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100 questions to invade my personal life
  • 1. What's your middle name, and do you like it?
  • 2. are you artistic?
  • 3. Have you had your first kiss?
  • 4. What is your life goal?
  • 5. Do you have any expieriences with a famous person?
  • 6. Do you play any sports?
  • 7. What's your worst fear?
  • 8. Who's your biggest inspiration?
  • 9. Do you have any cool talents?
  • 10. are you a morning person?
  • 11. How do you feel about pet names?
  • 12. Do you like to read?
  • 13. Name a list of shows that have changed your life.
  • 14. Do you care about your follower count?
  • 15. What's the best dream you've had?
  • 16. Have you ever kissed someone of your same gender?
  • 17. Do you have any pets?
  • 18. Are you religious?
  • 19. Are you a people person?
  • 20. Are you considered popular?
  • 21. What is one of your bad habits?
  • 22. What's something that makes you feel vulnerable
  • 23. What would you name your children?
  • 24. Who's your celebrity crush?
  • 25. What's your best subject?
  • 26. Dogs or cats?
  • 27. most used social media besides tumblr?
  • 28. best friends name
  • 29. who does your main family consist of
  • 30. Chocolate or sugar
  • 31. have you ever been on a date?
  • 32. Do you like rollercosters?
  • 33. Can you swim?
  • 34. What would you do in the event of an apocolypse?
  • 35. Have you struggled with any kind of mental disorder
  • 36. Are your parents together?
  • 37. What's your favourite colour?
  • 38. What country are you from/do you live in?
  • 39. Favourite singer?
  • 40. Do you see yourself being famous some day?
  • 41. Do you like dresses?
  • 42. Favourite song right now?
  • 43. Does talking about sex make you uncomfortable?
  • 44. How old were you when you first got your period?
  • 45. Have you ever shot a gun?
  • 46. Have you ever done yoga?
  • 47. Are you a horror girl?
  • 48. Are you good at giving advice?
  • 49. Tell us a story about your childhood.
  • 50. How are you doing today?
  • 51. Were you a cute kid?
  • 52. Can you dance?
  • 53. Is there anything you do that you can't remember ever not doing?
  • 54. Have you ever dyed your hair?
  • 55. What colour are your eyes?
  • 56. What's your favourite animal?
  • 57. Have you ever made a huge fool of yourself?
  • 58. Do you have a good relationship with your parents?
  • 59. Do you have good friends?
  • 60. Are you close with anyone of the lgbtq+ group?
  • 61. What's your favourite class?
  • 62. List all the tv shows you are watching.
  • 63. Are you organized?
  • 64. What was the last movie you saw? Opinion?
  • 67. Which tv character do you relate to most?
  • 68. What are some things that stand between you and complete happiness?
  • 69. If you received enough money to never need to work again, what would you spend your time doing?
  • 70. What would you change about your life if you knew you would never die?
  • 71. What would you do differently if you knew that no one was judging you?
  • 72. If you could start over, what would you do differently?
  • 73. Would you break the law to save a loved one?
  • 74. When was the last time you travelled somewhere new?
  • 75. When you think of your home, what immediately comes to mind?
  • 76. What have you done to pursue your dreams lately? How about today?
  • 77. What did you want to be when you were a kid?
  • 78. If you dropped everything to pursue your dreams, what would you be risking?
  • 79.When did you not speak up, when you know you really should have?
  • 80. Describe the next five years of your life, and your plans, in a single sentence
  • 81. What would happen if you never wasted another minute of your life, what would that look like?
  • 82. If you could live forever, how would you spend eternity?
  • 83. How would you spend a billion dollars?
  • 84. If you could time travel, would you go to the past or the future?
  • 85. What motivates you to succeed?
  • 86. What dream that you’ve had has resonated with you the most?
  • 87. Would you rather live in the city or the woods? Why?
  • 88. Do you believe in life after death
  • 89. What teacher inspired you the most? How did they?
  • 90. What’s your fondest childhood memory?
  • 91. If you could have dinner with any one person, living or dead, who would they be and why?
  • 92. What would you have to see to cry tears of joy?
  • 93. What is the hardest lesson you had to learn in life?
  • 94. What do you think happens after we die?
  • 95. What would you do if you would be invisible?
  • 96. What's something you can't do no matter how hard you try?
  • 97. Would you want to choose the sex and appearance of your offspring?
  • 98. How did your first crush develop?
  • 99. Is there a feeling you are trying to ignore? What is it?
  • 100. Do you live or do you just exist?
My Chemical Romance Asks
  • <p> <b><p></b> <b></b> I brought you my bullets, You brought me your love<p/><b>Romance:</b> Who was your first love?<p/><b>Honey, this mirror isn't big enough for the two of us:</b> Is there a side of yourself that no one knows about?<p/><b>Vampires will never hurt you:</b> Vampires or angry men?<p/><b>Drowning Lessons:</b> Plan on getting married?<p/><b>Our Lady of Sorrows:</b> Are you religious?<p/><b>Headfirst for Halos:</b> Are you hopeful? If so, what for?<p/><b>Skylines and Turnstiles:</b> An important event that changed your life or perspective?<p/><b>Early Sunsets Over Monroeville:</b> What's your favorite horror movie?<p/><b>This Is the Best Day Ever:</b> Ever been to the hospital?<p/><b>Cubicles:</b> Where would you be without My Chem?<p/><b>Demolition Lovers:</b> Would you die for your current lover?<p/><b></b> Three Cheers for Sweet Revenge<p/><b>Helena:</b> Have you lost a family member or friend?<p/><b>Give 'Em Hell, Kid:</b> Have you ever considered committing murder?<p/><b>To The End:</b> Corpse Bride. Yay or nay?<p/><b>You Know What They Do To Guys Like Us In Prison:</b> Ever committed a crime?<p/><b>I'm Not Okay (I Promise):</b> Ever felt out of place?<p/><b>The Ghost of You:</b> Ever cried while watching a movie?<p/><b>The Jetset Life is Gonna Kill You:</b> Ever been cheated on or have cheated?<p/><b>Interlude:</b> Favorite My Chem song?<p/><b>Thank You for the Venom:</b> Ever wrote something stupid on a t-shirt?<p/><b>Hang 'Em High:</b> Ever shot a gun?<p/><b>It's Not a Fashion Statement, It's a Fucking Deathwish:</b> Who's your best friend?<p/><b>Cemetery Drive:</b> What's the hardest drive you've experienced?<p/><b></b> The Black Parade<p/><b>The End:</b> Ever thought it'd be the end for you?<p/><b>Dead!:</b> Ever wanted to die?<p/><b>This Is How I Disappear:</b> Ever done something to someone that you can't forgive yourself for?<p/><b>The Sharpest Lives:</b> Are you anxious?<p/><b>Welcome to the Black Parade:</b> What's your favorite memory?<p/><b>I Don't Love You:</b> Have you ever stopped loving them?<p/><b>House of Wolves:</b> What is your favorite era?<p/><b>Cancer:</b> Old or new?<p/><b>Mama:</b> Ever disappointed your parents?<p/><b>Sleep:</b> Any bad dreams?<p/><b>Teenagers:</b> Are you scared of people your own age?<p/><b>Disenchanted:</b> What changed your life for the better?<p/><b>Famous Last Words:</b> What changed your mind about things?<p/><b>Blood:</b> Any hidden secrets no one knows?<p/><b>Danger Days:</b> The True Lives of The Fabulous Killjoys<p/><b>Look Alive, Sunshine:</b> What time do you wake up?<p/><b>Na Na Na (Na Na Na Na Na Na Na Na Na):</b> What gives you strength?<p/><b>Bulletproof Heart:</b> Do you miss anyone right now?<p/><b>SING:</b> Who is your idol?<p/><b>Planetary (GO!):</b> Biggest accomplishment?<p/><b>The Only Hope for Me Is:</b> Do you consider yourself hopeless?<p/><b>Jet Star and The Kobra Kid/Traffic Report:</b> What's your favorite go-to outfit?<p/><b>Party Poison:</b> Do you speak different languages?<p/><b>Save Yourself, I'll Hold Them Back:</b> What is your biggest wish?<p/><b>S/C/A/R/E/C/R/O/W:</b> Biggest regrets?<p/><b>Summertime:</b> Who's got you excited for the summer?<p/><b>DESTROYA:</b> If you could save anyone in the world from danger/poverty/war/etc. Who would it be?<p/><b>The Kids From Yesterday:</b> What do you wish you could tell your past self?<p/><b>Goodnite, Dr. Death:</b> Opinions on standing for the National Anthem?<p/><b>Vampire Money:</b> What is your catchphrase irl?<p/></p><p/><
Random questions
  • 1. Do you bite or lick ice cream?
  • 2. What is home to you?
  • 3. What was the last lie you told?
  • 4. Does everyone deserve the truth?
  • 5. What is the creepiest toy ever made?
  • 6. Describe a moment in which you did something unacceptable in a bad situation.
  • 7. List two things that are more easily done than said. (No, I didn't mix them up.)
  • 8. When was the last time you worked really hard to achieve something?
  • 9. How many all nighters have you pulled?
  • 10. If humans didn't evolve to laugh or smile, how would we express our happiness instead?
  • 11. How many romantic "things" or "flings" have you had?
  • 12. What is your paradise?
  • 13. What is your favorite background noise? (Ex. Water dripping, people talking.)
  • 14. How many hearts do you think you have broken?
  • 15. What is the most important thing about electronics? What does this say about you?
  • 16. Why do people care about celebrities? Do you care about celebrities?
  • 17. What is the most annoying thing someone can do to you?
  • 18. Do you overexaggerate? What are the pros and cons of this?
  • 19. Have you played any instruments before? Which instruments?
  • 20. Do you like taking selfies? Why or why not?
  • 21. List 3 things you like about yourself?
  • 22. What is the best advice someone has ever given you?
  • 23. Do you have what it takes to raise a child? Why or why not?
  • 24. How do you cheer yourself up after a bad day?
  • 25. When was the last time you felt awkward?
  • 26. Are you introverted or extroverted? Or a mixture of both?
  • 27. What constitutes a good friend?
  • 28. Would you rather have a lot of friends to hang out with or just one best friend?
  • 29. In a regular day, what do you not want to hear?
  • 30. What is your dream job?
  • 31. Is it better to be lazy but smart or hardworking but unintelligent?
  • 32. What is a truth about yourself that others find hard to believe?
  • 33. What have you always wondered about the other gender?
  • 34. Which fantasy world would you like to visit the most?
  • 35. Describe the worst friend you have ever befriended.
  • 36. Imagine that you have switched bodies with someone you don't know. You can't switch back. What do you do?
  • 37. If you found the recipe for immortality, would you sell it or would you burn it?
  • 38. What is the most important, applicable class you have ever taken?
  • 39. Name the last book you read.
  • 40. Imagine that you are unable to express emotion. How would this affect your world?
  • 41. When was the last time you made the first move?
  • 42. What is your opinion on electronic music such as dubstep or trap?
  • 43. What was the last movie you watched?
  • 44. Do you like and appreciate your life?
  • 45. Do you like and appreciate yourself?
  • 46. When was the last time you cried?
  • 47. What are you scared of?
  • 48. What is the most embarrassing, cringe-worthy thing you have ever done?
  • 49. What are some of your hobbies?
  • 50. What is a superficial yet annoying mistake you constantly make?
  • 51. Are you a good friend? What makes you a good friend? If not, what makes you a bad friend?
  • 52. Do you honestly learn from your mistakes?
  • 53. What have you learned the hard way?
  • 54. What is the most important thing to have in order to attain happiness?
  • 55. Which medium do you use for expressing your artistic emotions? (Singing, writing, etc.)
  • 56. Are you a creative or a logical thinker?
  • 57. What is the smartest thing you have ever done?
  • 58. What is your ideal meal?
  • 59. What is the worst thing someone could do on a date?
  • 60. Do you like animals? Which kind is your favorite?
  • 61. If you could turn one legal thing illegal, what would it be?
  • 62. Do you have any guilty pleasures?
  • 63. What is the best thing that the internet has ever created?
  • 64. Do you like playing video games? Which video games?
  • 65. What is your opinion on beauty in today's society?
  • 66. Are you a morning person? When do you usually wake up?
  • 67. Do you have a favorite Disney movie? Character?
  • 68. Would you rather live in the city or in the countryside?
  • 69. Would you rather live near the ocean or in the mountains?
  • 70. What are the best things about winter?
  • 71. What scares you most about the future?
  • 72. What makes you feel old?
  • 73. How many hours do you spend on the computer or phone on average?
  • 74. What are some of your New Year's resolutions?
  • 75. What is your life story in 6 words?
  • 76. Describe yourself in one word.
  • 77. What bad habits do you do?
  • 78. What genre of music do you listen to?
  • 79. Most prominent childhood memory?
  • 80. Imagine if you had an older brother. If you already have one, what is it like? If you don't, how would this change your life?
  • 81. Spirit animal?
  • 82. Do you believe in horoscopes?
  • 83. What is the worst advice you've ever been given?
  • 84. List the 3 most important people in your life right now.
  • 85. Favorite memory of your family.
  • 86. What do you look for in a relationship?
  • 87. Do you have a role model? Why or why not?
  • 88. What is your opinion on social media?
  • 89. Are you a pessimist or an optimist?
  • 90. List some things that you think are overpriced?
  • 91. What is your worst memory or creepiest experience?
  • 92. What superpower would ruin the world?
  • 93. What is something you swore you would never do when you grew up, but you did anyway?
  • 94. What lessons have you learned from movies and which movies were they?
  • 95. If you could travel anywhere, where would you go?
  • 96. How do you approach people?
  • 97. What is your opinion on first impressions?
  • 98. What are some things you did as a child that you no longer do?
  • 99. What languages can you speak?
  • 100. What do you think society will be like in 30 years?
  • 101. What do you do on your lazy days?
  • 102. What ended your last relationship?
  • 103. Favorite food?
  • 104. What is the most terrifying dream you've ever had?
  • 105. When was the last time you got seriously angry?
  • 106. What was the last friendship you broke?
  • 107. Do you have any pet peeves?
  • 108. Who was the last person you gave a hug to?
  • 109. When was the last time you got seriously stressed?
  • 110. What part of your personality do you want to change?
  • 111. Who is the most positively influential person in your life right now?
  • 112. What is your biggest motivation?
  • 113. What did you want to be when you were little?
  • 114. What are some things that you are good at?
  • 115. What is one thing you want to be good at?
  • 116. What distracts you the most, especially when you're trying to work?
  • 117. How important is privacy to you?
  • 118. If you could create one social norm, what would it be?
  • 119. What's the craziest lie you've ever told?
  • 120. What story do you like to tell about yourself at parties?
  • 121. What is the lamest thing that you have seen someone do?
  • 122. What is the stupidest thing you've done to impress someone?
  • 123. What is your morning routine?
  • 124. What's the last thing you did that is worth remembering?
  • 125. If karma was coming back to you, would it help or hurt you?
  • 126. What is your opinion on playing "hard to get?"
  • 127. What are the pros and cons of straightforward?
  • 128. What do you consider "leading" someone on?
  • 129. Are you the friendzoner or the friendzoned?
  • 130. What do you admire most about your friends?
  • 131. What do you admire most about your family?
  • 132. What is your opinion on "going with the flow?"
  • 133. Do you enjoy talking or listening?
  • 134. When is it time to end a friendship?
  • 135. What is the worst excuse you've ever come up with?
  • 136. If GPA didn't matter, what courses would you have taken?
  • 137. What are your favorite baby names?
  • 138. When was the last time you had a deep conversation with someone?
  • 139. What instantly ruins a conversation?
  • 140. Biggest turn ons and turn on offs.
  • 141. Biggest disappointment.
  • 142. Do you have any self-restraint?
  • 143. When did you last do something outside of your comfort zone?
  • 144. Prized possession(s)?
  • 145. What is your opinion on second chances?
  • 146. Text or call?
  • 147. What do you like about the 21st century?
  • 148. What advice would you give to yourself 5 years ago?
  • 149. How organized are you?
  • 150. Favorite mode of transportation.

babygurltaetay  asked:

Hi can I request an jay park ambw smut where you guys are at the club and you've been needy and misbehaving and he punishes you

No Touching:

“Are you going to apologize for what you did?” Jay asked as his stripped off his clothes slowly, his toned body becoming revealed to you.

