So, I’m new to this studyblr thing, but I haven’t seen something like this before. Studying can be hard while you go on and off with with your illness, and I believe the most important is bending your way of thinking. It’s hard word. But recovery is such a gratifying hard work.
You just can’t study sometimes, and that doesn’t mean you’re not being productive. Treat yourself, your body needs rest, food, exercise, relaxing. Everytime you do one of this, you can congratulate yourself. Congratulate yourself, even if it seems so small. In my bad days, texting my best friend is hard. And I let myself feel good when I do it. When I think that only if I’m studying I’m being productive, I tend to loose motivation, and get into the vicious circle of feeling bad brcause I don’t study and not studying cause I feel bad. So I find other ways to feel productive, and increase them until I can put small studies - and them increase them! This might take a few days, or weeks. But remember that you’re trying and that already is remarkable, so do congratulate yourself and do be proud that you got out of bad to brush your teeth.
You can try:
Taking care of yourself
Watching a TV show.
Baking something! I love this one
Stretching and walking. It can be just around your room, but it will wake your body up.
Cuddle and playing with a pet if you have one.
Reading anything. It can be the dumbest fanfic ever, but it will help you concentrate, so nice one!
Playing a game.
Sketching drawings or random quotes. And this ain’t meant to look pretty, just to be fun.
Making yourself some tea.
“But others are so productive”. You know what is AWSOME? Living when your mind is fighting against you. You’re already formidable for anything you can accomplish because of this. Remember that you’re not to blame on how your brain works, and allow yourself bad days. And every time you do study, don’t ever think “finally, I lost so many times already” but be SUPER proud of you. I am. You’re doing great if you’re searching so much to find helpful tips already.
Planing is great, but breaking schedules is ok. This happens to everyone, I promise. You wouldn’t blame yourself if you got stuck in the rain, or had to help a friend, right? So why do if you can’t get out if bed? You can’t always control it. So what I do is planing, and instead of feeling bad about what I haven’t done, I feel good about what I have done. Sometimes, looking at lost dates is hard. So I close my agenda and just make a to-do list, crossing the items when I get to them, and never following orders. And remember to put small tasks in your list as well!
Have a routine before studying, and have a routine before studying when you’re not feeling good. This helps your brain associate that it needs to concentrate.
I have three routines, for example:
In my normal days, I just stretch, drink cold water and put some music I like and get straight to studying hard. On my sad days, I take a cold shower, eat a snack and play some concentration games. Only then I get to studying, and I start with baby steps - I tend to watching videos or listening to poadcasts first. It takes a while, but anything you can do you need to feel proud about.
On my hipomaniac days, I go for walks or even runs. I need to tire my body a bit or I can’t focus. Then I take two glasses of water and a shower. Only THEN I study, and usually start with reading, to remind myself that while I have a lot of energy and feel good, it won’t do anything without discipline.
Find out what works for you. On bad days it will take a while, but if it gets you going, it is more than worth it.
Exercise. And again, it is okay when you can’t - and not a privilege of us neuroatypicals. But exercises are good ways to control your body chemistry. I have three exercise routines - again, for normal days in which I have energy, for days when I have less energy and for days in which I have WAY too much energy. You also don’t need to do this everyday, this is me, but have a schedule. And never fear to break schedules. Also, eat healthy.
Remember: mental illness is all about chemistry, which is frustrating, but also means you can hack it. And not just with medication.
Talk about your feelings, and not only when they’re bad. If you can afford a therapist, great. If you don’t, regularly talk to hotlines or trustworthy persons. Or just write about it. It really works to reduce your number of crises.
Power posing. Talking about hacking brain chemistry! I learnt this from a lecture called Our Body Language Shapes Who We Are, from psychologist
Amy Cuddy - you can find it at TED. And it changed my life. Posing like Wonder Woman or all star spread for two minutes gets your cortisol (stress hormone) levels down, and your testosterone levels up! Sounds silly, but it does work. Also, it does look kinda silly so you can laugh and have fun while at it.
Have safety plans for every bad emotion you feel. I make lists I can look at when an emotion is overwhelming and pick something to do. Things like anxiety crises, sadness, anger, apathy and self destructive thoughts. This will help you reduce the times of this bad emotions and refrain it from growing into worse things, such as episodes.
Motivation. Motivation is important to anyone. I love lists - especially because I can hide them if they’re making me feel bad - so I have one for this as well. Things such as:
I love learning
Studying is a way of having control over my brain
I want to be a teacher that makes a difference
I also love listening to Sia’s The Greatest, it’s kinda of my fighting song. If you have one, blast it and perform it ridiculously around your room until your dog is staring at you like you bring dishonor to the family - or is it just my life.
Find your motivation and keep it to your chest. ]
Try out different study methods in different states. Look at posts at studying tips - always remembering that some might not work for you, and that’s not (just) because of your illness, and that’s ok, that’s why they are so many - and use them to build your study routines. Routines are great because they bring safety and help you when you’re lost.
Sometimes you can’t control your sleep. It is important to try, however, don’t blame yourself if your brain just make it impossible some days.
This is to the folks that are on the bipolar spectrum and like me can go 5 days straight with a maximum of 4 hours of daily sleep. If you know you can’t control it, don’t force it. It will make you feel anxious and you get MORE enrgy and impulsiveness. Tiring your body and brain helps.
There are days when it is three a.m. and I just can’t sleep but am not feeling bad. On those days, I work for a maximum of two hours. It is a nice moment for putting your reading in day. But never do this for many consecutive days, you’ll feel like a zombie later. However, it can help with getting something done. And it is especially calming for unrest.
