LOVE ME 7. Pretending Nothing Happened
woke up at around 2pm because i could hear someone knocking on my door. i got up assuming it was Emma just here to check on me. when i opened the door i was surprised to see Luke standing there holding up my shirt and my phone. when i realized it was him i immediately shut the door. i was confused to why i never even realized my phone was missing.
“come on Lucy. open up” i heard Luke say on the other side of my door.
“just put my stuff down at the door and leave” i tell him once i get the courage to speak
“open the door” he says again but this time more demanding
finally i open it back up and he walks right past me into my room.
“come in…i guess” i say mostly to myself
“you left your shirt and phone” he says handing me my stuff
“thanks i couldn’t find it” i mumble pointing to my shirt “i stole your shirt.. its around here somewhere” i say walking over to my desk and picking it up
“keep it. i have a lot like it” he tells me as he just stands in the middle of my room.
“okay” i say setting it back down on my desk
things are awkward as we both don’t seem to want to make eye contact so i look a my floor
“well i should go” he says walking back to the door and opening it
“wait” i say before he can walk out
“yeah?” he asks confused by why i stopped him
“do you remember much of what happened last night…because i can remember anything” i say honestly.. trying to keep my emotions from showing
he closes the door and walks over to my bed and sits down. i decide to sit next to him
“i remember some. not all. i drank too much” he says sounding almost regretful
“so did i” i admit
“what’s the last thing you remember?” he asked me. i was silent for a minuet trying to remember last night
“i remember the truth or dare game..and walking into your room.. but then there is nothing until waking up this morning” i tell him honestly
“usually when that happens to me most of it comes back eventually..and the stuff that doesn’t is usually stuff you don’t want to remember anyways” he tells me looking at his hands
“hopefully” i state which was followed by a few moments of awkward silence
“umm..do you..do you know if you used a condom?” i say awkwardly while my cheeks were bright red. it was a question i didn’t want to ask but the thought had been worrying me since i got back to my room.
“yeah…i was worried about that too..but i…uh… found it..so yeah i did.” he says also seeming awkward by the subject we were forced to talk about… which confused me because he was so sexually experienced.
“good” i say letting out a breath i didn’t know i was holding in.
“so what do you remember?” i ask again..i needed to know more
“its all pretty fuzzy to be honest.. but i will say you have surprisingly nice boobs” he says with a smirk as a small laugh when he sees the face i make at his words
“stop. I’m serious. what happened” i say as tears start to spill from my eyes
he looks at me and at first some emotion flashes across his face that i cant read..its almost apologetic seeming. but just as fast as it came it left as his face went back to how it was before
“see this is why i don’t fuck virgins. too much drama. go cry to someone that gives a shit about you” he says getting up and walking towards the door
“you are such an asshole!” i feel like i almost yelled it
“well you didn’t seem to think that last night” he says with his cocky smirk coming back to his face.
“get the hell out of my room. you are a dick and i never want to see you again.” i say angrily trying to stop my tears
“virgins” he says rolling his eyes and walking out my door i find my self yelling asshole before it closes.
i was angry at Luke for the way he just spoke to me but also at myself… how could i be so stupid to actually give myself away to that guy.
the rest of the week was uneventful to be honest. Emma kept trying to talk about me having sex and trying to get more information about it but i was keeping the details to myself..not that i had much to tell her since my memory never came back..which i guess is good. maybe i can pretend it never happened. she asked everyday who the guy was but to be honest i wasn’t ready for her to know who it was.
on Thursday i was laying on a blanket outside relaxing. it was a relatively nice day and the large grassy lawn that is in the middle of the campus was calling my name.
Emma came with me and we laid on the blanket and talked…mainly she talked. she had a date tonight that she was really excited about. i didn’t mind listening. with her as a friend you get used to it.
after a while she left to get ready for the date and i was alone. i decided to read the book i had brought out with me. i was only a few pages in when someone suddenly walked up behind me. i only knew because i could see their shadow. when i turned my head to look i was surprised to see Calum. the boy i met while playing truth or dare at the party last weekend.
“hello” is all i said since i was confused about what he was doing standing there
“hey Lucy. can i join you down there?” he asks pointing to the blanket
“of course yeah” i say as i scoot over to give him more room.
“so what brings you to my blanket today?” i ask and he lets out a small laugh
“well i have a few questions actually” he says with a nervous laugh
“okay” i reply confused..we didn’t really know each other and i can’t imagine what he would need to ask me.
“did anything happened between you and Luke last weekend at the party?” he asked first surprising me.
“why?” i say trying to avoid answering
“Luke has been a little weird since Saturday and I’m just trying to figure out the reason why.” he tells me
“whats do you mean by weird?”
“he just has been keeping to himself more then usual..i mean he is the most private guy i know..but he has been even more recently. he hasn’t wanted to go out with us all week..which is weird for him. he even said he wasn’t in the mood for a party this weekend. that’s when i knew this was serious” he says laughing a little at the last part
“and why do you think I’m connected to this?”
“well yesterday Michael said something about you to him and Luke freaked out. he like threw a glass and it broke and yelled at Michael and that’s not usually how he acts..especially not with us” he explains to me.
“sorry but i don’t know what his problem is… besides the fact that he is a huge asshole” i tell him
“yeah… he can be” Calum says laughing
“Cal!” we hear off in the distance as Ashton comes running over..he is another boy that lives in the c dorm..i think he might of been apart of the truth or dare game… but i cant remember.
“what?” Calum asks looking up at the boy standing in the distance
“Michael told me to come find you.. some issue back at the house that he needs your help with”
“shit…okay” Calum says while standing up
“nice seeing you Lucy. i better see you at the party tomorrow night” he tells me with a smile
“yeah you too” i say as they walk off
i don’t know what Luke’s issue is..we don’t get along very well so i don’t know why they assume i know. i saw a side of Luke that i could get along with..when i was sick and he held my hair and carried me to the bed. that was nice of him. he even offered to get me water i remembered. that Luke is someone i could possibly like..but 90% of the time he seems to be the Luke that was in my dorm room Saturday afternoon and that Luke was someone i never want to see again.
A/N- hello lovely people! here is chapter 7! thanks for all the requests and messages! if you want the next chapter please let me know (i know this is annoying that i make you request every chapter… but i shows me that people like my writing and motivates me to keep writing this)