if only i could have my way with you

decisions (pt. 2)

summary; shawn and y/n see each other after weeks and months of missed phone calls and unanswered texts, but when they finally find a time to talk, hearts only continue to get broken.



It had felt like a stab in the back, but you couldn’t seem to pull the knife out. Shawn had chosen his girlfriend over you, and you couldn’t deny the obvious: you felt betrayed. You so badly wanted all of this to be a nightmare and to run into the arms of your bestfriend, but you knew that was no longer an option. 

The past three days have had you consumed with trying to get a hold of Shawn, begging for him to hear you out. Your heart told you to leave him be and to hate Shawn, but you couldn’t even will a finger to do so. The six going on seven year friendship between you and Shawn was too valuable to give up without a fight, but it was hard fighting a battle single-handedly. You might’ve been mad at the moment, but as much as you hated to admit it, you couldn’t ever get yourself to fully hate Shawn.

Luckily for you, Ian, Geoff, and Matt had been over at your house trying to comfort you since the night that everything blew over. You were initially surprised how they sided with you knowing how close they were to Shawn, but you were grateful for their support nonetheless. They’d check up on you, bring you food, and gave you the company that your heart so badly needed. The three were like the older brothers you never had.

“Seriously, thank you guys so much for doing all of this,” You gestured to all of the snacks, drinks, and games they brought over to you face.

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Jimin’s runaway daughter pt.2

Jimin’s DaughterAU!

Genre: Angst

[pt.1] [pt.2]

Warning: Sensitive Content (mentions of abuse; read at own risk)

Originally posted by ohparkjimin

Dad arrived in no time and came over to me, a me that was still sat on the swing not wanting to move. I didn’t want to go home. Now that I’ve told him all that has happened, I know he would have relayed the message to my mother as well. He sat on the swing next to mine and stayed silent for a little while.

“Are you ready to go home now? It’s really late and you should really be going to sleep. Your mother is at home crying her eyes out because of you.” I scoffed to myself at his words. Crying because of me? Clearly not because I ran away, that’s for sure probably because I’m coming home instead.

“You’re rich dad, can’t you just buy me my own place? I don’t want to live with her.”

“I’m not buying you your own place to live alone at when you’re only twelve Y/N.”

“But I’m mature for my age!”

“Oh really? You ran away from home and you call that mature?” He laughed as he looked at me.

“I was getting myself out of a bad environment, which is beneficial for my own physical and mental health, I’ll have you know.”

“Answer’s no, you’re not legally allowed to anyway.”

“So you’re saying that if I was legally allowed to, you’d buy me my own place?”

“No little one, you’re my child and I will not allow you to move out so soon.”

“I’m not a baby dad!”

“But in my eyes, you’ll always a be my little baby. Because I’m your dad and it’s just how this all works.” I gave him a side glare as he laughed at my facial expressions.

“Let’s go home, it’s getting cold.” He stood up and and walked over to me, gently stroking the top of my head as I stood up.

“Remember to apologise to your mum when you get back alright?”

“But why? I’m not the one who’s in the wrong.” I protested and stood my ground.

“You called her a bitch Y/N, you should never use that kind of language towards her.”

“I didn’t say it to her face, I said it to you.”

“And she knows about it.”

“Well thanks dad, for dragging me to hell and leaving me there. God knows what she’ll do to me now because you told her.” I rolled my eyes, I knew what my future looked like now, and it wasn’t so pretty, but I couldn’t bring myself to be serious about it, to cope with all this - I could only make jokes. If I didn’t, I wouldn’t even be here anymore.

Getting home didn’t take very long, I wish it would have taken us a year or so, but in reality it only took ten minutes. As I strutted through into my home with my dad walking beside me I saw my mother run towards me, pulling me into a bone crushing hug. People usually feel warmth from these hugs, but this was quite the opposite. When people hug you this way, it’s not actually supposed to hurt. But this? I really feel as though she was trying to squeeze all the air out of me, deliberately. I looked over at dad again and his eyes widened and eyebrows raised, clearly indicating for me to apologise to this woman I had clinging onto me.

“I’m sorry mum, for calling you a bitch.”

“No baby it’s my fault, I’m sorry I made you mad at me. I was so scared when you left, I thought I weren’t ever going to see you again.” Her sobs were fake, I wondered how dad was actually falling for this bullshit. But as he walked away after smiling at the two of us, the she devil whispered something into my ear.

