if only i had an enemy bigger than my apathy

Darker Sentence Meme

“A cleaved head no longer plots.”
“A conversation of silence, lies left unspoken.”
“A dying man needs to die as a sleepy man needs to sleep.”
“A lot of truth is said in jest.”
“A lot of you cared. Just not enough.”
“Afraid to love you hide away.”
“Although I search myself it’s always someone else I see.”
“Although we are through, I’m longing for you.”
“Am I invisible? Am I soundless? Or am I just alone?”
“And they didn’t even put up a fight.”
“And they didn’t even put up a fight, they didn’t even make a sound.”
“Anxious, you laughed. Sad, you smiled.”
“Are you proud of who I am?”
”At least I’m being honest.”
”But I’ve got better things to do than let you walk all over me.”
“’Cause I’m not convinced I’m worth your time.”
”Can still remember the time you were here.”
”Can you see me? Can you hear me? Or am I not here?”
“Can’t believe what I did for love.”
”Can’t you forgive me? At least just temporarily.”
“Can’t you hear me calling? Can’t you see me falling? I’m lost without you here.”
“Constantly lying to myself just to get through the day.”
”Death has been crooning in my ear things I want to hear.”
“Don’t bother to cry, no one will hear you.”
“Don’t go where I can’t follow!”
“Don’t you try to fix what’s broken, no one else can take your place.”
“Ending it will just pass on the pain, I know, but I’m selfish enough to just want it gone.”
”Feel like a failure, ‘cause I know that I failed you.”
“Feel like a shadow walking behind who you think I am.”
”Give me one good reason to love you, for I can’t think of any.”
“Go ahead and leave me – I never needed you anyway!”
“Guess there’s a part of me that likes to bring you down just to keep you around.”
“Heartburn. Reminding me I fucked up.”
“How did I miss you when I didn’t know you?”
“How do you love someone without getting hurt?”
“How do you warn the people you love that you may not come back?”
“I am just so angry with myself.”
“I chose the easy way out.”
“I could be long gone. I could be a ghost in your eardrum.”
”I don’t care if you’ve got them on your mind, all I really care is if you wake up in my arms.”
”I don’t deserve it, I know.”
“I don’t hate you, I fear you.”
”I feel broken and hollow.”
”I got nothing here without you.”
“I just want to not be me.”
“I killed myself by leaving you.”
”I know I should’ve fought it.”
”I know I should’ve fought it, at least I’m being honest.”
”I know that this is my fault.”
”I know you wouldn’t even notice.”
”I made a mess of me.”
”I should’ve been more careful.”
”I still don’t miss you yet.”
”I swear, I’ll make it worth it.”
“I thought I could imagine how much it would hurt, but I was wrong.”
“I told you to leave me… Don’t.”
“I trusted you not to go.”
”I was a liar, I gave into the fire.”
“I wish I could remember.”
“I would have stayed up with you all night had I known how to save a life.”
“I would never die for you.”
“I’d like for it all to stop now. Please.”
”I’m a walking heartache.”
“I’m a work in progress and I’m not so sure I’ll like the end result.”
“I’m not enough for you.”
“I’m not fine as in fine, but fine as in you don’t have to worry about me.”
“I’m still alive but I’m barely breathing.”
”I’ve been a fool – a fool for you.”
“I’ve hurt myself by hurting you.”
“If you care to look around then you’ll see me going down.”
“If not for me then you’d be dead.”
“If only I had an enemy bigger than my apathy, I could’ve won.”
“It doesn’t do a damn thing to fix anything.”
“It’s a long way down, but here I am.”
“It’s just not meant to be.”
“Leave your mark on love before love leaves you.”
“Let me hang in peace.”
“Life’s greatest gift is the freedom it leaves you to step out of it whenever you choose.”
“Losing hope is the real disaster.”
“Love? Great? That’s bullshit, love hurts.”
“Memory is a curse more often than a blessing.”
”No more lies if you don’t wanna find me gone.”
“Now everything I see reminds me of all that is said and done.”
“Now you’re just somebody that I used to know.”
“Of all the things I’ve had and all the things I’ve lost I miss you the most.”
“On my own I’m only half of what I could be.”
”One last time I need to be the one to take you home.”
”One more time. I promise, after that I’ll let you go.”
“Our souls contain more scar tissue than life.”
“Pain is a pesky part of being human.”
“People are different – it’s not always a good thing.”
“Promising to stay you slowly walked away.”
”Return us to when you know how to love.”
”Said you’d change but I’m afraid it’s something I won’t live to see.”
“Save your time for someone deserving of it.”
“Silent tears invisible to the naked eye, but still they drown you.”
“So sick of believing the lies and trying to hide, covering the cuts and bruises.”
“Some days I feel broken inside.”
“Some people make me want to throw up.”
“Somebody tell me why I’m on my own if there’s a soulmate for everyone.”
“Soon I will be just another memory.”
“Stay with me a minute, I swear I’ll make it worth it.”
“Stop caring– I don’t deserve it.”
”Stories are all we’ll ever have.”
“Surrounded by pale people, think I’m fading too.”
“Tell me you love me, say you care. Lie straight to my face.”
“That constant judgement you can’t avoid.”
“The marks humans leave are too often scars.”
”The person I’ve been lately isn’t who I want to be.”
“The world is full enough of hurts and mischances without wars to multiply them.”
“There are some things you never really move on from.”
“There are wounds that never show on the body that are deeper and more hurtful than anything that bleeds.”
“There is no relationship in life beyond betrayal.”
“There’s more here than what we’re seeing.”
”These scars are reminders of just how much I can take.”
“They didn’t even make a sound.”
“They say bad things happens for a reason.”
”This morning I woke up hating us both.”
“Trying to save myself from choking, just wish that I could see your face.”
“Used to think you didn’t love me, now I know you don’t.”
“What am I still doing here?”
“What am I supposed to do when the best part of me was always you?”
”What I wouldn’t give for peace.”
”What, like it matters? Since when?”
“What is left without your love?”
“We cannot tear out a single page of our life, but we can throw the whole book in the fire.”
“We learn so little from peace.”
“We were great once. Where did that go?”
“What hope I have left flickers like a candle about to go out.”
“When you sleep, will it be with me?”
“Why am I still living this dark and hurtful life?”
“Why do I bother?”
“Why do I let you hurt me so?”
“Why do I love you?”
”You break your promises in two, what can I do?”
“You call it a simple mistake, but to me it’s not simple at all.”
“You deserved better.”
“You don’t care about me like I do you.”
“You leave me and I’ll leave you.”
“You remind me of things I’d rather forget.”
“You talk when you cease to be at peace with your thoughts.”
”You’ll always be love’s great martyr.”
“You’ve got an excuse. What’s mine?”
“Your life is worth more than mine.”
“Your pain is my happy ending.”

