I, I loved you in secret First sight, yeah, we love without reason Oh, 25 years old Oh, how were you to know and
First off the beginning of the song is in the past tense because she is looking back on emotions she previously experienced in the relationship not ones she’s feeling at the time of writing this
Taylor’s only relationship thats been a secret is joe in case anyone had any question who this song is about.
love without reason: when you fall in love you don’t know whyyyy you do, you just did. no reasons. you just did. And ‘first sight’ is throwing back to her sentiments expressed in Gorgeous - she felt something for him right away. Which she has unequivocally said was a song about joe.
25 years old, how were you to know - how did you know at 25 you were going to fall in love with me (joe was 25 and taylor 26 when they started dating)
My, my love had been frozen Deep blue, but you painted me golden Oh, and you held me close Oh, how was I to know what
I could’ve spent forever with your hands in my pockets Picture of your face in an invisible locket
she’s looking back at a time when he was holding her close with his hands in her back pockets. you know when a guy puts his hands in the back pockets of your jeans and you hug. she is saying she couldve stood like that with him forever. She had thought she couldnt love again, that it was dead/frozen (blue) but he brought it to life again, made it shiny and new (golden). Before the fears set in.
face in an invisible locket. She’s not wearing an actual locket w/his face in it but she is holding him and the idea of him close to her heart as if she was. (Sooo again this isnt a calvin song since that locket was actually real)
You said there was nothing in the world that could stop it I had a bad feeling
he told her there was nothing that could stop them from falling in love, their feels were so strong
She was nervous to get into a relationship and fall in love so fast - probably due to the last 2 rs she had.
And darling, you had turned my bed into a sacred oasis
People started talking, putting us through our paces I knew there was no one in the world who could take it I had a bad feeling
she may have had a bad feeling at first but he changed her mind. She thought she would never love again, that her bed was a desert (dried up, infertile, cracked). But he turned it into an oasis. An oasis is a place in the middle of a desert where there is water and fertile land. He showed her she could still love and be loved.
But then ….”people started talking putting us through our paces” is a key line. Remember she’s already said she’s loving this man in secret. Remember the plane info being spread online at halloween. About why did taylor go to london. Remember the articles about ‘where is taylor’. Remember perez posting that she’s secretly in london later in early ‘17. imagine you are taylor, a highly visible and recognizable person and you are hiding from the world but not only that, a huge secret. a relationship. Thats a big burden on both your shoulders. if people are talking about where taylor is, what is she doing, that can be nervewracking. is she going to get caught? will they get found out ? ‘putting us through the paces’ things got complicated for them.
‘knew no one in the world who could take it / i had a bad feeling’ think back to the many articles where she’s thought that no one could handle her fame or the media if they got caught. where she worried that it would get to be too much. that the media would inevitably crush what she had. She is saying that she started to worry that the same thing was going to happen again. That they were gonna get caught and the media will ruin it. AGain this cannot be tom nor calvin becasue the media was well aware of both those relationships, no secrets.
But we were dancing Dancing with our hands tied, hands tied Yeah, we were dancing Like it was the first time, first time Yeah, we were dancing Dancing with our hands tied, hands tied Yeah, we were dancing And I had a bad feeling But we were dancing
She’s still looking back at when they were scared of getting caught. They were enjoying their time together, being close. Metaphorically dancing. Enjoying the feeling of being together was great and still felt fresh and new - like your first dance is. Still exhilarating. But they were sort of prisoners to their situation. Their hands were tied. They couldnt do everything they wanted, bc they were a big secret. Their hands were tied. they couldnt go out in public freely. She was worried they were gonna get caught hence the “bad feeling” but they persevered; they were dancing. They were still enjoying themselves despite feeling like prisoners of their own situation.
This is key because she wasnt in this situation with any of her previous boyfriends, worried about getting caught.
I, I loved you in spite of Deep fears that the world would divide us So, baby, can we dance Oh, through an avalanche? And say, say that we got it I’m a mess, but I’m the mess that you wanted Oh, ‘cause it’s gravity Oh, keeping you with me
“i loved you in spite of deep fears the world would divide us” – throughout all the fears she had felt, she loved him, despite being so worried about something tearing them apart. again going back to worrying that when/if they got found out that the media and everyone would try to tear their rs apart, ruin it, force them apart, literally. She is talking about the future here. hence future tense “would”.
Can we dance through an avalanche? can we stay happy and together through a massive shitstorm? ie. our secret rs getting found out? can we say that we got this, that we’ll be okay? Can we do this?
i’m a mess but the mess you wanted - she was definitely a mess going into this rs; this goes back to what she talks about in Delicate - that he likes her for her. Mess and all. And a mess about getting found out. But she’s his beautiful mess.
cause its gravity / keeping you with me - callback to the magnetic field she refers to in Gorgeous. which again was about joe. she might be a mess, but there is something bonding them together that they can’t control. You can’t control gravity. Gravity just exists. This force was keeping "you with me”
[…] I’d kiss you as the lights went out Swaying as the room burned down I’d hold you as the water rushes in If I could dance with you again I’d kiss you as the lights went out Swaying as the room burned down I’d hold you as the water rushes in If I could dance with you again
Now Taylor is looking to the future again and switches tenses.
She’s saying…If their relationship gets ruined by the media, (this is future tense now, the “I’d” - which is impt to note) she’ll kiss him til the very end, as the lights go out (metaphor). She’ll sway with him dancing as everything burned around them and it was turned to ashes, she’s going to hold on to him. if the floods come in and people try to drown them, she would hold on to him. She doesnt want to give this relationship up if they have to face a storm, she’s gonna hold on to him through anything. if any of these disasters happened (electricity went out, avalanche, flood, fire) …she would want one more dance, one more minute, she would stay with him through any of that.
So now she has changed, she’s saying if these things happen….i’d hold you, i’d kiss you, i’d stay by your side if it means i can still dance with you again. if i can still be with you. She’s now gotten to a place in the story where she is saying she’ll be by his side, no matter what they face. She thinks they can make it through and she is saying she isnt going anywhere.
The dancing while maybe stemming from something literal, is mainly a metaphor for being together.
Hey I loved your Archie smut can you do something where Reggie likes you and everyone can tell including you but hes kinda scared because youre a big deal in school? idk if that makes sense but would be so good if you could write it. smut or not im sure it wil be amazing thanks!x
Warnings:smutty mcsmut smut,swearing and just dirty minds all round
valentines day. Or dick day, Veronica liked call it, was the one day you kinda hated. Everyone in school would go all cliche and sickly sweet wanting to feel special or loved by a guy for the day, and honestly you kinda didn’t get the hype. You wasnt exactly the romantic type, not being able to hold down a relationship since your spring break romances shanangians so you wasnt really feeling the love in the air- well until you and the gang got invited to a valentines house party.
“I mean yes you dont need dick to have a good time there but” she trailed off “This is Reggie Mantle we’re talking about.”
“well if he doesnt want to ask me out, i guess he isnt getting any that night.” you shrugged walking off to your next class. you sat in your usual seat to see a note on your desk. you rolled your eyes wondering what pathetic shit someone had said now.
better be ready for reggies the dick tomorrow night.
you rolled your eyes at the pursposfully scribbed out reggie but couldnt hep but blush at the fact he couldnt speak to you. you found it cute. you turned to see a crude smirk on Chucks face, simply wriggling his brows as you figited with the note in your hand.
“ if hes gonna dick me down, he should have the decency to say hello and get me a drink first.” you commented bitting the corner of your lip trying to stop yourself from smiling
“is that a smile from miss l/n?” Chuck laughed. “ we shit if reg knew you liked him back like he liked you maybe he would have got laid a long time ago.
your expression droppped at his response, throwing a pencil at his head.
You heard the music blaring from the huge house as you stood admiring the place. It wasnt the first time going to Chucks house for parties but you honestly couldn’t remember anything 10 minutes of being there. You walked in to see your friends enjoying themselves at the rave; music blaring, drinks flowing uncontrollably, girls and guys making out and the odd guy passed out on the floor. Everything you remembered before getting shit faced drunk. You ran over into Veronica and Betty’s arms as they handed you shots, letting the night commence .
You stumbled to the bathroom 6 round of tequila shots and a bottle of vodka later placing your cup of water (doubtful) on the side as you sorted out your outfit, pulling at your dress and putting the strands of hair back in place as you swayed to the music. Finally ready to get back to your friends you had Reggie, also a little drunk stumble into the bathroom locking the door behind him. His eyes were roaming your body, mind undressing you right in front of you and thats when you hesitated for a moment, realising that he was here for one reason and that he wasnt going to pass. you bit your lip, suddeny craving Reggie more then you had ever really realised. without thinking you crashed your lips into his, allowing access immediety, hugrly wanting his kiss. your tongues moved in motion, his hands moving further up your thigh causing you to moan. you was under a trance by Reggies touch and you wanted more, your breathing began to deepen as you felt his fingers tease you as he had easy access. the sheer pleasure was electrifying, his fingers now inside you, his lips planting hard kissing on your neck with the music base pounding through you (which wasnt the only thing that wanted to pound you) you pulled at his belt buckle wanting him more then you had ever realised, more then you ever knew. Reggie was too entranced to even realise what you wanted- you pulled away, looking him his eyes, eyes full of lust. He let out a rough “Fuck” and instantly took off his belt. He picked you up and sat you on the sink, your skin shivering as it hit the cold tiles. You closed your eyes trying to patiently wait for him to get a condom on so you could be fucked by Reggie but honestly you couldn’t wait.
“Just fuck me already” you cried as you felt your body feel more and more distressed without his touch.
You felt him tease you for a second but you knew it was too much, even for Reggie to wait, he was inside you instantly, making your whole body tingle as he quickened his pace as you tightened your thighs around him. You needed to catch your breath as you tried to silently let out the moans you wanted to scream. The moments of bliss and sheer pleasure was uncontrollably amazing and you knew you was about to reach your climax. You clung onto Reggies neck as your head flung back as he thrusted himself into you the last time as you both came.You fluttered your eyes open and saw Reggie face millimetres from yours, smile on his face.
“I’m no coward babe” he whispered making you smile
You pulled your dress down and quickly straightened your hair back with your hands and Reggie pulled up his jeans and grabbed his belt leaving the bathroom, you following as though nothing happened to see the four of your friends stood there, smirks plastered on their faces.
