ijustine

A rant, but I ain't mad bro

Above, my senior photo - 2002

I’m writing this post in response to a lot of tweets I got this weekend around the Game Awards and at IEM

I don’t usually bring up negative comments but it’s so upsetting to constantly feel the need to prove yourself. Most of the time I just write tweets, or posts I want to send and delete them afterwards. I’ll instantly feel better, even if I didn’t hit send. Try it sometime! I might feel the need to be defensive but there’s no point so I just say nothing and move on.

I might not play LoL but it’s fun to watch and I’ve played enough to know what’s going on. It’s funny because I was getting some criticism on twitter about being there since I don’t play as much as “they do” - Do you think everyone in football stadiums, hockey arenas, basketball/tennis courts all play or have ever actually played that professional sport they are spectating?? Chances are pretty high they haven’t.

This is the first and last time I’ll ever address this - I know the amount of time I’ve spent playing video games my entire life and to see people say I don’t is laughable.  Granted I might have made a mistake posting my first “Let’s Play” of a game I’d never played before as my first series on my gaming channel.. Oops, mistakes were definitely made ;) many…. many… many of them. But, I did finish it so at least I didn’t give up despite all the hate and death threats. 

I have never claimed to be a professional at it but it’s something I have always loved and has made me who I am today. My mom actually set a rule growing up that if I didn’t play at least one active sport and get good grades, she would take my computer and games (NES, SNES, N64, Dreamcast (lol) Game Boy, Game Gear) away for 9 weeks until the next report card. What did I do one year instead of going to prom? Went to a LAN party. 

When I was 16 most people were saving money for a car.. I saved and bought my first Apple G4 tower (pictured above) and didn’t bother getting my license until I was 18. Why would I need to drive when this internet thing has everything I need? Plus, my mom drove me to all those IRL sports!

I do remember the day unreal Tournament was released for Mac.. that was the day my life changed. I was finally playing my favorite “PC” game on my Mac! That Christmas I asked for RAM as my only gift. That same year for my birthday I asked for what I believe at the time was called “SoftWindows” to emulate Windows so I could try to play PC games. It did NOT work at all. Wasted birthday gift. 

We always were a Mac family so gaming on a PC for me in the very early days was mostly spent waiting for ports, playing in study hall at school, borrowing friends non-Apple computers, and yes… going to “cyber cafes”.

I also remember it like a holiday when Steve Jobs announced at WWDC they would be transitioning all future Apple products to Intel chips. It’s one huge reasons I love getting the opportunity to work with Intel. Growing up all of my friends had “Intel Inside” their gaming machines and I was jealous haha. 

I love what I love.. I love video games, I love tech, I love food, I love candy, I love nice people, I love puppies. I really don’t care if you choose to challenge me on any of those. My friends, family and viewers who know me, know what I like and that’s what matters. 

I hope that whatever it is that you love, never let anyone tell you otherwise. Be you. Be what makes you happy and surround yourself with people who are supportive of that. 

Anyway, there’s so much more I’d like to say. I guess I’ll save it for my book ;) I honestly love you guys so much and appreciate the endless support.

I wise lady once sang “Haters gonna hate, hate, hate, hate, hate…”

xo, ij