Letting out a shaky breath, your eyes that were tapped open starting to water as you looked at him hating the fact that you couldn’t breathe but you decided to play his game. Your arms tied behind your back, lets spread wide with a vibrator pushing down against the top of your panties but only frustrating you and not giving you pleasure. “I did nothing wrong.” You bit your bottom lip as he took off his boxers and drug a chair in front of you sitting down on it.

“Oh really? Nothing that you did in the club that you are sorry for?” Jay asked you as he gripped at vanilla scented lube, popping open the top as he started to pour it on his hardened shaft.

You knew that you were in for shit the moment you had let Reddy grip at your hips and pull you closer to him. You had asked Jay to take you home more than once, the alcohol mixed with how fine he looked made you want to just jump on him. But he had shooed you away mostly because he was trying to plan something for your upcoming anniversary but to you, it seemed like something else was going on. In your moment of rage and wanting attention you decided to misbehave. It’s not the first time you’ve done this going around the club or any setting talking to different men so that they would pay you attention. But it was the first time that you had let a man push against you, his hips against your ass or your hips. How his chest pressed against your plump breast. Jay saw it all and he was beyond tired of your attitude and princess complexity. He had let you get away with it that night and if matters weren’t worse he received pictures from Simon of how you were all over a few backup dancers while you all practiced the next day. Anger filled his system and it was clear that you didn’t know your place. He waited until you were home, and he jumped on you almost literally grabbing at you and dragging you to your shared room. He proceeded to handcuff your hands behind your back using tape to tape your eyes open. He had grabbed at one of his favorite vibratos placing it in your shorts against your panties but not aiding you with more pleasure than that. He was already hard thinking about countless of times he fucked you and how he fucked you.

“I didn’t..” You lied once again truing to roll your hips and close your legs against the toy to give yourself more pleasure.

“I’m tired of you lying you keep doing this to get yourself out of trouble and it’s not working. I saw you all over Reddy last night and I have the pictures I heard about what you did today. You are so needy at times it amazes me that I’m enough to keep you here. I thought about all the ways I could punish you but I know you would just want to be touched by me. You kept complaining about it last night even when we got here, throwing your shit everywhere and sleeping with your ass right against my dick.” He chuckled gripping his shaft stroking his heated flesh with his slicked hand now biting on his bottom lip as he watched you. “So now you get to watch me touch myself and get myself off while you do nothing about it.” As he spoke you shut your legs tighter biting on your bottom lip nervously.

You watched his skilled hand move up and down his long thick girth, his veins pressing out against his skin, his body starting to heat up as he kept the slow leisurely pace. His thumb caressed the tip of his member, using his free hand to pour more oil on his shaft making it sound slick and wet, lewd and very loud. He knew you loved the sloppy wet sounds when you both fucked each other, his eyes holding yours as he spread his legs out wider.

“I bet you want to taste it, don’t you? I know how much you love choking on daddy’s dick.  I know how much you like burying it down your neck, how it stretches out your mouth. How you like pressing your tongue against my sensitive spots.” As Jay rasped out at you, your legs shut tightly the wetness increasing causing you to soak out your panties and whimper slightly. At first you thought you could handle this but you saw that this wouldn’t be easy.

“Oooh that’s right shut those legs baby girl. I like seeing you play it off like you’re not affected by what daddy is doing to you. If only you could’ve behaved then I could be touching you or fucking you like this.” Jay licked across his plump lower lip. He sped up his hand movement flexing his muscles a bit as he eyed your body groaning. “Do you want to see how I want to fuck that tight little pussy?” He asked smirking. “My hand is your small hole. And my dick is going to destroy it as soon as I forgive you for what you’ve done.” Jay groaned as he thrusted his hips up against his closed fist snapping away at his hand pretending it was your wet pussy though it was nowhere close. Small groans left his lips as he continued to fuck stroke himself, his lower stomach clenching as precum started to drip from his member, he was loving how much torment you were going through, your large brown eyes staring down at his member, he could see it in your eyes in how your body moved and twitched your hips bucked unconsciously because you wanted to ride him.

“I’ll ask again. What did you do?” Jay asked in a low tone slowly down his hand movements. You shook your head defiance in your system and frustration. He nodded smirking, his dick twitching as he got closer to his orgasm. “Alright then.” Jay stood up, walking towards you letting his dick bounce with each step. He got into your face, gripping at your hair he moved your head down until you were sticking your tongue out thinking he was giving in. “See, that’s what spoiled girls get. Surprises and no rewards.” He smirked keeping your head in place a few inches from his dick. Stroking himself off he kept going until he was shooting out thick ropes of cum, landing it on your chin and between your parted legs. His dick was so close you could see the organ twitching, you could feel the heat from his body. You were so horny, you had wanted Jay so bad and he denied you, tricked you into thinking you had got away with it. Once he had released himself he let your head go moving to grab a towel from the bathroom he cleaned up everything and he grabbed the keys to the handcuffs placing them in your hands looking in your eyes.

“You think you know what’s best then you can uncuff yourself. And I hope you have fun with your toy because it will be a while before you’re hopping on my dick. I was trying to plan our anniversary trip, but now I see you’re not even deserving of that. I’d watch what I did next time, or I will pack a bag and spend my time in some other woman’s arms since that’s what we do right?” He shook his head kissing your nose as he walked off from the room making you feel bad for lying and misbehaving so much so that you planned on a way to get him back for the better, not even pleasuring yourself that night.

You’ve Got Mail: An OQ AU

Robin Locksley is a small business owner, and Regina Mills is a corporate raider who has set her sights on his store–and both are completely unaware that they’re falling in love.

For @inutilidadesbytamara who AGES AGO requested a fic that was loosely based on the plot of You’ve Got Mail; and for @emmaswanchoosesyou who requested a fic in which love letters that Robin and Regina get mixed up with letters Ruby and Belle have been exchanging. 

Thanks to @lala-kate, @glindalovesshoes, @umbrellagates and @x-wishes-on-fallen-stars-x who all helped with this, in one way or another.

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Love to Hate

Hello, Love bugs!

Draco X Reader

Warnings- swears

Can you write a fic where Draco is constantly rude to the reader, but in a teasing way? And then they just hit it off there. -Anon

“No Hermione I despise him. He is the definition of an ass.” You had finally had it. Draco had always pushed your buttons but today was the straw that broke the camels back.

“Don’t you think you’re being a bit dramatic?”

“You realise we’re talking about the Draco Malfoy. Not Harry or Ron who were being a twat. He literally thinks you and I should have our powers because we weren't born to the right family.” Hermione nodded as she figured it was a losing battle. She never thought she would be sticking up for Draco but here she was. It seemed like she was the only one who could see right through all of the mean words and attention that the two of you used on each other. Draco Malfoy and yourself had the biggest crushes on each other. The problem was that the two of you were too strong headed to realise that in your own weird way the two of you were perfect for each other.

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A/N: I was asked by @kaya174 if I was going to do a second part to this, and I didn’t intend to but here we are! 

Part one

“So Doctor?” Amy asked swinging round the console as the doctor flicked switches here and there with a skip and and a jump. “Yes thats me” he grinned then paused suddenly “sometimes” he corrected before continuing with his jumping. “How many rooms are in this place?” she asked
“Yeah, I found a door labelled ‘scone room’” Rory said pulling a face and the doctor shot him a look “What’s wrong with that?” he asked “I like scones” he said with an additional mutter under his breath. “Yeah, but it leads to questions, how many rooms?” Amy asked again.
“Oh I don’t know um… a lot?” he said as if too many things where going on in his head and throwing his arms in the air as he thought. “Hang… on” he said pausing suddenly as if he was realising something that should have been obvious. “There’s something else… what is it?” he asked, the doctors voice had become caring and soft. “Doctor, what’s the room with the wooden door?” Amy asked curiously with a bounce as she made her way over to her best friend. His face fell. Why do all the latest companions keep asking? “Nothing, forget it” he said and tried to fake being the excitable puppy he usually was. “No” Amy said dragging out the letters in her Scottish accent. “What is it? Only door to look like its falling apart, so it has to be something” she said following him as he danced around the centre of the TARDIS. “Well of course it has to be something, it can’t literally be nothing, thats impossible. But it doesn’t matter, just leave it.”

“Right well then–“ she said before glancing at her husband and nodding. Before the doctor could stop either of them they had disappeared into the TARDIS corridors. He sighed and leaned his elbows on the console so that his head could rest in the palms of his hands in exhaustion. “Why Y/N does no one ever listen to me?” he muttered out loud.

“Amy?” Rory hissed as he followed her down the corridors. “He said don’t”
“Yeah and when do I listen to him? There is something about this door and its important” she said. On reaching the door she reached out on of her perfectly manicured hands and twisted the handle. “It won’t open” she complained
“Mind out” Rory said and she moved to one side trying to open it as well but still nothing. “Move” said a soft voice behind the pair made them freeze, look at each other with a sideways glance  before turning around to see the doctor stood there. His face was forlorn, that sad expression he did when he was thinking about the past. “Donna found this room as well…” he said and smiled sadly a little bit “I really ought to hide it better” he mused.
“Doctor, what’s in there?” Amy asked again. “Something I tried very hard to forget about” he sighed before stepping forwards and pushing the door open without even trying.

On walking in Amy and Rory saw the same thing Donna Noble had done all those years ago; dark and dusty filled with the same furniture. The TARDIS may have changed but this room is a constant. “Doctor… what is this…?” Amy asked “and who is she?” Amy pointed at a picture frame on the vanity table, it was of a girl with Y/C/H and a kind face. “She um…” it was as if the doctor was struggling to find the right words to explain what had happened, or didn’t want to. “Hang on, is that a… a cot?” Rory asked and the doctor smile sadly “Um… yeah.”

“Doctor, do you have children?” Amy asked and he shook his head “She was going to-“
“She being?”
“Y/N she was going to have a baby” he said and tears began to well in his eyes. This regeneration of the doctor is much more open emotionally than the last one.  “My baby” he added before falling on the bed, face first. What Amy and Rory didn’t know was that he had fallen onto your pillow. Breathing in the sent of your perfume that lingered behind, preserved by the TARDIS just like everything else in the room. “Doctor?” Amy asked carefully, glancing at Rory and creeping forwards to sit on the edge of the bed to place a comforting hand on his shoulder. His head rolled over to look at her, his eyes red and tear streaked cheeks. “What was she like?” Amy asked in an attempt to try and cheer him up. “She was… she was like a star… my own personal star that stayed with me. She was… she was Y/N” he told her before sitting up slowly to look at the pair. “We where going to have a baby… she worried it was going to have three heads or a space face” he chuckled remembering.

“I’m going to take a stab in the dark and say something like this has never happened before?” you asked and he glanced at you from behind the console with a frown. “You mean…?”
“I mean” you said jumping to your feet, facing him and forcing him to stop jumping around and look at you. “What if its got I don’t know… three heads or a space face?” you pulled a disgruntled face
“A space face, whats that supposed to mean?” he asked looking almost offended and going to play with something on the console. “Oh you really bother me sometimes” you huffed “you know what I mean!” he shot you another look “Time lord” you pointed at him. “Human” you pointed at yourself. “Baby” you pointed at your stomach. Tears welled a little in your eyes as you began to panic and your heart began to race. He saw the fear on your face and sighed stopping to walk round and pull you close into his arms and place a kiss on your forehead. “No, this hasn’t happened before… but I promise Y/N that I’ll keep you, both, safe.”

“What happened to her?” Amy asked pulling the doctor back to reality. “She died. She had gone to labour…” the doctor trailed off again as the tears over took. Amy’s hand flew to her mouth as her heart broke. “Y/N died… I couldn’t save her, the baby was too much like me. I killed her” he cried.

