ill do anything to be happy

anonymous asked:

i need to vent. im sorry but summer came alreadyand another summer will past with lying,binge watching,not going out for 3 months,not having friends,not having real fun,i didnt acoomplish anything this year as i thought last summer. i really thought my last boring summer will be 2016 but man wasnt i wrong,i hate my life currently. i hate my new group of friends that hate going out. i hate myself for not improving, losing energy,will. im afraid ill never be happy in mylife. im afraid of future.

okay so as a friend im gonna tell you something.

you have control of some of these things.

you do not need others to enjoy summer. you have the ability to find things that you want to do. you will find friends similar to you.

you will change. if you want to. you have to make that decision yourself. sometimes we need to push ourselves to do the things we need to do to better ourselves.

we need to understand that not everything “happens” to us. occasionally, we have a hand in the situations we find ourselves in.

do we stay down? no.
we get up and push forward.
we try.

don’t give up.
the future is scary but we’re going to be okay. all of us.
together.

ask me these things okay omg

1:Is there a boy/girl in your life?
2:Think of the last person who hurt you; do you forgive them?
3:What do you think of when you hear the word “meow?”
4:What’s something you really want right now?
5:Are you afraid of falling in love?
6:Do you like the beach?
7:Have you ever slept on a couch with someone else?
8:What’s the background on your cell?
9:Name the last four beds you were sat on?
10:Do you like your phone?
11:Honestly, are things going the way you planned?
12:Who was the last person whose phone number you added to your contacts?
13:Would you rather have a poodle or a Rottweiler?
14:Which hurts the most, physical or emotional pain?
15:Would you rather visit a zoo or an art museum?
16:Are you tired?
17:How long have you known your 1st phone contact?
18:Are they a relative?
19:Would you ever consider getting back together with any of your exes?
20:When did you last talk to the last person you shared a kiss with?
21:If you knew you had the right person, would you marry them today?
22:Would you kiss the last person you kissed again?
23:How many bracelets do you have on your wrists right now?
24:Is there a certain quote you live by?
25:What’s on your mind?
26:Do you have any tattoos?
27:What is your favorite color?
28:Next time you will kiss someone on the lips?
29:Who are you texting?
30:Think to the last person you kissed, have you ever kissed them on a couch?
31:Have you ever had the feeling something bad was going to happen and you were right?
32:Do you have a friend of the opposite sex you can talk to?
33:Do you think anyone has feelings for you?
34:Has anyone ever told you you have pretty eyes?
35:Say the last person you kissed was kissing someone right in front of you?
36:Were you single on Valentines Day?
37:Are you friends with the last person you kissed?
38:What do your friends call you?
39:Has anyone upset you in the last week?
40:Have you ever cried over a text?
41:Where’s your last bruise located?
42:What is it from?
43:Last time you wanted to be away from somewhere really bad?
44:Who was the last person you were on the phone with?
45:Do you have a favourite pair of shoes?
46:Do you wear hats if your having a bad hair day?
47:Would you ever go bald if it was the style?
48:Do you make supper for your family?
49:Does your bedroom have a door?
50:Top 3 web-pages?
51:Do you know anyone who hates shopping?
52:Does anything on your body hurt?
53:Are goodbyes hard for you?
54:What was the last beverage you spilled on yourself?
55:How is your hair?
56:What do you usually do first in the morning?
57:Do you think two people can last forever?
58:Think back to January 2007, were you single?
59:Green or purple grapes?
60:When’s the next time you will give someone a BIG hug?
61:Do you wish you were somewhere else right now?
62:When will be the next time you text someone?
63:Where will you be 5 hours from now?
64:What were you doing at 8 this morning.
65:This time last year, can you remember who you liked?
66:Is there one person in your life that can always make you smile?
67:Did you kiss or hug anyone today?
68:What was your last thought before you went to bed last night?
69:Have you ever tried your hardest and then gotten disappointed in the end?
70:How many windows are open on your computer?
71:How many fingers do you have?
72:What is your ringtone?
73:How old will you be in 5 months?
74:Where is your Mum right now?
75:Why aren’t you with the person you were first in love with or almost in love?
76:Have you held hands with somebody in the past three days?
77:Are you friends with the people you were friends with two years ago?
78:Do you remember who you had a crush on in year 7?
79:Is there anyone you know with the name Mike?
80:Have you ever fallen asleep in someones arms?
81:How many people have you liked in the past three months?
82:Has anyone seen you in your underwear in the last 3 days?
83:Will you talk to the person you like tonight?
84:You’re drunk and yelling at hot guys/girls out of your car window, you’re with?
85:If your BF/GF was into drugs would you care?
86:What was the most eventful thing that happened last time you went to see a movie?
87:Who was your last received call from?
88:If someone gave you $1,000 to burn a butterfly over a candle, would you?
89:What is something you wish you had more of?
90:Have you ever trusted someone too much?
91:Do you sleep with your window open?
92:Do you get along with girls?
93:Are you keeping a secret from someone who needs to know the truth?
94:Does sex mean love?
95:You’re locked in a room with the last person you kissed, is that a problem?
96:Have you ever kissed anyone with a lip ring?
97:Did you sleep alone this week?
98:Everybody has somebody that makes them happy, do you?
99:Do you believe in love at first sight?
100:Who was the last person that you pinky promise?

