worthless unlovable fuckup so the night before they attend a family reunion Sam just covers him in hickeys because he wants to show the whole family- the whole damn world- exactly how loved Gabriel is

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headcanon that Nico and Will sleep with like seven blankets, and in the middle of the night, Nico wakes up cold because Will is a baby and took all the blankets for himself. so Nico just slides under the blankets, tucking himself against Will’s warm body. and Will smiles, because he knew he could get Nico to cuddle with him one way or any other.

#ShiningDiamondsinManila EXPERIENCE

y’all aint ready for this because i am FREAKING OUT OKAY WHERE SHOULD WE START I FORGOT MY IDENTITY HAHAHAHA ANYWAY

PH Carats were very enthusiastic as we waited inside for the fanmeet to start. We were chanting”SEVENTEEN” until finally they came out and performed Shining Diamond and my heart literally sank because everyone sang along to the “17 carat” part. The mood was up and we were all having fun. 

They were doing their opening ment and it was really great since they kept on saying “Mahal ko kayo” which means “I love you all” in tagalog. Mingyu said that when he was young, he visited the Philippines, and that’s why he knows how to speak tagalog a bit, he even said, “Ako si Mingyu” which means, “I am Mingyu.” 

After the opening ment, it was time for the Q and A they looked for sticky notes  that PH Carats wrote. Some were favors like “do a heart and say, “mahal ko kayo”” and it was cute to see them bring a big smile and try their best in tagalog hahaha. When it was S.Coup’s turn he was tasked to tie Jeonghan’s hair, which he did, everybody screamed :)))  Hip Hop team also did a high note battle and guess what???? Vernon was the first one out hahahaha.  Let me tell you, Seungkwan was speaking english phrases and his english was cute and adorable and I just died because thats the best quality EVER. During the Q and A they also did a skit where JiHan were bf-gf and the boyfriend was running late. Joshua played the boyfriend part and then HE PULLED JEONGHAN CLOSER TO HIM AND HELD HIM LIKE BOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOYYYY  as always PH Carats went crazy hahahaha. SeoKwan did the same skit but instead of Seokmin being an apologetic boyfriend, he cheated with Hoshi ahahaha. Oh I almost forgot, when Mingyu was picking a sticky note from the board, he said, “This is hard.” in english :))) lol how adorable. Jeonghan and Woozi did some awkward sexy poses, hahahahaha but ya girl still died because Jeonghan is my main boo and Jihoon is ruining my life HAHAHHAHAHHUHUhuhuhuhuhu. Alot of PH Carats wrote “bby” as an endearment to the members and Seventeen were confused who was this “bby” and they thought “bby” was a name and they even commented that alot of PH Carats are named “bby”  HAHHAHAHAHA CAN I JUST SAY CHAN DID A SEXY DANCE IM JUST SO ????? I AM???/ OFFENDED??? I FEEL ATTACKED??????? THIS BOY MUST SDFSGDBAHJSNAJND o<-< Mingyu said that PH is Jihoon’s home country because of his height :)))) (filipinos are generally short) 

PH Carats were really enthusiastic in the best way possible. Seungkwan said, “Calm down, calm down” and it was so funny as well as Mingyu hahahaha. “Calm down, calm down.” Boo Seungkwan & Kim Mingyu 2K16 (it wasn’t in a negative light, more it was because we were enthusiastic and really up for the event :”) )

And then Woozi, S.Coups and Vernon performed Q and A :D PH Carats sang Ailee’s parts and it was a beautiful collab between Carats and SVT <3

After that, Seungkwan and DK performed Say Yes. AND IM GOING TO TELL YOU RIGHT NOW WITHOUT ANY BIASES THAT… YOU HAVE TO LISTED TO THEM LIVE BECAUSE IT WAS LIKE SEEING HEAVEN AND SWIMMING IN A POOL OF HONEY AND EVERYTHING THAT WAS GOOD OKAY. i forgot I havent eaten lunch or dinner when they sang, thats how good their live is.

And then MC Boo took over the fanmeet with his best quality english. It was game time and SVT split into two teams! Hyung line and Dongsaeng line :) They were playing Charades hahahaha. Joshua did a funny impersonation of a skunk :)) LIKE THAT BOY IS SO EXTRA BLESS HIM. Song Joongki was one of the things they had to act out and PH Carats SCREAMED. They even commented that PH Carats loved Joongki more than them and we laughed together hahahahHAHAHAHAHAHA. Then THE GREATEST BLESSING OF THEM ALL. WONWOO AND SCOUPS ACTED OUT JOONGKI AS FANSERVICE AND WE JUST DIED, WE ALL DIED. *insert Dash the Incredibles meme here* WHen it was Woozi’s turn to act, he got bobsleigh HAHAHAHA and HE JUST LITERALLY DOVE ON THE FLOOR HAHAHAHAHAHA. but the dongsaeng line was better at Charades hahahHAHAHAHA. For a fair win, Seungkwan (he was the mc) was the one who was going to act out and he got an Ostrich :))) IT WAS REALLY FUNNY but the dongsaeng line won <3

Seungkwan asked Joshua: “Why did you think you lost?”