“You know you’re going to be punished for this right? If you were going to run away, you should have left quietly. Why are you even back, or is it because you miss the idea of me beating you that you came running home? Calling me a bitch too? That’s rich, love.” I can’t lie and say that I wasn’t afraid, because I was. I was more than afraid but there was absolutely nothing I could do about it.

Nobody would believe that the woman who raised me the last twelve years would do me such harm. Nobody would believe it because she was always fake in the public eye. I would have done anything I could to expose her lying ass to world but I couldn’t. I couldn’t because that would wreck my dad’s image, not only that but he loves her and she loves him too. I see how happy they make each other and even sometimes I feel as though I don’t fit in the picture. My parents have always been so hopelessly in love with one another, they started dating at sixteen and they’ve been together ever since.

No matter how much I don’t like my mum because of the way she treats me I’m thankful, I can still see her eyes light up when dad walks into the room and I still see his eyes light up whenever she enters. It’s like she falls in love with him all over again just like he falls for her as if it was the first time, and honestly that really makes living here worthwhile. Because I know he’s receiving all the love he deserves, even if she doesn’t love me. It wasn’t always like this though. Mum used to care about me, up until I was nine - something changed. I don’t know what it was and I don’t think I’ll ever find out but even through it all, I know I do still love her - I mean she is my mum so how could I not, and really, I just want her to love me again.



Hello everyone, I want to say to you all is that I value your opinions of me. I take all the words you say by heart to improve myself as a person and an artist. However, I’ve been having issues with this person on both accounts on Tumblr and Discord. Where I wished it weren’t the case, but unfortunately it is. I had to block this person from both accounts because it was an endless cycle of negativity that was affecting me in such a terrible way. I want to to explain to you all that I tried to help, gave them the best advice I could give. However, there is only so much I can do as a 16 year old. I even tried to have my Mom help, since there’s things that they said I didn’t know how respond too, I offered them to talk to her and it was fruitless. The most important thing I want to say is that I hope you all understand is if this person tries to say bad things about me, please just tell them that you don’t want to hear it or get involved. It saddens me so much that this person has caused so much drama that I had to block them forever, but it had to be done… Another thing is that I want to say is that I’m taking a break from both Tumblr and Discord for two weeks, plus this very weekend. I just want things to settle down before I come back posting art, which leaves to the art challenge… @stressaurus, @eliana55226838, and @idolaelyartist I’m so sorry I won’t be participating in the art challenge with you, a lot things have happened and I need to take a break. I’ll come back in two weeks with more art and to see you all again! I love you all so much and thank you all for your endless support, goodbye everyone. See you all very soon!  

anonymous asked:

So I'm bi and my only possibility to get with a girl is getting one on board with a threesome. I'm glad my bf allows this but finding a third is easier said than done when you're shy and introverted :/ maybe I'm way too desperate and way too invested in this dream but I think its about time something gay happened in my life 😂 I wonder if my approach is wrong or I'm just not good enough at talking to single girls.. I could use some tips tbh 😳

Breh I have no idea what to say about this. “Allows” is always a red flag word. Like if you want to stay with your boyfriend but also want to be with women that’s a conversation that needs to be had. If you’d rather be dating a woman altogether then you should break up. If you want to be with a woman or have that kind of relationship for the long term a threesome isn’t the way to go.

dragonangel-funandfire  asked:

Hey, I just found the 65 questions you aren't used to, and I wanted number 63 for you and for the Lazybones, please.

Well originally this was just an ask meme for me for anyone who wanted to get to know me a bit, but I’ll gladly do my best to answer it for those lazybones too!

As for my answer? Dragons all the way.

63. Which is cooler: dinosaurs or dragons?

Undertale!Sans aka Snas

Dinosaurs. I mean, they were real. Dragons weren’t. And there’s so many different kinds of dinosaurs! How many types of dragons do YOU know about? There’s only like, three, last he checked.

Underfell!Sans aka Red

Dragons. They’re feared badasses. AND they breathe fire. AND they can fly! Not many dinosaurs could fly. Hell, hardly any of them had arms long enough to do anything!

Underswap!Papyrus aka Stretch

Eh, he’s not picky. Both have their perks, their pros and cons. He leans a bit more towards dinosaurs though, but really only because of the Jurassic Park movies. 

Fellswap!Papyrus aka Mutt

Dinosaurs. Specifically the modern feathered dinosaur ideology that’s been spreading around, not the bare-skinned scaly reptile ones. They just look more aesthetically appealing to him. He really likes feathered raptors especially.