The original master list

For late night talks with friends

  1. If could relive childhood all over again without being able to change anything, would you?
  2. Looking at your current level of intelligence and attractiveness, which would you choose to increase/improve?
  3. Which have you thought about more, your wedding or your funeral?
  4. If you knew you would never meet your soulmate or be happy in a relationship, would you choose to still get married/settle down with someone?
  5. Do you take what you can get, or are you “all or nothing"
  6. Have you ever thought you had a mental health issue/illness?
  7. Which are you most like and why -a river, a lake, or an ocean?
  8. If your partner/you were to get pregnant at this current moment, would you keep or abort the baby?
  9. What is the biggest mistake you’ve made
  10. What do you feel is your biggest personality flaw?
  11. Which do you admire more -your mother or your father?
  12. Who do you spend more time trying to impress?
  13. What is something that you do often, but almost always regret?
  14. Have you ever fantasized about having sexual relations with someone in this room?
  15. Do you prefer to be the big spoon or little spoon?
  16. Do you prefer to be tied up or do the tying? (bondage)
  17. Do you have a martyr complex?
  18. What is something you wish you were complemented on a lot more?
  19. If you just met someone and found out they were a psychopath, if you knew they would never harm you, would you like to be their friend?
  20. Have you ever admired a manipulator?
  21. What is something that if someone does it, they immediately lose your respect?
  22. What would having sex with the person to your right be like? (Characteristics)
  23. What do you think the person to your left thinks their best quality is?
  24. What do you think people your age’s biggest insecurity is?
  25. What do you think makes you the most different compared to everyone else in the room?
  26. What do you think makes you the most different compared to everyone else your age?
  27. What personality characteristic gets you in trouble the most
  28. What personality characteristic gets you the most friends?
  29. Pick a personality characteristic from the person to your right that you would want to have
  30. If you were   a relationship with the person on your left, what do you see them doing that would end the relationship?
  31. What characteristic makes you a bad girlfriend/boyfriend?
  32. What characteristic makes you a great boyfriend/girlfriend?
  33. Ask the person opposite you why they think you are single
  34. Which person in the group do you feel the most chemistry with?
  35. Have you ever fantasized about anyone in the group?
  36. What would make you leave your partner?
  37. What would your parents have to do to lose your love?
  38. What would your parents have to do to lose your respect?
  39. What about growing up has been the hardest for you?
  40. How do you deal with bad memories?
  41. How good are you at reading people?
  42. What is a weakness you have in your relationships?
  43. Do you think it is/will be easy for you to say “I love you” or difficult?
  44. If you had a daughter, what would you tell her about boys?
  45. If you had a son, what would you tell him about girls?
  46. Which do you think you are stronger in? intelligence or emotional awareness?
  47. Are you more of a long-term or short-term relationship person?
  48. What scares you the most about being in a relationship?
  49. Are you attracted to happy people or broken souls?
  50. Have you ever had an incestuous thought?
  51. What do you blame your parents for?
  52. List five ways in which you are, after all, quite difficult to live with?
  53. The chief problems in my relationship with my mother were…
  54. The chief problems in my relationship with my father were…
  55. If someone likes me a lot, I start to feel…
  56. What did you learn about relationships from your parents?
  57. What slightly unhealthy things feel attractive in a partner? How might this relate to your opposite sex parent?
  58. What slightly unhealthy things feel attractive in a partner?
  59. If you could consider yourself dispassionately, what might you warn a friend about if they were thinking of starting a relationship with you?
  60. If I were to explain a bit more to people about how I felt about things, they would…
  61. What are, or would be, my faults as a parent?
  62. What would hurt you the most, in terms of what your kids do/are like/think?
  63. What would be the biggest disappoint you in the kids?
  64. Name three sexual scenarios that especially excite you.
  65. When do you cry or want to cry (as an adult)?
  66. List five things that are the important to you in your life. How much of your time do you give to each of these?
  67. What things do you often end up buying that don’t – on reflection, much of the time – actually satisfy you that much?
  68. What are you trying to say through your clothes?
  69. Name three works of art (music, literature and visual art/architecture) that mean a lot to you.
  70. What are you a little addicted to? Porn, alcohol, shopping, arguing…
  71. What negative character flaws do you fear – in your worst nightmares – that other people have spotted about you?’
  72. ‘If I knew I couldn’t fail, in my professional life, I’d try to…
  73. Rank in order of importance for you in your career: Money, Status, Creativity, Social Impact, Colleagues.
  74. What sort of things have made you envious recently?
  75. When my partner disappoints me, I:
    1. Explode/get angry at them
    2. Withdraw
    3. Re-evaluate our relationships
    4. Other -
  76. What often impairs your decision making process? Lack of confidence, impatience, desire to please, over-excitement…
  77. Choose four adjective to describe yourself. Ask three good friends to do the same for you.
  78. What are you currently lying to certain people around you about?
  79. If a really kind person wanted to praise me, they’d say…
  80. If a really tough person assessed me, they’d say…
  81. Are you dominant or submissive sexually? And in the rest of your life?
  82. What things would deeply alarm your loved ones if they knew them about you?
  83. If you could create your ideal pornography, what would it feature?
  84. What would you ideally like someone to feel compassionate towards you for? What would it beautiful if they could forgive?
  85. What did you most enjoy doing as a child? Do you get those feelings now?
10 ways to attract positive energy

