igunas

“I am a single father and it’s not easy raising 7 children alone. At the onset of Somalia’s civil war, many families broke down.  I used to have a wife, the mother to my children but once the central government collapsed, she wanted to migrate to outside the country, in fact she was infatuated with it, thinking that there is some kind of paradise awaiting us outside our own country. My opinion at the time was that we stay inside the country and raise our young children first in a much safer area of the country for they need our care and support. I sensed that she was still unsettled. After a while, she asked me for some travel money in order to visit a doctor in Yemen. Since she was so adamant and I thought maybe a quick break would do her good, I gave her the money and she left. She was gone for a good time and made it extremely difficult for me to reach her, on top of that I was busy raising our 7 small children. I got very worried until she contacted me after 7 long months of no communication. She gave me an ultimatum, either move here to Yemen or give me my divorce papers. I told her that we didn’t have the resources to move there as the children were still in school and that I was a simple labourer. Again, 4 months passed until I got the second call and she asked for her divorce papers, saying that she found a new life in Yemen. Afraid of losing her, I quickly removed the children from school and we went to Aden (Yemen) to join her, not fully knowing where she is. For 4 straight years, we were looking for her and the minute we approached the fifth year, I discovered that she already moved to Europe and created a new family there. Some time passed and she randomly called me asking for her divorce papers once again, this time I gave it to her for my heart was already broken. My children and I left Yemen straight away and moved back to Garowe and I’ve raised them here ever since. They all are in full time education and since this is something that God already predestined it, I’ve accepted it.”

(Garowe)

“Hawl sahalan ma aha inu hal waalid 7 caruur koriyo. Wakhtigii ay bilaabmeen dagaalaadii Soomaaliya, waxaa burburay qoysas fara badan. Anigu xaas baan lahaa wakhtigaas, waxay aad uu jeclayd inee waddanka ka dhoofto oo qurbaha ay tagto laakin anigu kumaan waafaqsaneeyn fikirkaas oo wakhtigaas 7 caruur ayey ii dhashay iyagaan aad ugu mashquulsanaa. Kadib maalin maalmaha ka mid ahwaxay igu tiri Yemen ayaan dhakhatar ugu tagayaa ee isii lacag aan ku baxo. Aniguna wakhtiga oo aad uu adkaa iyo hadalkeeda oo aan uu arkayey iney uu baahan tahay nasasho, waan siiyey lacagtii, kadiib way baxday. Muddo markii ay maqneyd, waxaan waayey wax aanu kala xiriirno oo aniga iyo ciyaalka aad uu yaryaraa ku mashquulsanaa aad baan ugu warwaray. Wakhti badan kadib oo ay maqneyd 7 bilood waxay ii sheegtey in aan xaggaas usoo guuro hadii kale aan kala tagno. Aniguna waxaan ku iri  xaggaas wax aan ku tago aanan haysan, caruurtana iskuul bey dhigtaan xaggaan ka xamaashaa oo nin xamaal ah baan ahay. Muddo 4 bilood kadib, waxay ila soo hadashay iguna tiri inay uu baahan tahay warqadii aan ku qabay oo ay iga maarantay nololna xaggaas ku haysato. Anigoo baqdin ka qabay inaan xaaskayga waayo, caruurtii baa durba iskuulka kala soo baxay, dabadeedna geeyey Caden (Yemen). Muddo 4 sano joognay, waan ka raadiyey, waana waayey. Markii sanadkii shanaad uu noo dhamaaday, waxaa laygu sheegay inay mar hore Yurub uu baxday oo ay reer kale samaystay. Sidii ayeey muddo kadib ilasoo hadashay, iyadoo doonaysa warqadii furitaanka. Waan murugooday dabadeedna waxaan iska go’aansaday inaan u fudeediyo oo waan furay maadaame ee yeelatay nolol kale. Waxaan kusoo laabtay magaaladda Garowe, xaggaas ayaan caruurtayda ku koriyey oo hadda jaamacaddo dhigtaan. Maadaame ee waxaan tahay wax Alle qoray, waan aqbalay.”

