if the internet isnt real then how did all of you get here

anonymous asked:

Honestly, your post about GG is 👌. GG, esp Danny, are some of the most understanding and respectful youtubers I watch that aren't LGBT themselves. Like Danny himself is always like "I'm old so correct me if I'm wrong..." and if he is he apologizes!! Same w Arin and the rest of the gang. Like they really do try to improve and be more understanding as the world develops. I love watching them to see how they learn more about the world and become more inclusive and educated. I love them

if i remember correctly, suzy is openly bisexual, arin has no sexual preference, and danny has proclaimed that he is flexible assuming he found another man he liked enough to want to be with

and those three are just the three that im aware of their sexual preferences

the times of them being offensive was from around the time when we were all making horribly offensive jokes, 2009-2013 was a really

awkward

time for internet culture

and we all made horrible jokes at one point but we learn and grow and become more aware of those around us. you cant demonize someone for making jokes if they themselves are genuinely tolerant of the people around them. we don’t have bad morals when we’re making those jokes, we’re just going with what everyone seems to think is funny at the time. a few months from now, i can assure you that theres going to be something brand new for people to be offended at when it was something that everyone used to do.

its just how ‘progressive’ internet culture works.

the grumps team are open minded and kindhearted people. they want to bring us entertainment. they don’t care about the views or whatever youtube income they get (which isnt a lot considering the current state of youtube) because theyre just doing what they love with the people they care about.

they havent become lethargic about their work and popularity like some youtubers (coughcoughpewdiepiecoughcough), they just have a fun time regardless of their situation.

arin created gamegrumps when he noticed the youtube algorithm shifting from animation to video games. now he plays games daily while protesting that artists should get a fair chance to show their animations and artwork on youtube without being dumped down to the bottom of the recommendations. ross shares that sentiment as well, as he is an animator that developed alongside arin. he’s actually way more vocal about it as well.

these are incredible people who just want to make you smile when you’re feeling down. demonizing them for past content when they’ve learned and grown just like we have is incredibly small minded and people who chastise them are clearly insecure about people finding out about their own pasts and the horrible things they’ve said or done.

yeah, i’ll admit it, when i was 10 to 14 i made rape jokes, gay jokes, trans jokes, racist jokes; but i’m grown now. i’m 21 now, and i am much more aware of the people around me, the struggles they go through. i’ve come to terms with my own sexuality and gender identity and i’m willing to see new things of the sort. i have had friends of all races and i realized that i shouldn’t make those kinds of jokes. i wouldnt like it if people commented on my straight hair or my pasty white skin and didnt stop if i asked.

we all do stupid stuff. to act as though we’re holier than thou is disgusting and you just want to believe you never did anything offensive in your life. but you’re not a saint. you’re human and you make mistakes. you can be ashamed of your past, but you can’t tear someone a new one who you went back to content they put up in 2012 and found they made an offensive comment and then come here in 2017 when they’re a completely different person and try to demonize them and defame them.

youre clearly just a coward if you do that, you have no real evidence to back yourself up and you should be ashamed of your behavior now as well as your behavior in the past.

Idubbbz and Tana Mongeau - when you pick the wrong guy to fuck with

Oh boy, this drama is gunna be messy.

This is probably going to be less of a rant and more of a warning annnnd slightly educational.. lol

actually im just really angsty today, seen all this slander about one of the best youtubers to exist, so i gotta vent here we go

What happens when your channel is run-of-the-mill clickbait-y shit, can’t take a joke/dont know what satire is, and you call out the most savage person to ever internet whose entire platform is based on decimating YouTube careers without refute?

Dear god Tana, do you know what you’ve gotten yourself into? I would say she’s oblivious, but I don’t think that’s the case. Her first tweet to idubbbz before all this happened was back in December (I believe? Too lazy to find it rn) where she called him out on his use of “the N word” and “retard”. What I find ironic is that directly after that she told him to kill himself 😂(butthatsnunofmybusiness). Irony is a beautiful thing.

ANYWHO, to anyone who finds these offensive and racist and isn’t familiar with idubbbz, sit the fuck down a moment. (If ur offended and traumatized by “the n word” and other shit like that u may want to shield your eyes in the next part to avoid being traumatized. Wouldn’t want to end up like Tana, would we?) *ahem* now listen up buttercup

1. The term “n***er faggot” and “gay retard” pertain to people who have said it to idubbbz in the past in hate videos. He is parodying those people who tried to demean him by saying those things. it is a long running joke on his channel.

2. His channel content consists of this amazing concept called s a t i r e. If you don’t know what that means, look it up, remember it, don’t forget it, because that term will allow you to thrive on the internets and most likely survive in the real world. With its power you can have fun, and experience freedom in elevated proportions. Any slur he uses is never used in seriousness - like I said, it is a long running parody on his channel. He is not intentionally being racist or offensive or whatever other label you can pull out your ass.