1. Love and accept yourself as you are right now. Start a list to remind yourself of all your wonderful qualities. Add to it every day.
Example: I am the most positive person I know.

2. Free yourself from past resentments and disappointments about who you were yesterday. Stop engaging in self-blame and guilt for past acts and omissions. Today is the first day of the rest of your life. Revel in it. As Scrooge announced on Christmas morning, “I am not the man I was!”

3. Let go of any and all resentment you’re hanging onto about everyone and everything else. Stop looking for reasons to criticize and blame others for their acts and omissions. Let go of your desire to control others. The past is gone. It is what it is, and cannot be changed. Let it go.

4. Stop giving your power away. Use your time, energy, and vitality wisely. Every time you choose to focus on a negative, you are depleting your reserves rather than re-charging your batteries. Focus on circulating and re-circulating positive, life-affirming ideas.

5. Use creative visualization and your imagination to your advantage, not your detriment. Instead of picturing worst case scenarios, see things as you want them to be. Visualize yourself doing things in a state of perfect health.
Visualize ideal outcomes and happy endings, not dire consequences.

6. Do not speak of your illness, or dis-ease with others. The more attention you place on what you don’t want in your life, the more energy it absorbs. Remove your attention from your dis-ease. Put your focus and attention on the things in your life that make you feel good.
Starve your illness and dis-ease by refusing to dwell on them.

7. Love is the antidote to fear. If you appreciate the many blessings in your life, and express gratitude for anything and everything, you begin to flow in a healing bath (rather than languishing in toxins). Develop an attitude of gratitude by making a list of all the things you are grateful for, including increased health and vitality. Be grateful for the health and well-being coming your way.

8. Recognize that you have the power to heal yourself. That healing power flows from the thoughts you think. Allow positive thoughts to circulate, eliminating stress and boosting your immune system. There is no such thing as incurable. Miracles abound.

9. Be HAPPY. Appreciate this moment. Resist nothing. Love yourself and others. Be grateful for small blessings. Make happiness your number one priority. When you remain positive, you summon well-being, and vanquish illness and dis-ease. When we exist in a state of happiness, we boost our immune systems and allow our bodies to use energy reserves for healing.
 
10. Laugh! Laugh again! Watch funny movies and recall memories that make you laugh. Once you access the joy within, let it expand to fill your entire being, crowding out illness and dis-ease.

OC Questions I haven’t seen:

1. what do they look like?

2. describe their personality in three words:

3. how tall are they?

4. favorite foods?

5. any allergies?

6. what is their build?

7. do they have curly, wavy, or straight hair?

8. do they like books? if so, how often do they read?

9. what are their talents?