Swapfell!Papyrus aka Rus

He likes both, like Stretch. However, he likes dragons just a bit more. Yeah, dinosaurs are cool and all, but man, the word dragon just sounds cooler. Plus, dragon tattoos are awesome.

anonymous asked:

Hey mama, I'm feeling kinda bummed out 😔. I told my mum I'm a lesbian but she doesn't believe me- she still thinks I'm attracted to men so has convinced herself that I'm bi. She won't use the word lesbian either- she only uses the word "gay", and after a long hesitation. I'd never confront her about it though.

I’m sorry, sugar ☹️ you don’t have to confront her, but you could always just correct her when she says those sort of things so that way she gets the hint that you’re serious!

appolojustice  asked:

Honestly it's so cool of you to promo everyone's DA fanfics, I don't have any to toss your way at the moment but I still wanted to pop in and thank you for doing something so nice for the community <3

bless you, i really hope it’s actually helpful! there’s only so much i can do if ppl still dont reblog those posts lmfao. it’d just be great if we could all decide as a community like, let’s appreciate and support content creators, esp those who are undervalued in fandom & on tumblr. there’s a lot of great writers out there who get ignored & disheartened, & even from a purely mercenary point of view that means the fandom misses out on potential new fic that person would be writing if they felt more encouraged

so like. lets take responsibility to help change that? yall in?

anonymous asked:

Do you ever have this idea that you so badly want to share with the world but you can't because all you got is like 400 words? Aghhh!!! Wish I could share it with someone other than myself and my dog :C

Ever? LOL, try all the time.  I wish I could just download my brain.  I can see the whole story.  Just getting the words on the page is excruciating sometimes.  All I can say is keep at it.  It is the only way it happens.  Yes, it is a bit like sausage-making, but in the end, it is worth it when you finally finish and there is a new story born into the world. 


An afternoon date~

and a bonus


I think I can deal with it, but I kept going through it. Until one day only a few years ago, I thought I cannot deal with it. This is holding me back in life. This is not how I’m supposed to be and I want to overcome it. So I looked back at my life, at the things that may have made me this way that I could change the baggage that I was holding on to and said, “I don’t need you anymore!

It’s so important to know you should be happy and proud of who you are. (x)

as much as i hate admitting it to myself, i still do type your username on the search bar. i still remember your birthday and the way your blue eyes shine when you smile. i still wait for a someday where maybe we’ll cross paths again but deep down, i know someday doesn’t have a date. i still lay on the floor, listen to your song and feel my tears filter through the cracks of my broken heart. no one told me getting over someone would be so damn hard, if only you would’ve come with a warning sign…
—  i long for the day i won’t see you in my dreams anymore.

Realization that took me about 25 years: when Emperor Palpatine tells Luke “Strike me down with all your hatred, and your journey towards the Dark Side will be complete,” he’s not saying something deep about the nature of evil and the ease of turning into the bad guy.  He’s just making a last-ditch gambit to not get his ass lightsabered.  Luke’s kind of a sucker for falling for it.

Luke’s already decided violence is an acceptable tactic, based on the dozens of nameless troopers and pilots he’s blasted into subatomic particles, so why would the Emperor be any different?  Killing the Emperor isn’t going to make Luke a different kind of killer just because he killed someone with a visible face, and it’s certainly not going to make him start blowing up planets or torturing prisoners just for funsies.  Luke could have said “Strike you down? Don’t mind if I do,” done just that, and not only would the battle have ended the same way, his dad might have survived.

(And if Vader had survived, repented, and rejoined the Light Side, but retained his influence over the Imperial military, he could have saved everyone a whole lot of grief in the coming years.)

The point is, sometimes when your enemies say “You’re playing right into my hands!  The harder you oppose me, the more power I get!”, they’re actually just scared and full of bullshit.  Never forget to consider that possibility.

i thought i knew how to love. that is, until, i had the honor of loving you. you taught me how to truly love. you allowed me to actually love. to love with no care. to love endlessly without fear. fear of getting hurt. fear of loss. fear of not being loved back. in my past relationships i thought i loved. i thought i knew how to love. that is, until i had the honor of loving you. you came into my life after i thought i was done loving. you came to show me i hadn’t even been loving. you make me feel like i’m floating through space. you make me feel like time doesn’t exist. only you have made me feel like i’m alive. like i have air in my lungs and blood rushing through my veins. like i have bones in my body like i have love in my heart. you allow me to feel every single atom that is made up in my body. you’ve allowed me to experience feelings i’ve only heard of. only read of in books. if i had the chance, i would skip through all the chapters of heartbreaks and go straight to loving you. that way i could love you longer. love you harder. because ive wasted all this energy i could have been using to love you. i wasted all this energy “loving” when i thought i knew how to love. but god, i wasn’t loving. i was just feeling. and love is more than just a feeling. i know because you taught me that. when i had the honor of loving you.
—  arcadeamy 
Signs According To People I’ve Met


Usually very motivated and energetic, they have a really strong aura around them. I admire them a lot, they seem like cool people and may seem intimidating but are super nice in person! Protective of their loved ones. Goals in terms of swag and athleticism they got. Teach me how to carry myself like you please.