3. Learn to laugh ffs? This dude legit has vids of eating shit out of sewers and dumpsters. Why. Why would you take anything he says seriously

Now to the rant part yey

The thing that pisses me off the most is the blatant. fucking. lie Tana told. She described in her video that Ian had put her in a “choke hold” of some sort, which i’d expect to be around the fucking neck right? And apparently, he was also talking really loudly goading her to say “the n word”

now here’s the reality:


(here’s the OG vid)

wow he’s just choking the life out of her makE IT STOP WHAT A TRAUMATIZING EXPERIENCE

Things i do see: A genius joke

Things i dont see: a choke hold, loud voice, or goading of any kind

For those still confused as to what the joke is, is goes back to her december tweet. he must have found it funny. her tweet is so ironic and priceless how could he not? its the most atypical idiotic white girl tweet from a youtuber, so he decided to show up at her expensive-ass meet and greet to continue the joke (which im hoping was intended for a future content cop in the first place). He’s standing there as if taking a picture with her, and here is the best part. Instead of “say cheese,” he says “say n***er”.

GOD I LOVE THIS MAN

What im most curious about how that’s a chokehold of any kind. Truamatized? GIRL HOLY SHIT I WOULD SELL EVERY LIMB TO JUST BE IN THE SAME ROOM AS IDUBBBZ, LET ALONE HAVE THE FUCKER STAND NEXT TO ME. TOUCH MY PLEBIAN EXISTENCE EVEN. FUCK

some people just arent worthy. the world doesnt deserve you, idubbbz. im sorry.

another thing; she said in her younow mental breakdown that it was idubbbz himself who sent his followers to bully her. bitch where? he didnt say a damn thing (yet). She’s kinda done this to herself entirely, and is now wondering why. First off she started this shit on twitter, then lied, then attacked him on twitter for something he didnt even do?? what. the fuck? he did absolutely nothing but try to make a joke. you know what in some ways i feel bad for her not only because she’s unwittingly screwed with the most immortal community on youtube right now, but because she cant see the problem is her and it’s only going to get worse if she keeps it up jfc. I dont necessarily think she’s the worst person on yt either (though i havent watched many of her vids). If she didn’t blow things out of proportion she might’ve been able to salvage what she had left of her yt career. I guess sometimes mediocre content isnt enough. Often times I hope idubbbz just let’s it go for her sake but…idk, he hasn’t done anything yet and who the hell knows. Honestly I don’t like people being sent hate. But when ur ignorant its gonna fucking happen. Especailly when you think you’re morally superior to someone when you are in no place. ESPECIALLY when you dont know the facts. Choose your battles wisely.

anyway I’m not even entirely pissed at the situation, but ooo the god awful fans of hers. They’re taking e v e r y thing in idubbbz videos out of context and making them ‘offensive’ to push their anti-dubbbz agenda. Like, did yall actually watch the videos?? satire ????? ironic humour ???? do any of you know what this is???? do you even fuckin meme bro ?? ? ? ? why would i expect any less from the fans of this type of melodramatic girl who makes shitty content??? and just slander and misinfo in general dear fucking god when will the sjw trend die

well i only have one last thing to say about this: Tana, say goodbye to your youtube career. you wanted to milk this, you couldnt just solve this in peace. instead of owning up to your mistakes you’re going to play the victim, like every other youtuber that gets destroyed. The rest of the sane internet can smell that content cop from here.

TL;DR: do not fuck with the god of youtube comedy. it will not end as planned. Just go with the joke next time, aight?

nuff said.

I genuinely enjoyed rob dykes content for several years on Youtube, but I have several issues with the arguments and ideas hes presented in his latest video, “This Movie is Pretty Much a Hate Crime”

In this video Rob details why he’s defending the movie “Split” by M. Night Shyamalan. Some of the issues he touches on is how some have viewed the movie as transphobic as well as ableist for its portrayal of DID. He claims that people are just too sensitive and people having issues with this movie are invalid and simply play into “victim culture”.

Not taking mentally ill and transgender people seriously when they say “Hey this is transphobic” and “hey the portrayal of this mental illness isnt right” is nothing new, of course. But the sweeping generalizations Rob makes in this video as well as calling people who genuinely ARE hurt by these portrayals as oversensitive wimps too concerned with their own self pity are deeply troubling.

Now, I can detail why I personally have troubles with this movie. It’s portrayal of DID is at best misinformed and at worst down right humiliating and villainous. While mental illness is not and should never be considered a identity it is an important aspect of how one is seen and how they live their life. it contributes to how one is treated by others as well as how they see themselves. To have a portrayal of DID that further alienates an already misunderstood illness really…isnt acceptable in my opinion. No has it ever really been acceptable. What Rob seems to not be realizing is that people having problems with portrayal of mental illness, gender, and sexuality in movies isn’t new. Minorities have been speaking about the issues they have with portrayal in media for years. In most cases to smaller groups or close friends. 

The reason the supposed “New” uproar of calling out unjustifiable portrayals of mental illness or gender or race is because now is the time its easier than ever to speak to a wider audience of people. Yes, i’m referring to the age of internet. Groups of people upset over portrayals of themselves or their family or close friends arnt simply a group of people playing the victim, they literally are victimized by ideas like this. By people who hold the idea of mentally ill people, of people with DID, as evil or strange. I can speak from somebody whos actually been diagnosed with and hospitalized for DID here when I say the idea of “multiple personalities” and just being mentally ill in general absolutely changes how people treat and see you. Even in my own family ive gone from “weird cousin” to “scary psycho” simply for having this diagnosis. 

