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During the past weeks a handful of official art of have dropped 2/4 exposed Victor for our eyes (and Yuri *wink wonk*):

LEADING TO THE MOMENT WHEN THEY DROPPED THE BOMB

killmenow.mp3

what should I do right now I dont think im alive anymore makkachin looks so cute snuggling beside him and look at his fabulous hair even when hes sleeping if this isn’t perfection what is, this breathes life into us, worshiping victor’s beauty right now don’t judge me 

anonymous asked:

what are your favorite jaeyong moments hmmm

1. Linking arms at the Asian Model Awards 2015 - (fhjhjsdfkh look at them how cute)

2. Taeyong letting the world know how sexy he finds Jaehyun - (tbh, same Taeyong)

3. I dont even think this needs any explaining- (jesus christ not infront of the cameras you two)

4. Shenanigans at the MAMA’s 2016 (cr. centerpieces, bloncprinz) - (🎶 cause space is just a word made up by someone who’s afraid to get too..CLOSE 🎶)

5. This photoshoot - (kill me now)

6. Taeyong looking like that one girlfriend whose trying to convince her boyfriend to buy her something - (im crying taeyong is such a cutie)

7. fhkjdhdkjg bless the person (cr. painkiller) who caught this:

8. Taeyong feeding Jaehyun - (such domestic???)

9. Playing twister together - (rip me)

10.  Secret links: x x x x x x x 

aquitecontentbum  asked:

Top 5 larry moments

daena..,,,,,,,,,

5: YALL DIDN’T REALLY HAVE TO DO THIS LIKE I DON’T UNDERSTAND HARRY AND ZAYN DIDN’T CLASP THEIR HANDS WHEN THEY SHARED A MIC BUT HARRY AND LOUIS DO???? SUSPICIOUS 

(i was lookin at this one more tim e before i moved on and i legit whimpered and teared up bye)

4: WHAT !!!!!! THE FIRKC !!!!!!!!!! LIKE WHY DID HE DO THAT?????? WAS HE TRYING TO GENTLY MOVE HARRY IN PLACE?? DID HE JUST WANT TO TOUCH HIS LIL JANDLES???? DID HE WANT TO REMIND HIM THAT HE’D BE RIGHT THERE BESIDE HIM NO MATTER WHAT HAPPENS ???? 

GODDDDDDD SKFJWRHGKJHRGKJHQ

3: DO YALL SEE THI SPLEASE KJGKJEGKJ HARRY SFACE BINTH WHAT THE HECK!!!!!! I WATCH THIS ALL DAY AN DI CRY BC LOOK OH YM GOD HIS FACE JUST SOFTENS RIGHT UP OH MY DAM JOFRWOGJK AND LIKE LOUIS RAISING HIS EYEBROWS AND TEASING HIM OH MY GOD I’VE FALLEN AND I CANT GET UP

2: SHUT UP!!!!!!!!! ODNT SPEAK TO ME DONT TALK TO ME IM LITERALLY ODFGK STOP LOOK HOW FUDGEINGF=ERJGHRQJ GENTLE BINVH GJHFGJH OH MY OF HARRYS ALL SLEEP Y AND HES LIKE OHOHOH LEMME JUST LEAN MY HEAD ON MY BOYFRIENDS SHOULDER AND YAWN AND LOUIS DOESNT EVEN BAT AN EYELASH  BC HES USED TO IT BICNH HES USED TO HARRY FALLING ASLEEP ON HIM BC AHHAAHA HARRY FALLS ASLEEP IN HIS ARMS EVERY NIGHT HAHAHAHAHAHAHA :)))))))

1: THIS IS A FJJGHFFUDGEING COUPLE MOVE OKAY YOU DONT DO THIS WITH YOUR FRIEND UNLESS THERES UNDERLYING FEELINGS THERE I DONT MAKE THE RULES I JUST ENFORCE THEM OHHY MY OF WHAT IS THIS WHY DID THEY DO THIS I REALLY DONT UNDERSTAND ALSO I HAD THIS TITLES IN MY LAPTOP AS “SKDJHGKFJHGKJA” AND I THINK THAT EXPLAINS A LOT 

BONUS BIVNFHGFKJ:

(HES SO O IN LOVE OHY MY GO !!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!)