“That’s the dick glow” V smirked cocking a brow
“He definitely took her for a ride” Jug murmured making the other three burst into laughter as you pursed your lips pushing Jughead to shut up, but he was right, Reggie definitely did.
merle forgot his sleeping bag and davenport offers his, saying hell be fine, he doesnt get cold easily
merle says no, they both could probably fit together, davenport nods in agreement
merle falls asleep quickly, hes a loud snorer, davenport stays awake, staring at the starry sky, noting how different from his own planet it is, he thinks about what constellations the inhabitants could have come up with, he thinks about if they even have any to begin with
he thinks about merle. he thinks about how his face is becoming warmer with that train of thought
he falls asleep, his mind still on the man snoring sleeping next to him and wakes to the man cooking bean soup over a newly-built fire
ok so you know how theres that theory that the original goner ending music is the start to heavydirtysoul?
well i was thinking that the original goner, heavydirtysoul, and the ‘new’ goner could be telling a story. in the first rendition of goner we clearly see that tyler loses. hes a goner, theres no point to living anymore. but he gives it one more day. thats when heavydirtysoul starts. hes begging for someone to save him. his soul. and then the new goner starts and it starts off kinda like the first one but over time you see tyler fights back. he realizes whats going on and he fights blurryface. its that point in the song when he first starts to scream ‘dont let me be gone’ that starts the fight and the final gentle ‘you’ is the end. its llike a sigh. tyler won this time. he decided (story-wise or real life) to stay alive for just another day and he realized that it was worth it, he can beat this thing and live.
i just know a lot of suicidal people do this, where they decide to live just one more day, or one more week etc.
im saying its worth it, and those songs are proof. we’ll beat our demons one day. and we’ll be happy to be alive. just keep fighting.
On May 5th, 1993, three eight-year-old boys from West Memphis, AR, disappeared while riding their bikes around their neighbourhood. Their naked, beaten, and hogtied bodies were discovered in a drainage ditch the next day, in a local patch of woods known as Robin Hood Hills. Christopher Byers, Michael Moore, and Steve Branch had been subjected to a vicious beating, and two of the boys had been mutilated.
Three local teenagers were charged with the brutal triple murder - Jessie Misskelley Jnr (17), Jason Baldwin (16) and Damien Echols (18). In two sensational trials the trio were found guilty of the murders, and Damien Echols - the presumed ringleader - was sentenced to death. Baldwin and Misskelley were sentenced to life terms plus 40 years.
In 2011 all three accused struck a plea deal with the State of Arkansas and were released from prison after serving 18 years.
Over the years, four documentaries have been made about the case, all of them arguing that the ‘West Memphis 3’ are innocent and a miscarriage of justice occurred when the three teenagers were convicted of the murders. These documentaries are most peoples introduction to the case, and in many respects they skew or omit details of the crime to make the West Memphis 3 appear innocent. While these documentaries make valid criticisms of the investigation and the justice system, they fail to deliver the full, truthful story of the tragic murders. Without further ado, here’s the evidence you never get to see that points to the guilt of the West Memphis 3:
(NOTE: this post doesnt contain any source details because the website that contains all the case documents is currently inaccessible. I promise I will add the links and source details when I can access the website callahan8k.com again)
1) NONE OF THE THREE ACCUSED HAD ALIBIS
Its a little known fact that Echols, Misskelley, and Baldwin could not provide alibis for the night of the murders. The alibis presented in 'Paradise Lost’ and 'West of Memphis’ have been heavily distorted and/or lied about, so lets see what the three accused REALLY got up to on the night of May 5th:
In 'West of Memphis’, several shorts of footage from Jessie Misskelley’s trial shows a number of witnesses confirming that Misskelley attended a wrestling match with friends on the night of May 5th, 1993. An (undated) registry with Misskelley’s name on it and a photo of a wrestler is offered as proof that Misskelley was out of town on the night of the murders.
What 'West of Memphis’ conveniently leaves out is the footage of Jessie’s alibi witnesses being cross-examined by the prosecution. When questioned, every single one of them gave conflicting stories about who attended the match, who drove, where they went, and the places they visited. While all of them confirmed Jessie had tagged along on at least one trip to a wrestling match, none of them could say for sure if he was present on the night of May 5th, and receipts produced by the prosecution seemed to point to the fact that the wrestling trip with Jessie actually occurred several weeks before the murders.
In 'West of Memphis’ Misskelley’s attorney Dan Stidham complains that the jury “didn’t pay much attention” to Jessie’s alibi. Why is that? Because Jessie’s alibi witnesses gave such contradictory evidence that the jury didn’t believe them.
An interesting point to note is that none of the documentaries made about the case even bother to give Jason Baldwin an alibi for May 5th, 1993. Why? Because his alibi claims to police were so vague and unbelievable his defense lawyers didnt even try to submit them in court. This is an highly unusual step for the defense to take - if Baldwin had given them an alibi that seemed even half decent, his lawyers would have certainly submitted that evidence in trial.
The fact that Jason Baldwin’s lawyers didnt even bother to submit an alibi means only one thing; their client could not provide a single bit of proof he was elsewhere on the night of the murders.
Baldwin’s lawyers were aware that he had no proof of alibi, and they knew the prosecution would use this fact against him during cross examination. So they did the clever thing and did not bring up his alibi at all during the trial.
In the years since the murders, Jason Baldwin has never given an explanation for a lack of alibi nor has he attempted to provide one. His actions on the night of May 5th are therefore a complete mystery. Or are they?
Damien Echols’ alibi claims have been heavily distorted over the years, most notably in 'West of Memphis’ where alibi witness Jennifer Bearden (who was 12 at the time of the murders) claims she was on the phone with Echols all night on May 5th, 1993.
The murders of the three children are widely believed to have occurred between 6:30pm and 8:30pm on May 5th, 1993. Jennifer Bearden’s claim she was on the phone with Echols from 5:30pm to 9:30pm is presented as concrete proof Echols did not commit the murders.
“….she [Bearden] had been on the phone with Damien and Jason during the afternoon after school until about 9:30pm”
- Jennifer Bearden in 'West of Memphis’
In actuality, Damien Echols originally claimed to have talked to FOUR different girls at home between the hours of 4:00pm and 10:30pm on the night of the murders. This immediately contradicts what Jennifer Bearden says in 'West of Memphis’ where she claims ONLY SHE talked to Echols on the phone during the hours in question.
Whats more, Bearden’s statement she reads on camera in 'West of Memphis’ (above) is actually misleading; in the statement she gave to police on the 10th of September, 1993, Bearden states she rang Damien Echols at Jason Baldwin’s house between 4:15pm and 5:30pm, talked to BOTH of them for twenty minutes, before Damien told her to ring him back at 8:00pm because he and Jason were “going somewhere”.
Here is the part of Bearden’s interview with Bryn Ridge where she confirms this, verbatim:
RIDGE: About what time was that call made to Jason’s?
BEARDEN: Between - it had to be somewhere in between 4:15 and 5, something like that….5 or 5:30
RIDGE: Who answered the phone at Jason’s?
RIDGE: And did you talk to Damien?
BEARDEN: Yeah I talked to Jason for five minutes and the (inaudible) with Damien and he wasnt talking because they were playing video games with his little brother Matt
RIDGE: Okay, and after that conversation you had with him?
BEARDEN: He [Echols] said him and Jason were going to go somewhere, him and Jason were going somewhere, and that he, um, wanted me to call him later at his house around 8 and I said okay
RIDGE: Okay, did he say where he was going to go?
The above statement is Jennifer’s own words, transcribed by police four months after the murders. They directly contradict what she says in 'West of Memphis’, where she claims to have talked to Damien UNINTERRUPTED between the hours of 4:15 and 9:30.
Bearden’s interview with Bryn Ridge clearly demonstrates she rang Echols between 4:15-5:30 pm, talked with Echols and Baldwin for twenty minutes, before Echols told her to ring him back at 8:00pm. Furthermore, Bearden’s statement implies Echols was out WITH Jason Baldwin between the time of her first phone call at 4:15pm and the time she rang him back at 8:00pm.
Further down in her police statement, Bearden says she attempted to ring Echols again at 8pm, like he requested, BUT WAS TOLD HE WASNT HOME. Here is the excerpt from that statement, verbatim:
RIDGE: Okay, and when you called back about 8?
BEARDEN: His grandmother said he wasn’t there, and that I was supposed to call back around 9….and I called back around 9:20, 9:30 and I talk to him [Echols] for a little bit, but then I had to get off the phone because I wasn’t supposed to be on the phone after 9:30
Bearden told police in her statement that she rang Damien’s house at 8pm like he asked, but his grandmother (Francis Gosa) told her he wasn’t there. This is a HUGE piece of evidence against Echols. Not only does it prove Echols lied when he told police he was at home all night, but it places him outside his home WITH Jason Baldwin during the crucial hours the murders are believed to have been committed. The murders are thought to have occurred between 6:30pm and 8:30pm, remember? Jennifer Bearden’s statement only covers the time between 4:15pm to 5:30pm and after 9:20pm. She tried to reach Echols’ at 8:00pm, but couldn’t get a hold of him.
Contrary to what is presented in 'West of Memphis’, Damien’s Echols’ whereabouts are unaccounted for between the hours of 5:30pm and 9:20pm. Again, the murders are thought to have happened between 6:30pm and 8:30pm. Jennifer Bearden’s police statement does not support Echols’ claim he was at home all night talking on the phone. His other alibi witnesses - Holly George, Heather Cliett, and Domini Teer - further damage his alibi claims with their own police statements:
1) Holly George
Holly George told police she spoke with Damien Echols around 3:30pm on May 5th, 1993. She only called Echols once that day. Holly also claimed she and Echols engaged in a three-way phone call with Jennifer Bearden, and she only talked to Echols for five minutes.
There are several contradictory details in Holly George’s statement - she claimed to have talked to Damien AND Jennifer via three-way calling, yet Jennifer doesn’t mention a three-way call in her interview. Holly also states she rang Damien around 3:30pm and their conversation didn’t last past 4:00pm, which conflicts with Damien’s assertion he spoke with her much later in the evening.
George also mentions in her statement that she talked to Jennifer Bearden after the murders, who told her that she (Bearden) had spoken with Echols after George rang him, and tried to reach him later that evening but he wasn’t home. Jennifer Bearden confirms this in her own statement (above)
2) Heather Cliett
Heather Cliett is another girl whom Damien Echols claims to have spoken to on the phone on the day of the murders. In statements given to police on June 7th and 8th - immediately after Damien was arrested - Cliett stated that her, Holly George, and Jennifer Bearden had talked on the phone via three-way calling on the night of May 5th. She said Damien only joined the conversation around 10:00pm.
As you can see, Heather Cliett’s version of events are dramatically different from Holly George’s statement and Jennifer Bearden’s statement:
- Holly George claimed she had a three-way phone call only with Damien and Jennifer; she did not say Heather was also present during the three-way conversation.
- Jennifer Bearden does not mention a three-way call at all in her statement, despite two different people claiming she participated in one.
