ill post it now i guess.

Garnette/Banchomp/Puppet Shark

I couldve probably done better on the name. Haha This one was a so great to work on. I even recorded it from sketch to finish, and then unintentionally deleted the video. X.x Theres always next time I guess.

I could not for the life of me find the artost that made this sprite. If you know who the artist is or you are the artist, please message me so I can give proper credit. Thanks!

Unrelated note:

I will resume posting speedpaints on my youtube channel very soon. The computer I did all my editing on needed some repairs and is now back in working order (yay for being a nerd!). If there’s anything specific you’d like to see me do or have me explain shoot me a message and Ill do my best to make a video of it.

Have a lovely night everyone!

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Turn It Off (Reprise)

I’ve got a feeling
That I’ve been feeling
Ever since we met on my very first day
You said I had a problems
And told me how to solve them
I promise, I’ve tried not to feel this way

I turned it off
Like you said to
I turned it off
That’s what I thought I was supposed to do
I felt a feeling that just didn’t seem right
I tried to turn it off like a reading light
I turned it off

Ever since I was young, I never had anyone
I was too focused on work for anything of that kind
But then I met you, and it all seemed true
And I started to have strange feelings inside
It all feels so wrong, but I’m sick of lying…
Please don’t turn away, oh, please don’t start crying

I tried to turn it off
For eight miserable years
I repressed all my pains and fears
I turned it off
Just turned… it… off

My feelings for Steve just wouldn’t leave
No matter how much I tried to pray them away
When my parents found out, all they did was shout
They told my it was wrong to feel this way

They said I was bad, that I was sick
Then they taught this ‘nifty’ trick

Turn it off…
*they kiss or something idk*

Do you still remember the times we had together?
—  10-10-16 5:12pm

tumblr is not doing good things for me. well, that’s a lie. I’ve talked to some wonderful people and made some lovely friends. I’ve learned a lot and laughed a lot…..but the cons outweigh the pros. to me and my adhd, tumblr is basically crack. completely addicting. it’s interfering with my life and I’m not getting stuff done. being surrounded by posts about mental illness and discrimination in the lgbtq community and politics and stuff like that….is exhausting really, especially for someone with mental illnesses and disabilities like me. I guess what I’m trying to say is that adhd (and anemia cause that’s a way bigger problem than most people think) is a huge force in my life right now, and I need to save my spoons and take care of my self. I can’t lie on my bed and hyper focus on my phone for hours everyday anymore. so I’m taking a break. or at least a partial break. I’m mainly on mobile, so I’m deleting this damn app as soon as I finish this post and I’m gonna go do my makeup and go have some fun with my friends. I’m not staying home tonight, not again. I’m not missing out on life because my energy has all been drained reading negative posts on the Internet. I’ll keep up my queue and talk to my mutuals on my laptop, but I’m turning off my asks. (however submissions will stay open and will be greatly appreciated in order to keep my queue up) if I unfollow you, please don’t take it personally, I just need to keep myself from getting distracted and I need a dash that is free from shitposts and discourse. anyways. thank you for being such amazing, caring, understanding, patient and beautiful followers. and thank you for putting up with lil ‘ole me and my disabled ass. maybe when I get better I’ll be more active again.
xoxo, lots o love,

Dang, majority rules huh. I guess I probably should’ve asked you guys anyway.

I like it, Its definitely better than Lapis jr. and fits in with the other names

time to inform.

“psst hey. guess what.

your name is Pocket now. is that cool?”

I think she likes it.

On Magic and Mental Illness

So, like, as I mention in passing every now and then and recently posted about pretty publicly, I’m mentally ill. The kind of mentally ill where honest descriptions of my symptom get met with looks of horror from my own mother.

And I guess that’s a big part of why I’m so uncomfortable with some people’s insistence that magic is a direct metaphor for mental illness, and that it must be taken as such. I’ve spent a lot of time trying to convince myself and my family that I’m not dangerous. 

And mages are dangerous. There is no honest way of getting around that. Mages are dangerous. Untrained children with magic can take out entire squads of trained adults with swords. We’ve seen it happen before. Mages can kill you in your sleep without ever entering the same country as you. We’ve seen it happen before. Mages can take over your mind, light you on fire, and trap your spirit forever in a corpse. All of this has happened in canon. 

I don’t know about the rest of you mentally ill people, but I can’t do any of that. I’m not comfortable being compared to people who can do that, when me managing my mental illness requires that I put a lot of effort into convincing myself first and foremost and then other people that I’m not dangerous. It’s not a comparison I can see myself being okay with any time soon.

Very rarely is real-life oppression based on justified fear of the oppressed. Thus, any fictional situation where oppression is based on a justified fear of the oppressed is going to be a deeply flawed metaphor at best. 

im not sure what im actually going to use this blog for lmAO but ive spent my day making a character page for a bunch of my ocs?? check it out maybe?

its pretty Swick i think

for now i guess ill just post doodles n such here that i dont necessarily want on my main blog lmao

its just a sketch, i said

i wont spend more than 30 minutes on this, i said

*3 hours later*