i want to apologize for being away from this blog ( and pretty much all of my blogs ) lately. i keep telling myself i’m going to return and get replies done and blah, blah and making empty promises.
it’s just been a hectic year for me. i’m currently in the process of getting a new job. applying for it is a huge pain because it’s for a very big company and they have all these crazy steps i have to go through… but, i think i’m going to get it ? which will be a huge step. because my current job is extremely stressful on me and i’ve just had enough of the law field so i’m going to be trying something new and hope that it’ll be what i’m looking for.
on top of that i had 2 surgeries this year. i had my gallbladder removed in march and my tonsils removed in june. it’s put a bit of a financial strain on me ( thank god i have coverage through my step mom tho ) and i’ve been working on the weekends to help pay off these bills which will be done by the end of the year.
because of all this i kinda went into a depressive state ??? with the pain from surgeries and not being able to go to the gym my weight went up and down a lot and i got very upset with myself because i was doing SOOO good until these surgeries came around. i got a personal trainer at the gym and he’s helping me get back to what i was last year and it’s… making me feel so good to be back at the gym. everyone has that something that makes them feel good and working out and bettering my body is it for me. so i’ve been spending a lot of my free time there the past 2 months.
but aside from my life i was able to pop on here and see what was happening in the rpc lately and it’s so heartbreaking to see everything on my dash. i am only still picking up bits and pieces of what had happened, but i just want my followers to know i’m always here if you need someone to just talk to. i may be very busy, but i always have time to talk to my friends on im.
Many thanks to @thatshamelessyaoishipper for subbing the entire section.
This line of dialogue (spoken by Yurio) is genuinely so important to our understanding of Viktor’s character. It’s fair to say that a lot of us kind of view his character as lovable, childlike, and whimsical, and that isn’t wrong. But this proves it, he’s only like that around Yuuri, according to somebody who has known him for three years or so at an absolute minimum.
This is the Viktor Nikiforov without Yuuri, the one the majority of people know. This is the Viktor Nikiforov who sits alone in parks in the snow, with only his dog for comfort, as he contemplates how his life even turned up like that.
I know this is a particularly bad moment, to be fair, but just look how miserable he looks.
Even here, he just looks so bored and serious.
This is Viktor without Yuuri for what? Three days?
The actual effect Yuuri had on Viktor’s life is astounding. With Yuuri, Viktor learnt to let everything go and just be him, rather than his more restrained and serious self, morphing into the usual personality we see and love for the duration of the anime.
All I can picture is the first day Viktor and Yuuri start training again at the rink in St Petersburg, and are absolutely gobsmacked to witness Viktor smiling, laughing, with his arms draped around Yuuri like he’s a buoyancy aid. Quiet, serious Viktor Nikiforov actually looking like he’s enjoying his day. He’s the opposite of the kind of man who would tickle someone publicly, but there he is, chasing Yuuri Katsuki around the rink like a five year old. It’s like some kind of bizarre dream. Even Yakov would have to admit that Yuuri’s presence has transformed him.
And perhaps Yakov even asks him once, unable to help himself, where Viktor suddenly got so much inspiration from, after so many years of misery.
The only answer he gets, as Viktor starts to walk away, is “he gave me his love, Yakov.”