Honestly I feel like I’m missing out on a big part of what “friendship” is and sometimes I feel so empty because of it. I don’t hang out with people one-on-one, I don’t do sleepovers. The idea of going on holiday with a friend- or friends in a group- seems impossible to me. Why? Cause all these things make me uncomfortable. When I hang out with friends alone I, quite frankly, want to leave/for them to leave as soon as possible. I don’t really know why? It’s not an introvert thing I don’t think- it’s not because I need to recharge or anything like that, I just don’t wanna do it. I don’t get the same feeling in groups- I fucking love meeting up with my friends in groups and don’t like that time ending. But as soon as it’s one-on-one, or hell two-on-one, I suddenly get very uncomfortable.
I feel like I’m missing out.