10. two or more other fictional characters they’re similar to?

11. what is one strange hobby/talent they have?

12. five songs that fit them:

13. who do you think could play them in a live-action rendition?

14. do they just want to rest?

15. which OC did not sign up for this?

16. who’s their favorite person?

17. who do you ship them with?

18. have they experienced the death of a loved one?

19. have they ever been tortured?

20. what’s the worst thing you’ve done to them without spoiling anything?

21. any mental illnesses?

22. what’s their favorite animal?

23. what are their flaws?

24. what’s their favorite color?

25. pet peeves?

26. bad habits?

27. an OC they hate:

28. random fact about them:

29. family members?

30. Hogwarts house?

31. what makes them happy?

32. middle and last names (if they’re established)?

33. introvert, ambivert, or extrovert?

34. how old are they?

35. strange quirks they have:

36. any unhealthy obsessions?

37. looks like they could kill but is actually a cinnamon roll, looks like a cinnamon roll but could actually kill you, looks like a cinnamon roll and is actually a cinnamon roll, looks like they could kill you and could actually kill you, or sinnamon roll

38. how smart are they?

39. master planner or master improviser?

40. species/race?

41. cat or dog person?

42. where are they from?

43. moral alignment? 

Fun things about mental illness: Having been ill for most of your life, so that you don’t even know what being healthy is actually like and always being completeley suprised when you realize that some things aren’t “normal”.

It isn’t normal to hate yourself so much - Okay.
It isn’t normal to hurt yourself to feel okay - Seems understandable.
It isn’t normal to try to kill yourself every now and then - I get that.

But:

It isn’t normal to want to lie in bed and not do anything all day? This seems strange.
It isn’t normal to rely completely on others for happiness? Good to know.
It isn’t normal to react extremely intensively and impulsively to any minor thing? Can’t imagine…

And so on.

I don’t even remember a life without mental illness and every time I really realize that, it makes me feel worse.
But I know there is no way that this will ever change.

honestly i dont really have an excuse for this i just?? need it.,, 

- keith sometimes kisses the nape of lances neck which gives him a sense of security and comfort and…. its nice, 

- post-mission means cuddling with blankets..! dont tell me that lance isnt an expert at making blanket forts out of almost nothing?? look me in the eye and convince me if u can

- lances room is a constant blanket fort after the first time they made one and they decorate it a little with things they find from different planets - usually what reminds them of home

- the fort also evolves over time and lance did u convince coran to find another blanket again,

- they like holding hands whenever they can, whether its just their pinky’s touching or lacing their fingers together they do it a lot,, they also do it during dinner and try to be discreet but honestly evERYONE KNOws and its ok…. its ok :’’’)

- NOSE KISSES

- sometimes when keith feels bad/agitated or down about the galra thing and stuff lance will comfort him with small pecks on the cheek or simply just hold his hand and squeeze it ever so slightly,, its enough to make keith feel calm and more able to try and talk about his frustrations and feelings

- when lance is homesick or insecure keith is there doing the exact same thing for him and lance really appreciates it and after a while of silence keith will simply list good traits and things about lance that he likes and when he gets a smile out of him he’ll ask lance to tell him about his life at earth (his mother, what was he like in school before garrison?, did he often tease his siblings when he was younger?, favorite movie, describing his childhood bedroom, etc)

- lance starts talking vividly and keith likes to listen, loves to see lance’s smile and they’ll keep holding hands until they have to do something else/get up from their current positions

- keith doesnt have a lot of items since he didn’t really bring anything with him to space but sometimes when he gets up before lance to train or whatever, he leaves his jacket near lance/in the room as a way to say “ill be back” (its a gesture that makes lance happy because it confirms to him that keith wants to be with him and wants to come back)

- keith doesnt really care a lot for skin care and so, but he likes to watch and listen as lance goes thru his routine and sometimes he even lets lance do it on him because theres stars in the boy’s eyes everytime he gets a ‘yes’ and oh my god its too cute to resist

- generally just. keith and lance being happy 2kforever and when theyre sad they comfort each other and its, good.

SKAM MASTERPOST OF ALL THINGS

!Halla! This is my SKAM shrine. I’ve put all SKAM media into one organized (I hope) easy to navigate place. So basically, everything revolves around this very masterpost. The masterpost links to everything SKAM. Not only are there clips, translated texts, and Instagram posts, but also bonus stuff, like speculation on the symbolism of the show, or links to the actors’ social media and information. 