I don’t want to have DID, nor any other mental illness that affects me, but these labels of “DID” or “BPD” or “OCD” are important. Not because they’re a supposed “identity label” but because they are an important explanation to behavior and a subsequent jumping off point for people to get therapy, help, and just live as they are. We aren’t proud for HAVING mental illness, but for surviving with the pains and struggles we go through while living with these permanent illnesses. If you think we’re wimps or misguided or stupid for wanting proper representation that doesn’t hurt how people view us even more than they do already, then you are absolutely part of the problem.

Now, I understand this little ramble of mine has gone on quite long, but I have a final point to speak about. My other problem with this video is that Rob is speaking for issues that don’t effect him in the slightest. As a cis he really cant speak for Trans folk (This would still be as such even if he was a cis female. The problem here is not that he is male at all. Its that he has no experience being trans, and until otherwise stated, has also had no prior education about gender sociology.) The only real informed place you have speaking about being trans is well, being trans or studying trans. Otherwise you are uninformed, plain and simple. 

Fat Acceptance Rant

I am so fucking sick of hearing about fat acceptance. I have the hugest rant prepared. First, I wanna start this rant off by saying I am entitled to my own opinion and nothing can change my opinion on this matter, so there’s no use trying to argue with me! I have been chubby ALMOST my whole life. I was skinny as a kid, mom would always brag to her friends about it! I ballooned up around 4th grade, I was still active then but I ate terribly and I had a really young mom that honestly didnt know what she was doing with herself let alone her child. I played basketball, ran track, played soccer, and did karate. 4 sports, I still gained weight because I ate like absolute shit. I remember when I was in 5th grade I was 5'4" and 135 and I wanted to be 120. My mom was so anti-fat, but so uneducated so she spent the next 6 years of my life calling me everyname under the book, physically abusing me because I kept gaining weight/was a snot/didn’t do my chores. I wont go into detail but I definitely have severe PTSD from the things she did to me. For example, she once poured dirty cat litter on me, then filmed me crying while telling me I sound like a whale in distress. I kept gaining weight of course, I stopped doing sports not because I didnt want to but because my mom got pregnant and someone had to take care of her. I was 14 when she had my little brother, but it looked as if I had had him with all the weight I had gained. In 8th grade, I was 5'8" 185 lbs. I was NOT happy, but food gave me an escape for a little bit and I truly did have an eating disorder. I binged at first, thousands of calories sometimes even tens of thousands. Mom would beat me for eating the food but I didnt stop, Mom kept calling me everything under the book. She gained 100 pounds after getting pregnant and lost it all within a year. She got depressed, and left my brother and I alone for sometimes months. I got into drugs and ended up dropping out of school and choosing to go to military school. I wanted to improve, for my brother- who I had gotten awfully close to all those years mom was out being crazy. In military school, mom finally had to take responsibility for her son and I was gone for 6 months, I did workout in military school but we were required heavy duty meals because they didn’t wanna get sued for underfeeding us. I gained muscle, yes, I was able to do 7 pull ups at the end of my time there but I was still 225 pounds, and not even close to being healthy. I am telling you all this about my past  because I see countless excuses in the fat acceptance tag. I gained all my weight back in high school, every year making a plan that this would be the year! I’m gonna lose the weight! I even got my best friend to lose 50 pounds but I stayed the same. I’ve used every excuse in the book. In the beginning of THIS year, I started discovering body acceptace/fat acceptance/etc I was into it at first, because I wanted to truly believe myself when I said “Wow, I wanna love my body teehhee (: My body is great!!!” It felt good, getting all that attention, at first. There were even some cute creepy guys that wanted to see my fat rolls and my big thighs. Finally I was getting love from people I never got when I was younger, via the internet. Then I started going on 4chan.. I found myself in the /fit/ section everyday. I ditched tumblr, I was obsessed. I saw Fat Hate Threads/Fat People Stories and I would binge while reading through them. Laughing at fat people, even though I was one. I kept thinking “man, I need to make a change this shit isnt healthy” but I would do something for a week and go back to my old ways. I finally found the subreddit that changed/SAVED my life. It’s called r/fatpeoplehate. You get banned for being fat, so I never dared post a comment or a link or argue or do anything but lurk. I had been on tumblr so long I was convinced every boy secretly loved fat girls so I didnt have to change, I just had to find me one that didn’t care about being in public with a fat girl. This subreddit opened my eyes, not only is fat acceptance BULLSHIT but so is being fat. They hate all fat people on that sub and they have the right to. I think all fit humans have a buried hate for fat people but they have been raised that it’s impolite to say something out loud about it. I believe they have every right. I am still fat as fuck, yes I have changed my lifestyle greatly but until I am fit I wont be talking about that because I’m not looking for someone to get their hopes up in me finally losing weight and getting healthy. I dont want anyone to be happy for me, I need more people around that won’t congratulate me when I lose weight I need more people around that will be like “OK but you shouldnt have let yourself get that bad in the first place, we aren’t here to give you a gold star youre literally just going from a gelatinous blob to a human being shut the hell up.” and I’ve found that in fatpeoplehate. I’m not saying that you shouldn’t love your body.. I’m saying love your body by making sure you are healthy. If your bmi is over 30 and you’re not a body builder or some sort of athlete you’re not healthy. I dont care what your excuses are being fat isnt healthy.. it will never be healthy. You are cutting 30 years off your life, you are creating health problems for your future everytime you preach about HAES. If you have kids, and you put your habits onto them youre creating a shortened life for them. I know what it’s like to be fat. I’ve been through all the excuses you’re giving the world. I have fat ass grandparents and a chubby family besides my mom, I still don’t blame being fat on genetics. I told you all about how my mom used to beat me for being fat, because I want you to know no matter how shitty your upbringing was, no matter WHAT happened to you as a kid or what’s happening to you now you dont need to eat your feelings or eat because of your PTSD or BPD or whatever disease you’ve diagnosed yourself with. What my mom did was wrong, but I dont blame my current weight on my past. I blame it on lack of discipline. I thought I had PCOS for the longest time, guess what? It turns out I’m just fat. Every excuse you’re using is wrong, you cannot be healthy at every size. If you are obese, or even overweight you need to improve your eating habits and exercise. You have one fucking life, look deep down inside yourself- do you really want to be fat forever? You can lie to yourself all you want but I know you dont want to be fat, I know you don’t really think all these amazing things about yourself. I know because I tried so hard to convince everyone I was cute. The constant narcissism in the fat acceptance tags.. People that truly believe they are beautiful and healthy do not have to scream about it every time someone tells them they are wrong. This was a really poorly written rant but I needed to get it out. Fat shaming and Fat hate saved my life and my future children’s lives. It seems wrong to promote hatred, but if you’re doing it for HEALTH reasons, I feel it’s justified. Obesity isnt attractive, our bodies aren’t meant to be that size and if your'e wondering why these people on the internet are so attracted to you but real life guys arent? It’s because fat girls/guys are never going to be seen as attractive. Even fat people with pretty faces (Adele, Queen Latifah) are seen as /pretty/ but would be seen as more attractive if they looked healthy. People on the internet calling you attractive are most definitely fetishists or people that are so desperate and alone they crave any sort of attention. That’s all I have to say/ Fat acceptance is wrong and you’re slowly killing yourself. No excuses, stop eating so much and start exercising more. If you have problems with your metabolism, exercise harder and eat even healthier. You will lose weight, you will be healthy. 

