im cry why do they hate me

things people in my theatre class have said

“look guys i vandalized george washington”

“i fucking HATE that note” 

“that was so beautiful im crying how does she even hit that note??”

(off-key screeching) “i think thats a little flat”

“oh my god your voice is so good why are you in the ensemble?” “i can’t act” “THIS IS??? A THEATRE CLASS??”

“i love (random musical)” “fight me”

“everyone shut up and give me attention”

“and thats why its called a triple threat” “im not even a single threat”

“how was ur audition” “im dead”

“why do they make the orchestra play under the stage??? its like a fuckin horror movie in there”

(while walking backstage) “holy FUCK theres so much stuff in here”

“why is there a brownie on the side of the stage” “dont question it its always been there”

(incoherent screaming about the tonys)

“you wore that shirt yesterday” “shhhhHHHH”

“i had a dream about kiwis yesterday.” “…” “the fruit and the bird”

“theater is the place and theatre is the profession” “wait really”

“Well that’s disgusting,
I feel bad for that poor kid”

“How are we supposed to protect our baby from hate?”

Really messed up feelings:

• When you’re surrounded by people and still feel completely alone
• When the people who tell you they care about you leave, just like everybody else
• When you really want a hug, just so you don’t feel so alone, but feel too needy to ask for one
• When the one person in the whole world you thought you could rely on leaves you when you need them most
• When the person you trusted with your whole life lets you down
• And then makes you believe it’s your own fault
• And you’re left sitting there, crying in your room, trying so damn hard to muffle your sobs into your pillow so you won’t wake your family in the next room, wondering what the hell you did wrong… what the hell you always do wrong…

No, but you see, my problem isn’t just the song per se, it’s that I have it on repeat and I just keep seeing Louis? Harry sings and sings and I see flashes of Louis, black&white Louis, younger, older, smiling, running, drinking his tea, kicking a ball, laughing, being soft, playing Fifa, rubbing his tired eyes, talking excitedly about something, but mostly smiling, smiling sweet, soft, pure, smiling in a lot of places, for a lot of reasons, that happy smile of his, you know? And then I hear Harry’s voice again, you bring me home, and Louis is there, smiling with his hand held out, rope on his wrist, and I start crying all over again.