Mumford & Sons sentence starters
  • "I never meant you any harm."
  • "If only I had an enemy bigger than my apathy I could have won."
  • "You rip out all I had just to say that you've won."
  • "I gave you all."
  • "This is not the end."
  • "My heart was never pure."
  • "Love; it will not betray you, dismay or enslave you, it will set you free."
  • "Be more like the man you were made to be."
  • "You hold your truth so purely."
  • "I'm worried that I blew my only chance."
  • "Steal a kiss and you'll break your heart."
  • "Lead me home."
  • "My heart was colder when you'd gone."
  • "I lost my head, but found the one that I love."
  • "Let's live while we are young."
  • "I don't even know if I believe everything you're trying to say to me."
  • "This is never gonna go our way if I'm gonna have to guess what's on your mind."
  • "Say something, something like you love me."
  • "I will wait for you."
  • "Well, you forgave and I won't forget."
  • "Now I'll be bold as well as strong and use my head alongside my heart."
  • "Spare me your judgements and spare me your dreams."
  • "It's getting dark, darling, too dark to see."
  • "Just give me a second, darling, to clear my head."
  • "You have blood on your hands and I know it's mine."
  • "I just need more time."
  • "Let's kiss like we used to."
  • "I've got unfinished business."
  • "My head told my heart "let love grow", but my heart told my head "this time no.""
  • "Were we too young?"
  • "Do you ever think of me in the quiet, in the crowd?"
  • "I was desperate, I was weak, I could not put up a fight."
  • "You said no one would ever know the love that we had shared."
  • "As I took my leave to go, it was clear you didn't care."
  • "Well I guess I'll just go home."
  • "I struggle to find any truth in your lies."
  • "Lend me your hand and we'll conquer them all."
  • "You are not alone in this."
  • "As brothers we will stand and we'll hold your hand."
  • "You'll never be what is in your heart."
  • "You're not as brave as you were at the start."
  • "Take all the courage you have left and waste it on fixing all the problems that you made in your own head."
  • "But it was not your fault but mine, and it was your heart on the line."
  • "I really fucked it up this time. Didn't I, my dear?"
  • "Darkness is a harsh term don't you think?"
  • "It seems that all my bridges have been burnt."
  • "But you, you've gone too far this time."
  • "Can you lie next to her and give her your heart, as well as your body?"
  • "Tell me now, where was my fault in loving you with my whole heart?"
  • "You desired my attention but denied my affections."
  • "It's empty in the valley of your heart."
Tag Game!