anonymous asked:

What kinks do you think Kyungsoo and Kai would have?

are you the anon who asked me about who’s top in kaisoo /squint eyes/

well tbh i have no clue what sort of kinks would they have, they seem to be the type who prefer doing vanilla - but sometimes i feel that they would do more than plain stuffs idk

but i think jongin has a thing for ksoo’s lips

his eyes hooded and focused on soo’s lips (right? or is it just me seeing stuffs bc im very biased af?)

lets see another version

kai had his fingers on soo’s eyes, idk whose fingers that attacked soo’s nose (notice those fingers didnt touch soo’s lips, only his nose and kai’s index finger)

soo likes to bite apparently

i know this happened only in mere seconds but think about it, sometimes a second is already enough for us (jongin in this case) to look and burn the image inside our brain, plus he knew there was camera filming them + guests from roommate were there too (subtlety was needed, he couldnt unleash his burning hole stare there, look at his arm, very subtle there mr. kim)

yeah the cf’s director told him specifically to graze his fingers on soo’s plush lips, you know…for marketing strategy

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Okay, so. Don’t be mad at me but like.

I had this idea for this AU and decided to write down cause, why not, right? But it ended up with 7k words and I can’t really turn into an actual narration and stuff? so Like… I’ll post this rlly embarrassing thing instead…

In this AU Mondo and Ishimaru are like…. 19-22 years old and Hope’s peak doesn’t exist. 

Enjoy?????

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Me Before You (Isaac Lahey)


Word Count: 1071

Warning: isaac has depression. it doesnt really talk about it but please dont read if you think it will trigger you my loves.

Request: Anon-”Can u do an isaac lahey imagine based off of the movie Me Before You! But instead Isaac is depressed instead! Oh and can it be long! Sorry if its confusing, thank u!”

thanks for requesting! im so excited to see that movie omg xx

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You loved living in the city, but sometimes you needed to get away for a while. Away from the traffic. Away from people. Not to mention living in a huge city is quite pricey and you just recently move out of your parents house.

You needed a summer job until college started. You looked around the internet which probably isn’t the best way to find a job but you were quite desperate since your parents agreed to pay for tuition but when it came to food, textbooks, and other things… you were on your own,

Wanted Caregiver it read.

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How kpop disappointed me/ exo drama/ the impact in my life

Hello, my name is carol and its 3am, i should be sleeping right now but i found this blog and as reading these confessions i felt a strong urge to confess myself as well.
I’ve been dealing with this feelings and thoughts for a while now, but I cant say anything on my twitter fc (cause the other kpoppers will judge me) and i dont have any friend who would care enough for what i have to say.
So this is going to be long, i apologize.