Since all three alibi witnesses - Bearden, George, and Cliett - gave conflicting statements about a three-way call between them and Damien, its impossible to know whether the call actually happened, and who was present if it DID happen. The important thing to note is that Heather Cliett states she talked to Echols AFTER 10:00pm, and did not talk to him before. Cliett’s statement doesn’t support Echols’ assertion he was at home until after 10:00pm.
3) Domini Teer
Domini Teer told prosecutors on the stand she spent the afternoon of May 5th with Damien Echols and Jason Baldwin. Domini was Echols’ pregnant girlfriend at the time.
She told prosecutor John Fogleman that Damien came to her house around 1:00pm on the day of the murders, and the two of them waited for Jason to come home from school, which he did around 3:25pm. Teer then states her, Damien, Jason, and a friend called Ken walked over to Hubert Bartoush’s (Jason’s uncle) house to watch Jason mow the lawns.
Teer tells Fogleman the time they arrived at Jason’s uncles house was around 4:00pm. Here is an excerpt from her testimony, verbatim:
FOGLEMAN: Okay. About what time did ya’ll get to his uncles?
TEER: Um….4 o'clock, something like that
FOGLEMAN: 4 or 4:15, something like that?
TEER: yeah, it was around there.
Domini told Fogleman after she, Damien, and Ken arrived at Jason’s uncles house at around 4:00pm, the three of them watched Jason mow the lawn.
Domini Teer’s testimony on the stand conflicts with Jennifer Bearden’s statements to police - remember, Jennifer told police she spoke to Damien AND Jason on the phone between 4:15pm and 5:30pm that day. Domini, however, told a prosecutor that she, Damien, Jason, and another friend went to an uncles house to mow the lawn, and they arrived there around 4:00pm- 4:15pm.
Damien cant of been on the phone with Bearden and travelling to Jason’s uncles house with Domini at the same time. One of the girls is either lying or mistaken about the times they were in contact with Damien.
Domini Teer also stated in court that after she and Echols watched Jason mow the lawns, she and Damien was picked up by his mother around 5:00pm. Damien’s mother dropped her home around 5:30pm, and the two didn’t speak again that night until 10:00pm when Damien rang her on the phone.
Domini Teer’s testimony only covers Echols’ whereabouts for the hours between 1:00pm and 5:30pm, and after 10:00pm on the night of May 5th. Her testimony clashes with the statement of Heather Cliett who also claimed to have talked to Echols around 10:00pm.
The testimony of Damien Echols’ alibi witnesses makes for confusing reading, as all four of them contradict his claim he was home all night, and with none of the statements actually providing him with an alibi: when compared together, not a single one of Damien’s four witnesses can vouch for his whereabouts for the hours between 5:30pm and 9:20pm on the day of the murder.
A lack of alibi in itself is not irrefutable proof of guilt. But when you consider the fact NONE of the three accused had a solid alibi, as well as the evidence that suggest at least two of the accused- Echols and Baldwin - were together walking around during the hours in question, it begs the question: where exactly were they? What were they doing? Why couldnt a single one of their witnesses verify their claims?
head cannon request ^^ what if MC ran away from home for almost a week because she was out looking for a special present for the RFA+V+Unknown? If one of you do answer thank you!!! ^^
okay im not sure if it was run away from like their parents or s/o so i picked s/o
MOD SAERAN HERE :D ( i am so sorry anon for not responding quickly enough to your HC but here i am :D FORGIVE ME PLEASE)
*WARNING NO NO WORDS LIKE BAD WORDS*
YALL ARE TRYING TO KILL THESE POOR MEN LOL
recently, he has seen you using your computer lately and when he asks you why are you on it so much…. you just tell him…. the words he hate hearing….. NOTHING…
he tries not to flip out but he thinks you are hiding something
he is not thinking you are cheating but he knows you are up to something
its been bugging his mind lately….wondering what were you doing….what called your attention so much….to that DAMN computer…
he had two choices 1) Hack or 2) have a conversation with you
he wanted to chose 1 but he knows better he gotta chose 2
next day he finally asked you about it and you said that you couldn't tell him
YOU COULDN'T TELL HIM
HE FLIPPED OUT
he was wondering why were you hiding it so much
he just lost it
MC WHAT ARE YOU HIDING FROM ME GODDAMIT YOU TOLD ME NO SECRETS
NO MATTER WHAT
YOU ARE SUCH A HYPOCRITE
HE STORMED OFF
YOU WISHED YOU COULD TELL HIM BUT IT WOULD RUIN EVERYTHING YOU WORKED HARD FOR
IT DIDNT HELP THAT…… YOUR FLIGHT LEFT IN 6 HOURS…..OH BOY…….. *DRAMAAAAA*
YOU LEFT A NOTE AND YOU WASHED YOUR HANDS AND ACCIDENTALLY LEFT SOME WATER ON THE NOTE BUT YOU DIDNT CARE YOU WERE IN A HURRY
BUT YOU DIDNT KNOW THE WATER SMUDGED THE INK BADLY
YOU GRABBED YOUR SUITCASE AND SMALL BAG AND LEFT
HOPING HE WOULD UNDERSTAND YOUR NOTE AND THAT EVERYTHING WOULD BE OKAY WHEN YOU GOT HOME
YOU KNEW YOU HAD TO LEAVE NOW BEFORE SAEYOUNG COMES HOME AND STARTS ASKING ALL DEM QUESTIONS
YOU CALLED THE CAB AND LEFT
FUCK HOW LONG HAVE I BEEN IN HERE
YOU STARED AT THE CLOCK AND ITS BEEN 10 HOURS
WOW I SLEPT FOR A LONG TIME AND YOU NOTICE MC WASNT IN YOUR SHARED BEDROOM
FUCK FUCK FUCK
I AM RIGHT >:o
SHE IS WRONG >:O
BUT YOU KNEW YOU HAD TO APOLOGIZE FOR BEING SO DRAMATIC
YOU SHOULD BE TRUSTING MC
YOU LEFT THE BEDROOM AND SAW SHE WASNT THERE
YOU HEARD MOVEMENTS IN THE KITCHEN AND YOUR EYES WERE STARTING TO GET TEARY EYED
YOU WALKED IN THE KITCHEN AND SAW HER BROWN KNITTED SWEATER AND YOU JUST STARTED TO BAWL YOUR EYES OUT
MC I AM SO SOORRRRRRYYYY I SHOULDNT OF SNAPPED AT YOU LIKE THAT
YOUR EYES WERE CLOSED
YOU SMELLED HER COMING NEAR YOU IN A HUG
WHEN DID MC GET SO FLAT CHESTED
YOU SWEAR SHE HAD GOOD SIZE TITS
YOU KNEW FOR A FACT THAT MC WAS SHORTER THAN YOU
WHY ARE WE SIMILAR HEIGHT NOW
WHAT THE HELL I- OH DEAR GOD PLEASE DONT LET IT BE
*OPEN EYES AND SEES*
IDIOOOOOTTT BROTHER WHY ARE YOU WARING MCS CLOTHES EVEN WITH A WIG
BECAUSE I-I-I I CAN :D SHE ALWAYS SEEM SO COMFORTABLE IN THESE SWEATERS SO I DECIDED TO TRY IT ON I HAD TO STRETCH IT A BIT BUT I KNOW SHE WOULDNT MIND
YOU WALKED AWAY
SAERAN WHERE ARE YOU GOOOIIIINNNGGGG
I NEED TO FIND MC WE GOT IN A FIGHT
SHE ISNT IN THE BLACONY?
NO LET ME CHECK
WA–IT SAERAN WAIT
THERES A NOTE HERE
SAEYOUNGS FACE WENT BLANK
YOU GRABBED THE NOTE AND READ
SORRY SAERAN GOOD BYE
YOU SAW HER TEARS AND SMUDGE INK
YOU DONE IT NOW
YOU BROKE DOWN CRYING
YOU WAITED BY THE DOOR FOR 2 DAYS AND NOTHING
YOU BARELY SLEPT
IF YOU DID IT WAS IN THE SHOWER
YOU DIDNT EVEN WANT TO EAT
NOT EVEN ICE CREAM
SAEYOUNG MADE YOU EAT SOMETHING LIKE CRACKERS
HE WAS WORRIED
YOU DIDNT CARE YOU MADE MC RAN AWAY FROM YOU
YOU WERE A MONSTER
4 DAYS HAVE PASSED SINCE SHE LEFT
SAEYOUNG SAT NEXT TO YOU AND PUT ON THE TV
IT WAS A BEN N JERRY COMMERICAL ANNOUNCING ITS NEW ICE CREAM FLAVOR BUT IT WAS A SECRET
THEY WOULDNT ANNOUNCE IT TILL 3 MORE DAYS
YOU KNEW YOU WOULD OF BEEN HAPPY BECAUSE BEN N JERRY IS YOUR LIFE
BUT YOUR REAL LIFE LEFT YOU
YOU MADE HER RAN AWAY FROM YOU
6 DAYS HAVE PAST AND YET NO MC
YOU AND YOUR BROTHER TRIED FINDING HER LOCATION WITH HER PHONE BUT YALL DIDNT GET NOTHING
SAEYOUNG VOWED TO KEEP WORKING ON IT
YOU LOVED YOUR BROTHER FOR THAT
FOR ALWAYS BEING YOUR ROCK
YOU COULDNT HANDLE IT NO MORE
YOU WENT FOR THE LIQUOR BUT THERE WAS NONE
SAEYOUNG LOOKED AT YOU AND SHAKED HIS HEAD
FUCK, HE EMPTY EVERYTHING OUT
YOU JUST SAT BACK AT THE COUCH AND STARED AT THE DOOR
7 DAYS HAVE PAST SEEN M-
YOU HEAR DOORS BEING SLAMMED SHUT OUTSIDE
SAEYOUNG LIFTED UP HIS HEAD
SAERAN HEARD YOUR VOICE ANSWERING THE QUESTIONS TO OPEN THE DOOR
ONCE HE SAW IT WAS YOU HE RAN TO YOU AND CRIED AND FELL TO HIS KNEES CRYING
YOU PICKED HIM UP AND ASKED HIM IT WAS OKAY THAT YOU UNDERSTAND WHY HE WAS MAD
YOU TOLD HIM: READY FOR YOUR SURPRISE
HE WAS ????????????
THEN YOU WERE ????????
SAEYOUNG WAS ??????????!!!!!!!!!!!!???????????