Ask me these 〜( ̄▽ ̄〜)
  • 1. List 5 things you want to do before the year ends.
  • 2. What color are your pants?
  • 3. Favorite motivational quote.
  • 4. When was the last time you drank coffee?
  • 5. What was the last thing you ate?
  • 6. Favorite animal.
  • 7. Favorite song.
  • 8. Last movie you watched?
  • 9. Any turn ons?
  • 10. Any turn offs?
  • 11. List 4 big words off of the top of your head.
  • 12. What are some meaningful movies?
  • 13. 2 most important people in your life right now?
  • 14. What are 3 things you want to do before the month ends?
  • 15. When was the last time you read a good book?
  • 16. How long do you study for usually, if you study?
  • 17. Do you have any nicknames?
  • 18. Favorite kind of perfume? (fruity, alluring, etc.)
  • 19. Do you have any international friends / friends who live out of state?
  • 20. What is something unique that you do every single day?
  • 21. If there was a movie based on your life, what would it be called?
  • 22. When was the last time you bought a gift for someone?
  • 23. Are you a shopaholic?
  • 24. What are some songs that always make you feel better?
  • 25. List 3 activities that you can only enjoy by yourself.
  • 26. If you could live in any biome (and survive) which biome would you live in?
  • 27. How do you like being roused in the morning?
  • 28. How was your day? What did you do?
  • 29. What did your last text message say?
  • 30. Do you respond to texts quickly?
  • 31. Who was the last person you called?
  • 32. List 5 things that are on your wish list.
  • 33. If you were famous, what do you think you would be famous for?
  • 34. Winter or summer?
  • 35. What is a quality that all people should have?
  • 36. If you could have a large collection of one item, what would that item be?
  • 37. What have you been thinking about lately?
  • 38. What is the secret to a happy life?
  • 39. What are some phrases you say often?
  • 40. Favorite food?
  • 41. List 3 wishes.
  • 42. What are some of your greatest fears?
  • 43. What is the last thing you downloaded onto your computer?
  • 44. Most beautiful thing you've ever seen (in real life)?
  • 45. Spicy food: Like or dislike?
  • 46. Scary movies: Like or dislike?
  • 47. Do you like to travel?
  • 48. Any regrets?
  • 49. Do you like rain?
  • 50. What do you spend most of your money on?
  • 51. Would you rather visit the past or the future?
  • 52. Favorite clothing store?
  • 53. What is the best advice you can give to those who are feeling down?
  • 54. How often do you think about your future? Does it scare you?
  • 55. What angers you the most?
  • 56. When was the last time you got majorly angry?
  • 57. When was the last time you got really sad?
  • 58. Are you good at lying?
  • 59. What foreign language would you like to learn?
  • 60. How many languages can you speak and what are they?
  • 61. How often do you go to parties? If you don't, what do you do instead?
  • 62. What books do you plan to read this year?
  • 63. Do you have breakfast every morning?
  • 64. Tell us a secret.
  • 65. How many concerts have you been to?
  • 66. Last hug?
  • 67. Who knows you better than anyone else?
  • 68. Baths or showers?
  • 69. Do you think you're ambitious?
  • 70. What song is stuck in your head?
  • 71. Countries you've visited?
  • 72. What do you most value in your friends?
  • 73. What helps you to sleep better?
  • 74. What is the most money you have ever held in your hand?
  • 75. What makes you nervous?
  • 76. What is the best advice you've ever been given?
  • 77. Is it easier to forgive or forget?
  • 78. First mobile phone?
  • 79. Strangest dream?
  • 80. Best dream?
  • 81. Who is the smartest person you know?
  • 82. Who is the prettiest person on tumblr?
  • 83. Do you miss anyone right now?
  • 84. Who do you love? Why?
  • 85. Do you like sharing?
  • 86. What was the last picture you took with your phone?
  • 87. Is there a reason behind everything that happens?
  • 88. Favorite genre of music?
  • 89. If you had one word to describe yourself, what would it be?
  • 90. Describe your life in 5 words.
  • 91. Describe the world in 4 words.
  • 92. Craziest thing you've ever done?
  • 93. First three songs in your favorite playlist?
  • 94. Are you more creative or logical?
  • 95. Would you rather lie or hurt someone with the truth?
  • 96. What are you most proud of?
  • 97. What personality trait do you admire in other people?
  • 98. When you imagine yourself as really, really relaxed and happy, what are you doing?
  • 99. How do you usually start a conversation?
  • 100. What is the best news you could hear right now?
Garrett and Marian - Legacy Banters
  • Marian: Well... not quite how I imagined this family reunion going. I was envisioning more hugs and maybe some wine over dinner. Not attempted assassinations
  • Carver: Really? You think this is so abnormal for our family?
  • Marian: Well you got me there
  • ---
  • Bethany: What could our father have to do with this mess? The Carta have had more than enough time to try and find us
  • Garrett: I imagine that having two Champions of Kirkwall with the last name Hawke may have tipped them off
  • Bethany: But it's been three years since you and sis defeated the Arishok. Why wait that long?
  • Marian: Well I don't know about you, but if I was going to go after the people who killed an Arishok then I'd probably want to make a little time for planning, wouldn't you?
  • Carver: Do these morons strike you as the sensible type?
  • Marian: Two points in one day Carver? Don't tell me the Templars are actually drilling some wit into that skull of yours
  • Carver: *laughs* At least /my/ wit makes a point, dear sister
  • Bethany: Ooh, that had to hurt
  • Garrett: Do you need some healing for that one, Marian?
  • Marian: Oh shove off, all of you
  • ---
  • Garrett: And we're back in the Deep Roads
  • Marian: Oh it's not that bad. I mean... Look at all the... Ugh, no, you're right this is terrible. Let's all promise never to go to the Deep Roads after this. Three times is enough
  • Garrett: Three times? When was the second?
  • Marian: Um... well...
  • Carver and Bethany: *sing song voices* Somebody's in trouble
  • ---
  • Bethany: Varric wrote to me the other day
  • Garrett: Telling another of his stories, I bet. Was it the one about the high dragon, because that didn't really-
  • Bethany: No. He was giving me an update. On you, actually. I was... worried, so I wrote to him and asked
  • Garrett: I'm fine Beth. Really
  • Bethany: No you're not. Not yet. But I know you, and if anyone can get past it, you can
  • Garrett: Thank you
  • ---
  • Carver: You might want to be watch yourself, Garrett
  • Garrett: How come?
  • Carver: Ever since you sided with Orsino the other day, there's been... Rumours. Meredith isn't happy with you, and it's only because she allows it that you're still free
  • Garrett: So is she going to have me dragged to the Circle, or is she getting the Brand ready now?
  • Fenris: Don't say that
  • Carver: I would never let it get that far. But I thought I'd warn you, just in case you were thinking about making her mad
  • Garrett: I appreciate you telling me Carver. Don't worry. I'll be careful
  • ---
  • *after completing Malcolm's Will*
  • Marian: So... the stonework down here is... lovely, isn't it?
  • Carver: Not now, Mary
  • Marian: I was only... Alright
  • ---
  • Marian: Are you okay, Gary?
  • Garrett: I'm fine... Just...
  • Marian: He loved you. And Bethany. He'd be so proud of you
  • Garrett: You sound so sure of that
  • Marian: Of course I am. Because it's true. And don't let that nasty shit in your head tell you otherwise - it's a liar, remember
  • Garrett: *chuckles* Alright
  • Bethany: Be careful sister, people might think you've got a heart after all
  • Marian: *dramatically* Oh no! *clutches chest* I think... I think I'm getting feelings! Quick, someone beat them out of me!
  • Carver: *laughs* You be careful what you wish for sister
  • Isabela: I'd rather ride them out of you
  • Garrett: Ah, and there's the dirty line. I was starting to worry something was wrong Bela
  • Isabela: And you're as sweet as ever, Garrett
  • ---
  • Varric: Twenty silvers, that's my final offer. Take it or leave it Elf
  • Marian: What are you betting on, and why am I getting left out of it?
  • Varric: You want in? We're betting on what it'll take to get Junior and Waffles to hug
  • Garrett: *groans* You're not calling me 'Waffles' again, are you?
  • Varric: I have to. Every time I say 'Hawke' all four of you turn around. I'm being considerate
  • Carver: I bet there's /someone/ here who'd like to see him covered in syrup
  • Garrett: Carver!
  • Fenris: *embarrassed noises*
  • Isabela: Ooh, new friend-fiction idea!
  • Garrett: Don't you even dare!
  • Isabela: Too late, already dared. Can we make camp? I need to make notes
  • ---
  • Varric: Hey, Rivaini, I'm expecting royalties if that friend-fiction of yours gets published
  • Carver: When you didn't even come up with it?
  • Varric: You wouldn't have brought up syrup if I didn't call him Waffles
  • Garrett: Maker save me...
  • Bethany: And me...
  • Marian: Usually I like dirty things... But this is too far, even for me
  • Isabela: Are you saying you wouldn't like it if /I/ were covered in syrup?
  • Marian: Oh I'm sorry. I didn't realise you were my very hairy twin brother, Bela
  • Isabela: Well when you put it that way...
  • ---
  • Isabela: I always thought we were the loud ones, you know
  • Fenris: What?
  • Marian: I know right. Maybe they're just less shy about it now
  • Garrett: Do I want to know?
  • Isabela: You already know. Or did you deafen yourself?
  • Marian: To think, they don't need us shouting encouragement through the wall anymore. I'm so proud
  • Isabela: Our boys are growing up so fast. Maybe next they'll master foreplay
  • Carver: Oh Maker, I do not want to hear this
  • Bethany: Neither do I
  • Garrett: *loudly* And I would be very happy if we could stop talking about this. Right now
  • Isabela: Yeah, see. That kind of loud
  • Fenris: *deadpan* If you're so fascinated by Garrett being loud, then you must not be doing a very good job at making Marian scream, Isabela
  • Marian: Oooooooo
  • Isabela: Oh, you snarky little shit
  • Bethany: *loudly* If we could stop discussing my older brother's and sister's sex lives, I would appreciate it
  • Carver: *loudly* Oh look, more darkspawn. Let's kill them so we can stop talking about this
  • ---
  • Marian: So our choices are the nice, Tainted madman, or the mage who wants to let a darkspawn magister out of his hole in the ground? Why can we never make nice decisions, like what kind of wine to have with dinner?
  • Fenris: I agree. It is the only decision worth making
  • Marian: When you're not throwing it at the walls, I assume?
  • Fenris: That was six years ago
  • Marian: And you never offered me a glass
  • Fenris: You are recycling jokes now? Has the great Marian Hawke's wit finally lost it's edge?
  • Marian: Ooh, you are just asking for it now
  • ---
  • Varric: You okay Garrett? You've been a bit quiet since-
  • Garrett: I'm fine Varric. There's more important things to be worried about right now
  • Varric: It's not easy to realise that someone you looked up to wasn't quite what you imagined. You ever need to talk, you know where my suite is
  • ---
  • Isabela: So... is no one going to bring up the fact that Varric called Garrett by his name earlier?
  • Varric: What are you talking about Rivaini? Waffles and I were just having a friendly chat
  • Isabela: Don't bullshit me. You called him Garrett. I heard you
  • Varric: That doesn't sound like me, Rivaini
  • Marian: He called you by your name when Velasco carted you off to Castillon
  • Isabela: What?! No fair, I didn't get to hear!
  • ---
  • Bethany: Are you sure about this, brother?
  • Garrett: It has to be done
  • Bethany: I could do it. I am a Hawke after all, and a mage. You don't need to-
  • Garrett: No, Bethany
  • Bethany: But-!
  • Garrett: Bethy, if I let you use blood magic, I'd never be able to live with myself
  • Bethany: And if you do it, will you be able to live with it?
  • Garrett: I'd rather it be me than you
  • ---
  • Varric: If he pulls a dragon out of his ass, I'm leaving!
  • Marian: Oh great, and now he's almost certain to pull a dragon out of his arse! Way to go Varric
  • ---
  • Bethany: Here, you didn't get a chance to close that wound earlier
  • Garrett: Thank you
  • Fenris: I just hope it was worth it
  • Marian: Well we /did/ just kill a darkspawn magister. I can't wait to hear how Varric tells this one
  • Varric: Well I doubt I'll have to exaggerate a damn thing, considering how weird this shit is
  • Fenris: That isn't what I meant...
  • Garrett: I'd have avoided it if I could, but someone had to. And if it meant sparing my little sister from that...
  • Fenris: I understand. But... Please, just be more careful from now on
  • Garrett: I will, I promise
  • Isabela: You two are so sappy... It's actually rather cute

anonymous asked:

Hi. Question that I bet you've already received and answered re: your post about being attracted to women but being unable to visualise a relationship with one? For you, if you don't mind sharing, what was it that brought you to pursue a relationship with a woman in the first place? Personally I'm in a place where I think there's a potential for a relationship, but I don't know if I want it partly *because* she's a woman? Anyway, thanks for sharing your original post. That was meaningful to me.

I’m in a position where she likes me and I’m quite attracted to her but the idea of a relationship with a woman is strange and foreign in the same way that you expressed in that original post. Anyway, it’s not like you’re Ask Annie or anythin like that. Just curious what got you from “I’m attracted to women” to “I’m married to a woman.”

hey anon, sorry for the delay — i’m pretty bad about answering asks in the simplest of cases, and this was one i wanted to knock around in my head for a bit.

i realized i liked girls when i got a crush on one in high school, completely unexpectedly. but she lived far away and thought she was straight and so while i accepted this new thing about myself it was easy to think that i’d never really have to confront it again. when i graduated my favorite teacher, to whom i’d come out as bi, said something about hoping to come to my “wedding or commitment ceremony” one day, and i remember scoffing. looking back on that moment is strange. there i was, lucky enough to have a lesbian mentor actively envisioning this future for me when no one else was going to, yet even she didn’t go so far as to imagine that i’d have the right to marry a woman, and the alternative she suggested seemed absurd to me, like something belonging to a different world from the one i knew.

going to college helped. my best friend from high school, who is gay, went to the same college and i got to watch him date in a way he hadn’t been able to before. it was a small school and by chance, he ended up in a dorm where it seemed like no one was straight, and that’s where i met her. i didn’t expect my feelings, but neither could i ignore them.

it’s a cliché, but if you’d asked me then, did i love women?, i don’t know what i would have said. but i would have been able to say that i liked her, and soon, that i loved her.

now, of course, i know that i do love women, and that that thinking was a form of denial. but in a way i think this denial had a kind of usefulness, in breaking down one of the big questions of life into one small enough for me to handle. it’s hard to grapple with whether you want Relationships With Women. it’s a lot easier to think about whether you’d like to try a relationship with this woman. the rest can wait.

i want to let you know that you have my permission to think that way, if it helps. it might not seem like the most ideologically correct thing, but as i’ve said before in this space, your job isn’t to have ideologically correct feelings, your job is to be ok. if you’re attracted to her, then questions about women in general, or the concept of womanhood, or whatever, are just kind of beside the point, at least for now. focus on what you feel about this person, specifically, and trust yourself to figure the rest out in due time, knowing that there’s no rush.

also, i have no idea what your situation is, but as always i think it’s a good idea to spend as much time around other lgbt people as possible if you’re not already, though i know that’s often easier said than done. a meetup, a hobby or volunteer group, a sports team, a band, a chorus — these things have made a world of difference to me in terms of making me feel that not being straight is normal and good, and that being true to myself is fully compatible with a rich and happy life.

my experience, of course, is just one experience, and so if others reading this would like to share your experiences around this, i encourage that. in any case, i hope this answer is helpful, anon, and that it finds you well.

