alex’s ‘im glad you came’ and maggie’s ‘i almost didn’t’ though like….they’re both hurting so much??? because alex jumped preemptively because that what she’s always known how to do. she’s known how to cut things off when they become about her and now with kara missing nothing can be about her. and then everything slows down for a second and there was probably this ache in her chest and this fear and her stomach probably fell to her toes like. shit i really could have lost her. and alex danvers spent so long being afraid to be happy. she spent so long running from it. now? now she’s running towards it. she’s inviting happiness into her life and accepting that she’s allowed to have it. she’s allowed to be happy and to consider herself and what she wants for once.
and maggie. wow well maggie jumped too. she followed her gut. she trusted her instinct and now all of the sudden it’s like whiplash. she put herself out on this ledge and she’s letting herself open up and be happy too - and then suddenly that’s pulled out from underneath her. with no context, no warning, nothing. just a few muddled words. and she probably wondered if she just made another mistake, if it was worth it. and she decided this was worth fixing, worth fighting for, worth really starting. she came. she showed up. maggie’s learning that she’s allowed to be happy too and not everyone is going to hurt her and that also makes me extraordinarily emo.
Fake AH Crew Geoff being almost notorious for his bad sleeping habits. The guy’s already anxious almost all the time: his fingers constantly tremble as he makes deals, his voice breaks when he talks, it’s just how thing’s go. It’s why he has his loyal crew members do a lot of his dirty work. When it comes to sleeping, he’s lucky if he can manage 2-3 hours a night. With their regular schedules it’s not usually a problem. Between heists, most days consist of playing video games and eating shitty foods.
When the opportunity for a heist is too good or his crew mates get restless or any other scenario occurs to call him to action, though, he feels pretty damn close to fucked. Lack of sleep makes it hard to think out proper heist plans and even harder to get his body to physically allow him to follow through with them. Consequently, he starts watching ASMR videos.
It’s not too long before he develops his preference, learns what helps him sleep best. Little bit more time, he learns what helps him stop trembling after heists so he doesn’t have to spend the night after shaking out of his damn skin into his sheets. Not much more time after that, he finds Ryan’s–er, James’s videos.
Now, Ryan doesn’t hide his face from the crew. Sure, the guy was a little distant and removed, but he doesn’t hide his identity. Geoff knew what he was getting himself into when he clicked his first video, just out of curiosity (Hell, maybe he could tease the guy about it. It was about time they had dirt on the guy.) Now, Ryan was his loyal dog, the man who Geoff’s spent many a hour watching torture people, kill them, you name it… but in his videos? They’re? Amazing. It’s almost scary to see the difference from him and this.. smiling, whispering, careful guy who practically giggles into his microphone. It’s almost scary to see him doing these videos and idly talking about how he’s at a different location this week for the sake of “sound quality” when you can recognize the house he’s in to be the safe house you have had one of your ex-rivals locked up in the basement for the past two weeks. And.. it’s really scary to fall asleep to these videos.
He doesn’t tell Ryan that he found this YouTube channel, or his Patreon, or anything about watching ASMR videos at all. It’s his own private secret and pleasure to get to listen to him as James, laughing about his massage license and seeing the faces he makes in point of view videos and.. and seeing him gush about requests he make roleplay boyfriend positive affirmation videos. Geoff finds himself enjoying them even whenever he doesn’t feel like he needs them. He finds himself wanting to talk to Ryan more. He finds himself in love with Ryan.
”plenty water” ”that rock ‘n roll” ”plant” ”yeezus” ”invoice me for the microphone if you need to” ”its rare that we dont look like that” ”jamies fridge” ”hips” ”death ramps ring” ”accidently matching clothes with band” ”LAAAAAAAAAAAADIES” ”glastonbreh” ”miles” ”puppy face” ”jamie’s new hair” ”matthew j helders the third” ”matt = god poster” ”do the macarena to the devils lair moves” ”humbug hair” “dont believe the hype” ”wank friends” ”scummy man” ”scumbag” “17 years old spanish girl” ”what came first the chicken or the dickhead” ”slag” ”alex’s comb” ”i spit nothing but the truth” ”get out me garden” ”alex’s knees” ”fifteen more years” ”sos cover with miles” ”poker face cover” ”the view from…” ”the apollo” ”im a rock drummer” ”alex’s bulge” ”nick and his grammy awards photos” ”fookin” ”alex in a suit” ”jamie cook the name finder of arctic monkeys” ”i cant remember the fucking words oh babe” ”plastic cups?” ”al’s crazy dance on stage” ”alex forgets he’s the singer” ”margarita?4 margaritas no 5 margaritas” ”delighted” ”fuck do you think” ”rock ‘n’ roll poet sex god” ”and the band forgets the countdown” ”nme falls for arctic monkeys” ”b-sides” ”alex turner sex appeal 54” wtf ”jamie ironing his jacket while the band singing knee socks” ”turnergasm” ”its the solo what do you gonna do about the solooo” ”artic monkeys” ”wet humbug hair” ”nick’s true reaction” ”yellam osalohcin ” ”kung fu fighting moves specially bbc reading 2014” ”vertigo” ”we’re arctic monkeys,if you enjoyed our language lesson,please share with your wank friends” ”humbug jacket backs 2015” ”one for the road mic” ”wank bank” ”i a napper” ”the age of the understatement” ”Luke…soy tu padre” ”finsbury park jacket 2014 like a pimp” ”alex’s oral with mic” ”agile beast” ”#0114” ”guilty feet have got no rhythm” ”alex tooks of his shirt” ”Alex responds to a passerby on a jet-ski” ”a fucking broadyway musical” ”alex’s in tight pants” ”got enough room there,love?’ ”pointing something” ”submarine” ”cq man awards speech” ”its just says Matt Helders sings like a crow” ”am south america” ”ay,you stop it” ”hasta la vista” ”alex’s hands” ”do we give you that impression face”
and I’ve realized that I’m becoming unmotivated in my music, and I’m worried that the quality of my music might go down, so for the next two or the months, instead of edm, I will be composing and recording exclusively country music