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More Headcanons

I headcanon Lance as bi. I also sort of self project the way I grew up and how my family is/was on him too…? Anyways, more langst

-Lance never thought it was weird that he was attracted to both genders until he was 11
-He first told his mom and she told him it was just a phase
-His older siblings laughed and teased him for it, calling him many slurs
-Slowly he grew to hate himself for being attracted to men and started to become more and more homophobic
- When he was 13, he met a boy in the summer who was gay
-He dated said boy in secret while denying who he was all the while
-His younger sister caught him with the boy and told their parents
-Lance never thought he’d ever see his mom so disgusted with him
-At the same time, he never thought his Dad who seemed the least accepting, would accept him and try to help him
-Lance started to realize as he got older that no men wanted to date him because he was bi
-So he thought it’d be easier to pass as hetro, though by now he was no longer homophobic but was trying to help out in LGBT community
-Lance’s older siblings started to become more understanding of the LGBT community and was no longer homophobic
-His mom understood but didn’t except that he was bi. Instead she’d talk about how it was a phase in his life
-He knew deep down that she’s never accept him
-Growing up, Lance was a middle child
-He never really got new clothes, being able to have hand-me-downs from his older siblings
-But his younger siblings got new clothes as by the time he was down with his, they were outdated
-He tries not to think too much about the times he’d get locked out after walking around late
-It wasn’t their fault, they just didn’t notice he was gone
-When his anxiety was starting to get bad, he had to hide it because his family rejected the idea that anyone could have a mental illness in their family
-He learned how to cry silently early in his life, so it was no surprise that no one knew when he was having an anxiety attack
-His self esteem issues started pretty early in his life
-His older siblings, one was a genius and the other was a troublemaker
-Whatever he did was average in his eyes and only his friends congratulated him
-It would never feel as good as it would’ve been coming from his parents
-When he’d get into trouble or hang around a “dangerous” crowd, his parents didn’t seem to care too much
-His “dangerous” crowd was pretty much just his group of friends which consisted of an addict, an alcoholic, a pot head, a kid who came from a rough home and two high school drop outs who dealt with mental illness, and the other poverty
-Some of his friends knew gang members but it wasn’t an issue because they’d never bring them around
-When Lance got an 89% on an exam, they threw him a little party on the beach by a campfire
-They’d all celebrate each other’s success and Lance started to call them family
-Lance’s siblings always forgot he was with them when they’d tell a story, or they’d replace him with a different sibling
-His own mom and dad started to do that as well
-He started to feel like he was replaceable and forgettable
-He started to fall into depression around the time he was 12, though he never realized it was depression until he was 15
-He started self harming when he 11, a little bit after he came out
-At first it was anger, he felt like he deserved to be treated like crap
-It soon turned ugly as he started to notice more and more things he wasn’t good at and traits that were displeasing
-When he was 15-16, his friends noticed the scars he carefully kept hidden and they tried so hard to help him
-Lance learned that he didn’t want their help as it felt more like pity which only fed into his self-loathing
-When Lance was 16, his friend who was an alcoholic died by drowning in his own puke
-Lance didn’t take it well and couldn’t handle it, so he repressed those memories
-He never remembered until he was in his 20’s and woke up sobbing and shaking(it wasn’t pretty, it was horrible and he could shake the imagines out of his mind for weeks)
-When Lance got accepted to the garrison, his friends threw him a party
-At the same time, he never told his family until two days before he was leaving
-They thought it was just a boarding school and didn’t realize how much he worked for it until after he left and they looked into it
-Lance tried to hold back tears after the first month he was at the garrison and he still hadn’t gotten a call from his parents or siblings
-He didn’t hold himself as he thought of his friends and the fire they had
-He didn’t think of how his parents practically jumped around when his older brother got accepted into university
-He didn’t compare himself to everyone he knew and only focus on his bad points
-He didn’t have an anxiety attack that night
-When Lance met Hunk, he felt relived because finally in his life, he met someone who didn’t know his family
-Because finally he had a friend who saw him and didn’t know of or about his family
-And when he met Pidge, he was ecstatic to meet someone who was so smart and chill
-It didn’t hurt him at all when they kept avoiding him though
-It didn’t remind him of being overshadowed when his teachers started to compare him and tell him he was there only by luck
-It didn’t hurt when he was taken as a joke by his self proclaimed rival because it reminded him of his siblings
-No, it didn’t hurt at all when he realized he really didn’t belong with the other paladins
-And it certainly didn’t hurt when his hero got mad at him for making a valid point
-Of course that didn’t make him start to doubt himself more than he already did
-No, Lance never thought of how much he hated himself or how he wasn’t good enough
-Not even about how he missed his family, when he was stuck out in space
-Or his friends, who’d usually try to cheer him up by taking him out to eat or play games all night
-Definitely not about how he wished he was a better person, never really seeing what an amazing person he was but the only what he saw of himself
-No, Lance was fine
-Right?