Long Ass List of Daredevil Sentence Starters
  • "Scream all you want. Come on, let me hear you scream. Scream loud. Nobody gives a shit down here."
  • "I gotta go bribe a cop."
  • "But seriously, yeah, I gotta go bribe a cop."
  • "Please stop giving my mom cigars."
  • "Look, I'm not asking you to do anything immoral."
  • "You've never done this before?"
  • "Maybe we can help each other."
  • "All I did was ask him for a drink."
  • "Define yourself by what you have, value the differences, make no apologies for what you lack."
  • "I thought I detected a whiff of virtue in there."
  • "But I'm awkward and unfashionable. Those things don't seem to apply to you."
  • "I just don't feel like going home okay?"
  • "So let's hop a few bars, not think about it."
  • "Your outfit kind of sucks, by the way."
  • "You haven't told me anything about you."
  • "Okay, good because I was starting to worry you might be in love with me."
  • "I drank the eel. Not a euphemism."
  • "And we are now filled with mighty eel strength!"
  • "After what you told me, I'm never going home again."
  • "I know you're scared, but I'm here to help you. Okay? - You don't have to be scared anymore."
  • "I make a heck of a latte, if you're interested."
  • "Facts have no moral judgment. They merely state what is. Not what we think of them, not what we feel."
  • "I know how hard this must be for you."
  • "You have no idea how any of this is for me."
  • "They have to pay for what they've done."
  • "They won't listen."
  • "We'll make them listen."
  • "You do not want to test me."
  • "You think this is still about you?"
  • "You should have just killed me. You coward."
  • "This is an offer, not an order."
  • "I did some digging into your, uh past activities."
  • "A man/woman that can be bought isn't worth having."
  • "I said you should move on. Didn't say anything about me."
  • "Even though our perception of it changes, one thing remains constant. The past can never be completely erased. It lingers."
  • "I've been lied to before by men/women. Some were even decent ones but they still felt the need to be dishonest about things that mattered."
  • "Hey, that's not a reason, it's an excuse."
  • "He's/She's like a sexual Rain Man."
  • "I want you to touch my face."
  • "Just tell me what you feel."
  • "You need anything else, you know where to find me."
  • "You want the short answer or the long one?"
  • "We need to contain this."
  • "Lying to that woman is impossible."
  • "Choose a side."
  • "I'm the closest he/she has to family. He'd/She'd do the same for me."
  • "That wasn't very smart, but it was fun watching you bleed."
  • "Life is not a fairy tale. Not everyone deserves a happy ending."
  • "Animals don't stop fighting. Not until one of them is dead."
  • "Admittedly, I'm a work in progress."
  • "Let's get this started."
  • "You know what they call stuff like that? Gifts. The special kind. The kind that very few people have. Or deserve."
  • "Smart don't come out of books, kid. Smart is making the right decision at the right time."
  • "Big world. Not all of it flowers and sunshine, and the only way guys like you and me can survive is to grab it by the throat and never let go."
  • "Are you gonna lie there all night or get up off your ass?"
  • "What a shithole."
  • "This is my life and I made something of it, without you."
  • "Relationships are a luxury men like you and me can't afford."
  • "Is that why you left? Huh? To protect me?"
  • "You got heart kid, but heart's not enough."
  • "Anger is a spark, good. Rage is a wildfire, out of control, therefore useless. Just like you."
  • "We all pay for our choices."
  • "I've learned a lot since you've been gone."
  • "You're a dick."
  • "Say that you want my help."
  • "I want you to help yourself."
  • "I don't need a friend. I need a soldier."
  • "In war, people die. If it's not you, it's the guy next to you."
  • "I swear I will not kill anybody. Pussy."
  • "Never is a man more good looking than when he is in love."
  • "You do your job, I'll do mine."
  • "On occasion some dickery may leak out, but doesn't mean I'm wrong."
  • "So, how long before I do something that pisses you off?"
  • "You can't listen to people like that. You have to just block them out."
  • "Yeah, you're just a guy, right? A really, really good-looking guy."
  • "If you weren't half dead, I would kick your ass."
  • "We're gonna be the best damn avocados this city has ever seen."
  • "Misspelling 'Hanukkah' is a mistake. Attempted murder is a little something else."
  • "Well, we seldom get everything we want. Not in this world."
  • "You were really something back in the day. When you had a soul."
  • "I'm not afraid to die."
  • "We'll be together, that's all that matters."
  • "You really think that this will change anything?"
  • Priest: So who have you got on the outside? A boyfriend, from what I hear?
  • Aaron: Is this the bit where the kind priest makes friends with the nasty inmate?
  • Priest: Kind? I've not even offered you a biscuit yet. But, yeah, sometimes this is where friendships form, within accepted parameters. Other times, someone acts how you're being now, then it gets tedious.
  • Aaron: Well, come on. Let's get on with it. Pat me on the head and give me some rosary beads and tell me it's all gonna be all right.
  • Priest: I never tell anyone it's gonna be all right. I hope it will, but I can't see the future.
  • Aaron: My mim and my little sister... on the outside. A few mates.
  • Priest: What's your boyfriend's name?
  • Aaron: Robert.
  • Priest: And how's he doing with all this?
  • Aaron: Fine, I guess.
  • Priest: He doesn't have Jason to contend with, I suppose.
  • Aaron: I can handle him.
  • Priest: You're doing a good impression of someone who can't, if you don't mind me saying.
  • Aaron: Well, actually I do mind you saying, yeah, because you know nothing. You flounce round here with your 'Bless you, child.' You met me an hour ago and you've only just scraped the first millimetre of the tip of an iceberg you can't even imagine the size of.
  • Priest: Oh! Poor baby's had it hard, has he? Did your mum used to hit you? Did she start before you can even rememberand hit you every day and tell you you're useless and you'd made your dad run off and you'd ruined her lif? And did you dread going home from school because you knew there'd be something new you'd done that gave her another excuse? And did she put you in the hospital when you were ten and tell the nurses you'd been in a fight because were an evil little git? And did you push it all down because it's wrong to hit girls? But then, one time, after years, when she came at you with a 6"stiletto, did you put her on her backside with a broken nose and end up in a young offenders' instiitute? Or was that me? We've all lived a life that's brought us to this point... and we all think our stories make us special. They don't.
  • Aaron: And did she rape you, your mum?
  • Priest: No, she didn't your dad did. So what? I could go out on the balcony and spit on half a dozen people who've been through the same. Be a bit harsh, though.
  • Aaron: I'm just sick of being this person.
  • Priest: Hard luck. You're all you've got.
  • Aaron: You know he actually said something that makes sense. Jason. He said that I, erm... He said I could change my name, but it doesn't change who I am.
  • Priest: He's right. You're always gonna be Gordon's son, but it doesn't have to define you. Be proud of it.
  • Aaron: Proud?
  • Priest: You're the son of a man who repeatedly abused you, but you've still made something of your life. I mean, obviously right now, you're in prison for assault. You're a thug, no offence. I'm talking about the future, if that's the one you decide for yourself.
  • Aaron: Yeah, cos it's that eaysy.
  • Priest: Well, it's easy to try. You remind me of Jason, you know. Not the waste of life you know. No, the Jason of five or six years ago, on his first time around. Broody little thing, had his issues, but had a bit of spark as well. Some decency. He was havong a rough time with the prison hards and he was missing home. Him and his girlfriend had just had a baby. Trying to front it all out. I said 'You can't. You need to talk to her, to someone.' He wasn't having that. Too proud. Said he'd sort it himself. Proved me wrong, I suppose.
  • Aaron: Good for him.
  • Priest: Oh, yeah. Girlfriend moved to new Zealand. He'll never see the kid. Probably spend moft of his life on here, or somewhere like it.
  • Aaron: And I'm supposed to feel sorry for him?
  • Priest: I want you to look at him and then at yourself and see if you see a difference. There is one, but it'll get smaller. And if you bottle all your problems up and deal with them how he did, when you leave here, you'll be going back to your boyfriend, your sister and your mum, another loser who the system spat out. Is that who you wanna be?
  • Aaron: No.
  • Priest: Then tell the people who matter to you what you're going through. It'll help.

anonymous asked:

I don't know if you're still doing the microfic thing (I somehow think you've already been overrun by prompts), but if you are: Lance and Keith - bonding?

(Still going, no worries!)

“I need you to teach me how to shoot.”

Lance nearly chokes on his food, and breaks into a set of hacking coughs as he tries to recover. After a moment he finally manages to breathe deeply, and stares at Keith. “Sorry, what was that?”

Keith scowls for a moment, until he realizes Lance isn’t trying to rub it in, or anything. He really is actually surprised by the request. “I need you to teach me how to shoot,” he repeats, a little slower this time. “Better, anyway. I know the basics, but…” he shrugs.

Truth be told, he doesn’t really want to fully admit it out loud to Lance, but after the assault on Zarkon’s ship he’s been painfully aware of exactly where he’s lacking in combat skills. In hand to hand he’s unrivaled by any of them but Shiro, but when it comes to shooting…well, he’d been more than a little disappointed in his aim while covering for Thace. He’d known how to properly hold the Galra blaster, but it had taken three or for shots for every single sentry he’d managed to bring down, and most of the time he’d just hit the walls around them.

He’d never bothered with ranged target practice in past training sessions, really. He’s always had a sword bayard, and close combat suits him and his combat style best anyway. Lance and Hunk have always been there for the range. But that mission made it painfully clear that sometimes Lance or Hunk won’t be around, and sometimes he’s going to have to go outside his own comfort zone to get the job done.

Besides, fighting is one of the few things he’s good at. He’s not tech-savvy like Hunk or Pidge, and he’s not really good with people like Shiro or Lance. He doesn’t want to leave any weaknesses in the one area he considers his major strength.

If it means biting the bullet and asking Lance for help, he’ll do it. He’s not to proud to ask for help where it matters, even if Lance will probably be obnoxious about it.

Lance is regarding him suspiciously now, like this is some sort of trap. “Why are you asking me?” he asks, looking disbelieving and uncertain. “Why not ask Hunk? He uses a cannon. That’s ranged.”

“Hunk’s is more like a machine gun,” Keith says. “Lots of blasts, lots of damage, but not a lot of accuracy. It’s dangerous because it just chews up anything in front of it. I need better precision. That’s your specialty.”

Lance still looks partly suspicious, but Keith can see him preening a little under the attention, too. Keith’s he’s gotten better at noticing the teams’ strengths and weaknesses, and figuring out how to work with them better ever since his temporary stint as leader. Lance always did best with praise, and Keith had been genuinely shocked the first time he realized Lance’s bravado and constant needling had been the result of insecurities rather than genuinely being a self-absorbed ass. He’s tried to work around it a little better since, and there’s mostly no harm in admitting when Lance is genuinely good at something, or even better than him at it.

“Well, I am the team sharpshooter,” Lance drawls after a moment.

“Right,” Keith agrees, since that’s not exactly wrong, and adds quickly, “So. Will you help?”

“Help you what,” Lance asks, with a wide grin, and okay, this time it is definitely to be annoying.

Keith sighs. “Train in sharpshooting,” he repeats, trying to keep the annoyed edge out of his voice.

Lance smirks. “Well, I guess I can,” he agrees. “Since I am the best at it, after all. Even better than Keith.

His expression grows more serious then, though, right before Keith throws up his hands and decides to fight a training gladiator instead because it has to be less obnoxious than this. “But you gotta actually listen to everything I say, okay? Shooting’s dangerous. If we’re gonna make you a better sniper I want you getting the right habits so you don’t get yourself or anyone else killed. I’m not going to teach you anything if you’re gonna use it to just rush in like you do with swords.”

“As long as it’s related to the shooting training, that’s fair,” Keith agrees. He can tell that for all Lance’s fooling around, this is definitely something he takes very seriously, and Keith can respect that.

“Great.” Lance pauses. “Do you even have a firearm to practice with? I’m not sure you could use my bayard.”

“We’ve got a couple captured Galra blasters,” Keith says. “And I think there’s some Altean ranged weaponry in their armory somewhere.”

“Awesome.” Lance shoves the rest of his bowl of food goo to the mice waiting on the table, and grins. “Then let’s get sharpshooting, yeah? As long as we’re aware I’m always going to be the best at it.”

He probably will be, actually; Lance very rarely misses. “You’re throne’s not in danger,” Keith promises, with a roll of his eyes, but also partly to assure Lance that he’s not out to oust Lance from his “thing” on the team. “I’m just learning so I can make decent backup if needed. Clear?”

“As crystal,” Lance agrees.