Rules: Using only song titles from one artist, cleverly answer these 10 questions. Tag any number of people at the end!

I was tagged by @chriscalledmesweetie thank you!!

Artist: Mumford and Sons
Gender: Human
Describe yourself: I came through thunder, the cold wind, the rain, the snow
How do you feel: I gave you all and you rip it from my hand and you swear its all gone, and you rip out all I had just to say you had won
If you could go anywhere, where would it be: London
Your best friend: Friend of the devil (@yiuve :D)
Favorite time of day:  Night has always pushed up day
If your life was a TV show, what would it be called: This time no
What is life to you: Wide-eyed with a heart made full of fright
Relationship status:  Tell me not of heartbreak, it plagues my soul
Your fear: If only I had an enemy bigger than my apathy i couldve won

I really don’t want to tag anyone, but I’m gonna go ahead and say @hauntedpossessedstuff @writerdan and @jizzlock should do this :D i dont wanna bother anyone, so im just tagging you three.

I Gave You All
Mumford & Sons
I Gave You All

Speaking of ferriswheelshipping… (or isshushipping or whatever it’s called. Whichever you prefer), I have a terrible terrible urge to make an angsty and heartbreaking AMV using this song featuring N and (probably) White. How lost N feels when he loses against her. How everything he worked for and lived for was shattered. I can already feel the tears coming TT.TT TT.TT TT.TT

Edit: What I meant by the above comment is that this idea would work for both WhiteXN AND BlackXN. Because the protagonist can be either male or female, this idea of mine works for both ferriswheelshipping AND isshushipping (am I spelling that right? XD) Which is why it is in both tags. Because this idea can be taken from both point of views, it is in both tags because input from shippers of both would be highly appreciated on whether or not you think this song would fit with N and the Protagonist’s (male or female) point of view. However, I my idea features only the female protagonist at this point because I played the game as a girl, so I relate to it better. I’m on the line on whether or not I want to include both protagonists. So I will be keeping this in the isshushipping (sp?) tag, because it DOES pertain to it. Thank you! (It is also why I put it in the monochromeshipping tag.)