The cutest, most amazing (even if a bit stubborn) friends. Best partners for getting food or watching a movie together. Taurus boys are my cryptonite, Taurus girls are the loves of my life. They are very much real in a sense of being human. Sensual, chill and true, really “earthy”. Fake isn’t in their vocabulary. Seriously I know quite a few Tauruses and I love them all to death. Only problem is when we disagree on something major, neither will back down from the argument.

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“One of the new relationships that we were focusing on was between Kylo Ren and Rey.”

“And we’re back in the forest with the story we really care about, the focus of the story which is Rey and Ren.”

“The Last Jedi continues the epic story of Rey and Kylo Ren.”

“Rey and Kylo are almost two halves of our protagonist

“The fascinating thing about Kylo and Rey is that they’re two sides of something

two halves of the dark and the light.” 

“You’re probably going to have a castle, and aprince and a princess, if you’re looking at a fairy tale.”

“But in this scene she is drawn to this place, almost like Cinderella.”

“But when his mask comes off, you see Adam Driver, and he just looks like a sort of prince.” 

“She had seen this man before, in a daydream. In a nightmare.”

“She’d been haunted by a dream. Or a nightmare.”

“They’ve never met but he’s heard of this girl.”

What girl?!”

The girl I’ve heard so much about.”

“And so, now comes a moment when their meeting is inevitable.”

“Ren is looking right. She’s running left. So the two trains are going to colide.”

“And now, these two disparate pieces come together.”

“And this moment where she is about to, for the first time, be confronted by Kylo Ren, a character who she’s going to have a very interesting relationship with moving forward. “

She found herself inexorably drawn to—to… ‘You,’

“THEY’RE BOTH SURPRISED: they react to a feeling that passes

The girl… Rey. I know her. I sense her. She’s mine.”

“Not for the first time, he seemed to know more about her than she did about herself.”

“When I found you, I saw raw untamed power.”

“I’ve seen this raw strength only once before.”

“But because he’s taken her, you get a sense that there might be something else going on here.”

Something.” He sounded mystified. “There is something…Who are you?”

“And beyond that something truly special.”

Something inside me has always been there

“Close your eyes. Feel it. The Light. It has always been there. It will guide you “

“Forgive me. I feel it again. The pull to the light

“Come, Kylo Ren, and feel the light of Rey.”

Don’t be afraid. I feel it too.”

“You’re afraid. That you will never be as strong as—Darth Vader!”

“You’re so lonely. So afraid to leave. At night, desperate to sleep, you imagine na ocean.”

“Be not afraid, I feel the strange connection ‘twixt us, too.”

“Landing on Takodana, Kylo confronted the young woman who’d escaped from Jakku with BB-8 – and found himself puzzled by a strange connection he felt with her.”

“A mysterious connection seemed to link the two”

“with whom she shared a strange connection

“There’s been an awakening, have you felt it?”  “Yes”

“but now it’s awake and I need help.”

You need a teacher!”

I need someone to show me my place in all this.”

I can show you the ways of the force!”

“Whomever you’re waiting for on Jakku, they’re never coming back

Let the past die, kill it if you have to. It’s the only way to become what you’re meant to be.”

But… there’s someone who still could. With your help”

I’ll come back, sweetheart. I promise.”

The belong you seek is not behind you. It is ahead.”

“You have compassion for her.”

He sensed his destiny and Rey’s were somehow intertwined, but how?”

It is you

It’s Ben!”

She is where she needs to be

“I see the island.”