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Q&A with Simon D
  • Simon and you have been together for nearly 5 years and Simon has decided to do a short Q&A video with you. Simon has already tweeted out to his fans about the questions.
  • Simon: Hey everyone. Today [Y/N] and I will be answering questions from our fans.
  • You: What's the first question?
  • Simon: Someone's excited for this.
  • You: I only agreed to this because you promise you will let me choose what we eat tonight.
  • Simon: Shh I don't want our fans to know I bribed you into this. Ok, first question is where did you two go on your first date? Do you remember, babe?
  • You: Of course. But you always telling this story so you do it.
  • Simon: I asked her to dinner at my favourite restaurant, but after dinner I found out she doesn't like the place. [Y/N] asked me what I had plan next, I told her I was planning to go to the movies. She disagreed and we went to a bowling place after.
  • You: Dinner and a movie is boring babe. Sorry. But you had fun at the bowling place right?
  • Simon: Yeah it was fun. Here, read the next question.
  • You: What are your thoughts the first time meeting each other?
  • Simon: We actually met a club. It was an after party for some show. I was sitting in the VIP section and I saw her dancing from across the room. I thought wow that girl CANNOT dance.
  • You: Hey!
  • Simon: I'm just joking. But yeah, my first thought was wow she is so sexy so I got up and asked for her name.
  • You: Yeah, I remember seeing this guy who's wearing a grey GUCCI sweatshirt walking up to me and I thought, who in their right mind wears a sweatshirt to a club. Like it's so hot and stuffy in there. Then my second thought was he probably smells because I could see his sweat.
  • Simon: And do I smell?
  • You: Sometimes.
  • Simon: So [Y/N] what is the most romantic thing that I have done?
  • You: Hmm, for our one year anniversary we celebrated it at home. I had a long day at work and I told him I was fine with some take-out but this guy here surprised me. He made dinner, put rose petals on the bed and candles were everywhere.
  • Simon: I have many romantic things and you choose that one?
  • You: Yeah but I think that's the most romantic. Next question.
  • Simon: What are each other’s worst or annoying habits? [Y/N]'s most annoying habit is buying so many clothes and not wearing them. Some clothes in her closet still has tags on them. And when we go out she says she doesn't have anything to wear so I tell her to wear the clothes she bought a month ago. And when we are ready to go out, I would think she's wearing the new clothes but she wears her old clothes. Her clothes are taking up my side of the closet.
  • You: Whatever. You should buy another closet for yourself then. And don't forget you sometimes kick the blanket off the bed when we're sleeping. I'm always getting up and picking the blanket up. Learn how to keep the blanket ON the bed and I'll try to stop buying so much clothes.
  • Simon: Okay okay, I'll try. So the next question is what is your ideal date night?
  • You: I don't think we do a lot of date nights, right babe?
  • Simon: No, we don't. We prefer having lunch together.
  • You: Yeah, lunches, breakfast or brunches. We prefer spending the day together. But also, Simon sleeps super early. He gets into bed around 8:30pm. What old men do.
  • Simon: Hey! I'm not old.
  • You: Whatever you want to believe. Hmm the next question from this fan is a little out of the blue.
  • Simon: What is it?
  • You: Are there any weird fantasies/kinks that you have or into?
  • Simon: Weird fantasies or kinks? We don't have weird kinks.
  • You: Omg Simon. You just implied we have weird fantasies. I don't want to answer this one. I'm going to get a drink.
  • Simon: No, no sit down. You're staying right here babe.
  • You: I'm just going to cover my face then.
  • Simon: I won't go into too much detail or give our fans too much information. Actually I'll just say it in three words. Ready? Ok, toys and accessories.
  • You: Omg you did not just say accessories. What is that suppose to mean?
  • Simon: I told you, I'm not saying anything more. And baby, you should know what the accessories are..
  • You: Let's move on.
  • Simon: Okay last question, do you two have any funny, embarrassing sex stories? Wow our fans are something hey?
  • You: Haha yeah. I know one embarrassing story. Can I tell it?
  • Simon: Are you talking about the one with the phone call?
  • You: YES! Ok so we were at home and in the middle of 'it' , well actually we were both 'nearly there', when Simon's phone rings. The phone was on the bedside table and I asked Simon if he needed to get that. He shook his head and all that came out of his mouth was "Jay, Jay, Jay". Now imagine, you and your partner having the time of your life, you know, and your partner decides to call out his work mate's name when you're about close. It was so weird, yet extremely funny. Oh and if you didn't guess, the person who called him was Jay.
  • Simon: Please stop talking now and I'm surprised you could actually ask me a question when you're in the zone babe. Kudos.
  • You: I didn't say the exact words. I muttered, gosh. Anyway can I tell them what I told Jay the next day.
  • Simon: Aww, do you have too?
  • You: Yes. The fans deserves the whole story. So the next day, we saw Jay at the office and I blurted out what happened. I said to Jay, "my boyfriend busted a nut to you".
  • Simon: Okay okay. No more discussing this story and let's end this Q&A. You've gone too far babe.
  • You: Fine. And we're having ramen and dumplings tonight.

friednonsense  asked:

Being that you're an industry expert, I was hoping if there were any tips or advice you can give to an aspiring Animation Series creator. Any lessons you've learned from working in the industry from so many years. What advice would you give yourself if you were starting out trying to get you're animation picked up by a major network?

Yeah I have a big piece of advice! Stop “aspiring”!!!!! Your aspirations end now!!!!

YES YOU! DON’T WAIT! START NOW! (passionate rambling incoming…)

The freaking coolest thing about living in the year 20XX is that you don’t have to have anyone’s permission to be an Animated Series creator. Grab a trial copy of Flash, or make flipbooks, or your own GIFs, or make some stop motion with your phone. Just start making whatever you want! Don’t save your good ideas for some big-wig executives or networks. Just do them right now! Don’t be precious with your ideas, just put them out there. 

Content that’s on TV or in movies is not “more official” than stuff you make in your home on your spare time to share with friends on the internet. It’s all the same!!!!! As long as you enjoy it, who cares!! And if other people happen to like it also, then BONUS!! 

The experience you get from trying to make something good on your own is so much more important than any future dream of being a big shot. Upload what you do to the internet and get feedback, show it to as many people as you can and listen to critiques. Learn to do stuff all by yourself, and only for your own pleasure.

From what I’ve seen, the people who end up creating a good animated series are the same people who have been creating their own stories, cartoons, comics and music on their own just for fun long before they ever got the shot at the big-time. Read about how your favorite cartoons are made, and try to do the process on your own. You’ll learn what your strengths are and what you’re interested in exploring.

(If you don’t have the facilities to create animation on your own, make something smaller scale- like a script, a comic, or a storyboard!)

OK THEN HERE’S STEP TWO: once you’ve learned to love your work on your own and figured out what you like to draw and what you’re passionate about, you may get a chance to pitch an idea. And thanks to the work you’ve done, you’ll be READY! Instead of some half-finished ideas, you’ll be able to point to all the amazing stuff you’ve created on your own and say “look, I already know what I like, AND I already know how to do it!” —that’s WAY more impressive than an undeveloped idea with nothing to show for it. PLUS, the bonus of doing good work on your own is that you’ll attract attention and opportunity! I know so many people working in this industry who were discovered from their own silly personal work that was just randomly found online. 