Oh man oh man, you guys. I am OVERJOYED to talk about this! <3

Jaal’s first “oh, damn” moment came during the initial excursions on Havarl. He, Vetra, and Gemma had been slogging through some dense plant growth for hours when he spotted a shortcut from his childhood. It involved a lot of climbing, and Vetra gave him a (gentle) hard time about it, but what Jaal remembers is Gemma staring up the incline, a little frown on her still-strange face. When he asked her what she was doing, she said “I’m trying to figure out if I can do it in four boosts, or three”. Then she grinned at him, and said “I bet three,” and took off. He watched her jet to the first outcropping of rock, catch it, and leverage herself up, and then keep going. 

She made it in three, and laughed when she reached the top. 

He lost his handhold just before he reached her, the rock crumbling under his hand, but Gemma was already there, so fast he never even knew she had moved, and she had her hand locked around his wrist before he could yell for help. And to this day, he remembers the jolt that went through him at the contact, and how her grip did not falter – and how bright her eyes were as she pulled him up. Oh, he thought. This feels familiar. 

No, he added, only to himself, when Gemma – this alien woman – grinned up at him, this feels good. 

***

Gemma’s moment came later; it was seeing him on Aya, after they rescued the Moshae. She found him on a balcony, looking out over a forest so green it hurt her eyes. For the first time since she woke up, she had a moment to pause, and breathe, and not worry about getting attacked, and she was happy to just bask in the sunlight and the rustle of wind through the leaves with a friend. 

She would have been content to stay quiet – Jaal didn’t owe her conversation after all her prodding back on the Tempest and in the Nomad – but he started pointing out the farms where he had worked as a teenager, his favorite place to watch the sunset, the races he and his siblings used to run near that river to the west – and she felt every knot in her spine coming undone. 

He spoke with so much love for everything around him, and Gemma was so tired and lonely and hating being either of those things that she started crying. She’d always been one for a good stress-relief cry, but this was exhaustion, and longing for home, and grief, and the pressure of knowing everything depended on her. 

She tried to keep quiet about it – not really good diplomacy to start bawling in public, especially if you were the damn Pathfinder – but when Jaal noticed, he just put his arm around her shoulders and told her no one would shame her for this, of all things. 

Gemma tried to make a joke – cover my back for a few minutes till I stop looking like a boiled tomato, okay? – but he was looking at her so sincerely, so gently, that she just nodded and maybe – maybe – leaned into him a little. Jaal was alien, half his people wanted to kill her, and she didn’t really blame them – but he was warm, and solid, and he didn’t let go till her tears were done. 

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| Happy Birthday Junhoe ♡

I found back that video in which Junhoe basically apologized for being seen as “rude” and it broke my heart - because  I can relate to this 110%. The fact is that besides being a mindblowing vocalist, his honesty and spontaneous reactions are one of the reasons I love him so much. As someone who’s been called out for being insensitive and cold for speaking up my mind, when I see people like Junhoe it kind of reassures me because it reminds me that it’s okay to be myself.

I look up to iKON in more ways than one but when it comes to Junhoe, I truly admire his strenght and personnality - which has so, so many sides. So yeah, I got emotional thinking about how much he had to overcome + wanted to show that lovable side of him people sometimes forget, since it’s buried under three thousands kilos of sass haha. He really is just an endearing kid who gets super soft when close to the fans and just because he may not be the best at expressing his feelings does not mean he’s not a giant sized toddler.

Respect Junhoe. Love Junhoe. Happy Birthday Junhoe. ♡

#KOOlestJUNEday

Okay. Okay. Okay. I just read that Andy Lincoln LA Times interview and that part where they mention him freaking out after he read the script made me think.

Andy Lincoln thought Rick could end up dying?

So….maybe he used this in his acting? Maybe perhaps he acted like he was living his last days before the end?

Yup, that explains the cut love scenes in 7x12.

That. Shit. Must’ve. Been. GOOD.