“It’s just us now”

“And together we can rule the galaxy”

some total stranger whom i do not care about here on tumblr dot net: hmm you say youre bisexual but all you blog about is girls hmm

me: hey carol mind ur damn business

me internally: hmm maybe thats because i constantly feel like im a straight girl faking and so it helps to have a place to put my gay thoughts™ and find people who relate so i can validate myself and feel like my feelings are normal or maybe this is my only safe space to talk about gay shit and it feels good to be in a community of wlw who are positive and uplift girls in a society that is constantly putting us down in favour of men or maybe its the fact that despite the good things about the lgbt community on here it is still rife with biphobia and frankly people only really want to hear about your experiences when it relates to your same gender attraction and even though your gay friends assure you that they accept ur bisexuality there is always a niggling insecurity that makes you feel “not gay enough” and makes you very conscious of how you present yourself online, or perhaps i just have a preference for girls which doesnt mean im actually just a confused lesbian, or it could be that my sexuality is a relatively new discovery to me as ive had years of exploring my attraction to men and right now im having fun being open online about my love for women or maybe just maybe the way men in our society are conditioned to treat women is fucking terrifying and the fact that their disgusting behaviour towards us is not only accepted and normalised but also encouraged leaves me with a general dislike and a lack of enthusiasm towards the male population as a whole despite my attraction to them or maybe im just fucking gay idk

Imagine Bill talking about how nervous he was during your first meeting and letting it slip he has a crush on you during an interview.

Originally posted by karlmordo

“So I- I didn’t ask you at first and don’t think anybody has let it go-” Jimmy said with a chuckle and Bill grinned to himself, nodding his head “But uh you said you met (Y/n) almost eight years ago? That’s- that’s a very long time you know.”

“Uh yeah” Bill rubbed the back of his neck a little nervously “My father had uhm he had invited me actually on set, to bemore specific, and I could never miss a chance like that. And- and that’s where I met her.”

“Hmh” Jimmy nodded his head “On the- on the set of Thor, right? Her character, and her as a person, has many fans that love her and is quite famous and so are you. Yet nobody has noticed a thing for all this time, it’s quite remarkable how you kept so low you know?”

“Oh uh” he chuckled “Well, it wasn’t that easy I will tell you. But we uhm had a friendship that we really wanted to last and for us to enjoy it we- we made the decision to be as subtle about it as possible. Our families knew of course, and so did our- our friends but uhm-” he cleared his throat, trying not to get off topic and let something slip of the two of you being more than just friends “It was all sort of- sort of us… living the moment every time, trying to make it just about… us?” he tried to explain with hand motions, hoping it didn’t come out so much as it being more than a friendship.

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((OOC: Okay, so I filmed this ages ago coughlastnovembercough but I never really finished what I had in mind for it, but also thought it was a shame to go to waste. So here is a minimalistic version of the scene from Harry Potter and the Half-Blood Prince, chapter 22 - “After the Burial”. sorry ‘but dark gifs))

In Hagrids hut around his enormous table sits three shadows. The biggest of them is heavy asleep with his giant head against the wall, snoring loudly. Across from the young boy with the round glasses sits an elderly Hogwarts teacher who finally pulled himself together and asked questions, which have tormented him for so many years.

“I don’t—don’t suppose you remember it, Harry?” he asked awkwardly.

“No—well, I was only one when they died,” said Harry, his eyes on the flame of the candle flickering in Hagrid’s heavy snores. 

“But I’ve found out pretty much what happened since. My dad died first. Did you know that?” 

“I—I didn’t,” said Slughorn in a hushed voice. 

“Yeah… Voldemort murdered him and then stepped over his body toward my mum,” said Harry. 

Slughorn gave a great shudder, but he did not seem able to tear his horrified gaze away from Harry’s face. 

“He told her to get out of the way,” said Harry remorselessly. 

 “He told me she needn’t have died. He only wanted me. She could have run.” 

“Oh dear,” breathed Slughorn. “She could have… she needn’t… That’s awful…” 

“It is, isn’t it?” said Harry, in a voice barely more than a whisper. 

“But she didn’t move. Dad was already dead, but she didn’t want me to go too. She tried to plead with Voldemort… but he just laughed…” 

“That’s enough!” said Slughorn suddenly, raising a shaking hand”


Voldemort played by the grossly talented @sirussly

Happy Friday the 13th!

Evil Yours, Now Evil Mine // Kai Anderson

Originally posted by gabbiesworld

A/N: I’m selfishly relieved to be writing Kai again. I feel like I write him better than the rest of Evan’s characters. So! This is based off a request where someone wanted Kai to meet a girl whose only fear was her own mind. I also had countless requests for rough Kai.

Side note: This fic is my absolute pride and joy.

This is specifically for my homegurl @fragilelikeabomb0106 <3 And myself. Because I’m a Kai whore.

Warnings: SMUTSMUTSMUTSMUTSMUT! And language.

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