AND THEN YOU MENTION THE NOTE
SAEYOUNG HANDED YOU THE NOTE AND SAW THE WATER SMUDGED EVERYTHING
YOU TOLD HIM YOU SAID IN THE NOTE
I UNDERSTAND WHY YOU GOT MADE SAERAN IM SORRY FOR NOT BEING ABLE TO TELL YOU BUT ITS A SURPRISE I HAVE TO LEAVE FOR A WEEK SORRY SAERAN GOODBYE
YOU TOLD HIM YOU WASHED YOUR HANDS
HE ASKED WHAT WAS THE SURPRISED THEN SINCE HE WAS SHOOK
YOU TOOK HIM AND SAEYOUNG TO THE TV AND TURNED IT ON AND BAM THERE WAS THE ANNOUNCMENT
BEN N JERRY: HELLOOOO EVERYONE HERE IS OUR NEW FLAVOR: SAERAN’S CHOCOLATE CHUNKY PECAN ICE CREAM
HIS TWO FAVES
HE FUCKING DIED
HE JUST FAINTED
YOU HELPED HIM UP AND GIGGLE
YOU TWO SHOWERED TOGETHER AND SAEYOUNG LEFT THE HOUSE TO GO SEE ELLY brother award over here for knowing when to leave HIS OWN HOME
you and Jaehee have been together for merely 2 months but yet it felt like forever because yall enjoyed each other’s company and love
but lately jaehee has been really stressed because her favorite coffee beans just disappeared from where she always put them
she isnt saying that you misplace them or used them
she questions you almost everyday
you guys use to wake up and cuddled while drinking coffee
but now the coffee mysteriously disappeared
she doesnt spend mornings with you any more
when you wake up
you find that she always leaves a note saying she went to work early
you know she needs coffee to get her thru the day
but you didnt take or misplaced her coffee beans
you always try telling you that but she just keeps quiet not wanting to start an argument
but her being quiet just pushes you to the edge
you just tell her to shout at you to say what she is thinking
all she says “ its better for me not to”
she walked away from you
you knew you had to fix this
you grabbed your phone and looked for plane tickets for Ethiopia
you just shaked your head and wrote on the same note she writes on saying take care
you didnt wrote anything else because you were mad
and also it was only suppose to be a short trip
so you left
if only MC confesses that she knows where my coffee beans are
we can go back to normal
i cant believe im acting so childish just for coffee
i need to call Mr. Han and let him know that I need to take the day off
Hello Assistant Ka-
you were screaming
you dropped your phone
and screamed and cried when you saw the note
she left you
you deserved it
for making the coffee beans a problem in your relationship
perhaps MC really didnt know where your beans are
what did i do
i lost everything now
she fell on the floor and cried
10 mins later Jumin body gaurds came rushing in and knocked her door down
*ALPHA 1 TO ALPHA 2 COAST IS CLEAR*
*COPY THAT ALPHA 1 EAGLE IS READY TO FLY*
Jumin walked in looking at you like -.-
i thought there was a robber …..you startled me
wow thanks for saving me *sarcastically*
you’re welcome, now what seems to be the problem
she left me Mr.Han ….. *throws he note to his feet*
*a guard picked it up for him*
you can have the week off assistant kang and *looks at body gaurd* please hand me all my personal stash
RIGHT AWAY SIR *COMES BACK 10 SECONDS LATER* HERE YOU GO SIR
jaehee, *hands 30 bottles of imported wine* ill come by and join with you after i sign a few documents… please dont do nothing reckless
ill leave two of my men here see you later
right when he left
you opened the wine
when he came back after to check up on you
4 bottles were already done
he felt sorry for you and wondered why did you left her
where did you go
where did you stay ?
he went to everyones house and you werent there
saeran and saeyoung double team to find you.. but your phone was turned off
they worked day in a day out
jaehee…. well she was gone
she didnt want to eat
she threw away some of zens musicals because they reminded her of you
she cried herself to sleep every night
by her 6th night
one of jumins guard felt bad for you
and decided to make you a sandwich
you ate it with wine :/
she proceeded to cry herself to sleep again
she woke up that morning hearing Zen and Jumin screaming
she lifted her head up and heard Saerans voice yelling at them back
and then you heard a females voice
you wobbled into the room
and you saw her
you saw the whole situation unfold
Zen: WHAT DO YOU MEAN YOU FOUND HER THE 4TH FUCKING DAY SHE LEFT
Jumin: I EXPECTED THIS FROM SAEYOUNG BUT NOT YOU AS WELL SAERAN JESUS MAN
Saeran: SHE GAVE ME AND SAEYOUNG HER REASON WHY SHE LEFT AND WE SYMPATHIZE WITH HER SOMETHING THAT YOU DONT EVEN KNOW HOW TO DO
Jumin: say that again *he got closer* i dare you *he looked down at saeran
Saeran: *he looked into jumins eyes not afraid of facing someone taller than him* you better watch what you say rich boy money cant buy you out of this
MC: *she went between saeran and jumin and grabbed saeran by his shoulders and was gaurding him*
Saeyoung: *went infront of saeran and you*
Saeyoung: dont you dare do something that you will regret Jumin. MC told you her reason when we picked her up
Zen: * he went closer to Jumin* I agree with Jumin! MC THAT WAS RECKLESS OF YOU TO DO THAT YOU COULD OF BEEN HURT OR ANYTHING IF YOU REALLY WANTED THAT THING YOU COULD OF ASKED JUMIN BUT NO “HEAT OF THE MOMENT” GOT TO YOU (HE SHOUTED)
Saeran: DONT YOU DARE SHOUT AT HER ZEN BEFORE I MESS UP THAT FACE AND THE LITTLE CAREER YOU HAD WILL GO DOWN THE DRAIN
MC: *went to the middle* (jaehee saw she had brusies all over her arms and a cut on her cheek… she gasphed softly)EVERYONE STOP IT WAS MY CHOICE AND SAERAN AND SAEYOUNG RESPECTED MY WISHES AND UNDERSTOOD. JUMIN AND ZEN. I UNDERSTAND YOU GUYS FREAKED OUT BECAUSE I DIDNT EAT PROPERLY AND ALMOST FELL DOWN A CLIFF. BUT I NEEDED TO GET PURE ETHIOPIA BEANS FOR JAEHEE CAUSE THAT IS HER FAVORITE COFFEE BEANS IN THE WHOLE ENTIRE WORLD. SHE NEVER OWNED A FULL FREAKING BAG. IT WAS MY CHOICE PLEASE JUMIN AND ZEN RESPECT IT.
JUMIN: OKAY FINE. WHATEVER MC. BUT ONCE YOU GIVE THE BEANS TO JAEHEE W-
ZEN INTERRUPTED: WE ARE TAKING YOU TO THE FREAKING HOSPITAL ALL OF US OKAY TO MAKE SURE YOU ARE OKAY AND I SWEAR IF I FIND OUT THAT YOU SKIPPED MEAL
JUMIN FUCKING LOST IT: MC MC MC TELL ME DIDNT YOU SKIP A MEAL JESUS CHRIST WOMEN HAVE YOU GONE MAD. YOU NEED A WELL BALANCED NUTRITIOUS MEA-
SAERAN: JESUS CHRIST SHUUUUTT THE FUCCCCCCCC-
JAEHEE: EVERYONE SHUT THE FUCK UP
MC: jaehee i i-
jaehee runned to you and cried
you tried giving her the beans
but she pushed it away
Jumin: *whispered softly and sarcastically to zen* women almost died and all she does is push away the beans
Saeran and Saeyoung just stared down jumin and proceeded to wait outside
yall went to the hospital
they found you you skipped many meals
jumin and zen went insanse
saeyoung and saeran were trying to calm them down
yoosung came in crying
cause no one told him anything
jaehee just laid down with you happy that you are okay
she went to her car to take out a blanket so she can spend the night at the hospital with you
she picked up the blanket and found the beans
she left the beans behind
she cried in her car
V had this habit of leaving his camera everywhere because
1) he is use to having it everywhere just in case he got inspiration
2) he is use to living alone now so he keeps forgetting that you keep telling him to stop living it everywhere
that it must be in a secure place before it gets damage
he just chuckles but
yall dont understand
he lives and breathes for that camera
like it was his first expensive camera
and he has an emotional attachment to that camera
one day he left the camera under your pillow
why is it there
well he got inspiration to take a picture of when you were sleeping cause he thought you were so beautiful
he left it on your side by accident
so when you got home tired from work and answering emails for party guest
MC WHAT IS IT ARE YOU HURT WAIT IS THAT A BAND AID
HIS FACE HAD NO EXPRESSION
BUT YOU SAW HOW HIS BEAUTIFUL EYES TURNED 3 SHADES DARKER
YOU SAW TEARS FORMING
HIS JAW CLENCHED
GET OUT he hissed
MC GET OUT OF MY APARTMENT
V IM SORRY I CAN HELP REP-
RIKA GAVE ME THAT CAMERA MC. YOU CANT REPLACE WHAT SHE GAVE ME. NOW GEEETTT OUUUUUTTTTT
you were crying
you went to yoosungs house
you knocked on his door
HEY MC WHY ARE YOU CRYING WHAT DID V DO
YOU JUST CRIED
THIS SMOL BEAN CRIED WITH YOU
HE STOPPED PLAYING LOL SO HE CAN TAKE CARE OF YOU
WHEN YOU TOLD HIM WHAT V SAID
BEAN WAS MAD
HE WAS A CRYING MAD BEAN
HE WAS READY TO KICK V’S ASS
HE WAS READY TO KICK EVERYONES ASS
EVEN HIS OWN
yoosung let you sleep on his bed and he took the couch
you couldnt help but feel so guilty
you looked at your bank account and transferred money from your savings to checking
around 3:00 am you left yoosungs house
you left him a note you made your way to the airport
with just the clothes on your back and tears on your face
i hate v so much
i cant believe he thought he was special enough to call him himself after a letter
ima kick his asss how dare he hurt MC
you know what
everyone deserves to kick V’s ass
he message the RFA at 7:09am
they all showed up at 7:13 am