Fire Emblem: Awakening Sentence Starters
  • "Ah, I'm sorry. Perhaps I'll come back when you're done playing."
  • "I'm not playing! This is serious!"
  • "Seroiusly... childish? Seriously... embarrassing?"
  • "Seriously none of your business. Seriously."
  • "Okay, just stop. You're not even sighing. You're just saying the word 'sigh'."
  • "You're guaranteed to lose 100% of the jousts you never attend, my friend."
  • "Perhaps you should name your next move 'Eternal Chastity'."
  • "Sure, why not? I've got the perfect teacher for it right in front of me!"
  • "Why, you little--!"
  • "Few things in life would give me greater satisfaction than to knock you on your rear, but one of us has to be the adult here, and it's obviously not going to be you."
  • "That's right. Walk away. You just keep right on walking... Jerk."
  • "Oh, look. The little boy is playing with his dolls again."
  • "Do you see dolls here? No you don't! That's cause this is serious business!"
  • "I'm honing my psyche so I can grapple with nefarious beasts of the night."
  • "Well, at least you'll be grappling with something tonight."
  • "Oh, real mature."
  • "Is this your diary? It's filled with bad drawings of heroes and their weapons."
  • "Don't! The Manual of Justice is more than your mortal eyes can handle!"
  • "Oh, that's just adorable! You even named the book and everything!"
  • "Page 1: _______. When danger nears, his sword hand twitches and his eyes turn red."
  • "Give it baaaaaack!"
  • "Why are you doing this to me? We're supposed to be allies!"
  • "Oh, you drew flames around this name! Does that affect the pronunciation?"
  • "Either stop reading or just stick a sword in me and be done with it."
  • "I'll say this: your bizarre fantasy world is certainly... robust."
  • "A sword is just a sword, you know? But a sword with a name is an ally!"
  • "Remind me again how this is mental warfare and not just you being mental?"
  • "A weapon with a strong name makes the wielder feel strong, too!"
  • "That kinda makes sense... which scares me."
  • "______, these are just the names of the girls who spurned your advances."
  • "Gods, there must be two hundred names on this thing!"
  • "Another day, another rejection."
  • "How long will it take womankind to realize my many, many charms?!"
  • "I saw this tiny flower bloomin' by the roadside and I got a little misty..."
  • "Wh-whyyyy? *sniff* Hooow?! Tell me... Tell me it's all a bad dream!"
  • "Gods, pull yourself together, man! You've been sobbin' for an hour."
  • "Everything was going fine until you ruined it, ruiner!"
  • "I just don't understand why it made the ladies fall all over you! ...and start ignoring me, I might add!"
  • "How is sobbing over a flower dreamy?!"
  • "Listening to you is stressful."
  • "I wonder if _____ would mind if I stabbed him..."
  • "Persistence is my greatest strength, you know!"
  • "It's pronounced 'tragic flaw'."
  • "'Oooh, ______! You're so mysterious!' 'Your mask is soOoOO dreamy, ______!' You were supposed to be my wingman! Not my competition!"
  • "She did not want me to leave. She was... stronger than she looked. I've never been so manhandled."
  • "Wait, were you flirting just now? Was I just hit on?!"
  • "I have nothing but the most platonic of respects for you."
  • "Your philandering is quite deplorable, but high marks on your attitude!"
  • "Ooh, let me guess! You hit on a pretty girl, and she shot you down?"
  • "Ha! Everyone thinks they know, _______. Well they don't know squat! ... But yes. That's what happened."
  • "How goes the philandering?"
  • "A girl agreed to join me for tea, and I was on cloud nine! But she spiked my drink and robbed me blind while I was out cold! She even took the shirt off my back! ...Left the pants, though."
  • "Wait. You're fighting a war to impress GIRLS?!"
  • "I'm not good with praise, you know? I'm used to rejection!"
  • "This is going to haunt me to the grave! The grave, I say!"
  • "Yes, you just happened to find yourself hiding in a barrel. What ARE the chances?"
  • "PLEASE stop trying to spy on me while I practice! You've climbed trees, hidden under bridges, painting yourself in ridiculous camouflage..."
  • "The time you jumped out from the waterfall nearly gave me a waterfall in my pants!"
  • "...You died before we got that far."
  • "I always used to practice beside your grave."
  • "I'd try to imagine what you'd say as you watch me. What I could fix..."
  • "I could hear it all in my head as I danced. But I just wanted to hear it aloud..."
  • "The me in the future might have left, but I swear, this me is here to stay!"
  • "So you're taking a breaking from chasing girls, to talk with me about... chasing girls?"
  • "...You get slapped a lot, don't you?"
  • "Oh yeah, all the time. I mean, when I'm not getting kneed in the groin."
  • "I'm a man of passion!"
  • "This is your last dance!"
365 Questions Challenge for 2015
  • Day 1: List all the things you want to accomplish this year.
  • Day 2: What is the best way to motivate yourself?
  • Day 3: List 6 things that you learned from last year. How will any of this help you in 2015?
  • Day 4: Why is friendship important?
  • Day 5: Why is love important?
  • Day 6: Is there a reason for everything that happens?
  • Day 7: List at least 5 things you like about yourself.
  • Day 8: List 2 things you dislike about yourself. How can you improve upon these flaws?
  • Day 9: What gets you up in the morning?
  • Day 10: For those who are feeling down, and it can include yourself, tell them why life is genuinely amazing.
  • Day 11: Are you an optimist? Why or why not?
  • Day 12: What are the pros for being positive? The cons?
  • Day 13: What are the pros for being pessimistic? The cons?
  • Day 14: For the past 2 days, you have discussed why it is bad or good to be positive or pessimistic. Is it better to be positive or pessimistic?
  • Day 15: Have you ever completed a challenge before?
  • Day 16: What are some things you can see yourself always enjoying no matter how old you get?
  • Day 17: Do you notice the little things? Do you appreciate people noticing the little things you do?
  • Day 18: What is the most meaningful song to you right now?
  • Day 19: When was the last time you cried?
  • Day 20: When was the last time you got furious?
  • Day 21: Do you get angry at yourself or do you get sad? Do you get angry at other people or do you get disappointed? Is there a reason for this?
  • Day 22: Are you a judgmental person? Do you have high standards for others?
  • Day 23: Describe a memory from 2013. Any memory.
  • Day 24: Describe a memory from 2014. Any memory.
  • Day 25: When was the last time you wrote a meaningful text or letter to someone?
  • Day 26: How many lives do you think you have influenced? Do you think you have influenced them positively?
  • Day 27: What was one nice thing you did for for somebody else today?
  • Day 28: What have you accomplished this month?
  • Day 29: What do you want to accomplish in February?
  • Day 30: We're almost done with January! List 3 good things that happened this month.
  • Day 31: What is something meaningful that happened this month?
  • Day 32: First day of February! Look back at Day 29. How will you accomplish your goals?
  • Day 33: What do you tell yourself in order to motivate yourself?
  • Day 34: Do you think first impressions matter? Why? Why not?
  • Day 35: Do you think our generation is becoming smarter or dumber?
  • Day 36: What do you look for in a significant other?
  • Day 37: What are 3 things that truly impact your life, not including people?
  • Day 38: Is it possible to change your mindset in under 2 months? 1 month? 1 week? How long does it take you to change your mindset about things?
  • Day 39: Do you have a place that inspires you? Relaxes you? What is so special about this place? Do you think that this place is only special to you?
  • Day 40: Which is more important- imagination or logic? Why or why not?
  • Day 41: What do you look for in a relationship? Are you more serious or do you just want to have fun?
  • Day 42: Do you despise or dislike those who have different views from you? Do you look down on them? Or are you open-minded?
  • Day 43: Is isolation, even in the smallest way, healthy?
  • Day 44: Are any people, all the way to the core, completely shallow?
  • Day 45: When do you label a person as ignorant?
  • Day 46: Do you think people that complain often are annoying? Do you think you complain often? How do you stop someone from complaining?
  • Day 47: If you had an (another, if you already have one) older brother, how would that change your life? What about an older sister?
  • Day 48: When was the last time you asked someone a personal question? Did you end up having a personal conversation with them? How did this conversation affect you?
  • Day 49: Do you think you know yourself pretty well? Is there anyone who "knows you better than you know yourself?"
  • Day 50: Have you been trying to accomplish your goals? If not, can you not accomplish them or are you just being lazy? How can you stop yourself from being lazy?
  • Day 51: Who is the last person you met? What did you think of them? Have they affected your life in any way?
  • Day 52: What makes you nervous?
  • Day 53: How far in advance do you like to plan?
  • Day 54: Is it more important to love or to be loved?
  • Day 55: How would you describe life, generally? Not just yours, but just the idea of living?
  • Day 56: What is your most preferred medium for expressing art and emotion? Dance? Painting? If you do not use art to express yourself, what do you do with your feelings? Do you keep it inside of you?
  • Day 57: Have you ever fallen in love? Do you hope to (again)?
  • Day 58: Can teenagers fall in love? Or are they too young to know what love is? Is love limited to certain ages?
  • Day 59: What would people say about you at your graduation? If you've already graduated, what did people say?
  • Day 60: Who are the 3 most important people in your life at this moment?
  • Day 61: Do you like who you are? If not, are you striving to improve yourself?
  • Day 62: What have you learned the hard way?
  • Day 63: Looking back at your life, what are some things you got but never worked for? What parts of your life have been easy?
  • Day 64: Is anything stopping you from living the life you want to live? Or is your life fine the way it is?
  • Day 65: What can you do to make someone's day?
  • Day 66: Do you think anyone can truly accept themselves?
  • Day 67: Do your loved ones know that they are loved by you?
  • Day 68: Summarize yourself in 5 words.
  • Day 69: Describe yourself without using your name, or attributes given to you by society (ex. pretty, smart)
  • Day 70: What have you given up on? Will you ever try again?
  • Day 71: What are some things that people should never give up on? Why not?
  • Day 72: What are some things that are okay to give up on, if there is anything?
  • Day 73: When did you last do something outside of your comfort zone?
  • Day 74: How much control do you have over your life?
  • Day 75: How much control do you have over your feelings?
  • Day 76: Is it better to have an open mind in this kind of society?
  • Day 77: How much time do you think you waste?
  • Day 78: How has honor changed? Does honor still exist?
  • Day 79: Describe a time when you should have stood up for someone.
  • Day 80: What bad habits do you want to get rid of?
  • Day 81: What good habits do you want to develop?
  • Day 82: If you could ask a single person one question, and they had to answer truthfully, who and what would you ask?
  • Day 83: Is it better to lie and not hurt your friend, or to tell the truth and hurt him/her?
  • Day 84: Are you satisfied with your life? Why/why not?
  • Day 85: If you could start your life over, what would you do differently?
  • Day 86: When did you have to go let go of someone or something? Did anything good come out from it?
  • Day 87: All good things must come to an end: what are your thoughts on this?
  • Day 88: When it’s all said and done, will you have said more than you have done?
  • Day 89: If a friend spoke to you the way you speak to yourself, how long would the friendship last?
  • Day 90: If you had to teach one thing to everyone, what would it be (assuming that they learn it?)
  • Day 91: What is the last thing that you've done that’s really worth remembering?
  • Day 92: If karma was coming back to you, would it help or hurt you?
  • Day 93: How have you spent most of your time for the past 2 months? Why?
  • Day 94: Do you have any long-term ambitions? What are you doing to pursue them?
  • Day 95: Which of these is more important: long-term ambitions, or short-term goals?
  • Day 96: What are some of your greatest fears?
  • Day 97: What have you done that you are most proud of?
  • Day 98: What is the wisest thing you have heard anyone say?
  • Day 99: Favorite quote about life and why.
  • Day 100: Do you get offended easily? Do you think that this is a good trait? Why or why not?
  • Day 101: What makes a meaningful life?
  • Day 102: Would you ever give up your life to save another?
  • Day 103: If you could relive one year, which year would it be? Why?
  • Day 104: Do you think everyone is worthy of love? Do you think you are worthy of love?
  • Day 105: What brings you down?
  • Day 106: How would the worlds of your friends and family be different if you were never born?
  • Day 107: Do you have any self restraint?
  • Day 108: What does success mean to you?
  • Day 109: What does failure mean to you?
  • Day 110: Do you think that asking the big questions to a friend that could potentially ruin the friendship is bad, or does it make the friendship better?
  • Day 111: What grabs your attention?
  • Day 112: What are some gifts that you will always appreciate? (can be physical, or intangible)
  • Day 113: What do you think about when you're by yourself?
  • Day 114: What is the most insensitive thing a person could do to you?
  • Day 115: What is the most insensitive thing you've ever done?
  • Day 116: What is the sweetest thing somebody has ever done for you?
  • Day 117: What is the sweetest thing you have ever done for somebody else?
  • Day 118: Do you think life is short? Or long? What makes life so quick/slow?
  • Day 119: Is there anything wrong with stereotyping? Have you ever been a victim of stereotyping?
  • Day 120: What makes someone a hero?
  • Day 121: What makes someone a villain?
  • Day 122: What makes someone a victim?
  • Day 123: What constitutes bravery?
  • Day 124: Define in your own words- beauty.
  • Day 125: Who do you spend most of your free time with?
  • Day 126: Where do you spend most of your time while you’re awake?
  • Day 127: Have the stars ever meant anything to you?
  • Day 128: What could society do without?
  • Day 129: What have you lost interest in recently?
  • Day 130: What have you gained interest in recently?
  • Day 131: How do you deal with isolation and loneliness?
  • Day 132: Do you think it is possible for a human being to forever be alone?
  • Day 133: In what way are you your own worst enemy?
  • Day 134: Describe the last dream you had?
  • Day 135: Are you easily influenced by people around you?
  • Day 136: Do you influence people around you?
  • Day 137: Who was the last person you said “I love you” to? Did you mean it?
  • Day 138: Is it possible to always be genuine and kind? When do you have to be mean to other people? When do you have to fake?
  • Day 139: When was the last time you were honest with someone?
  • Day 140: Think of a memory that can always make you laugh or smile. Describe it.
  • Day 141: How can you focus on the things that really matter in your life?
  • Day 142: What advice would you give to someone who is going through depression?
  • Day 143: What advice would you give to someone who is going through the grieving process for a major loss?
  • Day 144: What has been the most defining moment(s) in your life?
  • Day 145: What’s something new you recently learned about yourself?
  • Day 146: What do you sometimes pretend you understand that you really don’t?
  • Day 147: What is something that you can teach to others?
  • Day 148: Do you think you are heading down the right path?
  • Day 149: Is there anyone depending on you? Do they think you are dependable? Do you think you are dependable? How are they depending on you?
  • Day 150: Are you depending on anyone? Do you appreciate them? Do they know you appreciate them?
  • Day 151: What do you want more of in your life?
  • Day 152: What do you want less of in your life?
  • Day 153: Considering Day 151 and 152, are you still happy with what you have? Do you appreciate what you have?
  • Day 154: At what point during the last five years have you felt lost and alone?
  • Day 155: Is there anyone you want to forgive? Forget?
  • Day 156: When you meet someone for the very first time what do you want them to think about you?
  • Day 157: What has fear of failure stopped you from doing?
  • Day 158: What type of person angers you the most?
  • Day 159: What type of person makes you happiest?
  • Day 160: Which is better- an easily offended person who is genuinely nice, or a light-hearted person who is mean?
  • Day 161: Which one of your responsibilities do you wish you could get rid of?
  • Day 162: What positive changes have you made in your life recently?
  • Day 163: What has most negatively impacted your life?
  • Day 164: If you could live forever, would you want to? Why?
  • Day 165: What do you admire most about your family?
  • Day 166: What do you admire most about your friends?
  • Day 167: Is being impulsive a bad thing? Or is it just surprising?
  • Day 168: Is any person truly perfect? Do you idolize anybody? Do you think human beings have the capability to be perfect?
  • Day 169: When was the last time you expressed your feelings?
  • Day 170: Do you enjoy artistic challenges or problem solving?
  • Day 171: Who has been kindest to you, recently? Do they know you appreciate their kindness?
  • Day 172: What is your earliest memory? Was it a happy memory? Do you think that happy children turn into good people?
  • Day 173: What is your favorite memory, pertaining to the person who has been kindest to you?
  • Day 174: If you could hold on to one memory for the rest of your life, which memory would it be?
  • Day 175: How did you think your life would be like 2 years ago?
  • Day 176: How has your life been different than what you’d imagined?
  • Day 177: How would you like to be remembered?
  • Day 178: If you were forced to leave everyone you know, would you say anything to anyone? Or would you leave quietly? You can't contact them ever again.
  • Day 179: What are some words of advice you would give to a toddler?
  • Day 180: What are some words of advice you would give to a teenager?
  • Day 181: Do you identify yourself as mature? Immature? Why?
  • Day 182: Is maturity something to be proud of? Is being more mature a good thing?
  • Day 183: How can reaching out to others hurt them? How can reaching out to others hurt yourself?
  • Day 184: Discuss this statement: Those who have not experienced enough are immature. Do you agree with this?
  • Day 185: Do you get jealous easily?
  • Day 186: Are you good at keeping touch with others?
  • Day 187: Have you had any sudden realizations about yourself or about others during this challenge?
  • Day 188: What does "I'm proud of you" mean to you?
  • Day 189: How would you describe yourself as a child? Were you happy?
  • Day 190: What question(s) should you never ask someone?
  • Day 191: What does it mean to be a good friend? Are you a good friend?
  • Day 192: When was the last time you helped a friend out through his/her emotional struggles?
  • Day 193: Do you think just being there for a friend is good enough?
  • Day 194: If you gave someone your real opinion in order to help him/her, but he/she was hurt by it, do you deserve to feel guilty? Or is guilt invalid because you were trying your best to help him/her?
  • Day 195: Are there some people who don't deserve to have friends?
  • Day 196: Are romantic relationships necessary to obtain happiness?
  • Day 197: What are your thoughts on casual sex?
  • Day 198: What are your thoughts on flirtatious people?
  • Day 199: What do you consider flirting?
  • Day 200: Can a guy and a girl have a platonic friendship without ever liking each other?
  • Day 201: Which is better: having lots of friends or 2 or 3 important friends?
  • Day 202: What can make commitment difficult? Easy?
  • Day 203: Do romantic relationships take away time from best friends?
  • Day 204: If a friend treated you badly, but came back to you in a time of need, would you help them?
  • Day 205: Is there a selfish intent behind every selfless action? Can people be truly selfless?
  • Day 206: When was the last time you were inspired by someone?
  • Day 207: When was the last time someone crushed your dreams? Do you think they were reasonable?
  • Day 208: What makes a good parent?
  • Day 209: What makes a bad parent?
  • Day 210: How will you take care of your kids, if you have any? If you don't want to have any kids, why not?
  • Day 211: Do you enjoy having people take care of you? Why or why not?
  • Day 212: A person takes care of everyone, but does not let anybody care for him/her. Why do you they do this do themselves?
  • Day 213: How do you think you've changed so far, this year?
  • Day 214: Do you enjoy changing yourself?
  • Day 215: Is change always for the better?
  • Day 216: Do you think no matter how much somebody changes, they still carry their old self with them? Or does that old self get erased completely when they change?
  • Day 217: If you hung out with your old friends, would things still be the same?
  • Day 218: Does love ever disappear? Can you truly stop caring about someone?
  • Day 219: Who puts your heart at ease?
  • Day 220: When you think of someone deeply and often, do you think you would think more greatly or more negatively of them?
  • Day 221: Describe a time in your life when this statement was proven true: "Actions speak louder than words."
  • Day 222: People who make fun of the things you genuinely like doing are assholes. Has anyone made fun of your hobbies before? When was the last time this happened?
  • Day 223: Which of these would you rather be: naturally talented or hard-working/having constant motivation?
  • Day 224: Who is the most honest person you know? Do you respect this trait or are they too hurtful?
  • Day 225: When talking about the truth, is it best to sugarcoat things or to show it as it is?
  • Day 226: How has music impacted your life?
  • Day 227: What is a song that motivates you?
  • Day 228: Which of these is better: being understanding, or being genuine?
  • Day 229: Is life hard? Why?
  • Day 230: Discuss if "going with the flow" is good or bad.
  • Day 231: Do you think you take proper care of your body? Are you aware of the consequences if you don't? Are you aware of the benefits if you do?
  • Day 232: What do you think about your body? Do you love your body?
  • Day 233: When was the last time you learned something because you wanted to, not because you needed to for school or work?
  • Day 234: Do you believe that knowledge is power? When does knowledge become dangerous?
  • Day 235: Do you feel insecure if other people are better than you?
  • Day 236: What are your standards and expectations for yourself? Do you think they are reasonable for a normal human being? Would you apply these to another person?
  • Day 237: Discuss this statement: Other people's successes are not your failures.
  • Day 238: Have you ever been stressed out about grades? What advice would you give to someone stressing out about grades?
  • Day 240: When was the last time you did something fun?
  • Day 241: Do you still look up to anyone? Why or why not?
  • Day 242: When was the last time you truly felt like you loved yourself?
  • Day 243: When was the last time you put yourself down?
  • Day 244: Why is "just get over it" bad advice?
  • Day 245: Do you think you are different from other people, or do you think you are ordinary? What makes you so different from others? What makes you like the others?
  • Day 246: Why do people lie? Do you lie for the same reasons?
  • Day 247: Do you want to be different from other people? Do you want to stand out?
  • Day 248: What was the last video game you played? Did you enjoy it?
  • Day 249: Have TV shows or video games or any media ever affected your life?
  • Day 250: What questions do you often ask yourself?
  • Day 251: What are some recent compliments you've received? Do you think that they are true?
  • Day 252: When was the last time you complimented someone? Do you think you brightened their day?
  • Day 253: When was the last time you insulted someone? Do you regret what you said?
  • Day 254: What is a change you need to make about your life before the year ends? What is a change you have made about your life?
  • Day 255: Have you ever tried lucid dreaming? (Search it up if you don't know what it is.) Would you ever want to try it, if you haven't?
  • Day 256: What were 10 good things about today?
  • Day 257: List 3 things you have been satisfied with lately.
  • Day 258: Have you ever given yourself away to someone who doesn't deserve you? What did you learn from this experience?
  • Day 259: Have any of the lessons you have learned saved you from getting into bad situations?
  • Day 260: When you are sad, do you get mad at others for being happy? Regardless of your answer, do you think that this is reasonable?
  • Day 261: When was the last time you got anxious?
  • Day 262: Is it possible to forget about people you care about through sheer willpower?
  • Day 263: Are you a good listener? Do you like talking or listening?
  • Day 264: What do people find most happiness in?
  • Day 265: Where are you happiest?
  • Day 266: When are you happiest?
  • Day 267: Do you try not to get sad, or do you just let it happen? How do you prevent yourself from getting sad?
  • Day 268: Is it bad to push your problems to the side if it means that you can live normally?
  • Day 269: When has anger ruined a friendship for you?
  • Day 270: Is it possible to fake sadness for attention? Do you know anybody who does this?
  • Day 271: Have you ever been obsessed with attention?
  • Day 272: Who have you interacted with this year? Are they the same people from last year?
  • Day 273: Who has been drifting away from your life? Do you want to talk to them again?
  • Day 274: Are you competitive? Do you like people who are competitive?
  • Day 275: Do you try your best in everything? Why or why not?
  • Day 276: Have you been late to anything this year? Why weren't you on time?
  • Day 277: What do you take pride in?
  • Day 278: Do you take the things you do seriously? Do you think you need to change your attitude, whether you are too light-hearted about things or too serious about things?
  • Day 279: Are you into more upbeat music or sadder, slower music?
  • Day 280: Would you rather change the world or change yourself?
  • Day 281: What do you think you are capable of?
  • Day 282: Do you make good decisions? Give an example of when you have made a good decision.
  • Day 283: Do you make bad decisions? Give an example of when you have made a bad decision.
  • Day 284: Do you think you are where you are now because of how hard you have worked, or how little you have worked? Are you in a good place right now?
  • Day 285: Are you the type to put off things until they are due? Why don't you do things earlier? Have you been procrastinating the entire year?
  • Day 286: Have your changes throughout the year been gradual or spontaneous? Which is the best kind of change?
  • Day 287: Is there anything wrong with wanting to look good for other people? What about for yourself?
  • Day 288: Have you kept up with current events?
  • Day 289: Have you been faithful to your resolutions? It is never too late to start them again.
  • Day 290: When is it too late for forgiveness?
  • Day 291: Do you give second or third or no chances to people? Why?
  • Day 292: Do you like people?
  • Day 293: What have you been enjoying lately?
  • Day 294: Have you ever met a person you could not relate to at all, or sympathize with?
  • Day 295: Do you tolerate things people do, or do you get angry at them?
  • Day 296: Are you accountable for your friends? Are your friends accountable for you?
  • Day 297: How important is accountability?
  • Day 298: Have you ever had a job before? Did you enjoy it? Do you have a job right now?
  • Day 299: Do you think you are spending your time well, recently? Why or why not?
  • Day 300: Do you try to make excuses for yourself? If yes, how can you prevent this?
  • Day 301: It is important to put all of your effort into anything you do, no matter what it is. Have you been trying to fulfill your accomplishments you had from the beginning of the year?
  • Day 302: Do you believe that there are stupid people or just lazy people?
  • Day 303: Have you ever lost to love? Have you ever been so infatuated with someone to the point where you found yourself changing because of them?
  • Day 304: Is it unhealthy to want to change for somebody else? Why or why not?
  • Day 305: What were you doing last year around this time of year?
  • Day 306: Have your views on anything changed since last year?
  • Day 307: Do you think it is good to look back at memories?
  • Day 308: Do you enjoy writing in journals?
  • Day 309: What do you think about when you listen to music?
  • Day 310: Why are words so powerful? Why do they affect us so deeply?
  • Day 311: What is human nature? How has human nature affected your life?
  • Day 312: Do you spend more time thinking about yourself or about other people?
  • Day 313: What is the most selfish thing someone could ever do?
  • Day 314: What is the most selfless thing someone could ever do?
  • Day 315: Have any of your friends hurt you this year? What did they do? Are you still friends?
  • Day 316: Does money matter to you?
  • Day 317: Can a person truly be confident or does that confidence stem from insecurity?
  • Day 318: Do you respect people more if they are confident? Why or why not? What is so attractive or unattractive about being confident?
  • Day 319: Do you think anybody should ever be satisfied with his/her life? Why or why not? When do you reach the peak of satisfaction?
  • Day 320: If you are not doing anything, you are wasting your life- do you disagree or agree with this?
  • Day 321: What is the most disgusting trait someone can have?
  • Day 322: When you are about to finish something, what do you think?
  • Day 323: Are the fundamentals always important?
  • Day 324: Do you think you have thought any thoughts that nobody else has ever thought about before?
  • Day 325: The year is almost over. Have you accomplished a lot so far? There is still time to accomplish things. Don't give up.
  • Day 326: What has stressed you out the most this year?
  • Day 327: Are you stressed out about anything right now?
  • Day 328: Which month has been the best so far? Do you think December will be the best month?
  • Day 329: How can goals make you blind to other things that are just as important? How can goals help you realize what is important?
  • Day 330: What words have affected you the most this year? (Can be from book, quote, advice)
  • Day 331: Have you ever gotten over jealousy or envy for someone?
  • Day 332: When was the last time you felt relieved of a burden?
  • Day 333: Do you think you aim for every opportunity that appears before you? Or do you let it pass because you are scared?
  • Day 334: What is wrong with a risky life?
  • Day 335: What do you want to accomplish in December?
  • Day 336: Look back at Day 322. Are you thinking these same thoughts as you are about to finish the year?
  • Day 337: How are you going to finish this year? Do you want this year to be special?
  • Day 338: What has been your favorite memory from November?
  • Day 339: What has caused you to change the most this year?
  • Day 340: What have you been thankful for this year?
  • Day 341: Have you taken some time to look back at 2014? Have you applied what you have learned from 2014 to this year?
  • Day 342: Have you been genuine towards others this year?
  • Day 343: Have you been trying your hardest this year?
  • Day 344: If you have answered no to all of these questions, it is never too late to start trying or being genuine. Please take this month to do that! Have you developed any romantic relationships with anyone this year?
  • Day 345: Do you think it is important to stay friends with your exes?
  • Day 346: Has anything meaningful happened in the past 2 months?
  • Day 347: List 5 things that you like about yourself. Is it the same as it was at the beginning of the year?
  • Day 348: Do you think you have matured this year? How so?
  • Day 349: Have you kept a positive mindset this year?
  • Day 350: Do you celebrate anything in Christmas? Who are you going to celebrate with, if you are? Do these people matter to you?
  • Day 351: How do you feel about people who don't think that their families are important?
  • Day 352: Do you think being emotional is being weak?
  • Day 353: What constitutes a mentally strong person?
  • Day 354: What constitutes a mentally weak person?
  • Day 355: Have you developed any obsessions over the year? Are any of these unhealthy? Are you trying to get rid of them?
  • Day 356: Who has been the most accountable friend over the past year?
  • Day 357: Looking back at 2015, do you regret anything?
  • Day 358: What have you learned this year?
  • Day 359: Do you plan to make next year special? Was 2015 special?
  • Day 360: What made 2015 unique?
  • Day 361: Even if you didn't stick to your resolutions, do you believe that you changed for the better this year?
  • Day 362: Are you ready for 2016? What do you want to accomplish next year?
  • Day 363: Has this challenge helped you with anything?
  • Day 364: Have you shown your friends and family members your appreciation for being in your life for yet another year?
  • Day 365: It's the last day of 2015. Look back at Day 1. Did you accomplish any of these? Try to make 2016 even more special than 2015. Hopefully you have had a great year. I enjoyed spending this year with you! Thank you for doing this challenge. I hope you have realized some wonderful things about yourself and your life. Have a nice last day of the year! <3