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Robert was always going to cheat; he is a known cheater, and in a soap, every relationship has a cheating SL in one form or another. By doing it this way, Emmerdale have definitively shown us two things.

  1. Robert’s happiness and well-being is entirely dependent upon Aaron’s, and Aaron’s presence in his life. The days leading up to The Incident™ clearly showed Robert struggling; he couldn’t sleep, looked haggard and exhausted, and the only thing that brought him any consolation was the phone conversation with Aaron in the evenings. Finding out Aaron was in trouble for being gay made him look ill, made him worried sick. Finding out Aaron was on drugs made him almost desperate. His husband was hurting and self-harming and he couldn’t do anything about it. When finally they did fight, and Aaron left him at that table, he was devastated. Even if they didn’t show us that the fight was close to a break-up, the episode where Robert almost told Aaron about The Incident™ had Aaron admit that he knew Robert thought they were over, and as soon as Robert got it into his head that they were over, that he didn’t have Aaron in his life anymore, he went into self-destruct.
  2. Robert has always been a self-serving person, and he has never hesitated to hurt someone if it meant he got something he wanted, but with Aaron he feels remorseful, he feels guilty. This has never happened to him before; not really. Robert is a person who lashes out when cornered, when hurt, and this was a classic case of Robert reverting back to the person he was before, hurting the person who hurt him by breaking up with him. However, in all instances before, Robert has shrugged off their pain, even reveled in it, enjoyed giving back as good as he got because whether or not he hurt people didn’t matter to him. However, he is not in a position where Aaron’s happiness is inexorably tied to his own, and this means that he cares about what he did, he hurt someone he never wanted to hurt, he has caused pain that is akin to hurting himself and it is quite clear on his face. He feels guilty, looks tired, looks like he hates himself (in my opinion) and both of these things are both down to the broken nature of their personalities. 

Robert is dependent on Aaron for a home, safety, peace within himself, and the fact that the disruption of that peace comes across quite clearly on screen has, for me, cemented the fact that Robert has changed since meeting Aaron. He no longer hurts people haphazardly, unfeelingly, and without personal repercussions. Robert feels the pain acutely, can see that he has done wrong, which is a huge character improvement from Robert of a few years ago. This also tells me that Emmerdale probably won’t have him cheat again, at least not in the foreseeable future. It causes him too much pain. 

I really hate to do this, but…

I’m Amy a mentally ill (borderline and schizotypal personality disorders specifically) trans girl, and a week or so ago my laptop completely stopped working, and as I’m currently not working,

I kinda need help to either get it fixed or buy a second hand replacement from ebay or something.

I’m really sorry for doing this but, trying to apply for jobs and finish some ebooks to try selling is much harder using just a phone rather than a laptop or anything.

As I mentioned I am attempting to write ebooks to sell, and I would be more than happy to write you some kind of fiction, just note it might take at least a few days or a week as I only have my phone to use.

I’m more than happy to write most kinds of things, both sfw and Nsfw stories are fine.

My most comfortable things to write are, I guess f/f love things, and maybe on the Nsfw side furry type stuff?

My only fic on tumblr is this https://adorablyamy.tumblr.com/post/157175234852/like-always-the-sheepy-girl-is-just-wasting-her Nsfw sexual content warning for that link

Anyway thanks for reading reblogs and things would be greatly appreciated.

Oh and my PayPal is amymeadows248@gmail.com

Just send me a tumblr message or ask or something about what you would like I guess.

Thank you so much for even reading this.

i’m still upset that dontnod portrayed killing chloe price (an innocent, abused, mentally ill, queer girl) as Morally Right. it’s sick, really. it’s a fucking monstrous thing to do but contrasted with “or you could destroy a whole town and let hundreds die” it seems morally justifiable. they framed it that way so you don’t feel as guilty about such a horrific thing. it’s just simple tragedy porn.

you can argue that it’s not a horrible thing to do because that’s what chloe wanted. like, cause it was chloe’s suggestion. but people fail to realize that chloe didn’t want max to let her die just because it was ‘the right thing to do’, she also wanted it because she thought she deserved to die. i wouldn’t go as far as saying it’s assisted suicide, but come on. the girl thinks she should die. she’s emotionally vulnerable, unstable, and is very clearly dealing with self-worth issues and depression, and she literally says “[other people] deserve to live, way more than me!”. agreeing with her and letting her die is taking advantage of her, and her mental state, no matter how much you sugarcoat it. no matter how much dontnod wanted to make it seem like the right decision. and that’s pretty disgusting.

