i know you arent an,advice page but i did something really fucking stupid and now,ive lost my best friend and boyfriend, or ex i guess now. everything kinda feels really pointless and i want to die. i was getting better but im back here because of myself. i fucked up. i dont know what to do. i have no one.
Hey, it’s okay. Everyone makes mistakes, trust me. I’ve done some really fucking stupid shit but life will continue to go on. Unless you’ve murdered someone, the mistake hasn’t changed anything permanently. Not truly. Wounds can heal, bridges can be mended. If whatever you did hurt them really bad, maybe just give it time. Sometimes people just need time to get over their anger. If it was unforgivable, then try to remember that they’re not the only people in the world.
There are 8 billion people on this planet, you will make more friends and have more boyfriends. Sometimes we do shitty things and we don’t know why. I’ve done things I will never forgive myself for, believe me. But you need to keep going, let that shame fuel you to never do it again. I don’t think of you any less. Whether it was cheating or lying or anything short of murder, you can still change. Mistakes are learning experiences and you just need to use them to better yourself. It hurts right now, but it won’t always. Time gives perspective. You’ve gotten better before you can do it again. Just focus on getting through the day.
If you’re worried about getting bad again try going to therapy. I know when I finished with therapy for the first time I thought I was home free. But shit happened, I dropped out of school again and everything was so dark so I went back. At first it felt like giving up, as though admitting I needed therapy again was taking a step back, but it’s not. Sometimes you need extra help and there’s no shame in that. Even if you’re totally mentally sound, sometimes it’s good to just have someone you can talk to about anything and not be judged.
Please don’t give up Anon. You’re not a lost cause, you just made a mistake. Maybe they’ll get over their anger, maybe they won’t. But either way you still have your whole life ahead of you. Think of all the cool things you haven’t done yet. I know one of the things that kept me going was the desire to write. I want to write stories that touch people the way Harry Potter touched me. If I had killed myself that will never happen. Nothing is permanent in this world except death, your sadness isn’t permanent, their anger isn’t permanent. Maybe ten years down the road when you’ve all grown up more you’ll be able to be friends again, hell maybe less. But if you kill yourself you’ll never know.
(I know this isn’t usual drarrytexts stuff but if you think I’m going to ignore someone in need then you’ve got another thing coming. I’ll tag it with d’s advice so it can blacklisted in case anyone needs to talk in the future and you just want regular drarry content.)