Lyrics (particularly choice lines are bolded)

Rip the earth in two with your mind
And seal the urge which ensues with brass wires
I never meant you any harm
But your tears feel warm as they fall on my forearms

But close my eyes for a while
And force from the world a patient smile

And how can you say that your truth is better than ours?
Shoulder to shoulder, now brother, we carry no arms
And the blind man sleeps in the doorway his home
If only I had an enemy bigger than my apathy I could have won

But I gave you all
I gave you all
I gave you all

Close my eyes for a while
And force from the world a patient smile

But I gave you all
I gave you all
I gave you all

And you rip it from my hands
And you swear it’s all gone
And you rip out all I had
Just to say that you’ve won

And you rip it from my hands
And you swear it’s all gone
And you rip out all I had
Just to say that you’ve won, you’ve won
Well, now you’ve won

But I gave you all
I gave you all
I gave you all

sentence prompts ➝ mumford & sons
  • ❝A brush with the devil can clear your mind.❞
  • ❝And I will change my ways.❞
  • ❝But I gave you all.❞
  • ❝But i’d be yours, if you’d be mine.❞
  • ❝But it was not your fault but mine.❞
  • ❝But you saw no fault, no cracks in my heart.❞
  • ❝Can you lie next to her and give her your heart?❞
  • ❝Close my eyes to my recent disgrace.❞
  • ❝Confess your love.❞
  • ❝Darkness is a harsh term, don’t you think?❞
  • ❝Death is at your doorstep and it will steal your innocence.❞
  • ❝Don’t hold a glass over a flame.❞
  • ❝Don’t test the ones you love.❞
  • ❝Forget all of my sins or let me die where I lie.❞
  • ❝How fickle my heart.❞
  • ❝I begged you to hear me.❞
  • ❝I can tell, you will always be danger.❞
  • ❝I know the shame in your defeat.❞
  • ❝I know you have felt much more love than you’ve shown.❞
  • ❝I never meant you any harm.❞
  • ❝If only I had an enemy bigger than my apathy.❞
  • ❝I’ll find strength in pain.❞
  • ❝I’ll never be your chosen one.❞
  • ❝I’ll never wear your broken crown.❞
  • ❝I’m worried that I blew my only chance.❞
  • ❝I must live with my quiet rage.❞
  • ❝I need to know how to live my life as it’s meant to be.❞
  • ❝In these bodies we will live, in these bodies we will die.❞
  • ❝I really fucked it up this time. Didn’t I, my dear?❞
  • ❝I saw you dance in the devils arms.❞
  • ❝I struggle to find the truth in your lies.❞
  • ❝It’s getting dark darling, too dark to see.❞
  • ❝I will not hear what you have to say.❞
  • ❝I will not speak of your sin.❞
  • ❝I won’t let you choke on the noose around your neck.❞
  • ❝Just promise me we’ll be alright.❞
  • ❝Lead me to the truth and I will follow you with my whole life.❞
  • ❝Lend me your hand and we’ll conquer them all.❞
  • ❝Lend me your heart and I’ll let you fall.❞
  • ❝Let the dead bury the dead.❞
  • ❝Love will not break your heart, but dismiss your fears.❞
  • ❝My heart was colder when you’d gone.❞
  • ❝Now I cling to what I knew.❞
  • ❝Now my heart stumbles on things I don’t know.❞
  • ❝Oh my heart, was flawed I knew my weakness.❞
  • ❝Spare me your judgements.❞
  • ❝Tell me now, where was my fault. In loving you with my whole heart.❞
  • ❝The ghosts that we knew will flicker from view.❞
  • ❝There’ll be no value in strength of the walls that I have grown.❞
  • ❝We’ll live a long life.❞
  • ❝Why do we always seek absolution?❞
  • ❝You desired my attention but denied my affections.❞
  • ❝You rip out all I had just to say that you’ve won.❞
  • ❝You’ll never be what is in your heart.❞
  • ❝You take what is yours and I’ll take mine.❞
  • ❝You’re not as brave as you were at the start.❞
  • ❝You were made to meet your maker.❞
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