Dear past me,
What happened to you? When did you change from someone you were happy to be, to someone you only kind of tolerate. You were so full of love, hope and life…where did it go? You stood firm in your beliefs and were so sure of your judgements, now you can barely hold an opinion for a day.
But don’t stress past me, there have been some positives. You are so much stronger in your self image now. You can look in the mirror and see strengths not just weaknesses. No you’re not perfect but your getting there. You have some incredible friends now, friends that three years ago seemed like an impossibility. You also are back on track with your family.
No you’re not perfect now , but maybe it’s okay that future you is not the same as you are now. Maybe you need this time to discover what are your true beliefs. Find a permanent source of joy and hope in the Lord. I don’t know? When I started this letter I was mourning for you, sad that you were gone. But now? Now I’m ready to say goodbye to you because future you, me, is ready to become the best version of herself, and I believe I need this time of uncertainty to become that.
Thank you for making me who I am today. I hope you would be proud of where I am going and who I am becoming.
Future you. Confused, a little lost, but excitedly waiting for whatever comes next.