DELET EIT

LOOK AT HIS HUSBAND FACE IM SOBBIGN HOMY GOD THEYR EIN LVOE

HAHAHAAHAHAHHAJSJHFDSGFKJDHFKJGH  M FINE

KINGS OF WALKING!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! OH MY GOD~!!!!!!!!!!!!!

WHA T IS THIS LOOK HOW HARRY JUST LIGHTS UP IM NOT OAKY I CANT DO THIS WHY ARE THEY LIKE THIS

THANKS LOUSI S 

DO YOU SEE THIS DAENA DO YOU SEE HARRY LOOKING AT HIS LIPS AND VICE VERSA ????????????????????????????????????????????????

NO

IN CONCLUSION: THEY’RE IN LOVE BICNH AND IM SAD

justthatstarboy  asked:

Hello! I heard you were bored so I decided to drop by and see what I could do to help! What is your favorite Langst headcanon? Your favorite happy Lance headcanon? And if you wouldn't mind, your favorite group vld headcanon? I love your blog and work btw! So lovely! I love seeing you on my dash! -Star

alsdhjbasg, im always bored at work xD thank god im home though, but still bored xD

fav langst headcanon? oh god… thats a hard one. i think its the one where he has a photographic memory and just remembers everythingggg. and he internalizes it, and keeps it from everyone else, because they just dont see how hard hes trying. (like im not villainizing the rest of the team, but everyone misses things) so like the criticisms he gets that are meant to be constructive are taken to heart and just create this feedback loop in his head and its a mess and he hates himself and he wants to go home and he cant because he has to be here for voltron and he beleives hes the most replacable. and boy that just tugs at my heartstrings and gives me the best ideas for fics. ( @isassifras im looking at you hun~)

happy lance headcanon? ho hum, idk, how bout lance being recognized for how smart he actually his, let him lead, let me be more than just comedic relief. trust me i love my boy, and he can be a great leader if given the chance.

team voltron headcanon? dont. make. pidg. cry. dont. make. shiro. sad. thats it. if either of those happen and youre in the room, its your fault. even if you didnt say anything, it was your fault. dont make space dad sad and dont make the tech gremlin cry. simple as that.

alksjdgnafhf’h -screams- thank you so much!!!! that makes me all warm and fuzzy~ (even if im shivering from my icecream xD)

(ノ◕ヮ◕)ノ*:・゚✧ hug tackles!!!! kisses!!!


dedicated to and inspired by a request from Koleen (dauntlester) <3 ily lots and lots xx
more phan doodles here

Resplendence is literally the most terrifying Bayonetta enemy and you dont even actually fight it in game (thANK FUCKING GOD)

look at this fucking thing

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IT’S FUCKING HUGE TOO LIKE IT TAKES UP HALF THE CONTINENT 

ha;flksdjfdas;KDSLJFAS

motheRFUCKER DESTROYED THE ENTIRE CITY WITH ONE NUT SHOT LIKE IM OUT

fjdjdaksk i cant go anon in mobile but HERE IT IS!!!! the luuuvatory party ft me, mod ibuki and gundam anon!!! im so sleepy so pls excuse the terrible doodle ;;

IM FREAKING CRYING THIS IS SO CUTE  I CANT HANDLE THIS OH MY GOSH THJS H SDHDH HFHHDF H S HD  A  HSD THE ART IS SO CUTE I CANT EVEN N HANDLE THIS JUST LOOk. AT THAT GUNDAM PEEKING IN THE BACK IF U DONT SAY THIS IS THE CUTEST THING YOUVE EVER GOSH DARNED SEEN U ARE LYING

THANK YOU SO MUCH FOR THIS ADORABLE AND INCREDIBLE BIT OF ART (I ESP ADORE THE NOODLE ARMS) - Mod Ibuki!

guardian angel!chenle

im so in love with chenle sfdshfjsdfklf im an unloyal hoe markhyuck look away


-so a lil BACKSTORY ON U

-you moved to a new school a few months ago and you couldnt really make friends with anyone :(((

-you lowkey got bullied and you knOW THAT BECAUSE YOU SEE THE GIRLS WHISPER WHENEVER YOURE AROUND

-so cliche

-you didnt really mind but it still sucked :///

-but *SUPERHERO MUSIC* CHENLE TO THE RESCUE

-one day at lunch you were sitting alone and suddenly you felt someone slide into the spot next to you

-next thing you know, a loud voice rings out “hi! im chenle, it’s nice to meet you!”