I was emo, you know? Listened to emo bands and heavy music with screams and shit, and i was always against pop music because it was fake, and it was purely all for the money. So you have no idea how shocked i was when i found myself starting to like kpop.
I met kpop thanks to my best friend at the time (we’re not friends anymore), and she was emo as well, i remember when she would still wear black and dye her hair and talk about Get Scared and Devin Sola on twitter while she was discovering kpop and listening to SNSD. She showed me “I got a boy” mv and i was like…. okay… but nah.
A few months later she left the emo side and got really deep in the kpop world becaming an Exo fan and Chanyeol biased.
I just watched her while i was still digesting the idea that she left our emo world to be a fan of asian people.
I never thought it would happened to me.
But there was this music channel on tv and every week it would have this “ichiban interference” which would show asian music, kpop, cpop, jpop and jrock.

I missed my friend, and i felt distanced from her. So i started to watch that program to see if i could like kpop. And…….. I kind of did. I was just so excited to get back to having something in common with her and i just wrote the names of the groups i have liked while watching the program so i could search it later on.

*funny fact tho, somehow i already new shinee 2 years before i enter the kpop world for real, and even thought i didnt listen to them i would mantain this crush on choi minho and even like his pages on facebook.

The first group i got into was, of course, Shinee, because i already new them and already loved Minho. So until this day they are my babies and my ultimate group.

She was all into Exo and i just didnt really cared for them. But because it was important to her, i gave it a shot.
I entered the Exo fandom right after Kris left. I didnt had any problems to know who was who. Althought at the beggining i had a problem with sehun and luhan and for a while i thought they were the same person lol but that passed.
I also made an fc on twitter to be close with my friend again, which made me later on go very deep in the exo world. And because of all the problems they had, I also suffered a fucking lot being a part of their world.
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As i said before, i was always against pop music because it was purely commercial. The thing that made me accept kpop was when i read about the trainee thing, and how they would work really hard for years and just really dedicate themselves to the maximum to acomplish their dreams. I thought that was very admirable. So i felt like it was okay for me to like kpop, because it was different and they were all very admirable people.
I thought it was a dream land you know? Get accepted in a company, be a trainee for a few years and then debut and become pretty and famous and rich.
But as soon, as me being an exo-l, exo started to fall apart, all of these delusional ideas i had about that lifestyle and this industry, began to crash.

When Luhan left I spend like, 4 weeks crying. No joke, i would start crying in the middle of the night and go running into my dads room so he could confort me.

I dont know how and why but Exo really took the best out of me. I would cry for anything they did. it was insane. But also im very sensible and i do cry a lot so idk.

The thing is, after that i got really hurt you know? Because i thought SM after kris leaving would be more rational about things and would treat the boys better. But no.
And now its Tao’s turn and this one… This one is just extremely fucked up. Because i know, i know very deep in my heart how Tao loves Exo and loves us fans. He was always the one who would try to make us feel better and confort us, and he always promised he would never leave. And now to be where we are now, i mean… It makes me realize how fucked up this industry is behind the scenes.
(As i am young to this fandom you’ll probably say i dont have the right to be this sad and blablabla. But I did watched showtime and i think once you watch that there’s no turning back, you’ll love each boy and cherish them to the maximum. Because i entered the fandom right when kris left, i didnt really cared for him, but after showtime i was like… really sad, and even thought i became a fan when they were ot11, i am ot12 in my heart. You might think i dont have the right to it but i dont care, i know my feelings towards it and i know how much i care about them)


So after that, and also that whole baekyeon scandal (it shocked me that baek and tae lost fans just because they fell in love. I do understand that they didnt handle things how it should’ve been handle but damn, have the fans never experienced falling in love with someone and wanting to share their love with others and show it to people, and how exciting everything is? not to mention baek is young and he always liked tae. I dont like her, and she is older, so i do think she as someone more responsible, should’ve known better), and honestly it really pisses me off how the fandom said it was marketing, BECAUSE GOD FORBIT THAT BAEKHYUN IS ACTUALLY STRAIGHT AND DOES NOT DATE CHANYEOL IN REAL LIFE!!!!!! That is one thing i dont have the patience. Im all up for homossexuality, but to see how hardcore these shippers can be and how the fans suddenly feel like they have the right to dictate the sexuality of their idol and anyone who says “no, he’s straight” is wrong and delusional… I mean… Come on.. Get off your high horse honey. (i dont know if it was markenting or not, i do not care either, i just hated how the fans reacted)
And seeing the korean media and how the netizens criticize everything the idols do that dont go acording to what they belive. And seeing how they are always making big drama out of nothing ( ex taehyung x bigbang). Seeing how the fans deal with all of this, where their idols cant even be themselves that they’ll instantly get criticized (ex: sehun and his comments on ig) …. I really hate that, the fact that the idols (not all idols) cant be themselves completely, they have to follow some rules (probably) to what they can or cant say, and they cant even be free on the internet either as the fans will judge them and the media as well. So I mean, how can I love someone and be fan of someone, that it isnt true? You know what I mean? How can I relate to you? I cant.
I just got so tired, Im exausted to say the least.

