im crying even more now

guess who drew even more @miracusims fanart! this gal

but this is a special one, i drew it digitally and recorded it so it is on my youtube channel as a speedpaint as well

youtube

if you want to cry even more,now is your chance

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lms if u cried a bit

I'M TEARING UP

like i know this is just the beginning. they finally debuted a few weeks ago and the promotions were about to end. i wasn’t even there since the very beginning, i only started to check them out after m countdown announced their debut for next week’s show and my sister said “i heard there’s actually that many of them” as she laughed, amused.

but it’s only been like A FEW WEEKS but it feels like forever. i’m tearing up this isn’t funny. i can’t believe it’s only been a month since a lot of us slipped into the diamond life (and it’s been years for some people but don’t you feel it too?!?), it’s only been a month since a lot of new people start to create a blog dedicated to them, a lot of new gifs and photos and fan fictions and amazing fan arts and edits and english subbed videos, a lot of new people, new memes, new friends. a month since the people who waited for years finally get to see their boys debut, our boys. i don’t even know what to say anymore. im very glad, very proud, very thankful for their existence. especially for the laughter and smiles mainly because of the memes. im very, truly happy. like i’ve never felt so much positive energy, strong enough to me want to smile just by seeing their smiles and hearing their voices, even in my worst state. im not even kidding i feel like i have less bad days of bad moods and self hate and just, i feel like a happier person after i accidentally adopted 13 children.

you know that “now what do i do with my life” feeling once you finished a book or a tv show nOW IT FEELS A LOT LIKE THAT. LIKE SAYING GOODBYE. I DONT LIKE GOODBYES. PLS STOP MAKING THE ENDING OF PROMOTIONS FEEL LIKE SAYING GOODBYE. IT’S ONLY THE ENDING OF A PROMOTION BUT IT FEELS LIKE TOY STORY 3. IT’S TWO IN THE MORNING I CaNT FUNCTION AS HUMAN ANYMORE IM HAVING TOO MUCH FEELS DONT TALK TO ME (@ my mutuals im srs dont talk 2 me ever again)

aand i just realized i didn’t even say a name

tinyneedlesizedbananas  asked:

Pssst... we are friends now okay. Tell me how your day went and tell me if you saw any cats or dogs today. Also tell me 1,your favorite band, 2, your favorite thing to drink, and 3, what you would buy if you had 20 dollars and you had to go spend it right now.

hello!! friend!!!

today was spent in excruciatingly sad condition
i dod some stuff, like making funny textposts in russian or cleaning the house
tried to reach out to people and ask if they wanted me to stream, or play games or so anything at all, but i was ignored. so here i am at the end of the day crying and begging for attention
i saw no dogs and one cat - my cat. he bit me, but its okay, we play like that

my fav band is C2C, theyre amazing!
i love drinking mountain dew tbh, i enjoyed even before all the mlg memes, but now i like it even more. i really like other refreshing citrus beverages too!
if i had $20 and had to spend it right now, id try to order some food that i dont get to eat usually. i wonder if i have any delivery services that work for 24 hours…

I feel so dumb posting this, but like Steven Universe seriously means the entire world to me right now. All the characters are so well rounded flaws and all. There are entire story lines in place that get followed, it has all the body type representation, and shows how the characters show love and affection despite trauma. It goes into everything like that even how they deal with trauma, and not to forget all the respectful and beautiful canon on screen gay representation through Pearl and Ruby/Sapphire. All the stereotypes and tropes we expect also just get crushed to pieces by everyone on a constant episode-by-episode basis, and Steven’s character being a kind hearted loving kid who doesn’t have a single mean bone in his body and isn’t afraid/insulted to be “feminine” is so god-damn refreshing. Then there’s his dad Greg who’s character is also dealing with trauma and loss of his own but loves his son more than the world combined and does the best he can to show it whenever possible… His character and all the background characters are always so wonderfully diverse and developed on their own. They show different types of families and healthy AND unhealthy dynamics and how to deal and/or respond to them too. If that’s not even enough don’t even get me started on Rose’s character and how she talks about life and love and happiness in mankind and the world we live in and I just…

This is the shit I cry over. If anyone tells me “it’s just a cartoon” I want to punch something because it may just be a cartoon to them, but to me it’s so much more than that… It’s an entire world with inspiring promises created by an amazingly talented women and is everything I look up to and helps me push forward. I’m so so so glad this show exists right now and I’m glad I’m around to see it because it’s so beautiful in so many ways and is everything I want to strive for.