-”uh… hello…?”

-and later on when classes happened, you realized he was in every single one of your classes

-and then you found out he was also your neighbour???

-who is this creep and why is he stalking you??????

-you were too awkward to call him out but after a week or so you realized he was a really cute and smol precious guy

-your school life suddenly became less awful bc you had a best friend now!!!!! (ノ◕ヮ◕)ノ*:・゚✧

-but little did you know this lil shit was fuckin keeping a secret from you

-he pulled you aside one day and bluntly stated “im your guardian angel”

-to which you laughed in his face bc ??????? BOI

-”lol chenle, youre amazing and shit but calling yourself my guardian angel is so lame smh”

-”no im actually your guardian angel. im not human.”

-”…. :OOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOO”

-you didnt wanna believe him bUT he showed you his wings and you screamed

-it was lowkey weird having a guardian angel best friend but like perks amirite ¯\_(ツ)_/¯ ¯\_(ツ)_/¯ ¯\_(ツ)_/¯

-he can get you anything you want

-after all, his goal is to make your life happy and enjoyable

-but you didnt want him to get you anything you want

-you didnt want things to just be handed to you

-you wanted to work for them

-”you know i can make all your wishes come true with a snap of my fingers right?”

-”i dont want that. that’s lazy and dumb.”

-”… out of the hundreds of people ive looked over, youre the first one to ever tell me that.”

-chenle fell in love with you at that moment :((((

-angels arent allowed to date humans

-like, ever???

-and he knew that but

-he couldnt help it

-even though he couldnt use magic to help you achieve your goals, he’ll use magic to get like chocolate for you whenever youre sad

-”chenle where’d you get this bubble tea?”

-”… hahahaha..hAHA”

-all the girls who used to gossip about you suddenly came up to you everyday and asked “omg hey!!111! so like, where’s chenle?”

-”…. if you dont get the fuck away from me you wont ever see chenle again :))))))))”

-cue chenle’s: ”y/NnNnnN YOU WONT EVER MAKE FRIENDS LIKE THAT”

-”THEY DONT WANNA BE MY FRIEND THEY JUST WANNA DATE YOU”

-”well i have my eye on someone else so it doesnt matter”

-”WHAT WHO”

-“IM NOT TELLING YOU”

-”WHY NOT??? IS IT SOME ANGEL GIRL????”

-”….”

-”SO IT IS”

-you didnt seem very upset about it but your heart went :((((

-i mean nothing changed in your friendship but it still hurt

-at one point of your friendship a lot of girls stopped approaching you asking about chenle but they also started gossiping about you more???

-and you didnt know why until one of them came up to and asked you “i heard youre dating chenle….. yeah u dont deserve him!!11!111!!”

-you were like ?????

-so on the walk back home after school with chenle, you told him that

-and his cheeks flare up what a bABY

-”w-why would they think that??”

-he was your best friend for years dude

-you literally couldnt remember a time where you were happier

-aaand that’s why everything went downhill :((

-chenle knocked on your door at like 9 in the morning on a saturday smh and was like “wanna go on an adventure?”

-so you were like “:(((( ok” 

-you felt like something was wrong but you kinda just ignored it

-so on your walk the bad feeling pursued because chenle was so awkward during it

-eventually you two ended up in a park and he stopped you two

-”hey…. y/n i need to tell you something”

-”yeah chen?”

-DONT MAKE THIS HARDER THAN IT ALREADY IS SDFBHDSLFKNKM

-”… im leaving… i got the message a few days ago and-”

-”wait… what?

-youre… youre not my guardian angel anymore?”

“… im sorry”

-”youre sorry? i guess you werent sorry enough to tell me earlier?”

-”y/n, please listen to me-”

-”when are you leaving?”

-”… in two days”

-”two days? two days? so youre just going to throw this friendship away, huh? we’ve been best friends for years! youre just gonna leave like this?”

