im about to kill everyone in my house

this is after being strung out for a month. Poured out the contents and took a picture so maybe I can soberly look back and remember the despair of being high all the time, and not get high again. Everything I’ve done in this month, reduced to
An 8 ball of meth
Six used syringes
Two empty bags
15 bucks
Key chain (with the na keytags)(also has car keys for the car I cant drive)
Meth pipe
Hair brush
Mixing spoon
two nametags to work, where i go to work high everyday which I didnt think was too bad until someone aske me if I was high at work
And how I said “yes” and he looked sad, I wish he would fix me. I care a lot more than ill act. I would love to sleep next to him. God he smells so nice, and id love being his slut all the time.but hes married. I just want to feel loved. I hurt.

I wish I had never gotten high.

I am not having fun geting high anymore.

Im punishing myself for making him leave.

It has to be the end of that. I can’t kill him like that, getting high all day. He has a family. Little boys.

I think this is the worst time around, I have distracted my self by thinking about how fucked up life is. Im doing stuff that would have been repulsive in my sobriety. How could I lie to everyone about being high all the time. How could I go into my brothers home, thatd him and his roommates so graciously opened up to me for last month while I await rehab, constantly choice to get high, in their house.

I like to think my brother cant ever imagine me being high, so his image of me isn’t getting high. Im still his sister and we went through a lot of shittt stuff together. That means something. I still remember what it felt like when he asked a person who can only be described as my partner in crime,if I was high, he said I cant lie to your brother, so he said not currently… (we ran out)

The boy who sent that to my brother was strange. I swear we stayed in this room together for like two months. I loved every second of it. I love the way he put drugs in me, such a lovely feeling, it made me feel spoiled.

We once bragged about how much of a mess we were together, we were finding an ally way by spokane.street and fifteenh street. We laughed. We had breakfast jacks. A year before my.grandma sent a gift card to me that we used to buy seven breakfast jacks.

We were normal together for so long. We were friends, we werent always planning fraud against corporations that already have millions invested in them. I love you, partner in crime, we were always so dynamic and I love how you make me feel okay.

Drugs took so much away from me but I haven’t died yet so I stil have hope.
I hate this.

Quick reminder of how the Straw Hats met

Zoro: Imma fucking Pirate hunter

Nami: I stole all ur shit, left you for dead and ran away

Ussop: I causally almost got everyone killed by messing with Edward scissor hands.

Sanji: Who gives 2 shits about u, i gotta make food….ohh dat gurl hella fine

Chopper: plz gtfo of my house oR IM GONNA HULK SMASH

Robin: I was apart of an organization that almost destroyed Alabasta and I tried to kill you multiple times

Franky: I stole all ur money and beat the shit out of Ussop

Brooks: hello im a skeleton, may i see ur panties?

Best scenes where of Lily and Stefan, i cant stand her troll ass but anyone acting with Paul Wesley just tugs at my heart he brings out the best in his coworkers, even Enzo hedgehog ass was bareable when acting with Stefan and I hate that relationship, and how they conveniently left out the part of Enzo fucking with Sarah, but his gossiping ass was telling everybody elses secrets except his own *rolls eyes*, back to the troll shes definitely gonna use Caroline to get back at Stefan and mommy or not Stefan gonna lay hands if she comes after his wife calling it now, there wont be any hesitation on his part he will put her down. (Steroline phone call😍)

Bonnie Bennett was the MVP, of the episode though like she had no chill and I loved every second of it, though baby girl needs to work on putting up a force field or sumthin cause vampires like to throw shit.

Why does Alaric get the good shit, like he gets a wife and twins when he doesnt deserve shit tbh. Still trying to figure out why he’s here even when I know! Eugene is going to leave with Alaric and Jo if she doesnt die, calling it now.

Tyler needs to leave and go somewhere that he can live normal and have a life he doesnt belong in MF anymore or he will end up killing someone and turning into a wolf again or end up dead

Matt poor baby is stuck, hes broke, and everyone around him is a murderer, but at least he got a big ass house, I wish his mom would come back Im sure she’d like that big ass house.

Eugene and Darla were getting on my last nerves with this cure shit, so pissed Darla wasnt considering Stefan, and here I was happy at the little defan moments but then they go and ruin it by having him claim he doesnt give a shit about what Stefan thinks/feels about him becoming human because he loves Eugene ass, why do they fuck up his character development constantly…and what the fuck is wrong with his hair that shit is so unflattering even worst than the hedgehog idk how they can be around Stefan with his flawless ass Garnier Fructis commerical hair…….

Im sorry overall I wish Stefan and Bonnie would share a damn scene, I wish we would have gotten to see that Darla and Bonnie phone call, I wanted more Bonnie where Alaric scenes where, I wanted less of the bullshit and more story about the damn vitches, I would have loved to see more of Kai being their bitch too, but we cant have nice things.

lukeslog  asked:

What do you think your little nephew(?) will think when he understands how you based Isaac off of him?

im not sure… my niece is just now starting to understand that everyones uncle doesnt make video games. it must be weird for her because the games most played at her house are isaac, meat boy, spelunky and plants vs zombies… and she knows im friends with the people who made them.. or i made them. so in their world everyone makes popular video games!

my nephew eli doesnt have any idea i based isaac off of him yet.. he doenst even fully understand what the game is about other than “isaacs moom wantsto kill him for some reason” so im sure the coming years will be interesting.

just the other month i did a radio interview that both of the kids listened to and they kept asking their mom why i was on the radio.