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You have sex with me for the feeling, but i do it for the time after. The time where you’ll lay with your head on my chest. The time where I feel like we both want to say those three little words but nobody will. when we lay there and just listen to the music playing. My friends say you’re just using me for sex, but honestly, I’d let you use me forever because being used by you is still better than not at all.
—  Excerpt from a book I will never write #1164 // @kaylas.r
its always the person who you won’t think will ever hurt you that always does and its always the best friend thats “forever” that ends up being the one whose not.
Nothing is fucking predictable, and you can’t predict anyones intentions in your life, you can only live through them. And these past couple weeks I’ve been feeling so damn alone, I seem to forget that I am surrounded by people.
All I can do is replay every single word you’ve said to me over and over again, and I still feel the same way I did, when I first heard those words.
And I can’t make sense of anything anymore. Everything that I thought made sense, stopped and everything that I thought I knew turned into everything that I didn’t know at all.
I used to think that we were forever. I mean, we’ve been through worse, and we were still side by side after it all and now nothing has even happened, we just stopped telling each other everything and then we just stopped telling each other anything at all, and then before i could even make sense of it, there was so much distance between us that there was nothing to reach for anymore. Your so far away, and there is no point in reaching over anymore because we are not the same people we used to be.
I used to think that when somebody said they loved you they’ll love you forever. i used to think loving someone was something that would never go away. the words “I love you” were so raw for me, but none of that makes sense anymore because the truth is, people lie.
Sometimes “i love you” is just a lie, and sometimes its not. But when do you know when its real?
the answer is, you dont.. and sometimes someone will love you one day and then completely ignore you the next for no reason at all.
nothing about anything makes sense anymore. people are here one day, their gone the next. sometimes you don’t even get a reason, you just get to stay up night after night wondering where the fuck did it all go wrong?
and it just doesn’t make sense. nothing makes sense, and I don’t know how to take in the fact that, there are no reasons for why things happen, and sometimes you get no reason to why someone just stops loving you and stops being there for you. You just get to live through it.
—  We used to stay up on the phone talking for hours, now I cant even get a text back. 
Internet Friend! Moon Bin

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• Bin would be the type to talk to you first 

• You two had been mutuals for a while and you always reblogged each other’s posts but never really reached out to each other 

• Until one day you saw a message coming from him • And then you started talking 

• And by talking I mean nONSTOP TEXTING OMG • And he would be texting you and his face would light up and the others would make fun of him for it 

• You two staying up late/ waking up early to try and talk to each other at a reasonable time for the other person 

• Bin always telling you not to stay up too late for him 

 • You two learning each other’s native language 

• gLASSES BIN 

• Like the first few times you skype or FaceTime he would be wearing his contacts bc he was a little nervous 

• But once he got more comfortable around you he would wear always wear his glasses 

• aND YOU WOULD THINK IT WAS LITERALLY THE CUTEST SHIT LIKE WHY WERE YOU HIDING THIS FROM ME 

• You two finally meeting in person • You being super nervous when you get off of the plane 

• Bin making sure to get to the airport like 2 hours ahead of time just in case your flight gets in early 

• It doesn’t but he doesn’t mind waiting 

• Him getting more and more nervous the closer it comes to you two meeting 

 • Bin going to look for you 

• Because what if you get lost 

 • That would suck

 • You two looking for each other at the same time 

• And him seeing you looking around and calling your name while running up to you 

• And hE’S WEARING HIS GLASSES AND A BEANIE 

• JUST LOOKING SUPER CUTE 

• And then he picks you up and hugs you super tight 

• It’s super cute and comfy but after a while it’s like “okay Bin I c a n ’ t b r e a t h e” 

• Bin introducing you to the guys

• And MJ saying something like "so THIS is who Bin hasn’t shut up about” • And you’ll both blush like crazy 

• Watching Minhyuk and Bin do girl group dances 

 • The other members noticing how happy you make him 

• Neither of you wanting you to leave 

• Bin trying to get you to stay and move to South Korea 

• Since you can’t just completely move away he makes excuses to see you a l l t h e t i m e 

• Visits becoming an insanely regular thing 

• Bin being afraid to tell you he likes you because you live so far away and long distance is incredibly hard 

• But eventually one day when you’re visiting him he tells you 

• And then the visits become more frequent 

• Usually you visiting him 

• And your free time is spent talking to him as much as possible 

• And although you both like each other you aren’t really ‘dating' 

• Until one day when you’re at his apartment and he takes you on a real date 

• And that potentially leads into a long distance! AU 

• Loving any time you get to spend together 

• But just in general talking to him all the time and feeling like you could tell him anything and always feeling super happy even when you’re just texting each other because sometimes that’s all you really need

I miss the days of being a little kid. You could just walk up to someone and instantly become their best friend. There would be this instant click of trust and friendship, and you were playing like you’d known each other your whole five-year-long life. 