Remember that bad days happen and you’re allowed to feel, to cry and rest. And that you’re never a burden when you need help or talk about your feelings. You are only human. Have routines, break routines. Do crazy wishes like decorating a Christmas tree in the middle of June. Pamper yourself. And just never give up.
Chem midterm tomorrow and I’m lowkey freaking out ;;
I’m getting emotional because I’ve never been able to sit down and complete my homework in one sitting, let alone accomplish something like this. To all of my friends who are struggling–you really can do it. Look at me, look at who I was versus who I’m trying to become; these are the fruits of the process to becoming the student I want to be! I’m not yet even halfway there, but this is just part of the beginning.
When you feel helpless, remember that before, I couldn’t do my homework on time/in the morning or sit down for more than 5 minutes without losing focus. I hadn’t studied for a midterm or final PROPERLY in years (if ever,) and haven’t been able to clean anything without it becoming a mess within days…I’m still incredibly forgetful, and the list goes on.
That person mentioned up there is still someone I’m trying to work with, but the road to reformation is always open. Don’t just search for the solution. Focus on improving the little things, because buildings don’t exist without brick and mortar!
So I started with a white candle, and making it into a rosemary cinnamon offering to loki tomorrow
So what I am doing is I got a unscented white candle(the ones in glass) from target, it was like $2(have also seen at 99 cent store or dallor store)
I put it in a pot of boiling water with a little bit of salt for some extra cleansing boost
(PLEASE BE CAREFUL THE GLASS WILL BE VERY HOTT)
When it was mostly melted with the core still there I put rosemary to signify new blessed beginnings and to clear any ill chemistry between us because this is my first offering, and some cinnamon just for loki cuz I heard that’s what he likes
Next I’m going to wait around five minutes cuz all the rosemary is floating
I am really bad at posting this daily woops. This week has been quite stressful for me because I was really ill from tues-thurs but I still managed to do some work whilst I was off. 😰😰 On thurs I had SO MUCH catch up work to do from the lessons I had missed. It was crazy!! But I got it all done, which I was really proud of. 💪🏽 Handed in my personal statement again today. Did some driving earlier this week and learnt to parallel park which was fun 😊🚗🚗
Soz for the long msg. Hope you all have had a fab week xoxox
So… okay, years and years ago, when asked to take a science requirement in college, I took chemistry. I took chemistry because my brother was really, really good at it, and I was unsure what to take, so I thought maybe I’d be good at it too. And I wasn’t. I seriously wasn’t.
It started out almost comprehensible, and then it went over my head so fast that I never caught up again. I could manage the labs, but the theory was way over my head to the point it seemed almost pointless studying. But I did study. I studied my ass off. Only for my professor to tell my parents that I was probably goofing off rather than studying because that’s the only reason a person could possibly do badly at chemistry.
I still have a copy of my midterm report card, which I now find pretty funny: He says “The situation is not yet hopeless, but it is approaching dire.” By the end of the term my labs pulled my grade up to a D-, but I still failed the class.
This despite studying more than I’d ever studied in my life. I studied all the time, day and night, hoping it would make more sense. My roommate made me drop the next chemistry class I took when she found me staring at my textbook and crying.
I couldn’t really find a lot of interesting Coursera classes to take around now, and I’m still continuing my quest to keep my mind sharp and help myself recover from delirium-induced brain damage by taking classes there. Chemistry doesn’t really interest me all that much, but it was one of the only classes at the moment that wasn’t actively uninteresting. So I decided to take it.
This professor goes out of her way to explain things. She’s clearly very good at her subject, and very enthusiastic. But where my last chemistry teacher turned his enthusiasm for chemistry into a private club where only premed students, chem majors, and A and B students had a place, this one makes analogy after analogy until you understand things that you may not have understood otherwise.
And so far? I’ve taken three quizzes. I got 85% on the first, 100% on the second, and 100% on the third. (I should’ve gotten 91% on the third, but there was one lucky multiple choice answer where I guessed at random and guessed right. Everything else, both multiple choice and otherwise, I did through my own work.) Not bad considering that my expectations of this class were that I’d be happy to leave with a D+.
But it’s more than grades. My mind is getting sharper. And I hate to say it but it’s not just the delirium that’s made it get pretty dull all these years. It was partly that I was getting almost lazy. Not that I wasn’t working with it, but that I wasn’t doing anything with it that makes your mind actually have to focus, hone its skills, and work in the way that science and math do. There’s a very particular kind of mental acuity that those subjects require, that I’ve been neglecting for a long time despite the fact that I really enjoy science.
And partly that was because of my spectacular burnout last time I tried college – much later than the chemistry fiasco. I’d assumed that since college wasn’t the place for me, then this kind of intellectual stimulation wasn’t either.
And I was completely wrong.
And it’s actually pretty exhilarating to be using parts of my mind that I haven’t been able to use in a long time. In fact I’m not sure I’ve ever used these parts of my mind properly – because in the past, I didn’t use acuity so much as brute force when it came to intellect, and there’s a big difference.
All of this is very important to my recovery from delirium, too. The longer you retain cognitive problems after delirium, the worse your chances are at a good medical outcome. So this isn’t a trivial matter or something I’m just doing because it’s fun.
But it is surprisingly fun. I didn’t know I’d ever find chemistry fun, but this is. And the sense of mental clarity is amazing, it’s like my mind becomes sharp and clear and focused in a way I’m not sure it’s ever been in my life.