and another thing. with decisions like that, it really shouldn’t be the player’s choice to make. if anything it would make more sense for the player to sacrifice themselves, as a way of owning up to their actions or whatever. but nope. apparently for things to come full circle you should just pretend you never made the mistake in the first place and magically undo it, tossing away an innocent life in the process? the innocent life of a girl who fits into the category of people who are constantly killed in media already? an ending screaming ‘mentally ill people won’t get happy endings’ and stereotypical homophobic tropes? that’s the right thing to do? how fucking generic and… unfair. it’s unfair that max had to choose between killing chloe or a whole town. those aren’t her lives to fuck around with. she’s a fucking teenager. she wasn’t even told what the purpose was of the powers that she got that fucked everything up in the first place. how on earth is that her fault? why did she have to be punished like that?

why are dontnod so against the idea of women Not Suffering for once?

Why do you like tree bros?

My friend asked me this during class when they saw me drawings some gay shit. It dawned on me that I’ve never really verbalized why I like my ships. I like tree bros a lot, more than any other ship I’ve harbored (haha puns).

I realized that I, a person with a few mental illnesses and a learning disorder, take happiness out the ship. It makes me feel like people with problems, such as myself, can be loved. Not cured, but loved. In no way can love cure my insecurities, but they can make me feel better and I can do the same.

So if there’s anything to take away from this post, that no one will read, it’s that everyone deserves love. And maybe you aren’t happy, but you deserve to be. So yeah that’s my deep thought post for the day…

:)

“I wish I were one of them.” She muttered, her eyes following the flock of birds sitting on the power line above them.

“Why is that?” her friend laughed.


“Well,” she started. “I think we all have periods where we just want to escape, you know? To just pack all of our things away, change our hair color, our style, our name, anything to start brand new-”


“But life prevents that.” she smiled sadly. “We have too many obstacles, too many expectations, and too many pressures to do things a certain way to be happy.”


“These birds have it so easy, though.” she spoke softly, “they just fly away.”

—  Excerpt of a book I’ll never write #146
The Avengers Headcanons (Part 2)

Author’s Note: I totally thought this was going to take me so much longer to write. 

Again I want to say that this contains talks of PTSD and anxiety attacks. If this in any way causes you distress then please stop reading and go get help.

With that being said I do hope you like the second part of my headcanons. <3

Fluff & Angst

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Request: Anon

Can you do relationship headcanons for the avengers? (Or if not all of them at least Scott and Pietro) thanks so much your blog and writings make me so happy darling!!

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~Bucky Barnes Headcanons~

  • He’s not very vocal about his feelings towards you, but he does like to show it physically more than anything
  • Bucky likes to put on a tough guy act whenever in front of everyone, he knows he doesn’t have to do it but he does it to protect you
  • Everyone thinks he lost all of his charm or at least it’s buried deep down in him, you know for a fact he only likes to show you his soft/charming side
  • Bucky suffers from a lot of mental illnesses, from PTSD, depression, and social anxiety. He always feels ashamed of it but everyday you make him stand in front of the mirror and point out everything he likes about himself (and on days where he can’t think of anything, you tell him the things that he should love about himself, and if he feels self-conscious about how much you love him, you then tell him what you love about him)
  • The relationship you guys have can and will be very rocky
  • Everyone was very wary about you and him pursing into the relationship
  • You stood up for him and showed that he is capable of loving another human being, even after everything
  • But Steve was beyond ecstatic hearing about you and Buck in a relationship (but he did keep his eye out on the both of you, to make sure neither of you hurt each other)
  • Bucky has night terrors, they can become very violent to the point where he’ll wake up and think he’s back in the war or if it’s about his Hydra days, he’ll wake up back in the mindset of the Winter Soldier
  • As sad it is to say he’s hurt you before from waking up during his night terrors
  • And every time that has happened he would then go hide from you
  • The first time it happened he hide from you for a week, but as time went by you helped him lessen the nightmares with therapy and encouraging words. And when it ever happened again his hiding would lessen to the point where he finally did stop hiding and would talk to you about what happened
  • As though the relationship is rocky, it’s one of the most loving ones ever
  • Bucky would sometimes get in his moods of wanting to shower you in affection (it weirds everyone but Steve out)
  • When hidden away from everyone, both you and Bucky are the biggest cuddle bugs
  • You like to have his metal arm draped over you because he’s a literal walking space heater and his arm is always cool
  • But during the cooler seasons, if he so much touches you with his arm you will literally jump like a frightened kitten
  • You’re the one to kill the bugs
  • The first time he ever said “I love you” you woke up to him mumbling in his sleep, you had thought he was having another nightmare so you were ready to console him if he woke up to a startle. But to your surprise he had said “I love you… Y/N” then some other weird noises came from his mouth (he says it doesn’t count because he wasn’t awake, but oh you so totally count it)