-”you know i dont have a choice!”

-and you did

-you knew he didnt have a choice but god you were so fucking in love with him and he was your best fucking friend you had every right to be mad but you also had every right to sit the fuck down

-”… y/n?”

-”dont ever fucking talk to me again chenle.”

-his last day was monday

-and somehow the entire school knew he was ‘moving away’ so all the girls flocked to him

-he didnt care about any of them tho

-all he cared about was you

-but you couldnt even look in his direction without tearing up

-no bff chenle interactions for the entire day :((

-after school you two walked together in silence

-right as he dropped you off he mumbled “im leaving tonight”

-you clenched your jaw to bite back the tears and spit out “fine.”

-you didnt know whether or not to go over and become best friends with him again but he was gonna be gone in a few hours so what’s the point?

-youre too stubborn to apologize anyway

-at around 10pm you started getting fidgety because fuck what if he’s gone already what if it’s too late?

-but then your mom came into your room and told you chenle was waiting for you at the door so you felt a smol weight being lifted off your shoulders

-”you know im leaving in two hours right?”

-”yeah and?”

-”… y/n cant you be my best friend again? for another two hours? for our last two hours?”

-chenle was a desperate hoe but you were lowkey too so

-”… dont you get it chen? if we become best friends again… even for two hours… it’ll just make everything harder”

-at that point chele just couldnt take it anymore

-”god youre so fucking dumb y/n”

-”… what?”

-”havent you noticed? everybody else in school has and fuck, probably even the angels too. everyone else but you”

-”noticed what?”

-”noticed that im so god damn in love with you”

-you slapped your hand over his mouth and hissed “shut up youre not supposed to fall in love with humans!”

-”so you dont like me back huh? i shouldve known.” his eyes became glossy and dark and he looked like he was about to cry

-you decided ‘fuck it lmao he’s leaving in 2 hours anyway’

-”chen youre a fucking dumbass ive been in love with you for so long and you didnt even have a CLUE”

-chenle stopped breathing for a good minute before he grinned and glanced up at the sky

-”god im about to be thrown out of heaven for you”

-before you could even question him he presses his lips against yours and rests his forehead on yours when he pulls away

-you didnt even realize you were crying until you felt chenle wiping your tears away

-”youre the only thing that ever made me feel this way, you know? i just thought being an angel was easy because we had no feelings but… i guess i was wrong.

-y/n i-”

-”dont say it. you know theyre listening and-”

-”i love you.”

-*cue cliche drizzle of rain*

-”chenle…”

-”say it back to me before i have to leave because god am i going to get in so much trouble for this”

-the rain came down harder like it was egging you on so you said fuck it and

-”chenle i love you too.”

110) I’m sick of starving. Sick of binging. Sick of purging. I dont remember what a healthy portion of food looks like. I dont remember how to notice when I am full. I eat until I feel sick and in pain or I dont eat near enough to satisfy me because my body has no way of telling me its full until I need to vomit. My family know about it and bought me kitchen scales a day later. My friends know and dont check in. Non of them think i am sick enough to be taken seriously. Im sick of breaking down from restricting and stuffing my face. Im sick of counting calories and counting down to allowed meal times. Im sick of binge eating while looking at thinspo and crying. Im sick of still being chubby. Im sick of not looking as sick and fragile as I feel. Im sick of nobody worrying about me while I am falling more and more everyday. Im so messed up I wish I would hurry up and get sicker quicker. Idk if this is even about being thin anymore or if its about finally being sick enough to get help. I have nobody to speak to who will take me seriously. I have a psychiatrists assesment soon and I dont wanna say anything about my ED because im not thin enough to be taken seriously. Everybody is so uneducated and I am so alone. You dont have to post this or you can pick certain elemants to post as seperate confessions but I needed to get this off my chest. Im just sick.

reasons why michael would be the best daddy ever:

-once they reached a suitable age, he’d let your kid draw all over themselves with colourful markers in an attempt to replicate his tattoos because “babe! they’re non-toxic and washable!”
-buying a mini leather jacket and boasting about how your kid was going to be the “coolest punk rocker on the block”
-the first time the baby throws up on him, he’d probably yell out a surprised “what the fuCK” before realizing that he just swore in front of your child
-”dont tell mummy about this, okay?”
-buying your kid a guitar for their first birthday, even though “michael, they won’t be able to play it” “yeah but that doesnt mean i cant expose them to the life and tools of a musician”
-pretending to steal the baby’s nose, only to panic and cringe when your child starts to cry “no no no im sorry bub, please dont cry–look! i gave it back, everything’s fine, please stop crying”
-”this is just between you & me, okay? lets not tell mummy.”
-when you’re out shopping and the baby’s crying because they’re hungry, michael’s there scooping your newborn into his arms and sobbing with them because “i know bub, i wish i had boobs too”
-always complaining about how your kid seems to prefer uncle luke over their own father
-trying to fit in a quickie whilst you’re in the middle of doing laundry and the dinosaur chicken nuggets in the oven are about to burn
-”okay so this is called a secret. that means we dont tell anybody, including mummy”
-colouring with your kid for ten minutes every day because “babe, some smart people said it helps relieve stress…you should try it, you look like you need it”
-”jk you dont need it, you’re beautiful, now please put my guitar down”
-fucking up every once in a while and saying “im sorry, im sorry, please dont break up with me”
-reassuring you time and time again after your pregnancy that “no, your stretch marks dont change anything, your pudge doesnt change anything, you’re still my sexy wife and i want to make love to you right now”
-crying a lil bit when your child calls him “dadda” for the first time
-”shut the fuck up Calum, so what if i cried, im still more punk-rock than you’ll ever be”

for @felicityash and @calgasms pregnancy/daddy!5sos blurb night!

calum ashton luke

*sees Jan. 26 death anniversary gifs* oh *opens up art program* that was today *starts sobbing* i didnt even care for them that much *strikes each line violently* i wasnt emotionally attached really *tries to undo the sad feels by drawing them all smiling* i mean theyre not even that important to me

how to get adopted by ranve:

  • be small
  • be tiny
  • have difficult parents
  • have weird, possibly uncontrollable powers
  • look at her w heart eyes and expectations that she cant possibly carry out but will damn well Try to anyway even tho shes gonna be a huge disappointment
  • be extremely irritating so that she can out-irritate you
  • need her to protect u
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anonymous asked:

lemme send in some love for my boy hoseok i just saw them for the first time ever this year and it made me soooo happy that everyone was complimenting how amazing he performed/looked because it's so hard finding hoseok stans i swear!!! don't tell a soul but i started crying when he smiled that gorgeous smile during mama he's that beautiful!!!

omg really???? i think my dash is just hoseok stans gfhdjskdjf i love my boy and im glad theres so much love for him from people who dont even stan him like that he definitely deserves it hes so amazing and beautiful and talented god id die for him!!!

anonymous asked:

omg awww, you're such a sweetheart! n ty so much for converting! this definitely made my day!! looking forward to having it in game! (no pressure tho, take ur time!) and yeah :c i hope i get it back too. its kinda weird not having my acc. i even forgot my backup acc which sucks lol shhh its okay, dont cry vivi, im sure they'll respond to me soon.. *still hopeful* (qvoix)

omg, i forgot to answer you, dear! >o<

I try my best with the convert, and I hope you can test it for me! I miss yooou TwT ♥

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phanandothertrash  asked:

Thanks Anx. I feel like you dont get this a lot but you can really help even if you dont feel like youre helping at all. You do help. Just look at me. Im not crying that much anymore. *sniffles* and i can smile too. *smiles* and you made this happen. Thank you *smiles again and hugs you again* Let's watch some horror shall we? I need some distraction if thats okay. I heard you like horror. *looks up at you with hoping eyes* -Chris

*smiles* yeah I love horror *pick up the remote* will I just pick a random one?
-Anxiety

anonymous asked:

For the supercorp headcannon let's get on with the angst: who has more nightmares? Who usually comforts who? How the Danvers and the Kents take a Luthor?

omg i am so excited i have so much angst in my soul and so much angst for these two lil nerds