jaehee was sent to see how you were doing since she is a female and who knows how you were
but lord jesus christ
papa zen was fuming
he was ready to kill fucking v
like he was mad
jumin tried to calm him down but he couldnt
they heard sobbing
they all ran
it was jaehee crying
they didnt see you there but a note and your phone
ZEN AND YOOSUNG LEFT THE FUCKING HOUSE
YOOSUNG ASKED IF HE CAN SHARE A RIDE WITH ZEN
ZEN SAID FUCK IT HOLD ON TO YOURSELF
THEY LEFT TO V
jumin directed everyone to go to his limo
jumin picked up the phone and note
he was the last one to read the note
“it seems that Rika’s prescence will always be more powerful than mine….especially with you V and the RFA. Yoosung thank you so much for everything…. I am going somwhere and please dont try to find me….. I need to make things right even if it kills me… I love you guys…Zen, Jumin,Jaehee, you, Saeyoung, Saeran, Elizabeth 3rd, and V… bye everyone”
jumin heart ache
he needed to hear the whole story
he clenched your phone and felt that it was wett from your tears
ESPECIALLY CAUSE SHE PUT ELIZABETH 3RD
driver kim caught up to zen and past him and zen just drove faster
yall got to v’s place and yoosung was so mad that he made a dent in V’s door
yoosung just charged in and he got on top of V
and he started to punch him
and V was trying to get the monkey off
but then saeyoung and saeran got him off
jumin then punched him
zen kicked him
jaehee was about to slap him but she didnt
saeran was about to go
but everyone knows saeran can kill a man
they hold saeran back xD
V got up and he was drunk as fuck
Yoosung got pist and screamed she left she left
and he said
i told her to leave
JUMIN WENT TO HIM AND PUSHED HIM AGAINST THE WALL GRABBED HIS SHIRT AND LOOKED INTO HIS EYES AND SAID
WHAT DID YOU DO TO MC
SHE BROKE MY CAMERA JUUMIIIAAAN SHE BROOKKEEE ITT
ITS JUST A FUCKING CAMERA
BUT RIKKAAHHHH GAVE IT TO M-
SAERAN: FUCK RIKA (IN THIS MOMENT THE WHOLE MYSTIC MESSENGER FANDOM AGREED WITH SAERAN)
SAEYOUNG:WE NEED TO CLEAN HIM UP AND STAY HERE TO WATCH HIM I HAVE A FEELING HE IS GONNA LOSE IT WHEN WE TELL HIM
TELL ME WHAT - V SAID
JAEHEE: THAT THAT M-
ZEN: MC LEFT BECAUSE OF YOU
JUMIN: SHE LEFT A NOTE AND HER PHONE… SHES GONE
V VOMITTED ALL OVER JUMIN
JUMIN WAS PIST
HE BOUGHT EVERYONE CLOTHES TO STAY WITH V
HE EVEN BOUGH T INFLATABLE MATTRESSES
SAERAN AND SAEYOUNG WENT TO THEIR HOME AND BROUGHT BACK THE EQUIPMENT THEY NEEDED TO FIND MC
V WAS MORE STABLE
HE SAW THE WHOLE RFA IN HIS HOUSE
EVEN ELIZABETH 3RD
HE ASKED WHY THEY WERE THERE
YOOSUNG JUST KILLED HIM WITH HIS GLARE
UM WHAT IS GOING ON EVERYONE-V
JUMIN GOT UP AND WENT TO HIM
DO YOU NOT REMEMBER THE FIGHT YOU HAD WITH MC
SHIT MY CAMERA I NEED TO FIND HER JUMIN WHERE IS SHE STAYING
SAERAN: WE DONT KNOW SHE FLED THE COUNTRY
FOR THE REST OF THE DAYS THE RFA HAD TO TAKE CARE OF V
ITS BEEN 6 PAINFUL LONG DAYS
BUT JUMIN NOTICED SAERAN AND SAEYOUNG TALKING
THEY KEPT LOOKING AT SAEYOUNGS SCREEN AND SAERAN SHAKED HIS HEAD
JUMIN: HAVE YOU FOUND HER
SAERAN: UM WELL UM
SAEYOUNG: WE FOUND TRACES OF HER IN THE UNITED STATES BUT WE ARE NOT SURE IF SHE IS STAYING OR WHAT SHE IS DOING
JUMIN: WHAT STATES
SAERAN: CALIFORNIA AND SUPPOSEDLY SHE WENT TO ALASKA FIRST
YOOSUNG: THATS WHERE RIKA IS
ZEN: JESUS CHRIST WHERE DID SHE WENT FIRST ALSAKA OR CALIFORNIA
SAEYOUNG: WE ARE TRYING TO FIGURE IT OUT ITS LIKE SHE KNEW WE WERE GONNA TRACK HER AND SHE JUST SO
V: I I DESTROYED HER I I CAN-T
V STARTED TO CRY AND JAEHEE TOOK HIM TO LAY DOWN
ZEN: JUMIN DO YOU THINK SHE WILL EVER COME BACK
JUMIN WENT TO GO LOOK OUTSIDE THE WINDOW: -heavy sigh- i i just dont know
Yoosung over heard and he felt bad…badthat his cousin is still causing pain…..
they all went to bed in the living room
shit even V he slept on the couch
everyone was thinking about MC
and remembering how they always brought up RIka
damn they all felt guilt
saeyoung: -whipser- brother are are you getting the same signal
saeran: mc is back *whisper*
Jumin woke up so quickly when he heard them say that
saeran: my records say that she was at the airport
saeyoung: yeah i thinnk she just arrived There
jumin: access the camera scans now
saeran: already have it here look i think thats her
saeyoung: but but if it is here then why does she have a big bandage on her shoulder
jumin: fuck, we are keeping this private till we know her every move got it
saeran: i dont work for you
jumin pulls out his check book and writes 3,000,000 USD
saeran: you got it boss
saeyoung: WHAT ABOUT ME
jumin: *grabs elizabeth 3rd and hands it to him* only for 1 hour
ELizabeth 3rd ran to the door and meowed
Saeran smirked and ran to the door
saeyoung: WTF HOW DID YOU KNOW SAERAN
saeran: ive been tracking MC for a while already you are just….slower
MC: hello everyone
saeran patted your shoulder and looked at your bondage
jumin got teary eyed
v v was sobbing and went crawling to you on your knees
you helped him get up and hugged him
you were hugging him while people ask you questions
what happen to your shoulder ?
Oh ummm im guessing one of the twins must of mention i was in alaska to see rika and ummm she toook the surprise visit not well and she got a knife and almost stab me with it *v hugged tighter* but she just slashed me
im sorry i shouldnt of said anything about rika i know rika means a-
you let go of V and got him the most expensive camera in the world and you said sorry and he just hugged you and promise to love you and never let you go and he said sorry then everyone came in for a group hug
remember the space station that he promise to marry you in
yeah it never happened
the beginning of yalls relationship was perfect
but ever since you accidentally destroyed the hard drive that contain all of saerans baby pictures
couldnt stand looking at you anymore
sex felt like it was a routine
he didnt make you feel pretty anymore
one day she was bought a new dress she asked saeyoung and saeran what they thought of it
MC: so what do you guys think?
Saeran: you look beautiful MC ! wow my brother is lucky to have you
saeyoung: you really think so ?
saeran: yeah MC looks amazing ! I wish i can heal faster and i can love someone the way you love MC awkward
he didnt know okay
he thought yall ere going thru a dry spell
MC: thats so sweet of you saeran!
saeyoung: if you really think she is beautiful you can have her. She not useful for me anymore
saeran: dude what the fuck is wrong with you
MC: saeyoung its been months i said im sorry !!!!! okay im sorrry !!!! (goes on knees) please forgive me saeyoung please!!!
Saeran:MC what happened
Saeyoung: ITS NONE OF YOUR BUSINESS
MC: I WAS CLEANING HIS DESK AND I ACCIDENTALLY SPILLED THE DR.PEPPER HE HAD ON HIS DESK AND IT SPILLED ON THE HARD DRIVE THAT HAD YOUR PICTURES SAERAN *SOBS UNCONTROLLABLY*
Saeran: are you seriously mad at her because of that brother!? you have me here now and its best to forget the past
Saeyoung: BUT THOSE PICTURES MEANS A LOT TO ME IT REMINDS ME OF HOW FAR WE CAME AND SHE FUCKING RUINED IT
mc ran to the guest bedroom
you heard saeran and saeyoung arguing some more and then an hour later you heard a door knock
it was saeran
you opened the door
he just hugged you and closed the door
you cried and cried and cried
he held you in his arms like a protective brother
he was saying sorry for his brothers actions
you told him no
you told him it was your fault
he literally told him everything
from how he treated you to how you felt like sex was a chore to how he wouldnt even pay attention to you anymore
he saw how broken you were
he didnt know what to do
he remember when he was having episodes you just hugged him
so he did the same thing for you as you did for him for months
saeran offered you saying that the both of you can sleep in the living room together so you wouldnt be alone
he felt awkward sleeping with you in closed bedrooms… especially noq
he knew saeyoung wouldnt say anything
but saeyoung was different now
you declined saying you would like to cry yourself to sleep without anyone watching
he left and went to his room and cried
cried because he knows how it feels to cry yourself to sleep
he had to help fix this
he went to saeyoungs bedroom and knocked
he saw his brother on his computer doing coding
saeran shut down his laptop
saeyoung: i was in the middle of work
saeran: congrats now whats wrong
saeyoung: shes useless i dont love her
saeran: i know you better than that im not stupid tell me whats wrong why does it bother you that the pictures are erased now
saeyoung: cause that was the only thing that gave me purpose in life back then brother i thought you were actually happy and it made me feel at peace whenever im stressed now i look at the pcitures of you and MC and i feel at peace but she fucked it up
saeran: brother she didnt it was an accident im not mad that the pictures are gone
saeyoung: your not ? how come
saeran: i have my new family now and i prefer this than that
saeyoung: can i hug you?