~Sam Wilson Headcanons~

  • He too is a huge fucking nerd
  • Whenever it’s movie night at the tower he just has to watch Star Trek (much to Thor’s displeasure)
  • At your shared bedroom, Sam has a secret selection of “SSSM’s” aka “Sam’s Special Secret Movies”
  • They’re disney movies
  • His favorite is Lady & The Tramp
  • Sam wanted to try to famous spaghetti scene when you were making your special spaghetti (you couldn’t deny the look he was giving you)
  • It was a total mess, but he wanted to nail it so he wanted to have spaghetti for dinner for a whole week
  • When you guys got it he had jumped up and knocked over all of the spaghetti onto you (you guys didn’t have spaghetti for a whole month after that)
  • Sam also suffers from PTSD during the time he served in the military
  • So whenever he has an attack from remembering something he always goes to your guy’s bathroom and lays in the tub (he finds that all of the muted colors calming)
  • Also during that time you had learned that Sam is able to relax fully from aromatherapy, so whenever he’s in the tub trying to calm himself down you go in there and light up a mixture of lavender candles and rosemary scent melts. When you’re done lighting up everything you like to sit next to the tub and rub his knuckles
  • Your voice is also very calming to him during his PTSD induced anxiety attacks, so while rubbing his knuckles you tell him memories of things you guys have done together. Sometimes you even just list things you had found on the internet that you know he’d find funny
  • You know when he is finally calmed down, he would lift your hand closer towards him to signal that you should get in the tub too
  • It’s always quiet for a while before Sam talks to you. It’s usually about what had sent him into the attack and about Riley
  • Every time he just says that it was his fault that Riley died and every time he says that you spend the next few hours telling him everything that Riley would want him to do, to not blame himself and that he’s in a better place now. That place either being heaven or with the stars, that his memory of Riley shouldn’t be tainted by sad memories
  • Sam likes to take you out flying
  • And after each flying session Sam has some strange hand shaped bruises on his arms/shoulders (strange right? they look distinctly like yours)
  • He hogs all of the blankets (he does it on purpose so you have to cuddle him)
  • Sam also likes to cook for you! (of course the spaghetti was a different story) But he demands to be the one to cook for you always

~Wanda Maximoff Headcanons~

  • People like to think that she’s super shy and not as courageous like her twin
  • But let it be known that she is one of the biggest flirts when it comes to you
  • Before you guys started dating Pietro would always flirt with you, to the point where everyone would want to physically vomit in their mouths
  • Wanda of course got super tired of his flirting with you and yelled at in him Slovakian (it was in front of everyone, he had just made a joke about you running through his mind all day)
  • Everyone was stunned silent, especially Pietro. He had turned just as red as his sister’s powers. Later on that day when everyone was relaxing in the common room Pietro had picked you up and plopped you on Wanda
  • Everyone of course knew of her affections towards you
  • Tony was the one to suggest (yell) for Wanda to make out already
  • You guys did
  • In front of everyone
  • Like her superhero alias ‘Scarlet Witch’, Wanda practices witchcraft
  • She likes to take you out to get her supplies (your favorite thing to do is help her pick out the perfect crystals for her charms/spells)
  • You both like to dress up as witches for Halloween every year
  • Everyone thinks it’s super cute
  • Wanda sometimes has nightmares too from her days in Hydra, she’s not violent but she’s very unnerved when woken up from the terrors
  • You spend hours reassuring her that they will never and you mean never will get ahold of her again
  • After nightmares and when you’re done reassuring her, Wanda always takes your hand and places it over her heart, she tells you, “As long as this it beating, I will always love you.” (it’s her way of thanking you for being there)
  • And then you’re the one crying
  • Wanda is total little spoon (but sometimes she’ll give in and be the big spoon)
  • Neither of you can kill bugs (she’s all this power but she just cannot bring herself into killing a bug)
  • It ends with both of you shouting for help
  • Nat is always the one to help, the guys are huge babies
  • Like her brother, Wanda loves to tease you, it’s easy to tease you for all she has to do is take whatever is in your hands at the moment and float it above your head
  • Dating one of The Avengers, let alone knowing all of them is super dangerous, so whenever something bad happens that could/have harmed you, Wanda would project happy memories of her and you (including everyone else depending on the situation) into your mind so you wouldn’t freak out