(Garowe)

Part 2: “He asked me a single question: ‘do you love greenery?’ I instantly replied yes, not hiding my excitement. I added that I love all the types of flowers that this world offers. He promised me that he will take me as many places as he possibly can, full of flowers and greenery. From that day onwards, he took me to the most beautiful places and we spent a lot of time together. I fell in love with him but since I was a young girl, I could not tell him. I kept thinking, in time I will disclose it to him. Unfortunately, we had to move and we left the Towfiiq district in Mudug to Galkayo. I was heartbroken but I tried to move on. After a while, I randomly saw him in Galkayo but I couldn’t bring myself to tell him of the love that I carry for him. So we left it at that. In 2009, we saw once again in Hargeisa and I told myself that I’ve been given another chance to tell him so I did. I told him of my love for him and he replied with a question that bothered me to the core. He said: ’How is possible for you to love, considering that you are blind and can’t see me?’ Even though I had every right to get angry and leave; I tried to remain calm and explain to him that we, blind people, are capable of recognising love. In fact, you don’t need physical eyes to see and experience love. Love is experienced through the intuitive knowledge of our hearts and I see and recognise it with the eyes of my heart. He wasn’t in love with me but I tried to show him my love at several occasions. I wrote several poems for him and remained patient and slowly he fell in love with me. In the end, however, we didn’t end up together and that’s God’s will. But know that beauty and love’s not experienced through your physical eyes. It’s experienced through your heart and I tell others who have been in my situation and are blind, if you experience love, don’t let your disability deter you from pursuing it. Everyone is capable of love.”

(Hargeisa)

Qeybta 2aad: “Wuxuu ii weydiiday su‘aal: ‘miyaad jeceshahay doogga?’ Waxaan ugu jawaabay: ’Haa, waan jeclahay meelaha doogga badan ama ubaxyada leh’. Kadib, maalintaas wuxuu ii balan qaaday inuu ii geyn doono meelo badan oo aan jeclahay ama dookhaayga ah. Maalintaas iyo maalmo kaloo badan wuxuu ii kaxeyn jiray meelo qurux badan, wakhtiyo badan ayuu ila qaadan jiray sida galabtii oo kale taasi waxaay khasab ka dhigtay qalbigayga aan qofkaas jacayl badan uu qaado. Hase ahaate, wakhtigaas madaama oo aan da’yara, suurtagal ii may ahayn inaan uu sheego jacaylka. Muddo kadib, waan kasoo tagay degmadii Tawfiiq, waxaan usoo guuray magaalada Gaalkacyo. Runtii, kumaan faraxsaneyn inaan ka tago isagoo jooga laakin waxaa suurtagal ka dhigay wakhtiga. Isagu halkii buu igaga hadhay kadib. Wakhti kadib baan Gaalkacyo isku argnay. Suurtgal markii labaad imey noqon inaan uu sheego inaan jeclahay. Sanadkii 2009 baan mar labaad isku aragney magaalada Hargaysa markaas ayaay ahayd markii aan uu sheegay una soo bandhigay jacaylka aan uu hayo. Kadib wuxuu iga hor keenay su’aal anaan ka filineyn, taaso ahayd: ‘Sidee baad wax uu jeclaan kartaa adiga oon waxba arkeyn?’ Runtii, anigu kumaan qancsaneyn su’aasha uu ii weydiyey laakin, anigoon ka xanaaqin oo aan ka tagin baan isku dayey inaan ku qanciyo in qofka indhaha la’ uu wax dooran karo waxna jeclaan karo waxna diidi karo indho laantuna aanay ahaayn indhaha wajiga ku yaal uun ee ay tahay qalbiga. Wakhti badan oon ku cel-celiyay, una adeegsaday sugaan aakhirkii waxaa uu igu waafaqay jacaylkayga iguna waafaqay rabitaankayga. Taasina waxaay ii noqotay guul inkastoo markii danbe inankii anaan calaf isku yeelan. Waxaan leeyahay, qalibiga wax doortee dookhu maaha dhaayaha. Xaqiiqadu waxay tahay qofku inuu waxna ka dooran karo waxna ku diidi karo qalbigiisa taasna waxaan jeclahay in dadku nala dareemaan ogaadana anigu tan waan soo dhaafay laakin waxaa jira dad badan oo naafo ah oo xaaldan isla imika ku sugan waxaan rajaaynayaa inaay wax ku qataan. Qofkasta wuu dareemi kara jacayl.“

(Hargaysa)