I wont say kpop ruined my life, because honestly shinee is still one of the few things that makes me happy and whenever im sad i listen to them and feel better. And Im really happy because Shinee is one group that remains intact, they never have any dramas with their name on it. Its just so peaceful for me to be a shawol. Also being a xiumin, lay and tao biased, they never failed to make me happy, and every time i see them i instantly gain a smile in my face. Also my parents support me much more with me liking kpop than with me liking, as they call it “noises and screams and dirty people who look dead”. Anddd my mom also likes choi minho so its pretty awesome when we talk about him and fight for him as in who he belongs to. (HE IS MINE MOM)

But i entered the kpop world thinking it would be magical and it would only bring joy in my life. But now im at a point where everything is just slowly being destroyed and the land i once thought it was bright and colorful is now all black and white and broken.
Not to mention how kpop took my life completely, i was never into going out (as i have social anxiety and panic attacks) but the fact that i would spend ALL of my daily hours on my fc just talking about koreans and chineses and saving their pictures religiously and spending hours organizing their albuns and stuff (my exo paste have 14 thousand pictures and this is just the pictures i would save while i was on twitter, without downloading any pack or anything)
I just…. this was a really long rant and im still keeping out a lot of other thoughts, this is just a resume basically.
I just wanted to say that im disapointed. There’s no better word than that. I felt like i was promised so many things while entering this world, but as things kept progressing a lot of things happened and my positive thoughts about it were slowly dying, and i compromized so much of myself and my life to it, to now being here, sad and all fucked up thanks to it.
Lately i dont stay on my twitter so much, i rarely enter it tbh. And i just spend my days reading or watching a serie or anything that its not related to asians and kpop because honestly i just need a break from it, a break to digest all of the things that happened in 2014, a break from this drastic change of (my) taste and just trying to deal with the true that it is: kpop is not what i looks like, yes the music is good, yes they look good and happy but we dont know what happens when no one’s around, we only know what we are showed and therefore, due to all the dramas that happened, i myself am incapable of trusting kpop again.
(I even started to listen to my emo bands again, so i could forget kpop for a while. This is what is helping me ‘keeping it real’)
I will always love my groups and will always support them, but I dont wanna go back to the place i was (dedicating my life to it). And now i definitely am more aware of everything, and if anything, one positive thing that kpop did was making me more smart and careful towards my trusting hability.
Thats it, thats my confession, it was really long im sorry. I started writing this at 3am and now is 4am.
*I have a question tho, it was only with me that after kpop i just dont feel atraction to ocidental guys like i used too? I was never really picky when it comes to men but after kpop now i do want them to be someone who take care of themselves, and have a nice skin, and dress nicely. Also i get crazy everytime i see an asian on the street, and i just find them much more atractive than the ocidental person.
*im brazilian so sorry for any mistakes, as english is not my first language.
*please be kind and try not to call me names. I know that for some people i’ll appear like a retarted girl, and maybe i am, but i just really needed to get this out of me. And if you want to know, im 16 and started to like kpop in the end of 2013 when i was still 14.

transcobra  asked:

hi! im not trying to discount yr opinion as an author, but u are not a teen girl. u dont get as big of a say in what is and isnt creepy for us. our problem isnt that he does ya, but that he interacts with his teen girl fans as if they are his equal peers - and says vaguely creepy things and associates with rapists and etc.. so telling us we should "walk away" is telling us to keep our mouth shut when grown men make us - young girls - uncomfortable and that is not feminist. that is disgusting.

Dear keepsglowin,

First of all, I was a teen girl. That is where adult women come from. I was groped by my male mentor when I was a teen. I have several friends who were sexually assaulted. I have a daughter. I am a creator on the internet. I have been on all sides of the power imbalance currently described. That means that I, in fact, am allowed to have a voice in this conversation, and in fact have perspective that others might not. My voice is just as valid as yours. Your voice is as valid as mine. The original poster of that John Green post that began this entire thing (who was not a teen, by the way), is also valid … in a civilized discussion about age and power imbalance on the internet.

That discussion, however, was not what my posts were about. Note, please, that my remarks for USA Today feature these sentences at the very beginning: “I think I oughta say, up front, that I know John Green no better than most of the rest of the planet. I’ve read three of his books; I follow him on Twitter & Tumblr; I once passed him in the hall at a literary conference; our interactions are all out there on Twitter for the world to see. Some of his real-life author friends have swept to his defense already, but that’s not my perspective: we are friendly colleagues. I make this clear because I would like to shout: this is not about John Green.”

My remarks were on starting conversations on the internet, not on John Green’s presence. If you read that post — actually read the words, not some off-the-cuff summation of them — you see that my opinion is on language and tone, not on content. Is John Green’s internet presence problematic? That was not the question I was asked, or answering. I responded to the delivery of opinion. Example: I drive by a guy on the street. He says HEY BITCH THE SKY IS BLUE. The sky may, in fact, be blue — he’s telling the truth. But he’s also being an asshole. Me saying, “Did you hear that asshole?” does not mean I’m debating whether or not the sky is blue. Frankly, I’m getting pretty tired of being told how I feel about the sky, Tumblr. 

My remarks were very clear: “This is not about John Green.”

