what’s so frustrating is how the entire world is silent right now. especially these fucking celebrities and the media who all speak up when there’s a tragedy in America or Paris etc. but are MUTE right now on everything going on in Aleppo. Why are people turning a blind eye? this is a genocide. a crime against ALL of humanity. is it because it’s muslims being killed that no one wants to speak up? and at the same time its so mind-blowing how none of the other muslim leaders in the world seem to be doing anything to help their brothers and sisters in Aleppo. the world is silent while innocent people are being killed.
guys I literally cannot think about anything but transition stuff now I’m so hype and distracted I just want the days to go by super fast until I can get hold of the prescription but I also feel like I’m bothering everyone when I talk about it because I’m just so excited and emotional. It’s like I can’t genuinely express how much this means to me… I feel like it’s going to be the start of a better life for me and there’s going to be so much positivity along the way. I really just want to embrace and enjoy the whole process. I’ve had such damn awful times the past few years. My lowest point was after my suicide attempt and being put in the female ward at the hospital and being chided by the nurses for doing such a thing. All night I was still wishing the overdose would end my pain and I wouldn’t have to live as a trans person with bpd. But now I’m surrounded by supportive partners, friends and family with my first day of t on the near horizon and I doubted I would even make it here?? I’ve struggled with so much depression and anxiety and suicidal thoughts and bpd episodes throughout the years that it was difficult for me to even see a future for myself where anything was different. But now living full time as a guy with great people in my life makes such a huge difference and it’s only going to get better. I’m going to be me??? I’m going to finally look like who I actually am?? I can’t wait for the future and damn I’m so happy I’m at a point in my life where I can say that truthfully and honestly.