stars-on-my-cuffs  asked:

What advice would you give on world building? I've been wanting to build my own world like you have, and it's honestly so awesome how much work that you've put into this. Thank you!

Thank you so much! :D I have been creating my own stories and worlds since I was a young teenager and I do have some general tips to share. 

The best way to start building a new world is to write is all down. Even though you may not be a writer, writing down your ideas prevents you from forgetting stuff, keeps you more organized, and you notice inconsistencies much easier. Writing also helps the creativity. There are so many scenes and characters that I have come up with simply by writing down a seemingly silly idea related to my world. 

What to write? Start with the simple things like “What´s the name of the planet?”, “What kind of country does your main character live in?”, “Is there peace or war in said country?”, etc.  Basically answer the questions that you yourself have when you are introduced to a new world in fiction. Then when you got the basics then you can dive into the more complex questions:

  • “What kind of history does the world/country/city have?”
  • “How does the politics/economy/school system/etc. work?”
  • “How does the weather/mother nature affect the people living here?”

Also take advantage of your own interests. What is your favorite part of world-building in movies/games/books? The politics? The geography? The social dynamics? Think of something and let it snowfall. If you cannot come up with anything yourself then ask somebody else. Explain the world in very simple terms and ask them if they have any questions about anything.

The main thing here is to ASK QUESTIONS and ANSWER them yourself. Does not matter if it is a historical story or an original fantasy. In order to make something believable you need to think about it. Although some questions are irrelevant and can be left up for suspension of disbelief (EX: ”How come no humans seem to be aware that the toys are sentient in Toy Story?”) But the worst you as a creator can do is to sweep big questions under the rug and just say “magic”.

But what do you do if you don´t KNOW the answer? In these cases I tend to write down the first thing that comes to mind and just let that be for now. This way I do not start waisting time on this one thing. 80% of the time my brain will remember my bland/bad answer and I will come up with something much better later. I also like to come back to my notes after a few months. Sometimes when I read something I will come up with a better alternative on the spot, even if the original idea was my own. 

Research always helps too! Do you have a character with a disability? Research. How many days can you survive in the wild? Research. What happens to a human body when it´s in space for a long time? Research. Google is your friend for facts and personal blogs are your GF when it comes to learning how other people feel/think. Not only can you see if your idea even works, but you might also find something that you had not considered or known about before. 

Another tip I will give to all creators is to actively look up clichés for the kind of world that you are creating. Like if you are writing a fantasy; find out what everybody else have already done with this kind of world and AVOID IT WITH ALL YOUR MIGHT! Do the opposite, scratch ideas entirely, add a twist, change up the roles, anything in order to not make it like every other fantasy world ever made. Yes, be inspired by your role-models but do not copy them. We already have to many Middle Earths or Hogwarts wannabes. 


  • Ask questions and answer them!
  • Write everything down! 
  • Research!
  • Avoid clichés!

I hope that this helps! If fellow creators have other ideas then feel free to share them. ;)

Want some inspiration right away? You can observe me brainstorm with world-building for my series “To Belong” HERE.

One of the boys ~ Part two

A/N ~ So I made myself cry while writing this, this character is me in a nutshell. I Will post part three as soon as I have finished it xoxo

Pairing ~ Hoseok x reader

Rating ~ Angst

Pt1 Pt2 Pt3

Originally posted by btsumari

You had just walked in the front door of your apartment and threw your things down on the dinning room table when you heard your phone ringing, you pulled it out of your pocket, looked at the screen and sighed. It was Jin, again. Could they not take a hint? It had been two months since the night you spent with Hoseok, which was the last night you had seen or spoke to any of them. It hadn’t been that hard to avoid them as one of those months they had been away on tour, but they just kept trying to call you. You thought they would have given up by now but the only one that had was Hoseok, he gave up after a week. You weren’t very good with feelings, it was easier to just ignore them and push them back down whatever hole they clawed their way out of. Truth be told you still weren’t even sure how you felt, all you knew was you felt empty and lonely. You barely even smiled anymore and every time you heard one of their songs playing or when you saw their billboard on the way to work your chest would hurt, but why? You knew you missed them but you also knew that things would never be the same again, it was just to messy and you had to move on, it’s what you always did when people got to close to you or things got complicated. You ignored the phone when it started to ring again, placing it on the table and went to have a shower in a cowardice attempt to escape from it all. When you came back there was a voice message waiting for you, your finger hovered over the button for a moment as you fought with the idea of listening to it. You shouted a quick fuck before pressing the button and holding the phone to your ear.

“Noona, where are you? We miss you…….. ALL of us. Please call us, we want our noona back…….. We love you”

Jin’s sweet message was all it took for the tears to start streaming down your face, how could they still want to hang out with you? You had done nothing but ignore their calls and dodge their attempts to surprise you at your apartment for two whole months and they still wanted to be friends with you, It was beyond your comprehension. You didn’t want to think about it anymore, you just wanted to feel normal again and when you were thinking about them you were far from it. You decided the best idea would be to go to bed and get a good nights rest and maybe things would be ok tomorrow, maybe this whole thing had just been a bad dream and when you woke up things would be how they used to be, but it wasn’t. When you woke the next morning your eyes were red and puffy from crying yourself to sleep and the empty feeling in your chest some how felt worse. You tried your best to cover it up with make up but it didn’t work. You put on your office uniform and headed to the front door to go to work noticing the clock on the wall as you went passed. ‘Fuck I’m late again’ you reprimanded yourself internally as you ran out the door and down stairs, there wasn’t enough time to wait for the elevator. When you got to your car you could sear you heard your name being called out but you had no time to stop and check who it was, this was the third time you were late this week and your boss already had words with you over it, next stop would be Human Resources and people rarely came back from a meeting with HR other then to clean out their desks.

You finally got to work an hour late and you quickly made your way through the room of scattered office cubicles until you got to your own. You placed your things down and immediately sat at your desk opening files on both your computer and desk, trying to make it look like you had been there the whole time.

“Miss ____, my office now” Mr Kang your office manager said sternly.

You slowly stood up and hesitantly made your way to his office, you closed the door and sat down in front of his desk noticing that one of your co-workers was sitting in the seat next to you. You opened your mouth ready to reel off a bunch of bullshit apologise and excuses as to why you were late but Mr Kang held his hand up, signalling for you to be silent.

“Mr Lee here informed me that you were sick and would be late this morning, to be honest I didn’t believe it but, after seeing you now I realise he was telling the truth”. you looked at the man sitting next to you in confusion. “You missed an important meeting with a client this morning, if it hadn’t been for Mr Lee here kindly offering to take a look at the proposal and lead the presentation we would have lost the deal. He saved your ass today and I think you should thank him” Mr Kang stated with his usual condescending tone.

You turned to your co-worker and bowed, thank him for helping you.

“That will be all, you can both leave now” Mr Kang ordered you off with a wave of his hand.

You left your seat and headed out the door going straight to desk and checking your files so you could finish the agreed deal that your boss had just mentioned.

“Wow you really don’t look well, are you ok?” a smooth male voice sounded from beside you, you turned your head to find Mr Lee standing there.

“I-I’m fine. Thank you for helping with the deal” you flashed him an insincere smile, you still couldn’t bring yourself to smile properly yet.

“Ah no problem, really. It was pretty easy, your notes were really well detailed, all I did was read them out loud” he chuckled and turned to walk away.

“Mr Lee” you called and he turned back to you. “How did you know I would be late?” you asked almost cocking your head to the side in the process.

“Ahhhh well…….. You've been late twice this week already so, chances were you would be late again and please, call me Minhyuk” he said with a big smile on his face and you had to admit he was quite handsome, especially when he smiled.