saeran: one arm hug thats it
saeyoung give him a two arm hug and saeran returned it
he made a promise to god and saeran that he was going to fix everything with MC and he was going to spend the rest of his life apologizing to her
saeran got up
it was around 3:42am
he was thirsty and decided to go to the kitchen
he decided to go by the guest room and see if you were okay
he knocked gently
he knocked again
he was about to open the door but it was already ajar
he saw the bed freshly made
he heard the taxi honk
shit MC is making a run for it
he ran to the door and opened it and he saw you ready to leave them
MC PLEASE DONT THINK ABOUT THIS !MY BROTHER IS AN IDIOT PLEASE MC NO
he fell to his knees but he got up and was running after you
you turned around and
mouthed im sorry
he screeched his brothers name
his brother ran to saeran
he saw you leaving off with the taxi he memorized the number of the plate before he fell to his knees
he was screaming your name
they both were
they were two broken men that you left behind
but you didnt see saeyoung crying his heart out
you didnt see him pounding the cement
you didnt see his brother running his fingers thru his hair
you didnt see any of it
i fucking lost her
i pushed her away
its all my fault i dont deserve to live
i felt my brother hug me
he was shaking
he was crying
i got a flashback of how he did the exact same motion whenever our mom was about hit us
my brother was scared he was going to relapse because MC helped saeran out so much
she saw him as his brother
she helped me
keep me sane
she helped me loved life
she let me be happy
i destoyed the love of my life
i destroyed the light that keep this family going
after all she is my furture wife
and she is saerans sister
i shook saeran off me
saeran: w-ww–ee ne-need t-to fi-find h-her
i dragged my brother to our desk
we cleaned all paper work
and got ready
to find MC
i inputed the license plate number while saeran access every single camera within the 50 mile radius
we putthe cameras on the big screen *the wall*
and looked to see if we could see the cab
we found it
it was nearby the train station shit
i got the keys to my fastest car
and i got in the dirver seat and saeran got in the passenger seat
to get to the train station by car takes 45 mins
we got there in 15
saeran was doing everything he can to stall the train station from departing and he was successful
we were two crazy men yelling out MC name throught the station
we barged thru and checked every train cart she wasnt there
we lost her
we lost our fire
i lost my life
for 6 days straight me and saeran were looking at every possible country city looking for MC
we never found her
we were both losing our selves
i started to hate myself
saeran was hating me but was trying to control his emotions
i wanted to die
i cant be in this world without MC
my brother knew what i was thinking and searched harder
somehow we both fell asleep
until i heard an angelic voice saying me and my brothers name
it was MC
i screamed and woke my brother up
he thought he was hallucinating
i thought so as well
saeyoung: i think im seeing her
saeran: have we gone mad
MC: no its me im sorry guys i jus-
i went over to her and picked her up and kissed her
i put her down so saeran can hug her
but he was just on his knees crying
she bent down and hugged him
he was having a break down and i bent down and hugged my family
MC got up and my heart stopped
was she going to tell me she is going to leave us for good
she got something out of her purse and went to the computer and inputed a USB drive
it had all the pictures that was on the file that she accidentally broke
it had more pictures of us
and then it went to her and saeran
where they went to little trip while i was at work
and then it was the RFA
then the second to last paicture was all of us a family photo with the rfa
the last picture was her smiling in the middle between me and saeran
he was smiling in the photo
i broke down and hugged her
she told us she went to her grandfather in japan and he fixed everything and modernized it a bit and she decided to add more photos
i spent the rest of my life makin git up to her
we had the space ship wedding just like i wanted no
what we wanted
you guys rarely and i mean RARELY get into arguments
you guys understand each other
love each other
respect each others boundaries
but not every relationship can be picture perfect
one day you two were playing LOL together
he loved that you actually took interest into something he liked because he made his life a bit better
but he knew that he had to do something you likes
and guess what you liked
THE FREAKING GYM *WHICH IS NOT ME LOL I RATHER BE AT HOME AND RELAX AND EAT CHIPS
so yoosung was actually getting into decent shape
zen was lowkey jealous because people were starting to notice yoosung more LOL
so one day you decided that you needed to workout alone and yoosung was fine cause he wanted to defeat a level
but then you started to out more and more on your own
the reason for that is because you were enrolled in a insanity workout class and you knew yoosung couldnt handle it
he confronted you because he is a worried bean and you showed him some videos and he just cried
cried because you KNEW HIM SO WELL
one day you came home all sweaty and tired and you notice that yoosung wasnt home
you threw your gym bag aiming for the couch but you accidentally hit yoosungs limited edition LOL ACTION FIGURE
YOU WERE CRYING
YOU WENT TO IT TO TRY AND FIX IT
BUT ITS HEAD IS MISSING
THE LEG IS ALL CRACKED SIDEWAYS
IF THE ACTION FIGURE WAS A REAL PERSON BEST BELIEVE IT WOULDNT EVEN BE ALIVE ANY MORE
YOU WERE A NERVOUS WRECK
you got the figure together and put it inside a shoe box
you took a shower and put on some comfortable clothes because you had to tell yoosung
yoosung came home pretty late because he was at the library studying
“MC!!!! HOONEEEEY IM HOOME”
aaaaaaaa the sweetness of his voice c:
it sounds so beautiiful
but yet you knew you were going to be the destroyer
shit where he goes EVERYTHING
its time to break this mans heart
you breathed heavily and entered the living room
you saw him going crazy
“ 1…..2…..3.3……4….WHERE IS NUMBER 5 WHERE IS ACTION FIGURE NUMBER 5 I PLACED IT RIGHT HERE HOLLY SPAGHETTI”
fuck how were you going to do this
“um yoosung ….. sweetie…. are you okay”
“MC I AM MISSING NUMBER 5 YOU KNOW THE PURPLE ONE”
“ baby please sit do-”
“HOW CAN I SIT DOWN IN A TIME LIKE THIS”
“YOOSUNG PLEASE PAY ATTENTION TO ME”
he sat down and started to cry
“ what is it MC”
“ yoosung i came home from my insasnity workout and my bag hit figure number 5 im sorry yoosung it wasnt on purpose i just thought it was gonna flop onto the couch”
THIS POOR CHILD BURSTED OUT CRYING HE JUST CRIED
you tried to console him but you he kept pushing you away from him
he didnt eat dinner that night
he slept in the same bed as you but you heard him crying himself to sleep
you got onto your phone and looked for a place where they sold the toy
NO ONE HAD IT OKAY THATS HOW LIMITED EDITION HIS FIGURE WAS
you grew desperate
you left the bed silently and went to to the computer and logged onto LOL
you put on the head set and the majority of your and his members were logged on
“OH MY GOD ITS OUR LEADER HELLO LEADER”
“GUYS THIS IS AN EMERGENCY”
you told them everything
“okay guys i need the biggest favor ever…. if anyone has an extra figure of that i am willing to pay big money”
the chatroom grew quiet
you started to cry
then this one player
“leader MC i live in Alaska and i have one extra of the figure but you see its really hard to ship things from here so you would have to come to my place to get it”
you gave private message her saying that if she is really willing
you bought the plane ticket and grabbed some clothes *warm ones*
and left to the airport
but you forgot to leave any trace behind that you were going to come back
it was too into the heat of the moment.
my life is over…. its finished
NO DONT TOUCH ME !!
wait no one is touching me
why is MC not touching me did she went to go get water or what
i got up and looked around our bedroom the sun was already up and i checked the alarm and it was 10:31am
jesus christ i overslept
“MC…. where are you YOU ARE SCARING ME”
today is Saturday so there is no gym classes for her today
where is she
i called zen jumin jaehee and……. the letter that shouldn't be mention… THEY ALL HAVENT SEEN MC
god okay maybe she will come home soon
its been 8 hours
she hasnt been here
its time to go to sevens and saerans house
yes C: you heard thru the door
I NEED YOUR HELP
NO MORE HONEY BUDDAH CHIPS BYE
mc is gone
saeran: what happened?
yoosung: shes just gone
saeyoung: what do you mean she just left… you know her better than anyone where is she usually
yoosung: i checked her places and nothing saeyoung she she sh
saeran: oh fuck please do-
yoosung: *BAWLS OUT CRYING*
saeyoung: there there me and MY BROTHER :D
yoosung: PLEASE SAERAN *RUNS AFTER HIM AND TACKLES HIM DOWN* PLEASE HELP ME FIND MC
saeran: *pushes him off* get off me fine just stay in your corner
saeran then went to get water and gummy worms and proceeded to start looking for you
saeyoung was nice enough to to gve you DR. Pepper and honey buddah chips
but you felt like just crying
LIKE YOU WERE CRYING LIKE A BABY
its been 2 whole days of you just crying
saeran was annoyed
saeran was done
you notice saeran making a drink and you saw that saeyoung was a bit worried
saeran: here drink this… all of it
yoosung: why ITS NOT MC
saeran: i will stop looking for her if you dont drink this
yoosung: fine i i ill dr-drink it
2 hours later you fill your body tingling
yoosung: where does the liquor in here ?
yoosung: does saeran choi is gay
saeran: jesus christ just just work already
saeyounug: DOES SAERAN CHO IS GAY LOLOLOLOLOLOLOLO
yoosung: do choi twins is gay ?
saeran: 2 more mins
yoosung: for is um what?
you blanked out
you knocked out
saeyoung: are you sure its not gonna kill him
saeran: yes its just to keep him to shut up for a long time he doesn't let me concentrate
saeyoung: for how long is he gonna sleep for
saeran: 4 days give or take
in the long sleep all you were seeing you life
from being born to now
you were watching a movie of your life
you didnt know how to feel because it SHOWED EVERYTHING
you saw the recent outbreak you did
ouch you hurt MC feeling
oh my god
she probably thought i didnt want her with me anymore
saeran: he is shaking, probably having a bad dream
saeyoung: cant we wake him up/ mc is already on their way here
saeran: idk how to wake him up
saeran: MC is coming i here her cab
saeyoung: oh god
i entered the door and saw saeran throw a blanket over something
what is he doing
saeran: how was alaska ?
mc: it was fine but what are you guys trying to hide from me
saeran: whats in the bag
mc: what are you trying to hide from me
mc: oh my god yoosung
*pushed pass the brothers and saw him sleeping droolings and everything*
MC: WHAT DID YOU GUYS DO
saeran: he NEEDED TO SHUT UP OKAY HE WAS CRYING FOR 2 WHOLE DAYS LIKE DOESNT HE RUN OUT OF TEARS OR SOMETHING JESUS CHRIST HOW DO YOU HANDLE THE CRY BABY
you were screaming for yoosung to wake up and he finally did
MC: THANK GOD YOOSUNG
YOOSUNG: AM I DEAD AM IM SEEING MY ANGEL
MC: *YOU KISSED HIM* IM SO SORRY I BROKE YOUR STATUE YOOSUNG I AM SO SORRY
YOOSUNG: ACTION FIGURE BUT ITS OKAY I I RATHER HAVE YOU THAN THE FIGURE
MC: WHY NOT HAVE BOTH
YOOSUNG: MC IT ITS LIMITED EDITION YOU CANT HAVE B-
* you showed him the figure
yoosung cried even harder
saeran left the house cause he couldnt take it no more
you guys went back home and made up c; and thEn played LOL
for three years you and zen have been happily together but the only problem was that he was always super busy
but you understood because you knew what you were signing up for
what you didn't know is that this beautiful gorgeous man is jealous
like he MUST SHOW IT
he tries so hard to hide to but it is nearly impossible for him to do so
so one day he told you that he has to work over time for a whole week so you logged onto the chatroom and everyone else was keeping you company
many of the RFA members took you out to to dinner or you went over their place to hang out
zen knew and he didnt mind because he trust his friends and you
but for some reason
god was out to get him because he noticed during his breaks you talked to jumin more
more and more days has passed and noticed that you were over at jumins place more than the others
jesus christ he is biting his tongue
but he couldnt help it one day
because he logged on the chat room one day and the whole chat room was blowing up
JUMIN FUCKING HAN POSTED A PERFECT SELFIE WITH YOU WEARING CAT EARS WEARING HIS JACKET LAUGHING AND JUMIN WAS LAUGHING AS WELL
IT WAS THE FIRST TIME JUMIN EVER TOOK A NON BLURRY SELFIE
ZEN: Oh hello MC. I see that you are having fun.