Joshua: “We lost on purpose”

#TOOMUCHSWAGHONGJISOO

For the punishment for the hyung line:

S.Coups - aegyo. PH Carats were the judges if it was cute enough. And we all said “not cute” or “noooooo” in a funny way to let Coups continue doing aegyo :)))))

Jeonghan - Sexy Dance HEAVENLY JISOOS HELP MY SOUL I BASICALLY DIED ROSE FROM THE DEAD AND DIED AGAIN AND GOT REINCARNATED AS JEONGHAN’S SWEAT BECAUSE IM TRASH  ANYWAY…..Jeonghan was unprepared but he was so …. IAM DEAD OKAY I AM BASICALLY DEADED

Joshua - his punishment was to rap. So he rapped Vernon’s part in Mansae, but then he freestyled with the word, “Manila” and he was so cute with his english. #RAPGODHONGJISOO 

Hoshi - squats while carrying a member. Soonyoung carried Jisoo bridal style at first and did squats but he failed HAHAHAHA he dropped Jisoo on the floor. So he carried Jeonghan on his back instead and it was so funny hahahaha he was struggling but it was the best, while he was suffering, Seungkwan asked if he was a weak leader :))) because Hoshi carried Jun and Minghao’s parts during the fanmeet. JEONGHAN LOOKED SO HAPPY GIVING HOSHI A HARD TIME WITH THE SQUATS HAHAHAHAHA

Wonwoo - 3 set expressions, he did cute, sexy and comedic (?) HE WAS SMILING, IM CRYING HE SMILED LIKE IM CRYING TEARS OF BLOOD AND WET N WILD EYE LINER. 

Woozi - I forgot Woozi’s punishment :)))) I was just too happy to see him tbh

After that they were preparing backstage and then the vcr played Pretty U MV :D PH CARATS WERE ENTHUSIASTICALLY SINGING ALONG. IT WAS SO BEAUTIFUL TO HEAR ALL OF US SINGING TOGETHER WHILE WE WAIT FOR SEVENTEEN :”)

then they came out and performed Adore U :”D they replaced “akkinda” with “akin ka” which means “You’re mine” in tagalog. LORD HELP ME HOW DID I EVEN SURVIVE THO, LIKE HOW AM I STILL ALIVE. as always every song/every performance PH Carats were singing along and waving our banners and lightsticks :D

Then they performed Mansae :DD AND THEN VERY NICE. LAWD HALP ME. LIKE IM DEAD I AM DEEEEEEEEEEEEEAD I AM A FIRED POTATO AT THIS POINT YA GIRL DIDNT SURVIVE BUT HER MAKE UP LOOKED GOOD 

That was supposed to be the “last song” HAHAHAHHAHA BUT PH CARATS IMMEDIATELY DEMANDED AN ENCORE <3

Then the vcr played predebut SVT and their hardships and THEN OMFG THEY SHOWED THEIR FIRST WIN AND IM SO PROUD, THE SCREAMS WERE LOUD IN THE THEATER BUT SOME WERE QUIET BECAUSE THEY WERE TEARING UP :(((

 Seventeen came out and sang Love Letter. During Wonwoo’s singing part in Love Letter, PH Carats threw beautiful paper airplanes and Seventeen were touched by the surprise :”) They were really so touched like damn im gonna cry man AND THEN WHEN THEY SANG HEALING, DURING WOOZI’S PART EVERYONE WAS ANNOYING HIM HAHAHA SVT WERE MESSING WITH HIS HAIR LOL

During the closing ment, they said that they were so thankful and touched. They didnt expect to receive so much love from PH Carats ;o; ahhhhhh Jisoo shared that PH is the home of his fave artists/youtubers that inspired him to be a singer and like my kokoro broke and im dead basically.

NOW FOR THE HI TOUCH EXPERIENCE:

YA GIRL WAS PRETTY STILL EVEN WHEN I TEARED UP, MY MAKE UP DIDNT BUDGE, IT WAS BULLETPROOF. 

First in line was Vernon, he had such a welcoming and warm smile, he looked at me and I’m telling you in that moment I thought I was Rose and he was Jack in Titanic.  and then followed by (in no particular order) DK, Seungkwan, Woozi, Dino. OKAY LET ME TELL YOU I NOTICED DK HE WAS SUCH A SUNSHINE, LITERALLY THE SUN. HE WAS BEAMING I FELL IN LOVE.  Woozi leaned on the table because of his height lol :)))) he looked so into it, he stood so firmly with his hand ready for my hand, he was like in a team building activity :))))))))) Seungkwan took my breath away but the first half of the line i barely looked because i was SO SHY BUT WHEN S.COUPS CAME, HE LITERALLY PAUSED IN A HEARTBEAT AND GAVE ME THE BEST HIGH 5 OF MY LIFE. I LOVED HIM OKAYHE COMPLETED MY SOUL.

AS A JEONGHAN STAN I CANT EVEN LOOK AT HIM I WAS TOO SHY I CANT LOOK AT HIM BUT I TOUCHED HIM AND THEY WHERE LOOKING AT US AND IM DEAD BASICALLY. WHY AM I DOING THIS POST ANYWAY. 

Hoshi had a cute smile :) I couldnt look at him properly but i saw his face for a moment and he had a cute smile.

Mingyu was the last one and he was so tall, MIND Y’ALL I AM 4.11 AND I HAD A 1 INCH HEEL BOOT ON. HE ALSO STOPPED TO LOOK AT ME, HE SMILED SO BRIGHTLY SHOWING HIS CANINES AND MY WORLD LITERALLY SLOWED DOWN AND HE GAVE ME SUCH A NICE HIGH 5, HE WAS SO FUN ;O; CAN YOU HEAR ME CRYING

All in all, they looked so happy and bright :”) I can tell they had so much fun especially how interactive we were with them :D They were comfortable and happy! Especially Joshua and Mingyu who are acquainted with the Philippines :) 


AND THAT WAS MY EXPERIENCE. HAHAHAHA THANK YOU FOR READING :D