  • SO i would say kara probably has more nightmares but lena generally has more intense ones??  
    • this isnt to say that kara’s are not fucking intense and terrible and usually involve, you know, the destruction of her planet, culture, family, etc, but she’s had them for what’s going on 10+ years and while she used to wake up screaming in the beginning (which, tbh, is a big reason why alex became so incredibly protective over her, even when she resented her existence, bc she was this little girl that was so far from a home that didnt even exist anymore and she was crying and scared and alex is a giant softie so of course she got up and got into kara’s bed, curled around her and stayed awake, vigilant until kara was asleep again, anyway that was off topic i just have a LOT of emotions about the danvers sisters)
      • but like its been years and so she’s sort of used to them??  and unless it’s particularly bad, she usually just wakes up a little shaken or sad but its manageable
        • that said, lena’s particularly attuned to kara bc kara often wont verbalize whats eating away at her??  she’s so used to putting on a brave face and closing off whatever anger or sadness or doubt she has and she wont saying anything so lena’s learned to catch onto the minutiae, the tiny shift of expression, the deep sadness in those blue eyes before its shoved back.  so she usually wakes up with kara, and even though she’s not always one hundred percent coherent she’s usually with it enough to figure out whats happening and pull kara against her, ground her, land a sleepy kiss to her cheek or temple
    • lena on the other hand, has not had 10+ years to adjust and the nightmares are a pretty recent development, often centered around thinking she’s got lex back on her side again only to have him kill her, or her have to kill him, or the worst yet, developed only after learning about supergirl, being somehow manipulated into killing kara herself (those are…..the Worst tbh).  she usually wakes up crying, though there have been a couple times when she’ll wake screaming and she’s so used to self soothing, to just shaking and rocking until she’s calm enough to get up and make herself some tea and down some ambien, its honestly a little bit of a shock the first time kara is around for one of these nights and she’s so worried about lena, sitting up in a blink of an eye and sort of–she doesn’t want to make it worse by holding her if she doesnt want to be touched and lena’s not really??  talking???  and kara doesnt know what to do, doesnt know how to make this better for her and she feels so incredibly helpless
      • in the end, she sort of just stays with her, just so she’s not alone until lena sort of collapses against her, crying so hard that she’s shaking and kara takes that as her cue so she wraps her arms around her and channels a lil alex and stays awake until lena’s calm, until she’s asleep again and then she stays awake past that, not sure what to do if it happens again
        • they talk about it the next morning, after lena’s cancelled her meetings and stumbles out looking like death and kara’s still got a worried look on her face even as she sets down a smiley face pancake in front of lena when she sits at the kitchen island
          • like……dont look at me bc im totally NOT crying over the thought of lena looking incredibly small, the smallest she’s ever seemed to kara, and her trying to explain what happened, trying to explain that they just happen sometimes and that kara shouldnt worry and kara like aggressively worrying and just asking what she can do to make it better when lena wakes up like that
  • a lot of the time its lena comforting kara, like she has a lot going on you know?  like she’s desperately trying to balance being supergirl with maintaining some semblance of a normal life and on top of that she’s constantly reminded of the fact that she is the only living being that still remembers krypton, that carries the history, the traditions, the culture, the language with her because while kal-el knows a bit here and there, he never lived it, never went to the festivals, never watched it die and there is no one that can relate to that, that can relate to the very specific pain of being 13 and watching everyone and everything you love die AND THEN not even being able to carry out the last thing your mother ever told you to do like kara carries so much guilt and she rarely vocalizes it and even then its never exactly about it, always by proxy, some sideways way of approaching it
    • she normally breaks down in front of alex, her go-to, her rock, but then alex is happy for once and kara can’t–kara won’t take that away from her, refuses to weigh her down with this when she knows she’s the reason it took this long for alex to look so free so she buries it deep and this goes on for months and then she has this one awful day where snapper is on her case about something that isn’t even in her control and she was looking forward to her date with lena that night when, of course, supergirl duty called and she cancelled and the alien’s just a fuckin jerk ok, just a jerk that liked to blow shit up and kara’s tired, she is, she just wants to feel okay for a little and she’s reached a point where she’s not sure if that means she wants to be kara zor-el or kara danvers but splitting the difference is hurting more and more each day and she just wants to feel okay