MC: BABY!! how is everything!? i bet you are doing an amazing job in your performances
Yoosung: LOOK JUMIN HAN IS SMILING OH MY GOD THE WORLD IS ENDING
saeyoung: LOOOKK HOW ADORABLE MC LOOKS WITH THE CAT EARS ON
Jaehee: MC does look rather nice… i feel odd that Mr. Han is smiling
Jumin: I am laughing because my best friend is making me laugh
Jaehee Kang has left the chatroom
Zen: what did you say jerk
MC: YAAAAY JUMIN DID IT IM SO PROUD OF YOU JUMIN
Saeyoung: I thought i would never live to see the day
Yoosung: that jumin shows some type of
saeyoung: SEEEEE BRRROTHER YOU HAVE HOPE MC PLEASE DO MY BROTHER NEXT
yoosung: wait MC did jumin!!!?????
Zen: Im going to kill you Jumin
MC: SAEYOUNG WORD SHIT RIGHT but ill be happy to show your brother how to show emotion c:
saeyoung: MC SAERAN IS SMILING OH MY GOOOOD YOUR POWERS ARE WORKING
Saeran: :) thank you MC
Saeran has left the chatroom
Zen: my girlfriend will not help no one
MC: zen are you okay why are you being such a grump :(
Jumin: Yes Zen why are you being a so called “grump”
saeyoung : MC YOU ARE CHANGING THE ROBOT
Jumin: It is nice having her as my company, we drink wine talk about our past and praise Elizabeth 3rd
MC: yes babe ~
Zen: Home. Now.
Zen has left the chatroom
Yoosung: what is his problem
Saeyoung: i dont have a good feeling about this
MC: yeah i should go :/
MC has exit the charoom
Jumin has exit the chatroom
I CANT BELIEVE THAT TRUST FUND JERK IS MAKING MOVES ON MY MC
SHE IS MINE NO ONE ELSE
I THOUGHT I WAS SPECIAL ENOUGH TO BE SAVED FROM HER
BUT NOW IS SEE SHE SAVES EVERYBODY
i got home and i saw that the limo driver barely leaving my house
he even got the nerve to send her in one of his fancy limos…. stupid trust fund jerk
when i went inside i swear i can smell him onj her
Zen: hello. Mc.
MC: hi baby whats wrong?
zen: so i see your into fixing everybody is that your new kink?
mc: zen honestly cut it out Jumin is a very good friend of mine and he is helping me out with something so zen stop.
zen: oh what is he helping you with MC huh huh tell me I CAN HANDLE IT MC TELL ME
MC: ZEN DONT FUCKING YELL AT ME BECAUSE YOU ARE FEELING JEALOUS. IM IN LOVE WITH YOU SO STOP IMAGING STUFF HAPPENING BETWEEN ME AND JUMIN. AND WHILE IM AT IT YOU KNOW I LOVE HELPING PEOPLE BECOME A BETTER PERSON YOU KNOW I LOVE HELPING PEOPLE YOU KNOW I LIVE FOR HELPING POOR CREATURES LIKE ANIMALS AND EVERYTHING WHY IS IT SO WRONG FOR WANTING TO HELP SOME BODY BECOME A BETTER PERSON
ZEN: I THOUGHT YOU ONLY DID IT FOR ME
MC: ZEN I PUT MYSELF LAST JUST SO YO CAN BE HAPPY ZEN I LOVED BEING THERE FOR YOU I LOVE BEING YOUR SHOULDER TO CRY ON BUT ITS NOT THE SAMW TYPE OF CARE THAT I GIVE FOR JUMIN THE ONLY THING HE NEEDS IS FOR SOMEONE TO LISTEN TO HIM NOT TO JUDGE HIM THATS IT. MY LOVE, HEART, MIND, SOUL BELONGS TO YOU AND ONLY YOU
* SHE GOT CLOSER AND YOU HATED IT BECAUSE YOU CAN SMELL THE WINE THAT SHE DRANK IN HIS HOME*
ZEN: i honestly dont know how to feel. i smell him on you and MC i dont know what to think. im sorry i gotta go.
MC: zen wait why are you being so irrational i love you im always there for you i get you dont like jumin but it doesnt mean that i have to hate him so much… if only i could tell you…. but i… cant
ZEN: see you tomorrow MC
and i left
ugh i hate that i cant tell him…. i feel like he forgot that his birthday is coming up because of all the stress he is recieving
why do we gotta fight now…
i have to leave sooon.
god why NOOOOW
shoudl i stay
should i go
fuck it i gotta go… he’ll understand once i show him *breathes heavily* its time to go back
*you picked up the phone and called *
Jumin: the jet is ready for you the driver is still around the corner ill be waiting for you inside the jet. see you soon… best friend…
ugh where the fuck am i ?
why am i surrondered by action figures
where are my clothes?
please god please dont tell me i cheated on MC
NOOOO MY JEALOUSY GOT THE EBST OF ME NOOOO I SCREWED IT BIG TIME
fuck i see panties
i see bras??
why am i in a closet full of women clothing
please dont let it be true
please dont let it be true
Zen: heellooooo anyone there
unrecognizable voice: he is awake your problem now
huh? i think i recognize that voice
you hear someone getting closer to the door
fuck who is it shoit
saeyoung: HIYA ZEN HOW ARE YOU :D
zen: what am i doing here !? where are my clothes
saeyoung: well you see you were infront of our door drunk and saeran tried geting you inside the house becaus you were a mess and you started to take of your clothes and dance to the music that was coming from inside your head :D so saeran threw you into my closet :)
zen: jesus christ *gets up and sees his pants in the corner and puts it in with a shirt*
saeran: thank god you are dressed now… please leave my house
zen: yeah dude sorry im leaving
damn i guess i gone drinking
shit i need to go home
*gets home safetly somehow*
ZEN: MCCC BABY IM SORRY I CAME HOME LATE WHERE ARE CHUUUU
you didnt hear shit
huh perhaps she head to work already
when you were eating a protein bar its like everything fucking hit you
SHIT I HAD A FIGHT WITH MC SHIT SHIT SHIT SHIT
you declined every single meeting so you can make up today and spend the day with ehr tomorow
she never showed up that night
you cried yourself to sleep that night
you woke up to yet another day with an empty home
you drank more and more thinking she ran off with jumin
fuck jumin i hate him
MC why did you leave me baby
i fucking loved you so much
im so sorry baby
im sorrry my jealousy ruined us
in another life i would make you stay
so i dont have to say that you were the one that got away
fuck the song is coming into my head
MC just know i love you so much
im sorry im no longer your muse
*continues drinking and smoking for 6 days straight*
MC: hahahahahaah jumin you are hilarious ! Jumin: haha. thank you but i hope zen likes the gift you are going to give him
MC: yes but i feel so guilty because ugh i hope he isnt thinking wrong things…. i feel … i just have a bad feeling about this
Jumin: its okay he is a big boy he can understand.. look MC we are going to land back home
*5 hours later*
jumin: okay we are here ill held back and let you and zen enjoy some time together :)
MC: *hugs him tightly* THANK YOU JUMIN YOU ARE AMAZING THE BESTEST FRIEND IN THE WORLD!
Jumin: okay wow thank you MC i better go ELizaebeth is missing m in the car let me know how he likes it !
okay time to show him his gift
you walked inside the house and saw zen passed out
SHIT ZEN ZEEEEEEN ZEEEEEEENNNN
jumin heard you screaming and crying and he ran inside and called an ambulance and the best doctors in the world
zen woke up three days later to seeing MC Jumin and the rest of the RFA sitting in his hospital room
MC: ZEN SHIT I LOVE YOU OH MY GOD THANK YOU FOR WAKING YOU
zen:what do y-y-you mean waking up
Jumin: me and MC found you passed out and its been 5 days since you lost conscious
MC: i know you probably hate me btut i didnt leave you zen i went with jumin to the states to get you this custom built harley and zen im so SORRY
zen cried and told you that he is sorry and he would never drink that much again
Jumin *this is gonna be short sorry i just really want to get this done*
You and Jumin jesus Christ you and jumin were
AND I MEAN SO HAPPY
THAT HE CAN DIE THAT DIE AND LITERALLY
He treated you like a queen in public and in
private you know ;)
It was almost Christmas and Jumin flew away for business
for almost a month
Jaehee was being amazing and told you he was
getting your Christmas gift abroad
And you ?
Well you wanted to get jumin something nice
Since the both of you had joint accounts
And the account literally had so many comas
You decide that you didn’t want the gift to be
You wanted it to be something meaningful
Something he will remember for the rest of his
So you decided you needed to go back to Costa
Rica to visit family while Jumin was away
So you asked your family for help
TO HELP YOU THINK FOR A GIFT
They were stumped caused everything they mention
he already FUCKING HAD
Pussy (Elizabeth 3rd)
What more does this man need
So you needed to go to a family party
But once you arrived at the party you felt sick
you assumed because you weren’t accustom to the
strong scent of mayo for a long time so you just ignored it
until you vomited all over
you’re family members took you to the hospital
you were relived to find out that it wasn’t nothing
so you decided to fly back early
but when you flew back
Jumin han was crying
He was freaking out because you weren’t there
He crawled to you on his knees and told you
SORRY FOR WHAT JUMIN YOU DIDN’T DO SHIT WRONG MY
He kept crying till you bent down and told him
that you visited your family
He just said he would appreciate a call and you
told him that you were sorry
But then you opened your purse
And gave him a paper
MC YOU WERE SICK WHY DIDN’T YOU TELL ME
Jumin please read the paper you are gonna love
MC YOU WERE SICK JESUS CHRIST DID YOU SKIP A
MEAL MC IT SAID YOU VOMITTED BECAUSEE IT’S A SIDE EFFECT FROM BEING PREGANCT MC
i meant to send this days ago congrats on 800 babes, i have a hc request for kevin/renee brotp because they're my children and a rarepair thank you and goodbye hope youve had pasta recently
oh my,, god,, lindsay this is perfect i love you thank you i’m so excited oh this is gonna be soft as hell
renee likes the quiet. she loves her teammates, she really does, but she finds value in quiet moments. in stillness.
kevin feels like the world is always moving at mach 5, like he’s pushing himself to 200% to keep up.
when the dorms are too loud, and taking a walk just isnt enough to calm restless hands or skin that feels too tight, they both end up at the library.
neither of them know the other does this for years. after all, they don’t always need the quiet solace between shelves at the same time, and they hardly go to the same sections.