There were no fights over boys or worries about how much you weighed and you didn’t worry about which friends you could trust; you trusted all of them and they all trusted you. Everything was black and white; no moral dilemmas over a situation, no real issues. 

Now? It’s all a blurry myriad of colors, so much that I can’t decide if the resulting mess is beautiful or tragic. Sometimes, all the available choices are the wrong ones, and we can’t always fix everything with a hug or an “I’m sorry” anymore. People change and come and go, yet we all stay the same and wish that everything around us would, too. We learn to hate food and ourselves and each other because society says so. We fight over boys like the world would stop turning if we stopped fighting, and sometimes we don’t know who we can trust.

I guess this is just one of those days where I really want nothing more than to be five years old again.

—  let’s build a blanket fort and watch disney movies and drink hot chocolate with too many marshmallows, just like the old days // an excerpt from a book i’ll never write #22

#1 Do not text him. He lied when when you said the two of you can stay friends, don’t act surprised. If you do text him, don’t tell him you miss him because you don’t. Not really. He wouldn’t have torn your heart apart like this when you first met. That guy you miss no longer exists.

#2 Follow his damn Instagram. You can’t avoid his memory forever. And when he post a picture of her, saying he loves her more than anything else, state until that tree branch feeling in your gut turns to ash and gets swept away.

#3 Stand in front of the mirror, look in your eyes and think his name. Think about how it tasted at 3 in the morning, think about how when you said it he’d come running. When the thoughts don’t turn your stomach inside out, say it out loud. You need to learn how to hear it and not flinch.

#4 Please remember that your body is made up of 37 trillion cells, but some people say it’s only 15 trillion. He didn’t know any better. He could not have possibly known any better. Find someone who cares enough to listen when you rant about life.

#5 You will laugh and it will hurt. This is good. Keep laughing. Keep hurting. Cry until they mistake the river flowing from beneath your bed for the bottom of the ocean. Sink your feet in the sand sweetheart. That’s the only way you’ll be able to push yourself back up.

#6 Read a book that reminds you of everything you loved about him. Then read a book and fall in love with someone who is completely opposite. All you need is some perspective.

#7 Kiss other boys but don’t kiss them at all. Do not lose respect for your body because he decided to leave it out in the cold. You’re still so special. Don’t let them take that away from you because he was too stupid to let you down easy. You can dream about breaking their hearts but don’t actually do it because it won’t break his.

#8 Grind your teeth and get the hell out of bed. This is not a war, this is your life. You’re not a hero, you’re not a victim and neither is he. So stop believing that you need to be saved because in case you haven’t noticed, your head is above water. This is moving on and it’s still painful.

—  L I F E G O E S O N
I worry at times that one day I’ll stop writing about you, or I’ll simply run out of words to describe the importance of your existence in the world - and to me. I know no amount of paper and ink is enough to truly make you understand, I have to make you believe it. Maybe while I’m here and so long as my broken heart continues beating… I can spend the rest of our forever doing my best to do so.
—  Excerpt from a book I’ll never write #16

hey! im fugo & this is a follow forever to thank my mutuals & friends for all theyve done for me!!! thank you to all of you for sticking with me through thick & thin, & thank you for your kindness & support! have a safe new year, & may 2017 be all you hope it to be!!!

💜 qpps! 💜

youre all my closest friends & im grateful to have been blessed with you in my life!! i would do anything to make sure youre happy & safe, & im always here for you, no matter the time or place! i love you so, so much, & i pray that you will be with me by new years of next year, too! thank you for being you!

@reimi @moodiedblues @apollowikia @genv @ganvio

💜 beloved friends! 💜

youre so important to me, all of you!! youve been there for me, youve laughed with me, youve cried with me, & i cant put words to how thankful i am. you mean more to me than i can express, & i wish you a safe new years into a year that will lead into self growth & joy!!

@robbersoul @starsoverviridian @acrophylls @cloudyheaven @explosionquirk @priimariinas @charmerruby @ch3rry-b0t @boydoq @fightxer @danny-tck @galdrofsorrow @wivestale @kalosshippings @kittycreamer @flockstep @forrestvevo @mythicalmalasada @thiscrush @spotlightz @rubies-and-rose-petals @sleepy-sans @yaxawa @berrypal @butterflystar @birdsexual @clemontics @gayherobrine @mellopda @q3r @quests @rebelx2 @sunsetshimmer @teargrants @sleppy @z0w0z

💜 mutuals! 💜

while i might not have any close friendship with the majority of you, i still consider you friends whom i care for & would do anything to help! when youre all upset, i do what i can to help, & i will always be here for you! i hope that 2017 brings you smiles & new friends!!