Secondly, you do not get to tell me what is and is not feminist. There is a huge, wide world of feminism that is passionately argued and talked about. Feminism shifts and grows and and chafes and blisters and blossoms and encompasses a vast, wide range of voices, solutions, perspectives, and ideals, all of these diverse voices hopefully pointing to one reality: women of every color as equal members of society in every way. Stuffing words in my mouth and then telling me that what I’ve said is not feminist? Unhelpful.

Thirdly, despite what I’ve seen go frolicking by in the tags, there is no One Right Solution to power imbalances on the internet, whether they are gender, class, or volume driven. It’s disingenuous and harmful to active dialog to pretend that there is. Some of the suggestions I’ve seen running around Tumblr for John Green in particular are, in fact, insanely Victorian; both sexist and insulting to teen girls. Next we’ll have separate internet smoking rooms for the gentlemen and matronly chaperones; what a sight the 1D fandom will be then.

Fourthly, I would not come into your internet space and call you disgusting even if I disagreed with your opinions. Please consider doing the same before you next approach me; that’s just human decency.

Fifthly, I’d actually be down for having a conversation about power imbalance on the internet, but not like this. It wasn’t civil to begin with and it’s even further from it now. I’m not going to be screamed at on the internet and be told what I think, no matter what I say. The entire point of the post was that everything on the internet was getting transmuted into a toxic kerfuffle full of gleeful “what’s the latest! what has ____ done! catch me up!” And sure enough, all I see from here is burning fires and Mad Max gifsets.

urs,

Stiefvater

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Bruh stop sending these to me. I get it, I got it, I’m doing it.

I’m not gonna waste any time, let’s take a trip down prejudice memory lane of the times when these tweets were proven to be real. 

In this screencap you can see someone responded. Said response actually still exists, unlike Iggy’s backbone (the user has changed their name but this is it) here: https://twitter.com/lordbape/status/341729702093918208 

In this instagram comment, Iggy addresses the tweet about playing soccer with “dyke bitches.” Why would she bother trying to explain her use of the slur if she never actually said it? The mystery continues on

Then there was the “Me chief you Indian I speak you listen, tweet which I don’t even know how she can dispute since it was her youtube bio back when she was making web cam freestyles and she says a similar lyric in her XXL Freshman Freestyle. Bonus Macklemore in the background of this video looking like somebody’s sad uncle. Bad bitch Nancy Drew is getting closer to solving this case.

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Asian lady "stealing” her seat on a plane saga. She had an entire conversation about it, including using her asian family members as an excuse.

this is from the day the exchange happened

i screencapped the conversation again a couple months ago so I could show you guys what the person she was talking to said. I am Sherlock Holmesing the fuck outta this right now

Then finally there’s this black men popeyes mess which was just found a couple months ago and not by me this time. I made the post the day someone sent it to me/it was found and subsequently caused a twitter dragging, March 5th, 2014. It’s been capped multiple ways, the first is by me and others capped it on their own timelines when people were retweeting it. Also included a tweet of someone quoting it on the same day it was posted to this blog. Just put me on the next season of True Detective because my skill set is unmatched.

http://piggyazalea.tumblr.com/post/78689758360/tell-me-again-how-she-isnt-racist

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@IGGYAZALEA: Just saw 5 black men get arrested out the front of popeyes. #damn #stereotypes” 👀😒

— ayesha (@doncasterchapel)

March 6, 2014

If you would like to keep living in a world where I am a photoshop demon overlord who is ruining a racist woman’s career via tumblr posts, by all means, keep thriving in it. Or yell at me repeatedly in my inbox for “wasting my time” as you waste time typing that message you know I won’t respond to. There’s a reason nothing on this blog is illegal; cause it all came from her. I may add (hilarious) commentary but the things posted came from her public twitter, videos and interviews. Real talk, her racist antics which include her on video calling herself a slave master, have not damaged her career in anyway so I’m unsure of why she’s “upset.” Crymeariver.mp3. I will say she is absolutely correct about that fake facebook post of her supposedly saying nigga. That’s not real and I did not partake in that fuckery. 

What did we learn today kids? Own up to your shit and apologize or else the internet will remind you every damn day of the times you didn’t. She can have a very un-blessed life for these lies. 

But the rest of you stay blessed bye* 

*Except for the person in my inbox who said I should make a hate blog about President Barack Obama cause he probably says “nigga” with his friends. You can drink expired milk for that one.

122 Thoughts We all Had while watching the GMW Season 3 premiere

since s3e1 came out on on demand, and u can now watch it via my link in my last post, I am releasing my thoughts on the episode. I hope u like them and find them relatable! If you want these for the other upcoming episodes, like or reblog this and i will do it!