~Pietro Maximoff Headcanons~

  • He takes pride in being a huge flirt
  • Before dating Pietro always did what he did best, flirt with you
  • And if you didn’t give him the time of day (which secretly made him even more madly in love with you) he’d run off to flirt with anyone else in the tower
  • When he had asked you out you thought you were being Punk’d
  • You actually turned around expecting Ashton Kutcher to laugh in your face
  • You turned him down the first time (still thinking he had asked you out on a joke)
  • You then finally said yes after the 20th time of him asking you out (you figured he was being serious after the 6th-7th time he asked you out, but you wanted to see how far he’d go for you)
  • Pietro was beyond nervous for your guy’s first date (he’d never admit it to you though)
  • He asked for pointers from Clint
  • You asked for pointers from Wanda
  • Pietro sometimes flirts with other people while out and about with you (you think it’s a default system in him)
  • It always hurt you though when he does flirt with someone else, you know he thinks of himself highly but you don’t think he understands how much of a blow that is to your self-esteem when he does that
  • One time when he did that was with some particular beautiful grocery clerk and you had left him to go back to the tower
  • Everyone wanted to kill him
  • Now Steve didn’t really approve of what he did to you so he decided to give Pietro some special ‘training’. Everyone watched from the viewing platform, you of course had a front row seat
  • Each time Steve had landed a hit on Pietro, he would turn his body to point at you and then demand Pietro to say something he loves about you and/or apologize (he didn’t hurt he too badly, just was able to leave a few bruises around his body)
  • After about an hour of the special training you had called for everyone to leave, Pietro that day learned that you’re not a force to be reckoned with (you were already startling beautiful and dangerous, he was glad it was Steve giving him the lessons on how to respect you)
  • Pietro only flirts with you now (still disgusts everyone but they’re glad it’s only for you)
  • Whenever you’re sad Pietro likes to ask you for a special place you’d wish to go to, he’d then proceed to take you there
  • He loves to compliment you in Slovakian (you can tell he’s complimenting you from the loving look he gives you)
  • You then punch him because that’s the only way you can respond when he’s looking at you like that (damn him)
  • He doesn’t like to talk about his days with Hydra but you can tell when he’s upset about them (he always tenses up when someone mentions them) You like to give him massages to help ease the tension from it
  • Pietro thinks you’re too good for him

~Scott Lang Headcanons~

  • You met him when his was hiding from the cops in your backyard
  • He was more terrified of seeing you standing there than you were finding him crouching in your bushes
  • You almost peed yourself from laughing
  • You invited him in for tea (he thought you were the strangest yet most attractive person ever) You had found out why he was hiding from the cops (he might have stole some money to give back to his neighbors- they were scammed from some weird salesman)
  • He asked you out that same night
  • You had found out he was Ant-Man through your friend Sam Wilson (SUCH A TWIST WOW)
  • Scott got the shit beat outta him when you found out what he did to Sam
  • He didn’t mind, he liked the fire in your eyes when you punched him
  • Scott introduced you to Cassie after dating for just two weeks
  • “He really likes you Y/N!” is what Cassie said (you wanted cry from how cute she was)
  • He loves to take you on playdates with Cassie
  • Sometimes during the playdates Cassie will insist on doing both of your guy’s makeup
  • Her favorite to do on Scott consists of bright blue eyeshadow, pink blush, and orange lipstick
  • He tries to kiss you every time he has the orange lipstick on
  • When Scott wants to tease you he’d call the ants to hide certain things of yours
  • During the fight with Darren Cross, ANT-hony had died, so you, Scott, and Cassie held a funeral for him (it was actually super sad, both you and Scott cried, Cassie had to hold the tissues)
  • When doing chores about the house, you would ask Scott to get into his Ant-Man suit so he could easily lift up furniture
  • He says he doesn’t have to use the suit to lift up the furniture… but both of you know that he does (where do you even get this furniture from)
  • Scott likes to make this one joke about how he ‘burgled’ your heart, when in reality it was you who stole his

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WOWZERS! This honestly took me a long time to do, like all together. But I’m glad I was able to do this!

Thank you anon babe for the request! I saved Scott last just for you <3

~Widow