“Well I guess I should thank you for saving my job” you replied off handedly as you went back to looking through your files.

“Ok if you insist on it then a few of us are going out to a club tonight, I’ll pick you up at eight, wear something nice” he smirked at you.

“Oh….. ummm….. I’m really not sure if I should” you said furrowing your brow.

“Come on, you did just say I saved your job and it’s Friday AND you look like you could use a night out to take your mind off things” he teased. You chewed on your bottom lip as you fought with the idea, maybe this was just what you needed, a night of fun to fill the void in your chest that was getting larger by the day.

“Ok I’ll do it, here I’ll write down my address for you” you said picking up a pen but Minhyuk placed his hand over yours, stopping you from writing anything and you looked up at his tall frame leaning over you.

“There’s no need. You may not have realised this but we live on the same floor, apartment 9c right?” he confessed as he rubbed the back of his neck and you nodded in response. How had you not noticed him before? “Great, I guess I’ll see you tonight” he gave you a toothy grin before walking away.

The rest of the day went fairly quick and you were actually looking forward to getting dressed up and going out, maybe it wasn’t they guys you were missing but the socialising and having friends to share things with. You decided that you were going to treat yourself go all out, an elegant figure hugging low cut black dress with matching pumps, tonight was about you and how you felt.

You had barely finished getting ready when you heard a knock at the door and you opened it to find Minhyuk in an expensive tight fitting dark grey suit and white button up shirt, he looked good, really good. How have you never noticed him before? An extremely handsome, fit man that you worked with and lived on the same floor as.

“WOW, y-you look great” Minhyuk almost choked as his eyes trailed down your body.

“Thanks, you don’t scrub up so bad yourself” you giggled to him. Did you really just giggle? Maybe this night really IS just what you need.

“Ready to go?” Minhyuk asked holding his arm for you.

“Let’s go” you smiled looping your arm in his as you walked down the hall to the elevator.

It took no time at all to get into the club, in fact you didn’t even have to wait in line. Apparently the owner of the club was one of Minhyuk’s clients and a very prestigious one at that, he owned the hottest club in Seoul, all kind’s of celebrities partied there and people would wait in line for hours just to get inside. Minhyuk lead you up a large staircase to the second floor, it was the v.i.p section, and to a table off the side where some slightly familiar faces were waiting for you.

“You guys made it” one girl screamed almost falling off her seat, they had obviously already had a few drinks. You almost jumped out of your skin when you felt Minhyuk’s hand run down your spine and coming to rest on the small of your back.

“Everyone this is _____, she finally agreed to come out with us” Minhyuk announced causing the group to laugh. What did he mean she finally agreed to come out with us? This was the first time he had asked you and that’s when you realised it, you noticed that the two sexes were evenly matched and paired off. Was this a date?

As the night went on and the drinks kept coming you began to loosen up but you couldn’t shake the feeling of being watched, you had looked around a few times but hadn’t noticed anything out of the ordinary except for one corner that was exceptionally darker then the rest to the rest of the room to the point that you could only just make out several figures in the shadow, you just figured it must have been a celebrity that didn’t want to be recognised.

“Here you go guys, some guests that would like to remain anonymous sent these over, they said you looked like you were having fun and wanted to make your night even better” a waiter said as he placed down a tray full of enough shot for you to have four each. You couldn’t help but look back into that dark corner, it was like an invisible force was pulling you towards it, could they have sent the drinks? did they see you looking?

“Yeah, let’s get fucked up” one of the guys shouted enthusiastically from the other side of the table and you couldn’t help but laugh. As soon as you finished the last shot Minhyuk leaned into your ear.

“Wanna dance” his lips grazed your ear as he spoke. Goosebumps peppered your skin and your heart fluttered as the memory of Hoseok doing the same came flooding back, you closed your eyes and only nodded in response. It was wrong of you to use Minhyuk but his actions reminded you of Hoseok and you just wanted to feel his arms around you once again, even if it was just pretend.

He grabbed you by the hand and lead you back down the staircase, he weaved you through the crowd of hot sweaty bodies that swayed in time to the beat on the dance floor and as soon as your feet stopped Blodd,sweat and tears started playing. Minhyuk pulled you into his chest but you quickly span around not wanting to see his face, not right now, you only wanted to think of the one that your body was crying out for. He wrapped his hands around your waist and you closed you eyes thinking back to the first and only night you danced with Hoseok as his voiced boomed through the speakers, flooding all your senses as you grinded into the man behind you, his movements not unlike Hoseok’s. You rolled your ass against him and he rested his head on the side of your face causing a single tear to roll down your cheek as the memories replayed like a movie inside your head while you mimed the lyrics of the man you longed for and you realised just how much you missed him. All the feeling you hadn’t allowed yourself to feel, all the feelings you had tried so hard to shove back down were now bubbling up to the surface and a tear rolled down the other cheek this time.

You took a deep breath and opened your eyes looking up to the balcony of the floor you had just come down form in an attempt to stop liquid from escaping your eyes and there he was, as if he had heard your inner cries for him. He was leaning against the railing taking swigs straight out of the bottle as he watched you with that stone cold expression he made when he wasn’t impressed that stopped you dead in your tracks.

“What’s wrong?” Minhyuk yelled in your ear breaking the hold that Hoseok had on you and you turned to face him.

“I-I’m sorry….. I have to go” you stammered before running away and up the stairs to grab your purse trying your hardest not to look at Hoseok as you went past.

“Noona!!! You’re here…. Where have you been?” a drunk Namjoon shouted as his arms came crashing around you wrapping you in a tight hug and you had fight the tears that threatened to spill form your eyes.

“Yeah, we miss you noona….. why haven’t you been to see us?” an equally as drunk Taehyung chimed form the side as Namjoon released you from his grip.

“I’ve been busy with work” you said trying to avoid eye contact as the others huddled around you.

“Oh, ok. So you’re too busy to return our calls but not too fucking busy to come to a club to get drunk and grind up on guys” Yoongi scolded you and you heard Hoseok chuckle and you clenched your jaw as you felt the anger rising inside you.

“Omg, you know Bts? I can’t believe it, we always talk about them at work and you never said anything….. How could you keep such a thing form us?” one of the girl from the group scolded you and you couldn’t hold back anymore, the alcohol was clouding your judgement and the emotions that you neglected for so long were taking over.

“Oh for fuck sake, get over it. It’s not like they would be seen dead with someone like you anyway, who the fuck cares” you screamed at the girl and her face instantly went bright red and a tinge of guilt hit you.

“Noona what’s wrong with you? You’re never like this, what’s going on?” a concerned Jin asked grabbing you by the arm but as soon as he touched you you pulled away.

“Nothing, I have to go” you said trying to push around them but Yoongi was quick to stand in your way to stop you from leaving.

“We’ll take you home, come on” Jimin said smiling sweetly at you.

Before you could protest all of them surrounded you like a cocoon to shield you from any saseang fans or media and lead you down the stairs, out the front door and into the waiting car and piled in behind you. You sat by the window in silence looking at the buildings going passed as the car drove through the streets, you could feel them all looking at you and all you wanted to do was run.

“You look like shit” Yoongi finally spoke up, not being able to stand the silence any more.

“Fuck you Yoongi” you quickly retorted and they all laughed, all but one.

“It sounds like our noona but you don’t look like her” Jungkook teased and you shot him a glare in response.

“It’s been so long since we’ve seen her, how do you remember what she looks like?” Yoongi stirred and you felt a smirk creep on the side of your lip.

“Look, there she is. That’s her guys, I saw that familiar smile come up for a second” Jimin said as he poked your cheek and you covered your face as you started to sob.

“Aww Noona it’s ok, we’re here now and we’re not going anywhere” Jin whispered to you as he wrapped his arms around you and pulled you into his chest, his sweet action only made you sob louder.

“Why not? That’s what she did” Hoseok scoffed as the car came to a stop and you pulled away from Jin to open the car door.

“I’m sorry, I can’t do this….. I have to go” you stated as you got out and shut the door behind you and walked around the back of the car when suddenly one of the other doors opened and an extremely angry Hoseok got out, you had never seen him like this. He slammed the door and walked in front of you, holding his arms out from his sides and you backed away.

“Exactly my FUCKING point” he shouted at you and you flinched.

“Hobi, please?” you pleaded but he shook his head wildly and pointed at you.

“Don’t fucking call me that, you lost the right to call me that when you walked out and stopped taking my calls” his voice hitched at the last part and all you could do was look at your feet to try and hide the liquid filling your eyes and you heard him scoff. “And now you won’t even look at me, really? Like I’m the one that did something wrong?”

“Please, just let me go” you pleaded still staring at your feet, your voice now laced with the sadness that had been hidden inside you for two months.

“There you fucking go again, stop running away from your feelings. What the hell are you so afraid of that you have to shut yourself off from the people who love you? What happened to you to make you this way?” his voice was hitching again and you broke down, the grief rising up making you fall to your hands and knees as you began to cry again. Did he say love?

“Hey Hobi, go easy man, look at her” Yoongi pleaded as he got out of the car.

“NO…. and you stay the FUCK out of this this time……you’ve done enough” He shouted shoving Yoongi.

“Please stop” you begged as your cries turned to wails and you reached out and took Hoseok’s hand. He crouched down to your level placing a hand under your chin and gently pulled it up to face him but you closed your eyes, not waning to see the same hurt on his face that his voice portrayed.

“Look at me….please, you at least owe me that” He pleaded with a croaky voice, so you did and immediately regretted it when you saw the tears streaming down his face. “I thought…… I thought I showed you how I feel? We made love…… I thought we connected” he paused for a moment looking in your eyes. “But when I woke up, you were gone….. was……was I wrong?” he asked searching your face for any sort of answer but you didn’t respond, all you did was stare at him.

Hoseok let go of your chin and stood up walking away from you and the others.

“Hobi where are you going?” Namjoon yelled after him.

“Anywhere but here” he called back before he disappeared around a corner.

You broke down placing your face in your hands as your cries became hysterical and you felt your chest tighten around your lungs as you struggled to breath, your skin felt like a foreign object smothering you and all you wanted to do was rip it off. Why, why did he have to do this?

“Noona…?” Jin asked quietly as he placed a hand on you back to comfort you but you hit his hand away.

“DON’T FUCKING TOUCH ME” you screamed at him and he stepped back clearly shocked by your outburst, they all were. You breaths became more shallow as your chest tightened again and you clutched your hand over your heart as the feeling of a hot needle was slowly being driven through it but there was nothing there.

“Noona, please let us help you” Jimin said, concern lacing his words. You shook your head as you fought for the air to return to your lungs, your chest rising and falling dramatically with every loud gasp for air.

“J-just go, please just go” you pleaded through breaths.

“At least let us help you up to your apartment” Namjoon said kneeling down in front of you, his eyes pleading with your own.

You finally gave in nodding your head for approval and Namjoon scooped you up off the ground and carried you inside to the elevator, the others stayed put. You started to calm down as Namjoon nuzzled you into his neck and whispered that it would be ok and you felt your muscles relax as a feeling of exhaustion crashed over your body like a wave. The elevator doors opened and Namjoon stepped out walking to your apartment door still nuzzling you into him. When he got to your door he slowly placed you down on your feet and your legs felt like jelly as you tried to look through your purse for the key, when you found it you unlocked the door and opened it about to step inside.

“Noona…” Namjoon called and you turned to look at him, concern plastered his face. “I don’t know what’s going on with you and I won’t force you to tell me, I just hope that you know you can talk to me if you need to. I’m here for you and so are they, we’re all worried about you”

You bit your lip and gave a nod in response, Namjoon lent in and hugged you.

“You don’t need to go through this alone” he whispered sweetly in your ear and you nodded again not able to talk as a tear rolled down your face. He released you and looked at you wiping away the tear with his thumb before walking back to elevator.

“See you soon Noona” he called before stepping inside the elevator.

anonymous asked:

hi!! i love your fics, and they always make me so happy and im feeling a little down right now and i was wondering if you would maybe write something sterek-ey for this prompt "You've been typing furiously on your laptop in the library, and have just gone to get a book, so I had a quick look and you're writing hardcore gay porn and it's GOOD."

Here you go, sweetheart. I am so sorry it’s a day late and I hope you are feeling better. My door is always open to you if you need to talk. Also a big thank you to @crossroadswrite for being the most helpful of betas ever to beta. 

Stiles thumps his head on the desk for the fifth time in twenty minutes.

Go to the library, Scott had said.

You’ll get so much done, he said. The liar.

Allison and Kira are coming over and- and Stiles is officially moving Scott from his top bros list. Being sexiled is one thing, but to be exiled? For platonic reasons? From his own apartment? Where there is popcorn and a Dexter marathon waiting for him? Nope. Scott is officially out. Not that Stiles actually has anyone else on his bro list, but he could. One day. Starting now. Maybe.

Sighing a little more dramatically than is probably necessary – if the dirty looks he gets in return are anything to go by – he looks around for something to entertain him.

Vaguely, he is aware his anthropology notes are still sitting there, vying for his attention in that kind of pick me, pick me! way in what he imagines Hermione Granger would look like if she were a notebook and not a person. Well, fictional character, unless you make an argument for Emma Watson, but that’s beside the point.

No, the point is he wants fun, a life, to go crazy, and as much as he loves – he squints back at his notes – post-structuralism, it’s just not going to cut it tonight.

Scanning the room, he looks at the different types of people.

It would be nice to make a new friend, he thinks – or so his dad tells him – and what better way to make a friend than at the library? That’s a type of friend, right? The “library friend”. They’re easy enough to make. That person you always meet up with to go for coffee, crashing at their place, helping each other study, making flash cards.

Stiles could see himself in that kind of friendship. He’d ace the flash cards. Flash cards are his thing, his buddy, his pal. Maybe he should put flash cards on his bro list.

“And maybe you should stop drinking so much caffeine,” someone angrily comments behind him.

Spinning in his chair, Stiles opens his mouth, ready to argue - because hello, rude – but promptly shuts it again because hello, wet dream.

Wet Dream is currently scowling at him, making his glasses slip down the bridge of his nose. It’s adorable and Stiles doesn’t know whether to ask for this guy’s hand in marriage right here and now or buy him coffee first.

“Do you generally like to annoy people by talking out loud, or is this just my lucky night?”

Not that Stiles expects a positive answer to either of those questions, but a guy can dream. If Lydia Martin taught him one thing in high school, it’s that a guy can certainly, most definitely, dream.

“Are you generally this sexy, or is this just my lucky night?”

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