Originally posted by indie-cinema

arodasi123  asked:

Hi again, Maddie!!! Just out of curiosity, I was wondering what Harry Potter houses the whole ice skating gang would be in? Or rather, what houses do you think fit them best??? Hahaha, my sister and I were having a legit debate on whether Yuuri would be in Ravenclaw or Gryffindor. Thoughts/Opinions? Once again, thank you for taking the time to read this message, I adore your work and look forward to your new story! (Seriously though, when are you going to publish one of your novels?) Thanks ❤️

OOOO I’ve never thought about that before!!! And thanks so much for saying that you like my writing <3 <3 <3 Here’s what houses I think everybody would be cast in:

  • Phichit - Gryffindor
  • Christophe - Hufflepuff
  • Mila - Hufflepuff
  • Sara - Ravenclaw
  • Minami - Hufflepuff
  • Seung-gil - Slytherin
  • Otabek - Ravenclaw
  • JJ - Gryffindor
PSA

Usually i do alot of the requests on saturday, but this saturday i will be attending strictly kpop #6 here in the netherlands, so i wont be active as usual, i will try to get as many requests as possible done tomorrow/ sunday ; so look forward to that. noa out ✌🏼

12 Facts

(about me) (I claim to know nothing actually factual about anything other than myself) (but even that can be kind of iffy) (i’m still telling people i’m 22) (and i’m not)

I’ve been tagged by the most loveliest and talented-est @inwhichitrytowritesomething to post 12 facts about myself so here we go:

  1. I’m adopted and sometimes referred to as FedEx
  2. I used to write on a now-defunct website called Quizilla for a different fandom and everything I wrote was pure trash
  3. There’s a really good chance I’m going to China for work later this year and I really hope I get to sleep in one of those cubby hotels. 
  4. Kiss You is my favorite One Direction song
  5. Right next to Where Do Broken Hearts Go
  6. I held a koala in Australia and his name was King Kong. I still have a scar on my back from the way his nails dug into my skin because he didn’t like the way I was holding him. And rightfully so. 
  7. I’m a texture eater and don’t like bananas or eggs because they feel gross and mushy and eugh I’m gagging
  8. My first semester of college I was really sick but continued to drink and party hard because I was convinced all the vodka I was consuming would kill the bacteria in my throat and cure me. This is 1000% not the case and I ended up sick for a month and half.
  9. My first life-flashing-before-my-eyes moment occurred when I was 7 and riding my scooter and I had taken off my helmet to be ~cool~ and as I was zooming down the sidewalk, I tipped over into the grass. I just kind laid there for a few minutes, staring at the clouds, thanking God for not letting me die because my mom would have been mad as hell to find me dead ‘cause I wasn’t wearing my helmet. 
  10. For the longest time I pictured guardian angels as beings that actually floated directly behind you at all times. I’d get real self-conscious while peeing ‘cause I thought I was sitting on them. 
  11. I love a good comma. And don’t get me started on the Oxford comma. I also probably overuse semi colons, but no one can stop me, this is my Art Pop. 
  12. The Princess Diaries and Meg Cabot herself probably shaped me a lot as a person and I often find myself comparing situations I’m in to events that took place Princess Mia or Lizzie Nichols’ stories.  

And to keep with the theme I’ll tag 12 people: @aboutalighthouse, @johnlennon-harrystyles, @trulymadlysydney, @cuddlemusclestyles, @aqua-harry, @alrightpetal, @stylessemantics, @permanentcross, @stylesunchained, @overad, @secret-rendezvous1d, and @stylishmuser

It’s so cool to think about your ancestry like, my ancestors were probably vikings like?? That’s so cool? Also, my ancestors have lived the history I’m reading about? Yeah I know that’s how history and generations work but I just think it’s so cool! Could they ever have imagined me? My society? My opportunities? I surely can’t imagine life in year 3000? My ancestors spoke old Norse? They had opinions, problems, thoughts and ideas? They were real people like me?

One day I’m going to be living with my boyfriend with our two dogs and a cat and we’ll drink tea together in the mornings. We’ll learn to cook together and tend to the little jungle we’ll have in our house. In the backyard we’ll have a garden of flowers and vegetables and there will be fairy lights strung everywhere. We’ll have a huge collection of jars and bottles and a cabinet dedicated to tea and one for all of our mugs. We’ll go grocery shopping together and put plants in teacups and never be short on snuggles. We’ll take baths together and I’ll always listen to you talk about your day. We’ll read, play games, and just hang out with each other. And every night we’ll fall asleep holding each other and it’ll be wonderful.

Edward Elric has made me cry about a lot of things.

Never did I think his singing voice would be one of them.

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The Gang+ as Gorillaz Songs

Darry: On Melancholy Hill
Soda: Dirty Harry
Pony: Revolving Doors
Johnny: Every Planet We Reach is Dead
Steve: Ancension
Two Bit: DARE
Dally: Demon Days
Curly: Kids With Guns
Tim: Tomorrow Comes Today
Sylvia: Saturnz Barz
Angela: Clint Eastwood
Kathy: We Got the Power
Sandy: Rhinestone Eyes
Evie: O Green World
Bob: All Alone
Randy: Don’t Get Lost in Heaven
Cherry: Feel Good Inc
Marcia: Andromeda