      • she flies to lena’s after the debrief at deo hq.  it’s nearly one and most of the lights are off when kara lands on the balcony but she also knows that lena’s first meeting isnt until the afternoon tomorrow and she also knows that she doesn’t think she can handle going back to her empty loft tonight
        • she also knows that when she doesnt stay the night, lena sleeps with her phone on the bed and lena actually picks up on the first ring which means she’s either still up working or has just finished and kara can barely tell her im on the balcony, it’s chilly, please come let me in and then she’s crying and lena doesn’t hang up, kara thinks, but then she’s at the top of the stairs, jogs down them and unlocks and slides the glass door open and then kara’s falling into her arms and lena holds her for a moment before she’s guiding her up the stairs and leaving her at the foot of her bed while she stacks her papers haphazardly and dumps them onto her dresser and later kara will think that that’s probably the biggest sign that lena cares for kara as much as kara cares for her, but then lena’s pulling back the covers and following kara when she climbs in, pulling her back against her chest and just letting her cry it out
          • i’m tired, she whispers later.  i’m just so tired.
          • then sleep, love, lena murmurs back.  i’m right here.
            • kara wakes up sometime long past when she should have.  lena’s still there, holding her, and she murmurs when kara starts to sit up i called snapper and told him that i’d offered you an exclusive on the new tablet we’re putting out, she yawns.  and that you’d be sitting in on meetings for the next week.
              • lena
              • you need a break
                • which, well, true
    • and this isnt to say that kara doesnt spend just as much time taking care of lena, but the way lena views it, she has a therapist that she pays good money to listen to her and, like, she can actually talk about things without any sort of cover story in a way that kara can’t outside a select group of people and lena is honestly just glad that she’s part of that select group and maybe that means she announces a couple of pieces of tech a little earlier than initially intended, it still fucks with apple pretty well
  • HOO BOY OH MAN OH GOD OKAY so the danvers handle it with relative grace, they really do; alex gives lena the shovel talk and, quite honestly, so does eliza, but kara’s happy and safe and that is their first and foremost worry, really, so when it becomes clear that lena is just as committed to that ideal, just as willing to prioritize kara’s well being, it’s easy enough to accept her.  it doesn’t hurt that she’s got the whole my parents never loved me! card to play, something that immediately wins over eliza ‘i’ve never met an orphan that i didnt want to mother’ danvers and lena and alex sort of bond haphazardly over That Lesbian Lifestyle and their shared drive to keep kara safe and happy
    • so while they’re wary for a bit and thoroughly vet lena, she’s eventually just kara’s girlfriend lena, rather than Lena Luthor, Sister to Lex Luthor, Daughter to Lionel and Lillian Luthor, which is???  honestly all lena’s wanted?????
    • THE KENTS ON THE OTHER HAND so honestly idk what history supergirl is working with for clark like are his parents even alive???  who knows but im going with no bc ive only ever seen man of steel and have never watched smallville and also dont care that much.  ANYWAY kara literally does not tell kal-el for the LONGEST time because she knows exactly how he’ll react and she’s not interested in having him talk down to her when she is, in fact, older than him and more than capable of making her own decisions and judging people based on merit, rather than surname.  but like…..he’s superman.  he finds out eventually.  probably by winn accidentally letting it slip (he then sends off abt fifteen thousand panicked texts to kara, all starting with IM SO SORRY HE’S JUST GOT THAT FACE AND I GOT DISTRACTED or something like it)
      • and then kara’s getting a pissed kal-el storming into catco and, well, he’s not yelling but he might as well be and kara’s eyes just about roll out of her head and she drags him up to the roof, where at least they won’t have an audience wondering why clark kent gives a shit about kara’s relationship and then kal-el’s yelling about The Luthor Family is Bad News Kara and kara’s like listen i Don’t Care (i mean, obviously she does; she knows what lex did and what that in turn did to kal-el but at the same time, he is perpetuating the same bullshit judge a book by its cover that kara has fought so hard against and he’s not even bothering to listen to her, just sort of assuming that that she will listen to him and break up with her girlfriend that she likes like a Lot, maybe even loves, and so honestly Fuck You Buddy) and it boils down to if you’re not willing to respect my ability to make autonomous decisions, then you can leave and kal-el’s like FINE and kara’s like FINE and he flies away and kara’s so angry and hurt that she spends the rest of the day in the deo training room (kryptonite off) punching everything she can