imagine dean and cas have both grown up together, best friends, and they’ve graduated college and like. neither of them have exactly found that someone and they wanna focus on their careers for a little while right and so they’re like “hey let’s live together for a while” so they adopt like 3 dogs (golden doodle, obviously golden retriever, and pretty brown lab) and they find a stray black cat in the shelter looking for a fourth dog (“dean, is she not gorgeous? look at her eyes! she has blue eyes like my own! i’ve never seen a black cat with blue eyes, it must be so rare. this means it is meant to be, cmon, dean”) and turns out the cat gets along pretty well with dogs according to the shelter and so dean is really out of arguments and unfortunately the blue in luna the cat’s eyes reminds him a terrible amount of cas’ and so of course he gives in and cas hugs him so enthusiastically dean doesn’t even complain as much as he planned to when they have to keep going to buy different allergy medications because his body gets used to each different one and it stops working and about a year and a half passes by and wow dean is so fucking in love with cas and wow cas is bringing home some guy named Balthazar that he’s been seeing for two months and as much as he loves cuddling with his beautiful golden retriever it seems like the cat just understands (maybe it’s the eyes) and so he finds himself constantly telling luna all of his feelings while she stares at him with big eyes and their golden doodle rests her head and paw on dean comfortingly while cas and Balthazar are out celebrating their 2 year and when cas comes home he looks wrecked but…. at peace??? and dean’s heart is aching because honestly what the fuck did bitch-a-zar (yeah, dean calls him that in his head. So Fuckin What) do to the love of his fucking life (also yeah, dean accepted this wasn’t just a crush a while ago) (by a while ago he means literally like three weeks ago because dean refusing things is just so much easier in his head but hey, his break through happened) and it’s as if cas can sense dean’s concern-hidden-by-protective-anger and says “he didn’t break it off, dean. i did.” and then he makes his way to his room and tuts so that Luna follows, but not before she gives dean a look that basically says “stop being a little bitch and tell him” (what the fuck. cats are weird) and when cas doesn’t come out of his room the next day for their weekly Saturday movie night (neither of them has missed a day since mary died. that was 16 years ago) dean decides to go in and is confused when he sees cas crying with bloodshot eyes (not because he assumed he’d be fine, but because cas is such a loud cryer and he hasn’t heard him all day) but willing to listen if cas would just fucking look at him and he knows cas knows he’s standing there and god dean knows this is the worst fucking time to do it but he just wants to tell cas how he feels and instead Dean says, “cas?” and when cas responds with a broken, “dean, please. i know tonight’s movie night but i just.. i can’t bring myself to it. i haven’t cashed in my one time out. please let me use my one time this time.” deans heart is actually breaking as he says, “as long as you’re okay with using your one time on an asshole like that.” all that seems to do to cas is make him cry slightly more, and dean hates himself immediately, fuck what did he say what did he say what did he say, and cas says, sort of bitterly, but more directed at himself, not dean, “trust me, Balthazar is amazing. in another life, i probably could’ve married him.” and deans heart Fucking breaks in half, literally, he hears the tearing of it, he swears, and dean says “why don’t you do it now?” and he knows how broken that just came out but he doesn’t care he just fucking wants cas to be happy and then cas says, “im in love with someone else.” and dean is surprised, because that’s so unlike cas, to not tell dean about this kind of thing, and says after a moment, “you’re sure it’s love?” and when cas scoffs deans already half broken heart aches, “trust me. the way he makes me feel? ive never been more sure.” and dean is about to just say okay awkwardly and leave before crying his own amount of heartbroken tears in the privacy of his own room, but then cas continues, “I never thought I would have my definition of love, I never thought I would truly know what it was. I thought I had it with balth, but.. I was wrong. I knew I was wrong when he proposed to me yesterday and I was thinking ‘his spaghetti looks good’.” cas scoffs, at himself this time, “god, the answer’s been in front of me the whole time. almost my entire life.” and then he puts his head in his hands, as dean says, “cas, who has you all worked up like this? is he really deserving of you stopping your life like this?” and now cas gives out a laugh, but it’s bitter, this time directed at both himself and dean, saying “you would disagree, but he deserves everything I could ever give him and more. he’s imperfect in the best way,” and dean responds, “i know him?? who is he?” and dean regrets asking the second he does because he’ll never be able to be civil to that friend ever again, but dean realizes cas has said it and dean couldn’t hear him because he was wrapped up in his own thoughts and cas’ words were still mumbled by his own hands and when dean says, “who, cas?” again, cas stands up suddenly and crowds dean against the door frame and wow, who needs breathing, dean doesn’t, “you.” cas puffs a breath of air into deans face, eyes closed, as dean processes what’s happening, “it’s you, dean. you’re the reason I broke it off with Balthazar. youre the one that deserves everything in the world. you’re the one I’m in love with. you’re the one that gave me my definition of love.” and cas’ eyes aren’t closed now, but they’re downcast, and dean gets his attention by reaching out and touching his cheek with a gentle hand and a quiet, “cas, please kiss me” as they make eye contact and well, if a year later dean proposes to cas with a piece of paper attached to Luna’s collar and cas does the same thing on their golden doodle’s collar, then, well, that’s their business

If the sky that we look upon
Should tumble and fall
Or the mountain should crumble to the sea
I won’t cry, I won’t cry
No, I won’t shed a tear
Just as long as you stand, stand by me


This wasn’t supposed to be a red and blue thing but like… that’s just how the sky is man.
can’t believe the night and day themselves confirmed klance ://

4

Even if I die and go to that other world
I have comrades to confide in
Believe and grip your sword
Don’t hesitate and keep running!