1      hOly shit it’s happening

2      THIS ISNT A DRILL HOLy shit

3      ok yes slay rilaya

4      what the fuck why are they all so amazing

5      aw smarkle is alive and well

6      HELLO random coincidence ladies im dead

7      I AM actually ALIVE AGAIN I think every1 needed that to happen

8      Aw smackle getting jealous

9      It’s gonna be tough for her when riarkle takes off

10   Rilaya rilaya rilaya

11   Zay hell yes no lucas u suck

12   That senior flipping her hair is me ok?

13   LOOK AT HOW MAYA IS LOOKING AT RILEY and tell me that is NOT GAY ok?

14   Riladorkle is so dramatic

15   YES THE INTRO

16   Def not skipping

17   It will never get old NEVER

18   Why are they not in class

19   Why are they all skipping class on the first day

20   Why aren’t they in trouble

21   Weak freshman

22   Ok whoa maya is slaying wtf I LOVE HER

23   Ok same im scared too

24   HER NAME IS MAYA

25   Best lucaya moment ever and we only 3 minutes in, im so ok w this

26   Lucas is struggling here

27   And everyone knows it

28   Oh riley I think u don’t

29   Ok but Ashley argota is a beautiful singer ok

30   Zay my king

31   Lucas is not down w this shit

32   All lucas wants is to be a thug

33   Ok is Topanga’s hair different or is it just me?

34   Awwww ava im crying ur cute

35   I always h8 these scenes with auggie and ava but look ik this is gonna be sad

36   Aw cory is such a child

37   Marly is questioning him and im marly yeah

38   Oh my fuck “just keep teaching abt our lives and she’ll come around” this is the plot of the show

39   Cory makes too many dad jokes

40   Triangle ha this is like a hexagon

41   Riley just wants a senior friend

42   Hunny u just a freshie

43   Finally, some1 asks for things to be normal

44   OK peyton’s acting is SO GOOD that line is my favorite thing ever

45   Riley needs to take 38567918374 chill pills

46   MAYA IS SUCH A LOYAL FRIEND NO ONE DESERVES A CINNAMON ROLL LIKE HER

47   Tbh that would hurt my vocal chords

48   She looks so upset

49   Ok a gif of everyone raising their hands is gonna be all over the internet sooner or later

50   Whoa farkle questioning riley’s faith, this shit is real

51   When even maya questions why she’s in a triangle with riley

52   I am w zay and lucas and every1 else on this one

53   But ok I just wanna be a friend like maya

54   Rilaya just cant get a moment

55   Ok riley just cant get a moment

56   ZAY

57   Ok lucas let zay have a moment pls

58   LUCAS what r u doing ur a mess

59   Every1’s gonna think u a player

60   W the two main side hoes

61   WHAT HAPPENED TO ZAYNESSA

62   Will I never not worship zay?

63   Theyre so damn tall

64   Hunny, riley, you didn’t actually even technically make middle school cheer, how do u expect to make high school cheer im sry

65   Yes science ok cool

66   Lucas is hopeless same

67   Smackle is such a qt

68   Cory is such a mess but no one cares

69   The answer is no he did NOT prepare u

70   I luv smackle ok like how is she so perf

71   LOOK AT MAYAS REACTION ok THIS MEANS SO MUCH

72   Farkle keeps looking at riley the RIARKLE has never been so real ok ok ok

73   Zay is not down w this shit

74   Who votes we all go back to texas?

75   Cue hand raising gif

76   Oh here it comes the moment we’ve all been waiting for

77   We will find out why lucas says riley is just too much for him

78   OK DAMN

79   RILEY

80   Wtf wtf

81   HUNNY NOOOOO

82   U did not just go there

83   Holy fuck

84   Ok maya is me I want every1 to calm down but also like whoa what just happened

85   Zay is me I am out all of the time

86   Smackle and farkle r turning on riley too damn it’s goin down

87   Maya is heartbroken bc of how they treated her very best friend

88   RILAYA is undeniable in this episode ok

89   Awwww ava im going to weep

90   Ok cory this is not abt u

91   Ava is slaying this her acting is so much better

92   Im screaming that was so cute

93   Corpanga man corpanga I love this

94   Maya is one person every1 should strive to be, ok?

95   Ok wow this is not realistic

96   Seniors don’t just care abt random freshmen

97   YES MAYA tell them how u feel

98   FARKLE is here! Yay

99   His voice damn it’s deep

100DID HE JUST SAY RILEY RUINED THE FIRST DAY OF HIGH SCHOOL

101Oh u take that back son

102This will not be allowed

103Yes maya preach

104Look at riley go

105“WHAT MATTERS IS US FARKLE” RIarkle af

106only riarkle could make an argument so fricken romantic I wanna cry im so happy with such a sad moment

107ok I hated riley but I love her

108pls kiss

109I just need this ok?

110FARKLE why didn’t u kiss her

111Aw im crying look at them as they see their friends just pass them by

112AHHH the transition they’re SO FREAKING CUTE

113Oh shit

114Im going to cry

115It’s maya holy crap im weeping

116I am in millions of tears

117It’s 1 am and I am a toad that is just shedding thousands of tears in my empty messy bedroom

118Ok but maya’s jeans r cute so that’s a plus

119RILAYA though oh my gosh

120Whoa

121I need part 2 STAT

122If this is what season 3 is gonna look like, im all in

anonymous asked:

Ho, your cosplays are so amazing *_____* I wish I could be like you c: How dou you meet other cosplayers? And isnt it very expensive to visit all these cons? Do you have any tipps for cosplay beginner in general? Im curious xoxox

I go through answering these individually like, all year long but maybe I can answer it all together and just link back to this post next time someone asks

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