💝 faves 💝

@fckin @championiris @digivolve @bapouro @dasuta @futurehalf @micolas @luckystar @hoennregion @hellhoundearring @macoto @komaedanagitos @magmaleadermaxie @lillipup @rohsa @qix @vaporwavesimulator @starlightcat @bigfcct @aphobes @coldmiku @fairyaid @iptrackers @luneflakes

💗 others whom i still love with all of my being!!!! 💗

# - d

@0110110101011 @7845125742 @akiracore @alyss @ambertoesuckler @ananiel @angelicembrace @angelicincarnate @animedoll @asqno @assaultlily @b2w2rosa  @blightes @bloodywiki @bonniibelle @breakfats @bubblypearls @cattailpvz @chiakimikan @chlomaki @chromewave@cinnamics @collisionchaos @commander-eyebrow @danganrnpa @darktyping @destinyfruit @deweypetals @doppioz @drackos @drivvel @dullhorror

e - j

@eithws @eustasskid @ewtom @fahcjeremy @firekeepr @gemsoft @geulladio @ggez @fooleds @frugalitys @fundeadz @garbageday @ghostgasps @giostxr @glutamines @gravqty @greenkiid @hacvek @hannibiotics @hatifnat @hearthieves @heartphase @holysiegfried @ilovemydf @iloveyoshikagekira @ireallyloveari @irlmob @jailbots @jetbadge @jnpr @jinta

k - m

@bf2 @kintaqs @kluex @kogamikanon @kotokc @laprais @lasquadra @lastsummerwhisper @lennongrad @leowatch @lesbiancharliekelly @lesbianpkmn @liarsgame @licuidsnake @liesels @lilseaturtle04 @liondances @liquidoranged @lnylia @lovequest @lovetrait @lupjn @lvl17 @m3p @macaronya @memoryboxes @mailboxs @maizmar @maniley @maqmas @mariabelle @masterwaterbender @mekako @mellokkah @menacingfocus @mvto @myunit

n - r

@natacular @nbboy @nemesisfang @neilnordegraf @neopo1itan @nezoomi @nightmaresoldiers @nolurun @nurse8 @nyarionette @nyello @ohdin @oikiwa @opalgash @pdagirls @peratla @percivalhastings @philiobia @pianowiki @pksplysandre @plosh @pnisaac @poisoniumz @preciousopal @puppys @purugly @queenpup @rabbitcast @radwimpz @rainbow-wing @rainsstorms @ratclaws @reepers @reunicluse @rezero @riohlu @rivaltrainer @rurikyyu

s

@sadboyz2001lol @saeranpda @saeyounglovemail @samezxa @sanrxo @scatterbrainedprofessor @scissorblade @scrample @shadowdancing @shinyelekid @shslinsecure @sinnch @sixflagz @smfaba @smolyuuri @snokumura @softbunnies @softv @son1cblast @stalemate @starbeach @teamfortresstwo @strangeauthor @sti9ma @starrshines

t - z

@teirusus @terminas @timegearz @toxicpex @trapindice @trialcaptainacerola @tsunyasa @viridianboy @veseramakerhatch @vagabxned @uwuq @uwp @ultrabeasties @ufufu @voidfishs @vortexclub @yuriosbf @yosafire @yoiz @yiffm @wrmsss @wlwstocking @wingtype @yuripetrov 

Okay I had a blast with this one. Overhead view with a pose I’ve never tried before, drawing a skeleton of all things, first time doing slime. Papyrus I love you, but your face is SO hard to draw. It took me an hour just to get that the way I liked it.

This is based off the extremely talented @abadtime ‘s fic “Best of times, worst of times”. Any of my friends will tell you if it involves papyrus i freaking love it and this fic has pulled my heart strings more times than I can count. I had SO much fun drawing this.

I wasn’t planning to do one of these, but 2016 can’t end fast enough and I think we all need some love at the moment so whatever. This year may not have been the best overall (understatement of the year, 2016 was a disaster), but I also made a bunch new friends who became very dear to me so I can’t say that everything that happened in 2016 was the Worst because I’m too happy to have found some of you.

Everyone on the following list is quite precious to me! Some are new (thank you for following me), some have been with me forever (thank you for staying with me), some allow me to get on their nerves a lot and actually talk to me (i love you, darlings! ♥), and I can’t believe that most of these guys are actually following me (seriously, you’re all way cooler than me), but no matter what, you all deserve the best!

Happy New Year! Let’s hope 2017 will be kinder.

Special Mentions: @taurielsilvan – My dear little sis. Life woulnd’t be the same without you. ❤ • @ladyalatariel – My wonderful & amazing Ylva. • @blaackpanthers – Olivia, darling. Making me jealous by showing me her dog all the time. • @lucifersmaze – Izzie aka the one that makes sure I get some sleep. • @jacontodd & @luciocorreiaa – My children Kesh & Prairie who never sleep. • @skyyequake, @karlurbans & @obiwanjedi – Always there to listen, always a pleasure to talk to. • @celebrlan & @eveenstar – Sam and Mr. Frodo and just overall precious cupcakes. • @spacvengrs & @ravenrcnan – The cutest.

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