the list 
Capricorn: “Astrology about Capricorn is usually incorrect”
Aquarius: “Aquarius is an AIR sign? I thought it was water…”
Person: Oh what about me im on the cusp of Aries-Pisces… “you can only have 1 suns sign?’‘ … YEAH! BUT I AM BORN ON THE CUSP IM 2 SIGNS!
Pisces: “Everyone hates Pisces everyone hates me cos I’m a Pisces alll the signs in the zodiac hate Pisces all the websites say we are just cry babies why do they have to be so mean”
Uranus: lol uranus!
Virgo: “wtf is with astrology I’m the messiest bitch ever” or “Virgo is always the ignored sign”
From every sign: you never post enough of my sign

VIXX - How they react to handjobs

“How would VIXX react when you are giving them handjobs (would they be vocal/submissive/sweet/dirty-talkers and so on ^_^)”

(A/N: I’m writing this whilst listening through Kratos for the first time lmao rip me; also Good Night & Good Morning made me cry ??? like actual liquid came out my face ????? I HATE BEING WONSIK BIASED WHY DID HE SING AND WHY DID HE SPEAK ALL LOW WHY DID HE DO THAT TO ME SOMEONE SEND HELP BC YA GIRL IS GON E. Also my lil binglebong go so many more lines im sO haPPY FINALLY JELPI)

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Hakyeon: At the beginning I think Hakyeon would be pretty vocal, but more like he’d probably be giving you some kinda slight directions like “fuck (Y/N) faster, yes, like that omg”. But once you’re doing it exactly how he liked, he’d be a handsy lil shit, so expect him to be, uh, returning the favour to you at the same time.

Taekwoon: Leo is always difficult bc like, whereas he’s shy and quiet af on camera, I think he could be fairly dominant in the bedroom. The boy’s like two minds in one body so I think he’d probably vary. Majority of the time I think he’d be kinda quiet, not really vocal, but more breathy, letting out long sighs of your name. But expect his face to be buried in the crook of your neck leaving mad hickies for the world to see. 

Jaehwan: I picture Jaehwan as being preeeetty submissive honestly, but not like completely. He’d be vocal, but not really dirty talking, more just praise, though he would get pretty sweary. Depending on how you were both positioned obv I think he’d pretty much just melt; head back, eyes closed, with a huge blissful smile spread across his face.

Wonsik: DefiniTELY a dirty talker like omg, like he’d be telling you just how well you’re doing and how much he likes it, all whilst being very vERY sweary. Expect some pretty intense tongue kissing and lip biting too tbh. He’d let out some loW AF moans too like jfc, or really just one really low, drawn out “fuuuuuuuuuck” as he tilts his head back. 

Hongbin: I feel like our shy little bean would be pretty quiet at first, but the closer he got to finishing, he’d turn into a total mess. An ‘eyes screwed shut, probably whimpering your name mess’. Afterwards he’d feel almost obliged to repay all your hard word all whilst praising you for how you make him feel. He’d probably never take his lips off yours the entire time.

Sanghyuk: Hyuk will always be a baby to me but he’s apparently pretty experienced with the ladies so I think he’d probably be one of the more vocal ones. He’d wanna get you off too, so he’d be taking care of your needs at the same time. The closer he got to finishing I think he’d get pretty loud and his moves w his fingers on you would get rougher. 

jellypinguuu  asked:

could i request a parkwoojin scenario? hehe like you're dating him and u don't feel like u're good enough for him and also think you don't look good so u distant urself away from him and he feels worried and sad and he asks u why and in the end he comforts you and makes u feel better and u have a cute asf relationship in the end!! :))

thanks for requesting!! under read more bc its ,,, kinda long hehe

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Anorexia

“Just eat”
Sounds simple enough? Right?
If it’s so easy to “just eat” then why is it whenever I eat I wanna cry for hours? Why do I hate myself for eating a grape? Why do I feel like I’m a failure when I gain a pound?
“Im not hungry”
This is my quote I live by. I worship this saying as if it were my religion. I bow down to the girls who have a thigh gap, hip bones, collar bones, and skinny fingers.
“I’m fine”
Something I chant to others who ask me if I am okay. Because I haven’t been eating as much as I use to, because I look sickly, because I almost fainted in class again today, because I stumbled into the nurses office saying I feel faint. She asks me what’s wrong and I just reply with “I’m tired”