but one day kevin is deep in some random tome he found on a dusty old shelf on the 5th floor history section when renee comes around the corner
it’s a little awkward at first, but kevin recognizes the slight shift in her he sometimes sees in andrew, or in neil, so he simply turns back to his book, and leaves her to find her own.
renee has never considered herself close to kevin, has mostly watched him from afar and entrusted him to andrew, but in that moment, she sees why andrew made that deal with him. she sees that kevin may be harsh and insulting at times, but he’s far more perceptive than he lets on.
and kevin may be perceptive at times, but he’s still a bit stunted when it comes to making friends. so when renee begins to actually ask him if he wants to go to the library with her, he’s confused. but he goes anyway because while being alone is nice sometimes, sometimes its nice to be alone and quiet with someone else’s steady presence nearby, because then being alone doesnt fell lonely
their friendship is a quiet one, built on quiet hours at study tables in the library, and exchanging slightly exasperated glances when their friends are being particularly loud or attracting attention
renee is very attentive as a person and friend. she starts picking up kevins favorite tea (or smoothie, in the hotter months) at a campus cafe when she’s coming back from her morning classes to eat and get a head start on any assignments. she catches him in the hallway as he heads out for his afternoon lectures, and hands him the drink with a smile
kevin, of course, doesnt really know how to handle casual gifts from friends so of course he’s like ????
but kevin “gotta whole ass everything ever” day wants to try, because he really appreciates what renee is doing, so he starts making extra food when he makes lunch and leaves a plate with a sticky note on the counter with dan before he leaves and runs into renee in the hallway as usual
renee brings her religious theory readings to kevin to ask him about different historical events she can use to back up her essay points and kevin just gets so excited that she just lets him rant on and on even when he’s given her plenty of information
kevin sends renee really funny snaps that are just videos of his face, blank of expression, with people acting dumb in the background. he manages to pass the weirdest stuff on campus and always gets it on video for renee and she thinks theyre absolutely hilarious
in return she sends him history memes. never thought you’d see kevin day snort-laugh but the first time he gets a meme about the inquisition he almost falls out of his chair
renee is low key really funny? like sometimes she’ll say things under her breath and whoever is standing next to her will catch her clever comment, and more and more often that person is kevin
when kevin is anxious and looking for a drink to drown his feelings in, renee will drag him out on a walk if he can’t sit still, and other times she’ll simply sit next to him with a hand on his knee, keeping him grounded, asking questions in a low voice to draw him out of his memories
when renee gets that cold edge that slices through her typically calm, welcoming exterior, kevin will complain loudly about how andrew and neil arent around for extra practice so that she’ll offer to go with him and it won’t feel like everyone can see her cracks showing
they have a hand shake. they just do. i don’t make the rules ok
renee sometimes has to reign in kevin’s competitive spirit since nearly everyone else eggs him on
kevin: i’m going to destroy him. he’s gonna wish he was never born. i’m going to beat him, and then i’ll beat him again. this cannot stand. i won’t let it.
renee: kevin it was just connect four and nicky beat you because you were drunk
kevin: this cannot stand.
renee: ….uh huh. drink your smoothie.
after his years in the nest, kevin doesn’t like to be alone. he doesn’t necessarily like a lot of people around, but being alone feels like he’s off kilter, and it probably will for years. with so many people though, it feels like he owes them something. like there’s an expectation he has to be aware of meeting at all times. with renee, it’s not like that. renee values him from his skills on the court to his ability to go on for four hours non stop on the effects of colonialism. kevin doesnt feel like Kevin Day™, exy star, world champion, media golden boy. he just feels like kevin.
renee sometimes feels like she doesn’t deserve the life she’s made for herself at palmetto. though most days she believes in and loves her god 100%, sometimes the memories sneak up on her and she feels her faith in herself, in her god’s forgiveness, wither. but kevin is relentless. he is the most determined and passionate person renee has ever met. and though his words always come out better when pointing out flaws in technique, his little acts of kindness help her on her worst days, especially because he doesn’t even sees it as a gift to her. he sees every kindness given to renee as something she wholeheartedly deserves, and has zero tolerance of any suggestion otherwise.
kevin’s sometimes overexcited reactions are balmed by renee’s steady calm. renee’s fractures are held together by kevin’s perseverance. they balance each other out.
Plz add more post IW headcanons !!!! Can we talk about some potential post infinity war headcanons plz n thank u???? Like I want a Tony Stark who SURVIVES and STAYS STRONG™ during and after the fight against Thanos! A Tony who seeks out PROFESSIONAL help after everything is cleaned up– i.e a therapist, social worker literally anybody who is willing to LISTEN and HELP HIM work through his potential PTSD and grief!!
I want a Pepper who DOESN’T get upset/scared when her loved one has a PTSD/grieving episode!!! I want Tony to have support from her– knowing that even if his actions scare her, she will stay with him and hold him when it’s dark
I want a Peter Parker who SURVIVES and SUCCEEDS after infinity war (plz god plz). I want him to be able to rely/trust his new avenger friends– BUT still have a normal life (plz don’t spoil his secret identity it is so marvel-y pure™)
!!!! infinity war side note: PLEASE DONT KILL HIS IRON MAN DAD PLZ PLZ PLZ HE DOESNT NEED TO SEE ALL THIS DESTRUCTION AND LOSE ANOTHER FATHER/MENTOR FIGURE !!!
Headcanons continued: I want a peter Parker who has grown from his new experiences when working with the avengers, I hope he has new SUPER FRIENDS™ but keeps his regular friends (luv u Ned n Michelle) – Idk I also wish this lil bean doesn’t get any srs PTSD he doesn’t need that in his life.
I ALSO WANT A RHODES WHO STAYS IN TONY’S LIFE AND WHO IS GETTING THE TREATMENT HE DESERVES BC I WANT HIM TO WALK AGAIN PLZ. I want this manz to have the world and the moon. Give this man his legs and more bc Tony needs him and he needs Tony (plz give me a pepperony wedding w/ him as best man????)
I want a Thor (beautiful n wonderful Space Labrador) who is HAPPPPPPYYYYY who is able to live a normal life in Asgard and be a part time avenger still (only when the world is in grave danger) I want him to be friends w/ Peter Quill, just kicking intergalactic ass together.
I want a Peter Quill who is finally reunited with his grandfather plz n thank u- his grandfather needs to know that his daughter was not ‘crazy’ when she was always talking about the stars. I also want a Peter Quill w/ a fricking IPod with music picked from every avenger / Marvel superhero (you betcha Tony would pick some AC/DC for his new pal)
I also didn’t realize I really needed a Peter Quill x Thor friendship until now plz lord help me tooooo cute!! (This is my new favourite headcanon)
I want a Rocket and Groot duo finally taking a break plz just doing easy work after infinity war – also keeping in contact with their new friends!
I want a Gamora who is independent now because she has no more evil power hungry purple lard-ass dad to worry about. I also want her to let Peter more into her life plz marvel be nice to her she deserves the world n more –> plz note I also want an actual SIBLING RELATIONSHIP WITH HER AND NEBULA. I NEED THESE TWO GIRLS TO BE STRONG TOGETHER AND JUST KICK ASS!! I WANT THEM TO DO SISTER STUFF
I want a Steve Rogers WHO CAN FINALLY TAKE A BREAK BRUH IDC IF U GIVE UP THE SHIELD AND CAP FOR GOOD BUT Plz plZ PLZ LET THIS BB BOY JUST CATCH A BREAK – I also want him and Tony to talk things out after IW (@marvel plz don’t kill either of these angels)!!! (Somebody plz add more I am too emotional to think of anything else for this precious sun n light of America)
???I maybe want a Bucky Barnes(yah I just want Bucky tBH)?? Jk jk I want a Bucky Barnes who is working on himself now (mAYBE EVEN IN WAKANDA he can eat all the plums he wants, read all the books he wants, catch up on all the history that he missed out on whilst being a badass hydra assassin – maybe I also want him to be the new cap but we can talk bout that another time.
I WANT A SAM WILSON AS A FRICKING FULL TIME AVENGER WHO HAS HAPPINESS AND GOES ONTO ROAD TRIPS TO SEE BUCKY N STEVE PLZ N THANK YOU. I want this bb to just be amazing and still work as a social worker (bless this boy honestly) with soldiers n maybe even SHIELD agents who are suffering w/ PTSD
I want a Natasha who is taking some time by herself, plz let this role model of a icon (English plz) maybe teach girls of all ages how to defend themselves against the evils of the world (plz not Clint would host the male equivalent of this bc the world is a scary place for everybody). Maybe let nat even let her guard down for a bit— let her live her life she deserves– have girl nights with her friends– visit Clint n his beautiful family– keep in contact with Steve n Bucky n Sam n Tony n everybody tBH but let her live
I want a Clint Barton who stays sarcastic as always but is finally with his family, maybe teaching archery to his kids??? I’m so glad he has a lil farm plz don’t blow up his lil farm
I want a Wanda WHO FINALLY GETS THE COUNSELLING SHE DESERVES AFTER LOSING HER BROTHER AND GETTING BLAMED !!!! I want her to have a normal teenager years/ early adulthood– maybe let her be friends with peter they can gossip bout everybody. I want her to be happy and not scared. I also want her to be w/ Vision plz
Seriously? NARUTO’s wedding, NARUTO anime and whatever and the episode is 70% Iruka. Not that I dont like Iruka but?????? I know Naruto’s request was important, but still…
Also they almost didn’t show the wedding.. I understand that they had to show InoSai and ShikaTema, but they could’ve done that differently.. If they showed the ceremony or something more than a couple of people drinking at the backyard it would have been so much more beautiful and meaningful…
And just dont get me started on that RIDICULOUS SasuSaku moment. That’s SP for you. Trying to show some kind of SasuSaku bond by having Sasuke not attending the fucking wedding and sending a one word note (that says congratulations btw) to Sakura that is meant for Naruto. WHY? Why not send it to Naruto instead?? Or write to Sakura something like “on my way” or i dont even kno… And Sakura getting all blushy and happy after that note… I’d be seriously confused on her place. It almost sounds like Sasuke thinks Naruto is marrying Sakura lol. Being late might be fashionable, but not attending your best friend’s wedding is wow :D I know that he’s probably not able to be there, but I still find it kinda shitty.. 15 years and Sasuke gets 2 seconds screen time and Sakura gets to say one word… Honestly the whole episode doesnt make any sense.
SP you fucked up.
Overall, I’m ultra disappointed, because that was not an honorable ending to such long and amazing anime that has been a part of so many people’s childhood. It was weak and somehow feels unfinished. There isn’t even a reasonable amount of Naruto in the ending of NARUTO. Hope Boruto isn’t the same way… ugh
This whole thing probably sounds super messy, but I’m just so mad..