        • it is not fine at all bc while he’s got an entirely different experience from kara when it comes to krypton, he’s also the only tie she has left to her home, her family and it breaks her into too many pieces to count that he’s entirely unwilling to even consider judging lena for her own actions, or even to consider the fact that this is kara and she trusts lena with her life, her secret, and that should count for something.  lena’s particularly quiet during this time, turning it over in her head again and again, knowing exactly the weight that kara’s cousin carries for her, exactly how terrible this is for her, how it’s lena’s fault that kal-el’s not talking to kara
        • its a Bad Time, because then lena’s pulling away, putting distance where kara doesn’t want it out of guilt, but kara’s too upset to think anything but the worst and it culminates in what is actually their first fight (bc while they’ve had disagreements, disagreements have never ended with kara storming out in tears)
          • kara shows up at alex’s crying and alex’s first instinct is to murder lena luthor, her second is to hide the body, her third (and strongest) is to draw her sister into her arms and let her cry on her shoulder because everything’s just gone to shit and i dont know what to do alex, i dont know and alex’s heart is breaking and she stays with kara through the night and only leaves once her sister falls asleep, and only then to go to lena’s apartment and flashes her fbi forgery to be let up without question and then she’s banging on lena’s door shouting WHY IS KARA CRYING ON MY COUCH LUTHOR and lena answers the door looking wrecked, all red eyes and puffy face and its so obvious that she’s just as upset and alex, who will deny it vehemently if asked, has already developed a soft spot for her sister’s girlfriend, and it probably helps that lena’s first words to her are is kara alright?
          • so alex softens a little, enough to think rationally, to remember that lena is, by all evidence, absolutely whipped when it comes to kara and would never do anything to hurt her, so she asks what happened and lena looks like she doesn’t want to answer but this is alex, Super Intimidating DEO Agent And Also Sister To Supergirl/Kara Danvers and lena’s Lena Luthor, Billionaire and Survivor of Multiple Assassination Attempts, but she’s also incredibly sad and worried and scared that she’s ruined what was possibly the only good thing aside from her company so she tells alex everything and then alex is S E E T H I N G like what the fuck kent and she leaves lena, promising that talking to kara would be a good idea and calls kal-el and tells him he’s needed at the deo, to meet her in the training room
            • she greets him with a slap to the back of his head when he walks in like what the actual fuck kent, i get that you dont trust luthors, but you should trust kara of all people and his bullshit excuse gets lost somewhere in alex’s Big Sister yelling, like do you not understand how fucked up it is that you cut off the only person in the world that has any idea of what you go through just because you dont like who she’s dating and lena is not her brother, she’s not her mother or father either, she is her own person and i’m not sure if you remember, but your father in law built a death machine with the only purpose of using it to kill kara if he ever chose to, not sure if you remember that he tortured her aunt without need, not sure if you remember the hell he put kara through and you dont see her judging lois for that or cutting you off because of it and the mighty superman is reduced to a shaken ball of nerves by the end of it, suddenly realizing how shitty he was being
            • he gets to kara’s apartment just as lena does and then it’s as awkward and uncomfortable as it possibly could be and kara opens the door to find them locked in a staring match and then lena’s looking at kara and kara’s looking at lena and kal-el has to clear his throat to get them to even remember he’s there and even then just barely and he sort of mumbles out something about him being wrong, lena obviously cares about you and you care about her and im just going to butt my butt out now (at least that’s what kara garners from his stumbling attempts at an apology)
            • its never an easy topic, but its not like the kents and the danvers spend thanksgiving together or anything and it puts a strain on kara and kal-el’s relationship moving forward, something that trips lena up sometimes, makes her uncertain and worried and guilty and they struggle with that for quite some time, because lena knows that kara’s lost and doesn’t want her losing this, losing him too, just because of her; at the same time, kara’s reached a point of knowing that she’s damned either way, but even if its uncomfortable, she’s happy and lena’s happy and their friends are happy for them and that’s what matters