CAN I SAY SOMETHING ABOUT JOHN’S LITTLE SPEECH?
I’ll say it anyway.
He is asking Sherlock for a miracle and he underlines the fact that Sherlock should do it for him. You just have to read it. He said “For me” and then he repeats it saying “Just for me”. And I think he said that first of all cause he cant live without Sherlock, he just cant live without the only person he is in love like never before and also becaUSE HE THINKS HE IS A GOOD REASON FOR SHERLOCK TO BE ALIVE AND DO A MIRACLE. I mean, John said “just for me” and im absolutely sure he means “just for me, Sherlock. If you cant find a reason to come back do it for me cause im here and i want you back. For me. Cause i need you and i love you. Do it for me. Let me be the reason why you want to live again. Cause you are the reason why im alive. I want to be yours.”


That’s all.
Now I’m crying.

(If someone else just pointed it out before god bless you. I’m just seeing it now and I share it. Cause of the feels. And the heartbreak. And the pain.)

anonymous asked:

From each team, who do you think holds their liquor the best? and who the worst?

Hehehehehh I love this! I’m just gonna do Karasuno, Seijou, Nekoma and Fukurodani because I’m lazy

Karasuno: 

BEST - Tsukki! I feel like he’d be one of those dudes who drinks like 5 beers and is like “when am I supposed to start feeling something?”

WORST - Hinata for sure. Takes one sip “GUYS I’M DRUNK” STARTS TO GET REALLY BAD IDEAS AFTER 3 DRINKS. STARTS JUMPING OFF OF SHIT AT 4 DRINKS. It’s bad. The night ends with him getting the spins and puking his guts out usually.

Aoba Johsai: 

BEST - Definitely Matsukawa. He’s just chill and calm. He’s definitely feelin’ it but he’s not off the rails white girl wasted.

WORST - Probably Oikawa tbh. He’s probably a crying drunk. Someone looks at him the wrong way “WHY DO YOU HATE ME???” “IWACHAN IM A FAILURE” it’s messy.

Nekoma:

BEST - Probably Kai. During a night of drinking he’s definitely drunk but he’s the one who’s taking care of all the messy drunks tbh

WORST - Lev takes a shot and HIS INDOOR VOICE IS GONE EVERYTHING IS JUST HIM SCREAMING he’s a mess he’s more blunt/dumb than usual everyone wants to hit him ALMOST GETS IN A BAR FIGHT has to be taken home early

Fukurodani:

BEST - Akaashi for sure. He can drink like 7 beers and he’s still as cool as a cucumber

WORST - gUYS IT’S BOKUTO FOR SURE. bab just can’t hold his liquor. IS A HUGE FLIRT. Puts his arm around everyone even if he doesn’t know them, slurs into their ears, tries to kiss people, someone take him home he’s going to get arrested

anonymous asked:

I had a dream last night that Theon drowned in an episode and washed up on the beach on Dragonstone and Melisandre was like "The Lord of Light is not done with the Kraken!" and brought him back to life and when Theon woke up Mel and Jon were standing over him and he said "Why did you bring me back? I was with Robb."

ahhahahahah why did you do this to me ahahahahahahha guess who wrote something ahahhahaha im totally not crying right now ahaahhahha i hate everything 


Theon’s eyes open wide and he is surprised to find himself in a warm room instead of the Drowned God’s halls. He expected to be cold and wet but here he is dry and warm. Soft furs are covering him and a warm fire is crackling in the fireplace across from the bed he is cocooned in. The room is so familiar but he cannot place it. He knows it deep in his bones but his brain is slow to catching up, taking in one detail at a time. It takes a few minutes of collecting all the pieces when he notices that he is not alone.

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